Date: Sun, 21 Sep 2003 20:43:20 +0000
From: patrick cuttita <xdjpaul@hotmail.com>
Subject: My Love Affair With Joe

                   MY LOVE AFFAIR WITH JOE

Writers note: The names used here are on a first name basis
only to protect the people mentioned in this story. This is
a true story. The dates that are used are approximate. Many
of you readers know me better as djpaul. I have several
stories posted on Nifty as well as my own webpage at:
http://gaydjpaul.tripod.com

CHAPTER ONE       THE MEETING

Approximately four years ago now I decided to put up a
webpage for troubled and abused gay teens as well as a small
story archive. Well to my surprise the webpage took off very
well and I found myself talking to many teens as well as
adults who came to read my stories or who have gone to nifty
to read them. Well four years have passed and the webpage
has had over 130,000 hits. It started where I would spend
many nights talking to teens and adults. At the time I was
being inundated with instant message screens and hours of e
mails to read each night. Then one night a man by the name
of Joe came to me and asked if I had time to talk to him
about his son. Well night after night we would talk for
hours on end. As a single gay male I never expected that I
would ever get attached to anyone as I really wasn't looking
for a partner at the time. But a few months later Joe and I
started getting closer and closer and soon we fell in love
with one another. Mind you we had never met in person as I
lived in New Jersey and he lives in Virginia. Soon we were
inseparable. We spent as much time as humanly possible
online talking to each other. Than I needed to hear Joe's
voice so I asked if I could call him on the phone and he
said yes. Our relationship really blossomed from there. I
had an opportunity to move to Florida and I took advantage
of it. Even though it meant that I would be even further
away from Joe. Well unfortunately for me things did not work
out in Florida and I ended moving back up to New Jersey with
some friends. They had been nice enough to take me into
their home and I have been here ever since.

Joe wasn't exactly sure how much I really loved him. So he
decided to make a trip to New Jersey to see me. As usual I
don't like to meet people online unless I am in a public
place or had a friend come with me. My friend Dee was nice
enough to accommodate me and have Joe meet him at his house
and then they would make their way over to my house so that
Joe and I could meet. Joe and I and Dee had decided that it
would be nice if we all went into New York City for the day
so we could be ourselves rather than to have to hide from
people who we knew. So I waited at home for Dee to call me
to tell me that Joe had arrived and that they were headed to
my home to pick me up to go to New York City.  I was sitting
on pins and needles just waiting for them to arrive. I got
lucky that day no one else was home so I could feel free to
express myself when Joe and Dee arrived.  They came to the
door and I let them in the kitchen and I immediately went
over to Joe and threw my arms around him and started kissing
him. I then asked him if he was now sure that I loved him
and he said yes. Looking into Joe's eyes I could tell that
he loved me.
 Joe had a small car and my friend Dee was nice enough to
climb into the backseat so I could sit up front with Joe. I
must have told him 10 times that I loved him. We held hands
as much as possible all the way to Hoboken to take the Path
train into the city. I am a very affectionate person and
love to hold hands and give hugs. Of course I love to get
them too. So we arrived in NYC and started walking and Joe
held my hand and wouldn't let go the whole time we were
together. We looked at all the stores and went to
Rockefeller Plaza. We decided to go and eat at a Tad's
Steakhouse for lunch. Well the food wasn't the best but I
didn't care I was with the person who I loved and cared
about most in my life. After dinner we started walking again
back towards the Path Train Station. My friend Dee had seen
a coffee shop and decided to go inside and get coffee so Joe
and I waited outside. We were still holding hands and Joe
was leaning against the building and I leaned in and gave
him a kiss. He said to me whatever you do don't turn around
there is a guy who is walking by that is looking at us. So
of course me with my big mouth I turned around and told the
guy to take a picture it would last longer. Joe said to me
you really don't care what people think. And I said No I
don't , I love you and that's all that matters. Dee came out
of the coffee shop and we started walking to the train
station and of course Joe and I held hands the entire way.
We entered the train station and of course my mind was just
on Joe and nothing else and we ended up getting on the wrong
train. Instead of going to the Path terminal in Hoboken we
ended up in Journal Square in Jersey City. When I realized
that we were on the wrong train we got off and asked one of
the conductors how to get back to the Path Station he gave
us directions and we finally arrived in Hoboken. We got back
into Joe's car and drove back to Dee's house. Joe asked Dee
if it would be all right if he laid on his bed and take a
nap as he was tired from driving up from Virginia and he was
going to go back that same night. Dee agreed that it was a
good idea and permitted Joe to lay on his bed and take a
nap. Since where I was staying I did not have a room so I
slept in the living room my computer was at Dee's house. And
it just happened to be in Dee's bedroom. Joe took off his
shoes and asked Dee if he could watch television while he
tried to take a nap and Dee said yes. And of course what did
I do, I turned on my computer and went to answer some emails
and Instant Messages. When I was done I sat on the edge of
the bed and just held Joes hand. We talked for awhile about
how much we loved one another. And finally I laid down on
the bed beside him and we just held one another and looked
into one another's eyes. Dee was busy on his computer in the
living room talking to some friends of his so I closed the
door as to not have Joe be disturbed. Of course I was a bit
frisky that night and started running my hand on Joe's chest
and then down to his penis. He quivered a bit and suggested
that I don't do that right now as there is no way that he
could handle that sensation without him doing the same to
me. So, I behaved myself as I was just thankful for what Dee
had done for us. I got back off the bed and sat at the
computer again and started writing one of my stories. I was
totally overwhelmed with all the affection that Joe showed
to me that day. I knew he loved me and I definitely loved
him. I tried to be quiet so he could catch a nap but he was
watching a Virginia football game and stayed awake the whole
time. Finally the game ended and Joe decided that he better
leave as he had to be home in the morning for his son.
He came over to me and told me he was getting ready to leave
and I felt heart broken. I didn't want him to leave ever.
But I understood that he had to be home for his son in the
morning and I always put his son before Joe and I. So Joe
got up off the bed and came over and hugged me and held me
and told me how much he loved me and of course I told him
the same. By now I had tears in my eyes as I new it would be
some time before we could get together again. You see I was
only home a couple of weeks and hadn't found a Job yet so
there was no way that I could travel to Virginia to see Joe.
And besides I didn't own a car at the time. I straightened
out Dee's bed and Joe and I went into the living room to
tell Dee he was leaving. Dee and I walked Joe downstairs and
outside and Dee said his goodbyes from the door as I
followed Joe to his car. I was well into tears now knowing
that it would be awhile before we would meet in person
again. Joe got into the car and rolled down his window and I
leaned in and kissed him several times. He wiped the tears
from my face and told me that he loved me and told me about
what time he would be back home so I would know when to go
online to find out how he made the trip.
I could see Joe's eyes starting to tear up as he really
didn't want to leave me behind.
But I told him I loved him and that I would be waiting to
see him online in the morning when he arrived home. I gave
him a kiss goodbye and he drove off. It was one of the most
difficult nights I ever had in my life. I didn't want to be
apart from Joe for another minute. But we do whatever we
have to do in life and just move on.

I stayed overnight at Dee's that night. I slept on the
couch. Dee always leaves his computers on so if I was
sleeping I would hear the noise from the Instant Message
that would say who was coming online. Eventually I had
fallen asleep finally just thinking about the wonderful
experience that I had that day. Being able to spend so much
time together with Joe was just great. It was about 7am when
I heard the noise from the instant messenger that said Joe
was online. I immediately got up and went to Dee's computer
to find out if he was all right and how the trip was. He
said everything was fine except that he was tired and was
going to bed for awhile until his son woke up. We told one
another that we loved each other and Joe signed off.
I went back to the couch and went back to sleep until Dee
got up. He asked me if I had heard from Joe and I said yes
and that everything was just fine. We planned on spending
the day together as Dee had some baseball games to attend to
that day. So we got dressed and headed out for breakfast and
to enjoy the day together like we usually did on Dee's day
off.

Writers note: That is the end of chapter one. There will be
several more chapters to come. I am writing this to show
people that there is someone out there for them even if you
don't think so. Please let me know what you think of this
chapter by sending me an e-mail at: xdjpaul@hotmail.com or
you can contact me on AOL Instant Messenger at: xdjpaul. If
you can't find the rest of my stories on nifty feel free to
go to my webpage to read them at:
http://gaydjpaul.tripod.com .