Date: Mon, 28 Dec 2009 18:25:27 -0500
From: S Smith <mheast111@hotmail.com>
Subject: I'm NotGay Am I? Chapter 6

Warning: The usual disclaimers apply here. If you don't like any of the
following, leave now: gay sex, vulgar or harsh language, etc.

This is pure fiction. No one in this story is a real person, living or
deceased. Please do not copy without my consent.  Please practice safe sex.

Subject: I?m Not Gay? Am I? Chapter 6

A trickle of sweat pours down my chest as I lay on the soft white cotton
sheets. They are so white that the light tan on my skin seems to almost
make me look brown. I can hear the central air conditioner system is
running in the house, but it doesn?t seem to cool me. I feel the sudden
urge to run and throw myself out the window, but I know the humid heat out
there will feel even worse. I lay here and accept the feeling of
perspiration on my skin and lay as still as I possibly can.

I know where I am. I know clearly what I have done. But I don?t feel a part
of myself. I feel like I'm watching myself from the ceiling above. In the
back of my mind I hear my screams but I don?t move. This must be what it is
like when you are in shock. Frozen in place and unable to run, but hearing
your own screams inside your head. I look own my body and see the familiar
smooth skin, my building muscles, even my cock that betrays me lying on my
thigh. But despite my familiar body, I'm separate - a different person than
the vessel I live in.

I feel the movement next to me and hold my breath. I'm not alone in this
bed - the body heat, the deep breathing, the dampness of the sheets from
his sweat all remind me I am not alone. But I refuse to look at him. Maybe
if I don't acknowledge him this will all be a dream.

With tiny movements I climb from the bed and step quietly into the
bathroom. I grab a towel and wipe the sweat and cum from my body, and pick
up a tiny brief from the floor. When I pull them on I realize they?re not
mine, but I don?t care. I feel the walls close in and I have to escape. I
rush from the bathroom and out the bedroom door. As I descend the stairs I
hear the deep voice behind me.

"Eric? Eric?!"

I make it through the house to the deck out back, and breathe in the hot
humid air, but despite the heat I feel able to gain control of myself
again. Unfortunately the air not only gives me control, but it slams open
the back doors of my mind that hide memories I don't want to face. The rush
of images comes back to me quickly, and the face I fear the most fills my
mind. Josh.

Josh. Even though it?s been a few months now, I still flinch when I think
back to that day. To the moment he called me that name. Even though I knew
- no I KNOW - he is wrong, it hurts to think he would say that to me. He
barely speaks to me now, and I know that I am to blame for the destruction
of our relationship.

I remember the moment we heard Mom and Dad downstairs. That memory always
forces me to remember the second when Josh and I broke the rules of taboo
in society. How can I blame him for calling me that name? How can I be mad
at him, when I did what I did? His hatred of me is expected. I betrayed a
trust between brothers. He had looked up to me, and I took that away from
him. No wonder he hated me considering that an hour after I was with him,
he found me in the hayloft with Daniel. I remember watching Josh running
back toward the house and feeling the pain.

?Hey, you ok?? Daniel words came from behind me as I watched Josh run that
day.

?I got to get out of here.? I replied, and walked back toward the
blanket. As I looked down at it, I saw the evidence of my sickness sprayed
across it and felt bile rise in my throat.

?Yeah, guess we better get out of the loft,? he said, casually grabbing up
his jeans.

?I have to leave,? I said, "I have to leave." I repeated it over and over
as I stared at the blanket.

Daniel came to me and wrapped me in a hug, whispering, "Josh won?t
tell. This is our secret.? A small kiss landed on my lips and I shoved him
away, disgusted and sickened by his action.

?I HAVE TO LEAVE! Don't you get it!? Don?t you realize what happened?! My
life here is OVER! I have to get away from ALL of it - from everyone!  From
YOU, from Josh, from Ryan, Todd," I said, and shook with fury.

?Eric you didn?t do anything wrong. This was not wrong. And whatever
happened with Josh, well, Eric it was just two people showing each other
how they feel. It's ok!  So you got carried away with him! He won?t tell!
It is over and won't happen again because I will help you. Just like I
helped you today," Daniel said.

?WHAT?! Are you crazy?! Look what we did? It cost me my little brother! I
only came to you because I was confused and I needed those sick thoughts
out of my mind! You could have stopped me, but you are just another one of
those guys aren't you?!! You're just like Ryan! And Todd! YOU are the ones
who are truly sick!"

?I felt the same way at your age. I was just as confused,? Daniel said
quietly, as he stared at me.

?I?m not confused! I am not gay!!? I screamed at him.

?Whatever.? Daniel said, with a snide smirk and started to pull on his
pants. Then he stopped and turned with a glare and said, ?You loved my cock
inside you. You begged for it. Hell Eric ? your ass is full of my cum right
now! You like it! You don?t have to label it anything. I don't! And just
like me, you won?t be able to control it. Take my word for it. I've
tried. You WILL be back for more and I can't wait to fuck you again!"

I didn?t even reply. I just ran. Like Josh. But instead of toward the house
I ran to the field, running and crying until I finally made it to the creek
and jumped in to let the water wash me clean.

Mom and Dad were oblivious to everything of course. Josh and I acted normal
in front of them, but he avoided me. Lately he was either hanging with
friends or spending time with his new girlfriend, Jenny. Finally in early
June he had to come face-to-face with me. My parents and little sister had
gone to Sunday church so we were alone in the house. I heard him go to the
bathroom to shower that morning so I waited in my bed and listened. The
second the bathroom door opened I stepped into the hallway and blocked his
path back to his bedroom.

?Just move, I want to get to my room,? he said, staring down at his bare
feet, and tightened the beige towel around his waist.

?So you are finally speaking to me?" I said with sarcasm.

?MOVE!? He yelled out at me, but looked away while he held his towel
tightly.

Instantly my hands grabbed his shoulders as my anger poured out. I opened
my mouth to scream back at him, but our eyes met and the world seemed to
stop. He was my Josh again. I could see his handsome face, his smooth skin,
the water on his bare chest, his muscled body. Everything I avoided was in
front of me in my hands. And once again I felt my body stir into betrayal.

"Josh," I said softly.

"Eric," he replied, staring and our eyes locked.

Our eyes stayed together and I felt his anger disappear. I quickly embraced
him and he returned it hugging me tightly. Our chests pressed together as I
whispered in his ear over and over "I'm sorry". I felt his hand caress my
back and we pulled away just enough so we could press our mouths together
again. Passionate kissing took us over and despite the screams in my head I
opened my mouth wide and let our tongues wrap together. My hands moved down
and pulled the towel from him. We moved together against the wall and I
quickly shoved my briefs from my body. Nude we pressed our bodies together,
our cocks finally together again. We were brothers who wanted each other
and we could no longer resist the desire. I took what I wanted and nothing
could stop me. His hands clung to my back as I felt his incredible body,
tasted his neck, and started to sink to my knees licking all of his
chest. Finally my mouth encircled his amazingly huge hard cock and he
screamed out with pleasure. His knees buckled and he slid down until we
were face to face. We froze in silence staring in each other?s eyes. We
both knew what was about to happen and the reality ripped through our taboo
desire.

?Get the fuck away from me!? he screamed, as though a wild animal in fright
for his life. He flew himself forward on his hands and knees, and started
to scramble frantically to his bedroom. I couldn?t let him escape! I wanted
and needed him! I lunged forward and grabbed one of his legs while my other
hand grabbed at his hips. My eyes focused on his muscled round smooth ass
that I wanted to devour! I dove for him, and my face plunged onto his warm
ass cheeks and I opened my mouth and plunged my tongue onto his ass lips. I
licked and shoved further tasting his ass and grabbed him by the waste
shoving into his further. I pinned him to the floor and raped his hole with
my tongue. His foot slammed into my forehead and I flew back off of him
just long enough for him to make the final scramble into his bedroom. The
door slammed shut behind him, and the lock clicked as I heard him lean
against his bedroom door crying. I leaned back against the other side of
the door and sobbed with him. In my mind I heard his urgent request to
leave him alone and I knew Josh was right. I had to leave here. I was sick.

?Eric ? I?m sorry," Dad said that night down in his tiny work office off
the barn. He used the space to hold his files and do his paperwork for the
farm. It was a messy room that Mom and the rest of us avoided. I sat on the
little cot he had there, while he sat at his paper strewn desk. "Your Mom
and I know how much you want to go to the university. But we told you, you
have to do your freshman and sophomore years at the community college
here. Come on now, you got through your freshman year, you just got one
more left."

?Dad, I have to go,? I said, and stared at my sneakers.

?Eric ? we don?t have the money."

?Then I will get the money! Dad, I have to get out of here. I think if I
can get to Chicago and work for a year then I will have enough for the
university. Please, just loan me enough to get a tiny place in Chicago. It
won't be near as much as tuition," I pleaded.

?No way! You are going to school," he said sternly.

?Dad you don't understand - I HAVE to leave," I said.

"Eric - we are done! This has been decided! You have one year of school
left here."

Little did I know that very night, Daniel would be the person to help
me. The one person who I had avoided so well since that day in the
hayloft. He found me that evening sitting out by the creek watching the
sunset. I started to stand up to leave as he sat down next to me.

"Stop!" He said with authority, grabbing my shoulder and pushing me back to
the grass. "I'm not going to do anything. Can't we just watch the sunset?"
He said.

"I want to be alone," I said, but remained sitting. For several minutes we
just sat in silence, watching the sky turn pink and golden.

"I heard you and your Dad today. Wasn't trying to, but I was in the barn
and his office door was open," he said.

"So," I said with snide tone in my voice.

"Why you want to leave so bad? Because of me?"

"No," I muttered.

"Because of Josh?" Daniel said

"I just need to leave," I replied.

Within minutes I slowly started to tell him about the university tuition,
the lack of money, my idea for moving to get a job in Chicago, etc. He was
silent as he listened, and waited to speak until I was finished.

?Doesn?t that Ryan guy have rich parents??

?What? Ryan?! Why the fuck are you asking me about him?!? I said in shock.

?I remember he was driving a little sports car when he was out here that
day. I bet his parents have some dough, don't they?? he said.

?Yeah, he?s a rich kid. So fucking what??

?You think you can get him out here to the farm again??

?Why?! What the FUCK for?!!?

?You and Ryan obviously have some sort of history. We both know he was out
here for a reason besides just torturing Josh and you. I got a feeling you
and Ryan are either boyfriends or something. Whatever it is, it?s a
secret. And a man who has a secret AND has money is what you need.?

?What the fuck are you talking about?!?

?You want money, right? And I bet his Mom and Daddy don't know their
precious son has been doing the things he's been doing. He knows you know
something about him. So you tell him you are going to talk, unless he gives
you cash.?

?We are not boyfriends! I am not gay!! I got nothing on Ryan!? I said, and
stood.

?Just sit down, Eric. You don't have to tell me anything. I'm only trying
to help you.?

I knew he was right. Daniel for some odd reason was trying to help, and he
already knew almost everything including my worst secret about Josh and
I. I wanted to finally say the words and tell someone.

?Ryan raped me. More than once.? Daniel motioned for me to sit down again,
which I did slowly. Once I was settled I spoke again, "He did it to me in
the locker room. It happened again at his house. His best friend was there
and they tied me up. And there were other times with them. Doesn't
matter. But that's the secret."

"Were you hurt?" Daniel said quietly.

"No. Just some bruises. Some pain I had to deal with from... from you
know," I said, embarrassed.

"Did anyone else see it? You got any proof?"

"No, we were always alone," I muttered.

?Did you like it?? Daniel said, looking at me.

?What?!?

?Did you like it?"

"Why would you ask me that?!"

"Because you liked what I did to you. And from what I saw with Ryan, he
probably did that to you because he likes to fuck guys. So it was less
about attacking you and more about having a bit of your ass," Daniel said
bluntly.

"So what are you saying?  That I'm lying and I was having a good time?!!" I
blurted at him.

"No. I am only asking if you liked it because I want to know if you are
willing to let it happen again. It would be the best way to get some
evidence and then you could get cash out of him.? Daniel said, and stared
at me.

?What are you talking about?! He RAPED me! What you want me to do ? ask him
to do it to me again?!!? I screamed at him.

?Yeah! Why not?! Come on! How would it be any different than you coming to
me in the hayloft?! You wanted me to fuck you and you loved it! So did I!
And I bet Ryan loves giving it to you too. So let him! But this time you
not only get a hot fuck, you will get the evidence you need to get cash
from him!? Daniel said and smiled.

I couldn?t speak as I searched his eyes for answers.

?Eric, get him back out here to the farm. Remember those cameras your Dad
and I installed when the horses were foaling so we could keep an eye on
them round the clock? They are perfect for getting your evidence! You get
Ryan out here and I can help you. If we could get video of him and you ?
you'd have all the evidence you need! And I bet that punk would pay you a
pretty penny something for that video!"

Daniel?s face shown with excitement. I was sickened by the idea, but I also
knew in the back of my mind it was a possible plan that could work. It
would not only give me power over Ryan so I could stop him from ever
attacking me again, it could also mean I may get enough money out of him to
get off this farm! Away from Josh. Away from everything.

?You are fucking crazy, Daniel,? I said softly as my hope faded and I
realized what this would mean for me. ?I am not gay. And I just can?t be
raped again.?

Daniel reached his arm around me and I tried to shove back, but he was
stronger than me and held me tight. I finally relented and returned the
embrace and we laid back on the grass as the last bit of sunlight faded
into night. When we kissed it was quiet, as though two friends just
enjoying time together.

"You see - you can handle a kiss. Eric, this plan could seriously work. I
know you think it is wrong, but wouldn?t it be worth it just once more for
the money. And wouldn't it be great to see that asshole squirm when we tell
him we have a video tape!" Daniel said, looking in my eyes.

"Dan, I just can't.  I know you can?t believe this but I am not what you
think. I?m not gay! And I can?t let anything like that happen again to me,"
I said softly as he held me.

Daniel's right hand reached up and unbuttoned my shorts. I immediately
grabbed him hand to resist, but his voice was direct and urgent.

"Eric - just let me show you something," he said as he worked further
unbuttoning until my shorts were open and my cock was exposed. In slow
motion I watched as he licked his lips and leaned down. I immediately felt
those amazing sensations again on my cock and I couldn?t resist this
time. I didn?t care, I just wanted to feel good again. I arched my back and
closed my eyes, pushing my hips forward and giving my entre cock to the
mouth. My mind filled with Josh once again. It took only a minute before I
felt the exquisite pleasure of my cum spraying into Josh?s mouth.

Seconds later as I opened my eyes I looked at Daniel who was sitting up
beside me.

"You thought about Josh didn't you?"

I nodded my "yes".

"All you have to do is pretend it is Josh when you are with Ryan. You only
have to do it one last time. I will help you this last time with Ryan," he
said.

"Why would you help me?" I replied, buttoning up and sitting again.

"Because I know how scared you are. I ran too when I was your age," he
said.

"Did you run far?" I whispered to him, but the dark has already started to
conceal him in shadows.

"I'm still running, Eric. I only took this job here to hide from myself and
my temptations. Funny thing is, being here has only made the temptations
worse," he replied. "If you stay on the farm, it would make it harder for
me too. You better get back up to the house. Go on back and think about
it. Let me know in the morning if you want to set him up," Daniel said as
he stood and walked away into the darkness.

The next morning Daniel and I met up in his trailer out back just long
enough to iron out the specifics. All I had to do was get Ryan to the farm,
up into the hayloft, and in a compromising position for the video. Daniel
agreed to take care of the rest including the camera set up, the video
recorder, the hay loft prep, and the actual blackmail process. Ryan was
already afraid of Daniel, so he would take the threat more seriously from
him.

?I NEED TO SEE YOU. COME TO THE FARM TOMORROW AT 2PM. WE WILL BE ALONE.?
That was the simple text I wrote to Ryan, and it got an immediate reply.

?WHY?? He replied.

Daniel helped me write my response. ?YOU WANT MORE OF MY ASS, DON?T YOU??
All I had to do was wait to see if it worked.

And it did, because the next day Ryan's little sports car rolled up the
drive. Despite his darkened car window, I felt the shiver up my spine and
knew it was him behind the wheel.

When he stepped out of his car, he looked even bigger and more threatening
than the last time I had seen him. He looked ever more like a male model
too, much more of a man. Like he had gone from high school punk to college
jock stud over the past few months.

?We alone?? Ryan said as he walked over where I sat on the white fencing by
the barn.

?Yup,? I said, and looked in his face, confronting my fear.

?Where?s your brother? Or that loser guy with his shovel?? Ryan said with a
smirk.

?We are alone,? I repeated.

?So faggot, why is it you wanted to see me so bad??

I wanted to say many things in reply, but I swallowed the lump in my throat
and forced myself to say what I needed to say.

?Because I need your cock.?

I remember how he blinked in shock, but said nothing in reply.

?You were right. You?ve always been right. I liked what we did in the
locker room. I loved it at your house with Todd too. So I want you to fuck
me again.? I said it for Josh, for me. To end this all.

Ryan stared at me and whispered without emotion, "Todd's in my car."

I wasn?t prepared for that, but I knew I had to pretend I didn?t
care. ?So,? I said.

?We came out here to fuck you up, not to fuck you? he said, still staring
at me.

?You both like to fuck me so why not do that instead,? I replied.

?I?ll give you want you want, but what we going to do with Todd,? he
whispered back to me. It hit me at that moment the tables were
turning. Ryan was actually asking for help. He wanted me, and he wanted
Todd to join in. Just like at his house by the pool that day. I never
wanted to relive that same attack, but if it meant this would all be over
with then I knew I could let them do what they wanted to me.

?You want his cock just like I want yours. Don?t you, Ryan,? I said in
reply to his stare.

?I?m not some sick fag like you are,? he replied, but still whispering.

?I got a blanket laid out in the hayloft. It's the perfect place for you
and I. So if you want Todd to join us probably the only way is for him to
make him think he's attacking me. Just like that day at your house, right.?

Ryan answered me quietly, ?Yeah, we need to make him think I this is about
paying you back for stuff. If we get him up to the loft, I'm pretty sure
he'll join in. But you have to put up some resistance. And you have to make
sure he gets undressed too," Ryan said confidently, his eyes shining with
excitement. I glanced back at his car behind us and knew that Todd was now
to be Ryan's victim too.

?You want me as much as I want you, don't you Ryan?? I said it, staring at
him straight in the eyes. I wanted to hear the loser admit what a faggot he
was.

Ryan squinted back at me in the afternoon sun. I could tell he was unsure
how to answer, but finally he said, ?Yeah, I want to fuck your sweet ass
again and his too.?

?Then let?s do it.? I said, and raised my fist, slamming it into his face.

I didn?t wait to look behind me, I ran to the hayloft and waited until I
saw Ryan?s head pop up from the ladder through the floor. His smile told me
Todd must be close behind.

"He's coming," Ryan whispered to me, smiling broadly. Todd's body flew
through the opening of the floor, and he stood breathing deeply with anger
on his face. Just like Ryan he looked bigger, more muscled, more handsome
than ever. The summer tan he had shown on his brown skin bulging from his
white tank top.

?Come on, Todd! I?m going to fuck up this faggot!? Ryan screamed with the
voice he used every time he had attacked me in the past. He bounded over to
the blanket, grabbing me by the neck, and plunging his fist into my
side. Once again, I felt fear course through my body as I accepted my
victim role.

The blows came from both of them, and I put up a strong resistance even
landing hits to Ryan's chest and Todd's side. Eventually I was falling to
my knees and Ryan quickly used that moment to unzip and shove himself to my
mouth. I heard my mind screaming out to stop, but I did what I had to do
and slurped it down. I performed my role, and it only took seconds before
Todd was unzipping and demanding the same from me.

?Yeah, faggot,? Ryan breathed out.

?Fuck yeah, suck me, faggot,? Todd said as he spit on my face. I did what
was necessary and worked on them both, but tried to act resistant.

?Yeah, let?s rape this worthless shit,? Ryan said and pulled his cock from
my stretched mouth and tore off what few clothes I had worn. Ryan quickly
removed his own as he watched me service Todd. I remembered I had to do my
part to get Todd involved further, so I reached up and tore his tank top
down the center, exposing his massive pecs. That angered him enough to push
up his violence level as he stepped back and kicked off his shorts, and
forced me back down on him. When I felt the pressure behind me part of me
was excited because I knew the pain would mean I had finally given the
camera enough evidence to use on Ryan. Pain plowed through me as a cock
shoved inside me.

I closed my eyes and accepted the pain. It wasn't long before the pounding
turned to pleasure. Pain only returned when Todd switched places with Ryan
because he was so much bigger inside of me. I took the abuse though because
I wanted as much on video as I could get. Daniel had warned me I needed to
go all the way with the attack to make sure we had enough evidence. So as a
good victim I became their pleasure hole. Over and over I was used, back
and forth they used my mouth and my hole. Until at one point I was pushed
to the side and Ryan took my face quickly, accepting Todd massive dick up
his ass.

"Ryan! Get off me!" Todd yelled out as he opened his eyes to realize it was
no longer me he was fucking. But Ryan only stared back at him and said,
"Todd - come on. Todd's eyes closed and he began to give Ryan what he
wanted.

?Oh god, yeah, fuck me,? Ryan begged as they went passed their lines of
friendship and became what they truly were. I watched my former rapists
fuck! They are the true faggots. Power burned through me and fear left
me. I stood and moved over to Todd, standing with his face at my waist and
I pulled his head violently and slammed my cock into his mouth.

Excitement over took Todd as he feasted on me. His hunger for me seemed
intense as he pulled himself out of Ryan, pushed me to the blanket and
positioned himself over me.

?Eric, you are so fucking hot!? He said looking down at me. Our eyes locked
and I remember feeling my body quiver. At that exact moment we both started
to blast ropes and ropes of cum on each other. His large wads of cum
slammed on my chin, and chest while at the same moment Ryan stood over us
shooting himself onto Todd's back.

The second it was over clarity went through my mind and I snapped into
action. I had done all this for the plan.

?DANIEL!? I hollered, and pulled my cum covered body from them and crawled
to my feet.

Daniel was already standing off to the side and was laughing, ?Hey boys!
Thanks for the show.?

?Who the fuck are you?? Todd had muttered and stood up, while Ryan jumped
up to grab at his clothing.

?HOLD IT!!!? Daniel voice was loud and piercing, ?No one does anything
until I saw so!"

With a smile Daniel pointed at the camera mounted on the north wall, ?See
that? It recorded a beautiful video of you guys. So if you?re smart you?ll
do exactly as I say if you want to ever get that video tape from me. All I
need is cooperation.?

?What the fuck?? Todd said, looking at me for an explanation.

?Shut up!? Daniel said, and in a flash lunged forward throwing Ryan to the
blanket, pinning him with his knees and wrapping a large rope around his
wrists and ankles. Daniel?s horse roping skills prove excellent because
Ryan wasn?t so cocky as he laid silently on the blanket, naked and
restrained.

?KNEEL!? He screamed at Todd, who quickly obliged and was easily tied up as
well by Daniel.

Daniel grabbed the pitchfork leaning on the wall, and ran the handle end
slowly between Ryan?s bare ass cheeks. ?So punk! You been picking on Eric,
eh? Funny how you like to call him a faggot when I see just who the real
gay one is.? With a quick push, the handle plunged into Ryan?s ass, but
Ryan was quiet and his only reaction was tears in his eyes.

?So you like that up your ass, Ryan?!? Daniel said softly, and leaned
forward. "You wish that was my big cock up your ass instead, don?t you?!?

This was not part of the plan I had made with Daniel. I watched in shock as
the pitchfork was used on Ryan, until finally it was tossed to the
side. When Daniel started to remove his own clothing I did not move, but
only observed as Ryan was flipped over and pulled up to his knees. No words
were spoken, as Ryan was forced to perform his own mouth skills on
Daniel. Eventually Daniel pushed Ryan back to the blanket and pulled Todd
up to continue the same act on his now hard cock. Todd resisted with a
volley of profanity but Daniel grabbed Todd's jet black hair and screamed
into his face, ?SUCK IT NOW BEFORE I KILL YOU, FAGGOT!? Todd slowly opened
and did as as he was told.

Ryan watched in rapt attention and Daniel fucked Todd?s face, and his
obvious excitement was evident. I felt my own excitement and hated the way
my body betrayed me again, but I loved seeing my attackers being forced to
do the things they had forced me to do.

Several minutes later Todd was jerked back from Daniel and shoved forward
to the blanket. Daniel screamed to him. "NOW SUCK YOUR BEST FRIEND!"

Todd looked stricken with terror as he faced Ryan, but Ryan widened his
legs offering himself to his friend. Daniel grabbed Todd's hair and shoved
him down, forcing him to do the act. I watched in fascination as Todd did
as he was told, and Ryan moved his hips in excitement. Todd faced was
filled with disgust, but he did what he needed to. When Daniel forced them
to switch Ryan was excited and was the reverse.  It was apparent he loved
having to return the action to Todd.

Minutes later Daniel pulled them apart, pulled Ryan up by his hair and
affixed a large rope to the his wrists. As he tossed the large rope over a
rafter beam above, he quickly pulled Ryan up into the hair so he was
dangling above the floor. He secured the rope and then moved to the side
wall and picked up a long lasso rope I had never seen before.

"You were enjoying it too much, so now you have to pay for it," Daniel said
through clenched teeth and swung the rope, slashing across Ryan's back,
which created a large red welt. The scream from Ryan must have echoed
across the entire farm. It continued - slash after slash as Ryan was
whipped into submission. I watched in horror, but then in fascination as I
noticed both Daniel and Ryan's obvious excitement as their cocks seemed to
grow bigger and harder with the whipping.

I moved over to Todd and helped him untie himself. Something told me I had
to get him out of there before he was next. But we both were mesmerized
with the scene as the whip was dropped, the rope untied and Ryan and Daniel
moved back to the blanket and begin to start intense mutual sex.

?What the fuck?? Todd whispered to me, as we watched in shock and saw
Daniel position himself between Ryan?s legs, and shove into Ryan. Todd and
I picked up our clothes and climbed down from the loft. We turned and faced
each other.

?What the fuck is going on, Eric?? Todd softly said to me.

?Who cares. I don?t care about anything other than that video. That?s what
this was about,? I said.

Todd dropped his clothes, knocked mine from my hand, and violently grabbed
me by the shoulders with a look of terror, ?I need that video!"

?You give me money, and you get the video tape.? I said through my gritted
teeth, and glared into his eyes.

?Eric, please,? he slowly whispered, his eyes filled with terror. ?Eric,
show me where the video machine is that recorded all this.?

I shoved him off me, and stepped from his grip. A switch flipped in my mind
as I realized the loser pleading was the same guy who had raped me!
Contempt filled me for the pathetic loser and my hands clenched into fists
as Todd stood before me.

?SHUT UP FAGGOT!? I screamed, and flew at him. His body flew back from my
violent push, and he slammed into a wooden wall. My fists pounded into him
as I paid back my attacker. Over and over I rammed his body as he tried to
fight back but my fury over took him. His fist hit my face only a couple of
times as I pounded him like a wild man out of control. Within minutes I had
him pinned against a barn gate, my fists connecting again and again with
his muscled body.

?ERIC! FUCK ERIC, STOPPPPP!? His vice was a wail that broke through my fury
and made me stop. In that same moment I could hear above us the sounds of
Ryan and Daniel give obvious pleasure to each other. The sounds seemed to
make me react, because in that instant I tossed Todd over the low gate,
bending him at the waist, his legs spread wide to reveal his ass lips. It
was time Todd felt exactly what I was forced to feel. I gripped him by the
hair and pulled his head back and whispered in his ear.

?You think you can rape me and get away with it, you fucking faggot?!" With
that I thrust my my hand forward into the cheeks of his ass, shoving my
fingers deep into his male pussy hole.

?STOPPPP!? Todd screamed out, but my body weight held him in place. I
shoved harder, and raped his ass with my hand.  The more I shoved the
harder he screamed, while above me in the loft I heard Daniel's voice roar,
?This is for Eric?.

I felt such pleasure as Ryan?s and Todd?s screams of pain filled the
barn. I was getting my revenge and the satisfaction made me feel lust for
the scene. The lust made my whole body tingle, and I looked down to see how
excitement had filled my cock with blood. It was time to get my ultimate
revenge, so I pulled my hand from his hole and shoved my entire cock up his
ass.

Todd?s scream echoed throughout the barn, mixing with Ryan?s scream from
above, which only made me shove again harder. In my mind I saw all the
abuse and rapes, so I pounded the faggot below me. It only took a minute
before I felt the convulsion course through me as reached the pinnacle of
my revenge on Todd and I burst my cum inside him. It wasn?t until I
finished my release did I realize Todd had no longer been screaming, but he
had been saying my name in pleasure.

I pulled my hard cock from his ass and backed away while he stood and faced
me. ?Where is the video machine that is connected to the camera, Eric??
Todd asked me.

?In my Dad?s office off the barn,? I said, no longer caring if he took the
tape and left. I got my revenge today.  Todd I had handled, and Ryan was
receiving his punishment in the loft above us. I didn't even care about the
money anymore.

?Show me,? he said calmly. We walked through the barn together and I showed
him into my Dad's office and the video recorder. Todd quickly stopped the
machine and the image of Daniel fucking Ryan in the loft above disappeared
from the monitor. The tape ejected into his hands.

?Thanks Eric,? Todd said, and turned to face me. ?I need to get out of
here. Can you give me a ride back into town??

?No? I said, and walked out of the office, back to my pile of clothes
across the barn.

We both stood next to each other and dressed. Above us we heard Ryan?s
moans of pleasure, and his words yelled out ?Oh fuck me, fuck me harder.?

Todd looked at me and whispered, ?You help me get back to town, and I will
help you use this tape to get money from Ryan.?  His face was strong and
determined.

"Blackmail, Ryan. I know him, he will pay you whatever you ask. He's
loaded. I will tell him I gave you money, but that the video doesn't come
back to me until he pays you also. I promise. I just have to keep the video
Eric. I can't risk anyone know about all this," Todd said, and looked at me
for an urgent reply.

"Why are you helping me?? I said, confused.

?I want to get out of here and I don?t want anything more to do with
Ryan. Only you can give me a ride back to town. And maybe I owe you," he
mumbled.

I drove silently into town, Todd next to me in my passenger seat, holding
the video. As we pulled into his parent?s driveway, I turned off the car
engine and sat in silence staring ahead.

?Why do you want money so badly that you did all this today?? Todd said
softly.

?I want to get out of this town and start college in Chicago. My parents
can?t afford to send me.?

?So you decided to get fucked on a video just to get the money.?

?I gotta go, Todd,? I said and reached for the ignition. But his brown hand
encased mine and he stopped me.

?Are you really not gay?? His voice was barely a whisper, as his hand
remained on mine.

?No, I?m not gay,? I said.

?You just fucked me, Eric.? Todd whispered.

?I raped you. I was paying you back.? I said, softly.

?Do you think Ryan is gay??

?How the fuck would I know? I don?t even care!?

"Did you see him go down on me?! He loved it!"

"I don't care. I just want the money."

Silence echoed loudly in my car for a few minutes, until finally Todd
spoke. ?Ever wonder what it's like. You know, to be, well, to be gay??

I swallowed the lump in my throat, because I heard the fear in his
voice. My reply was quiet, ?Yes.?

?Sometimes it felt good? he said.

?Yeah,? I heard myself say.

?I?m sorry? Todd whispered softly and released my hand. When I heard those
words from him, tears started to run down my face. I had just wanted to
know someone was sorry for everything that had done to me. For several
minutes we sat, as I brushed away the tears. When he got out of my car, I
watched him walk around and open my car door.

?Come on. My parents are traveling so I got the house to myself. You know
you can?t go back to the farm while those two are still going at it. Come
in,? he motioned.

The house was large and expensively furnish. Not as opulent as Ryan?s
family house, but almost as nice. In the kitchen he handed me a beer, and
we both guzzled one down quickly. He grabbed two more and we drank them,
and he removed his shirt to look at the scrap wound I had given him.

"You better shower," I said. "The wound is kinda dirty. Clean it first and
I will take care of it after your shower."

?Yeah, guess we both are a little gross. You want to shower?? he asked. He
grabbed the antiseptic from my hand and left the kitchen while I followed
him like a robot through the house, up the stairs into what was obviously
his bedroom. In the bathroom I flicked on the shower and he motioned me to
go first while he started to brush. I quickly removed my clothes and
stepped under the water. It felt amazing to finally wash myself clean
again. But it was then I heard the shower door slide open behind me. I
slowly turned around and saw Todd standing naked again in front of me.

He stepped closer to me until we were only inches apart. In the brightness
of the bathroom light our contrasting skin color was vibrant. Mine creamy
white, next to his brown smoothness.

?I just want to know what its like,? he said, and blinked back the water on
his long black eyelashes.

?We are not gay, Todd,? I said. "We can't."

?I?m sorry Eric,? he said again to me, and I felt my body shake. ?I?m so
sorry,? he whispered again, but the sound was drowned out because his lips
we moving against mine. I was pulled into his embrace and opened my mouth
to accept his kiss.

We moved back under the water, kissed passionately and let our hands feel
each other?s body.  Our cocks ground together as we relented and let our
sick lust take over.

?Eric, Eric?. I want you so much,? he said, as he ravaged my body and
licked down me, and took me into his eager mouth. I looked down at my brown
Mexican attacker as he worked on my hard cock.

?Say it, Eric.? My voice was a command.

Todd froze, my cock between his lips as he looked up at me confused.

?You know what you are. Say it, faggot.? I commanded.

My cock slide between his thick lips until it slapped back against my
abs. Our eyes met and his lips moved. I heard his whisper.

?I?m a faggot.?

With that I grabbed his head and rammed my thick dick back between those
soft lips and started to fuck his face. He seemed to worship me as he
cleansed me and tasted me over and over. Minutes later he bent for me like
in the barn, but this time he grabbed his ankles in eagerness and widened
his legs. I gave him what he wanted and plowed deeply into him, and it only
took seconds for me to release another one of my loads up his ass hole

Back in his bedroom we toweled off in silence. When I tossed my towel on
his bed and reached for my jeans I heard him say to me, ?You won?t tell
anyone??

?No,? I said.

?I meant what I said. I will help you get his money,? Todd replied.

?Thanks. I should go,? I said in reply.

As I opened my jeans and bent to step into them, I saw his towel open and
drop slowly to the floor. I didn't move as I saw his brown feet step over
to his bed and I watched his muscular legs slide up onto the mattress. When
he settled on to the bed I finally looked over at him. His smooth skin was
such a stark brown on his white sheets, and I felt a shiver seize through
my body. We locked eyes as I stood up straight and looked at him in
question. I watched his full lips move.

?Eric, it felt amazing. It's your turn. You know want to know what?s it
feel like to.  Let me show you,? he said and pulled back his covers and for
me to come to him.

?I?m not gay,? I whispered.

?You know you don't want to leave," he whispered.

"Todd, this is wrong. I have to leave," my voice whispered back.

"Eric," he whispered and reached out his hand. I felt the warm strength of
his hand as I let him guide me onto his mattress. I looked over at him and
let myself hear my own thoughts. Desire flooded over my body. Every time he
had raped me, my body had loved it. I loved his cock, I loved his
incredible body. I loved his muscles, his chest, his full lips.

With a smile on his face he slowly reached behind his bed and pulled out a
big bottle of lube. I had never even seen anything like since my days with
Sarah. I felt a shiver of anticipation to try it with Todd. I was anxious
to know how it would make Todd feel inside me. I eagerly raised my legs and
helped him pour it on my hole. It felt silky as it coated my hole, and I
felt lust seize my brain as I ached for Todd?s cock. I realized this time I
was about to make a conscious decision to say what I wanted to say. When
the words came from my mouth, they shocked me.

?Fuck me, Todd.?

His cock pierced my hole and plunged inside of me.

Daniel's voice is clear in my ear as he picks up his phone back on the
farm. He would be shocked to know I am standing in Todd' kitchen now
wearing Todd's briefs.

"Hey, it's Eric" I said quietly so that Todd upstairs can not hear I am
using the phone.

"Hey! Where the hell are you?! What happened with you and Todd? You missed
watching me with Ryan!" I could tell he was excited from his performance
today.

"I just want to make sure Ryan is gone before I come back," I reply
quietly.

"Yeah he's gone. Come on back - I got a lot to tell you, plus I want to
hear all about you and Todd. I heard him screaming! Oh and guess what?! How
does $10,000 sound? Ryan agreed to get it to me by tomorrow morning, but
where the fuck is the video tape?!

I felt the smile on my face, but held back my excitement. "I got it, don't
worry. I'll be home in a bit. See you then," I whispered and hung up.

As I climb the stairs again, I know I have to grab the video tape off the
dresser where Todd laid it. I finally will have everything I wanted! I got
my revenge on Ryan, and Todd. And I got enough money to get me off the
farm, away from Josh and Daniel. I feel hope enter my soul and I know I'm
finally free of all this.

When I step into Todd's bedroom door way my hope seems to fade though as I
see him stretched out across the bed, his smooth brown body, his massive
manhood, his muscles still shiny with sweat. His gleaming white smile is
intoxicating.

"Hey, there you are," he says.

"I gotta go," I mutter.

I look over at the black video tape on the dresser. I turned and see my
jeans on the floor. And I see the images of Josh and Daniel in my
mind. It's all over - finally. I can be free of all this.

"Don't go," Todd says, and I look over to see him in his bed. His eyes are
looking away, embarrassed at his own request.

"Todd - we can't. I can't be this way anymore. We tried it, it?s over."

We both look way from each other as our bodies ache to be together. I try
to squeeze my lips shut, but the words come from my mouth. "Can I stay the
night?"

"Yes," is his immediate reply as he stares up at me. "Just once more, Eric"
he says stretching his hand out to me.

I feel his hand in mine as I climb into the bed next to him and I look up
at him. I promise myself I will only say these words one more time.

"Todd, fuck me.

I close my ayes as I feel his mouth lower to my chest. I only hear the
quiet purr of the air conditioner as I raise my legs.

TO BE CONTINUED...

Hope you are enjoying the story. Per some reader requests, I allowed Eric
to finally get some form of revenge on his attackers. But as you can tell,
not all revenge turns out as planned. Now Eric has what he needs to leave
the farm and start a new life. Will he be able to finally step away from
his family and end his temptations? Will he start a new beginning? Or will
his confusion lead him on a path toward more temptation. I hope you will
stick around with me to find out, and enjoy some pleasure with Eric like I
do. You can email with your comments, questions, or whatever. Send them to
mheast111@hotmail.com