Date: Fri, 7 Jun 2002 19:34:17 -0700 (PDT)
From: K C <kav168@yahoo.com>
Subject: ONLY TIME - part 3
Disclaimer: This story is completely fictional. Any names given in this
story are completely imaginary. The events in the story never took place
and any similarities to actual events are completely coincidental. If you
are offended by homosexual relationships, please don't go any further. If
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from this website, but I know this won't stop you so just exercise good
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Comments: This is my first shot in writing a story. This was intended to be
a love story so for those looking for a WHAM-BAM-THANK-YOU-MA'AM story Im
sorry to dissapoint you. I am not knowledgable either on how companies
like those sited here actually work so please fogive me for any
irregularities. A lot of thought and effort went into this story, and I
really hope that you could email me your comments and suggestions at
kav168@yahoo.com. Negative criticisms aka. Flames will be ignored and
deleted. Thank You Very Much.
THANKS TO _ROCKLOBSTER_, Kedvesfiam, and the other guys in friendship and
intel room :-)
I would also like to apologize for any grammatical or spelling errors which
may make the story harder to follow.
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ONLY TIME - Chapter 3/4
by: KAV
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The rest of the morning was quite uneventful except for Nichole
bringing in the proofs of yesterdays shoot--shoots. I went over them
briskly one at a time but when I went to the portfolio containing the
proofs from the A&F shoot...I was like a teenage-girl drooling over pages
and pages of hunks...hunk I mean coz it only has Chris in it...anyway I was
so distracted that I didn't notice the knock on my door the next think I
knew Chris was standing behind me...probably admiring his photos...
"Yah...yah...I know you can't get enough of me..." He said in a
jokingly manner.
I pretended I was irritated and gave him an icy cold stare...he
looked so worried that his smile quickly melted away...boy did he look
scared...I couldn't just contain it anymore so I burst out laughing..."I
was kidding okay...I love it when you look like a lost boy looking for
mommy..."
"That wasn't funny okay..."
"Yah...now we're even...so where do you want to eat?"
"How about let's just grab a light snack and some coffee at
Starbucks? And its my treat"
"Okay...you're the boss."
So we set out for lunch...while we were sitting at Starbuck he
asked me "So J, what time to I have to return you to your office?"
"Well Chris...I'm all yours this afternoon...I decided to take my
afternoon off coz I was thinking I want to spend some time with you..."
"Wow thanks...you mean I'm that important?"
"No actually we don't have much to do today...so what do you plan
to do...I noticed you didn't have much clothes with you...I was thinking if
you want to go shopping?"
"I don't have money for that..."his voice trailed off.
I smiled at him and said "I know that...I mean how about me getting
you some nice clothes to wear?...you're friend here is quite loaded..."
He looked up at me with his sparkling eyes "that would be awesome!
Thank you...I mean really!"
I just smiled at him and finished my coffee..."So are you ready?"
He just nodded and we both headed to the door. We went around New York from
SOHO to Madison and Fifth Avenue to do some shopping...We went to Banana
Republic where he got a couple of shirts and slack...Got some nice pair of
jeans from Old Navy...New shoes from Costume National. But weren't done so
far...we went to Giorgio Armani where I got him the same suit as the one
that he almost ruined the yesterday. In Calvin Klein we got him new pairs
of boxers and undershirts...this is one whole afternoon of shopping...non-
stop...and to top it all of I got him a new pair of dress shoes from
Salvatore Feragamo...After that we headed back home...
We had some microwave dinners but he promised me that tomorrow he
will whip us something from the kitchen...he claimed that he can cook up
some good dishes...
"Well to see--or I mean to taste it to believe it!"
"Oh you better believe it...admit it, the omelet was good this
morning..."
"Yah yah...good enough!" I was kidding...it was awesome...I could
eat it for an entire day...
"GOOD ENOUGH?!?!..." He got up through the napkin towards me and
chased me around the loft...he was finally able to tackle me on my
bed....his entire body over me...I looked at Chris...who at that time was
also looking at me so intently...then all of a sudden he leaned towards me
and grabbed hold of my face and pulled it close to his...when our lips
touched...I felt something that I have never felt before...it sent shock
all over my spine...then he slowly eased his tongue into my mouth moving
around sensually wrestling with my tongue...then he slowly reached for my
belt and tried unbuckling it...he was slowly playing with my dick
underneath my white CK briefs...then he slowly moved his mouth over
it...when I realized what he was doing I panicked...I pulled up and said
"Chris wait!" being quite unsure myself.
He quickly sat up on my bed and looked at me...he wasn't quite sure
either "But I thought that's what you wanted?"
"I don't want anything...Chris...not yet maybe..."
"J, I thought...thought...well I just want to pay you back...I
thought you gave me all this"...he begins to point at his shirt...the
loft..."so that you can have me..." his voice slowly trailed off.
I was hurt...I didn't know what to say..."look Chris...I will be a
hypocrite if I would tell you that I wasn't hurt...you sought for a reason
behind my generosity?!?...believe me there is no need for that...and I will
not walk in your room at night to USE you...I just want to be your
friend...may be in the future we can be more than friends..." His face was
beginning to change...he looked more confused.
"I'm sorry all along--"
I cut him there "You thought? Chris...I am no rich-sex-maniac going
around town looking for cute hunks like you to take home...Actually our
kiss...OUR KISS...was my first kiss...and it meant so much to me...and you
tell me you did it because you thought I was buying you out so that you may
share the bed with me!?!" now tears began flowing down...I can't help but
feel so betrayed...I stood up and walked to the sink in my bathroom.
He walked behind me and placed his arms around my waist...and his
head on my shoulder..."I'm sorry...I really didn't mean to hurt you...I was
just unsure...if you like me or just my body...I'm uncertain coz I don't
want to fall in love with you and find out that you've moved on to another
more attractive model..." He was beginning to cry as well. I slowly turned
around and looked at him straight in the eye...all I saw was a little lost
boy...wanting some love and affection...I just took my arms and wrapped it
around him..."Hush now...I'm here...I understand...I was just hurt but I
understand...I was scared too you know...I was scared that you may not love
me...cause...cause...I think I am falling in love with you..."
"I think I'm falling in love with you too" He replied with a soft
smile and a soft kiss on the lips...
"Okay...would you want to sleep with me tonight?!? I could sure use
some company?"
He flashed me his famous trademark grin. "Yah sure why not?...It's
not like you are gonna rape me or anything."
We headed off to bed...I took off my clothes and looked at him..."I
hope you don't mind I sleep naked?"
He just smiled at me and said... "Nah...its okay in fact I would glad
to give it a try..."
Then we just lied down on the bed and drifted to sleep...I was awaken
by someone crying...when I was able to open my eyes...I saw Chris sitting
at the edge of the bed...I could sense that he was drinking...when I
managed to open the lamp I saw one empty bottle of Jack Daniels...I moved
my hand towards his shoulder and asked him "Chris? You okay?"
He turned around and looked at me...something was gone...he wasn't
the sweet and lovable stud that I met yesterday...He then grabbed my face
but this time pushed it down his crotch...I tried to get away when I
did...I reached for the light witch...when I turned the lights on I asked
him..."GOD DAMMIT! What the hell are you thinking?!?"
He was lying on the bed..."I just really need to get off...please...J
suck me...please"
Well I wouldn't have none of it...well I guess it made him more
determined....he stood up and literally pushed me back to bed...I fell flat
on my back...them he went up and sat on my chest...all the time he was
saying "I need this J...now open up and suck me..."
I don't know what to do...I was scared this is my first time in bed
with a guy and I was hoping it to be more romantic than this...when I
wouldn't open my mouth...he punched my stomach so hard that I just had to
yelped...Then he managed to slip his hard dick in my mouth...I was sobbing
uncontrollably...he was actually raping my mouth...God I wanted to die...I
could hear him saying "I've always wanted to do this...go on suck my dick!
Yah...I know you want it..."
Then I felt this dick swelled up and he just release a roaring growl
and 4 jets of cum...Thank God it was over...so I thought...just then he
pushed back and lifted my legs ...then I realized what was happening...this
asshole is gonna FUCK ME...I panicked but he was able to hold me in
place...he was saying "J your ass is mine tonight." I was scared I didn't
know what to do...
I begged him to stop..."Please Chirs...stop..." But he wont listen I
guess seeing the fear in my eyes turned him on...he then placed my legs on
his shoulders and worked his dick up my virgin ass. He then slowly leaned
forward and kissed me...for a second it took all the worries away...but it
was taken all way when in a swift motion he jabbed his dick passed my
sphincter...with every push of his grinding hips...he impaled me with is 9
inch monster...my whole body began to ache...I thought I was gonna pass
out...then I got a look on his eyes...all the love was gone...it was
replaced with a sex-crazed animal trying to burry some seeds deep inside my
ass...Then I felt his cock swell again I knew he was about to cum...when he
eventually released his sperm in me...I felt so cheap and dirty...I felt
like I was a cheap whore...I said to myself..."I though he loved me?"
He then dislodged his now softening dick out of my ass...I quickly
ran to the shower to rinse all this dirt away...I was sobbing
uncontrollably...when I got out...he was gone...I check his room and he
wasn't there...then I saw the apartment door open...I went over to lock
it...I guess I was still in the state of shock...next thing I knew I was on
my bed crying myself to sleep.
I was awaken the next morning my a ring on my cellphone...I answered
it, it was Nichole.
"J? Where the hell are you it 10:30? We were supposed to have a
meeting with all the account executives at 9?!?" She was literally
screaming at my ear...
"What?!?" I said in a groggy manner...
"Don't what me...we were supposed to have this--"
"He raped me Nichole...he raped me..."I was begging to cry...
"WHAT? OH SHIT! WHO? HOLD ON J I'LL BE THERE WAIT FOR ME." But I
never told her where I was...guess I really can't hide anything from that
girl...She was in my flat in 15 minutes...she managed to get in with the
spare key I gave her in case of emergency...she quickly ran to my bed
side...I couldn't look at her. I felt so cheap...so dirty...
"WHO THE HELL DID THIS TO YOU?"
I was crying "It was...." I was sobbing hysterically "it was
Chris..."
She got up and said, "That GOD DAMN SON OF A BITCH!!!...I better
teach him not to mess around with my friend."
"Don't...he wasn't Chris last night...please let me just find him..."
"You're stupid...he is just another Nick...you'll love him...even
give the whole world to him and he will just leave you...you know what you
should do...Call the God damn police!" She was mad...in these circumstances
the best thing to do was step out of her way...
"Nichole...please...he was drunk...I didn't know what happened...now
I'm gonna change if you want you can go with me...I'll look for him...I
think I know where he is." I got up and went to the bathroom to take a leak
and brush my teeth while Nichole sat on my bed.
I was walking towards my closet when she said..."You `re stupid you
know that...this guy raped you...let me put it this way...this guy took
your virginity...and you still want to find him? Why? So that you can kill
him yourself?" She was trying to lighten things up...that are what I love
about her...
"No...because I think I love him--"
But she cut me off "Honey...I don't think he loves you?!? Besides
that was the same think you said about Nick."
"Nichole could you just please not mention his name again. Besides
he's yesterday's news...and he doesn't love me...at least this one told me
that he loves me...now are you ready to go?"
"Okay...fine..." so we headed down Nichole thought it would be best
if we took one car so she decided to be my driver for the day. My head was
so clouded and I really don't know where to start looking for Chris. We
ended up in the street of the strip bar...Nichole looked at me and said "J,
this is where I found him..."
It didn't register in me until I saw the small alley at the back
where he "saved" me using his toy gun. I walked around and shouted to
Nichole..."I think I know where he is...take your car and follow me" I
walked around the corner and walked straight to the dead end and turned
right...I saw the apartments building...I walked up to the building and
waited for Nichole to arrive. When she got there she stepped out of her car
and gave me a questioning look and said,
"You sure this is the place? You've only been here once?"
"I guess...anyway lets go around and see if he is in his trailer."
Then we walked around and saw the trailer door open...at that instant I
knew something is terribly wrong because no one would leave the door open
in a neighborhood such as this. So I ran up and made my way through the
door but nothing prepared me for what I saw next.
"I guess...anyway lets go around and see if he is in his trailer."
Then we walked around and saw the trailer door open...at that instant I
knew something is terribly wrong because no one would leave the door open
in a neighborhood such as this. So I ran up and made my way through the
door but nothing prepared me for what I saw next.
Christian was lying on the floor lifeless and on this hand I found an
empty bottle of sleeping pills and a note...I decided to first check his
pulse it was very faint...so I quickly asked Nichole to call 911...
"They'll be here in 3 minutes" she said to me hugging me at the same
time. At the point tears began streaming down my eyes again...I cant
understand why I was crying...I just cried. When the paramedics arrived
they quickly loaded him up on the ambulance. I told Nichole that I'll be
riding with Christian and she should take the car and meet us in the
hospital.
While on the ambulance, I handed them the empty bottle of sleeping
pills thinking it might help detoxifying Chris. Then I remembered that it
came with a note...I slowly read it.
J,
By the time you are reading this I might already be gone ...all I
want you to know is that I'm really sorry for what I have done to you...I
didn't know what drove me to do such a thing to the man I love...now I
don't know if I even have the right to call you my love. Please forgive me
J, but I know that you will move on and will just hate me totally so I
decided to end this miserable life of mine cause it won't mean a thing
without you. I LOVE YOU J
Chris
I was crying again....just then the one of the Paramedics gave me a
pat on the back and said..."He's gonna be fine...don't worry...the doctors
will do their best." I just looked at her and forced a small smile..."Is he
your lover?"
I suddenly looked up...I was certainly caught off guard...she was
quite frank when she asked me and I wasn't prepared to say anything...But
then again I guess there is no use in hiding it...so I simply gave her a
nod.
"I knew it from the time we entered his place...the look on your
face could only come from genuine love and concern...I usually see those
look on parents and lovers...He means the world to you..." I wasn't
actually listening, all that I was doing was holding Chris' hand "Well you
know I think you mean so much to him too...but then again that's not my
business anymore...By the way...they will not allow you to see him if they
know they you are his lover...only FAMILY MEMBER...so form this point you
are his brother okay? I'll tell them you are his brother so you could stay
with him. Okay?"
I looked at her and said "Thanks...that really means so much."
When we got to the hospital they asked me to fill out the
form...when asked for his name I wrote Christian James
Reeves-Fitzgerald. Just when I was finishing the forms an old man
approached me and introduce himself.
"Hi! Jason, I am Dr. Steve Mcleen, I am the Hospital Administrator,
I guess you don't know me but I am a good friend of your parents...But I
cant recall then having another child asides from you..." Then he looked at
me in the eye and I think at that point he knew who Chris is to
me..."..ooh...I see...now I remember..."the he gave me a wink The turned to
the nurse and said "Please see to it that Mr. Fitzgarld here is allowed
access to his brother at anytime and see to it that he is placed in a
suite.
"Thank you Dr. Mcleen..."
"Please its Steve...if you need anything just send for me okay?" I
then just gave him a nod and walked away...at that time Nichole was just
walking into the front door when she saw me she came rushing to me and gave
me a hug...
"Is he alright?" She asked
"I don't know, he's been there from almost an hour now and the
doctors haven't said anything yet."
A voice came from behind us "excuse me Mr. Fitzgerald." ...It was
the nurse..."Sorry to bother you sir but Dr. Adams wants to talked to you."
I turned around and saw a man in his late 20s dressed in white...he
reached out his hand and said "Dr. Adams...just cal me Charles ."
"Is Christian okay?"
"Well I hope...you see we were able to remove the toxins from the
body but after that he slipped into a coma...we don't know how long it
would be...but he looks stable we hope he would regain consciousness in
several weeks time."
"Can I see him?"
"Okay...are you staying with him? Dr. Mcleen has already made the
arrangements for your suite."
"Yes I'll be staying here with him..."
After talking to Dr. Adams I looked for Nichole to arrange my leave
in the office. I am finally claiming my long awaited and much deserved
break from the firm. They will only disturb me if there are pertinent
matters which need my attention if not Nichole can call the shots. At that
time Nichole was very unsure of what to say...but she just looked at me and
nodded...
"J, I have to go back to the office you sure your gonna be fine
here alone?"
"Yah..don't worry about me...Can you do me a favor?"
"Sure name it"
"Can you pick up some clothes and my toiletries for me...I don't
want to leave Chris."
She nodded and said "Sure...I'll be back before supper. Do you want
to eat anything?"
"Nah..I'm fine and besides I don't feel like eating..."
"Well I'll just bring you some roast beef sandwich...you'll have to
eat something or else you wont be here when he wakes up...now we don't want
that do we?" Then she just smiled and closed the door gently."
Then I turned to Chris...he is so beautiful...but I could feel my
tears starting to swell up again knowing that I might not be able to old
him close to me. Then I remembered reading somewhere that people in coma
could still hear those people around them...So I held his hand and took a
deep breath then said...
"Chris baby, it's J..."...then I felt his hand tighten a bit...then
it relaxed so I decide to continue..."Chris...please don't leave me...I
feel so cold without you...I love you and what happened to us last night is
history...we don't have to talk about it again...lets just imagine that it
was all a horrible dream and when you wake up...everything will be like it
was before.." I was beginning to sob..."GOD DAMMIT CHRIS...WAKE UP!...don't
leave me. I...I...I...LOVE...YOU..." tears began to flow down..."From that
first time I saw you was attracted to you...and I was stupid to have pushed
you away....I Love You Chris..."
I stayed with Chris for the next 2 weeks...though the doctors were
saying that his vital signs are improving and they also assured me that
there are no signs of brain damage but the problem is they still couldn't
guess when he is going to wake up...that night Nichole drop by the hospital
to check how things are going...
"So how's Chris?"
"According to the doctors he's okay...but they can't tell when he
is going to come out of the coma. So how's the firm doing...we still have
client right?"
"It's doing good...yah...we still got them...actually Tom drop by
the other day...he was looking for you. I told him you were in the hospital
looking after a friend...then he told me that he wants to visit you but I
said its not necessary..."
"Tom's a good friend...thanks Nichole...I guess I would also have
had an overdose of sleeping pills if weren't for you."
"Nah...don't mention it you would do the same for me right..."
"Of course...you're my best friend...."
"So J, have you forgiven him yet?"
"Nichole I'm not sure...I think I have forgiven him...but when I
remember what happened I could still feel the pain..."
"Give it some time J...only time can heal..."
"Yah...I suppose you're right...but I really love him...Its not
like the feeling that I had with Nick before...This time...This time I
think Chris is the one...I think I am falling deeply in love with him..."
"Lets just wait and I guess you can talk when he wakes up..."
"I know but I want to straighten my head first before anything
else...But honestly I think I REALLY....REALLY...LOVE HIM."
Then there was a soft whisper "and I love you too"...I turned
around and saw that Chris was finally awake and he was looking at me with
his deep brown eyes...
TO BE CONTINUED...