Date: Tue, 30 Aug 2016 23:24:52 -0700
From: catbughug@gmail.com
Subject: Insecure Thoughts Part 1

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Insecure Thoughts Part 1

I first saw him on the train on the way home from work, he took my breath
away the moment i noticed him, he was so handsome . I didn't realize it at
the time but he noticed me too and later said he thought it was love at
first sight but that's just bullshit maybe lust but not love but that's
beside the point. I tried not to stare but how couldn't I he encompassed
everything I saw attractive in a man. He was tall 6'5 and had a gorgeous
everything. Short Black curly hair, beautiful grey eyes, a hot neatly
trimmed beard, beautiful dark skin, And stocky with powerful arms and legs
with a slight pudge in the middle that still had the form of abs.  I could
go on about how hot he is but point is He was super hot and out of my
league. I usually just played a game on my phone or read some Manga but
Throughout this  train ride, that usually took a long time,I stole glances
at him whenever it didn't seem obvious. I eventually had to get off at the
next stop and felt disappointed  because I would probably never see him
again.    I got off and stole a final glance at him and  we made eye
contact, he smiled at me and I smiled back at the sight of his smile  and A
split second later I rammed into the person In  Front of me so hard they
stumbled. "I'm so sorry" I said, "don't be sorry watch where you're going,
asshole." I was so mortified and embarrassed I glanced back at the guy and
he was having a fit of laughter at my dismay.  i had such an overwhelming
mixture of emotions I blushed like a little kid which was awful because
even though I was Latino and brown my skin was light and made it incredibly
obvious to anyone when I blushed. He kept laughing and I turned an even
darker shade of red if that was possible and the doors closed. I left to go
home and wallow in my embarrassment. at least I get to  relax the rest of
the night with my pets jinx the cat and lucky the dog  and my bong. I
contemplated that scene the rest of the night. It wasn't even that funny
for him to laugh that hard why are good looking people such assholes.
    The next day I took the train as I always did  and low and behold I saw
him again but I was far less stunned at his beauty after remembering how
hard he laughed yesterday at my chronic clumsiness.
I choose to ignore him and just pass the time playing a game on my phone.
The train was kind of empty at that time   so I could hear him talking to
female passenger who was also very beautiful. From what I picked up in
their conversation, He was an actual douche (as I suspected). He was
hitting on her and harassing her. He said many inappropriate comments about
where he would take her out and how  he would make her feel in bed with his
big dick. God fucking dammit Another typical straight guy who thinks he
owns the world. I love it that I am able to lose attraction to assholes (or
so I thought at the time). At least the girl shut him down fast and told
him she's not interested in talk from a small dicked guy that thinks women
owe him something for even breathing. I failed to stifle a laugh and ended
up snorting (ugh I'm such a dork). They turned my way and he was noticeably
angry and she just chuckled too. At that moment The train arrived at the
stop and she got off leaving me and him to be the only passengers on the
train. Ugh just my luck. The train continued and I went back to my phone
and started reading the manga "Sono Mama de" but started to feel
uncomfortable as I felt someone looking at me so I looked up which was a a
big mistake because I immediately made Eye contact with this guy and he was
glaring at me but for a second I also saw something else behind his still
very beautiful eyes besides anger it looked like what I thought a hungry
animal about to pounce on his prey looked like. I got scared and chose to
just look back at my phone until my stop would come but I continued to feel
his glare. I heard movement and felt him  sit one seat away from me. I
continued to feel his stare and a a moment courage or stupidity  hit me and
I looked up at his eyes but they didn't seem angry anymore just curious but
still with a hint of some sort of hunger. I shifted in my seat slightly but
continued having this awkward stare down. After a minute or so of this I
looked away and he spoke to me in the most gorgeous deep voice that made my
heart skip. He said "Ha you blinked" What the fuck was he a kid!?! I looked
back and he smiled the smile he did yesterday
. " you are really weird you know" he told me . I don't know why but the
remark rubbed me the wrong way. " Me weird? You just acted like a little
kid with me and that lady who didn't deserve that harassment. You are an
asshat." His eyes looked stunned by my remark almost as if he didn't expect
me to say that which I get because I am shy and insecure but that doesn't t
mean I'm gonna let people walk over me. He smiled and said " me an ass? Why
cuz I laughed at how u almost pushed a dude off the train? haha I think
anyone would've laughed at that scene especially at your cute blush u
looked like a little school girl but that guy was a little too mean in his
words." Ob my god he called me cute and I didn't think it was possible to
reach a new hue of red on my face but I felt I did. He just laughed at my
embarrassment. "That ...that isn't the only reason you are a twat. why
would u treat that lady like that? women have it hard enough in society
being women but why do u have to harass her like that? women feel scared
when men no matter how entitled and good looking they are come on to them
because if they reject them they have no way of knowing how the man will
react. I mean did you see yourself when I laughed ...you looked like you
were about to jump someone." I stuttered but managed to say what needed to
be said. he continued to look at me but his eyes softened. " you know what
you're right. I'm sorry if I'm such an ass or twat as you put It I
shouldn't have done that to her either I'm just going through some things."
I was shocked he apologized and showed a  glimpse of vulnerability maybe he
wasn't so bad. I thought and contemplated this for a second  and at that
moment  He stealthily came to the seat next to me before I noticed and
whispered In my ear pulling me from my thoughts " so you think I'm good
looking?" After that I knew I eventually had to control my blushing or it
would be the death of me. " I...I didn't say you were good looking" "yeah u
did entitled maybe I am and good looking well we already know what u think"
I was getting tired of blushing and once again found momentary courage from
God knows where "fine u are good looking, super good looking so good
looking I can't describe u or point to one specific thing because you seem
perfect everywhere" he once again seemed at a loss for words. "Ha well glad
we got the truth out hehe and hey don't sell yourself short you are pretty
hot too" wait did he compliment me again first cute now hot what was
happening here "aren't u straight? Why are u complimenting me are u just
trying to embarrass me some more?" " I'm mostly straight but I have dabbled
with guys. I'm complimenting you because if I can borrow some of  your
words you are good looking hot cute handsome and perfect to me and you
don't even notice it which makes it even more adorable." I was completely
at a loss for words this guy actually thought I was good looking did he
need glasses like me I'm just plain me witty, sarcastic and sometimes funny
according to my friends but still I have no confidence in myself to believe
he was  actually interested in me or if he was and just wanted to use me
like most guys do  "I...I.. My stop is next .." His eyes showed what I
thought was disappointment but it was probably just my wishful thinking "ah
well see you tomorrow if u take this train again I'm going this route
everyday for work so I will probably/ hope I see you more if today and
yesterday are any indication of your schedule and have a nice night" I was
gonna take the train again like I did everyday but I didn't say anything I
just waved goodbye and gave a faint smile. Ugh why do I fall for people so
easily this guy seems nice but hes probably just playing with me to get a
reaction and if he really does find me attractive it's probably just
because he wants sex with someone who he thinks is an easy target, if he is
actually interested as he says. I wouldn't mind having sex with him though
I'm shy but years of repressing my sex drive until I was 20 made me hyper
sexual. I would have sex with almost any guy that showed interested in me
which was bad when coupled with insecurity and low self worth because it
made me get into risky behavior and just made me feel worse after. I think
I'll take the train that's a few minutes later from now on I can feel
myself falling for this guy like I always do with anyone that shows the
slightest interest but I still felt he was bad news. However; he did seem
genuine in his apology ugh i don't even know his name and he already has me
frazzled if I get any closer I might be obsessed and get my heart broken
like always with my unrequited crush. I think distance is best I always did
fall deep in my crushes on guys in high school and college with the
straight boys which ultimately ended in a bro friendship where they tell me
about their detailed sex lives with the opposite gender that just puts me
down in a deeper hole in my mind. God I should get a psychologist or
psychiatrist whatever the fuck it is. At least I live a comfortable life
with a job I love and get to go home to my two loves and videos games. I
hope tomorrow is better than the past two days.

    I made it a point to stay a few extra minutes in the lab than I was
suppose to just so I wouldn't run into the dude, I just realized I didn't
even know his name and I was infatuated by him on a superficial level but
maybe also him but I mean i didn't even know him. Ah I need to forget it or
I'm gonna get hurt again like I always do. I made my way to the station and
the  ride was smooth sailing i didn't see him or anyone for that matter it
was such a late ride in the night. I made it to my station and got off and
was met with a shady person hanging around down there I was making my way
until he shouted at me to give him my money and valuables while pointing a
knife at me I was so scared  and shaking and Bout to hand it over until
from the corner of my eye the man was punched and fell on the floor from
the force  and before I even processed what happened I was forcibly  pulled
to the streets where there were at least a few other people. It wasn't
until I caught my breath that i noticed it was that the person that saved
me was guy that has been on my mind the past few days. "Why are you here ?"
I asked surprised at seeing him "saving you, duh." He said "dont u get off
after my stop why are u here?" "wow not even a thank you, for saving my
life  just more accusative questions" he while wearing his heart skipping
smile "I'm...I'm sorry thank you it's just I'm surprised you are here you
usually stay on the train and I'm just kind of shaken up by that guy we
should call the police." "No point he is long gone and hey its ok to be
scared this has never happened to you right?" I nodded " so u have a right
to be scared and shaken up and to answer your question I actually moved
here yesterday from my house and now I live close by the station." " oh...
But why are u still at the station u were on the train 10 mins before me u
would have gotten here a long time ago" I said " well i was kinda waiting
for you. You weren't on the train so I thought it was weird and something
told me I should wait for you in case you were running late to get off and
also because I wanted to talk to you again and lucky I did or I would never
have gotten the chance to talk to you if I wasn't here when I was" I once
again blushed but I hoped  it wasn't noticeable because I ran so fast to
get out but that hope was shot when I saw his goofy smile at my blushing
ugh why did he like tormenting me like this . "Now it's my turn for the
questions. why did you get here so late, u seem like ur usually
punctual?""I..I had some extra work to do in the lab..." Holy shit  he
caught me I hope he believed my excuse but my pause made it seem like I was
just thinking of an excuse curse my slowness to these situations. " oh ok
are you ok to get home? " "yes!" I sad a little to excited to leave. "I
should be on my way" as I started to walk again I noticed I was shaking my
legs slightly and I almost stumbled "woah there u don't seem ok to keep
going alone where do u live? " ugh just my luck now he's a nice guy when I
don't want him to be " i live 7 blocks from here" "what! And ur planning to
walk at this time of night alone and shaking like that? You know what we
are going to my place I only live a block away from here." I didn't feel
like going but I knew he was right and Brenda, my roommate and best friend,
would be back from her parents and could feed lucky and jinx if it got too
late I could just send her a text that I was going late and to plz feed
them. " ok " I muttered to him "Good its this way he pulled me and I
realized he was holding my hand. wtf how didn't I notice ugh maybe this
wasn't a good idea but that thought was pushed back in my mind as he pulled
and his hand felt so warm and inviting. I sent the text and we were on our
way " oh I'm Robel btw and I know it's weird but blame my mother. what's
 your name?" "I'm Harold" I muttered. Even his name was as unique and
exquisite as his appearance.

 We made our way to his place, which was really luxurious and big. he made
me take off my jacket and shoes and sit on his couch. I let my eyes wonder
the studio apartment it was really nice. Twice as big a space as mine but
with boxes everywhere and just a bed and a couch. He went into the kitchen
and came back with a glass of water and our hands touched and I felt a
spark this time and his familiar warmth again. He sat down and started to
stare and check me out which was surprising considering I wasn't much to
look at . I was 6'0 and chubby with no real muscle definition. I had black
wavvy hair that I just let do whatever it wants until I get it cut, brown
eyes and nice heart shaped lips which are pretty much the only thing I
liked on myself,smooth hairless skin which I didn't like because I love
hairy guys and was tan but very light for my Salvadorean heritage. As I
looked at him he was even better looking than on the train he  wore his
work dress shirt and pants but had unbuttoned the top buttons and I could
see an unbelievably hot carpet of hair that was probably all over his body
I was feeling very horny which was made worse by the fact I hadn't had sex
in 2 months. I was starting to get an erection so I crossed my legs and he
finally  spoke "how are you feeling now?" "I'm better I think I might be
able to go now. " stay a bit longer just to be sure " I was getting very
anxious but conceded"okay..." I answered "What do you do for work?" He
asked " I work in A lab I'm a botanist. I study different plants for
different things mostly for agriculture. I work for on different projects
but my personal goal for going into this field of work is to find a crop
that is easy to cultivate but has more nutrition than corn, which is
actually not healthy the way most farmers grow it..." I didn't realize it
but I kept enthusiastically talking about my research and projects  for
longer than I should have and didn't realize he hadn't said anything in a
while  until I looked back at him and he was smiling and looking at me
deeply I tried not blush but failed once again" sorry I probably bored you
while I was raving about my research once I start I don't notice I'm
actually putting people to sleep" "if I was bored I would have stopped you
but I wasn't you just looked so interested in it I didn't want to stop you.
Anyone can see you really care about your research you really light up
while talking about it, it's really cute." he said and chuckled. I realized
He called me cute again and turned pink. He chucked at me again. I wish he
knew what false hope a hunk like him gives me and how bad it hurts that
nothing will ever happen " what do you do?" I stuttered "I'm an investment
banker for different companies I like it a lot because of the thrill of
making money but I don't really care about the money itself I was taught to
be very frugal so I mostly just take what I need which is why I take the
train even but this place doesn't show it I guess. I needed to move closer
to work now because of a new deal and I had to take this apartment as it
was the only thing available On short notice" "wow that's really cool you
must make like millions for companies to afford a place like this ."
"Closer to billions but who's counting? You can't take anything with you
when you die so why hold on to the material? I got this place because I had
to move and this was the only thing available but it's a little too
luxurious for me. I shouldn't complain though I've been blessed with the
luck to live and afford this place so I might as well enjoy it while I have
it." " wow you are way different than the way you come off as. I think
people should enjoy life because it is what is here and now in front of you
and people should live life as happy as they can be and take every
opportunity life gives. Missed opportunities are the worst. I might be shy
and insecure but that doesn't mean I let that inhibit what I want to do or
experience. I am still cautious though in not repeating mistakes thinking
they are opportunities.  " I turned and looked at him again and He looked
at me again with the hunger from the train "you're absolutely right people
should take every opportunity life gives or risk missing out on something
amazing" and the next thing happened in a fraction of a second  he leaned
over put his hand on my cheek  and before I knew it his lips were on mine
giving me what I thought was the best kiss of my life. he pushed his tongue
to my lips trying to pry my mouth open and I allowed him access. Our
tongues clashed and danced over each other and he seemed to want to
dominate my mouth and I let him it made the kiss so many times more intense
I felt I was having and orgasm and holy shit I was!!! I was moaning and
groaning in his mouth and and so was he. He pulled back and looked at me I
felt like I must have lucked so crazy overcome with lust I felt like I
forgot to breath and swallow and I realized my mouth was open drooling
almost wanting to entice him to come back.  he just stared at me and
started running his hands over me I felt amazing this was actually the
first time Someone has made me come and they didn't even touch me this guys
is dangerous but I didn't care I wanted more of him. I leaned over to try
to kiss him again  but before I reached he pushed me on my back leaning
over me and attacked my mouth and again and I felt amazing like I was
floating. he broke away and placed small kisses along my jaw and neck
tracing it up to my ears that were always super sensitive . He was running
his hands all over me and I started to get over my shock and started doing
the same he felt amazing he was so hard and big it made me feel small but
protected. He started to unbutton my shirt. When he started to run his
finger tips over my torso and brushed them against my now hard  pierced
nipples. "Wow you're not really as shy or insecure as u want people to
believe or u are and you're just really big sexual deviant like me" before
I could respond he started to pull and twist my nipples. I felt  like I was
on fire and I started to tremble it felt so good .He got off me leaving me
a little disappointed but started to pull me up onto my feet and I was
again a little wobbly and he ended up catching me in his big arms and
leading me to the bed I felt awesome like I was dreaming I couldn't believe
this was happening with someone as hot as him. He pushed me gently on the
bed kissing me and igniting me again and this time I wrapped my arms and
legs around his back I didn't want to let him go. He felt so big and strong
and warm I felt I might cum again what the hell he hadn't  even touched my
dick or ass and I was gonna come a second time. I felt like this was the
first time I was having  real sex and that the guys before this were just
practice for the motions leading up to this moment. A part of me wanted to
pull away I felt like I didn't deserve this or that he was just using me
like all the other guys did but I didn't care sex was sex I guess and I
chose to push that thought out of my head and just chose to focus on him
and how good he was making me feel. He pressed himself even closer and I
felt something poke my butt and I realized it was his cock through his
pants. it felt huge probably the biggest I've felt in real life. He started
leaving small kisses down my body making me tremble more. I never thought
sex could feel this good. He got to my nipples and started to kiss, nibble,
bite and twist them gently I was trembling as my pierced nipples were
always sensitive and aroused me easily. As he got to my crotch he swiftly
pulled my pants and underwear off leaving me in only my unbuttoned shirt I
felt so exposed as he looked at me from above I felt so embarrassed. He
came back down to my lips in another explosive tongue kiss while running
his hands over my thighs pushing them to my stomach.  He started to run his
hands around my 5.5 in dick but never actually touching it and lightly
brushed my balls down to my ass making me shake. He started kissing down my
body again and licked me around my penis before flicking his tongue over
the head before taking it all in his mouth in one move leaving me
breathless and convulsing. I felt like I was about to come but he quickly
pulled off and licked my balls lightly and then he swiftly turned me over
on my hands and knees and went straight for my ass. He smacked my cheeks
with both palms, pushed my cheeks apart and spit at my hole making me
shudder. He then put his tongue right next to my slightly hairy hole. The
moment I felt his tongue I screamed as he gave the most intense pleasure
I've felt in my life. He started making out with my hole as if it was a
mouth and I felt his tongue push inside me opening me even wider I felt
amazing but then as I was once agin close to climax he pulled away leaving
me breathless "don't move I'll be right back." I did as he said and waited
for him to return which wasn't long. When he returned I immediately  felt
him again at my hole and his continued assault on it made me want to come
but almost as if he felt I was to come he pulled away stroking and pulling
my cheeks leaving me wanting more but continuing right after he felt I was
off the edge and I felt him continue this for what I felt like forever. "
plz stop you're making me crazy I want to come so bad." "No!" He answered
very matter of factly making me even hornier if that was possible. I didn't
want it to end but I also did as I felt I was close to orgasm so many times
but he wouldn't stop no matter how much I gasped. " Don't move and keep
your eyes closed he commanded in his voice." I felt so good I just followed
his commands and felt him get on the bed and then in an instant he pulled
my whole body over his in the 69 position which was kind of a shock as I
was a big and I was met with one of the most beautiful sights that still
makes my mouth water after seeing it after all this time. His dick looked
so good it was so very big, thick and strong like him about 10 in, and
leaking so much precum it was alarming. This was the biggest dick I had
seen in my life and it made my mouth water I wanted to lick it and I felt
he wanted me to do it to and as I was about to touch the big mushroom head
with my tongue to lick his precum I felt his tongue at my dick also and I
moaned and the moment my mouth opened he shoved his dick inside. It was a
shock and i was conflicted on whether I should like him taking command of
me as it made me feel used like always but  aroused beyond comprehension
but I let go of that because this cock tasted amazing the pecum tasted so
good and felt like it would never run out and the head was so spongy and
good I was in heaven and my element as I was a pretty good cocksucker or at
least I would hope I was after all this time so I immediately tried using
all the technique in my Arsenal but it was difficult as I felt I was gonna
come again and again  but the feeling was stopped when he pushed my
prostate under my balls and continued sucking my cock rapidly making me
experience a dry orgasm which was slightly painful but amazing. I tried to
continue but I was riding out the feeling until he grabbed my head and put
it back on his cock to put me back to work and I did after 10 mins I was
able to take more than 3/4 of his length in my throat but he seemed to have
so much stamina I felt I wasn't good enough at my cock sucking but then I
felt him come in my throat flooding it and making me choke but I continued
to take it and as it overflowed down my mouth it was so good and surprising
I also felt him go back at my dick and all of a sudden felt him shove his
whole finger in my hole I gasped taking his still gushing dick even deeper
I felt amazing like this was not real but it was as I felt another slight
pain when he shoved a second finger and started to rock his cock inside my
mouth not losing any enthusiasm even after coming himself . I felt so good
but after a while of this he pushed me off and pushed me down into the bed
as he got up and started leaning on top of me pressing me deeper  into the
mattress while passing his dick through my ass crack letting the head pull
at my hole and his hairy chest daubed against my back making me feel so
many sensations, I was in heaven. He then stopped and I heard the sound of
the familiar tear of a condom and heard it snap on his dick and felt him
pour lube at my hole while he continued grinding at my hole . He continued
grinding but sometimes the head would sink into the hole and push back out
pulling my hole making me feel his dickhead at it. As I was getting used to
the pulling sensation He spontaneous plunge the head in my hole making me
scream as it was very painful and big. "It's ok, it's ok, you're gonna be
ok." He calmly said. he started running his hands all over my body. I
wanted him to pull out it hurt so bad but he didn't move he  just leaned
over my back leaving tiny kisses between my shoulder blades and back  and
his hands continuing to  massage me all over not missing a single place to
touch. I felt his hands  come up my neck  to my face turning my head gently
and I was met with yet another passionate kiss that made me melt and I
didn't feel that he was plunging in deeper and was already 5 in deep inside
I stared to feel an intense pleasure inside me and I felt him start to
slowly pull out and back in a few I inches and then slowly adding more and
after 30 mins I felt him inside me completely I felt weird I had never felt
so full and stretched in my life it felt amazing no one had ever reached
these depths in me before. He continued a slow pace while continuing to run
his hands over me and nibbling on my ear putting his full weight on me
pushing me ever deeper in the bed rubbing his hairy torso on my back
trickling me with the hair. Turning me on more.  If felt I might go crazy I
never felt such intense pleasure and he picked up his pace little by little
before he started pulling his whole length leaving the head only and
swiftly pounding all the way in making me gasp and scream every time he
did. He paused at one long stroke and added more lube before plunging
straight back in continuing his assault for what felt like eternity before
adding lube again on another long stroke and continuing His plundering  I
felt I was about to come again but before I did he pulled out completely
and instantly flipping me on my back and shoving all the way back in in one
fluid motion making me scream. He stayed like that deep inside and stared
at me. He was beautiful he was glistening with sweet and I saw the veins on
his muscles and felt the heat coming off his body he looked like a god
towering over me granting me my deepest darkest wish of my life. I saw him
bite his lip and I leaned up to get another taste of them but he pulled
back making me feel dejected but he continued going back and ended up
pulling me up with him before landing on his back and wrapping his hairy
arms around me pressing me against his chest which felt amazing with the
dark carpet rubbing against my nipples and dick as the tiny hairs would
leave an amazing sensation on the wet head  as he rubbed against me and
kissed me again shoving his tongues deeper and exploring my mouth Raven
more. I pulled away to catch my breath and I was now straddling him and I
felt very exposed all of sudden which was weird considering all we had done
up to this point. "Ride me " he said breaking my thoughts. I was surprised
but decided to go along with his demand trying to turn so I was facing away
from him but he grabbed my hips and stopped me" no face front and look at
me while u do it" I felt embarrassed and flushed but he smiled at me and
making me feel so warm so I complied and started squating up and down his
shaft feeling him rub against my prostrate at every inward and outward
thrust. After a few minutes I felt like I was about to come and tired of
the squating so I  started speeding up and as I was riding him faster he
suddenly pulled all the way down quickly on the longest stroke I had done
making me gasp in pleasure as I felt him be the deepest tonight. He stopped
and pulled me to him shoving his tongue in my mouth and running his hand
over my nipple and the other massaging one butt cheek I felt he was always
keeping me on the edge he pushed me back on my back and leaned over me
slowly thrusting his big dick again for another eternity I felt like I was
really on the edge this time and there was nothing holding me back as I
wrapped my arms on his back and my legs on his ass this time he seemed to
be close too and wanting to jump over the edge finally  and he started
thrusting the fastest he had all night jack harming me and pounding my
prostate at every turn making me moan and writhe. He leaned down and
started pinching my nipples and as  I felt him thrust I felt my dick rub up
against his treasure trail and he once again kissed me which was the final
nail in that coffin as it triggered the most intense orgasm I felt in my
life I felt my body was convulsing and I was shooting cum on his chest and
mine and on my face and over my head everywhere basically and as I felt my
hole spasm around his oversized member I felt my hole grow tighter or his
dick bigger or both and I felt the power of his orgasm unloading inside the
condom but never slowing his pace.  After I felt myself start to come down
from what I felt was the best high of my life did I feel him slow down and
eventually stop but still stay deeply inside me. he collapsed on top of me
as we just tried to get our breathing back to normal I felt amazing. I
never wanted this feeling to end I felt like I could go to sleep but the
reality hit me that this was not a good idea as most of the guys are
annoyed to see me still here after they came. He eventually got up to go to
the bathroom and threw the condom away I stayed in the bed trying to get up
but I felt so tired and sore I just kept looking at him as he came back
with a pair of boxers on and left to the kitchen and I tried to not freak
out that this guy that was beyond my league actually had sex with me and
made Me have the most intense experience of my life I was pulled from my
thoughts when he came back and put a cold glass of water next to my cheek.
"Thank you." I said leaning up and drinking it all slowly while he sat down
with a moist rag and cleaned the drying cum and sweat off my body. I felt
good again but weird as no guy had ever done this before. I tried to get up
and I felt wobbly again and he pulled me back to lay on the bed turned off
the light, spooned up behind me and pulled a blanket over us. I felt so
good and comfortable I never wanted this feeling to end but alas I've had
these thoughts before and the few guys that may want a cuddle buddy wake up
in the morning they not even remember my name and unhappy to see me still
there. I was lost in my thoughts when I heard him softly snoring behind me
I felt really happy but really sad as I knew I really needed to pull away
as I was falling for this guy and this was probably some time thing. After
a few minutes passed that I was sure he was sound asleep I got up on
unsteady legs again but balanced myself on the wall and started collecting
my clothes and dressed as quietly as possible Without my underwear as I
couldn't find it  but I just wanted to get out so I put on my clothes
walked out  and gently closed the door. As I walked to the elevator I
started replaying the events and I felt like it was a dream but it wasn't
and then I felt guilt like I didn't deserve such a wonderful experience
with such a great person. The bad thoughts of bad experiences from the past
kept coming up and I knew it was best I left as I was always the only one
who wanted more when sex was just sex. I made my way outside and slowly
walked alone at 3 in the morning crying as this may have been one of the
most happy experiences of my life but like all past experiences like this
it had to come to an end.

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End of part 1. Don't hurt me plz I'm srry I'm a terrible writer.
Copyright @ Henry G