Date: Mon, 16 Jul 2007 02:10:58 -0600
From: Cody Kramer <all-star07@hotmail.com>
Subject: As Long As You Love Me Part 5

Hey again everyone! I know, I know I've taken forever just to write another
chapter. A little heads up; some chapters might take a while to come as
opposed to others since I have to start finding a job. So if it's like
three weeks between chapters, don't worry, I will finish the story for you
guys. Let's just hope it doesn't take that long for some chapters to get
done. Okay now you've all waited long enough, let's get on with the story!
Again if you're a first time reader, please feel free to email me with any
feed back you have, positive or negative, I enjoy reading your
responses. My Email: all-star07@hotmail.com



`I think I'm falling in love with you too?' Did I really just say that to
Drew?

While lying in my bed that night I kept replaying the whole evening over
and over again in my head. And every time I got to the part with me and
Drew and I though about what I said to him, I couldn't help but kick myself
mentally.

Why did I say what I said to Drew? It was a mistake and I knew it, I
shouldn't have said those words to him. It's not that I didn't feel that
way, because I do. But what we said to eachother, it was just too early to
be saying things like that to one another and I knew it was but I didn't
stop myself from saying them, I had to talk to him and tell him we had to
slow things down.

Wait, slow things down? How fast were they even going? Not fast at all, in
fact I don't think we've ever exceeded the speed limit. It all comes down
to how I feel and right now, I feel like I'm in love. And it took me all
night long of just lying in bed to figure that out.

When dawn came around, I got up from bed and went to my balcony. Since my
apartment faced the east, and it was on the top floor, I got a perfect
sunrise every morning. As I stood out there with the cool morning breeze
blowing in my face, Drew came into my mind, once again.

I wondered what he was dreaming about at that very moment. What thoughts
were going through his head? What did he look like when he was sleeping?
For some reason I felt restless, like I just had to do something, like I
just had to be with him at that very moment.

I went back inside and showered, got dressed, made my bed, even
straightened up my home and still I felt as if I had something I needed to
do. Just to calm my nerves, I decided to go out for a drive. I grabbed my
keys and went down to the parking lot, pausing briefly at Drew's door and
smiling.

Even though it was 6 in the morning, the streets were pretty
crowded. Morning rush hour I guess. I then felt that pang of disappointment
when I realized that I had to get a job so I could pay my rent. But I had
no idea what I wanted to do. I guessed that if I put it off for a while,
the right opportunity would come up.  Thinking it would be a nice treat; I
stopped by Dutch Bros. and got some coffee and something to eat as a nice
little wake up call for Drew. It was about 6:30 and I couldn't put it off
anymore, I had to see him.

Once I got back to my building, I ran up to his floor and knocked on the
door, and the though never occurred to me that he might have been sleeping
till I knocked. I started to feel guilty when he answered the door. But
surprisingly he was already up and dressed, and he greeted me with a smile.

"Hey there!"

"Hey Drew, good morning." I said as I leaned in to kiss him.

"Morning to you too, how are you?"

"Good," I said as I handed him a cup of coffee. "Didn't sleep much last
night."

"Aww, why not?"

"I dunno, just didn't."

"Everything okay?"

"Yeah," I looked at him and saw that he was a bit concerned; it was cute
and touching to know that he cared so much. "Just a lot on my mind."

"Really? Like what?"

"Only a certain someone had my attention all night." I said with a grin.

He smiled back at me. "All night? Wow, this person must have had some sort
of affect on you."

"Yeah, he defiantly has." I smiled at him and he looked at me and returned
my smile with one of his own.

"Oh Brian, check this out, you're so not gonna believe this."

"What?"

"Remember my concert last night? Well of course you do but you remember how
everyone went nuts over my songs right?"

"Hell yeah I remember, you were amazing!"

"Awww thank you," he smiled at me and reached for my hand. "anyways, some
people from a record company in New York called me last night after I got
done on stage. Brian, they went nuts for my songs, they actually want me to
meet with them today!"

"Shut up! Are you serious?"

"Yeah, absolutely, today around 1 p.m."

"Oh my god, Drew that's fucking awesome!"

I leaned in to kiss him just then and there was definitely passion between
us. After Drew told me his news we spent the whole morning just being
together at his place. Once noon rolled around, I told him that I best get
going, just so he could have time to get ready to meet with these people.

Call me skeptical or just plane paranoid, but as I left Drew's apartment
and started up the next flight of stairs to mine, I couldn't help but
wonder who these people really were. Corvallis was just too small of a town
for big time record producers from New York City to come to visit on a
hunch.

Something just didn't feel right, I don't know why but I got a bad feeling
in my stomach about the whole ordeal. And as much as I would have liked to,
I couldn't tell Drew. He had already been through too much and already lost
his chance to make it big once and no matter what, I didn't want to be the
one responsible for ruining this chance for him a second time, especially
since an opportunity like this happened once in a life time.

At about three in the afternoon, I was officially bored out of my
mind. Drew still wasn't back from his meeting yet and I assumed that it was
going well. I knew I should be out looking for another job but I really
didn't want to, mostly cause I was still feeling lazy.

Instead of just sitting around the house, I decided to go pay Brytany a
little visit, I didn't really feel up to her sarcasm much but I was so
bored that I was desperate.

"Hey! Look who's out and about. Shouldn't you be sucking face with your new
boyfriend?"

"Put a cork in it Bryt, Drew's busy at the moment so you get to entertain
me for the rest of the day.

"Oooo, lucky me."

"Oh shut up you know you love me."

"Correction, I put up with you, there's a difference."

"Oh bite me."  "Okay."

"Not literally Brytany!"

"Hey you said."

"You know what woman?"

"Screw you! Don't you ever call me woman!"

"Or what?"

"I'll kick your ass, bitch!"

"Brytany, Brytany, We've been over this before, you would have to get
really lucky to succeed in that."

"Don't talk to me!"

"Oh my god, I didn't come over to play you're weird ass sarcastic games."

"So, why are you here?"

"I don't really know, I just need some entertainment, figured we could go
and play game cube or something."

"Oh god, Brian!"

"What?"

"You should know by now that no matter how hard you try, I'll always kick
your ass in Mario Kart, so give up already!"

"Ha never, I'm on a roll Bryt, I'll beat you soon enough."

"Keep dreaming." Then, right at that moment, my cell phone rang.

"Speaking of Dreaming." Brytany said. I just shot her a look and checked my
caller ID, it was Drew."

"Hello?"

"Hey sweety, what's up?"

"Not much, just chillin at Brytany's"

"I know I'm sorry the meeting took forever, I didn't mean to keep you
waiting."

"It's okay Drew, how did it go?"

"You're gonna find out."

"When?"

"When you come over for dinner tonight."

"You make it sound as if I'm going to show up."

"Oh please we both know that you will."

"Yeah that's true, what time?"

"Seven and not a minute later."

"Can't wait." Brytany rolled her eyes and faked being sick when I said
that; I did all I could to try not to burst out laughing.

"See you tonight, hun."

"Bye for now." I said as I hung up.

"Oh god, people who date shouldn't be allowed to talk to one another."

"Don't hate cause I got a man and you don't."

"Whatever."

My time with Brytany seemed to drag out a bit. We had some fun, but I
called it a night around 5 and headed home, but instead of going to see
Drew, I went to my apartment and jumped in the shower and let the water
pour over my face just to get me refreshed from such a long day.

Like always, I spent forever trying to find something to wear. I swear
though, every time I look in my wardrobe, everything seems dull and I
wonder why I even bought in the first place.

I settled for jeans and a blue country button down shirt, sprayed on some
cologne, and headed down to see Drew at about fifteen minutes till seven.

"Hey, you're early."

"I know, but I couldn't wait to see you."  "Well aren't you sweet."

"Yeah, but I'm sure I can have a sour side too."

He laughed a bit and made room for me to pass. He has dinner practically
already made and I sat down at the table and watched him in the
kitchen. Within minutes he had a full meal set down before me.

We started eating, sipping wine in candle light, and of course staring at
eachother a bit while holding hands on the table. It really was a perfect
evening.

"So," I said after a while. "how was your meeting?"

"It was good, they basically ranted about my performance, and then said
that they represent one of the most famous record companies in New
York. They told me that they want me to perform some more over the next few
weeks, they'll invite people they know to come and see me and if they like
me, there's a possibility that I'll get signed to a record company!"

Well yeah, of course I almost spilled all the wine in my mouth all over the
table. "Are you serious!?"

"Hell yes! My time has finally come again!"

"Holy shit Drew, that's great!"

And it was, things for him were finally looking up. After dinner, we spent
the remainder of the evening cuddling up on the couch and kissing. Things
started to heat up between us once again and I figured we would stop when
things got too serious.

But we didn't. He leaned into me and I lay back on the couch while he went
from kissing me on the lips to kissing my neck. I felt my way up the back
of his shirt and pulled it over his head and off as he went to unbuttoning
my shirt.

We were both half naked from the waist up, things were getting pretty
intense fast. As he started to undo my jeans, I had to stop him.

"Wait a second." I said as I sat up and gently pushed him off me.

"What's wrong?"

"Drew, you know I care a lot about you but, are we moving a bit too fast
here?"

"You don't think we're ready?"

"It's not that, its just I don't want this to be a sex driven relationship
between you and me."

"Brian, that was never my intention."

"I know that, I just...I mean..."

"Brian?"

"Yeah?"

"Have you ever done this before?"

I looked down and started playing with my hands in my lap. "Not really."

He seemed to understand this, cause he moved closer to me and started
rubbing a hand up and down my back.

"Brian, look at me," I did. "I know we are moving a bit too fast, and I
apologize for that. But you know it's good that you said something, I don't
ever want to make you feel like you're pressured to do something you don't
want to do with me. When the time is right between us then it will happen,
whether it be now or five months from now."

"It's not that I don't want to, Drew, because I do. It's just that things
are going so great between us and I don't want that all to end."

"Brian, trust me it will never end. You're my man now," he said with a
smile. "just remember something."

"What?"

"Remember that as long as you love me, everything will work out for the
better."

"I do love you, Drew."

"And I love you, nothing's going to change that."

I leaned in and kissed him, leaning into his touch, holding on to him like
he was a lifeline for me. Without a second though, I leaned up and
whispered in his ear.

"Do you love me?"

He was still and looked me in the eye, letting me know what he felt without
having to say anything. I leaned in to whisper again.

"Then show me how much."  I got up and walked to his room, when I looked
back he was following me. We didn't say anything to eachother because there
was no need to. When I entered his room, the lights were off, and I turned
around to face him as he entered behind me, closing the door behind him.

We stared at eachother for a moment. He reached out for my hand and
squeezed it, letting me know everything was going to be okay. I took a step
closer to him and leaned in to kiss him, he kissed me right back.

It was slow at first but the passion was there and it things began to pick
up. I leaned into him more, sliding my tongue into his mouth and moaning as
he did the same. My hand started going through his hair and down his back
while my other free hand started to undo his jeans.

He started to slide his hands down my sides to my waist, and as his jeans
fell to the floor, he pushed mine down as well. We stood there, kissing and
holding eachother in our boxers. His hands once more made it to my waist
and he pushed my boxers off as I lay down on the bed.

He lay right on top of me and we started kissing again, he made his way to
my neck as I ran my hands down his back as slide off his boxers as well. I
was nervous and I think he could tell as he went slowly and gentle, sending
tingles through me with every touch.

He started to make his way down to my chest, and I sucked in a breath load
of air as he sucked one of my nipples into his mouth. The sensation of his
tongue made my cock rock hard. He moved to the other and did the same
before making his way further down.

When he got to my waist he stopped and looked at me and I met his gaze,
with a smile he went down, sucking the head of my cock into his mouth. I
closed my eyes and gasped with pleasure as he went down further on me. It
was kind of awkward but we both figured out a rhythm. He started bobbing
his head up and down while I slowly moved my hips foreword, careful not to
choke him.

It was an amazing feeling of his tongue on my cock, and it only got better
when he began to probe my ass hole a bit with his finger. That feeling and
the feeling of him sucking me off was enough to send me over the edge. Then
he stopped and I looked up at him, I knew what he was thinking and I didn't
deny him.

He drew a finger into his mouth and wet it with his saliva and lowered it
to my hole. He fingered me with one finger and then two, trying to get me
ready so it wouldn't be so painful. Then he put my legs on his shoulders
and leaned over me looking down into my eyes as he positioned himself.

When we were both ready, he began to push and he entered me a bit. Even
though he was hardly in me, the pain was intense as my hole stretched to
fit him. He sensed my discomfort and began to pull out, but I stopped him
and told him to keep going. He seemed a little uncertain but did so
anyways. The pain grew and I thought that this was impossible. He moved
slowly though, with each progression he paused so I could get used to
him. When he was all the way in me, the pain subsided and as he moved back
and fourth, I t was replaced with pleasure.

It was like anything I ever experienced and the feeling was intense. He
moved slowly at first then faster and faster. I let my head fall back and
my eyes close as I focused on the pleasure. I was pretty sure I was moaning
but I hadn't noticed and neither did he.

Not long after, the pleasure grew too much for both of us, as I let out a
stream of cum on my chest, he soon unloaded inside me. Exhausted and
drained, he gently pulled out of me and collapsed on top of me, neither of
us spoke, we just held eachother.

As sleep began to over take me, I leaned in to kiss him goodnight. Just as
I was about to fall asleep, he spoke and broke the silence.

"I love you Brian." He then laid his head on my chest and cuddled up to me
about ready to fall asleep.

"I love you to Drew."

The last thing I remember before I feel asleep was knowing that things were
never going to be the same, and they weren't.

To be continued...