Date: Wed, 02 Aug 2006 09:05:45 +0000
From: Paul <yvonneva@hotmail.com>
Subject: A New Beginning - Ch 17

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A New Beginning - Chapter 17


Unsurprisingly, I was awake early the next morning.  I'd had little sleep,
and what I did have was rather broken, so I gave up and got out of bed.  I
was so unsettled that I skipped my morning shower.  I needed to get moving
and try to clear my head a little so I headed straight out the door for a
walk, which ended up turning into a run.  I almost never run, so it showed
how much nervous energy I had to get rid of.  I was also horny as hell after
yesterday, particularly remembering how hot Trevor was when we got home last
night, and what happened after that.  Despite his moaning Geoff's name the
memories still had me seriously turned on, adding to that excess energy I
needed to get rid of.

By the time I got back home again 45 minutes later I really needed that
shower I had skipped, but I still wasn't in the mood.  I knew why I didn't
want one, and that in itself bugged me.  I didn't want to head into the
shower because I knew that Trevor would wake up and then he'd join me.  I
might have been horny as hell but right now I didn't want to mess around
with him.  I needed to work out how I felt about last night, and how it
would affect us.

I sat down and had breakfast, running through everything in my head whilst I
ate.  I was so wrapped up I don't recall eating it.  I just about hit the
ceiling when Trevor spoke.

"You're deep in thought this morning?" he said, looking at me quite
seriously.  "I didn't want to disturb you but eventually decided it was
better to check that you were OK?"

He was sitting in one of the arm chairs, an empty breakfast bowl in his
hand.  He'd eaten breakfast and I wasn't even aware of him.  I looked at the
clock and saw an hour had passed since I had sat down.  When I looked back
at Trevor I realised he must have showered as well.

"I know that look.  I saw it at my place when you were sorting through
something in your head, like our first encounters for example.  So what's on
your mind?"

"Oh nothing." I said evasively, "I just had a really bad night's sleep after
we got home.  I guess I was asleep here and didn't even know it."

"I'm sorry to hear about the bad sleep.  It wasn't my selfishness that
caused it was it?" he said, looking down at the carpet, apparently
embarrassed.  "I remembered when I woke up that you got me off first thing
yesterday morning and again after we got home last night.  That was so hot
when we got home, really mind blowing, and I never even said thank you.
Both times you ignored your own needs.  I'd have been too horny to sleep as
well, if I were you and had done that."

He came over and sat down beside me on the lounge, leaning in for a kiss.
He then slid his hand gently up my thigh suggestively.  The kiss alone put
me instantly at attention and I felt myself moan softly.

"Maybe I can help relieve some of that tension for you now?" he said with a
grin.

"Nah, not right now." I said, jumping up off the lounge.  "I went out for a
run earlier and sitting around here half asleep has left me feeling a bit
cold.  I'm just going to hop in for a quick shower.  See you in a few
minutes."

As I hurried out of the room and disappeared down the corridor I was unaware
of Trevor staring intently at me.  He could see that something wasn't right
so he sorted through his memories of last night to see if he could work out
anything specific that could have caused a problem.  He couldn't find
anything while we were out last night, so he shifted his thoughts to when we
got home.  He chewed absentmindedly on his lower lip as he thought about the
pressure he'd put on me to take the next step in our physical relationship
and although he saw that had not been ideal, he didn't think it would have
caused my discomfort so he continued his mental playback.  As he reached the
culmination of events in his mind he started to suspect what might have
happened.  He flushed as he remembered more clearly just where his mind had
been at that time and what he had said.  He cursed quietly as he realised
how much of a slap in the face it must have been.

I was, of course, totally unaware of this.  After my shower I dried off and
got dressed, still forming in my mind what I was going to do about the
situation.  For now, I was going to try and behave as if nothing had
happened.  I figured that nothing was going to be gained by discussing it as
Trevor probably wouldn't remember it happening.  It was one of those things
that just slipped out in the intensity of the moment, so for now it just had
to be business as usual.

I put on my 'happy face' and headed out into the lounge, telling Trevor that
I felt much better after the shower and that we might as well call Geoff and
see whether he was joining us to go sight seeing.  I saw Trevor hesitate,
like he wanted to say something, then nod and head to the phone.  Geoff
answered almost immediately and we arranged to pick him up and take him with
us.  We took my station wagon as the S2000 was not designed for three.  He
was waiting outside his building when we arrived and he quickly folded
himself into the back seat.

We visited the 'National Zoo and Aquarium' first, deciding it would be nice
to wander around looking at the various animal enclosures on such a nice
day.  It isn't a large zoo in relation to many others but Michelle and I had
always enjoyed it and kept up membership so that we could wander in whenever
we liked.  None of that "trying to get your money's worth" which you always
feel you have to do when you pay an entrance fee.  Geoff had headed straight
in as soon as we arrived, so it was just Trevor and I at the counter as I
had the melancholy job of handing in Michelle's membership card and telling
them it was no longer needed.  The staff there had known us for a few years
so there were commiserations from all who knew us.  I'm glad that Trevor was
there beside me, offering me silent support.  Thankfully there was no-one
else waiting to get in at the time or they might have been irritated by the
delay.

Inside, we joined up with Geoff and explained why we were delayed.  He
seemed a little surprised when he heard about Michelle, and I think I could
just about hear the wheels turning in his head as he re-evaluated the
relationship between Trevor and I.  I'm not sure whether he thought we were
a couple or not, but the way he looked at Trevor after he heard about
Michelle appeared slightly different.  He openly flirted with him, figuring
that he and I were just friends and that there was no need to be as subtle
in his advances any more.  Trevor seemed to cope alright, although I noticed
that he tried to avoid eye contact with Geoff.  I guess he was trying to
keep from getting caught up in those eyes again.

I love the zoo as it is so nice to see the animals, even though I don't
particularly like the fact that the animals are in cages.   I enjoyed
wandering around the zoo with Trevor and Geoff, but it did remind me of so
many visits here in the past.  Michelle and I particularly loved the snow
leopards, often sitting for ages watching them stretched out asleep.  They
are just like big house cats, except they have paws nearly the size of your
face, and they have the most glorious markings on their coats.  The Giraffes
were another favourite of ours, plus some of the marmoset species which are
so much like little people.  Then of course there are the otters, which
carry on constantly trying to find food, begging every time anyone walks by
their enclosure.  All these things reminded me of Michelle, but I realised
that it was easier to be reminded of things now without feeling so much
pain.  It definitely helped having Trevor there, even if he was flirting
with Geoff more than with me today.

Once we had had a good look around we sat down at the zoo cafe and had some
lunch.  I don't remember what I ate as I was watching the interaction
between Geoff and Trevor.  Their feelings were certainly mutual, regardless
of whether Trevor would want to admit that or not.  Trevor was captivated,
not just by Geoff's eyes but by everything about him.  I may not have liked
it but all I had to do was look at Trevor and I would see the fantasy that
he must be seeing when he looked at Geoff.  I now knew for sure that there
was no way this was going to just blow over, as he was seriously in lust
with Geoff.

At one point during lunch Trevor, unconsciously I think, reached over and
placed his hand over mine, squeezing and holding it.  You have no idea how
much it meant to me at the time, as it showed that despite his captivation
with Geoff he was still thinking about me on occasion.  I happened to be
watching Geoff at the time and I saw him do a double take, staring at our
clasped hands.  I placed my other hand over Trevor's, holding his hand
between both of mine.  Trevor turned and smiled at me, giving me a quick
wink, before turning back to Geoff. I don't know whether he even noticed
Geoff's wide eyed response, then narrowing of eyes as he recalculated his
ideas on our relationship.  He then looked at me anew, finding me watching
him as he did so.  He gave a start of surprise, not realising I had been
watching him, quickly covered by a smile.  I smiled back at him until he
shifted his eyes back to Trevor.

After that I was included in the flirting. I don't know whether that meant
that Geoff suddenly realised I wasn't straight, or whether he thought that
Trevor and I may be a package deal, but his charm was pretty impressive.  I
hadn't really had it directed towards me until then, barely having had any
conversation with him at all.  The effect of his looks, those eyes, and that
charm were devastating and I saw just how much trouble Trevor must be having
with Geoff's fantasy appeal.  Now being a receiver of those charms made me
realise just how out of control Trevor must feel.

After lunch we headed off to the `National Museum' for a look around.  This
is a recent addition to Canberra and generated quite a lot of discussion
over its design.  To me it is ugly, painted up in garish colours and looking
a bit like a giant carry basket or something.  It's hard to describe exactly
what it looks like but if I just call it "modern architecture" you'll likely
get the idea.  Inside it is fascinating, with permanent displays on multiple
levels as well as theatres for presentations.  It also has an area used for
touring displays, each lasting a few weeks or months before being replaced
by the next one.  Some of these charge admission, but the main museum itself
is free.  The museum is dedicated to showing Australian history and our way
of life.  There are all sorts of bits and pieces to see and it is easy to
spend a lot of time looking through everything.

We spent a good few hours looking around, enjoying all the displays and each
other's company.  Now that I was included I enjoyed myself much more,
Geoff's charm doing wonders for my self-confidence, even if I did have my
doubts as to his real intentions.  I couldn't fully believe that he could
really want me as with his looks and body he could have anyone he wanted.
Why settle for someone as plain as me?  Trevor on the other hand was a
worthy subject, his blonde perfection the foil for Geoff's dark looks.  I
decided I'd enjoy it while it lasted though, relaxing and having fun with
them for the whole visit.

Once we left there we decided to head back to have a look at Geoff's
apartment.  It was a really nice three bedroom place, stylishly decorated
and much larger than I expected.  He had based it mainly in black and white,
accented by splashes of bright colour.  The effect was spectacular, straight
out of one of those lifestyle magazines.  Despite this it still felt like it
was lived in and welcoming, unlike some which tend to be a bit sterile.
He'd converted one of the bedrooms into a study and another was dedicated to
his gym equipment. Looking at the gym setup he had I could see why his body
was so perfect, the equipment was top quality like he'd said last night.

His lounge room had an awesome audio system and the huge plasma television
was hooked up in full surround sound.  Squarely in front of the TV was a 3
seater white leather lounge with colour accent throw cushions, plus a
matching lounge chair on each side.  Geoff spread himself out at one end of
the three seater, patting beside him for Trevor to sit down.  That left me
with one of the lounge chairs, which I didn't really mind.  We discussed
movies and Geoff got up and put one on for us.

I must admit I watched the interaction between Trevor and Geoff more than I
watched the movie.  I'm not really sure they saw much of the movie either,
given how much they were flirting.  Geoff was stretched out across two
thirds of the lounge, which gave him the perfect opportunity to run his foot
up and down the outside of Trevor's thigh whenever he felt like it.  A few
times when he leant across to talk to Trevor I saw his hand run up the thigh
as well, but because of the arm rest I couldn't actually see where it ended
up.  I had a pretty good idea though, particularly watching the expression
on Trevor's face.  If Geoff saw me looking at them he'd always give me a
smile and occasionally a wink, so I didn't feel like he was trying to do it
behind my back.

At one point Trevor got up to go to the toilet.  He leant down to kiss me as
he went by and I reached up to stroke his prominent bulge as he did so,
confirming that he had obviously been enjoying the attention from Geoff.  I
wasn't sure how he was going to manage to go to the toilet in that state,
but I guess he did and returned only a few minutes later, resuming his place
on the lounge next to Geoff.

Once the movie was finished Geoff told us to stay seated and he'd fix us
some dinner.  He obviously did quite a bit of cooking as he very
professionally set to work preparing a meal.  I moved over to sit next to
Trevor, snuggling up against him and chatting while we waited.

"So how have you enjoyed today?" I asked.

"The zoo was cool.  So much fun to see all the animals, and those snow
leopards were just so cute."  He said with a laugh.  "The National Museum
was interesting.  Not quite what I expected, but interesting none the less."

"So what did you think of the movie?"

"It was alright." He said, slightly evasively.

"You didn't see much of it, did you?"

"Er... No, not really." He said, hanging his head a bit, "I got a bit
distracted."

"Yeah I noticed.  I really don't mind, Babe.  He is pretty fascinating isn't
he?  And he could charm all four legs off a donkey, then even persuade it to
go for a walk afterwards.  He's good!"

Trevor nodded and we both laughed.

"Yeah, he is pretty persuasive isn't he?"  Then he looked a little
uncomfortable, like he was steeling himself to ask something.  "Do you
remember our discussion on the lawn the other day?"

I nodded.

"Do you remember us talking about sharing my ideal man if we found him?  I
know we were only joking, but how would you honestly feel about that?"

I could feel myself freeze as my inhibitions arose in front of me.  I had
been flirting and only joking, yet thrilled by the idea at the same time.
Half my mind wanted to scream no, while the other half already had blood
surging to a certain part of my body just thinking about it.  The idea was
scary and yet intensely exciting at the same time.  I looked closely at
Trevor and saw how much he wanted this.  My inhibitions were getting in the
way again, just like they did last night when Trevor wanted me to take him.
I knew that if we didn't do this Trevor would always wonder.  While Trevor
was enough for me I knew that I wasn't enough for him right now.  Geoff was
a thrill that Trevor was desperate to experience, and I couldn't let myself
stand in his way.  I forced myself to smile at him, trying to suppress my
doubts.

"Sounds good to me!" I said, trying to sound as sincere as possible.

Trevor's face lit up like a Christmas tree.  He looked like he'd just won
the lottery or something, positively beaming as he wrapped his arms around
me and said thank you.  I ended up flat on my back on the lounge with him on
top of me, kissing me soundly in thanks.

"Hey guys, get a room." yelled Geoff from the kitchen.

We separated immediately, but grinned at each other.

"OK, how about your room after dinner?" Trevor yelled back.  "You want to
join us?"

"Hell, we can always forget dinner and go there now if you want?" called
Geoff with a laugh, not really thinking we were serious.

"I think we might need to have dinner first." said Trevor, on his feet and
walking towards the kitchen, "We'd need to keep our strength up wouldn't
we?"

I hopped up and told Trevor I had to go to the toilet.  He turned back to me
as he entered the kitchen, flashing me a huge smile.  He was so excited he
was like a kid who'd just received his birthday present.  I headed off to
the toilet, trying to work out exactly how I felt.  Yes, I had said it was
OK, but it still worried me.  My inhibitions were strong and now I was going
to be in a threesome with a guy we had met only a couple of days ago.  I
really wasn't sure how to handle all of this, but I knew that I'd do it for
Trevor.  I'd do just about anything for Trevor, but I guess that is what
love does to you.

When I returned I got an appraising look from Geoff.  I guessed that Trevor
had talked to Geoff about our discussion and told him that we were serious.
I could tell that Geoff was rethinking his ideas of me again, like he did at
the zoo.  I was surprised at myself and could only imagine what it must be
like for him.

We sat down to our meal at the dining table.  It fit in perfectly with the
decor as it was elegant black wrought iron with a glass top.  It was only a
small four seat table, but that made it a bit more intimate.  When Geoff ran
his foot up my leg I choked and spat out my mouthful of food in shock.
Despite the glass table top I hadn't noticed his foot coming my way so it
was a complete surprise.  I could see Trevor watching me with amusement when
it happened and I guessed it had been pre-arranged by them.  They both
laughed and I ended up joining them once I had stopped coughing.  That sort
of broke the ice, and we laughed and flirted through the rest of the meal.

By the end of the meal I was a lot more comfortable with the whole idea of
tonight.  I could feel a nervous tension between the three of us; I guess it
was anticipation of what was to come.  In my case it was also a good measure
of horniness, with my satisfying of Trevor yesterday.  I still was rather
nervous, given that this wasn't something I've ever done before and not
something I had really "planned" to do.  We all ended up fidgeting through
dinner as we wanted to go straight to dessert.  Once we'd finished eating we
took our plates out to the kitchen and Geoff told us to leave them there for
tomorrow.

"So shall we?" he said, gesturing towards his bedroom and giving me a
mischievous wink.

Trevor just grinned broadly, taking one of my hands and one of Geoff's and
leading us towards the bedroom.  Having been so long out of the dating scene
and having so little experience with guys, I almost felt like I was back to
being an inexperienced teenager stumbling over his first sexual encounter.
We all knew what was going to happen, but I for one really didn't know how
to initiate the damn thing and it made me even more nervous.  What exactly
are the correct protocols to start a threeway sex romp?  Thankfully Trevor
sensed my disquiet and as soon as we were in the bedroom he grabbed me into
a big hug, whispering in my ear that I shouldn't worry and to just relax and
go with the flow.

I was momentarily surprised when a second set of arms enveloped me as Geoff
joined us.  I turned my head to look at him and he leaned in to kiss me,
then turned and kissed Trevor.  We sort of ended up in a group huddle,
freely swapping kisses with each other and running our hands over each
other's backs.  Geoff then took the initiative and slid his right hand
around to fondle Trevor's package, bringing his left hand around to do the
same to mine a moment later.  It was kind of cool to be kissing Trevor,
knowing that someone else's hands were on us at the same time.

After enjoying this for a short while, Trevor gave me a nod and flicked his
eyes towards Geoff and then back to me.  I got the message and in tandem we
turned and attacked Geoff, running our hands over his chest, and back and
then taking turns stroking the considerable bulge in his jeans.  With both
of us attacking him he just moaned, increasing in volume as Trevor started
unbuttoning his shirt and I started running my hands through the short, dark
chest hair he exposed.  As the last button was undone Geoff shook the shirt
off his shoulders and we could get a good close look at that lovely torso
we'd been admiring on the dance floor.  Trevor started laving his nipples
with his tongue while I ran my right hand over Geoff's broad back and my
left hand lightly up and down those incredible washboard abdominals that
he'd been working so hard on in his gym.  Now I had experience with Trevor's
abs, which I thought were wonderful, but I had to admit that Geoff's were
even better defined.  Each individual muscle was perfectly delineated, each
ripple so impressive.  His back was a solid mass of muscle which quivered as
I stroked it lightly.

By the look on Geoff's face he was in absolute heaven as we both attacked
him, his eyes closed and a big smile on his face.  As I ran my hand down his
abs and along the top of his jeans I discovered the head of his cock poking
just out of the waistband.  As my fingers started to stroke his cock head,
Geoff's threw his head back and an even louder moan escaped him.  Trevor
stopped his nipple work and looked down, glancing up at me with a grin after
he discovered what I was doing.  While I kept stroking the head he undid the
zipper and top button of Geoff's jeans, freeing the monster within.  Trevor
had not been exaggerating last night.  There were definitely horses that
would have been jealous.  Now it may have been my inexperience (hey, I'd
only ever actually seen Trevor's up close, so I hadn't exactly been around)
but to me Geoff was almost unbelievably huge!  As we slid the jeans down his
muscular legs we saw that he was going commando so there was no underwear to
get in the way.

"We both said we wanted to explore an uncut dick." said Trevor, "So here's
our chance.  Let's have fun!"

"I just wasn't expecting to explore a monster like this." I said with a
quiet chuckle.

As he sank to his knees he grabbed my arm and dragged me to my knees beside
him.  We now both got our first close up look at an uncircumcised penis.  As
Trevor wrapped his hand around its length and slowly started to jack it I
looked up at Geoff.  He was looking at us both with a somewhat glazed
expression, obviously enjoying what we were doing.  I reached up and stroked
his balls and his eyes closed in ecstasy at the sensations we were creating.
  I returned my attention to centre stage, watching as the foreskin rolled
forward over the head then back.  It was just so sexy watching the foreskin
move and I wished I could experience the feelings that Geoff must be having
as it rolled back and foreward over the head.  I licked my thumb and when
Trevor next exposed the head I rubbed my thumb around the rim, pausing to
give extra attention to where the nerves gather.  Geoff gasped, his hips
bucking at the extra stimulation, and his long groan told me that he was
enjoying himself.

I smiled at Trevor and we kissed, both of us continuing our work on Geoff as
we did.  We then swapped what we were doing, my hand replacing his, wrapped
around Geoff's shaft.  The extra skin moved more smoothly than I was used to
on either Trevor or myself, gliding easily along the ample length.  It was
even more of a sensation of velvet on steel, so soft and yet so hard.  It
was a real turn on feeling my hand running along his length and watching the
head appear and disappear under his foreskin.  With my hand wrapped around
Geoff I also realised just how large he really was, both in length and in
width.  He was way bigger in all dimensions than either myself or Trevor,
and both of us are decently above average.  Trevor reached out with his
tongue and licked the head each time it was exposed, then took the head in
his mouth, sucking gently while I continued stroking.  We were rewarded with
a louder groan from Geoff and he muttered something we couldn't quite catch.
  He started to slowly thrust his hips as a counterpoint to my stroking,
increasing what he was feeling from Trevor's mouth.

As we continued our ministrations to Geoff I slid my other hand up Trevor's
thigh, intending to stroke him through the material of his jeans.  Instead I
found his zip already undone and his hand already stroking himself.  I guess
he just couldn't help himself, with the excitement of having his lips
wrapped around that monster cock and all.  I took over from his hand, now
experiencing for the first time what it was like to have a man grasped
firmly in each hand.  That in itself was a big turn on I found, enhanced
when Trevor undid my zip and took mine out as well.  We stayed that way for
a few minutes, all three of us enjoying the feeling of a hand that was not
our own jacking us.  Trevor eventually unglued his mouth from Geoff's cock
and started to kiss his way up his stomach and chest, pausing to give
attention to both his nipples on the way.

Once he reached the top of that beautiful chest he kissed along his collar
bone and up his neck, working his way around to his lips.  Geoff ardently
returned his kiss and I heard Trevor moan as he got even higher on kissing
this hunk straight out of his fantasies.  Still jacking both of them I
watched that passionate kiss, finding it turned me on way more than I
expected it to.  I guess I had never really thought about watching guys
kiss, but there was such passion there, even if it was my lover kissing
someone else, and I could feel Trevor quivering as I continued to stroke
him.  While kissing him I could see that Geoff had his eyes open watching
Trevor so I told Trevor to open his eyes as well, knowing what the effect
would be.  As his eyes opened and he looked into Geoff's eyes I heard him
gasp.  Though still locked in a passionate kiss, he let out a low moan as he
lost himself in those eyes.  A moment later he started involuntarily
thrusting his hips and I felt him swell in my hand as he lost control and
started to shoot.  As Trevor went over the edge I heard a soft moan from
Geoff as well, as he got turned on by watching Trevor's orgasm in his eyes.
As I was still jacking him I felt him swell in my hand too and I thought he
might also lose it, but he kept himself in control and continued to watch
Trevor intently as he surfed the waves of intensity.

Trevor's eyes stayed locked onto Geoff's as he shuddered through his orgasm
while I continued to milk him with my hand.   By now Geoff's arms were all
that was holding Trevor up as his knees went somewhat wobbly, but he
eventually recovered enough to stand on his own.  By this time I had stopped
stroking him as I realised he'd be too sensitive, but I continued to stroke
Geoff who was still watching him intently.  Once he could stand by himself
Geoff quickly removed Trevor's T-shirt, pausing a moment to enjoy the view
of his naked torso, then turned and pushed him backwards onto the bed.  I
let go of the prize I had been stroking throughout, then watched as Geoff
bent to remove his own shoes and jeans from around his ankles.  I couldn't
help myself and had to run my hands over his arse and down his legs while I
had the opportunity.  Geoff jumped at my first contact but otherwise just
kept at what he was doing.

Once he was naked he then removed Trevor's shoes and jeans, leaving him
lying naked on the bed.  He then stood and stretched for our visual
enjoyment, showing off that wonderful body now in all it's naked glory.  I
could see Trevor just drinking in the sight, enjoying as I did that broad
chest, those stunning washboard abdominals and that impressive weapon he had
packed down his pants last night.  Then his eyes widened slightly as Geoff
knelt on the bed between his legs.  I saw him look down at Geoff's
impressive piece and swallow hard, realising what Geoff was intending.  At
first I thought he was going to refuse, but then he looked back into Geoff's
eyes and any resistance on his part disappeared immediately as he lost
himself in his fantasy man again.  Geoff reached into a bedside drawer and
pulled out a condom and some lube.

"Here, make yourself useful." he said stonily as he tossed them to me.

That was when I had my first doubts as to where this was going.  There was a
definite note to his voice which to me told me I wasn't really a part of
this, but I hoped it was just my insecurities and my imagination.  I put a
little lube into the tip of the condom to increase the sensitivity for Geoff
then carefully rolled it on to his considerable length, slathering lube all
over it after I had finished.  I figured that Trevor was going to need as
much lubrication as possible to accommodate that monster.  All the while
Geoff was kissing Trevor, staring intently into his eyes and pretty much
ignoring what I was doing.  I also carefully lubed Trevor's pucker, slipping
a finger inside to start preparing him for the onslaught that was coming.

Almost immediately Geoff pushed my hand away, placing his cock head against
Trevor's anus.  I didn't know whether I should warn Trevor what was about to
happen or just let it be.  Mixed in with all this was my sadness that it
wasn't me about to enter Trevor.  I wished so much that it was me looking
into his eyes and about to make love to him.  Maybe if I had done that last
night it would have been my name that Trevor moaned instead of Geoff's?
Maybe if I wasn't so inhibited we would have been at home together now doing
this, instead of here at Geoff's house with him about to enter my lover?

As Geoff pushed Trevor's knees up to his chest I couldn't help but watch,
fascinated yet sort of horrified by the size of what was about to enter
Trevor.  Geoff pushed the head slowly into Trevor, stretching his ring wide
and eliciting a whimper from Trevor as the pain increased.  Once the head
was inside Geoff waited a moment, letting Trevor briefly get used to his
presence, all the while staring into his eyes from a few inches away.  Then
Geoff inexorably started to push into Trevor, feeding his length in inch by
inch.  Trevor cried out in pain as he penetrated further inside, stretching
his hole tremendously and to my eyes entering way too quickly for something
of that size.  I would have thought that even a seasoned veteran would have
had trouble accommodating Geoff and it had been quite some time since
anything bigger than a finger had been inside Trevor, so the pain must have
been almost unbearable.  As I watched the anguish on Trevor's face increase
I saw a smirk of satisfaction appear on Geoff's face, showing that
apparently he was getting off on Trevor's pain and reaction to his
intrusion.

I was really uncertain what to do.  On the one hand I didn't like seeing
Trevor in so much pain but on the other I knew that from what I had read
there was always pain on entry.  I knew that even a finger up my arse was
uncomfortable at first, so I could only imagine what Trevor must be feeling
right now.  That pinpointed my problems, the fact that I had never
experienced it myself.  I had no idea what Trevor was really feeling and
whether it was too much or not.  I just had to sit and watch as Geoff
stopped about 3/4 of the way in and then lunged the last few inches in one
go.  As Trevor screamed in pain I felt I had to do something to help him.  I
started to tell Geoff to stop, only to have him turn his head and stare at
me in a way that told me in no uncertain terms that he was in control and to
shut my mouth.  That look told me for sure that it had not been my
imagination earlier and that I was no longer welcome to take any part in
proceedings.  This was no longer a "threesome" but rather it was Geoff
claiming Trevor as his prize.

All I could do was watch as Geoff slowly withdrew and then slammed into
Trevor, again drawing a squeal of pain.  Even with my worries I couldn't
help but marvel at the power in Geoff's body as he started fucking Trevor
with long slow strokes.  He kept slamming into him and each time there was
less reaction from Trevor until he was moaning softly as he started to feel
pleasure instead of pain.  Each time Geoff thrust I could see every muscle
flex, from his shoulders to his abs to his arse.  If he hadn't been fucking
my lover I would have thought it was poetry in motion, but instead I felt a
chill.

I slowly got up from where I was kneeling beside the bed, as I could no
longer watch this happening.  I tucked myself back into my pants and zipped
up, moving to the bedroom door to leave.  As I looked back at the bed I saw
Trevor look towards me, registering surprise for a moment as he saw I was
dressed and about to leave.  At that moment Geoff changed the angle of his
thrusting and Trevor's eyes glazed over as his prostate was hit repeatedly,
assaulting his senses with pleasure.  He started moaning loudly and after
that I don't think he even saw me, wrapped up as he was in the sensations.

I left the room and closed the door, leaning against the wall to try to
steady myself.  Even with the door closed I could still hear Trevor's moans,
driving me crazy.  If only I had had the guts it might have been me
provoking those moans instead of Geoff.  I just wanted to scream with the
frustration of it all.  I quickly grabbed my jacket and virtually ran out
the front door, feeling a little better when the cold air hit me.  I went
straight to my car and hopped in, sitting for a moment to collect my
thoughts.  While I felt guilty leaving Trevor I knew that he was enjoying
every moment of what he was receiving, so much so that I think he had
forgotten I was in the room until he saw me at the door ready to leave.  I
also knew from last night how much he wanted the same from me, yet I had let
him down.  At least now he could be serviced by a real man, someone fully in
control and able to deliver exactly what he wanted.  Trevor knew my address
and phone number and I was sure that Geoff would drive him home if he wanted
it, so there was no problem in my not waiting for him.  Besides, the way it
looked in there they would be occupied for quite a while anyway, perhaps all
night.

I started the car and then drove home, trying to concentrate on the road
ahead instead of the scene taking place in Geoff's apartment.  When I got
home I went straight to my bedroom and crawled into bed, trying to clear my
mind as well as possible to help me get to sleep.  I kept seeing Geoff
thrusting into Trevor, taking my place in my fantasies.  For the second
night in a row sleep was very slow coming.

*********************************

I woke alone.  For a moment this surprised me, making me realise again just
how much I had integrated Trevor into my life.  After a few moments I
remembered what had happened last night and why I was waking alone.  I felt
vaguely sick at the memory, not helped at all by the fact that I had had
very little sleep.  I'd tossed and turned all night, agonising over the
events at Geoff's.  I am good at agonising, in fact I have been good at it
since I was a kid.  I used to go to bed at night when I was 7 or 8 and lie
awake for hours, unable to turn off my mind and get to sleep.  I'd go
through everything that had happened that day, plus anything else that was
bothering me at the time.  Some nights I'd lie awake for 4 hours or more
until I finally fell asleep.  Unfortunately this inability to switch off
stayed with me into adulthood, giving me many a sleepless night.  I also
seemed to have this ability to remember what was bothering me almost
instantly when I woke up during the night, usually meaning that I managed to
obsess about it for a while then as well, before falling back to sleep
eventually.  It was, and is, an ability that I really do wish I could lose.
I envy those who can fall asleep virtually as soon as their head hits the
pillow.  Michelle could fall asleep almost immediately, some nights I could
be talking to her and 30 seconds later her breathing would change and she
was out of it.  Some nights it made my sleeplessness even more frustrating.

Last night, when I did get to sleep, I kept waking from dreams of Trevor and
Geoff.  I'd eventually fall back into a fitful sleep, only to be awakened
later by more dreams.  I knew I was obsessing about the situation but that
knowledge didn't do anything to help me switch off and sleep.  I kept
imagining the rest of the scene after I walked out, the moans from Trevor
increasing in volume as Geoff kept pushing all the right buttons, then his
eventual eruption, which might have set Geoff off as well.  The visions were
stimulating as well as sickening, leaving me half hard for much of the
night.  I kept wondering whether I should have stayed, whether Trevor was
alright, or whether they might be having round two right then as I was
thinking about it?  Of course now that it was morning they might be waking
up and making use of their morning wood, exploring each other more
thoroughly without the animalistic needs of last night.

These thoughts, constantly running through my head, eventually drove me out
of bed.  I couldn't lie there thinking about it any more so I hopped into
the shower to try and relax a little.  It actually helped a lot and I felt a
bit more focused and in control by the time I had finished.  I forced myself
to have some breakfast after that, despite the fact that I didn't feel at
all hungry.  I knew that it was just a reaction to the events of last night
and that some food in my stomach would be good for me.  I then decided I
couldn't just sit around the house moping so I went out for a walk, at least
that way I could put my nervous energy to some good use and get some
exercise.  I grabbed my mobile phone, hoping Trevor might call me, and my
headphones and set off down the road at a somewhat brisk pace.  Usually I am
not much of a walker but this morning I could have won an Olympic 20 km
event.  I walked for about an hour, managing to walk off some of the
frustration I was feeling and enjoying the songs on the radio which were
helping distract me.

I got back about 11 am, which I figured was late enough to try calling
Trevor without waking him.  His mobile just rang, eventually going to
Messagebank, but I didn't leave a message.  He'd know the number was mine
and call if he wanted to.  My mind went through all the possible reasons he
didn't answer, the most obvious of course being that he was currently having
mad passionate sex with Geoff again and wasn't available to answer it.  Of
course it may have been more innocent and he was just in the shower, but I
couldn't help going over all the possibilities.  After sitting in front of
the television for 15 minutes and not actually "watching" anything I turned
it off and tried calling him again (see, I told you I obsessed).  This time
the phone was turned off, going straight to the answering service.  I left a
short message for him and then hung up the phone.

Now there were tears in my eyes.  Unless his phone had coincidentally run
out of battery between my phone calls the only explanation was that he had
turned it off.  To do so he would have had to have seen I called and then
decided not to ring me back.  I got the message loud and clear that he did
not want to be disturbed.  I guess my earlier fears were confirmed and they
were continuing in bed this morning where they left off last night, not
wanting to be bothered by the sound of the phone ringing.  I sat and stared
at the blank television with tears running down my face.

Maybe an hour later I shook myself out of my morbidity.  If Trevor wanted to
call me he knew where to find me.  I decided to put my time to good use and
started to clean up the house as it was really a mess.  I'd tried to clean
up before I left for the Gold Coast but I'd done a miserable job.  I rang
Trevor's mobile a couple of times during the next few hours, each time
finding it went straight to Messagebank without ringing.  It was either
turned off or out of range, more likely the former.  I regularly checked my
own phone to make sure I hadn't missed his call, as I was using the vacuum
cleaner at times and it might have drowned out the sound, but unfortunately
there never was one.

At 3 pm I gave up on the cleaning, thoroughly frustrated.  I'd "cleaned" the
living room 3 times and it still didn't look like I'd done anything.  I was
trying to use my nervous energy but I couldn't concentrate enough to do
anything effectively.  I decided to go to Geoff's apartment and see if
Trevor was alright.  If I found them still at it then at least I knew what
was going on, but this waiting for nothing was just driving me crazy.  I
hopped into my car and sat in the driveway for a few minutes, wondering
whether I was doing the right thing.

I eventually backed out of the driveway and headed off to Geoff's place,
parking almost exactly where I did last night.  I walked up the stairs to
the apartment and stood outside, listening to see if I could hear anything
going on inside.  I really didn't want to interrupt them if they were still
continuing on from last night, but I couldn't stand any longer not knowing
what was happening.  I couldn't hear any clear voices so I couldn't tell if
anyone was home or not, although I thought I could hear the television on.
I raised my hand to the doorbell, unsure what sort of welcome I was going to
receive.

I heard the doorbell ring inside and the sound of hurried footsteps coming
towards the door.


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