Date: Sun, 26 Jun 2005 15:56:38 EDT
From: Keybedder@aol.com
Subject: The Halls of Academe, Part 6

THE HALLS OF ACADEME, PART SIX by K. Nitsua. Copyright 2005 by the author.

For a while after Nathan Lewis retracted his sexual harassment charge life
seemed as if it might be getting back to normal. Drew and I could
concentrate on teaching our classes and dealing with the end-of-semester
rush.

Marcia Hannon stopped by my office soon after the meeting with Nathan in
the Provost's office.

"I got the word from Jon," she said. "I hadn't written Drew's evaluation
yet, so no harm done. There won't be anything about the sexual harassment
in it."

"Thank goodness for small favors," I said. I waited, but she didn't
leave. After a moment, she said, "You all have been through a lot."

I snorted. "That's an understatement."

Marcia looked earnest and a bit pained. "Glenn, if I personally made things
rougher than they had to be I'm sorry."

I shrugged. "You did what the Provost told you to do."

"I'm sorry all this came between us. I wish there was a way I could make it
up to you."

"Well," I said, drawing out the word. "You could take over as Department
Chair next year." Her eyes widened. I couldn't help laughing. "Well, you
asked."

Marcia shook her head, rueful amusement on her face. "I guess I do owe you
one, Glenn," she said.

"Think about it, Marcia. Word's out about Drew and me. I don't have any
credibility as an administrator. Will you do it, not just for me, but for
the department?"

After a moment she nodded. "Okay."

I rose from my chair and hugged her. "Thanks. If you need help, just ask."

"I'm not sure I can do this," she said against my shoulder.

"You'll be fine. Everything's going to be fine."

I spoke those words to her with more confidence than I felt. For one thing,
even though the blackest storm over our lives had cleared, it still wasn't
all plain sailing for Drew and me.

One morning I stopped by his office to find him tapping on his computer
keyboard. He wheeled around when I came in, with an expression of guilt
that startled me. A quick peek didn't show anything on the monitor that
would have caused his reaction.

"What's up?" I said, pretending I hadn't noticed anything amiss.

Drew relaxed a bit, but his smile still seemed forced. "You scared me. I
was just applying to this teaching workshop at Rollins this summer. Of
course it's the last day I can submit the form so I was doing it online."

"You didn't tell me you wanted to go to that." I was puzzled. "You know,
the Provost's Office can fund your attendance. I would have recommended
you."

"Uh, yeah, I know." Drew hesitated. "I actually went to Jon myself a couple
of days ago. He had a bit of extra money left, so I'm getting my tuition
and expenses covered. I'll still have to pay my own way there. I was going
to tell you, but I decided this kind of all at the last minute."

"Well," I said, feeling a bit hurt. "I wish I'd known. I could still give
you something from the department's travel fund."

Drew raised his hand in a brusque gesture. "That's okay. I don't want the
department paying my way, especially without the rest of the faculty being
consulted. Thanks, though, Glenn."

I knew better than to argue with him when his mind was made up. Still, my
own voice sounded phony as I said, "I'm glad it's only a week. I'll miss
you."

Drew smiled, more genuine this time, and patted my hand. "We'll
survive. Free for lunch today?"

I felt a little better then. A little voice continued to nag at me, though,
no matter how hard I tried to ignore it. A few days later Jon Evans called
me in for a meeting. I went to the main administration building with
something of a bad attitude. I was still annoyed at the Provost for leaking
news of the harassment charge against Drew to Marcia, though it hadn't done
any harm in the end. My ability to hold grudges had been my undoing more
than once but I couldn't help it. Even now I sometimes fantasized about
what I might do if I ever saw one of the board members who had fired me
from my teaching job in Oklahoma long ago.

I have to give Jon credit. As soon as I sat down he got to the point.

"Glenn, I owe you an apology."

I stared at him, not bothering to disguise my surprise. "For what?"

Jon's eyes were clear and direct. I hadn't seen that look from him in a
while. "You were absolutely right. I never should have shared the
information about Drew's sexual harassment charge with Marcia. That was an
inexcusable breach of a faculty member's privacy. I've already apologized
to Drew, but I wanted to let you know as well."

"Well." I was stunned, and it took me a moment to find my voice. "It's all
water under the bridge. At any rate it turned out okay."

"Yes, for you and Drew. I wasn't so lucky. I've lost your friendship."

He was asking me to forgive him. I stumbled over my words. "I was angry
too, Jon, and said things I shouldn't have. I'm not exactly objective when
it comes to Drew." There was a lump in my throat and I was
embarrassed. "But I appreciate you saying all of this. And I still consider
you a friend. Even if you do make thirty thousand a year more than I do."

Jon laughed, but when he spoke his voice was gruff. "For that kind of dough
you'd think I wouldn't screw up this bad." He expelled a long sigh. "Thank
you, Glenn."

I changed the subject as quickly as I could. "Is it true Drew came to you
about attending the Rollins teaching workshop?"

"Yes. I told him he could ask you to fund him, but it seemed important to
him that--well, forgive me, Glenn, but he didn't seem to want you to know
that he was interested in going."

I shook my head, not disagreeing. "Why would he be that way? I support
anyone in the department who wants to improve their teaching."

Jon was silent for a long moment. When he spoke again he chose his words
carefully. "Glenn, I've heard some advance buzz from a friend at Stanford
U. Press about Drew's book. The word is it's good. Good enough to put Drew
on some pretty big radar screens in academia."

He paused. "What I mean is, I think we have to prepare ourselves for the
fact that he might be gone, very soon."

I stared at him. "Jon, he promised me he would stay at Steelman. That he
intended to be here for a long time. Why would he say that if it weren't
true?"

My steps were slower than usual as I walked away from the administration
building. Try as I might I couldn't get Jon's words out of my mind. But if
Drew were really looking for another job, why was he going to the teaching
workshop? There was no opening at Rollins that I knew of, and anyway, he'd
be aiming higher than that sort of institution.

The Steelman campus was dotted with shade trees that kept the heat of the
approaching summer somewhat at bay. Standing underneath one some distance
away I spotted a familiar figure, his back turned. I'd know those broad
shoulders and tightly packed buns anywhere. But what was Drew doing under
that tree?

Just as I started walking toward him he ducked behind the trunk, as if he'd
sensed movement and wanted to conceal himself. He was holding his cell
phone to his ear. Though I could hear his voice it was too far away for me
to make out the words.

I stopped in my tracks. Something about his behavior, the furtive manner in
which he was having a conversation with an unknown person, brought the
doubts that had already been planted in my mind rushing up to the surface.

All of a sudden I didn't want him to see me. I started off in the opposite
direction, taking a roundabout route to my building and to my office,
trying to concentrate on the walk and the exercise, making my mind a blank.

I was fairly successful at that until I got back to my office and sat down
at my desk. It wasn't until I'd been there several minutes that I realized
that the tightness in my chest had nothing to do with my recent exertion. I
closed my eyes, heaved a sigh, and put my head down on the desk.

We were in the middle of exam week and I was grateful for that-I had
nothing to do for the rest of the day. After a few minutes I got up and
went home.

Since mid-semester Drew had been spending more and more time at my place,
to the point where we were practically living together. He usually came
back in the late afternoon, in time for us to eat dinner. Today I found
myself dreading his return. I didn't want to confront him-after all, what
had I seen? But my suspicions and anxieties were increasing to the point
where I couldn't just act as if nothing were going on.

The afternoon wore on and turned into early evening. There was no sign of
Drew. I called his apartment, on the chance he had gone there. No
answer. Calling his office produced the same result.

I watched the TV screen without seeing anything, scanned the newspaper
without remembering a thing I'd read. Finally I gave up and sat on the
couch in my living room, staring into space.

I suddenly realized I was on the verge of jumping in my car and driving to
that park I'd last gone to a few months before, just after Paul had posted
the hateful signs. The desire to seek quick release was so great it was a
physical struggle to keep from going out the door. "Don't do it," I said
out loud. Finally the craving passed.

I don't know how long it was before I heard his footsteps. The door opened
and Drew came in, flooding the room with his cheerful energy, shocking
after the gloom that had filled it for hours.

"God, I am sorry. Believe it or not, I just came from school."

"I called your office." Despite my efforts to keep my voice even Drew
sensed something was wrong. He raised his eyebrows.

"I was giving a final in World History Survey. Didn't I tell you? Anyway,
it must have been harder than I thought. Three students took till the very
end of the period. I had to wait it out and collect their papers. That's
what took so long. Toward the end I was sitting in the hallway outside the
exam room, drumming my fingers. Sorry, I should have known you might be
trying to call."

I shrugged. "Doesn't matter."

Drew pursed his lips, and the challenging look I knew so well
appeared. "Okay, this isn't just about my being late. Want to tell me
what's on your mind?"

I took a deep breath, then plunged ahead. "Why are you going to that
teaching workshop?"

His eyes shifted. "Why does anyone go?"

I rushed on, even though I already knew the answer. "You wait until the
regular deadline to apply for travel money is long gone, then you go to the
Provost without telling me, even though you know the department could pay
your way. Don't make me drag it out of you, and please don't lie to me."

Silence, then Drew nodded.

"Okay. A couple of weeks ago I got a call from the chair at-"

Despite myself I was impressed. Jon had been right.

"They've had an unexpected opening. Someone in their department got
booted. Sexual harassment." He snorted. "How ironic is that?

"Well, when they told me the reason the guy had left I had no choice. I
told him the whole Nathan thing right then and there. Waited for him to say
thank you and hang up. Well, he didn't hang up."

"Anyway, the chair's one of the keynote speakers and presenters at Rollins
this summer, so he suggested I come, just to talk. Said he wanted to keep
the whole thing low-key, not do a formal interview. Doesn't have to anyway,
because this isn't the permanent job. If he likes what he sees at Rollins,
he'll offer me a one-year visiting position. It's just one year, Glenn."

I stared past him at a spot on the living room wall.

"You know damn well that's not true. You'll go, you'll be brilliant,
they'll offer you the tenure-track job. Bingo."

"Glenn-"

"Don't tell me you'd turn it down. Don't insult my intelligence."

He was silent. Bitterness welled up in me.

"All that stuff about staying here for a long time. I might have known it
was bullshit."

His eyes snapped with anger. "You have to make this just as hard as you
can, don't you?"

My temper flared in return. "Like I'm supposed to make it easy?"

Drew sighed. "If you only knew what hell I've been going through. To leave
this place. To leave you, even if it's only for a year. I can't imagine
it. But, Glenn--"

I waved a hand. "Don't." A long pause. I had to force my next words
out. "If I were in your place I'd do the same."

"Glenn-"

"I want to be by myself for a while." He started to speak again but I cut
him off. "Please."

I heard the front door slam. I didn't move for a long time after that. It
grew dark. I didn't turn on any lights.

Finally I stood, meaning to try and fix myself something to eat. Instead my
feet led me out the front door, down the street, and toward Drew's
apartment building.

I climbed the steps to his second-floor flat and rang the bell. He opened
the door immediately. I stepped in and fell to my knees in front of him.

"Please don't go. I love you," I said.

Drew grasped my arms and lifted me to my feet. His eyes were dark pools of
hurt. He put two fingers to his lips, then placed them on mine. I pulled
them away and kissed him, hard.

"Make love to me."

He nodded. We went to his bedroom. Slowly he removed every stitch of
clothing I had on, kissing what he uncovered. When I was naked he led me to
the bed and made me lie there, watching him do the same.

Drew and I had done it in every conceivable position, played bondage games,
laughed, joked and shouted while we played. Tonight there was none of
that. We were silent, clinging to each other, looking into each other's
eyes at every possible opportunity. I kissed him until my lips were chapped
and sore, sometimes hard and passionate, thrusting my tongue in to meet
his, sometimes soft and tender, caressing his lips with mine. I closed my
eyes as his own lips and tongue found all of my sensitive places, my
nipples, my navel, the insides of my thighs, and finally, my hard, aching
cock and hungry ass.

When he finally turned me onto my back, spread my legs and entered me I
grabbed his butt and shoved him as far inside me as I could, then wrapped
my arms around his body and drew him close. I was bent double underneath
him, my calves braced against his shoulders, helpless and vulnerable.

"Hold me. Fuck me."

Usually Drew laughed when I let my need show too openly. Now he simply
nodded as he took possession of me. I gasped softly every time he hit
bottom, until finally my hand, grasping my cock between our bodies, drew
the orgasm from me in hot spurts that mixed with our sweat, gluing us
together. Seconds later Drew squeezed his eyes shut, his breath hissing
through gritted teeth as he shot his load into me.

We kept hold of each other in the aftermath, our hot breath bathing each
other's faces.

"I wish I could make it easy for you to leave," I told him. "But I can't."

Drew smiled. "I'm glad." He kissed me, for the hundredth or so time that
night. "Let's not fight anymore. We have the whole rest of the summer."

He made it sound like such a long time. I nodded, then closed my eyes as I
buried my face in his hair.

Drew left for the Rollins workshop a couple of weeks later. When he came
back we picked up where he left off. Other than a few general questions I
asked him nothing about his week there, and he didn't volunteer anything.

I was in my office one day later that month when the phone rang. I picked
it up and heard an unfamiliar voice.

"Professor Reynolds? This is--"

It was a name anybody in our field would have recognized--the kind of
academic who appears on CNN to provide background on a breaking news
story. I also knew he was the chair of the department at the school that
was interested in Drew.

I managed to get out, "What can I do for you?" without stuttering or
sounding like an idiot.

"Do you have a few minutes to talk? It's about a colleague of yours-- James
Druther Ohlen."

I don't remember what I told him--the usual compliments. I ended by giving
Drew my highest recommendation. I bade the renowned professor a cordial
farewell and put down the phone.

"Have we lost the magic, Glenn?" Drew asked in my bed that evening. It was
one of the rare times my body hadn't leapt to attention at the mere sight
of him. I told him who had called, and watched his face change. I couldn't
resist a little dig.

"A lot of places will do that nowadays, Dr. Ohlen. They'll call people who
aren't on your reference list, just to see if they can dig up dirt. Little
do they know."

I stroked his back.

"Of course, I had to tell him you were a lousy teacher and a worse
colleague. Just to make sure you'd stay here." His eyes widened. "Gotcha,"
I said.

He laughed and swooped down, pinning me to the mattress. "Asshole," he
said, just before he kissed me, hard. Our lips and tongues did battle and I
felt the heat that had been absent so far that evening rise in me.

"So what are you going to do with this asshole?" I asked him.

"One guess," he said, as he started to lift my legs.

"Not so fast." I grabbed his hands and shoved them away, shaking my
head. His eyebrows rose and he tried again. Same result, only this time I
kept my grip on his wrists. He laughed at the challenge.

"Okay, if that's the way you want it."

We began to wrestle with furious concentration, arms and shoulders
straining, muscles bulging as I fought to get and stay on top.

"Oh, shit!"

We had gotten too close to the edge of the bed and rolled off, hitting the
floor with a thud, fortunately both on our sides. The match continued
unabated, the bedroom filled with our panting and grunting. The erotic
nature of our struggle hardened our cocks to steel. Despite the fact that
Drew was younger and stronger I finally gained the upper hand and managed
to pin his shoulders to the floor.

"Fucker," he said, grinning. His chest hair was matted with sweat. We were
both gasping for air.

"Concede?" I managed to get out. He nodded. I let him go and straightened,
keeping a wary eye on him, but Drew just lay there, chest still heaving. A
slight smile played over his face.

"What are you smirking about?" I asked.

"Wondering what you'll claim as your prize," he said.

"One guess." I got to my feet and grabbed the lube by the bed. I stood over
him as I greased my dick. Drew watched me with rapt attention.

"Stand up, turn around and grab your ankles," I said.

Drew's smile broadened into a grin. "Yes, sir," he said as he obeyed. "Oh
fuck, my hamstrings."

I looked at him, bent double in submission. His muscular cheeks were spread
wide, exposing the small, tight hole surrounded by fine hair. My cock
hardened even more as I took in the sight. I grasped his hips, and a moment
later I was inside him, watching his sphincter kissing my shaft as it slid
in and out.

Drew's breathing was harsh and noisy. When he tried to raise his head I put
my hand on the back of his neck and forced it down again, tipping him
forward so that he was off balance, totally dependent on me for support.

I fucked him long and slow in that position, until finally my arms tired of
holding him up. I stepped up the pace as I reached underneath his body,
grabbed his erection and began to stroke it hard.

"Oh, shit," Drew gasped, as long ropes of cum shot downward out of his
bursting cock, some onto his neck and chest, but most striking his face.

By now my breath was coming in short harsh gasps. "Fuck that's hot,
watching you take it. Take it...Oh God!"

My rod pulsated as it unloaded into him. When I was finished I pulled Drew
to a standing position, wrapped my arms around his chest and backed up
until we fell onto the bed, me underneath, my cock still in him. I drank in
the odors of sex, sweat and semen, licking up a trickle of cum running down
his cheek.

Finally we uncoupled and lay side by side, still panting. After a while
Drew raised himself and looked into my eyes.

"I'll miss this," he said. "I'll miss you."

"You'd damn well better," I said, swallowing the lump that had suddenly
risen in my throat.

He looked up at the ceiling a long while before he spoke again.

"You know, they haven't actually offered me the job."

I shook my head. "Please. With your book coming out any day now? And your
other credentials? You're gone."

"Funny thing," Drew said, "At the interview, he was talking up the light
course load, how I could spend time doing my research instead of teaching,
and I thought to myself, but I really like to teach now."

"You like it because you're good at it."

Drew raised himself and turned to me again. "Because of you, Glenny. You
taught me how to relate to students, meet them halfway, draw them out."

I blushed. "That's sweet."

"It's the truth. Why would I say it otherwise?" He grinned. "I don't need
to suck up to the chair now."

I heaved a sigh. "Don't rub it in. What am I going to do without you?"

"You'll find someone good."

I reached out and drew him toward me. "I'm not talking about the
department." I took him in my arms and hugged him so hard he protested,
laughing.

"Easy, easy. What're you trying to do, break me in half?"

"Yeah," I said. "Then half of you could stay with me, right here. Guess
which half I'd pick."

"You are bad," Drew said, before he kissed me.

We went to the lake many times that summer. I took my digital camera and
got some shots of Drew to remember him by, some of course strictly for
private consumption. One day we handed the camera to a fellow sunbather and
asked him to snap us together. I still have that picture framed at
home. Drew and I are facing the camera, smiling. I'm in back with one arm
draped over his shoulder. We're naked, of course, but decent--only our
upper bodies are visible, tanned and golden against the rocks and blue
water and sun behind.

That photo has gotten me through some rough times.

The stranger who took our picture was practically salivating over Drew, to
his great amusement. He tried to wheedle a full frontal shot of him out of
us. We compromised and eventually agreed to e-mail a somewhat more discreet
photo of Drew to him.

"He was angling for a three-way," I said as we left late that
afternoon. "Did you see how he kept touching himself? Pathetic."

Drew shook his head. "Aw, he wasn't that bad. Decent body. And did you get
a look at that dick? Grade A prime."

"There's more to a man than his genitals. Anyway, I'm not into group
scenes."

"Really?" Drew said. "You've never thought about it?"

I shook my head. "Never have. Never will."

Drew said nothing, but looked thoughtful.

Even though few people were around on campus now the rumor mill still
seemed to operate. Although Drew hadn't as yet received an official offer,
somehow word got around that he was leaving.

"How many people have you been telling?" he complained to me. "I keep
getting congratulated."

"Please," I said. "What do you take me for? I never say anyone's coming or
going until the contract is in hand."

"Speaking of which," Drew said, "The contract came yesterday."

So it was actually going to happen. "Pretty late," I said, talking fast
before my emotion could get the upper hand. "Must be because it's a
last-minute hire. Better sign it and send it back, pronto."

Drew said nothing.

"You did already, didn't you?"

He nodded. "Don't be mad."

I smiled at him, though it took an effort. "I'm past being mad. You'd
better send the Provost your official leave request too." We were still
keeping up the fiction that Drew was only going for a year. "I've got to
fill your position for the fall and I don't have a great deal of time to do
it. In other words, make things a little easier for your chair, okay?"

Drew knew what I was saying. "Okay."

When a faculty member leaves Steelman, or any place, it's a drawn-out
process. After writing the appropriate letter Drew flew up to the Northeast
to look for a place to live. In his absence I filled out the exit paperwork
for him so that Steelman could officially open his position. When Drew came
back there was the task of helping him clean out his office and his
apartment. After that he had to take the stuff he had accumulated at my
place-I was surprised at how much there was. That, of course, was the
hardest.

Finally, though, it was done. Drew Ohlen moved to New England at the
beginning of August.

I drove him to the airport. We didn't say much. My mind was filled with
memories of the first time I had driven him on this route, and how
different things were now. Drew spent most of the ride looking out the car
window.

I went inside with him, which was a mistake. I held it together until we
got to the security checkpoint, but when I started to wish him a safe trip
I choked up.

Drew put down his laptop, grabbed me and hugged me tight. "You'll see me
again before you know it," he said in my ear. I nodded, grimly determined
not to cry. Suddenly I jumped. He had given my crotch a secret squeeze,
just like the first time. He winked at me and was gone.

TO BE CONTINUED