Date: Mon, 16 Feb 2015 17:21:40 +0000 (UTC)
From: Dale Gutzman <dale10gut@yahoo.com>
Subject: Confessions of a Submissive

     Kneeling naked in front of him, I looked up lovingly at his huge balls
and thick teenage dick dangling above me. I was not allowed to suck the
dick. Not yet! Not yet! Noah said I had to earn that. Imagine me, and adult
male of substantial means and considerable intelligence being told that by
a sixteen year old boy. I had to earn his dick! I had to earn the right to
lick and suck his dick!  And thus far, apparently, I had not earned the
right, because all I had been allowed to do was smell his dick and
occasionally kiss it. With his hands on his slender hips, he kind of thrust
his groin toward me, and the bib fat flaccid dick swung and bounced over my
face. It drove me nuts. I had to have it. I would do anything to have it!

         I was always naked for our little sessions. I was naked to show
that I was nothing but a cock crazy faggot, out of my mind for teenage
dick. And it was true. I had put the rest of my life on hold for this cocky
young jock stud. I didn't hang out with friends. I didn't watch tv or go to
films much. I rarely visited with my work associates. I spent most of my
time...all of my time trying to figure out how the fuck I could "EARN"
Noah's juicy thick dick. Noah told me that, as a fucking faggot, I should
be naked most of the time. So I walked around my house with a raging hard
on totally bare assed, simply because it somehow connected me to Noah.
Noah also told me I couldn't masturbate without his permission. Now, let me
be clear. Noah, this sixteen year old high school boy, had absolutely no
way of knowing whether when I was on my own, I jerked off or not! I mean
how could he? But the irony is, that I willingly followed his orders. I had
been told by the kid to play with my dick a lot and to think of him, but
not to ever cum without his permission. So, I had been fucking edging now
for weeks. My hefty dick bounced and leaked all over the place, as I spent
my days and nights thinking only about Noah, a teenage jock!

           Four days after starting edging, I had lost control and shot a
load. Because I wanted so to please this gorgeous kid, I told him. He was
furious with me. He threatened to never see me again, and I CRIED. Me. A
grown man. I cried and begged him to not desert me! Se settled on a
suitable punishment. He took a wooden spoon from my kitchen and beat my
testicles with it. He was not gentle or careful or considerate. My nuts
were so sore and swollen that for two days, I had to stay in bed and could
not go to work. Noah is not a kind boy in any way.  He sent me a dozen or
so photos of himself over the internet. In some he is partially clothed, in
others naked. He says they are for me to look at while I masturbate each
night for four or five hours. I am to play with my dick and look at the
photos and think of him...BUT I AM NOT ALLOWED TO CUM. And if I should lose
control and cum without permission again, would I tell Noah? Of course I
would! I would tell him, knowing that I would receive an even worse
punishment than last time. I would have no resistance not to tell the young
jock!

           Did I mention he is fucking my sister?  That's how I met him. My
sister is a sophomore in high school and she started dating and fucking
Noah a few months ago. You may be shocked to hear me say that a girl so
young is getting fucked, but so many teens fuck and suck nowadays, it's
hardly shocking. If a girl like Dena wants to have a hot stud of a
boyfriend like Noah, she has got to be willing to put out. That's just the
way it is. And to be honest with you, I go nuts when I think about my sweet
little sister taking Noah's huge meaty hunk of fuckmeat in her pussy and
ass and mouth. And believe me, Noah tells me in intricate detail about
their fuck sessions. He tells me that if I am good and "EARN IT," he will
some day allow me to lick my little sister's pussy juice off of his cock
after he fucks her. It's sick I know, but I get so hard thinking about
being able to serve him in this way.  By now you must realize that I will
do anything for Noah.

            So what kinds of things do I do for him, if I cannot suck or
lick his dick? Well, I'm a bit ashamed to tell you. I lick and kiss his
feet a lot. He had beautifully arched jock feet.  He let's me lick the
sweat off of them. And, this is not easy for me to write, I lick and eat
out his ass. That's right. When he visit's me, he lovers to sit right down
on my face and watch porno on the tv and play with his dick. And while he
jerk's his fuckmeat and tosses back a beer, I lick and suck his sweaty
teenage asshole. The first time he told me to do that, I almost refused. I
say almost, because I have no will-power with Noah. He is so fucking
handsome. And within minutes of my tongue being buried up his sweaty pink
pucker, I knew that this was where I belonged. This was my proper place in
life. I know you must be disgusted by me. I know you must think me a real
loser...that I would stoop this low for some high school jock. But honest
to God, I can't help it! I go out of my mind when he allows me to lick his
sweaty armpits. I sit on the floor, naked in front of him beating my meat
(without cumming) while he plays with his fat dick and lovingly describes
how he fucks the cunt of my little sister. I cry when I am alone at night
and think, "If only he would fuck me instead of Dena!"
             Sometimes, when I am eating out his ass, and he is watching
porno, he cums. He is upon occasion kind enough to shoot his fuckload onto
a plate, and then, if I have been a good little faggot, I am allowed to
lick his sperm off the plate. It is always thick and both salty and bitter
and has an amazingly thick consistency. I love Noah's fuckslop!  One time
as a gift, he brought me a rubber that he wore when he fucked Dena. He
usually never wears condoms when he fucks cunt...Noah believes it is the
girl's problem to protect herself. But with this particular fuck, he had
worn one and filled it with his fucksauce.  He did it just for me. Somehow
that made me feel really warm and wonderful. It's sick, I know.  He gave me
the cum filled, pussy coated condom and told me that as a gift, I would be
allowed to suck and lick the condom clean. And believe me, I savored it.

              But cute young Noah is something of a trickster. Or perhaps
you would say, a prankster. After I had thoroughly cleaned the condom with
my mouth and tongue, he told me that it wasn't from Dena and him at all. He
had found the dirty condom in a dumpster.  I puked, and he roared with
laughter. He thought it was the funniest thing he had ever seen. And I
guess maybe for him it was. A naked, grown businessman, on the floor puking
because he had just sucked clean some stranger's condom filled with his cum
and some unknown woman's cunt juice.  I puked until i shook with dry
heaves. Noah shook with laughter. As a reward for being a good sport, he
allowed me to kiss his dick. When I kiss his dick, it is a special event. I
try to kiss it as slowly and lovingly as possible, so I can remember the
smell and taste of his dick when I am alone.  I plant slow long kisses on
the wrinkled flaccid but still tremendously thick dick stalk. I kiss the
fat dickhead and piss hole as if I were kissing a lover's mouth. Sometimes,
but very rarely, he will allow me to kiss his erect dick. My God, it is the
most beautiful thing I have ever seen. Noah is slender, but quite
athletically built, and his erect fuckmeat is a thing of great beauty.  For
a sixteen year old, he has really well hanging balls, nice and loose in a
low hanging sack, and if I have earned it, he will sometimes let me lick
his testicles.

               And how do I earn these special treats I blush to tell you,
but since I have gone this far, I might as well continue. I earn the right
to serve Noah's body by humiliating and degrading myself for his pleasure.
For example, Noah will suddenly say that he is hungry, and we should to to
Mickey D's for some burgers. but he will make me dress in some little kid's
tee shirt that he got from someplace and some obscene pair of pink shorts.
He loves to take me out in public, dressed like some kind of crazed faggot
freak. Or, if I am allowed to wear my own clothes, he might tell me to take
my dick out of my pants as we sit at a table.  One time, he ordered me to
go into the men's room and piss in my soft drink cup. Then he watched while
I drank the piss, as I ate my burger. We went to the mall food court once
and bought Chinese food. He took me into the men's room and made me shove
the fried rice up my ass. Then had to keep it there until we got home, and
then shit it out and eat it. I know you are disgusted with me. But if you
could see Noah. If you could talk to him, you would understand his hold
over me. One time, he had me drive him to a truck stop on the highway, and
then he took me into the toilet and told me to strip. He took my clothes
and left me there, totally bareassed in the middle of nowhere! I curse him,
while my dick throbs with painful erection thinking about him.

                He does show me some kindness. He brings his dirty, filthy,
sweaty, stinking jock straps over for me to suck clean for him. I am
allowed to sleep with his jock strap in my mouth, sucking on it all
night. If I have been particularly good at sucking his ass, or licking his
feet or armpits, he might reward me by spitting in my mouth. I know he
kisses my little sister with that sexy mouth, and what I wouldn't give to
be kissed by Noah, but I think perhaps I have to settle for him gobbing
into my mouth.

                One of the most embarrassing things he does to me is when
he comes over with some of his jock buddies from his high school. Five or
six sexy horny teenage boys, and I have to serve them beer and dance naked
for them. I am not a dancer! Let's get that straight. I make a total fool
of myself. They yell for me to shake my worthless ass more and to make my
dick and balls jiggle when I dance. They make me masturbate without cumming
for them. The one reward in all of this humiliation is that I get to suck
Noah's friends' dicks. That is their reward for tormenting the fag, and my
reward as well. And I love the taste of those sweet smooth young teenage
fuckers. Noah will have me suck five six or seven of them. Eat their asses
too...which they love, since so many of their girlfriends won't suck ass!
But do I ever get to suck Noah's dick during these parties...NO WAY!

               I also have to cook meals for Noah and his buddies and serve
them to them naked. They throw me table scraps, and I have to eat them
naked off the floor like a dog.  They even take me outside and play fetch
with me, as I crawl across my backyard lawn retrieving whatever it is they
throw.

                Things have recently spiraled downward. Noah has started a
tumblr page for me all about my faggot obsession with teen boys. He has
posted dozens of photos of myself naked and playing with my dick. He thinks
it is hilarious, without realizing that I could easily lose my prestigious
high paying job. My career could be destroyed. My life totally ruined.  And
all because of my stupid obsession over a teenage jock who fucks my little
sister.

               How did this all come about?  I'm sure he could tell I was
hot for him the first time I met him, over at my parent's house. The truth
is, I couldn't take my eyes off of him.  And that is funny, because, while
I am gay, I am a very discreet, somewhat closeted gay. I had a few short
term relationships, but they never seemed to work out. Noah knew at once
that I was instantly taken with him. And who wouldn't be. Those sexy, pouty
lips, and those dreamy eyes...and the enormous dick lump in his pants.

               I went with Dena to watch Noah at a school swim meet. He is
a diver and fills a speedo like I have never seen in my life. After the
meet, he came out to greet us, still in his speedo. I threw an instant
erection, which I am certain Noah noticed. He began to look at me with that
flirting look that is quite blatant. While we chatted, he would reach down
and squeeze and rub his dick lump.  Poor Dena was so love with her
boyfriend, she never even noticed that he was enticing me. As we spoke, he
would reach out and squeeze my arm, or touch my shoulder. I really thought
I was going to shoot my load in my pants. I had to almost run from him to
keep my sanity.

             A few days later he simply showed up at my apartment. There he
stood at the door, in his tight jeans, a tighter tee shirt and a light
jacket. He told me Dena was busy with something, and he thought he would
come "hang" with me for a bit!  Yeah right! I had been working from home,
and I hadn't even shaved or showered or anything. He just took over my
apartment. Chatting about nothing at all, he tossed his jacket on a chair,
walked right into my kitchen and got himself a beer. When I reminded him
that he was underage, he just laughed and sucked on the lip of the beer
bottle. My dick was leaking like crazy almost immediately. He had me!
Before that first evening ended, he allowed me to crawl over to him and
kiss and smell the dick lump in his jeans. I never even saw his cock that
first night, but after he left, I was at once crazy with lonliness and
longing. Being a natural bastard, he stayed away for a week. I really
almost lost my mind. My co-workers became concerned for me. I could tell no
one of my longing. Stupidly, I kept asking Dena about Noah. She said they
had been together almost every night. She told me how much she loved him.

                And then he telephoned. He told me he was naked with a hard
on.  He told me to get naked and hard as well. I almost cried as I
stripped. I told him how much I missed him, and begged him to come over. He
told me he was hard and leaking. He ordered me to get mine leaking as well
and to tell him when it was nice and drippy. I did as he ordered. He told
me to describe my leaking dick to him and to tell him how much I wanted
him. I opened up completely. I spoke of my obsession and of how I thought
of him every day. I told him my dick was constantly hard thinking about
him.  And then, he laughed and said that he was not naked at all, but
sitting in a restaurant with his buddies, and that I was on speaker
phone. They were all laughing at me.
               That was how it started. A few days later he showed up at my
apartment and said he had just fucked Dena. He told me in detail how he has
fucked her cunt and ass, and he had me stand naked in front of him and
masturbate while he shared his experience with me. It was then, that he
suggested that I not cum without his permission. I still had not seen his
dick. Two visits later, he had me sit in a chair, without touching my dick,
while he went into the bathroom and stripped naked. Then, he walked around
me in my chair, showing off his magnificent young body.  I could not touch
him of course...nor touch myself. But my dick erected at once and began
spurting pre-fuck.  He posed in front of me, sticking out his ass, rubbing
his balls and dick, flexing his muscles. I sobbed with desire for this boy!
He put one big naked foot between my legs, up on the chair in which I sat ,
and he wiggled his toes against my scrotum. I howled and shot my load at
once. I spattered my own body and his foot with cum. It was so powerful
that I could not stop trembling for some time. He told me I was a naughty
boy for cumming without permission. Then he ordered me to lick my own sperm
off his naked foot.

              And that was the start or our games. The big question is,
where will they end? Each time he visits, he seems to become more and more
controlling and more and more sadistic. The first time he made me orally
service his high school friends, I refused. I did not see him for two
weeks.  I almost had a mental breakdown .When I crumbled, he forgave me,
only after I had sucked the dicks of six of his high school buddies who
laughed and called me names all the while I did it. From a respectable
businessman, I had become a desperate teenage cocksucker!  Where would this
end???????