Date: Mon, 16 Nov 2009 16:54:45 -0500
From: S Smith <mheast111@hotmail.com>
Subject: I'm Not Gay...Am I? Chapter 2

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following, leave now: gay sex, vulgar or harsh language, etc.

This is pure fiction. No one in this story is a real person, living or
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Subject: I?m Not Gay?.  Am I? Chapter 2

My whole body aches?.  Every muscle seems to be throbbing with dull
pain. The last time I felt like this was after that day in the locker
room. But this time the pain is different. Most of it is from my back?and
from my ass?and from humiliation.

Of course I felt humiliation back in May when Ryan had forced me to do
those things in the school. I tried all summer to block the memories of
that incident. But no matter what I did my mind automatically would return
to that day. It started with just flashes of memories?.like the look on his
face when he stared at me on the shower floor?or the curve of his cock as
he pissed on me?.or the sight of his ass coated with my cum?or the taste of
his piss. Then, the nightmares began, which somehow turned the scene into
pleasure because I would wake up with my cock betraying me again, as hard
as that day in the locker room. And now when I jack off Ryan still comes to
my mind despite starting my session imaging the females in my porn
magazines.

The summer night breeze feels good as it brushes over my body while I lay
here in bed. I look down at my nude body in the moonlight and see bruises
again from what happened to me today. Now I have more memories to try to
block?.

?Eric???  In the dark, the whisper came from my partially open bedroom
door.

Grabbing the sheet to cover myself, I sit up on my elbows, ?Josh??

Stepping into the moonlight at the foot of my bed is my little brother
Josh, wearing his flannel sleep pants. At first I blink because I almost
don?t recognize him. It seems like he changes everyday lately because he?s
growing so fast. He will be a freshman in high school this year and the
moonlight on his smooth chest shows just how much the weight training we
are both doing is making a difference. I smile at him with pride knowing my
little brother is growing into quite the handsome man compared to how
skinny I was as a freshman.

?Do you want me to put some more ointment on your back??

?Yeah,? I say, rolling over to my stomach.

When I got back to the farm today Josh saw me changing clothes and noticed
the bruises on my back. I lied and told him I fell down the embankment out
by the creek bed.

He?s been a great brother this summer. Since I?ve barely left the farm out
of fear of crossing paths with Ryan again, Josh and I have spent a lot of
time together when he is not hanging out with his girlfriend. He?s a good
kid and looks up to me, especially since I made him start the weight
training.

I bought the home gym the same week after Ryan attacked me. I set it up in
the basement and do 2 hours routines daily. My body has reacted quickly,
and now already by August I have pretty impressive pecs that bulge out of
my v-neck t-shirts. Even Josh has complimented me on my biceps too.

?Hey, what?s that?? I ask, as Josh rubs an oily liquid on the lat muscles
of my back.

?It?s Mom?s massage oil. I grabbed it from the bathroom shelf,? he says,
working it more into my skin. ?Feel okay??

?Yeah, but you don?t have to do that.?

?It?s cool. I know you got to be in pain. This will help you sleep.?

I feel bad about how I shoved him earlier today. I snapped when I found him
looking at some of Dad?s porn magazines up in the hayloft. Instantly it
made me think of myself at his age when my former buddies found me staring
at some porn pics of couple fucking and they told everyone in school I was
jacking to gay porn. I grabbed the magazine and shoved Josh, and raised my
fist to almost hit him. Instead I turned and climbed out of the loft, but I
seethed with anger.

Guess I?ve been mad at myself for awhile ? for allowing friends to ruin my
life, for looking at the guy in those pictures years ago, for letting Ryan
attack me, etc.  It all has been too much.

Even though I was only wearing my white tank top and khaki shorts today, my
body seemed to be on fire the rage in me took over. Once I got out of the
barn I pulled my tank top off and started to open my shorts as I rounded
the corner, headed to our outdoor shower stall. I needed to get under some
cold water to calm the fury inside me.

The shower stall we use after hard days in the field or after working with
the cattle. Mom prefers we use it instead of coming into the house smelly
and dirty. Unfortunately, when I get there Daniel our hired farm hand was
already under the water taking one of his long showers. The view made me
stop, as I looked at his bare back. Daniel is in his late 30s, and been
working for Dad 3 yrs now, but I never saw him naked before. It a weird way
his back reminded me of Ryan due to his muscles. And when he turned and I
saw the water pouring over the Daniel?s cock I felt like I was in shock.

?Hey Eric ? you okay??

?Um?yeah?sorry?.didn?t realize you were using it?.? I mumbled, staring.

?It?s cool, just rinsing off. Here, I will leave the water on for you.?
Daniel stepped over to the side area and left the shower running, as he
started to towel off.

I tried to act like it was no big deal, and stepped into the side area
stepping out of my sneakers and dropping my shorts and briefs.  But my eyes
kept staring back at his cock as it swung between his thighs.  IT was huge,
and his balls were so smooth that it was obvious he had to have shaved
them. When I looked up into his eyes we both froze and stared, but my cock
betrayed me again as it made a quick bounce and started to lengthen.

Smiling at my hardening cock, Daniel laid his towel down and said, ?It?s
cool, Eric. It happens.?

My mind spun as the rage screamed inside me. Daniel smiled at me and my
knees buckled.

?Hey! I got you!? Daniel reached out, wrapping his arm around me and
holding me up before I collapsed to the pavement. ?What?s up? You feeling
faint? Could be the heat out here today...?

?Sorry?? I mumbled as I leaned into him and grasping at the cement wall for
support.

When I looked down I saw my thigh pressed into his, and his limp thick cock
hanging, as mine pointed straight out only inches from him.

I?m not even sure what the hell was happening as I remember this. I only
know is that we stood there and no word was said

?Eric, maybe you better go?,? he said.

The words ripped through me. I grabbed my clothes and shoes, running around
the barn corner, pulling my clothes and shoes back on and headed to my car.

Without thought I drove fast over those gravel roads, heading into
town. Minutes later as I turned onto the street where the 2 story brick
house came into view I pulled up and got out. At the door I pounded the
bell feeling my internal fury boiling to the edge.

When the oak door opened Ryan Baker stood before me. Just like the last
time I saw him, he stood shirtless with water droplets clinging to his
skin. His mouth slowly opened in shock as he saw me standing on his
doorstep. I?m sure part of the shock was even seeing how I looked since now
I match him muscle for muscle.

The first blow went to his jaw sending him reeling back into the foyer of
his parent?s home. The second was to his rib cage and it sent him against
the beige wall. The third was to his chest, as my leg kick out causing his
body to topple to the floor. I threw myself on top of him and pummeled him
with my fists.

?This feel good?? Josh?s hands were working the massage oil into my back
and I felt the pain dull with each push of his fingers on my skin.

?Yeah..?careful with my lats?.they are sore??

Josh continued to massage the pain from my body. It was pain I would have
never gotten if Todd Rodriguez hadn?t been there today. As I beat on Ryan,
Todd raised me up by my tank top, and his fist slammed into my back. I
scrambled to pull away as his brown muscled arm looped around my neck and
he slammed another fist into my side. Ryan quickly stood and struck blows
to my face, my stomach, and kicked to my groin.

I should?ve known they would be hanging out together. They were best
friends, and co-jocks in my high school class. Football, track, and
wrestling studs with muscled bodies and no brains. When I looked up at them
standing over me, I realized they must have been hanging out by the pool
for the day since they both were in swimsuits.

?What the fuck is this queer doing here?!? Todd said as he looked down at
me.

?I don?t fucking know!!? Ryan?s bare foot swung out and kicked my chest as
I curled into a ball.

?I?ll throw him out on the lawn,? said Todd, as his hand grabbed at my tank
top.

?NO! Throw that faggot in the pool till I figure out what to do with him.?

Todd pulled me up and threw me over his shoulder, heading through the
house, out on to back deck and pool area. I hit the water and sank fast. It
took me a few seconds for my head to clear enough so I could swim to the
surface and crawl out, and laid on the cement gasping from the pain in my
back and sides.

?What the fuck?? Ryan said as he walked over to me, squatting down to
whisper. ?You fucking idiot ? you say anything in front of Todd and I will
fucking kill you.?

In an instant my wet tank top was pulled from my chest and ripped down the
center.  Then he pushed me to my stomach and pulled my arms to my back,
using my torn tank top to tie my wrists, and tie me to the post of the roof
awning.

Casually they both sat down into a couple chaise lounges sitting by the
pool and drank their beers as they laughed at me.

?Why the fuck would Eric Gay show up here?? Todd stared at me with utter
confusion.

?Who knows.  aybe the faggot is wanting some cock!? Ryan laughed with
contempt.

?What the fuck should we do with him?? Todd seemed more than ready to get
me out of the house, but Ryan obviously enjoyed having me tied up
there. The look in his eyes was the same look he had that day in the locker
room.

?Think we will take some pics of the fag.? Ryan said laughing, standing,
and walking into the house.

?Todd, please untie me,? I begged.

?Shut the fuck up, queer!?

Ryan returned with his camera and flipped me onto my back, ripping open my
shorts and pulled them off me. My briefs came off second, and I laid nude
in only my red sneakers as he snapped pictures of me.

Three beers later, Todd got up, headed into the house. ?Need to piss, you
want another beer, Ry??

?Hey hold on! I know what this one likes,? Ryan said as walked over to me
pulling his speedo down and stepping out of it. I knew what was coming
before the first splatter hit me. There I was again, Ryan?s yellow piss
spraying onto my face. Laughing, Todd didn?t hesitate to hurry over,
pulling his cock out of his trunks and sending a torrent of piss onto my
chest.

?Piss on his face, queers love that,? Ryan said as he aimed on my lips and
kicked violently at my ribs. ?Open your mouth, fucking cunt!?

Once again I knew if I didn?t do as I was told it would get worse. I opened
my mouth and took the warm piss. It poured in, sliding down my throat. I
swallowed over and over, drinking the piss as tears poured from my
eyes. They squatted together, making sure to get every drop in me with
their cocks only inches from my mouth.

?See ? he?s a piss boy,? Ryan said laughing as the yellow acrid piss filled
my mouth and poured over my face.

As the last drops hung on Ryan?s cock he lifted my head, ?Clean it off,
bitch!? I did as I was told. Todd stared in shock as my tongue made contact
with Ryan, but he eagerly moved forward allowing me to provide him the same
cleaning.

Ryan quickly reached over and pulled Todd forward so that his cock slid all
the way into my mouth. ?Let the queer service you, buddy,? Ryan said as he
held Todd in place, making sure he didn?t back away.

Todd?s look of fear easily melted as he felt my tongue lick his cock
shaft. It only took seconds for my mouth to make him hard.

?Fuck?Stop!? Todd started to pull back, with a look on his face of disgust
and confusion.

?Guess the faggot likes your cock. See how hard you made him,? Ryan said,
slapping Todd?s arm and pointing at my erection.

Todd exploded. The first kick slammed into my side, the second went to my
temple.

?You fucking faggot! Todd screamed, looking down at me as I curled into a
ball, and flipped onto my stomach. More blows hit my back, and then I felt
a cold pressure squeezing between my ass cheeks.

A pain ripped through me beyond any pain I held felt before in my
life. Every cell in my ass seemed to be tearing as a beer bottle shoved
into my sphincter and beer poured into my hole. The cold beer dulled some
of the pain, but the bottle pushed further.  My screams were blocked as
Ryan used his hand to cover my mouth and fuck me with the bottle as Todd
spit on me.

?FUCKING QUEER! Fucking faggot!? Todd screamed as he grabbed the bottle
from Ryan and took over fucking me harder with it.

?Fuck him, Todd! Fuck the faggot! Come on!? Ryan urged on.

?Cunt! Fucking FAGGOT!? Todd screamed. My screams stopped as my world
seemed to freeze. My voice was gone and I started to accept my punishment
just to make it all end.

?Do it, Todd ? fuck that faggot!? Ryan urged, and the bottle was pulled
from my ass. A foot shoved under and flipped me to my back.  Ryan grabbed
at my ankles as he pushed Todd forward between my legs. ?Fuck that pussy
hole!?

Todd?s cock rammed deep inside my bowels. The pain seared as much as the
bottle, my mouth opened to scream, but nothing came out. Instead Todd began
to spit large wads of saliva in my open mouth.

Ryan stood over us looking down.  The smile I still remember so clearly on
his face as he watched what he had created. Then he slowly moved and
squatted behind Todd, his hands reaching around and grasping Todd?s muscled
chest as he repeated over and over ?Yeah, fuck that pussy hole.?

Todd?s eyes closed as he fucked me and Ryan?s hands began to caress and
squeeze his nipples. His screaming at me stopped as he let the pleasure
take over and Ryan?s hands turned his head to the side.

?Yeah, fuck her Todd, fuck her,? he whispered.

?Fuck, yeah,? Todd moaned as he pushed faster. Ryan used the moment and
leaned in shoving his tongue into Todd?s mouth. Their kiss was deep as Ryan
violently held Todd pushing his tongue further.

?What the fuck?!? Todd yelled, as the reality hit him. Pulling his cock
deep from inside me, he froze looking at me. Ryan?s hand instantly grabbed
Todd?s cock and jerked it once, causing volley after volley of thick cum to
burst spraying across my chest and face.

?FUCK!? Todd screamed as he stood up, backing away, staring down confused
about what he had done.

?Good job, buddy,? Ryan laughed, as he moved into position between my legs
wiping a glob of cum on his cock and ramming the shaft deep into my hole.

It was then I noticed my cock had betrayed me again, a it laid hard on my
abs. An orgasm slammed through me and a massive load of cum sprayed out of
me just as Ryan pulled out and shot his load onto me too.

?FUCK YES!!? Ryan screamed out as the thick cum coated my chest and chin.

My cock is betraying me even now as I lay here in the moonlight on my
stomach. I can feel it engorged with blood pressing into my abs. Even after
being raped, it still seems to find pleasure somehow. I hate it and try to
will it away, as Josh?s hands work the oil into my lower back. God why is
this happening to me?  Why did I get raped today?  Why did I go to Ryan?s
house?  Why didn?t I fight back?.....  Even as I ran through the house
naked once Ryan untied me I didn?t stop to go back and fight. Instead, like
a baby, I ran.

My mind swims with thoughts of anger and dread?and images of Todd?s dark
cock, Ryan between my legs, the cum coating me? My fucking cock is
throbbing and I know I am about to cum again.

?Josh,?? my voice is a strained whisper.  ?Get out of here!?

Rolling to my side, I motion for Josh to leave and shoving him off my
bed. As he stands the sheet slips and my rigid cock comes into view in the
moonlight shining across my bed. With every fiber I try to stop it, but the
cum flies out of me, shooting over and over onto my chest and abs as we
both watch.

I close my eyes in shame and hear Josh run from my bedroom, his door shut,
and the lock click.


TO BE CONTINUED...

Hope you are enjoying the story. Eric is trying to discover who and what he
really is. Lets see where this goes. You can email with your comments,
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