Date: Sat, 16 Mar 2002 10:09:41 -0800 (PST)
From: Buddy sojourner <monumentalparadox@yahoo.com>
Subject: BREAKFAST-- a mature love story-- Chapter 1.

                Copyright c 2001 by Sojourner


                         BREAKSFAST

          TIME is so important in our lives; or at least, it
should be. How often do you hear someone say; "I wish I  had
time  for. If I only had the time. I need more time to. With
enough  time I could."or something like; "Time just  slipped
away.  I don't know where the time went. There is just never
enough  time.  The time just seemed to pass  me  by."  Human
beings  are constantly referring to time; just about all  of
life,  even death, revolves around it. Time means everything
and  so  does  TIMING.  Timing can  make  or  break  you  in
business, careers or jobs opportunities, in finances, or  in
social  encounters. But TIME and TIMING truly ARE everything
when it comes to romance and matters of the heart.

          As young gay men, some of us go through our entire
lives  missing all the right opportunities to find that  one
true  love;  being caught up in the fast pace  lifestyle  of
searching for the next sexual partner. The whole gay  world,
for  the  most  part,  seems to revolve around  finding  and
scoring  that next hot trick and then quickly moving  on  to
find yet another. When someone special does come along, many
of  us  simply  blow  the prospects for  true  happiness  by
running  headlong into the fears, petty jealousies  and  the
mistrusts  we  feel for our prospective lovers.  If  for  no
other reason, for the simple fact that we too have done  all
the  things  we wish not to have as characteristics  in  our
man.  Not to mention all those preconceived motions  of  the
physical  type of man we are looking for. Either he  is  too
tall or too short, too hairy or too smooth, too young or too
old,  too  skinny or too fat, or any of the  numerous  other
physical  characteristics we want our man  to  have  or  not
have. We are all men and as much as we try to not admit  it,
men  are  all  PIGS  and DO tend to think FIRST  with  their
dicks.

          When the time is right and we are lucky enough  to
run  into a special man; sometimes, our brains begin to tell
us that this might just be the one. Somewhere down the line,
our  hearts  try  to take over, causing an upheaval  between
what  we think is love and what might possibly only be lust.
But  again, it usually all comes back to and starts with the
dick.  Hopefully, by the time our brains and hearts wake  up
to  what  is right in front of our faces, and what the  dick
already  knows,  it is not too late to find  and  have  that
perfect  relationship.  And sometimes, just sometimes,  when
we  least  expect it, LOVE slaps us across the tops  of  our
heads, knocks the wind out of us and leaves us in a state of
complete  and total amazement. No one is perfect UNTIL  they
fall  in  love. But when the TIMING for an encounter happens
and  the  TIME is right; we fall in love and have no choices
except  to  go  with what our heats, minds and;  of  course,
dicks  tell  us to do.  Hopefully, we open ourselves  up  to
everything that we have run from for most of our lives,  and
let time take over.

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          You  are  about to embark upon an encounter  where
TIME  and  TIMING was everything. So, with that said.  let's
get going.



          I  was  completely  illiterate  when  it  came  to
computers  and the Internet. For years I had  vowed  that  I
would  never own one of those confounded, damn machines  but
everyone around me seemed to be talking about how great they
were;  how much fun you could have on them. Friends told  me
that I could use a computer for my business files and taxes,
that  I  could actually go anywhere in the world  and  could
even  have some fun on-line, chatting with different people.
I  eventually  became curious enough.  So  one  frosty  fall
Colorado morning, out I went to price and familiarize myself
with  the styles of the different computers. By the  time  I
left the first store, I had bought my first pc along with  a
printer,  scanner and all the other necessities for Internet
activity.

          I  hurried  home and set up my new play  toy,  not
knowing the first thing about what I should do next.  I  was
so  stupid, I thought all I had to do was to plug  the  damn
thing  into a telephone jack and I would be "on line". Well,
that  sure didn't work! After a couple more frustrating days
of  learning  about servers and configuring this  electronic
nightmare, I was finally connected and "on line".

          Before  long,  with the help and  guidance  of  my
stepdaughter  and some friends, I was surfing the  net  with
ease. By mid winter I had learned to design my own web page;
text  with pictures included, and up-loaded it to  the  net.
Against  the  advice of several people while making  my  web
page,  I  figured, why not just be open and honest  and  put
everything in. I told all the statistical information of  my
age,  height, weight, and HIV status that most gay men  seem
to  look  for first when scanning through someone's personal
pages. I did an entire section called `Quest for Love' on my
likes  and  dislikes in gay relationships, what I  was  like
sexually,  about my past loves and what I hoped to  find  in
future encounters. I told about the business I owned and  my
plans  to  sell it, my gay political connections, my  social
life  and  what I wanted to do with the rest of my  life.  I
left  nothing  to  the imagination, with  the  exception  of
loading  any  nude  photos  of myself.  Being  a  `good  `ol
southern boy', I thought it would be too tacky to load those
types of pictures to my web page.

          I  downloaded an ICQ program to my computer mainly
to  be  able  to  chat, in real time, with different  family
members  and a few close friends. I soon found  out  that  I
could meet some interesting men, from all over the world, by
using  that program. I discovered the chat rooms of  gay.com
and began going into the Mature Men, Bears and Poz rooms  in
both  the Mountain and Pacific regions.  My web surfing took
me  to  other  sites where I could browse personal  ads  for
hours, pulling up the profiles of men, reading their ads and
looking  at  their pictures. I ran across a site called  the
Poz  Room Index. This Poz Room Index was mainly for  people;
who  are HIV positive, to list their profiles with links  to
their  web pages and e-mail addresses.   I thought it  would
be  harmless enough to list myself, so I uploaded my picture
and  information to it. This gave me the courage to go  back
into  the other personal sites I had been checking  out  and
place  an  ad in those sites as well. I linked my web  pages
and  e-mail  addresses to all of them in  hopes  of  someone
finding  me  for  friendship,  romance  or  just  plain  old
conversation. Like so many others, I was ever searching  for
that one man out there who I just knew was also looking  for
me.

          Over  the next few months I entered into different
chat rooms and looked around all sorts of web sites. I found
that  I  was  completely hooked on the  Internet  and  began
spending more and more time each night surfing for gay sites
and, of course, gay men.

          I  uploaded and downloaded. I scanned,  saved  and
filed.  I  added  software. I bought hardware.  I  became  a
complete computer nerd. I was so busy checking out the world
of the dot com.'s that I even forgot all about having listed
myself  out  in the cyber world. That is, until one  day  in
May,  when I received e-mail from a stranger with a  picture
of himself attached.

          My  first reaction was, "What the FUCK! Who in the
hell  could this be from?" as I enthusiastically opened  the
mail.

          Like  the  pig queen I am; I HAD to  look  at  the
picture before reading what was written. It was of a  husky,
tanned  man; wearing only white brief jockey shorts with  an
unmistakable bulge.  Needless to say, both the body and  the
way  the  shorts  were nicely filled out completely  got  my
attention.  I opened the text part of the mail, still trying
to figure out who this man was and where he had gotten my e-
mail  address. My heart pounded in my chest as I  read  what
this stranger had to say.

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         Well I am blown away by your bio.  You sound too
good to be true.  And so handsome!   Hmmmm... Well, I should
tell you something of me.   In case you might be
interested... I have been HIV for the past 10 years and
doing extremely well. I stand 6'2". I weigh 210# have a full
head of dark brown hair, goatee, hairy chest and legs and
ass, well hung, blue eyes, in relatively good shape (I go to
the gym at least twice a week, just to keep it together.)
I am deeply spiritual, deeply sensual, can be very
sophisticated, and yet very down to earth.  I am civilized
enough to enjoy classical music, and nasty enough to be
completely uninhibited sexually.  I don't have any notions
about how it is supposed to be in bed.  Generally I am a
top, and yet I am looking for a mate that will allow me to
experiment with lovemaking.  In other words, I am not really
into roles, so much as lovemaking.
    I have had three relationships that didn't pan out, and
I am now looking for a life partner.    Ups, downs, in-
betweens, I can handle all of those.   What I can't handle
is dishonesty.   That means in all aspects of a
relationship. So I wanted to be very clear about that from
the start.  My last lover was sleeping around on me, and
although I sort of knew it, I didn't confront him on it.
And I learned that by not dealing with it, I had guaranteed
the relationship was going to end.  The funny thing is... I
am extremely sexual.... I could get into a three way, if my
lover wanted to.  I have done that before, and found them
lots of fun. If that makes me a slut, well, so be it.   Sex
is fun, and I want a lover who thinks the same way.  I also,
don't want to be the one that always initiates sex.  I want
to have a lover that "attacks me in the morning."    Just
like I will attack him too.   Hee Hee!
    Now for the dull stuff...  I live in California.  I have
a large house in Laguna Beach.  I own my own businesses.  I
am a contractor and a realtor.  Financially I am pretty
secure for my age.  I have a couple of rentals, which
provide nice income, and I don't have any debts.    I have a
cottage on an island in Canada, which is remote and a little
primitive yet very cozy.  ( My grandfather built it.)    I
just bought a 2-bedroom house in Honolulu, Hawaii, with
maid's quarters.  I just spent 5 weeks restoring and
repainting it, and cleaning up the gardens.  It is above
Waikiki in the Manoa Valley by the University.   And thought
it would be fun to retire there with my life mate one of
these days.   Or maybe just shuttle between homes.   I have
a little dog ( Bichon Frise)  I am an artist at heart and
would love to oil paint.  I also like to write, and would
enjoy pursuing that in the future. maybe when I retire.  So
selling my businesses here doesn't mean that I don't want to
accomplish something else in my life.   I can totally relate
to what you are doing. selling your business.  I have been
considering that for quite a while.  I think I may train my
nephew to one-day take mine over for me.  That way, the
income will remain.   I haven't really decided what to do
yet.
    In the meantime, I thought it would be a good idea to
find my life mate.  I think God will work in mysterious
ways, and providing my sexual, spiritual, emotional lover.
HOPEFULLY, That is one way my life will start to shift and
move.
    So if you are interested at all.... maybe .  What the
heck... what have we got to loose?
Here is a picture of me.   Hope you like it.

Hope to hear from you


         I had no idea where he had seen my bio; which ad he
had  come across. I had up-loaded so many. Where ever it was
that  he found my web pages; he must have liked what he read
and  saw.  After all, he sent me this mail with his picture.
This was my first on-line encounter of this or any type, the
prospects  where both frightening and exciting. I went  back
and  studied his picture again and again. He appeared to  be
the type of man that I would consider just my type under any
normal  circumstance but there was certainly nothing  normal
about this.

          "Wow!"  I snickered to myself. "This is the  first
person to respond to one of my ads. Now what the fuck  am  I
suppose to do next?"

           I  took a couple of anxious, fearful days of soul
searching before I could muster up the courage to  reply  to
this guy's mail. When I did finally respond, I tried to make
it  sound as if I had just gotten his mail that day.  I  did
not want to appear to be too eager.

==========================================

    Thank you for your e-mail. I received it tonight after I
finished watching "Diamonds Are A Girl's Best Friend". (Nice
old romantic comedy.) I must say that it took me completely
by surprise and I thank you for the nice compliments. You
didn't say where you had come across the bio or my web page.
Anyway, your mail arrived and really lifted my spirits after
a stressful day at work.
   You said that I sounded too good to be true. Well, I have
to say that from what you wrote to me; I have to turn that
back on you. Your e-mail almost sounding as if it had been
scripted by one of my friends who knows the type of man I am
looking for. As I read on, I kept thinking that this was
some cruel joke a friend was playing on me. However, I began
to wonder if this was in fact legitimate. I even began to be
excited and intrigued by the possibilities of it being real.
By the time I had finished the first couple of paragraphs, I
felt that you were for real.
   I am new to this Internet stuff as far as being a way to
meet people. I use the net mainly to chat with life long
friends and family. I did a web page for people to know who
they were chatting with when I go into the gay.com chat
rooms. I do not go into those rooms too often and when I do
it is usually the POZ room on the Pacific floor. I usually
use ICQ to chat with people I know.
   Sorry, I digressed. From your mail, it seems we have
quite a lot in common. It is nice to hear of others having
like mind-sets when it comes to love, relationships and
sexuality. It seems to be way too difficult to meet nice men
much less even begin to develop some form of a relationship.
I especially like the way you said that you cannot handle
dishonesty. My last lover (an ass hole) was a compulsive
liar and cheat. Even his mother warned me about it before we
moved in together. But I had made a commitment and we were
raising his daughter together, so I had to stick it out.
Even though we didn't make it, we are still the best of
friends (and he is still an ass hole) and the kid has given
us 4 wonderful grandkids. I was just way too young to be a
grandparent. LOL!
   Again I digress. As I read on in your mail, I wondered
why you began that one paragraph as "the dull stuff". That
is a part of your life and something to be very proud of.
You apparently have made a comfortable life for yourself and
understand just how hard it is to consider selling a
business and moving into a different, new stage of life. I
have been struggling with this for the past year. I have my
shop on the market but no takers YET! I keep saying that it
is because the time is just not right yet. I am a firm
believer in that when things are supposed to happen...they
do. It's all in the timing!
   It was interesting that you said that you wanted to
write. That is something that I have always wanted to try my
hand at, but have been too afraid to begin anything other
than a few short stories, and just tinkering around with
ideas and formats.
   And finally, I came to your picture. You had already
captured my interest by this time and then I opened your
picture. All I could say was "Damn, that is one good-looking
man". I printed it out and have looked at it most of the
evening; trying to decide just how to respond to you. Like I
said earlier, I am not use to this Internet stuff. Like you
said, "What have we got to loose". So, I will take the
plunge and say HEY!!!
   I would really enjoy corresponding with you and getting
to know you better. Who knows? We could turn out to be the
best of friends. or!
   Sorry this has been such a long e-mail. I do hope to hear
from you again and once more "Thank You" for such a nice e-
mail. Hope you have a good day. You certainly made mine!

==================================================

          I printed off a copy of his picture and took it to
work  with me the next day. My mind raced all day, wondering
about  all  the  possibilities that  could  come  from  this
correspondence.  Work was hell having to anxiously  wait  to
see  if I would hear from him again. My mind was running  on
over-time. I had doubts and was curious about who he  really
was  and  what  he  really was up to.  My  insecurities  and
suspicions went wild. Maybe, this was some kind  of  a  joke
after all.

          The  very  first thing I did when I got home  that
evening  was  to turn on my computer and hurriedly  open  my
mail. Sure enough, there it was. another e-mail from him.

          My first thought was, "Man, this guy doesn't waste
any time!" I began to read.



          Thanks  for the quick reply.  He He.    Well,  the
truth  is, I am telling the truth!   With HIV, I cannot  see
the point in lying.   It has made me realize
how  very  precious  every moment is.   So  I  won't  burden
others or myself with "fudging the facts".   So what you see
is what you get.
          I  so enjoyed your response.  We have a great deal
in  common.   I ended up taking care of my last lover's  son
every weekend.  And since John was such a complete liar, his
son  had to look to me for any guidance.   Eventually,  when
we  parted, it was suggested that his son stay away from his
father  and  maintain a relationship with his  mother  only.
My  ex lover was really a piece of work.    I wish him well,
and  hope he finds his inner self soon.   All I know is that
it is too exhausting dealing with lies and fabrication.
           I   am  pretty  open  and  honest.    So  in  our
correspondence  that is what you will get.    I  don't  know
what will become of this, but if we tell the truth from  the
start,  at least we have a chance.    If we don't,,, all  is
lost
anyway.
          Wish  I could meet with you immediately, but  know
that  that  is not really possible. I will look  forward  to
that someday in the future.   I suppose if you are trying to
sell your business, you might want to find a business broker
in your area, or go on line under "business for sale". There
are a few web sites that are interesting.  I have looked  at
them, and they seem promising.  It is difficult to sell your
own  business, and is usually better to have a  professional
do  the  listing for you.  The 10% charge is  usually  worth
it.
         Well, I have to get dressed and ready for work.   I
will email you
later.  But  I wanted to thank you right now for  making  my
day.

         Here is another picture of me, so you know what you
are possibly getting.  If you know what I mean.   I figure
there is nothing to hide here.

======================================================

         This time I read the text first, before opening the
picture he had sent. But when I did; to my surprise, it  was
almost  the same picture as had been sent before.  with  the
exception of one thing missing.  His underwear! I about fell
off my chair.

         "Damn, this queer sure is bold" I thought, "to send
this kind of picture." I was not complaining but my southern
sense of values took over and I felt that it might have been
nicer to get to know him a little better before receiving  a
nude picture. "Who the fuck are you?"

          There  he  was  in  all of his glory;  his  pecker
standing up and sticking straight out.  It looked like  some
sort  of  weapon. I had to laugh and tried to think of  just
how  I was going to compose my response and myself. That  is
when  a third e-mail came in. I quickly opened it and  began
to read.

     By  the  way, what is ICQ ? And how do you use that  to
chat  with  people.  I am not familiar with that technology.
Just thought I would ask.
    I have a busy day in front of me... and am having dinner
with
friends  tonight.    I do love giving small  dinner  parties
for  friends.   I have a beautiful 19th century dining room,
with  Sarouk  Persian carpets and crystal chandeliers,  etc.
  so  I  can set a lavish table.   I worked as a chef for  a
while;  so cooking is something I really enjoy.    Lately  I
have  been tending towards vegetarianism, after having  read
some  horrible tales about the way they process meat in this
country.  Gosh what is wrong with people that they would  do
such things to animals?   So I guess I should buy organic or
kosher, just to make sure I am not eating poison.
     I  am  not a fanatic about my health, but on the  other
hand, I do try to
take care of myself.  Mostly, I just listen to myself and do
what feels
right.    I do meditation regularly, and attend Siddha  Yoga
group  on  Wednesday  nights.   Both my  sister  and  I  are
participants in yoga.  I have been doing that for years.   I
was raised a Methodist, but somehow I got more value out  of
the  eastern approach to spirituality.   Maybe  it  was  the
differences that changed the perspective.  In any  event,  I
have  been  to  India several times, to Mainland  China,  (I
speak  Mandarin,  major in college)  and  around  the  world
several times, too.  Now days, I would rather travel with  a
partner, so I can share the joy of seeing the wonders of the
world.    Isn't it more fun, when you can ooh and ahh  about
something to someone else?
     So,  I  guess I do have a couple of questions  for  you
too.  What are
your  preferences sexually?   Top, bottom,  versatile,  etc.
I am not into
kinky  stuff myself, so I hope that is not a barrier.     Do
you want a
relationship,  which  is  closed,  or  do  you  envision   a
relationship where we
invite others to participate in our sex lives together.    I
am not really
into  having an "OPEN" relationship in terms of  you  having
sex  without me.   But I can see the excitement of a  three-
way,  as long as you and I are participating together. Also,
I  think it is important for us to have a few guidelines  in
terms  of  safety. Like it is probably a good  idea  to  use
condoms  for anal intercourse, just so we don't pass varying
resistances to each other.  But I don't use condoms for oral
sex  at  all.   I  don't  think there  is  substantial  risk
involved  and  frankly it would feel weird. When  I  suck  a
cock,  I want to suck a cock, not a piece of rubber.   I  do
have  some  porno here, and although I have looked  at  them
from  time  to time, I much prefer having sex with  a  human
being.  I guess it is ok to set the mood, but frankly,  when
I   get  going,  I  forget  the  porno  is  going.   I   get
concentrated  on the interaction between people.     I  also
love  massage, and have a massage table, in case  you  would
like to do massage exchanges.   I think that is a great  way
of   maintaining  excitement  in  a  marriage,  don't   you?
Well,  I  have  rambled on enough.   Hope you are  having  a
great day.... and hope that I hear from you and that I  have
not completely blown you away.  If I haven't, you know it is
only  an  hours'  flight from your house to  mine.   He  he.
You  might  want to take a long weekend to  visit.   Just  a
thought.
Take care...


         I usually would have to think of just the right
thing to say and just the right way to say it, but from this
e-mail, this fool had me questioning way too many things. I
didn't know if corresponding with this man was such a good
idea or not. For one thing, he had sent that nude picture,
talked about me flying out to meet him and about us having a
sexual and lover type relationship, way too soon. He had
mentioned the three-way thing too many times, which made me
wonder if that was really what he was looking for in any
relationship. I also felt that he was trying to impress me
with his worldliness and material possessions way too much.
I was getting somewhat uncomfortable with this entire scene.
I began my e-mail back to him with a somewhat leery, smart-
assed attitude.

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         You still haven't told me where you came across my
web page address. It is obvious that you have seen my page;
otherwise you would not have seen my bio and pictures or
that I was trying to sell my business. I pretty much laid
most everything out there in my web pages. Sure, that is not
all there is to me, but it is fairly much a reliable start.
          I am pretty much just a plain, struggling, down to
earth, poor country boy, trying to make my way in this mixed
up world we live in. I am not impressed with and do not care
about material possessions. If I have it. I have it. If
not.oh well. It is not that important. I have seen way too
many people (especially queens) whose whole world revolves
around what they have and/or who they know. How SAD!!!!
         As I said in my web site, I have ZERO Tolerance for
cheats and/or liars. Glad you feel the same way. I am not as
sure as you seem to be about wasting time with details. I
feel that all I have is time and finding out about someone
is a lot of the fun. Don't get me wrong, I do not and will
not hide or try to deceive anyone. I am brutally honest to a
fault. I am WAY TOO outspoken and opinionated. If someone
asks me a question; then they better expect my answer. They
do not have to agree with it but they will get my opinion.
         Back to the time thingie, I have lived the past
14 years as a single gay man and have become extremely self
reliant and self-sufficient. I have had to be. I tend to be
somewhat stubborn and have to do things for myself. I try
not to infringe on family or friends when I can get
something done for myself. Anyway, having lived alone all
these years, I guess I have settled into a rut of just doing
things by myself and for myself. Not always the most
pleasant way to live but it is the way I live.
         What does this have to do with TIME? Well, 14 years
ago when I first tested positive, my doctors said that I had
3 to 6 months to live.  I told the doctors to "Fuck
OFF". That kind of news does mess with your head and
emotions. But I took the bull by the horns like I usually do
and went about the business of my life. Over the years I
have adjusted to life as a poz person and have sometimes
allowed it to control my life choices. Not Anymore.
         A couple of years ago I decided to start making
changes in my life, to not merely exist in this world but to
really live in it again. That's where the time comes in to
play. After years of watching the so-called parade always
passing me by, it is sometimes difficult to join back in the
whole procession. Times have changed so much since I was out
there in the dating world. I have gotten older and the rules
of the "game" have truly changed. I am not sure I even know
how to do the cruising thing anymore and as far as actually
dating someone. well that just plain scares the shit out of
me. I am cautious, sometimes too much so for my own good. I
do not feel a great rush to jump into the pool until I am
sure that the water is not too deep or too cold. I feel that
I have waited this long so a little while longer
certainly won't hurt me.
         Sexually I am not that active. Meaning that I do
not go out looking for sex, mainly because I find most of
the men I see in the bars to be losers. Either they are out
for only sex and are playing all these stupid games, or they
are the same old bar drunks and druggies who are in the bars
every night. So when I do go out, it is usually to just be
around friends. I apparently get the message across to most
people from my body language, not to mess with me. I do not
cruise and if someone even looks like they might be
interested, I get nervous and instinctively tuck my tail
between my legs and run the other way. This is a trait that
I am trying to change. I have been thrown off of many horses
and have always managed to get back in the saddle, but this
dating thing is a horse that I am having trouble climbing
back on.
   Now, you asked several questions in your e-mail. First of
all about my sexual preference. As I said on my web page, "I
am an extremely aggressive versatile bottom who likes to
share control. Shared control is a LOVER, being in control
of or controlled by, is a TRICK." I am also not into kinky
stuff. However, what one person thinks might be kinky,
another might consider it the norm. I like man-to-man love
making, and when it is two men who truly love and crave each
other.........nothing should be held back from experiencing
each other's body, mind and soul fully while making love. I
am a complete fool for romance.
         As far as open relationships... which you have
mentioned several times...well that is not my cup of tea. I
have had 2 lovers in the past and I never cheated on either
of them. My last one cheated on me all the time but I
figured at least it kept him off my back...literally!!! I
stayed home with the kid. Besides, we lived 42 miles out in
the country from Houston. Anyway, when I am in a marriage
(and that is what I believe it to be), I am totally loyal
and expect my partner to be as well and I most definitely
expect it to be a marriage in every sense of the word. I
guess I am just a good `ol Texas boy. I do not go into a
relationship easily, and take them extremely serious. I am
really very old fashion, down to earth and somewhat
Victorian when it comes to matters of the heart.
         So as far as the third party being added into a
relationship like you have mentioned several times. I agree
that adding another sexual partner works for some people and
can add some amount of spice to a relationship. However, I
tend to be a bit possessive and territorial when it comes to
hearth and home and especially my man.
         My best friend who I have known all my life and his
lover; live in Palm Springs, have been together for going on
19 years and they have always had an open relationship but
only when they each agreed. They still act as if they had
just met last week. It is too cute! It works for them but
they had built a solid loving relationship between the two
of them before they ever started all of that crap. They have
relationship built on total trust and loyalty so for them to
add a trick for a little variety. works fine for them. I
couldn't and wouldn't ever do that. I hope that answered
your question.
         Most of the people I run around with are in long
marriages. One couple here in Denver just had their 26th
anniversary and another is heading on their 17th. I have
other friends who I knew when I lived in Houston who have
been together for their entire adult life. I must say that I
admire all of these couples and am somewhat envious. All I
have ever really wanted was to have a long-term relationship
built on love, respect, trust and loyalty. I will not settle
for anything less.
         Back to your questions and comments. As far as sex,
yes you MUST play safe. I agree with everything you said and
the massage table sounds WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL Anyway,
since I am not out in the gay life that much as far as
tricking and all, I have quite a large selection of porn
films. They help, but in NO WAY take the place of a man's
warm strong body.
   As far as maintaining excitement in a marriage...creative
minds will always find ways to juice up a love affair. One
way could be to take turns setting up a special date once a
month for the other person and then the next month it would
be the other persons turn to do the same. Or how about
coming home to a table draped in black leather with hot pink
and purple confetti sprinkled around it and a candle lit
lobster dinner with 3 different wines? The desert would be
to make love on the table! Is that too kinky for you? Or how
about saddling two horses, taking a long ride to a remote
spot and have a wonderful long picnic lunch. Then unsaddle
the horses and making love on the blankets until the sun
goes down. Still too kinky?  Or how about going camping at a
lake where all the bass fishermen camp. In the middle of the
night the two of you sneak up to the campground showers and
have a go at each other under the shower spray hoping a
fisherman doesn't walk in on you as you devour each other's
bodies?  I know...I AM getting kinky now!!!!!!!!! LOL  But
just food for thought!!!!!!!!!! There are many, many ways to
keep an affair alive and growing.
   Ok my new friend; this has been a real long e-mail. I
hope that I haven't frightened you completely off with all
my ramblings. You asked for honesty and that is what I will
give you. in abundance.
         I enjoyed hearing back from you today and was a bit
surprised by your second picture. Don't misunderstand. It
was GREAT. but just a shock to receive it. You are a very
good-looking man and I like where most of your head seems to
be. You must know that you are capturing my complete
attention. LOL
         Have a GREAT DAY!!!!!!!!! And hope to hear from you
soon.

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          I  hoped my e-mail hadn't been too harsh.  He  had
made  some  important  statements and had  asked  some  very
direct  questions. I felt that I should give him a  complete
and  honest response, so I had tried to answer his questions
exactly  the way I truly felt; to let him know the  type  of
person I was and what I was all about. No bull shit. Nothing
hidden.

          No  sooner  than  I  had hit the  send  button,  I
thought.  "Well, that should really piss him  off!   I  will
probably  never hear from him again after he  reads  all  of
that."

          But  I  did  hear  from  him  again,  a  lot.  Our
electronic   correspondence  became   an   on-going,   daily
occurrence.

          I  told  all  my friends in Denver  about  my  new
stranger  from the Internet. I e-mailed my friends  in  Palm
Spring  and told them all about this guy I was corresponding
with.  I  became  totally infatuated with this  new  way  of
electronic  meeting  and kind of dating.     I  shared  with
everyone what he and I were sending back and forth  to  each
other over this invisible Internet connections.

          In  the following weeks, I relaxed about receiving
mail from this guy and found myself even looking forward  to
getting home each night just to check my e-mail. Getting his
mail  became an important part of my routine. He  loaded  an
ICQ  program  to  his computer so we could  have  real-time,
private  chats  on-line. Sometimes just to be different,  we
would  meet in the Poz chat room on gay.com. Over the course
of the next few months, we told each other almost everything
about  our  lives and what we hoped for in  our  future.  We
talked  about  our  likes and dislikes,  our  ex-loves,  our
families and even some of our fantasies. As time passed  and
we became more comfortable with one another, our e-mails and
conversations in our on-line chats became more explicit  and
sexual in nature.   I even worked up the nerve to trade some
rather  revealing nude photos of myself with  this  man.  We
began  to  have what could only be described as an anonymous
on-line affair; which was somehow extremely erotic. We never
had any other form of communication; never felt the need  to
talk by phone or have any other contact, besides our e-mails
or chatting on ICQ or in one of the chat rooms.

          One day in mid August, we were chatting on ICQ and
he  asked me if I had ever been to Palm Springs; since I had
friends living there.

          Before I had time to begin typing in a response, I
couldn't  believe  what my eyes saw as  his  next  statement
began filling my computer screen.

          "That  would  be a wonderful place for  our  first
meeting,  don't you think? It's a neutral gay  location  for
both of us and it might make things feel more at ease for  a
romantic liaison." He quickly added. "We could spend a  long
weekend together and really get to know each other."

          Without  even  a second thought, my fingers  began
typing  in  the  words I knew I wanted him  to  see  on  his
screen.   "God!  I would love to meet you in  Palm  Springs.
When?" I knew I sounded eager but what the hell.

          "As soon as possible. I don't think I can keep  up
this  computer dating stuff much longer." His response came.
"I  have  to meet you. What's your schedule like  the  first
part  of September?" he too had an urgent sound, even if  it
was just typing on his keyboard and displayed on my computer
screen.

          I  knew  I would do whatever it took; changing  my
work schedule, to fit this long awaited trip in. "Either the
second or third weekend should be good for me." I typed in.

          Before  I  could finish typing my  reply,  he  had
already  begun typing in the next thing on his mind. "Great!
I'll start making the reservations and let you know what the
plans are. This is going to be so wonderful. Finally getting
to  see  you face to face and not having to do all this  God
damn typing shit."

          I laughed and I typed in,  "ROTFLMAO" which means,
in  computer language, rolling on the floor laughing my  ass
off.

          Although the past few months had been exciting and
wonderful in many ways, meeting and seeing him up close and;
hopefully,  personal was going to be just  what  the  doctor
ordered.  He seemed to be feeling pretty much the  same.  He
told  me  that he would check on airline tickets and  resort
availabilities and let me know as soon as he had them locked
in place. We closed off our chat for the night.

         The excitement of an up-coming meeting with him was
something  I  just  had to share with  my  friends  in  Palm
Springs.  I sent them e-mail, telling them of the  plans  we
were making. Besides, I would be able to see them again  and
wanted him to meet them as well.

          The  man must have been on a mission, because  the
very next day, he had everything all lined up. He had booked
me  a ticket to fly directly from Denver to Palm Springs the
second  weekend of September and had reserved us a  room  in
the  Mirage section in the Vista Grande Resort. He scheduled
my  flight out of Denver real early on Thursday morning  and
to  return late the following Monday night. That would  give
us almost five full days together.

          The  next  couple of weeks were hectic and  nerve-
wracking  to  say the least. During the day, I had  to  move
customers around, allowing me the time off from my business.
I had to ask friends to watch my dogs, cat and birds. I sent
my  friends in Palm Springs an e-mail telling them about our
plans to come to the desert. And I HAD to go shopping for  a
suitable  wardrobe.  When you live in a  cold  climate  like
Colorado, you don't have much need for a lot of summer party
clothes. I had my hair done and got a manicure.    I  wanted
everything to be just right. At night, he and I chatted  for
hours  about  the  excitement we  felt  about  our  upcoming
meeting.  It felt like the TIME would never pass before this
trip would finally get here.

          We  each had so much to get done the night  before
our trip to the desert. We only chatted for a short time  on
ICQ, keeping it short and sweet, and telling each other  how
much  we  were looking forward to the next day.  Afterwards,
as  I  began  to  pack  my clothes, I had  the  most  awful,
sickening feelings hit me in the pit of my stomach. What  if
he  and I didn't hit it off? What if he took one look at  me
and  decided that I was not his type, or visa versa for that
matter? What if we were both looking for the same thing  but
just not with each other? What if I overslept and missed  my
plane?  What  if? What if? What if? Every emotional  roller-
coaster  ride I had ever allowed myself to take went through
my brain. All the fears, doubts and insecurities I had built
up  in  my  head  over the years from bad  and  unfulfilling
relationships  had  slapped me in the face  like  a  ton  of
bricks. I began to panic.

          All  the excitement and worrying had kept me awake
most  of the night but I still managed to get myself to  the
airport  that morning in plenty of time to catch my  flight.
Having  taken along a good book to read to keep my mind  off
of  the adventure I was embarking on, I settled into my seat
for  the two-hour flight to Palm Springs and began to  read.
It  didn't work. My mind was filled with both excitement and
doubts. I ordered a Bloody Mary as soon as the plane was  in
the air.

         The flight was uneventful, my brain raced and I had
several  more Bloody Mary's' to help to calm my nerves,  but
as  we landed at the Palm Springs airport, my anxiety kicked
into  full  swing again. I became even more edgy  about  the
upcoming meeting with this man I had been chatting  with  on
the  Internet  for the past few months and was  now  finally
going  to  meet  in real time. Face to face.  Up  close  and
personal.

          "Oh  my  GOD!" I thought as I got into a taxi  and
headed for the resort. "What the fuck was I thinking? I  can
NOT  believe that I am actually doing something this  stupid
and crazy at this stage of my life."

          The taxi driver pulled off of Ramon Road into  the
Warm  Sands  subdivision where most of the gay resorts  were
located. My heart was beating ninety miles an hour.

          "What  if  this  guy is one of  those  cyber  mass
murderers  of gay men?" My thoughts were now at a  peak  and
wouldn't give me any time to relax. "Would we even recognize
each  other? Would we hit it off? Was this going to be  very
awkward?"

          I  had  no idea what to expect. My nerves were  on
end. Every type of horror scenario of doom and disaster  ran
through my mind as the taxi pulled up to the entrance of the
Mirage and stopped.

          He  only  had to drive the short 120 mile distance
from Laguna Beach to Palm Springs, so he had arrived at  the
resort  long before me and had already checked us  into  the
room  we  were to share. He knew what time my plane  was  to
land and was waiting just inside the courtyard. As soon as I
stepped out of the cab and first saw him walking through the
gate  to greet me, all the anxiety and fears quickly  faded.
The  sight  of him took my breath away. He was  even  better
looking in person than any of his pictures had shown.

          "Hey, good lookin'!" he yelled. "I was afraid  you
might of changed your mind about coming."

          "And miss getting' a better look at a hot man like
you. No way!" I was feeling a lot more at ease.

          I pulled my bags from the taxi; we gave each other
an awkward hug in a somewhat formal, man-to-man gesture.

          The  Vista  Grande was a gated, clothing  optional
complex  of  three different gay resorts. He  had  purposely
chosen  the  Mirage because of the type of setting  it  had,
sexually charged. Most of the rooms were separated  only  by
courtyards of maze like trails, twisting and turning through
winding  rock pathways. The place was landscaped in  such  a
way that you would have thought you were walking around some
type  of tropical jungle, with lush palms towering overhead;
drooping pepper trees shaded the courtyard where flowers  of
every  color  sprang up from the beds lining the  sidewalks.
The  rock waterfalls cascaded down to a pool were naked  men
splashed and sun bathed on the rocky outcroppings. It looked
like  it was taken from a Hollywood South Sea gay movie set.
I fell in love with the place.

          He  helped carry my luggage through the  courtyard
and  led  the  way  to our room, which was just  around  the
corner  from  the one of pools and hot tub  area.  We  began
talking  like  long lost, old friends. He  immediately  felt
comfortable to be around and easy to talk with. There didn't
seem  to be any need for the nervousness I had felt earlier.
I  even  dismissed  the  notion of  him  being  a  gay  mass
murderer. Silly me!

          Our  room  was large and inviting. The walls  were
painted in a soft peach color, accented by different  shades
of turquoise, moth, and burgundy pillows placed on a brushed
suede,  tope loveseat on one side of the room and  the  huge
king-size bed with a cream colored chenille bedspread on the
other  side. An over sized mirror; obliviously placed  there
for  viewing any sexual activities, hung behind the head  of
the  bed,  reflecting the entire room. A small table  draped
with a brightly colored, tropical printed cloth sat in front
of  a large window. A couple of rattan chairs were place  at
the  table, looking out over the courtyard. Opposite to  the
window  were an extremely large bathroom with a  shower  and
over-sized  tub, just made for two, and a small  kitchenette
complete  with  a refrigerator, stove, sink,  microwave  and
coffee  pot. Scented candles had been scattered  around  the
room.  The  room had definably been set up for the  type  of
romantic gay holiday we were hoping for.

          "This  is  very, very nice." I entered  the  room,
looking around at our home for the weekend.

          "I  hoped you'd like it!" He seemed pleased.  "Was
the flight alright?" he asked, making small talk as I placed
my bags on the bed.

          I  began unpacking and settling into our temporary
home. "It was great." I snuck a peak at him. "Just too  damn
early.  I  even had a couple of Bloody Mary's, and  I  NEVER
drink that early in the mornin'."

          "Sorry about the time but that was the only flight
out  of  Denver  except for one, real  late  at  night."  He
smiled. "You tired? Do you want to rest for a while or would
you like to go get something to eat? It's only about 10:30."

          "Breakfast sounds good. That crap they  served  on
the  plane was awful." I smiled back at him as he sat on the
loveseat watching me put my things away. "Do we need to call
for a cab?"

          "Well. No.  I have my car, but." he seemed  to  be
searching  for the words. "I thought. if you wanted  to.  we
could just walk." He added, "Maybe see some of the city."

          Having never heard him speak before today, I found
myself  drawn to his voice. There was such a soothing,  deep
quality to it that made me just want to melt. Like the  Pied
Piper  leading all the rats out of the city,  I  would  have
most likely followed him anywhere he wanted me to go.

          "Why  not?"  I  said more as a  statement  than  a
question. "That sounds great. I could use some exercise."

           We  had  both  been  traveling  all  morning  and
something  to eat sounded just right. We headed out  of  the
resort  for the six or seven block walk, to the Arenas  area
of  Palm Springs, where the gay community had set up its own
little   neighborhood,  complete  with   bars,   shops   and
restaurants.

          "The  guy at the front desk told me that we should
go  to  `The Rainbow Cactus Bar and Grill'." He said  as  we
leisurely strolled down the street. "I have no idea what  it
is  like but the desk clerk said that it was close and  that
the food was pretty good."

          "Great!"  I halfway acknowledged. I was  too  busy
looking  at all the palm trees, the mountains and of course,
this  great looking man next to me. "This is really a pretty
city. Is it always this hot here?"

          I  was  amazed  that  it was the  second  week  of
September and the temperature was still hovering around  107
degrees and it was only mid-morning.

         "That's what I've heard. Everyone says that summers
here  are  a real bitch. The temperature gets to around  125
degrees  or  higher and stays there for weeks,  if  not  for
months."  He spotted the `Cactus' as we rounded the  corner.
"There it is."

          It  had  not  taken that much  time  to  walk  the
distance from the resort to the restaurant, but by the  time
we  made  it there; breakfast was no longer on the menu.  We
had missed breakfast completely; it was more like lunch.

          `The  Rainbow  Cactus' was a fairly  large  place,
having a room with a piano bar and a separate dinning  area.
It  was a totally gay establishment; nicely decorated  in  a
sophisticated  southwestern theme. Even though  we  had  not
called  for  reservations, the hostess was able to  seat  us
right away at a table for two.

           We  didn't  really  need to go  through  all  the
formalities that strangers have to. We had; after all,  been
chatting  back  and forth over the Internet for  quiet  some
time  now. We sat and talked before, during and after lunch,
not  in  any hurry for anything except getting to know  each
other,  and  to  our  surprise, we had gotten  to  know  one
another  better in the short amount of time we had spent  so
far that morning than we had in all the months leading up to
this moment. Neither one of us knew yet, if our meeting  was
going to go anywhere other than this one weekend fling.  The
attraction  was  definitely there and, if nothing  else,  we
were  very much enjoying each other's company in a beautiful
desert gay resort town.

          Time  flew by so quickly. What seemed to  be  less
than  an hour had in fact been almost three. We had  sat  in
the  restaurant  talking, laughing and just plain  having  a
good time. He and I seemed to be sharing this moment.

          There  appeared to be some form of sexual  tension
building, which was perfectly natural. I sensed it and  felt
that he was aware of it as well.  That comfortable, familiar
tension;  almost  like wearing a favorite  old  t-shirt  and
tattered jeans around the house, when no one else is  around
to  see. Even if the clothes do look like shit, they feel so
warm  and  good on, that you have no hang-ups about  wearing
such  a  tacky outfit. Secretly, we each wanted to  just  go
back  to the resort and rip each other's clothes off but  we
each knew that there had to be some amount of restraint  for
the  time  being.  Besides,  we  had  all  weekend  to  give
ourselves over to absolute pleasure.

         We left the restaurant, deciding to walk around the
streets and do some window-shopping. We made our way over to
Palm  Canyon  Drive, a block away, and to the main  business
district of Palm Springs. We didn't give a second thought to
touching each other's shoulders or putting our hands  around
each  other's  waist  from time to time  as  we  walked  the
streets.       Even   though  this  section  was   basically
straight; as if there was anywhere in Palm Springs that  was
basically  straight, no one seemed to care or to give  us  a
second glance.

         We strolled down the main avenue, lined with shops,
clubs and restaurants. It surprised me just how many gay men
were  doing exactly the same thing as we were and how normal
it  all  was.  The  locals and other  business  people  knew
exactly  where their money was coming from. What was  called
the  `season'; when the majority of all of these gay out  of
town  guest inundated the resorts, hotels and private homes,
was from late September until the end of May.   We had timed
our  trip to be just before the season was to start  kicking
into full swing.

         Gay men had almost taken over the entire valley. In
the  past year, 83% of the homes bought in the Palm  Springs
had  been bought by gay men. It was quickly becoming one  of
the  country's fastest growing gay Mecca's. Men from all  of
the  United  States  and  even  around  the  world  had  re-
discovered  the beauty of the desert. The gay  resorts  were
usually filled every weekend, all year long with gay men  of
all ages, shapes and sizes.

      The  afternoon sun had warmed the air and was  beating
down  on  us  with all the furry the desert  had  to  offer.
Walking the streets in the mid-afternoon sun and 107  degree
heat  was  something neither of us was used to.  Dehydration
was starting to take its toll, so we decided to head back to
the  resort  for something cool to drink and a  dip  in  the
pool.

       We walked up Warm Sands toward the Mirage and noticed
most  of  the resorts had begun filling up for the  weekend.
Everywhere  you looked you could see men checking  in;  most
seemed to be coupled off.  There were still plenty of single
men cruising around, who you just knew were there for a wild
weekend  and  hoping for a wild sexual fling of  some  sort.
This  was  certainly  the right place for  anyone  who  just
wanted  to  be around a bunch of horny gay men.  If  someone
couldn't get laid in this city, then they either they didn't
really want it, or they were partying too much and just  not
paying attention.

         He turned the key in the gate and we stepped inside
the  courtyard. Everywhere we looked, naked men were milling
around, checking out the other guest.

          I was a little bit uncomfortable by all the nudity
and  thought; "I sure hope he doesn't expect me to go to the
pool naked."

          We  passed the pool and hot tub area and  made  it
back  to  our  room. I sat on the loveseat,  taking  off  my
shoes,  and watched as he pulled his swim trucks out of  one
of the dresser drawers.

         "I sure hope we can find a place to sit. Looks like
there're  faggots everywhere out there." He  joked,  heading
into the bathroom to change.

          "Thank God! He's gonna wear a bathing suit too." I
thought to myself. I took mine out of the dresser.

         We each changed privately in the bathroom; more out
of  shyness than anything else, into our swimming suits then
headed  outside.  We were lucky to find a couple  of  lounge
chairs by the edge of the pool, shaded by a low hanging palm
tree. We spread our towels out and stretched out on them. We
were  in  our  own little world; wrapped up in each  other's
company.  We  were aware of the other guest using  the  pool
area  but  not  overly  concerned with  their  presence.  We
continued our now non-stop talking,

          For the first time, lying there, learning more and
more  of each other, I let my eyes study his partially  nude
body. I had seen photos of him totally nude via the Internet
but  this  was  real, life size and right  in  front  of  my
goggling eyes.

          "He  really is one gorgeous hunk of a man," I told
myself.

          He  oozed sexuality. His body was strong, firm and
tanned.  I liked what I saw. I noticed how nicely the  pouch
of  his swim trucks was filled out. He lifted his arms above
his head as he stretched his body from head to toe. His back
arched  up off the lounge chair. He knew that I was watching
him. He turned his face toward me and smiled.

          "God, I've been caught." I thought to myself. "But
he  is REALLY FUCKING GORGEOUS!"  I moved my eyes to the men
in the pool.

         "Isn't it great out here?" he asked.

          My  gaze returned to his face and his bright  blue
eyes,  which were giving me a once over. He seemed  to  like
what  he was seeing. He was looking so intensely at me  that
it made me kind of nervous.

           I  smiled back at him. "I can't remember  when  I
have  enjoyed a place as much as I am enjoying  it  here.  I
wish I could just stay here forever."

          We  stared at each other for a few seconds. It was
almost  as  if  we  didn't really need to  use  language  to
communicate,  but  we did finally and just  about  on  every
topic.  Many  had already been discussed over  the  net  but
having  them reinforced, face-to-face, made them  have  much
more  meaning. He surprised me by reaching over,  taking  my
hand  and holding it as we continued to talk, lying side  by
side  on  the lounge chairs. The only subject that  did  not
resurface from our Internet chats was sex. Imagine that!

          We  never made it into the pool or even off of our
lounge  chairs. We were far more intent on listening to  the
other  person  and  learning as much as we  possibly  could.
Again, time slipped by too quickly.

          "Where's the fuckin' time gone?" he asked  as  the
sun began to set behind the mountains. "I can't believe that
it's  this late. We probably should be thinking about  where
to go for dinner."

         "Wow!" I grinned. "Didn't we just have lunch?"

          The  crystal  blue sky lit up with hints  of  red,
orange and purple from the partially hidden sun peaking  out
from behind one of the mountains that surrounded the valley.
In  this type of setting, I was reluctant to leave the  pool
area, mainly because I was sure enjoying seeing his scantily
clad  body on the lounge chair next to me.  We had only been
at  the  pool for a little over an hour and a half and  time
was  again  playing with us. The hot desert  air  had  again
rekindled our hunger.

          "Didn't  that  guy at the `Cactus' say  that  most
places  required  a  reservation?"  I  tried  to  avert   my
attention from his body as he stood and bent over to pick up
his  belongings. I got a good look at his strong back, well-
defined shoulders and an ass you could bounce a quarter  off
of.    "It's  just our first day together," I  told  myself.
"Plenty more time to check things out."

         "Yeah. Guess it would be wise to call as soon as we
get to the room and make one somewhere." He added. "What  do
you think? Around 7:00. 7:30?"

         He did not catch me looking this time. "That sounds
about right." Standing, I picked up my towel. "What time  is
it anyway?" I had forgotten my watch in the room.

          He threw his towel over his shoulder and looked at
his wrist. "It's comin' up on 5:30."

         We started toward back to our room and ran into the
manager  of  the  resort, who nodded  our  direction  as  we
rounded the corner of some shrubs.

         I  nodded as he approached, "Hi there!" and  asked.
"Where's a good place to eat besides the `Cactus'?"

          "Well," he stopped and scratched his head.  "Let's
see.  There's a new place that just opened not too long ago,
called  `Blame It On Midnight'. I've heard it's  real  nice.
Kind  of up-scale. I believe they have a live singer there."
He  thought a second before adding, "Or you might  try  this
little  place  called `Oscar's' over by  the  airport.  It's
small but the food is very good."

          We  thanked him for the information and  proceeded
toward our room.  Once inside, we hashed over which place we
should try. `Blame It On Midnight' sounded like it might  be
more  the  type  of place we would enjoy. He picked  up  the
phone  and called for reservations; I began getting my stuff
together to clean up for our evening out.

         We went about getting our clothes together; passing
each  other  in the warmly lit setting of our room,  talking
the  entire time.  The windows were open, allowing the  warm
night  air  to fill the room. The sunset, peaking  out  from
behind  the  San Jacinto Mountains, cast its orangey-reddish
glow  on  everything through the partially opened drapes.  I
had  told him at the pool about my apprehensions; the  night
before  I left Denver and on the plane, over meeting him.  I
now  wondered  why I had ever been so scared  in  the  first
place. Everything about being with this man seemed to be  so
natural; so wonderful.

          We  each  took  our turn in the bathroom  for  our
showers,  emerging fully clothed and ready for the  evening.
He  wore a light blue, button down, cotton shirt with  black
docker  pants.  I too wore black dockers but  my  choice  of
shirts was a gray silk number.

          "This  is  going  to  be great."  He  said  as  he
collected his wallet and change off the dresser.

         "I hope it's as good as that manager says it is." I
added, shutting the windows and pulling the drapes closed.

           I  turned on a small light by the side of the bed
and  shut the rest of the lights in the room off.   I notice
that  the soft shadows cast by the night-light gave the room
a  whole  new  look.  It looked and felt very  romantic.  He
noticed it too.

         "That's nice." He commented.

         By seven, we were dressed and heading for the door,
which  he opened and held for me to exit. I don't know what,
but something stopped me from going through it. I turned  to
him  and our eyes met, much the same as they had many  other
times  that  day.  But  this time, something  was  defiantly
different.  There  was a very strange,  seriousness  to  his
look.  I  did not know what he was thinking but I knew  that
whatever it was, he was about to share it with me.

         Without saying a word, he took hold of my waist and
pulled  me to him. Our lips connected with a burning hunger;
our bodies locked in a passionate embrace.  It was our first
real  kiss,  the first of many to come. There was  a  tender
strength to the kiss, soft yet firm and in that moment, full
of  the  passion. His tongue parted my lips, ready to search
the inside of my mouth. He found me eager to respond with my
own.  Our  tongues played a musical dance of delight  as  we
continued to explore each other's lips and mouths.

          We  both  knew  what was happening  at  that  very
moment;  it  was natural, real and spontaneous.   We  didn't
have  any control over it; nor would we have wanted to  stop
what was happening, even if we could.

         There  in  the  doorway to  our  room,  we  kissed,
oblivious to the outside world of the other guest who  where
still  roaming  around the courtyard. We only  stopped  long
enough  to look into each other's eyes once more. The joking
lighthearted  mood we had shared, as we were  getting  ready
for  the evening had turned to serious gazes deep into  each
other's eyes.  He was looking at me in a fashion, which made
me  feel that I was the only person on the face of the earth
at that point in time.  I studied his face; looking into his
piercing, steel blue eyes.

          Several guys passed by on their way back to  their
rooms  from  the  pool and saw us standing in  our  doorway,
fully  dressed, and locked in what could only be interpreted
as a `moment'.

         We heard one man tell his companion as they passed,
"That  looks Hot!" Then he coaxed us on by jokingly  adding,
"Go ahead on you two! You know you both want it."

          We  turned  and  smiled at the  intruder  who  had
momentarily  interrupted our display of desires and  brought
us  back  to  the  reality of where we actually  were.   The
intruder  had been right. We were both hungry for  something
other than supper.

          Here we were, standing in the doorway to our room;
carrying on as if we were the only people around. There  was
absolutely  nothing wrong with what we were doing.  We  were
just  two gay men, getting to know one another, in the  most
normal  way for gay men to interact with each other  without
having a bedroom scene right then and there. After all, this
was  a  gay resort and men often hooked up in this  type  of
setting;  but  what was transpiring between us  was  somehow
more  than  just the typical gay hooking up scene.  We  were
sharing something special and we both knew it.

         I shyly buried my face into his shoulder, in a sort
of a coy, false embarrassment, as the intruders who had made
the  comments  passed  on  by, leaving  us  to  our  doorway
encounter.

          His  hand slid down my body searching for my hand.
Once he found it, he took it in his and led me back into our
room, away from prying eyes. Closing the door behind us,  we
began   another  long  romantic  kiss.  Our  bodies   became
entangled as we grasped at each other, jockeying to find the
best  vantage  point  as we each tried  to  pull  the  other
closer. We were in the beginning throes of lust.

          Without once breaking our embrace, we covered  the
eight  foot distance from the door to the bed; falling  onto
it  while still wrapped tightly in each other's arms. He lay
on  top  of  me;  our  tongues searched the  others'  mouth,
sucking in the warmth and wetness of the prolonged kiss.  We
nibbled  on lips, playfully exchanging the softness  of  our
kisses  for  a firmer, more forceful locking of mouths.  Our
hands  began roaming over each other's body. We had no  need
to  speak. We held each other so tight that it seemed we had
become  one  and our bodies were doing all the  talking.  We
maneuvered  ourselves around the confines of  the  king-size
bed,  tossing and turning; our kisses became more  and  more
feverish.  The  looks  of  lust, mixed  with  uncontrollable
desire, were obvious to both of us as we took turns rolling,
first one then the other, on top of each other.

           There  were  no  `tops'  or  `bottoms'  here.  No
`dominant'  or `passive'. It did not a matter  who  was  the
butchest or nelliest. No need to role-play. This was the way
a man makes love to another man, nothing more, nothing less.
We  were two healthy gay men, in the prime of our lives  and
were  in the beginning stages of making love. The only  time
our  lips  parted  was to look into each other's  eyes.  The
moans  and  groans of pleasure from the heat and passion  of
our  kissing  session  were steadily building.  We  hungrily
assaulted  each other, man to man, and yet,  we  were  still
fully clothed.

           I  maneuvered  myself on top of him  and  propped
myself  up  on his chest with my left forearm,  feeling  the
strength  of  his chest through his shirt.   With  my  right
hand,  I  began  to  stroke his face with my  fingertips.  I
watched every movement as I ran the tips of my fingers  over
his  lips, along the rim of his jaw, up his brow, along  his
eyebrows, down his nose and back to his lips again, only  to
repeat the motion again and again on each side of his  face.
I  wanted to see every inch of his face and feel,  as  if  I
were  doing  Braille, every feature. I wanted to  learn  his
face  so  completely that I would never forget its strength,
beauty, kindness and sexuality. I somehow knew that I had to
be  able  to  recall  every characteristic  of  him  without
actually having to physically see any of them. I became lost
in  his  face. I ran my hand through the soft dark locks  of
his thick brown hair. I was in heat.

          He  smiled at me, knowing exactly what I  must  be
thinking  and  doing.  He pulled me back down  to  his  warm
tender  lips  and began kissing me once more. He  rolled  me
onto  my back, resuming his position on top once again.  Our
passions  were  growing with every second that  passed,  and
yet, we were still fully clothed.

          Finally, he broke our kiss; long enough to say, "I
wanted  this  to happen. had hoped this would  happen.  long
before  this  weekend. ever since I first laid eyes  on  you
back when we first started chatting on the net."

         I was about to say that I had felt the same way but
his  lips returned to mine, engulfing them with an even more
ferocious  kiss; as if he was trying to express his  desires
with  the  voracity of his mouth on mine. The way  this  man
kissed me had me reeling in sheer delight.

          All  of  my senses had been awakened by  the  very
touch  of  this man.  Through our clothes, I could feel  the
heat  from his body on mine. His hands stroked my  body,  as
mine  did  his. We lie there, lips locked together;  wrapped
tightly in each other's arms.

          Still not letting go, he rolled off of me onto his
right side and I turned onto my left side to face him. As we
lie  there, side-by-side on the bed, we quietly stared  into
one  another's  eyes. The sexual tension was there  and  had
been  since our first meeting. That was obvious.  No  longer
were we acting solely on our animal instinct for lust.

          "You  feel  so  good." I murmured. My  right  hand
rubbed the bicep of his left arm.

          For  the  first time that night, there was  a  new
manly  softness  to  him.  "So do you  darlin'."  He  gently
touched  the  side of my face with the fingers of  his  left
hand. "So do you."

         We lay there talking, kissing and enjoying the feel
of  each  other's arms holding onto the prize of  the  other
person's  body. We each were too afraid to let our  feelings
be  known but knew that what was happening was astonishingly
special.  Neither  of us had yet made a move  to  grope  the
other's  crotches; there did not seem to be  any  hurry.  We
knew, this was something different and, like I said, we were
still fully clothed.

          Since  we  had  shifted on the bed to  our  sides,
facing  each other, we were better able to explore with  our
hands,  parts  of  our bodies that had  so  far,  been  left
unclaimed. His left hand began to run up and down my  spine,
which sent shivers the entire length of it.

          As I looked at him, I was filled with a lust I had
not  felt  in a very long time. Something else was happening
to me.  My heart felt full. I had an uncontrollable sense of
completeness. I leaned up over his chest and took  his  head
in  my  hands and softly kissed his lips. From  the  way  he
responded,  he must have been feeling something as  well.  I
started to pull away from him only to be stopped. He  pulled
me back down, returning yet another tender kiss to my lips.

         Neither one of us wanted to rush any aspect of what
seemed to be the beginning of a night of, over the wall, man
to  man passion. The excitement of our impending desires was
still very strong; yet we were somehow managing to keep calm
the lust in our loins. He pulled back, studying my face.

          "God, you feel good." I finally broke the silence.
"I  had no idea this was going to ." I broke off.   "I'm not
sure  I  understand exactly what is happenin' here." I  felt
that I might be going to far, too soon. I altered what I was
about  to  say.  "I can sure tell you one thing. we probably
should've met moths ago."

          I  ran my right hand along the length of his  left
arm  from  his shoulder down to his fingertips; feeling  his
strength through the material of his cotton shirt.

          "When  I first saw you this mornin, I was  really,
really  taken  back by just how gorgeous you are."  I  could
tell that I had made him blush a little.

          He  started to say something but I quickly stopped
him  by  touching  my fingers to his lips. "Please.  Let  me
finish.   I  don't  know if I'll have the nerve  to  say  it
later."  I  continued. "It's just that. it's been over  five
years since I've been with a man sexually and even that many
more  since  I was with someone who could make me  feel  the
things  that you have so far today.  Hell. Now I'm not  even
sure  that  anyone  has ever made me feel this  way  before.
ever, ever in life"

          I  froze in mid-thought, fearing that I was  again
letting  my emotions over-run my logic and mouth. I  had  to
get it out. "Look, I don't know if you're goin' through what
I  am  right now. I mean. emotionally, but this is somethin'
more than just sex or tricking for me."

         "There," I thought.  "I said it."

          "I  don't know if I am making any sense. or making
myself  very  clear, but.." Again I stopped short.  I  could
tell by his expression that he completely understood what  I
was saying.

          "Shhh!" He put his fingers to my lips.  "You don't
have to say a word. I know exactly what you mean."

          He  smiled  at me and before I could  continue  my
babbling, he laid me back and moved his chest up over mine.

          With  his upper torso hovering over me,  he  said,
"Baby.  Don't you know by now that this is the only  way  it
could've  possibly been?" He kissed my cheek.  "I've  wanted
you  all  afternoon. More than you'll ever know. Hell,  I've
wanted you ever since I first saw your web page." His  right
hand  touched my cheek.  "Sure I was thinkin' with my crotch
at  first, but then. damn. look at you." He continued,  "The
whole  time  we were eating lunch and later sitting  by  the
pool.all  I  wanted to do was to jump your bones."  He  bent
down  and  once more kissed my lips. "When I first  saw  you
getting  out of that taxi this morning, I knew  that  I  had
finally met the man of my dreams."

          We  had  been chatting on-line all this time;  for
months, and had even exchanged pictures of each other;  nude
photos,  but none of that could have prepared either  of  us
for what was happening between us right then and there.

          He  caressed  my face as he spoke, alleviating  my
earlier concerns. "We'll just take it slow and easy, and see
what develops."

         "God! You know just what to say." I smiled, more at
ease.  "I was afraid I was the only one who was getting  all
emotional  and mushy. not to mention, thinkin' like  a  sex-
starved pig." I tried to make the mood a little more  light-
hearted.   "By  the way big guy, we still have  our  clothes
on."

          Having  tempered our passion with conversation,  I
rolled  him  off  of me and onto his back.  I  re-positioned
myself  over him in the same fashion as he had just been  to
me  and landed a huge wet kiss to his lips.  As we lay there
making  out,  our  hands once more began roaming  over  each
other's bodies; this time with more intensity.

         I began kissing down the right side of his neck and
began rubbing his chest with my left hand, playing with  his
nipples  through his shirt. My mouth moved down to his  neck
and  then toward his chest.  He lay there sighing, his  eyes
closed.  His right forearm crossed over his brow,  his  left
hand  stroking the top of my head. He was moaning softly  as
my hands ran the length of his torso, feeling the muscles of
his arms, chest and sides.  I made my way down his neck with
my  mouth, across his massive pectoral muscles, finding  his
nipples  and sucking on them, first one and then the  other,
through the thin material of his buttoned shirt.

          With my left hand firmly fixed to his waist and my
lips  working on his nipples; I felt braver and  allowed  my
right  hand  to slide down to his belt and then even  lower.
For  an instant my fingers ever so lightly rubbed across the
top of his crotch.

         He let out a slow, low moan. "Mmm!"

          I  had  to restrain myself from not just  grabbing
hold  of his growing bulge, like I really wanted to do. "Not
yet! Not yet!" I told myself.

          I  did not linger. I passed the area of my desires
and  moved  my  hand lower to feel the inside of  his  right
thigh.  I massaged his upper leg for a while and then  began
to raise my hand back up, towards his torso. I moved my hand
over to his left thigh and this time I did everything I  had
just  done on the right side of his body, except in  reverse
on the left side of body.

          I  made sure that I took whatever time I felt  was
needed for the body part I was working on with both my hands
and  my  mouth. He lifted his head and watched as  my  mouth
slowly  made my ascent back up to his waiting lips.  and  we
still had our clothes on!

          We began to kiss again but this time there was  no
holding  back  on  either of our parts. The  levels  of  our
hormones  were about to overtake whatever restraint  we  had
managed to keep thus far. No sooner had I reached his  mouth
and  began kissing him, we started a rolling motion  on  the
bed.  Our  bodies  locked together in an all  out  wrestling
match where there only could be two winners.

          We  tossed  and  turned on the  bed,  managing  to
destroy  whatever  covers  had yet  been  left  undisturbed.
Animal  sounds  were  coming from deep inside  both  of  our
throats, breaking the silence of the desert night much  like
the  sounds of two male big horned sheep, sparring  for  the
dominant  position  in the herd on an early  Rocky  Mountain
morning. Had anyone been in earshot of our room; they  would
have thought that some sort of porn film was being made,  or
at  least,  a  small  war was being waged.  Yet,  there  was
nothing pornographic or war like about what was taking place
in  that  room  and on that bed.  Had anyone  listened  long
enough,  they could have easily managed to figure  out  that
what  they were listening to was just two men.. making  love
to each other. as two men.

         We jostled around and ended up in the middle of the
bed,  setting on our haunches facing each other,  almost  in
prayer  positions.  I wrapped my arms around his  shoulders.
He placed his hands on my waist. We leaned into each other's
lips  and  held  our embrace as we kissed passionately.  His
hands moved down to cup the cheeks of my ass, raising me  up
onto  my  knees  from  my squatting  position.    His  mouth
trailed  off mine, only to slide down my throat as  I  knelt
slightly  over  him. His mouth paused at the opening  of  my
shirt  but he did not stop there. He raised my left arm  and
began sucking at my armpit before moving on to my chest.  As
I knelt on the bed between his spread legs, he began to chew
on  my  nipples through my shirt, as I had done to him  only
minutes earlier. I could feel the heat of his mouth and  the
lust  in  his  actions, as he worked my tits for  the  first
time.

          All too soon he began to move. I had expected  him
to  return to the same upright position that I was in but he
surprised me; he scooted himself down onto the bed,  holding
onto  my  waist with his left hand and using his  mouth,  he
chewed at my stomach. At the same time, he placed his  right
hand over the bulge in my pants and gently squeezed.

          I  let  out a gasp. "Ohhh!" I looked down from  my
kneeling  position,  his head almost in  my  lap.  My  hands
clutched at his shoulders.

          His  left  hand moved to firmly conquer the  right
cheek  of my ass.  His mouth lowered. He now had moved  down
enough  to  reposition himself, lying on the  bed,  with  me
kneeling over him.

          "Augh  fuck!" My head tilted back and a  long  low
moan  escaped  my throat as the wetness of  his  open  mouth
closed over the hard-on in my pants. "Mmmmm!"

          My fingers grabbed hold of locks of his hair as he
sucked in and blew out hot air on my still rising mound. The
feeling  was fantastic. I could feel the heat of his  breath
as  he  intently worked my cock through the confines  of  my
trousers.

          I  was  growing more eager to get him out  of  his
clothes, as well as me out of mine. He had me so worked  up;
I  thought I would bust if we didn't get out of our  clothes
real fucking soon and down to the nitty-gritty, so to speak.

            I  leaned  down,  taking  him  by  his  armpits,
indicating  that I wanted him to move back up.  Reluctantly,
he  pulled his mouth away from my crotch and started to come
back  to  the same crouching position as I was in. I  didn't
give him the chance to get there; I met him half way.

           I  lowered myself down to meet him and  began  to
pull  his  shirt out of his pants and up his torso, exposing
his  chest for the first time since we had left the pool.  I
hungrily  pulled his shirt over his head and completely  off
without  unbuttoning it. In the dim light of the  room,  his
chest  had  taken on a different look from what I  had  seen
that  afternoon.  The  massive expanse  of  it  seemed  even
larger, more defined. The light covering of soft brown  body
hair  framed  his rounded pectoral muscles and trailed  down
the  center of a well-rippled abdomen.  I was eager to touch
him. I ran my hands along his sides and over his pecs; again
flirting  with his nipples before continuing to explore  the
rest of his perfectly sculptured chest.

          He started to undo my shirt. By the time he had it
unbuttoned and off, the heat between us had built to a point
that we could not longer contain ourselves. We were sweating
like  whores in church about to give their first  testimony.
Lust  had  taken  over. We half lay, half  sat  on  the  bed
admiring  each  other's chest; running our  hands  over  the
other person's body.

         "God!  Man, I want you so much!" he growled.

          "Uhmm.  Baby.  I think you've got me."  I  halfway
joked.

          But this was, no joke. By now, I would have gladly
let this man do anything and everything that he wanted to do
to me!

         He laid me back onto the bed once more and climbing
on  top of me, kissed me on the side of my face. He took  my
hands  in  his  and raised my arms up over my head,  holding
them there as if to control the next interlude. I could tell
by  his  demeanor that he didn't want me to move  from  this
position while he pressed his massive frame down against  my
smaller body. I left my arms stretched out above my head.

          He  went  to  work. I could feel his pulsing  cock
grinding  against mine as he began to kiss his way  down  my
naked  chest, devouring every inch of it with his  hot,  wet
mouth.  His hands slid down the length of my arms and rubbed
over  my  chest;  down my sides and finally  lowered  to  my
crotch.  He  began searching the contents of my  pants.  His
mouth  followed suit and he worked his lips from my  nipples
all the way down to the top of my pants. Slowly he moved his
mouth  further  down, placing his lips over  my  bulge  once
more.  I  could  feel  the heat of  his  mouth  through  the
strained  material  of my fly as he lightly  chewed  at  the
fabric. I lay back in ecstasy, my head spinning.

          "Mmm!"  I  let  out a low, cat like  moan,  as  he
continued the manipulation of my crotch with his mouth.

         He knew he had me right where he wanted me. Hell, I
was  right were I wanted to be! In this game of control,  no
control, we each had been taking turns as the aggressor.  It
was  the most natural thing for us to be doing.  I knew;  at
that point, that he was the one in total control and I liked
it.  I  had  always  been  an extremely  aggressive,  active
bottom;  been a sucker for a man who took total control  yet
allowed me to be just as active in the love making.

          Being  the greedy pig from Hell that I am,  I  was
eager to have a go at him myself.  I certainly did not  want
to  be  left out and could no longer just stay lye there  in
the  position he had placed me. I propped myself  up  on  my
elbows,  looking  down at his head, eagerly  sucking  in  my
stiffening  mound hiding beneath my pants. It felt  so  damn
good! I thought it only fair to let him continue doing  what
he  was doing; for the time being anyway, like I could  have
stopped  him  even  if  I  had wanted  to.  Besides,  I  was
thoroughly enjoying every minute of his mouth lapping at  my
cock.

          He had now twice gone down on me, so to speak, and
I  had  yet  been  able to get my mouth  anywhere  near  his
basket. He sensed that I was watching and instinctively knew
that  it was time for a change of scenery. He pulled himself
away  from  my crotch and shifted his body back  on  top  of
mine.  Face-to-face once more, our lips locked.

          "Damn,  man!" I broke our kiss. "Do you  have  any
idea  what  the hell you are doin' to me?" At least  now  we
each had our shirts off.   "I don't know how much I can take
of  this." I lied. I could and would take as much as he  was
willing to dish out.

          I put my arms around his neck, pulling him tightly
to  my  body. Again, I could feel the stiffness of his  cock
pressing  against my own raging hard on, each straining  and
begging to be released from the confines of our pants.

          "You  have me so damn hot and bothered." I nibbled
on his ear.

          "Baby, I think we are both all hot and bothered. I
can  tell  you want it as much as I do." He stoked  my  face
with  his  hand.  "You feel so God damn good." He  whispered
and  repositioned his hands under each of my shoulders as  I
lay  under  him.  "I could just eat you up." He  nibbled  my
ear.

          His hips pushed forward and rotated, grinding  his
crotch  harder  into mine. I matched his hip movements;  our
rhythm  fed off the other person, like two ballroom  dancers
moving to the sensual tempo of a romantic bolero.

         For  the  first  time, I became  acutely  aware  of
feeling his naked chest pressed up against me. I marveled at
the texture of his body hairs as he brushed his chest across
my own chest hairs.

          My  hands  ran up and down his back;  feeling  his
shoulder  muscles  and spine, stopping at  the  top  of  the
waistband  to his pants. I could feel that he  had  a  small
patch of hair in the small of his back. I had noticed it  at
the  pool  earlier and wondered if it went any further  down
his  cheeks.  I wished like hell that his pants were already
off.  I  moved  my hands lower to his ass and  squeezed  his
butt.  Like  two  firm, round melons, his  rear  was  surely
something  to behold. Just like I had thought while  at  the
pool,  you  could  definitely bounce  a  quarter  off  these
puppies. I knew his backside was nicely developed, but I had
no idea that it would be this round and firm.

          Without  thinking, I moaned.    "Mmmm!  Great  ass
Man!"  Jokingly, I added before I could stop myself. "Praise
Jesus!  A  nice  big `ol bubble butt." I squeezed  the  twin
mounds of firm man ass.

        "Thanks." He smiled. "Glad you like It."  He  flexed
the muscles in his cheeks in recognition of my comment.

          Then, without warning and to my disappointment, he
rolled  off of me.  He lay on his back beside me and offered
up his shoulder for me to lay my head on. I snuggled in like
a  puppy  nudging its way into the middle of a pile of  pups
for a nap. I, however, had no intention of taking a nap.   I
could  see his wonderful chest and wanted very much to enjoy
the pleasures of getting to know every inch of it. He leaned
over;  with  his arm under my head, pulled me  up  some  and
kissed  me on my forehead. I turned my face up to meet  his;
we again searched each other's eyes. The night was young and
there was no rush to our lovemaking; we kissed.

         The softness of our kisses once again began to turn
into  the heated, more passionate ones of earlier. Our hands
earnestly  started  roaming over each  other's  bodies.  The
passions,  which had been peaking and subsiding and  peaking
again,  so far this evening were back at full throttle.  Our
lips again burned with desire. Our bodies craved to feel the
other person's naked flesh.

          We had both begun to strongly feel the need of our
sexual desires and knew there was no turning back. He  moved
our bodies to the edge of the bed. He stood, took my hand in
his  and directed me to stand with him. I followed his lead.
We needed this. We wanted it. We had to have it.

          He  lowered  his  hands to my trousers  and  began
undoing  my belt. I started to undo his as well.  We  pulled
and  tugged at each other's pants; all the while, locked  in
an  embrace. Running our tongues around and sucking on  each
other's  mouths.  We  fumbled with the  buttons,  snaps  and
zippers as we tore down the other person's pants, leaving us
both standing in only our underwear. Using our feet, we each
quickly kicked off our shoes and frantically stepped out  of
our  pants which where now lying around our ankles.  Panting
from  anticipation, excitement and the on-going lock we  had
on each other's mouths; we fell back; side-by-side, onto the
bed.

          I  maneuvered myself to climb on top  of  him.   I
thought  that my heart would stop as I felt his  naked  body
under  mine.  I  had wanted him all day and wanted  this  to
happen. Now the time was finally here. Even in the dimly lit
room,  I could see his body ever so clearly and knew it  was
the type of body that I could and would worship.

         I smiled to myself. "The bible talks about the sins
of  worshiping false idols." This man was no false idol.  He
was perfect. As perfect as I would have imagined God had had
in  mind for his Adam. "So, if this is my false idol. so  be
it!"  my  thoughts  went wild.  "Make me a  sinner.  I  will
gladly worship!" I returned my attention back to this God of
a man lying under me.

         I wanted to give him the most pleasure that I could
possibly  give  any  man; to show him  just  how  special  I
thought he was.

          Using  my hands on his arms and chest to hold  him
still,  I  pinned him beneath me and began kissing down  the
right  side of his neck; trolling my way over to the outside
of  his  right  shoulder.   Slowly, I started working,  half
kissing  and half chewing, down his arm until I had  reached
his  fingertips. I sucked on his fingers, one at a  time.  I
removed my left hand from his chest and took his right hand,
lifted  his  arm  and started working my  way  back  up  the
underside of his arm with my lips. He lay back on  the  bed;
soft  moans came from his throat. I lifted his arm up  above
his head and continued my licking action up to his armpit. I
chewed  lightly  on the muscle connecting  his  arm  to  his
chest.

          Even though we had both showered, the desert  heat
and  our passions had caused us to work up quiet a sweat.  I
could  smell his manliness.  It was totally erotic. He smelt
clean and masculine.

          Still holding his right arm above his head with my
left  hand, I started sucking on the hairs under his armpit.
The  fingers of my right hand were running along the  curves
of  his  chest, feeling his muscular frame and playing  with
his soft curls of hairs.

          I  heard him moan, "Oh man!!!!" and I knew  I  had
gotten his attention.

          I let go of his right arm and turned the attack of
my mouth to his chest and nipples; not once leaving any part
of  his flesh along my path go untouched by my lips. I  went
for  first one nipple and then the other. My tongue  flicked
at  each of them before I took one in my mouth, chewing  and
sucking  on it all at the same time. My teeth pulled  gently
on their tips while my hands slid down his stomach ending up
on  each side of his waist; scouting out the next area I was
hoping  to assault with my mouth.  From the groans emanating
from above me, I could only believe that I was doing exactly
what I had set out to do. I took my time, hoping that he was
enjoying this as much as I was.

           I shifted my body down on the bed as I kissed and
sucked  my  way  down to the middle of his  stomach;  paying
special attention to his belly button, running my tongue  in
and  out  of  it  before I continued  my  journey.  My  lips
lingered  long enough, every few inches; to make sure  every
part  of  his body had my full attention. While at his  mid-
section,  I  moved my mouth over to the right  side  of  his
waist  and began using my teeth to chew lightly on his  very
small love handle.

          "Hee  hee."  He winced and giggled a  bit  between
moans  of  pleasure;  which told me  that  he  was  somewhat
ticklish.

          I used my hands to roll him onto his left side. My
lips  never  once  left his skin while I chewed  around  his
waist  to his back.  With him lying on his stomach, exposing
his back to me for the first time that evening. I pulled  my
mouth  off  of  him long enough to get a good  look  at  the
marvelous  sight before me. I was finally able to  see  that
patch  of  hairs  sticking out above the  waistband  of  his
underwear. I straddled his hips, sitting on the backside  of
his upper thighs.

          "What  a  fine, strong v-shaped back he  has."   I
thought to myself. "Broad at the shoulders, narrowing at the
waist and rippled with muscles from working out at the gym."

           My approval slipped out loud. "MMMM! Damn!"

         I ran my fingers up from his waist to his shoulders
and  then  back down the length of his spine to my  starting
point and continued the motion as I massaged his back. I was
in heaven.

          "Oh yeah!" he crooned; enjoying the feeling of the
back massage I was giving him.

          His  groans  of  approval made me that  much  more
anxious  and intent on repeating those same movements  using
my  mouth, which I did.  I kissed the small of his back  and
lightly tugged at the hairs with my lips. I ran my tongue up
his  spine, kissing and chewing along the way, until  I  had
reached the back of his shoulders and then slowly started my
descent  to his lower back once more. This time  I  did  not
stop at the top of his underwear. I allowed my lips to slide
past the top of the material until my mouth had reached  his
ass  cheeks. I nibbled and chewed at the firm, round  mounds
and  kneaded  them with my hands before returning  my  mouth
back  to  the  small of his back. I moved off his  legs  and
began to turn him onto his back once more.

         He must have thought that I was finished because he
started to sit up. "Oh no baby! I ain't done yet!" I quickly
pushed him back down onto the bed.

          He  seemed  confused.  "What!"  He  looked  at  me
somewhat puzzled.  "Wait!" he tried to protest.

          I  did  not give him a chance "My play time's  NOT
over  and  it  sure  as  hell ISN'T recess.  Not  just  yet,
anyway!"

          My  hands resumed their original paths.  My  right
hand passed over the side of his underwear to the top of his
left  thigh  while  my left hand brushed  over  the  mammoth
mound;  hidden  beneath the material, on its  way  down  his
right thigh.

          "Yeah!"  he groaned in pleasure, giving in  to  my
wandering hands.  I felt his cock jump with excitement.

         I continued my journey.  Although I wanted to seize
his  raging hard on in my mouth, I only slightly touched his
crotch with my lips before moving them further down his leg.
I  again allowed my mouth to re-trace where my left hand had
been.  My mouth traveled over the top of his underwear,  not
stopping  at his crotch, but rather, down to the  inside  of
his upper right thigh.

           I   wanted  to  build  as  much  excitement   and
anticipation for him as I could before going full  out  into
the  Promised Land of his crotch. Sort of like Moses leading
the  Jews  around Egypt for forty years. By  the  time  they
finally   reached  Israel,  they  had  to   have   been   so
appreciative that they had finally made it, that  they  must
have  given  much  praise  to  God  for  successfully  being
delivered from their plight.

         I kept moving lower on his legs, both with my hands
and  my mouth. As I had done on his chest, stomach and back,
I let my hands precede my lips.  I kissed, licked and chewed
my  way  down  his  legs;  I  only  stopped  momentarily  at
strategic  points of his erogenous zones. I  worked  my  way
down  his  inner right thigh to his knee. I lifted his  legs
slightly,  making  sure  to work on the  tendon  behind  the
kneecap before I moved down to his calf. Then still lower, I
stopped  and chewed at his ankle. His body was thrashing  on
the  bed and his moans seemed to indicate that he was really
enjoying my oral assault.

          "Augh fuck man!" he uttered.  "You are driving  me
fuckin' wild."

          "Good.  That's  the whole idea." I thought.  "What
better way to get to know every inch of your body than  with
my hands and mouth?"

           I  lifted his right foot and as I had done to his
fingers, I sucked in each toe. I chewed at his heel and  the
arch  of  his foot before I moved over to the left foot  and
started  the whole process as I had just done to  the  right
leg; this time from the bottom, up; starting at the toes and
ankle, up to the knee and then upper thigh of his left  leg.
However,  when  I  got  to his crotch, the  process  stopped
following the original path.

          It  was time to take the bull by the horns, so  to
speak. My mouth opened wide as I engulfed his basket in  one
hot  swoop, underwear and all. Even through the material  of
his  underwear, I could feel his heat. I buried my  face  in
his  lap.  I  took his balls in my mouth, sucking  in  their
fullness.  His cock was rock hard and the tip  was  sticking
out  of the top of his underwear. That was all I needed.  It
didn't  take  much  for  me  to hook  my  fingers  into  the
waistband and pull his underwear completely down and off  in
one  swift movement, exposing his humongous cock. It  sprang
free, bouncing up against his stomach.

           I  now  had a clear view of the prize I had  been
longing  for all evening.  His uncut shaft was a  good  9  «
inches  long and almost as thick as a beer can.   His  shaft
was  thicker at the base and tapered up to a large  mushroom
head  protruded  from his velvety foreskin. Two  large  orbs
hung  low,  nestled  in  their  hairy  protective  pouch.  I
greedily  took his club in my mouth; I could feel the  veins
in  his  sweet shaft as I sank it deep down my  throat.  His
hands grabbed on the top of my head, urging me on. His  eyes
closed and his head titled back on the bed in sheer ecstasy.

          "Oh  My God Man! Suck my cock." He didn't have  to
tell  me  twice. "Augh Sweet Jesus! YES! Suck  that  fuckin'
dick!"

          With  my hands locked firmly on his hips, I sucked
in  his cock; feeling its power as it pulsed in my mouth.  I
took  him in all the way to the root, until his pubic  hairs
brushed against my upper lip. I firmed up my lips to  create
a  stronger suction as his meat slid back out of my gobbling
throat.  I released his hips and took hold of his shaft with
my  left  hand; pulling back the foreskin as  I  swirled  my
tongue  around his mushroom head; while cupping each of  his
balls  in  my  right hand.  I took his hammer back  down  my
throat again and began an all-consuming blowjob. His mammoth
joystick fed easily in and out of my willing throat.

         "Oh yeah Man! That feels so goddamned good! MMMM!!!
God,  you  sure  know exactly how to treat a man's  cock.  I
needed this." He crooned. "Take it baby. Suck that big dick!
Oh yeah! Swallow your daddy's cock. Yeah! Eat that meat!"

          I  continued my sucking motion, taking him deep in
to the back of my throat as sounds of pleasure came from the
very place his cock was filling with each thrust.

          I  moaned.  "MMMMMMMMM!" as  his  dick  filled  my
throat.

          I  pulled  and played with his large,  full  nuts,
rotating  them in my right hand.  My left hand continued  to
pump  on his pole, feeding it into my mouth; allowing me  to
completely  devour his meat. My head bobbed up and  down  on
his  ramrod. My mouth made slurping sounds as his man  stick
slipped  in  and  out  of my clutching  throat.  Finally,  I
released his shaft from the wet grip of my mouth. I held  on
to  it,  squeezing slightly to check its density  and  study
every detail of it.

          "That's ONE FUCKIN' NICE COCK!" I just had to tell
him of my approval.

           I  pushed his cock up onto his stomach so I could
get  a  better look at his balls. I lowered my face  to  his
cream  bag and took each jewel, one at a time, into my mouth
and  gently pulled on them with my lips. I could  fell  them
churning  as  I sucked. I lifted his scrotum to  expose  the
area between his ball sac and his ass hole. I licked my  way
down  to  that area; letting his jewels fall across my  nose
and face, still pumping on his dick with my hand. I began to
work; I kissed, sucked and chewed on the tender valley ridge
of flesh.

          "Augh Fuck!" he whimpered, not expecting me to  go
there.  "Shit yeah!" His body arched up off the bed.

          I had gotten the response I was looking for, so  I
moved  back up to his cock. Gently rolling his balls in  the
palms of my hands, I swallowed all of his cock back down  my
throat.  I  could hear him moaning in pleasure as  my  mouth
once again gave his crotch rocket an entire working over.  I
intently continued my sucking motion.

         He tossed and turned; arching his back, as his dick
slid  in  and out of my lapping mouth. His hips  pumped  and
rotated  to meet my nursing action. His body was  racked  in
pleasure.  I  could feel his cock throb and fill,  and  knew
that  I  was  taking  him  to  the  brink  of  eruption;  so
reluctantly, I forced myself away from his wonderful  region
of strength.

          Overcome  with  the lust I felt for  this  man;  I
crawled  my way back up over his body, back up to his  face,
which was covered in sweat.  We were both now definitely  in
heat.   He threw his arms around my neck and pulled me  down
to him. I gently kissed him on the neck.

          He whispered in my ear, "You're wonderful." He was
out  of breath from the full body exploration and the heated
blowjob he had just experienced. "I just knew you would be."

          I  raised my head, looking him square in the eyes,
realizing that he had gotten very serious.

          He took a deep breath before continuing, "But.  My
God.  I had no idea that you were going to be anything  like
this." He finally caught his breath.

          Again  his lips met mine. He kissed me  with  such
passion   that  my  guts  churned,  knowing  that  we   were
connecting in a way that was far more than the out  and  out
total pleasure we were also sharing.

          Locked  in  that wonderful kiss and  each  other's
arms,  he rolled us around the bed until he was the  one  on
top.  His  massive body pressed down onto my smaller  frame.
His right hand reached down between our bodies and found the
top  of  my  underwear. He lifted his hips and in one  swift
move, pulled my underwear down as far as he could.

          He placed his hands on the bed, on either side  of
my  chest  and  without breaking the lock  we  had  on  each
other's  lips,  he  pushed his chest up  causing  our  naked
crotches   to  grind  hard  against  each  other.  Rotating,
prodding and pumping our hips together, he finally broke our
kiss.  I  gazed into the serious, hungered look of his  blue
eyes as he peered down to take in the view of my now exposed
crotch.

         "MMMM! Damn. that's nice!" I met with his approval.

          He  laid  his weight back down on to my chest  and
kissed the side of my neck. Using my foot, I managed to kick
off  the  rest  of my partially removed underwear.  For  the
first  time  we felt our totally naked bodies  touch.  Flesh
against flesh. Man to man.

          Completely naked, our bodies pressed and our dicks
rubbed against each other. We twisted and turned on the bed,
kissing deeper now than at any other time so far that night.
We  wrestled, twisted and rubbed our bodies together,  first
him  on  top  and  then me, as we continued our  lovemaking.
There  was definitely more and more feeling to our embraces.
Pig-like  grunts  and heated groans of  our  greedy  desires
emoted  from  our throats.  We continued to  roll  back  and
forth on and off each other, not jostling for dominance  but
rather  just  for the enjoyable feel of naked  skin  against
naked  skin.  Our  hands  never stopped  the  caressing  and
exploration of the other person's body, nor did  our  mouths
ever leave each other's lips. Our dicks pulsed wildly as  we
rolled back and forth, hunching together.

          "Hell!" I thought to myself. "My dick even  seemed
to  be  bigger than normal." I could not remember  the  last
time  my cock had felt this hard.  "This man is really doing
something to me."

          "You  are one HOT fucker!" he interrupted my train
of thought.  His face again hovered over mine.

         "No precious darlin'." My southern accent came out.
"You're  the Hot One!" I broke in. "You've got  me  so  damn
hot.  that.  " I stammered, almost going too far and  saying
way  too  much  for  this early in the `game'.  I  tried  to
recover, "I'm only responding to your leads."

           "What   do  you  mean?  My  leads?"  he   halfway
questioned.  "Hell! I thought you were doing the  driving  a
while ago! And." he broke off and kissed my chin. "What  was
that  little around the world trip you just took me  on  all
about?  I know you good `o southern boys don't learn ALL  OF
THAT  in  Sunday-School." He joked, mocking my  accent.   "I
don't think there was an inch of my body that you left out."
His  eyes  were  full  of  lust and bright  with  a  knowing
excitement. "Shit! You're good baby. You're real gooood!"

          At  that  moment,  I knew full well  that  he  had
understood exactly what I had meant by `LEADS'.  We were  on
the  same page, so to speak, because there were `No  Leads'.
We  were  both completely in control because we were sharing
control. We both led. We both followed. Man to man.  as  one
man. to another.

         My hands ran down the length of his back, as he lay
over me, and clasped the cheeks of his ass.

          "Oh,  baby-doll  darlin'," I snickered,  "there're
plenty  more  places that I haven't even  begun  to  explore
yet."  My  right hand searched to find his ass hole.  "Guess
we'll  just  have  to wait to see where they  ALL  are."  My
fingers brushed his opening.

         "Shit man." He mumbled.  "I'm not going to wait for
anything  else  before..." He quickly moved  his  body  down
between my legs. "There're things I want and am going to  do
too." And without saying another word, he swooped down to my
ever-hard cock and took it into his mouth.

         "Augh FUCK!" was all I could manage to say. He  had
done  this so fast and unexpectedly that I didn't have  time
to say or do anything to stop him.  Besides, I don't think I
could  have even if I had wanted to, and I certainly  didn't
want him to stop.

          He  took my dick into his mouth and began to nurse
on  it as if he was a starving man and my cock was the  only
thing that could give him nourishment. I felt the wetness of
his  mouth  as he chowed down on the hefty man steak  I  was
serving  up for his pleasure, as well as my own.  His  right
hand  held  the base of my shaft while he fed  it  down  his
throat. His left hand reached up and rubbed on my chest. His
fingers twisted on each of my nipples. My hips rose and fell
to meet the eager sucking action of his mouth. I gabbed hold
of his thick brown hair and pumped my cock in and out of his
willing  throat.   My dick felt like an ex-con,  freed  from
jail and on a rampage; not taking any prisoners.

          "Shit yeah man! Suck that dick." I fed him my meat
with  every  hot, wet stroke of his mouth up  and  down  its
length.

          Muffled moans of delight came from his throat.  He
wasted no time slurping up my throbbing boner. He pumped and
pulled on my manhood, getting into his feeding frenzy.

          "Oh yeah.. eat my cock!" I cooed as he buried  his
face in my crotch. "That's it man! Oh yeah!"

          He let all but the tip of my dick slide out of his
sucking  mouth, ran his tongue over the head of  my  swollen
knob  and  licked  at my piss slit. I lay back  on  the  bed
reeling  from the sensations he was giving me. He was  quite
the  skillful  cock-sucker. He knew it and I was  very  much
finding out for myself. He slid down further on the  bed  so
he  could get at my balls. With as much skill as he had used
on  my wick, he sucked in both of my balls and began rolling
them around in his mouth.

          "Oh  fuck!" I was surprised that he could get them
both in his mouth. "That feels sooo good."

          He  remained working over my nuts for a  time  and
then pounced again onto my pillar with the vice like grip of
his mouth.

          After the sucking I had given him and what he  was
now  doing to me, it was beginning to be more than  I  could
handle.  I was way too hot and bothered and I certainly  did
not  want to prematurely climax and have the events  of  the
evening  come to a halt so soon. I moved my hands  from  the
hold I had on his hair, took his chin and tried to raise his
head  away from my crotch. Besides, I was greedy.  I  wanted
much more of him and was not willing to be the first to give
up a load, certainly, not this soon and not this way.

          I made an effort to sit up on the bed and pull him
off my cock. He resisted at first but eventually gave in and
crawled  back up; lay beside me and returned his face,  once
more  to  mine.   For  a  moment, we just  looked  into  one
another's eyes without saying a word. Our passions had  been
over come by pure lust. We were both soaking wet with sweat.

          "I  still can't believe this is happening." I  was
feeling a little bit coy. I held onto his arm.

         "Neither can I." He smiled, stroking the side of my
face.  "I think you are feeling pretty much the same  way  I
am. I hope so anyway."

          "Absolutely!" I agreed but was not sure of exactly
what I was agreeing to.

          My  mind went into over-drive.  I could have taken
his  comment  several different ways. Was he  talking  about
being sexually excited? Was he taking about feeling the lust
or  heated  pleasures we were giving each other? Or  was  he
talking  about  the  emotional  feelings  that,  by  now,  I
definitely knew I was feeling for him?

           Again  his  voice  broke  my  rambling  thoughts.
"Whatcha thinking?"

          I  tried to hide what was in my head. "Oh, I don't
know.  Just  how  wonderful all this is."  I  couldn't  help
myself, I added, "And how wonderful you are!"

          He took my face in one of his hands and gave me  a
very  tender, passionate kiss. We each automatically reached
for the other's cock and started stroking. Our small cooling
off period was over.

         Before long, we were full of passion and once more,
over-come  with  lust. His body language  told  me  what  he
wanted to happen next.

          "Cool."  I  thought and followed his  lead  as  we
switched into a sixty-nine position.

          Our bodies were a prefect match as far as heights;
we seemed to fit together just right and were able to get an
easy,  erotic rhythm going between us. At first we  were  on
our  sides,  delivering our shafts into the warmth  of  each
other's  waiting mouth. We hunched our love muscles  towards
the  other  person's  gaping lips.  Our  grunts  and  groans
sounded  animalistic. My head was nestled between  his  open
legs.  I eagerly chewed on his massive uncut prod. He didn't
break his stride as he gulped down my member.  We bucked and
jostled,  serving up our man-rammers for the other  person's
pleasure.

         He began to change positions again, turning me onto
my  back. He moved up over me. He straddled my head with his
legs,  one  on each side; pushing the entire length  of  his
manhood  down my throat and leaning over my body to  swallow
my cock back down his throat.

          "Take  it!"  he ordered just as he  sucked  in  my
raging hard-on.

          My  hands  grabbed at his butt as  he  pumped  his
mammoth cock into my eagerly waiting mouth. He began fucking
my face and swallowing my dick down his throat. I was really
enjoying  worshiping  his cock as he force-fed  it  down  my
gullet.

         His hands slid under my butt and clasped my cheeks.
He  pulled my dick out of his mouth, only to move  his  lips
between my wide spread legs and to my ball sac. He sucked my
balls in, one at a time. I took his command and did the same
thing  to him. I sucked his balls in to my mouth and swirled
them  around,  my  hands  clutching  at  his  ass.  We  were
frantically clawing and grasping at each other's bodies.  We
rocked  on the bed, exploring forbidden territories.  Before
long he had managed to roll me up enough for him to reach my
ass  hole with his tongue.  I shuddered as I felt the  first
assault  of  his mouth on my bunghole. It gave  me  time  to
maneuver  myself into the position to reach his as  well.  I
flicked my tongue along his crack. We went to town. We began
chewing,  licking and sucking at each other's  private  love
vaults.

          We were both working up such heat and lust that we
broke  apart  from our wet rear attacks only to  regain  our
composure  and  to  take the other's dick  into  our  mouths
again. Our excitement did not diminish. It actually got more
intense.  I  felt a burning in my loins and  felt  his  body
tensing  up  as well. I knew that we were both getting  real
close  to  climaxing. He knew it too. My hands  grabbed  his
shoulders  as  a  sign that I couldn't take  much  more.  He
pulled  away  from my cock. I let his dick slip  out  of  my
mouth.

         "Wow!" I gasped. "That was real close."

         We rolled back onto our sides but stayed in a sixty-
nine  position, only we scooted up a bit. He laid  his  head
against  my  stomach.  I did the same.  Our  bodies  wrapped
tightly together, we held on to each other. We caressed each
other.  Lying  side  by  side, our  hands  roamed  over  our
partner's body, exploring, learning.

         "I just can't get enough of you." He said squeezing
me to him. "I want all of you."

          I wanted to give him all of me. To my surprise,  I
found  myself wanting him inside of me; something I had  not
had or wanted from any man in many years. "I want you too."

          His  hands ran down my back, cupping my  ass.  His
fingers  occasionally, lightly touched  the  opening  to  my
tunnel of love. It felt good to have this man touch me  like
this. From my reaction, he sensed my desires. With a lustful
look  in  his eyes, he leaned up and turned his body around.
Placing  his strong hands under my hips, he pulled me  along
with him and repositioned me on my back in the center of the
bed.

           I reached my arms around his shoulders. He leaned
forward and kissed me on the lips. He stretched his muscular
body  on  top of mine and began kissing the side of my  neck
and slowly began a grinding motion with his hips; our bodies
rubbing  against each other's, sliding in the sweat  we  had
worked  up.  He  kissed his way down my chest,  taking  each
nipple  into his sucking mouth before ending up at my belly.
My head tilted back as the pleasures of his touch excited my
entire  being. He gradually sat up between my  spread  legs,
into a kneeling position, with his feet behind him.  He  ran
his  hands  over my torso. I reached up to feel  his  chest,
letting my fingers go to the places on him that my lips  had
explored  earlier.  I felt his strength.   I  watched  every
movement of both his hands and mine as the fondling  of  our
chests  continued. We stared into each other's eyes, sharing
a  knowing look of what we both wanted and knew was about to
happen.

          Our pulsing pricks were only inches away from each
other.  I took his cock in my hand and place it next  to  my
own. I slowly began to pump our dicks together, feeling  the
power of our shafts, sliding up and down against each other.
It was hot and erotic.   His hands continued to work over my
chest  as I worked, in slow methodical motion, our throbbing
members. I allowed my fingers to manipulate the skin between
our  cocks, making sure that I paid special attention to the
head of his dick, which was becoming more and more full as I
ran  our cocks against each other's.  I took his manly shaft
in  the palm of one of my hands and my own dick in my  other
hand and slapped them together, like two swords, meeting  on
a  battlefield.  Yet, this was no battle and even if it was,
I  was  gladly  ready  to surrender submission.  His  crotch
heaved  up to meet mine. I felt each of our dicks pulse  and
throb  in  anticipation  and began to  stoke  them  together
again.  I  could feel them filling up and becoming ready  to
erupt.  Reluctantly, I backed off the pumping action.

          As  I watched him, I could tell by the look of his
throbbing  cock that what was to come was going  to  be  far
more  than just a quickie fuck. We had been building to this
moment all night.  I could tell that he wanted my ass in the
worst  way.  This  was  going to be something  special.   It
already was. This was going to be the fuck of a lifetime.

         He moved his right hand down my body and once again
found  my  gutter  and massaged the outer lips  of  my  love
chute. His fingers prodded and poked at my canal.

         I moaned softly "I want to feel you in me." My body
jerking in excited anticipation.

          "And you will. every fucking inch of it!" He added
to  his statement. "I'm going to sink my big old dick  right
where  it  is suppose to be." He said with a halfway  smirk.
"Don't  you want it?" He bent forward and gave me a bite  on
my neck. "Tell your daddy how much you want it."

         "I  can't believe that he just said that!"  flashed
through my head. "But it sure as hell was turning me on."

          Before I could respond, he began to kiss me with a
tenderness  that I had not expected. He stretched  out  once
again  on  top of me and slid his cock between  my  legs.  I
could feel its hardness as it rubbed against the insides  of
my  upper thighs. He moved ever so slowly at first, rotating
his  hips  in a swirling manner, pressing our bodies  closer
and  closer together.  Each time his large manhood moved  up
and  down  between my legs, I felt my desire  building.   My
body  responded to every movement of his body pressing  down
onto  mine as our now overly heated and sweaty bodies ground
together in a rhythmic motion. My hips bucked and rotated to
meet  his, smashing my own throbbing cock against his  pubic
hairs and the flat of his stomach. Our chest pressed tightly
together, we continued to kiss as he worked his shaft around
between  my  legs, sliding it up and down. I  ran  my  hands
along his back. I clutched at his hips and squeezed my  legs
together to get a tighter grip on his manhood as it moved in
and out of the vise grip I had placed on it.  Every time  he
thrust  himself forward at the opening between my legs,  his
dick  did a number on my balls, sliding up and down  against
them.  The  sensation was wonderful. I wanted  him  to  move
harder. I wanted to feel everything about him. I wanted  him
inside of me. I joined in on the verbal foreplay.

         "Oh daddy! Take me! I want that fat cock up my ass!
Fuck  me!" I couldn't help myself. "I want your monster dick
inside of me so fuckin' bad!"

        I  knew what he wanted. It was time. He knew it too.
He sat up and leaned over me, to the nightstand where he had
earlier  unpacked a small over night bag filled with condoms
and  lubricants.  He took out a condom and  a  bottle  of  a
lubricant and dropped the bag on the floor. Not a  word  was
spoken.  He  sat  back on his heels between my  wide  spread
legs.  I  watched as he started to open the condom  package.
Before  he could go any further, I grabbed it from  him.  He
gave me a puzzled look at first but then realized what I was
doing.

         "Let me." I finished opening the packet.

          I  placed  the condom over the head of his  raging
hard-on  and began rolling it down the length of his  shaft.
While I stroked the rubber over his dick and pressed the air
out of its tip, he reached for the lubricant and squeezed  a
small amount out of the bottle onto the fingers of his  left
hand.  He dropped the bottle on the floor and began  to  rub
some  of  the wet fluid around the opening to my tunnel.  My
head  rolled from side to side in the anticipation  of  what
was to come. Very gently he massaged my butt hole and slowly
began  to insert a fingertip to help loosen me up. He stared
at  my face, only glancing down a few times to the sight  of
his  hand  as he continued to probe my ass with his  finger.
He  twisted and turned his finger, pulling it out  and  then
returning it a little further up my ditch.

          My  ass responded to the sudden attack of a second
finger being added. "Oh yeah!" came from deep in my chest.

          He knew that I was ready. With his right hand,  he
lifted  my  hips  to meet his crotch. He was still  kneeling
between my legs with me under him, on my back. He pulled  me
onto his waiting lap, my knees bending up on either side  of
his  hips.  I shuttered as he slowly placed the head of  his
voracious dick at the entrance to my eager love slot.

          Not having had anything up there in years, I began
to tense with the prospects of his huge, manly organ ripping
my butt wide open. He could tell that I was somewhat nervous
about the actual entry, even though I wanted so much for  it
to  happen. He took his time, watching my expressions as  he
continued  to  push  the head of his  cock  slowly  into  my
opening.  He  leaned forward and kissed me. His  kisses  and
gentleness  was all I needed to ease my fears  and  help  me
relax.  I  could feel him penetrating the outer wall  of  my
hole;  pushing his big mushroom head inside the entrance  to
my  ass. He had gotten me so hot and bothered that it didn't
take  much time or effort for him to guide his dick past  my
opened gate.

          "Oh  fuck yeah!" I let out a moan as the shock  of
his  entry  both surprised me and filled me with  lust.   My
hands clung to his hips.

          He held his cock still, at my vault's entrance for
a  while, not moving a muscle; allowing me the time  to  get
use  to  having this invader inside of my ass. He kissed  me
deeply,  and ever so slowly began to inch his shaft  further
and  further inside my channel of love. I was in ecstasy.  I
grunted in pleasure each time his pulsing prick made its way
deeper  into  my  cavern. He pulled back on  his  man-rammer
until  he once again had only the head of his engorged  cock
in  my  chute;  my hands grasped at his hips as  if  I  were
trying  to stop him from pulling completely out of me.  Each
time he pushed his joystick forward; I hunched my hips up to
meet  his  driving motion. He knew that I was ripe  for  the
taking. He pulled his lips away from me and sat back up.  He
lifted my legs up onto his shoulders and with one long, last
forceful  push, he buried himself all the way in.  His  head
fell backwards as he impaled me on his monster of a dick.

         My body arched up off the bed at the sudden assault
from his man rammer. There wasn't any time for me to get use
to  having this sizable shaft buried deep inside of my body.
We  began to fuck! I quickly fell into his rhythm.  My  head
was  spinning.  My lust was completely out  of  control.   I
moaned like an animal, in pleasure.

          "God yeah! Fuck me!" was all I could manage to get
out, as he began a slow, but firm rhythmic rolling motion of
his hips; driving his cock in and out of my butt.

          "Yeah baby. Fuck on that dick." He groaned as  our
bodies slowly pounded against one another.

          Each  time  he  thrusted his manhood  into  me,  I
loosened up the muscles of my ass hole to be able to take in
his length and girth. As he pulled back out, I squeezed down
on  my  muscles to make my ass hole as tight as I could.   I
was  using my butt to do an ass sucking motion on this man's
cock. I matched each drive he made with an equal force.  The
more he pushed forward, the more I moved my hips and ass  up
to meet him.

         He fucked me!

          His hands helped support my legs as he ground  and
lurched, harder and deeper, forcing me onto his pumping dick
as he rammed it into my willing dark chute.

         I fucked back!

          My  hands  grasped at the sides of  my  hips,  not
wanting to let his cock escape the grasp my ass had on  this
marvelous shaft.

          Our moans of pleasure became louder as we clutched
at each other; both in a state of total sexual overdrive.

         "Oh man! Your ass is so sweet." He panted.  "God, I
love the way you fuck on my dick!"

         He held my legs in the air by my ankles and watched
as  his dick slipped in and out of my stink hole. He rode my
butt  and began pumping himself into me with such force that
I was pushed down hard on the bed.

          "That's  it.  Pound  my butt! Deeper!"  I  moaned.
"Drive  that big fucker up there. Oh man, yeah! You feel  so
god-damn good inside of me!"

          Our tempo increased. We were fucking like two dogs
in heat. He was driving his cock deep into my body and I was
fucking  back  onto his dick. Ever so often, he  would  pull
almost  all  of  his length completely out. I  tightened  my
cheeks, trying to make sure that my ass held a firm grip  on
his  tool.  No sooner than the head of his dick had  reached
the entrance to my hole, he would ram it all the way back in
with  a  force that made me shudder, and each time  I  would
meet his plunge with equal strength.

            He hunched up onto his knees, lifting my butt up
off  the  bed, to meet his ass buster. He had a  bird's  eye
view of his slammer grinding in and out of my vault. My legs
draped  across  his  bent arms; he increased  his  thrusting
deeper  inside  me,  causing my dick to  bounce  against  my
belly.  He reached down with his right hand, as he  rode  my
ass,  and began pumping wildly on my cock. I could feel  his
cock  throbbing  in my hole and I tightened  up  my  cheeks,
locking him inside of me.

         He leaned in to plant a passionate kiss on my lips.
We  kissed,  thrashing  back and forth,  as  our  lovemaking
became more heated and out of control.

          "Oh God!" I broke our kiss. I grabbed hold of  his
hand  to  stop him from pumping my dick. I was again getting
too close to climaxing.

          He didn't immediately release the clutch he had on
my cock right away. He squeezed and held onto it, feeling it
throb in his hand.

           He  raised my legs to his shoulders and  bent  me
backwards with my knees bent up to my chest. He shifted  his
body from his kneeling position, down on top of my up-turned
butt; never once allowing his cock to slip from the confines
of  its warm cavern.  With me doubled over, he stretched his
body  out,  much  like a push up position, and  slammed  his
manhood  all the way into my ass.  In this position I  could
feel  every  inch of his width and length inside  of  me.  I
loved it!

          "Oh yeah!" I exclaimed as his cock sliced into  my
rear.

         I placed my hands on his rear to help him drive his
wonderful  cock  as far up my ass as he could  push  it.  He
began pumping his shaft into me with an intensity he had not
used  so  far. His feet dug into the bed sheets,  his  hands
holding  onto my bent legs by my ankles. The sounds  of  his
crotch slamming into my ass cheeks became louder; he drilled
my butt. His balls beat against my cheeks with each heave he
made. My body responded to his every lurch.

          "Take  that cock. That's it. Take that big  mother
fucker." He grunted. "Augh man! It feels so fuckin' good."

          His dick was slicing deep into my dark tunnel with
an increasing need to fulfill its purpose.

          "God!  You are so fuckin' wonderful.  Do  it!"   I
released  my hands from his butt and took hold of his  face.
"Oh Yeah Baby! Fuck me!"

          I  pulled myself up to meet his face with mine and
we locked lips in a fashion of both desire and need.  He let
go  of my ankles, allowing my legs to drop down to the  bed.
He  lowered his muscular body down fully onto mine. I  threw
my arms around his neck and wrapped my legs around his hips.
His  cock still buried deep inside, we lay there not  moving
for a moment; just feeling the passion of our bodies next to
each  other and the strength of his pulsing shaft inside  of
me.  We  held on to each other. We were pressed  so  tightly
together  that I could feel his heart beating in his  chest.
My own cock throbbed wildly between our bellies. We took the
time to let ourselves cool down a bit without losing any  of
our momentum.

          "I  didn't  realize just how much I  needed  this.
Wanted  this." He whispered in my ear. "You make me so  damn
hot. I can't get enough of you."

           Before I could respond, he began to kiss me  once
more  and our lust took control again. Our hips began a slow
grinding motion. I could feel my dick being smashed  against
our  stomachs and his cock throbbing inside of me, eager  to
resume  its  rampage of pleasure as he lay  on  top  of  me,
kissing me full and hard on the lips.

         His rhythm began to pick up and before long we were
both  back  at  the  peak of a hot and  heavy  pile  driving
experience.

          "I've got to move you around. to get more of  that
ass."  He  burst out as he took one of my legs and moved  it
over his body to the same side as my other leg.

          I  knew  exactly what he was up to.  The man  sure
knew  what he was doing because he did this with  a  lot  of
finesse. Never once did he let his cock come out of me as he
maneuvered  us into our new position. He wanted to  roll  me
over  onto my stomach so he could get deeper in me; or so  I
thought.

          Lying on my stomach, my legs spread wide apart;  I
could  feel him once again start to drive his shaft home.  I
raised my hips up to meet his rear attack. As I did, he  put
his hands around my waist and pulled me back onto him as  he
sat  up  onto  his knees. I felt his balls slapping  against
mine. We both now were squatting on the bed; my ass snuggled
perfectly on his bucking lap between his open legs. I ground
my  ass  down on to his cock.  We rocked back and forth.  He
kissed  and chewed on the back of my neck. His hands reached
around my body to recapture my pulsating dick. I sat on  his
dick  and  rotated my ass. My hands held onto his  knees  on
either  side  of my own. He began to stroke my  dick  as  he
hammered his huge boner in and out of my impaled hole.

          No  longer  were  we  just  two  men  fucking.  We
somewhere,  in  the throws of desires, had  become  two  men
making  love,  two men who felt as if they  had  known  each
other  for  a lifetime. The chemistry, heat and the  passion
were  certainly there. The Time was RIGHT! Our bodies seemed
to  mold  themselves  to the other person's  body  in  a  so
familiar  way.   Our only concern was giving absolute  total
pleasure to the other.

          "I  don't want this to stop." He whispered  in  my
ear.  "I want this to go on forever."

         I turned my head around as much as I could, over my
shoulder to see his face. "So do I! God, so do I."

         He kissed the side of my face.

         I rocked my hips back onto his lap. "I haven't felt
like this in a very long time. I wasn't sure that I could or
even  knew  how to feel anymore. But with you. I feel  alive
again. I don't want this to ever end."

              I  knew  that  I  was  getting  a  little  too
emotional. I didn't want to loose it and have tears start to
flow  down my face, so I quickly changed the subject.  "Man,
does your dick ever go down?"

          "Apparently" he laughed, "not with you around,  it
doesn't."

          He  pushed me forward onto my hands and knees;  he
followed suit and began to push himself deeper inside of me.
We  picked up our lust right where we had slowed down  from;
but this time, we were in doggie style position.  Guess that
is  were  the  expression `Fucking like  dogs'  comes  from.
Slowly,  but with much firmness, he gradually increased  his
intensity and speed. My hips were moving not only  back  and
forth  with his, but also in a circular motion to match  his
rhythm.  He  leaned in. I could feel his hot breath  on  the
back  of  my neck. He kissed me. I could feel his chest  and
belly  hairs  rub across my back. I was moaning  wildly  and
could  hear  his  animalistic grunting as  well.  Our  tempo
increased.

           "Augh fuck yeah! That's it man. Take your daddy's
dick."  He managed to get out between the grunts and groans.
He  continued to work his hard cock in and out of  my  butt.
"That's  it. Oh baby!  Fucking unbelievable man. I'm filling
your fucking ass so full of man-dick. God, what an ass!"

          He  pushed my head lower onto the bed as he rammed
his massive tower deep into my willing ass. I buried my face
into a pillow to muffle the sounds   I was making.  I was so
turned  on by the sound of his voice and what he was  saying
that  I  didn't want my own sounds of pleasure  to  distract
from his verbal sexual assault.

          He skewered me with his sausage. Our breathing was
more  labored. With my head lowered to the bed  and  my  ass
sticking  up  in the air, he had easy access to my  lovingly
tortured  hole.  His  hands griped the  sides  of  my  butt,
pushing  and pulling it back and forth as he pumped with  an
increased urgency. His balls beat down against my nuts  each
time  he  drilled  his cock into my gaping  hole.   My  dick
flopped  wildly  in the air. His trust became  harder,  more
savage.

         He continued, "Do you like that cock up there. That
big daddy dick? Augh yeah! It feels so fuckin' good. doesn't
it? Fuck on it man. Take that mother fucking cock!"

         He pounded his cock into my ass as deep as it would
go,  and  then held it there for a second or two.  It  could
have  been  longer but it seemed way too short an amount  of
time for me.

          "You sure know how to treat daddy's dick." He once
again  began pounding his manhood in and out of my up-turned
rear  end.   "Oh  yeah baby! Move those hips. Work'em  baby.
That's it. Make your daddy's dick feel good!" He was panting
very hard.  " Yeah! Fuck back on my cock."

      Again,  every time he drove his shaft forward I  would
loosen my muscles to be able to take all of him in. Then  as
he pulled his cock out, I would tighten up my cheeks and ass
muscles  again to make my grip feel as if my ass was sucking
his  dick.  My  muscles clinched and rotated  to  match  his
forward driving ass-rammer.

         I could no longer hold back, "That's it daddy. Fuck
me! Drill my butt!" I gasped for air. "Pump that big meat in
there! Oh yeah! "

          A few times it felt as if the head of his cock was
going  to pop right out of my ass which would make me panic;
not  wanting  to  lose the feeling of this marvelous  pillar
inside  of  me.  This was just his way  of  teasing  me  and
keeping me at the peak of sexual excitement. It worked. When
I  thought it was about to come out I would reach  back  and
grab  him  desperately by his hips and try to  hold  him  in
place.  He would smile knowingly and sink his shaft all  the
way in, in one long, slow hard thrust. His pelvis once again
joined  tightly  together with the cheeks  of  my  butt,  we
pushed and rotated our hips as if we were grinding ourselves
into the other person.

           "MMMM!" came from deep inside of my throat. "Fuck
my  ass.  Oh  yeah! That's it. Fuck it man. Harder!"  I  was
going  wild. "Oh shit! MMM! Yeah! Work that ass.  Pump  that
big dick of yours in there! Yeah.  Deeper!"

          I pushed my hips back to meet his driving force.

          "God!  You've got me so fuckin' hot!" I was really
into it. "Oh yeah! Come on Daddy. ride my fucking butt."

          He could tell that I was now in the throes of pure
animal lust; just as much if not more than he was, which was
turning him on even more.

         "You like your daddy's dick up your ass, boy?" he
growled. "Your daddy's big fucking dick?"

          "Fuck  yeah,  man!" I spurted out between  forward
drilling of his ramrod. "Give it to me daddy! I want  it.  I
have  to  have it." I was hunching back harder on his  dick.
"Oh yeah! I NEED IT! Fuck me daddy!"

          He pounded my ass and I met each and every jab  of
his  cock with an equal amount of forcefulness. I could feel
his  strength and his power. He drove into me as if  he  was
trying to ram his monumental sword completely through me. My
body  shook  with  lust and excitement. He  forced  me  down
completely flat onto the bed. His body encompassed  mine  as
he  lay  on top of my back, drilling his ramrod up  my  love
chute.

         Covered in sweat, consumed with greed and quivering
in  erotic  need for each other, our love making intensified
even  more.  I could tell that his climax was not  far  from
happening. I too was about at the peak of my own pleasure. I
could  have popped a load at any minute and I knew  that  he
was in about the same shape. Just having his dick inside  of
me with his body pressing down onto mine, was just about all
that either of us could.

          I  just wanted this to go on forever. He must have
been  thinking the same thing. I turned my head to meet his;
he kissed me on the lips.

           "Not  yet!" he breathed hard.  "I don't  want  to
finish.   We're just getting started. I can't get enough  of
you. I have to have more."

          I  could tell there was a sort of cry in his voice
as he said these things. I too sensed a strong need for more
closeness, more feeling and more sex. In such a short  time,
I  had found myself becoming a pig by wanting to devour this
man  in  every  sense of the word and I too could  feel  his
needs and longings because I was going through all the  same
emotions.

     Regrettably for both of us, he slowly began pulling his
throbbing  hard engine out of the opening of my caboose.  My
body  quivered and leaped as the mushroom head of his  shaft
popped free from its confines. Removing the condom, he  slid
his cock back between my legs and lay back down again on me,
with  his  chest  against my back. His head nuzzling  beside
mine.  He took my hands in his and stretched them above  our
heads.

          He  kissed the side of my face. "God, this is  the
way  it  is  suppose to be. I had no idea that I could  ever
feel the things that I do right now."

          He lay on top of me, his arms mirroring mine above
our  heads.  It was as if we were each other's shadow.  Each
other's soul.

          "You  felt  so good inside of me."  I  managed  to
utter,  "But I could stay just like this too. for  hours.  I
love the feel of your body against mine."

         After what seemed to be too short a time, he rolled
off  me and onto his left side. I turned, rolling on  to  my
right  side. Lying face to face, our still raging hard cocks
brushed against each other. We both looked down and grinned.

          "Wow!"  he  giggled. "I thought we both  needed  a
little  break but from the look of our dicks; I don't  think
we are going to get one."

          I  reached  down taking his cock in my left  hand,
"This  is one fucking fantastic piece of meat. and you  sure
do know exactly how to put it to good use too."

          He  had taken hold of my dick with his right hand.
"Why,  thank  you kind sir." He smiled mocking  my  southern
accent. "You've got a damn nice hunk of dick, yourself."

         We watched each other stroking our quivering cocks.

         He broke the silence. "I have to tell you. you sure
know how to make my cock jump to attention.  Hell, I thought
I would loose it when you were going down on me but. Shit! .
Where  on  earth did you learn to do all of that  with  your
ass?  You had me almost there so many times. then you  would
back  off  with those cheeks of your.  made  me  able  go  a
little longer. Damn, you are good!"

          "Hey  now,  precious  darlin',  I  was  only  just
reactin' to you and everything you were doin' to me." I  had
to give credit where credit was due. "You're the one who had
me at the brink of exploding several times." I interjected.

          We  just  lay there talking and looking  into  one
another's eyes as we continued to feel and pump on the  each
other's  dicks.  Again our lips met. First softly  and  then
with more intensity. Before long the heat was right back  to
where we had left off.

          I kissed his neck and then; moving my body down on
the bed, slid my mouth down his torso to his crotch. I could
smell  his  manliness from the sweat on his body  hairs.  It
excited  me to no end. Using my left hand I guided his  dick
to  my  lips  and took it back into my mouth. I  pumped  his
shaft  with  my  left hand at the same time  my  right  hand
fondled his balls.  I sucked as if I would never be able  to
experience  such a perfect cock ever again in my  life;  the
magnificent cock that had just been up my ass. I savored it.
I worked my tongue around the mushroom head, darting the tip
of  my  tongue in and out of his cum slit. I ran my lips  up
and down the length of his shaft on either side of it before
I once again took the entire length of his manhood back down
to  the very depths of my throat.  I sucked like a wild man.
His  body responded by him bucking his hips forward to  meet
my eagerly sucking lips.

          "Damn! There you go again!" he crooned.  "Is there
nothing you're not good at?" he asked.

          I  moved  him onto his back and began sucking  his
dick with even more intensity as I had done earlier.

          "God  your mouth feels good! You can keep that  up
the rest of the night!" he moaned.  "So fucking hot!"

          I  released my handgrip from his cock, making sure
to  keep it sliding in and out of my sucking lips. I put  my
hands under his hips and pulled his body to the edge of  the
bed;  at the same time I moved myself onto the floor.  As  I
repositioned our bodies, I allowed his cock to pop free from
my  mouth, slapping itself up against his belly. I sat on my
knees,  beside the bed. His legs spread wide open on  either
side  of my crouching body; I had his body dangling  on  the
edge  of  the  bed.  I  again attacked his  crotch  with  my
slurping mouth. I used my hands to fondle each of his  nuts.
I  rolled and pulled on them as I leaned up, cupping my lips
and running them up and down the length of his shaft, as  it
lay  flat  against  his belly. I worked his  cock  back  and
forth,  pressing it down with my lips against  his  abdomen.
Every  time my lips reached the top of his shaft,  I  teased
the  head of his dick. Finally, without ever using my  hands
to  touch it, I took his raging hard-on back in to my  mouth
and  eagerly  sucked it all the way down my  throat.  I  had
ulterior motives for what I was doing to him and I wanted to
make  damn  sure I had him as hot and bothered as  he  could
possibly  be;  very  much the same  way  he  had  gotten  me
earlier.  I continued kneading his balls with my hands as  I
hungrily took the enormous length of his shaft in and out of
my open throat.

          "Aw!  Fuck  yeah! Don't stop!" he murmured.  "That
feels great."

          I  had  no  intention of stopping;  at  least  not
stopping  what  I had in mind that I wanted to  do.  He  had
taken  hold  of my head as if he was the one in control  and
was  guiding my sucking actions on his dick. Little  did  he
know my seduction of his cock was only the beginning of what
I had in mind. I pressed on.

          I  grabbed hold of his ridged hard-on with my left
hand  as I began to move my lips back to his balls, much  to
his  disappointment. I gently caressed them in my oven of  a
hot  mouth,  first one and then the other.  I  swirled  them
around,  getting them nice and wet with my tongue. I stroked
his  manhood with my right hand while my left hand was  busy
helping  with  the soft pulling torture of his  nuts  by  my
mouth. I could hear from the sounds he was making that he no
longer was protesting me having taken my lips away from  his
meat.  I knew I was making him just as hot as he had made me
earlier. I was going on gut instinct, sheer passion  and  of
course,  lust.  My  plan,  if I really  even  had  one,  was
working.

          Slowly,  I released his nuts out of my  mouth  but
kept my right hand pulling on them, my other hand working on
his enormous cock.  I sat up, just to look at everywhere  my
mouth  had just been. I had to marvel at the sight  of  this
man's body and equipment. I took in the wonders of his  body
as it lay before me like some lovingly prepared feast spread
out, waiting to be devoured. His massive, hairy chest rising
and falling with deep heavy breaths of passion, every muscle
of  his  body  taut  with the heat  of  the  night  and  the
anticipation  of  what was to come. His  dick  throbbed  and
pulsed  in my hand; offering up its strength as it  engorged
itself with the treasure his balls were steadily churning up
to  unload.  I  knew where I wanted to go next  and  what  I
wanted when I got there.

          "Yes!"  I  thought to myself.  "I have  him  right
where I want him."  I was certainly right where I wanted  to
be.

         I lifted his balls so I could get my mouth again to
the  skin  between his ball sac and his ass hole.  With  one
hand  stroking his cock up against his belly and  the  other
hand  pushing  his  balls up, I lowered my  face  and  began
nibbling  and  licking my way towards  his  treasure  chest.
Knowing  his prostate was right behind this area, I  applied
pressure  with  my lips. I chewed and sucked, moving  closer
and  closer to the furrow of his cheeks. At first he  tensed
and  started  to protest, but the sensations he was  getting
from every fiber of his crotch, made him soon give in to  my
prying  mouth. As I flicked my tongue at his tender opening,
he  first  moaned  a low moan of shocked pleasure  and  then
relaxed.  That was all I needed to tell me it  was  okay  to
continue.

         "It's my turn." I grinned devilishly.

         From the position we were in, it was not as easy to
reach  his  butt  hole  as  I  had  expected  it  to  be.  I
momentarily  released his dick and balls  from  my  fondling
hands  and  lifted his legs by his knees, pushing  him  back
some  and  bending his body backwards over itself.  Now  his
entire  rear  end was exposed to me. I knew he  wanted  this
because  he helped support the weight of his legs  with  his
own  hands. I leaned in and chewed on one of his cheeks  and
then  the  other. My hands cupped his ass cheeks and  spread
them wide for me to get a better shot at the target in front
of me.

          "Oh baby. Don't mind if I do!" I murmured. "I just
gotta get me some of that!"

          I  lowered my face to his hole, sticking my tongue
right  into its sweet center.  He moaned. I licked,  lightly
at  first, at the entrance of his bunghole. As his moans  of
pleasure  became  more heated and louder,  I  increased  the
pressure  and  began  to  suck  in  the  manliness  of  this
beautiful man before me.

          "Aw  fuck."  He  crooned as I assaulted  his  most
private place. "That's so fucking wild! Shit, man! Eat  it!"
His  head  thrashed back and forth on the bed. "Oh  fuck!  I
can't believe you are doing that."

        "Hell!" I thought to myself. "I can't believe that I
am doing this either!"

         I  was  never one to play the total top,  or  total
bottom for that matter; I usually tried to stay fairly  much
in  the  middle, being basically oral in the sex department.
In  most  of  my past sexual experiences, I had always  done
just  that.  But this was turning into something more.  Pure
cardinal lust. I had always thought that there was  no  part
of  a  man's  body that were with, should be  worshiped  and
fully explored.

          This  man  bent over before me, with his  ass  up-
turned  for my pleasure, was taking me to places I  had  not
been  in many, many years. I found myself lusting after  him
in  ways I had not felt for anyone since the very first true
love in my life, some years before. I wanted to make love to
this  man  and experience him in the same ways he  had  just
done  to  me. Man to man! No role-playing. No one person  in
total  control;  each person taking nothing  away  from  the
other,  yet,  both taking from the other absolute  pleasure,
because they want and need to do just that; and in response,
giving  the  same amount of pleasure back to their  partner.
Just  one man to another man, the way gay lovemaking  should
be.  At that point in time, I had this beautiful hunk  of  a
man  moaning  in ultimate delight from the pleasures  I  was
giving  him, which only made my own desires that  much  more
determined and stronger.

      I stood up beside the bed. I took hold of his legs and
pulled  his hips off the edge of the bed, closer up to  meet
my  waiting crotch.  I lifted his rear end by his  legs  and
lowered each of them onto my shoulders. My dick twitched  at
the  first  touch of his ditch. I rubbed my impatient  prick
over  his  backside, letting the head tease the  opening  of
chocolate  highway. My left hand rubbed across the  firmness
of his chest, feeling the heat we each shared. With my right
hand,  I  took  hold of my dick and slapped it  against  his
raging hard-on.  Our crotches again touching each other's, I
placed our dicks together and stroked them.

         "You're right. It IS your turn." I heard him say in
an  almost  exhausted low voice, letting  me  know  that  he
wanted  me inside of him as much as I had wanted him  inside
of me earlier.

          I  lowered his legs in order to reach back to  the
floor  where  he had dropped the condom bag  and  bottle  of
lubricant. I found the lubricant first and sat it on the bed
next  to  his  legs.  Not  being  able  to  locate  the  bag
containing the condoms, I had to lean down.

          "Shit,  where  the fuck is it?" I  asked  somewhat
frustrated. "I know it was here awhile ago."

         Apparently, during the evening's active play we had
managed  to somehow kick the bag under the bed.  He  sat  up
and  rubbed  my ass as I bent over and rummaged  around  the
floor for the much needed bag.

          "It has to be there. I dropped it on the floor  in
the same place as the lube." He sounded almost desperate.

          I found it and quickly grabbed a condom out of the
opened bag. "Here it is."

          He moved further up on the bed and I climbed up to
meet  him.  He lay down and I moved back between  his  legs;
into  the position I had reluctantly left. As I did,  I  was
already  feverishly tearing open the condom package  and  in
the  process of putting the condom on my throbbing  dick.  I
thought  my  dick was going to break. It was as  hard  as  a
rock.  I was in a hurry. I was greedy and too much time  had
been  wasted looking for the fucking bag in the first place.
Besides, I didn't want him to cool down any. I wanted him in
the  worst way. I wanted him to feel the same pleasure  that
he had already given me.

          I  slid  my head back down between his legs  while
unrolling  the condom down my shaft and began  mouthing  his
ass  once more. When I felt that I had him nice and wet, and
I  had  him  hot and totally excited again, I  slowly  began
raising my body with his legs over my shoulders until I  was
crouched once more at his backside.  I moved my body  up  to
meet  his,  the head of my aching dick arched  to  meet  his
waiting  ass.  He  watched as I placed my cock-head  at  the
crack of his muscular butt.

          I  heard him say, "Easy." when the tip of my  dick
first  made contact. "It's been a long time for me too.  I'm
not use to this."

          I knew this was something new for him since he had
told  me  that he had always been primarily a top. I  wanted
this experience to be both wonderful and special. Having him
wanting to share this moment with me and willing to have  me
enter  his  forbidden  tunnel had  already  made  this  very
special for me.

          As  he had done earlier, I squeezed a small amount
of  lubricant  on  to my fingers and I watched  as  I  began
working  them  around  the  outer  opening  of  his  tightly
clenched ass.

          "Try to relax. I'll go as slow as you need me to."
I  offered up some encouragement. "I want you to enjoy  this
too."

          I  rubbed  some of the lubricant around  his  butt
hole.  When  I  felt he had relaxed some and  was  ready,  I
pushed  a fingertip in. His body clenched and gave a  slight
jump. I did not back off the pressure. I twisted my hand  so
that  my  finger  moved inside of his  hole,  massaging  the
entrance.  He  tightened  up  at  first.  I  worked  at  his
sphincter muscle until he got accustomed to the invader  and
then  I began to slowly add another finger. He was ready.  I
made sure of it.

          "Ough!"  he  crooned as the second finger  slipped
past  his  entrance to join my other finger working  in  the
depths of his love channel. "Yeah!"

          I  squatted  between his legs and placed  my  tool
firmly at his entryway. I teased his ass hole with the  head
of  my  dick. I rubbed it around the entrance of  his  butt,
then  across  his balls and back down to his  ass  again.  I
started  to  slowly  push the tip  of  my  hard-on  in,  not
surprised  at the tightness of his somewhat virgin  hole.  I
felt him tighten up as my dick tried to slide past the outer
opening.  I  held off going any further until his  body  had
time to adjust to the prowler. My right hand grabbed hold of
his  raging hard cock. I squeezed and pulled at his pole and
pushed  my shaft in a little deeper. His body gave a  sudden
jump  as  the  head  of  my cock finally  slipped  past  his
sphincter muscle.

          "Awgh! FUCK! Dick in my ass!" he exclaimed in half
sentences. "Feels good. AUGH YEAH!" He thrashed on  the  bed
under me. "Yeah! Easy! Take your time. Take your time."

         His breath was coming hard and deep.  He was hot as
hell. I could tell by the way his ass opened to the presence
of  my  cock;  knocking  at  his  back  door,  that  he  was
definitely  ready.  I pressed on. I slowly  pushed  forward,
driving  about  half of my dick into him. I  stopped  there,
only  long enough for him to get use to the sensation  of  a
cock.  my cock. up his butt. I gradually pulled back  on  my
shaft  then pushed back into his tunnel a little  deeper.  I
started  a  slow rotating motion with my hips giving  him  a
little  time to get use to having my boner up his ass before
I went any further.

          "Man,  your ass is fuckin tight." I quivered.  "It
feels  so  fucking hot on my dick." I was not use to  having
any  man impaled on my shaft; especially not a man like this
one.

         I bent my body over his and began kissing his lips.
Our tongues darted back and forth in the heat of the moment.
Gently and patiently I pushed in a little more as I felt his
butt  start relaxing to the pressure of my cock in his  ass.
His  legs still over my shoulders, our mouths devouring  the
others' with hot, wet kisses, I made one final push, driving
my dick home, until my tower was buried all the way in.  The
hair  at the base of my dick hit up against his balls and  I
broke off the kiss.

         All I could utter was, "Augh fuck!"

         My body arched up, pressing my entire weight   onto
his pelvis as my dick bottomed out in the depths of his love
canal.

          "Fuck! Baby you've got it. It's all yours. Go  for
it!"  he  panted; propping himself up on his  elbows  so  he
could  watch as I entered his body. "Take my ass! Push  that
rod all the way in."


          His ass had to have been the tightest asses I  had
ever experienced. I wasn't sure how much I would be able  to
take. It felt so good. but was so damn tight!

          "Yes!" He was breathing heavy. "Shit man, take me.
Oh God! Fuck my ass."

          I  moved  in a similar motion to what we had  done
earlier, when he was in me. We began to fuck, just the  same
as  before; except now I was in the drivers seat. With  each
trust  I  made forward, he moved his hips back  up  to  meet
mine.  As  I pulled my cock back, he tightened up  his  ass,
trying to keep me inside of him. He seemed to be enjoying it
just  as much as I had enjoyed having him fuck me. I grabbed
a hold of his legs with my hands and began a rocking motion.
I  drilled his ass with my hard dick. His left hand  reached
for  my right nipple and squeezed it; his right hand grabbed
for  his  raging hard dick and feverishly began to jack  it.
The harder I drove in and out of his ass, the more he moaned
and  pulled at his cock. We were both about at the point  of
no  return. The heat from our bodies and the lovemaking  had
us  both extremely worked up. We were animals. Grinding  our
pelvises  together  and  fucking  and  grunting  like  pigs;
letting ourselves succumb to the lust we had shared for each
other all night, we hunched back and forth on the bed.

          "Take my dick!" I exclaimed as I sank my cock deep
inside his ass. "Fuck on it, man. Take it all." I pushed and
pulled my shaft in and out of him. "God yeah! That feels  so
good! Man, you're so fucking hot! Fuck it! Feels good! Yeah,
you make my dick feel good." I was riding him like there was
no tomorrow.

           "Oh  yeah.  fuck my ass. pump that  big  dick  up
there." he sputtered between the jabbing thrusts of my cock.
"Holy shit. that feels. so fucking. GOOD!"

         I held his legs and watched as I pushed and prodded
his ass hole with my man-ramming cock. His body lurched each
time  I slammed into him. My balls slapped at his underside.
Our  bodies  continued bucking at a steady,  fevered  pitch,
which  was  working us both up to the level of  popping  our
wads  at  any minute. We each knew that we had to slow  down
before  we  each reached that point where we  couldn't  stop
ourselves  from emptying our nuts. I slowed  my  motion.  We
neither  one wanted to lose our loads just yet. The look  in
his  eyes  told me that he really didn't want to  stop,  but
knew we had to.

         I took hold of his dick in my right hand, gave it a
firm  squeeze and began pulling my dick out of  his  ass.  I
slowly let his legs fall from my shoulders, back to the  bed
and  gently  began  pulling back on  my  dick.  His  muscles
clamped down tightly on my shaft; making my dick feel as  if
I  would  loose  my nut at any time.  His throbbing  manhood
pulsed and quivered in my hand and I knew he was real  close
to  blowing his load as well. His left hand quickly moved to
cover  my  hand  holding onto his cock. He stopped  me  from
stroking  his  prick. He relaxed; knowing I  had  understood
that  he didn't want me to make him cum just yet. I held  on
to  his quaking shaft and began, ever so slowly, to free  my
cock  from the imprisonment of his hot, tight ass. It seemed
to  take  forever for my cock to completely exit his tunnel.
When  the  head  of  my  poker finally  popped  out  of  its
confines, his body made a huge jump and I thought  for  sure
that he had shot his honey.

         "Augh fuck!" he exclaimed. "NO!"

          His  body gave a lurch forward as soon as my  dick
was  completely  out.  He threw his  arms  around  my  neck,
pulling  me to him. I collapsed on top of him. I was  hoping
that  I  had given him as much pleasure as he had given  me.
Our  lips  wrapped around each other's and we began  kissing
with  a  shared knowledge that everything we had  just  done
this evening was not yet quite over.

          Both of us were wringing wet from the sweat of our
bodies  and  we  were gasping for air as we  broke  off  our
kisses.  I rolled off of him and pulled the condom  from  my
dick.   We lay side-by-side for a second or two and then  he
propped  himself up with his left elbow and leaned over  me.
He ran his free hand around the hairs on my chest.

          "Man  that was fucking fantastic." He spoke  in  a
raspy  voice. "It's been a long time since anyone  has  been
there or that I even wanted anyone up there."

         I  broke  in before he had a chance to say anything
else. "We almost lost it. You had me so damn hot." I stroked
his  face,  "I could tell that you were real close and I was
afraid I couldn't hold off any longer either."

         "Maybe we shouldn't" was all he said.

          His right hand began lowering to my crotch, taking
hold  of  my still raging hard tower.  With my left hand,  I
reached for his cock. It pulsed in my hand.  I just held  on
to his throbbing member; not daring to stroke it for fear he
would finally loose control and shoot.

          We did not speak another word. We did not move. We
just  held  on to each other's manly shafts; our bodies  and
minds  so closely connected by this time that we could  feel
our  hearts beating between us. We lay quietly on  the  bed,
looking deeply into each other's eyes; breathing and panting
heavily,  locked in each other's grasps. Our eyes  searching
for  the  reassurance that each of us was  experiencing  the
same  emotional intensity and that it actually was  in  fact
really happening.

          We began a soft but passionate kiss; holding on to
each  other's drooling joysticks. Our lustful kisses  turned
from  merely  brushing over each other's lips and  faces  to
nibbling  at each other's ears and finally chewing  on  each
other's  necks.  We  each wanted to make  this  last  a  lot
longer, but could tell the time for release was way over due
and  real close at hand. We had been so turned on, so heated
up and at the breaking point too many times that night.

       He started to stir, letting go of my dick; I released
his cock as well. I shifted on the bed as he climbed back on
top of me. I thought that he was going to do a repeat of his
love  making, but this time he made no attempt  to  put  his
manhood back inside of me. I placed both of my hands on  his
back, pulling him to me.  I felt his weight lower completely
down  on  top of me, our chests rubbing against each  other,
our cocks smashing between our stomachs. We passionately and
greedily  pressed against each other. We were  in-heat.  Our
dicks  moving  around and side-by-side each  other's;  every
inch  of  our  bodies  lubricated with sweat,  we  slid  and
hunched  together.  We  ground  ourselves  together   in   a
simulated  fucking motion. As we simultaneously  banged  and
thrashed,  we  showered  each other with  strong,  hot,  wet
kisses,  full  of  lust.  No longer  were  we  content  with
anything  less  than full out passion for the other  person;
trying  to symbolically, actually eat each other. With  more
and  more  intensity, we kissed deeper and  harder,  working
ourselves  up to the moment of release. Muffled  grunts  and
groans  were  coming from us both. Our bodies were  pounding
and  thrashing all over the bed, our crotches smashing  into
one another with more and more ferocity.

          I  broke  our lip lock long enough to utter,  "I'm
real close!" My balls were at their breaking point.

          I  tried to hold off until I was sure that he  too
was   ready.  He  was  sucking  on  the  side  of  my  neck;
obliviously giving me a hicky.

         "Me too!" He grunted,  "I'm there!"

          I  could feel his body start to get rigid and knew
his  time  was at hand too. He put his hands on the  bed  on
either side of my chest and pushed his upper body up so that
his  cock  pressed  and rubbed harder against  my  cock.  He
ground and pushed his dick against mine. We stared into each
other's  eyes, knowing the TIME was RIGHT. My hands clutched
at  his chest, grabbing at his nipples and the hairs on  his
pecs.  The  friction  and  wetness of  our  bodies  pounding
against  each  other had finally reached a  critical  point.
This was the moment we had been building to all night.

          "I'm going to.I'm Cumming!" he threw his head back
as he began to empty the first wad of his juices all over my
stomach.  "Oh  shit!  Oh God!" His dick pressed  harder  and
harder against mine. "Augh! Yes!"

           No  sooner than his dick started gushing his  big
sticky  load  onto  my  crotch and stomach,  my  cock  began
squirting out my hot cum.

          "Oh  fuck  yeah!  I'm there! I'm  there"  My  head
twisted and turned on the bed. "Mmmm! Oh fuck!"My dick  shot
the  first of my load. "Fuck yes!  I continued to pump  what
felt  like  my  entire  guts into the river  of  love  fluid
between us. "Ugh! Ugh! Yes!"

     We, at the same moment, climaxed!

       We  continued our humping and grinding motion as  our
cocks  shot  pools of jism between us. Our  crotches  filled
with  the  juices of out lovemaking. Our bodies were  tense.
Our grunts and groans of pleasure came louder.

         "Oh yeah baby, shoot that fucking big load all over
me!" I cried out. "Make me wet! It feels so good!"

         He continued sliding his dick up against mine.  Our
loads  shot  everywhere. The feel of it was  wonderful.  The
sweat and heat from our bodies and the sticky wetness of our
orgasms, made everything about what was happening seem  that
much more erotic.

         "Fucking take my load!" he grunted as his dick shot
still more of his wonderful liquid onto my belly. "Shit man!
Wow! Feels so good!"

          We  thrashed against each other, driving our dicks
together  in one last depositing, flinging drive; until  our
balls were completely drained.

          He  collapsed back down on top of me; both  of  us
gasping  for air. My arms locked around his neck. He  kissed
me  as hard as I kissed him. We were both totally wasted. We
had  drained  our bodies of any and all the  energy  we  had
started  with.  All we could do was to lie in  each  other's
arms; feeling the hot sticky wetness of our explosions  that
we had left between us.

          The  warm  afterglow  of our lovemaking  began  to
settle  in.  We stayed lying together, holding tightly  onto
each  other, for quite a while. Neither one of us wanted  to
or  really was even able to move. His head lay beside  mine,
our  breathing slowed, allowing our lungs to slowly be  able
to  take  in  more air. We began to cool down, savoring  the
experience we had just been through.  Finally, he rolled off
of me onto his side. I turned to face him.

         "Oh my God! That was fucking fantastic." He finally
managed to say.  He kissed me again.

          I  started to move off the bed to get a  towel  to
clean  us  up. "That wasn't too bad." I replied and  smiled,
"for FOREPLAY!" I quickly added, " Just wait until we REALLY
get into it"

        "Foreplay  my  ass. Is that what you  call  it?"  He
grabbed  my  arm, pulling me back down to him. "That  was  a
complete trip around the moon and back." He laughed.

           He  scooted his body up to the head of  the  bed,
pulling me up with him.   He leaned over and picked  up  the
pillows  from the floor where they had been knocked sometime
during the night. We, for the first time that night, lay  on
the  bed  in  a  normal position. He rolled onto  his  back,
placing a pillow under his head and pulled me over to him so
I  could  lay my head on his strong shoulder. I snuggled  in
and  we  talked. I ran my hand over his chest, playing  with
his  chest  hairs. He lightly rubbed my shoulder  using  the
hand of the arm I was lying on.

          This evening had been everything we had each hoped
it  would be and even more. What had originally started out,
as  a computer dating, weekend fling; had turned into one of
the  wildest,  erotic, most passionate, romantic  adventures
that either of us had ever had.

          "I'm  sticky and starving." I kissed his shoulder.
"Are you still hungry?"

         He leaned up slightly, "Well, I don't think that we
are  going to find anything around here open this late."  He
looked  over to the nightstand behind me and began to laugh.
"You  are not going to believe this. but it is five  o'clock
in the morning."

          We  had gotten so caught up into the lust for each
other.  We  had  made love all evening  and  well  into  the
morning and had completely missed dinner.

          "It may be too late for dinner but.there is always
breakfast." I grinned and quickly added with a knowing wink,
"That is if BREAKFAST. is anything like dinner!"

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                         EPILOG


         I look at my watch and notice the TIME. almost five
o'clock in the morning. A smile comes to my lips as I sit in
this  chair watching his labored breaths; I can still recall
so  vividly in my mind, our first meeting and all  the  love
that came out of it.

          Who would ever have thought that twenty years ago,
two  men in their fifties, who were HIV positive, would meet
and  correspond over the internet, make arrangements to meet
face to face at a gay desert resort community, fall madly in
love  and build a wonderful, loving life together. But  that
is just the way it happened.

           The TIMING had been right for our meeting and  we
had  spent our TIME together building a beautiful life, full
of an immense love for each other.

          From  that first weekend, the two of us were never
apart.  Not even for one night. except for the few weeks  it
took  each  of  us to return to our homes to close  out  our
businesses;  only to return to Palm Springs to buy  a  house
and set up a life together.

          For twenty years he had been the man of my dreams.
I  could  not  imagine life without him.  We  had  shared  a
marvelous life. I can only hope that I did everything in  my
power to make his life as fulfilled as he made mine.

         Now, our time and life was sadly coming to an end.

         He lay in his hospital bed, semi-conscious.  I keep
an ever vigil watch. He knows that I am here with him. I can
tell. He is the love of my life. This man. My man!

          His  life force is slowly slipping away  from  me;
this  beautiful creature, which had captured my heart oh  so
long ago, is now leaving me. Our time together will soon  be
over...but what a time it has been. There had always been so
much love, so much caring, and so much understanding and  of
course,  so  much  love making; shared  in  our  brief  time
together. I just pray that he can hold on until BREAKFAST!