Date: Tue, 26 Feb 2013 14:37:09 -0800 From: Douglas Marx <douglas.marx.4@gmail.com> Subject: Downward Spiral of Jim; Chapter 12; Story codes: M, MM, bd, sm, exhib Disclaimer: This story is erotic fiction meant for mature readers. By getting this far into nifty.org, the reader acknowledges his/her legal right to be here. The reader will hold nifty and/or the author harmless. Warning: This erotic fiction contains sexual experiences between fictional adult males. If this is not your thing, leave now. Furthermore, any similarity to any person, place or thing living or dead is merely coincidental. There is no safe sex in this story because it is fiction. Remember: In real life, play as safe as possible preferably no exchange of bodily fluids. My stories are copyrighted and are not available for use under any condition. Please forward all comments, notes and criticisms to douglas.marx.4@gmail.com. Support nifty.org. We have all shot our loads reading Nifty. Show appreciation at http://donate.nifty.org/donate.html. Thank you. Enjoy. ----------------------------------- Please check out my other Nifty.org stories: Growing Up Naked http://www.nifty.org/nifty/gay/incest/growing-up-naked/ Naked Whore http://www.nifty.org/nifty/gay/authoritarian/naked-whore Put Out to Pasture http://www.nifty.org/nifty/gay/authoritarian/put-out-to-pasture Santa's Slave Training http://www.nifty.org/nifty/gay/authoritarian/santas-slave-training Special Product Design http://www.nifty.org/nifty/gay/authoritarian/special-product-design The Trunk http://www.nifty.org/nifty/gay/authoritarian/the-trunk ----------------------------------- Story codes: M, MM, bd, sm, exhib Downward Spiral of Jim – Chapter Twelve The big day came. I was going to have lunch with my Master's best friend, Rick. I wish I could say I was excited about it; however, the cop was more distant than ever, which led to me being more sad and lonely. I know as a slave that I am not here to want anything other than to be of service to my superior man. It's just that I can't control my feelings that if the cop would just show some physical affection towards me, my bad faggot attitude would go away. With him not giving me his cock in my ass or throat now, I felt as if I was a complete failure as a slave. I began to wonder if I was worthy to be a slave. Or, was I one of those stupid bottoms that lives a slave fantasy in its head, but when the reality of actually being a slave is given to them, they can't take it. That thought made me more dour. All along I thought that all I had been through as a bottom; the humiliating incidents of a few years earlier when I lost David, my home and my job were meant for the current experience to occur with the cop. Could that not be? Was my assumption wrong? Doubt plagued me. I started to think that I was worthless. My only use in this life was to suck anonymous cock and be a bathhouse attendant. I felt that I didn't deserve the cop, the home and security he provided me. My Master always referred to me as "faggot". I realized that he was right. I was hopeless queer faggot scum. I went to the kitchen to fix a nice breakfast for Sir. It was all I could muster, but I had to put my best foot forward hoping against hope that Master would come around and want me again. I outdid myself. The French toast was the best I ever created. The eggs were basted to perfection. The bacon was crisp and greaseless. Sir always was on time for our scheduled meal, but he missed his entrance. I started to panic because I knew that one moment too long sitting, this feast would be ruined. I decided to go to his bedroom, the bedroom that used to be ours, to peek in and see where he was. I ever so gently opened his door peering around the edge. There was no Sir in bed. Was he in the Master bath? No. I raced across the house to the garage only to find his car gone. My Master was gone. He left me. He had never done that before. He always told me in advance his plans. He always arrived at breakfast or any other meal we had together promptly. Now, I was mad. For the first time in my life, I screamed at the top of my lungs. I went into the kitchen and threw his plate of delicious food across the room smashing it against the wall and shattering the dish into a million pieces. "I CAN'T FUCKING TAKE IT!" I shrieked. "No! You god damn asshole, you're the one who married me. Fucking bastard. What's wrong? Why don't you like me anymore? I don't understand. Please, Sir. Talk to me. Tell me what I did. I will do anything. I want our relationship. I want to be with you. Please don't throw me away." I fell to the floor sobbing more than ever in my life. I wailed until there was nothing left. In exhaustion, I screamed with the last of my strenght. "Alright, you fucking bastard. I love you. Get it. I love you. I want you. I want to be your slave. My life is useless except to serve you. Fucking happy now? Fucking satisfied bastard? I surrender. You win. You win. You win. Just please come home, Sir. I need you. I want you more than life." I lay on the floor in a naked heap for quite a while. Finally, I got enough energy to clean up the mess that I made. I looked at the time. It was 10 AM. Time to get ready for my birthday lunch with Rick. I no longer wanted to go. I wanted to be home and wait for the cop. But, Rick was coming to get me and Sir would be very pissed if I wasn't on my best behavior regardless of what was happening between the two of us. I must say that when Rick arrived, I looked smashing. This slave still had it thanks to the lovely wardrobe that Sir bought me for public appearances. I put on my best face. That is what a slave does. Feelings are not based in reality. The fact is that I had a luncheon with a wonderful, kind man; show up and shut up. Rick rang the doorbell. When I opened it, he gave me one of those big bear hugs of his. My cock immediately pushed its way out of my chinos. "Hi Jim. You ready?" "Yes, Rick. I am." I smiled. We walked out to his car. He opened the door for me and we drove away. It was good to get out. I immediately forgot about my home troubles. We had light conversation on the way to the restaurant. I had no idea where we were going but I knew we were in the best part of town. We pulled up to the finest place in the city. I immediately questioned if I was underdressed even with hundreds of dollars of preppy clothes on. I also wondered about Rick. He was stunningly dressed. The most coif I had ever seen him. Yet, he seemed out of place. Rick was this big, strapping muscle bear of a man. Not classically handsome. This place was very gentile. I had been here before and only the crème de la crème of the city's society mingled. There was an underlying standard of attractive and refined involved in being here. Rick's physical look, no matter how well-groomed, was not it. I, on the other hand, fit right in. I mused about what this haute crowd would think if they knew I was actually a full-time slave to one of the men who protects their city from bad guys. Walking in the front door from the portico and the valet, we were greeted by the maître d. Rick introduced us. "Richard Walters, party of two." "Good day, Sir. We've been expecting you. Right this way." The maître d pulled out the chair for me. It is funny how people assume who the farer sex is in a homosexual relationship because I was smaller. Rick waited for me to be seated and comfortable before taking his place across the table. We had the best seating area in the house. The window provided a stunning view of the city. I was impressed. If they only knew what a fucking messy faggot I had been just a few short hours ago. I wondered if other people in the room had to pull themselves together under stressful circumstances to look good here at lunch today. Rick and I freely talked. I noticed about an hour into lunch that there was never a pause in the conversation. I didn't excessively talk about myself and my problems with Sir; however, I didn't hide anything either. I doubt I was giving Rick any information that he didn't already know about his best friend. I was more interested in him anyway. Rick was a fascinating man. He was also the nicest man I had ever met in my life. I wondered what it was about me that made me want to be a slave instead of with someone like Rick. David was a good person, but "nicest" would be a stretch. He was more into perfection and control. Yes, we talked as I said earlier, but not like Rick and I were speaking. There was an open spirit to this conversation. I could see that I could easily fall for this man across the table complicating my life further. Speaking of the devil, out of the corner of my eye David was entering the restaurant with an amazingly striking man. David saw me. He asked the maître d to give them a second. I stood up to greet him with a handshake. "David, it is nice to see you. David, this is a good friend of mine, Rick. Rick, David." "Jim. Good to see you as well. Jim, this is my husband, Robert. We were married about a year ago." David explained. "Lovely to meet you, Robert. You are a lucky man. David is a great guy." I rallied the best I could. David quickly said in that underlying control I knew so well, "Robert, we can't keep the maître d waiting any longer. Nice to meet you, Rick. Bye Jim." I sat back down, "Well, that was interesting." I said to Rick. "That was my first relationship. The one I was in when I got in trouble with the law." "Oh. Are you ok?" Rick asked with concern. "Yes, Rick. I am fine. That was good to see him. I owe him a lot, but frankly I hope I never see him again." Rick smiled. "I understand. Shall we have dessert?" "Sure." The conversation took a bit to get started again. My mind wandered over the presence of David in the room with his actually married to husband; not just the figure of speech gay men use about their partner. Rick was patient waiting for me to come back mentally. Rick said when the dessert came. "Happy Birthday, Jim. I'm so glad we were able to come to lunch." "Me too, Rick. You don't know how much this meant to me." Rick responded. "Actually, I think I do." I smiled. Rick paid the check. He then took my hand in his across the table to ask, "Would you like to come back to my place, Jim?" "Rick, I don't know if that is right. If I have sex with you again, I may fall in love with you. I don't want to leave the cop. Yet, you are the kindest man. Please be my friend no matter what. I am so lonely being the cop's slave. Just being with you gives me the strength to carry on with my commitment to Sir." "Jim, I love you. There is no doubt in my mind. I started to fall for you the moment I met you in the gym over a year ago. I would love to date you with the intent of seeing if we could be in a relationship. It would put a strain on my friendship with the cop, but I am willing to lose his alliance to have you." Rick looked at me so sincerely. "Rick, thank you. Please take me home before I change my mind." I asked. Rick responded. "I understand, Jim. I do want to point out one thing that you may not have considered. Do you get that the cop/my friend has played us?" "What do you mean?" I asked regardless of the fact that I instantly knew. It was all beginning to make sense. Remember, I said I would just have to wait until I figured out what Master's plan was. "The cop wanted you to be tempted. He wanted you to choose. He wanted to know if you would finally commit to him. He used me for his plan. I went along acting as if I didn't know what he was up to. Why do you think he had me over to watch baseball naked so many times recently? He wanted to have you see me naked. He knew you were thinking about me. He was testing you. He wanted to see if you would completely submit, which by his standards you have yet to do." "Why would you go along with it?" I asked kind of miffed. "I went along with it because I had fallen in love with you. If there was any chance you would walk away from being his slave, I wanted to have an opportunity to woo you." He said with a big smile. "What better way to woo you than to sit in your living room naked so you could check this out?" Rick raised his arms wide and flexed his upper body. My dick was working my pants again. A number of women and men in the immediate area took notice. How many wet pussies and hard cocks did that show create? I caught that David saw Rick's gesture. That was worth the price of admission. "That's the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me, Rick." Rick's face turned very serious moving in close to my face across the table. "Jim, I want to make a few things clear. If you succumb completely to the cop, I will understand and respect your decision. All three of us will still be friends. Hell, the cop may even let me play with you; however, I will turn him down because it will hurt too much. If you leave, I'm not going to be there to pick up your pieces. You will have to reestablish your life. You will have to get your own place and your own job. I will not let you live with me as your alternative to your current situation. We can date once you are stable. I love you, but I ain't saving you. Do you understand my point?" "Yes, Rick. I understand. Rick, I need a minute. Would you excuse me? I want to go to the men's room." I said it like a flustered lady because that is exactly what I was. I minced my twitching pussy through the restaurant to the restroom. I wanted Rick to take me back to his place and fuck the shit out of me. There was no question about it. The cop was hot, but Rick was sexy. I went into a stall and sat. All I had to do was pee, but it seemed appropriate to sit like a lady and think. Seeing David in the flesh felt like a sign. I reflected back on the ten years we lived together. I thought about our sex life. We were so controlled. David and I did play with each other throughout the ten years. For most couples, straight or gay, that is a miracle in and of itself. We had other partners. I remember being so bored with the type of guys I had sex with during that time; so fucking vanilla. We were both the epitome of white bread. The roughest I ever got with anyone was that last time I fucked David the morning after the bodybuilder trapped me in the gym locker room. It was also the last time my dick had been inside an anus. Regardless of my decision, there was little doubt my cock would ever see the insides of a poop shoot again. As I thought about David, I came to a greater understanding about how my life had always been controlled by another man. I know I spoke of this earlier; however, the depth of this became more pronounced. The illusion that it wasn't that way revolved around our basic fuck, suck and kiss sex life. David regulated every aspect of our lives. David made sure the legal manners were done. David arranged the guest list. David organized who we were friends with. David actually set up the men that I would have sex with on the side. I had this fantasy that this entire downward spiral occurred from the moment in the gym with the bodybuilder. It had actually started with David. The difference was that David was more subtle. What I witnessed a few minutes earlier with the way David moved the conversation along so the maître d wouldn't be left waiting. God forbid we would be inappropriate and let down our manners. David and I hadn't seen each other in years, yet, I was only given two sentences before he whisked Robert away to their seating thus controlling and avoiding the perils of the discussion becoming too in depth. Living with the cop, nothing had changed. I was a slave in the first relationship and I was still a slave. The cop controlled everything. The cop controlled the finances, the legalities, whom we played with, whom I was allowed to see, when I could have outside sex which was always about me usually servicing cocks of his friends or at the rest area. Then there was Rick. I only had sex with Rick one time on my wedding day. It was the most egalitarian, loving, happy sexual experience of my life. Rick had sex with me because he cared about me; not because he wanted to control me. Rick had sex with me because he saw how upset I was at the wedding. Rick had sex with me because he was in love with me. No matter which way I go with this, I will never forget that beautiful experience. I will never forget Rick's massive, muscled, hairy body enveloping me. I will never forget making love to Rick's huge man nipples. I will never forget that he allowed me to do anything I wanted. I will never forget Rick's cumming in my ass. He gave me his love at that moment. I remember saying to myself that I never wanted that cum to leave my body. I wanted it to absorb into me so that a part of Rick was always with me. Oh fuck. I did love Rick. Rick was the only true man here. Rick was the one that was comfortable with himself that he could fall in love with someone and if it worked out fine, if it didn't he would move on. David and the cop both had to have it their way or the highway. David demonstrated that with him unceremoniously dumping me in the jail cell. The cop had always made that perfectly clear. Neither David nor the cop were mature men; however, that didn't mean I necessarily had the balls to walk away from being controlled by the cop. That would mean I could no longer abdicate responsibility for my life. It all boiled down to this moment. What was I going to do when I walked out of that men's room? ----------------------------------- I hope you enjoyed this chapter. I appreciate hearing from you guys. I attempt to respond to each email within two days. Many times our conversations shape the upcoming storyline. Thank you. Please send any comments to: douglas.marx.4@gmail.com