Date: Wed, 29 Aug 2012 16:00:56 +0100
From: James Edwards <bdboyuk18@gmail.com>
Subject: complete submission, part 2

Complete Submission, part 2
A continuation of my descent into slavery via blackmail.

After publishing my first report on my current situation I received many
positive comments from readers who wanted to know more. I mentioned this to
my impending Master and he ordered me to contact each of the responders and
ask for suggestions as to what should happen next. I hoped he would simply
ask me to continue writing in a more fictional way, using some of the
suggestions offered, however I now know that he is using these suggestions
to further increase my slavery to him. He has ordered me to write about
this and to ensure people are aware of his ownership of me.

Many of the people who responded were sceptical that I was really being
blackmailed into slavery, however once I explained that it was a fact, they
were only too willing to offer suggestions to my Master. One reader, a gay
male sub, suggested I sign the contract in a ceremony which would be
recorded to provide yet another piece of blackmail material. Many others
suggested I should be collared, and my owner has decided these will both
happen. When I report to him at a date yet to be agreed, I will be forced
to sign the contract during a special ceremony and will then be collared
with a chain and padlock which I will wear permanently for the next 12
months. All of this will be recorded and I will then have to create a
secure website for the video to be hosted. He will control access to this
site, however he has warned me that if I misbehave he will have the ability
to send a link to the site to anyone he chooses. To this end, he has
demanded the email addresses of those people whose phone numbers I
previously gave him. I explained that my father does not have an email
address, being in his 70s and not exactly tech savvy, however I have now
provided him with the email address of my boss and co-worker, neither of
whom are aware of my particular desires. The idea of him sending a video of
me willingly submitting to him to either of these people fills me with
dread.

I have already provided too much information to be able to argue about
anything, however I am pleased that he has made some allowances for my
current life, at least for now. At the contract-signing ceremony my laptop
will have parental controls installed such as K9, meaning he will have
complete control over what sites I have access to. I have provided him with
details of the sites I use, and he has already taken control of my gaydar
account. I have also provided him with all of my email addresses. I was
also to have my internet time limited, however after begging him he has
accepted that this would interfere drastically with my work and has
therefore agreed not to pursue this, for which I am grateful. It is enough
that I will not be able to access certain sites! Of course, I do not know
which sites he will block, but I can assume he means to stop me using
fetish and porn sites for the foreseeable future, an idea which I am not
happy about but obviously cannot change.

I am also currently being tracked by GPS via my mobile phone, so my owner
knows my position at all times. This is quite an interesting concept for
me, and one I have previously experienced, however as I imagine I am to be
controlled more closely than I have previously, this makes me very nervous
and a little scared. The idea that he will know where I am at all times,
and may give some order or demand which would be difficult in certain
locations, is petrifying! However, as I intend to be nothing but honest
with my owner in order to try and make things as easy on me as possible,
this should not be too much of an inconvenience and something I hope to
deal with easily.

Once again, I find myself writing this report with a variety of mixed
feelings. I am anxious and nervous, very scared about wearing a collar in
front of family and friends, and terrified that he will reveal images or
videos to those closest to me. I have very few positive feelings currently,
although I am trying very hard to convince myself this is what I want. I
realise that if I can accept my position and his authority, things will go
much smoother for me. I am sure that, once the contract is signed and I am
fully owned, I will be able to relax a little, knowing that I will only
have 365 days until I am free. I imagine I will be counting those days down
with some excitement! I wonder though, if I come to accept my position more
fully, will I want to be released at the end of the contract? One of those
who responded to my last post suggested I should remove the time frame of
12 months from the contract, or that my owner should remove it, and simply
accept my slavery to this (or another man of his choosing) as a permanent
state of mind. At the moment, I am not ready for that kind of commitment;
however that may be because I have no previous experience to go on. Perhaps
once the contract is signed and I can settle into my role of owned
property, I will not want to go back to my previous life. This is an
interesting concept for me and one which I will no doubt spend some time
considering.

Of course, I received some outrageous ideas from my readers too. I am not
convinced that selling or destroying all of my property is quite
acceptable, even in this situation. Also, being forced to wear particular
items of clothing or footwear every day would not be possible. I still have
to maintain my personal and professional life as much as possible, as
agreed in the contract, and so whilst I may be required to dispose of some
items, I am fairly sure my owner would not order me to do something drastic
with all of my clothing, footwear, property, etc. Another idea suggested
was that I gradually remove myself from all contact with friends and
family. Due to my living with my parents this would be impossible, however
I understand the concept and could see how it might work were I living on
my own. I am pretty sure my owner is not looking for a 24/7 live-in slave,
therefore I still need to maintain my social and professional commitments
while making sure I am available for his use when needed. I am hoping my
owner agrees with this! As he is able to monitor my movements I am sure
this will be acceptable to him.

One of the other suggestions received was for my owner to shave my head and
body fully. Now I can understand why this may be attractive for some,
however I believe it is something which should remain firmly in the world
of fantasy. Firstly, as discussed above, I do need to maintain a certain
image in public, and secondly, have you ever tried to shave your own arse?!
It is impossible to do without causing serious injury. I am fairly hairy on
my legs, groin and arse, and although I would be willing to keep my
genitals shaved, I would have great difficulty maintaining this smoothness
on my legs and arse. Also, why would anyone want to shave a slave's arms?!
It is just a bizarre concept and, while I am grateful for other comments
received, I think it is entirely impractical. Another of those suggestions
received which I believe would not work in real life is the idea of locking
a chastity device on for the duration of the contract. Again, I have worn a
chastity device for short periods as punishment, however going from not
wearing one for several months to wearing one every day for a year would be
impossible and potentially dangerous. My owner has agreed that chastity may
be imposed as a punishment however it appears he has no further interest in
this aspect, for which I am very grateful. As always, this may change and I
should be prepared to accept his decision on this, but I am hoping he will
stick with his original agreement on this.

Something which was raised in a few emails was the possibility of me being
marked as property somehow. Mostly the suggestion was that I be tattooed
somewhere discreet, although some went a little further and suggested I
should be pierced in my nose, tongue, nipples and balls and have several
distinguishing tattoos applied. While I am not overly keen on the idea of
more piercings (I had my PA done a couple of years ago and am not good with
needles) I can see the attraction of an owner's mark on my body. Of course,
I have to be aware that this is just for one year and a tattoo will
basically be with me for life, but I would certainly discuss this with my
owner if he wished. One possibility would be to have my slave registration
barcode tattooed somewhere that it wouldn't be seen unless I was naked, but
again, I have to consider whether I would want it for the rest of my
life. What happens if, in the future, I decide to switch roles? It would be
unseemly for a Master to have a slave barcode anywhere on his body. This
will of course be a decision for my owner, but I would hope he would at
least discuss it with me first!

So, finally, I am preparing for the inevitably humiliating experience of my
slave contract signing ceremony. I have asked if this will take place in
private, but my owner says he will make all the decisions for regarding
this himself. The idea of being forced to submit in public is terrifying
for me! In my mind I am imagining all sorts of eventualities for this
event. Perhaps I am brought to a club or bar, stripped in front of the
clientele and presented with the contract to agree and sign. Perhaps I
would be forced to my knees with my hands bound behind me to be collared
and made to thank my owner as the padlock is snapped shut. Perhaps my owner
would demand that I provide sexual services to those men watching, or maybe
he would immediately start the bidding for my sale by auction. I would have
no way to refuse any order, and everything would be documented on video and
used as blackmail material to maintain my position of slavery to him. I can
feel the humiliation of these and many more possibilities, but although
these ideas scare me, I am also incredibly aroused. Perhaps I will be ok if
I can find my sub-space and accept his ownership without a fight. It is not
like me to submit easily, but as I don't have a choice maybe it will be
easier to accept? I think I may have a little while to wait until I find
out for sure, as he will not tell me when we are to meet and finalise the
contract. I can only hope he will be a kind and gentle owner, understanding
and nurturing rather than cold and distant. I would prefer to be able to
love my owner rather than hate and fear him, but until we begin I can only
speculate on these feelings. Part of me wants to rush headlong into this,
but another part, the more sensible and analytical part of me, is screaming
that I am making a huge mistake. I am trying very hard to ignore that
voice!