Date: Sun, 21 Mar 1999 10:29:03 +0900
From: Andrej Koymasky <andrejkoymasky@geocities.com>
Subject: Puppets Theatre 05

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THE PUPPETS THEATER

by Andrej Koymasky (C) 1999
written the 16 th of December, 1989
translated by the author
English text kindly revised
by Richard

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USUAL DISCLAIMER

"THE PUPPETS THEATER" is a gay story, with some parts containing graphic
scenes of sex between males. So, if in your land, religion, family,
opinion and so on this is not good for you, it will be better not to
read this story. But if you really want, or because YOU don't care, ore
because you think yo really want to read it, please be my welcomed
guest.

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ACT FIVE - The real puppeteer - Angelo

First Scene:

"Angelo, I have a job for you."

"Yes, Dad, what's about?"

"A very important business man... He wants us to shadow his son to know
who he meets. Here is the file. I completely entrust it to you, it is
not a difficult case. If at times you may need to ask the help of some
of our men - of course you can, it's sufficient we agree on that, not to
overlap two jobs. This will be the first case completely yours, you are
now expert enough. The client doesn't care about the money spent, he
just wants results. Read the file, and if you come up with problems,
come to talk with me. But I think you will not, the basic documentation
is good and plentiful."

"All right, Dad."

Right away Angelo took the file and went to the other room. At his desk
he started to read it. And at once he widened his eyes - the client was
really a VIP, the Commendatore Linardi! Continuing to read, his eyes
widened a second time. The son of the Commendatore was nearly eighteen
years old and the problem was that the boy was gay. He immediately
looked for the picture and stood open mouthed - the boy was really
beautiful! At this point Angelo asked himself how come his father
entrusted him with this case. Did his father by chance know that he was
gay? And yet, Angelo, from when at sixteen became aware of his tastes
about sex, took all precautions in order not to let his father suspect
it at all. No, it had to be just chance. In fact, knowing his father
well, he knew that the man would have faced up to him... moreover,
entrusting him with that case, he didn't give any hint, he just talked
about it normally, like one of the several cases that they had to
assume.

He looked again at the picture of the boy to shadow, and thought with a
smile that he would have liked to go to bed with him. The boy, called
Marco, was exactly five years younger than him, would soon attend a
driving school in Milan (and there was the address), and after the
summer would attend the Bocconi University. He took note of all the most
important data, and noticed that the driving lesson would start just
three days later. On that occasion Angelo could identify the boy and
then start the shadowing. It was requested a continuous shadowing each
time that the boy came to Milan, and also the identification of the
people the boy met to have sexual intercourse. Angelo thought that to do
that also, he really needed other people to help him, he couldn't do
everything alone, both because he had to be careful not to be noticed,
and because there would probably be several persons to follow, in some
occasions.

And then he got an idea. One of his closest friends, with whom he often
make love without ever being lovers, Matteo, had asked him several times
to get him a job from his father. Matteo at times did also accompany him
for some shadowing and was really amused, but more than that, Angelo got
the impression that Matteo was skilled. He was waiting to leave for the
army service, but there were some more months before he could be
summoned, therefore it was possible to offer him a forward contract. He
decided to talk with his father, who knew Matteo because the two
families were friends. The father had absolutely no objections.

At the railways station, they immediately identified the boy and Matteo,
when he saw him commented: "Holy shit! He is even better than in the
picture. Look at his sensual lips. You know, I think I will renounce to
this job, and go immediately to hook him to try to take him to my bed!"

"Aren't you serious, idiot?"

"I was joking! But tell me, your reaction was just professional or were
you jealous of him?"

"Stop it! We don't want to loose sight of him."

"Don't worry. I'll take my bike, and you your car as agreed."

In the first days it was easy to follow him. It became a little more
difficult when the boy started to tour the public toilets, and even more
when he had his first contacts. But with the help of a third person,
they succeeded in following both the boy and all the people he was
picking up. About those, Angelo soon became aware that it was happening
something strange - as soon as they had the data of these people, and
communicated them to the Commendatore, in a few days Marco's conquests
vanished.

So Angelo decided, without telling to his father, to try to find out
what was happening. He discovered then that the boy's father, the
Commendatore, when he received the reports with the data of his son's
conquests, he sent them away from the city, at times with threats, at
time having them moved, making the right pressure at the right levels,
at times offering them so alluring occasion to convince them to move.
The Commendatore was creating around his son a burnt land.

Angelo felt sympathy for the boy. After discussing it with Matteo, he
decided to try not to report the next conquest of the boy. But a few
days after, his father called him.

"Angelo, you must be careful, you have missed a contact that the boy
had. The Commendatore called me and told me that if we make another
mistake, he will stop using our agency. It would be a pity, it is
question of many millions..."

"That is strange. I did carefully my job. How can he affirm such a
thing, the Linardi?"

"Evidently he charged another agency with our same job. Cross testing,
or how the hell they say in English. I explained him that these are
things that can happen, but he answered to use more people, he is ready
to pay more, but he wants to be sure."

"Yes, dad, possibly it is better to have one more person, we will work
more easily."

Angelo, even though he was aware he was forced to carry out that job
following the will of the client, inside himself he started to take
sides with Marco.

Matteo received the call up papers. So he said to Angelo: "Listen, next
week I have to leave. So I had an idea. I would like to contact the boy
and to make love with him once. We know where he likes to cruise, it
would not be difficult."

"Are you completely crazy? I told you that there is another agency
covering him. If they discover that a man of our agency went with the
boy, we lose both this job and our face. Aren't you aware of that?"

"No, listen, I thought about that. They don't know us, as we don't know
them. But above all they don't know me. Anyway I can be very careful so
that they cannot follow me nor discover who I am. Then I leave Milan,
they cannot connect me with your agency. Also because I will go with
Marco just once, before leaving. But I would like to meet that boy."

"But if they follow you, they discover who you are, and your family is
friend of mine, therefore..."

"It's not so easy to follow who know he is being followed!"

"But where do you take the boy? You certainly cannot take him to your
place, and neither to a love hotel..."

"I'm not so naive, Angelo! I'll take him at The Pill Box. I know the
owner, he is a friend of mine. He'll let me use a small room he has in
the court yard. Ahead of time I will go to reach an agreement with him.
He has a back entrance on the parallel street, I'll go out from there.
And if someone goes to ask to my friend, he will give them fake
information as I'll prompt him."

"You really thought to everything. But I feel it is too risky. What if
they see you at the back entrance?"

"I don't think they know about it. Anyway you'll be there to watch. You
have another of our men watch the main exit that Marco will use.
Therefore you can see if I'm followed, and in that case you can give me
a signal so that I'll know the guy and can shake off him. All right?"

Angelo, after he gave some more objections, all of which were rebutted
in detail by Matteo, in the end accepted. The only one remaining problem
was to see if Marco would have been interested in Matteo...

All worked to perfection. When the two entered the bar, Angelo with his
cellular immediately and urgently summoned two men from his agency and
put them in Pier della Francesca Street to watch the main entrance and
gave them the order to follow Marco and his companion when they come
out. He told them that he had to follow another track, and went in the
other street. Matteo came out three hours afterwards. When they were
completely sure nobody was following Matteo, they approached each other.

"You were together three hours! It seemed you'll never end it. How was
it, tell me!"

"Ah, if I could, I would have stayed twice that and more! That boy,
besides being really beautiful, is so sweet!"

"Does he have a beautiful body?"

"He has all beauty. And makes you feel like a charming prince. He needs
tenderness, and he gives lot of it."

"Are you not, by chance, falling in love with him?"

"It would not be difficult. Who knows why that fucking bastard of his
father doesn't leave him in peace? If Marco found a good friend, the
right lover, he would be happy and he would make the other happy."

"Is he skilled in making love?"

"Still somewhat inexpert, perhaps, but these are things one can learn
rapidly. It has been really great, making love with him."

"Better than with me?"

"Yes. Sorry, but we two know each other. I know what you like and you
know what I like. It's different... It's a pity that you cannot try it
with him, Angelo, believe me. You will be fascinated, I'm sure. I might
just, if he was still free after my army service, kidnap him and make
him my lover..."

"Hey, did you really fall in love with him?"

"Who knows. I'm glad I don't have to follow him anymore on behalf of
that cursed bastard of his father!"

Angelo, back to the agency, wrote his report - Marco picked up an
unknown person at the Cathedral's Place toilets, they went to The Pill
Box, Marco came out alone after three hours and there was no sign of the
other. Going to ask to the owner of the bar, the man wasn't able to give
information about the other man, and explained that possibly he went out
through the court yard which has another gate in the parallel street.
According to the bar owner, the two youths sat in a booth and chatted
all the time... He read the report again and thought it was perfect. And
he was sure that the report of the other agency couldn't be different.

He recalled what Matteo told him about the boy. Yes, his work was really
unpleasant - helping the father to persecute that poor boy! Angelo was
feeling more and more a liking for Marco.

The lessons at the university started. When the boy went to his studies
companion's home, it was impossible to know if they were really just
studying or if they made love, Angelo explained in his reports. The
Commendatore asked them to investigate anyway about the students in
whose home Marco went to study. If they were straight people, they could
be ignored, but if they were gay, they had to be looked after.

When Marco begun to meet Alceo, Angelo, for his gay sensibility, guessed
that something was beginning between the two youths, in spite of the
fact that Alceo had a girlfriend. Angelo happily thought that perhaps
this time the two youths could carry out their relationship without
problems, without the intervention of Marco's father. But unhappily,
once, the two lovers made the mistake of going to a love hotel near the
Central Station, and Angelo couldn't help but report that. A few days
after, Alceo didn't show up any more at the university... Angelo felt a
kind of regret. If the boy avoided that mistake, possibly the two could
still have remained together for a long while...

Marco's file was becoming more and more voluminous. At times Angelo read
again all of it, and little by little he felt he knew the boy better and
better, and became aware that he was feeling for him more than a liking,
more than solidarity, more than tenderness. Following him everyday, he
learned to recognize every light expression of him, almost to read his
thoughts. He was able to interpret each light raising of his eyebrows,
each folding of his lips, each gesture, even if barely hinted, each
quiver of his lips, each glance. He learned to recognize, in the light
of his eyes, if desire woke up in the boy, or if there was the joy of
the reached pleasure. When he saw him withdraw with one of his
conquests, from his expression before and after the encounter, he was
able to guess what Marco felt for the other, and if he would try to meet
him again or not.

Matteo, on leave, succeeded to meet him again a couple of times Marco,
each time in a different place, always successfully and avoiding to be
recognized or followed by the men of the other agency. And each time he
told Angelo about his encounters, in enthusiastic terms. Angelo felt
almost like if he was participating, and felt more and more strong
sentiments towards the boy. While he was making love with Matteo, he
asked his friend to describe his encounters with Marco in the minutest
details, and he felt so he could live them in person. Matteo willingly
lent himself to that kind of game, both because it was exciting, and
because he was aware, even before Angelo, that his friend had fallen in
love with Marco.

"Be careful, Angelo. Unhappily you'll never be able to have that boy. At
most you could be able to have with him one, two encounters, like me,
but it will be a story without future. If you want, we can organize an
encounter with him at The Pill Box... this is the most we can try... But
this would also mean that then you will have to renounce to the job. In
fact, even if we can do so that the men of the other agency don't see
you, you could no longer follow Marco, afterwards, because he would
recognize you..."

"No, we both know very well that it is impossible. As you say, I could
no more shadow him, once we met. And then, just for one time..."

"Would you like to marry him?" Matteo merrily asked.

"I would put my signature on it, if it was just possible!" Angelo
seriously answered.

"Me too. But I have to content myself with you..." Matteo answered
laughing and started again to make love with his friend.

But Angelo close his eyes and, while making love with his friend, could
see the face of "his" Marco. He confusedly became aware that for the
first time he was thinking of him, he was feeling him as "his Marco",
and even though he repeated to himself that it would never happen, this
feeling born in him, pleased him.

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Second Scene:

Angelo was now following Marco's case for a long time, when one day the
Commendatore Linardi asked for a meeting with him. Usually he didn't
meet in person with him, so Angelo was surprised - there must have great
news…

"Please, come in, Commendatore."

"Yes. Listen. Your agency showed that you are able to work with skill on
my son's case. You made just one mistake in all these years, one and
half, I have to say, considering that elusive guy that three times you
were not able to shadow... but neither did the other agency... On the
other hand, the other agency made several mistakes. And I know that the
organization of all the operations had been coordinated by you.

"Well, it's a long time now that I'm aware I have cancer, and now it
remains me very little time to live, I am very close to the end.
Therefore I decided to leave a big sum of money to a notary, a friend of
mine. That money would be sufficient to cover three more years, perhaps
a little more... anyway it will be used to the last lira, then your work
on this case will cease. I decided to give up the other agency and to
entrust it all to you. You must continue to follow my son, and to
prevent him getting tied up with some man having his same squalid vice.
You have, in short, not only to follow my son, but also do all you can
to separate him from those people... Normally it is sufficient that a
some amount of money is enough to convince them. At times it will also
be necessary to put some pressure to pull them out of the way, but it is
always possible. You have, from now on, to send your reports and the
note of fees to my notary friend and you will be immediately paid and
reimbursed."

The man became silent for a moment and Angelo took advantage of that to
interrupt that monologue: "May I make a comment, Commendatore?"

"Certainly."

"If in all these years the boy didn't change, if he continued to look
for... what he is looking for, what difference can possibly make three
more years?"

"You are speaking against your interest, and you know it. But yours
could be professional ethics. No. In three years my son will be 25. He
will be, therefore, really an adult. What I care is that while he is
still young, he doesn't tie up with somebody who could manipulate him.
He will be the inheritor of a huge fortune... Unhappily, with the
passing of time, I lost the hope he could change. But at least, since he
will be the only inheritor of all, I hope that he will not allow an
eventual companion of vice to fool him. I don't see a danger in
adventures of one, two encounters. But the steady relationships, are
dangerous. And more than that, I cannot do."

"You did even too much..." Angelo murmured, then bit his tongue fearing
that the man can sense the sarcasm in his voice.

But the Commendatore didn't seem to have grasped the critique contained
in these words: "A father never does too much. I just tried to carry out
my duty, doing my best to pull Marco out from that disgusting vice. And
now I'm just doing what I could do."

"Why are no more using two agencies, now, but just ours?"

"Because I had proof that I can trust you. I dismissed the other agency
about four months ago. This is the notary address. Starting with next
report, please sent it to him. He always has all the preceding file. And
also next note of fees. Good bye, young man. Carry out your job
skillfully."

The thin man stood up and left the room. Angelo thought on the evolution
of all the case. Now, perhaps, the boy could have some more chances,
practically it depended on Angelo. But if he ceased to send reports, or
just sent reports different from the previous, the notary could have
suspicions. The most I can do, Angelo thought, is to let some encounters
slip away through the net... and I'll do it.

The funny thing is that Angelo didn't think at all to take profit of the
new situation for himself, to hook the boy.

About three months after this conversation, was held the solemn funeral
of Commendatore Linardi. The change that occurred in Marco after this
event, was more impressive than what Angelo expected, but above all,
much different of what he could have guessed. Marco, who was newly
graduated just before his father's death, didn't run to seek for
adventure, didn't go wild. On the contrary, for a certain period, and
quite long, it seemed that he didn't have any encounter, any
relationship.

As soon as his father was dead, the boy spent many full days in the just
inherited offices. For some months, he just went from the villa to the
office and vice versa. Then, a new period started. Marco begun to go to
the "No Ties", the "One Way", the "Nuova Idea", and at times he picked
up somebody, but never for more than one encounter. He brought his
conquests to the hovel he rented after his father's death. Very seldom
his guest stayed there for more than a couple of hours. The guys Marco
chose were all a little older than him, all rather athletic, elegant,
and had brown hair. Angelo thought, smiling in himself, that he matched
this type of man. But he also was aware that often they were hustlers,
even if classy. Angelo had had the impression that Marco, before his
father's death, was looking above all for a friend. But now he seemed he
was looking just for sex. Angelo wanted to understand what was happening
to the boy. So he phoned to Raul, one of his gay friends who matched
with the type usually looked for, and asked him to meet. When they were
together, he showed him Marco's picture and asked him to pick him up in
a disco, to make love with him, to try to understand what kind of boy
Marco was, and to tell him. His friend willingly accepted the proposal,
as an agreeable game. Raul succeeded in being picked up by Marco, just
three times after they met in the disco.

When, after having made love with Marco, Raul met Angelo, he asked him:
"But, tell me, what is Marco to you?"

"We don't know each other, we never met."

"But you like the boy, right?"

"Yes."

"So, why didn't you go to meet him?"

"Work's reasons."

"You have to shadow him?"

"Right. So?"

"He is a strange boy. Beautiful, without any doubt. And very skilled in
making love. I said him that I wanted to meet him again, and I was
sincere. He answered no, because soon he has to leave and he don't want
ties with anybody. I told him that we could meet just so, without any
tie, without any engagement. He said that he liked me, but that he
preferred to change every time. So, I asked him if he never fell in
love. He said that it happened, two or three times, but added that he
didn't want to fall in love any more, to avoid disappointments. I told
him that he could have all the men he liked. He answered that he was
just having them. I said him that I intended that the men could easily
fall in love with him. And he answered that it is exactly what he will
do, now that he has the upper hand... I told you, he is a strange boy.
Anyway, in bed he is fantastic..."

"He said he is leaving soon? Did you ask him where he thinks to go?"

"Yes, he told me that he is undecided between Venice and Turin. I said
him that Venice is more beautiful. And he retorted that Turin is bigger.
So I said him that Rome is even bigger. He laughed and said that Turin
is more quiet. Then we changed subject."

"Venice or Turin... and why would go there? To do what?"

"I don't know, I didn't think to ask him."

A few days after his meeting with Raul, Angelo noticed that Marco had
started to do strange tours downtown. Then he saw him entering three
times in a gate near Porta Romana. The first time Marco seemed somewhat
hesitant, but the other two times he entered resolutely. Angelo asked
himself if in there, there was something like a male brothel, but he
never saw enter or come out from that gate anybody who could be the
physical type Marco liked to have sex with. Unless Marco suddenly
changed his preferences... Anyway there wasn't either the movement that
normally there is around a brothel. He couldn't understand. So he
thought to ask his father, who was lot more experienced than him.

As soon as he heard the address, nodded smiling: "There lives one of the
most skilled document forgers in the trade. I know him well."

"A forger? And of what kind of documents?"

"He is specialized in identity documents. Very skilled."

"Therefore... the boy wants to change identity."

"Possibly."

"And, it is possible to contact this guy to know what name he will enter
in the forged documents?"

"Oh, yes, it is just a matter of price, very likely."

"You know I can pay, if it's important."

"I'll call him and I'll announce him your visit, if you like. But be
prepared to fork out a lot. Will it not be better if beforehand you ask
an authorization of the notary?"

Angelo did report to the notary Marco's visits at that address. But he
decided not to tell him about the reason he just discovered. He would
have said that the money he had to spend to get the information was a
payment to send away the umpteenth lover of Marco. He invented an
identity using the name of a decorator having his studio in the same
building, a gay man, twenty nine years old, wealthy... to "convince" him
to leave Marco it would necessary to spend a good sum of money... Even
if the notary investigated, the name was on the telephone book... and
Angelo didn't think that the notary would push his investigation any
further than that, as he trusted Angelo...

He met the forger, he paid him well, and was told that the boy asked
documents with three different names. In exchange for some more money,
the forger gave him also the names. Angelo, of course, didn't tell the
notary... He was playing dirty, but he had no remorse. And he wanted to
be free to understand what the boy had in mind, before eventually to
intervene.

Yes, Angelo was really asking himself what Marco had in mind. Why forged
documents, and even three different identities? He had to discover it.
And now, Angelo was aware, it was no more a simple work problem. He had
Marco more and more at heart. For years now he was watching him,
following him, studying him. In some ways, even if they never met face
to face, even if they never spoke each other, they had grown up, so to
speak, together. Not only, but Angelo had to honestly admit to himself,
in all these years he gradually fell in love with Marco, he really was
in love with him. And that not just because Marco was really beautiful.
This could have contributed, without doubt, but the attraction was also
due to the fact that now Angelo knew Marco very well, possibly he was
the one in the world who knew Marco better and deeper. And yet, now he
couldn't grasp what the boy had in mind. He hoped that Marco was not
getting himself into a mess, now that he could be completely free.
Angelo decided he had to watch over Marco.

He continued his investigation with renewed attention. He soon
discovered that Marco had booked a one way flight to Egypt. Was he
planning to move there? It seemed him completely absurd and unlikely.
That could possibly be the way to come back with one of his new
identities. The boy flew from Milan to Rome, and from there to the
Cairo. Angelo decided to verify all the passengers lists coming from
Egypt. He was almost certain that Marco would reappear with one of his
fake names. He looked where in Italy the flight stopped coming from
Egypt - the possible airports were very few. Unless he planned to come
back by sea... but he judged that unlikely. So, he charged the detective
agencies of these towns to investigate the three fake names and the real
name on all the landing passengers lists. He hoped that Marco didn't
choose a more twisted and long way back, to cover his tracks. But Angelo
didn't see a reason for that, in fact the boy didn't suspect he was
being watched.

Angelo spent some days feeling tense and uncertain - he was afraid he
had lost contact with Marco.

But after the tenth days, the Rome agency reported him that a certain
Massimo Aldeschi landed and took the flight for Turin. The accounts
balanced. Raul told him that Marco planned to move to Venice or Turin.

Angelo immediately moved to the Piedmont capital, after notifying the
notary that he found again Marco's tracks, but of course without telling
him of his changed identity. To find a person in a town of one million
inhabitants, would not be easy, but not at all impossible. Angelo took a
room in the Albergo Bologna, not far from Porta Nuova, the central
station. Marco would necessarily book a hotel room, even if he decided
to go to a real estate agent to find an apartment. So, Angelo started
his investigation in both these two directions.

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Third Scene:

Some days had elapsed without any new revelations, then Angelo saw Marco
on the street. He stopped, his heart in his mouth, excited. Then he
began to follow him discretely, until he saw that he was entering in the
Turin Palace Hotel. The porter greeted him with deference - clearly
Marco stayed there. He was dressed with refined elegance, he had his
beautiful blond hair a little longer than usual and combed straight
back, he was cleanly shaven and walked with a fast and lose gait. He
wasn't so different from the usual, and yet Angelo could detect a faint
peculiar nuance. The 'Marco' he was used to following was more simple,
spontaneous, less stiff. For a brief moment a doubt wavered on the edge
of his mind, he thought he could have been mistaken, but immediately he
discarded this hypothesis.

When he returned to his hotel, he made a telephone call to the Turin
Palace. He told them he was waiting for three friends who were supposed
to arrive in Turin and they told him they would stay at that hotel - he
wanted to know if they already arrived. The clerk checked and answered
that Mister Testi and Mister Petrucci had not even booked, but that the
Count Aldeschi had arrived and was guest of their hotel. He asked Angelo
if he wanted to talk with him, but Angelo said no, thanked him and hung
up.

So then, Marco, with the identity of Massimo Aldeschi, was posing as a
Count. What was the purpose? Angelo wasn't able to understand the reason
for that. On the following days he continued in his shadowing. Working
alone, at times he lost track of Marco, but he knew where to find him
again.

He saw Marco going to three different estate agents, then going to the
Baloon second hand market then is some shops to buy old clothes and
pieces of junk. He saw him enter two different furniture shops... Then,
to several gay discos, parks and meeting places for gays. But he also
noticed that Marco never returned with a 'pickup'. Moreover, he saw that
he went to the different places, somewhat disguised... almost
unrecognizable for who didn't know him well as Angelo did.

Then he saw him going to a detective agency. He was afraid that Marco
noticed he was being shadowed, and that it was for this reason he went
there. In spite of this suspicion he continued to follow him. He soon
noticed that each evening he met with a different person, each time
pointing out a different person, and then he left. The other person
remained on the spot and started to shadow the pointed out person.

He thereby deduced that Marco was gathering information about these
persons. But why the fake identities and this disguising? Angelo
continued to gather elements, but remained at a complete loss as to the
reasons. He couldn't follow both the persons singled out by Marco and
Marco, but he was interested mainly in the boy.

One day he saw Marco taking possession of an apartment in Silvio Pellico
Street. All the apartments on that stairway were marked on the bells
plate just by a number. A few days later Marco was going to that
apartment, often bringing there some parcels, and Angelo saw a truck of
a furniture shop stopping there and unloading to the apartment number
seven.

With a casual air, he approached the men of the truck and asked: "Is
this the furniture for mister Valle?"

"No, for Mister Aldeschi, at the number seven."

"Ah, sorry. When do they bring mine, then?"

"Bah... I don't know..."

"Oh of course, I was just talking to myself..." Angelo said, leaving.

So, he resided there as Massimo. But he also noticed that, even though
Marco went often to Silvio Pellico Street apartment, continued to sleep
and to eat at the Turin Palace. But a few days later, after seeing him
enter in the Silvio Pellico apartment, he saw Marco coming out
completely transformed. His hair was combed with the part in the middle,
he wore glasses, he wore clothes too wide and baggy for him, even if of
a fair cut, and walked with a clumsy and modest gait. The transformation
was almost unbelievable. He really seemed another person, but even more,
a completely different personality.

He followed him to San Donato Street where he entered a house. Here too
furniture arrived, but this time second hand furniture. And Marco, in
the clothes of his new identity, brought here too several parcels. Then
he saw him putting his name on the bells plate - Beniamino Petrucci.

So, Marco was creating different personalities in different apartments.
Now it just remained to see where he would settle as Bruno Testi, and
what guise he would assume. He discovered this as he saw him again
coming out from the Silvio Pellico apartment. That boy was a real 'quick
change' artist. This time he had his hair just slightly ruffled in a mop
in front, the beard not shaved, a pair of old jeans, very tight, a
fuchsia T shirt, very fitting as well, and a big canary yellow rainproof
jacket. He was walking with the gait of an 'outskirts' tough boy, with a
cheeky air, his hands in his pockets, an extinguished cigarette hanging
from his lips. He followed him to Bellezia Street where he entered in an
old, dirty gate. Almost certainly he settled here as Bruno Testi... The
picture started to take shape, but Angelo still wasn't able to
understand the reason for all of it. It was as if he was putting on a
big fraud... but with the vast capital he had, it seemed highly
improbable.

So, Marco now had three new names, three new personalities, three new
addresses. And he played three parts. But for whom?

Little by little his questions were replaced by answers. He discovered
that as Massimo he had entered in contact with a certain Ugo Remondi,
bank clerk; as Beniamino with the agent Guglielmo Zaccone, and at last,
as Bruno he met with a teacher, Franco Canferla.

The Silvio Pellico home was his secret base where he went to change his
identities.

Angelo started to follow the strange pretense, the changing of clothes
and roles. He roughly followed a three day schedule, with some
variations, one day for each role. But at times he also changed all the
three roles in one day, or maintained the same role for several days.
But the basic rhythm remained that of three days. On the first day he
was the well shaved, refined and elegant Massimo, on the second day he
was the awkward Beniamino, and on the third day, the brazen Bruno,
unshaven and, probably, also not well washed...

Angelo thought that he simply was amusing himself to have three lovers
at the same time, impersonating with each a different role. He found
that funny, weird perhaps, but at least in part understandable. At last,
Marco was amusing himself, giving vent to his fantasies. But perhaps he
was amusing himself at the expenses of the three unaware lovers.

But then, Angelo started to notice how Bruno was staying at the
professor's home more and more often with several hustlers. This made
him suspicious and made him think that, after all, Marco's amusements
were not so innocent as he had hoped in the beginning. So Angelo started
to investigate also on the three lovers of Marco. Slowly, the picture
came to full light and Angelo was shaken, indignant, grieved - Marco was
using the three men, destroying in some ways their lives....

Right at this time, Marco was now twenty four and the shadowing in Turin
lasted now for almost two years, the notary notified him that the funds
were exhausted and that therefore he had to discontinue his job. But now
Angelo wanted to continue for his own sake. Moreover, the fact that that
job was over at last, gave now him much more freedom. Notwithstanding
all he was discovering about Marco, Angelo was more and more in love
with him. He had lived with him, even if Marco was unaware of that, for
a full six years!

On one of his trips to Milan, Angelo told his father that he decided to
move to Turin and to find a job there, because he met a girl he liked
and with whom he wanted to live. His father mildly tried to dissuade him
but then, as his son insisted and was determined, proposed that he open
a branch of their agency in Turin. Angelo willingly accepted. So he
looked for a small flat, a location for the offices, hired some
personnel and started to work in Turin. Especially in the first months,
organizing the new branch took much time from his shadowing of Marco,
but when the office started to work properly, and his assistants
competently to carry out the cases and to bring some cash in the agency,
he was free once again to dedicate himself almost full time to Marco.

Marco, besides portraying his three roles with his three lovers, at
times allowed himself to some extra adventures in the clothes of one of
the three personages casually. While one of the three victims, Ugo, was
the only one to correspond to the preferred type of Marco, the other two
were rather different - they were also fair of face and body, but
nothing exceptional, especially the teacher. But when Marco looked for
an adventure, he always picked up the types he liked most. It was this
type into which Angelo fitted perfectly. So at last, Angelo decided to
act openly and to try to be picked up by Marco.

He also decided to make himself seen when Marco was in the clothes of
Beniamino, therefore he searched for a flat close as possible to the San
Dalmazzo apartment. He was lucky, in fact in a few days he found a one
room flat just one block away, and moved there.

He studied the best way to be noticed - he had in mind several
solutions, but he discarded them one after the other. He had to find one
that gave him an almost certitude that Marco-Beniamino would pick him
up, and not vice versa. But he wasn't able to determine one.

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Fourth Scene:

One day, while he was running home because it started raining and he had
gone out to make purchases without an umbrella, it happened he made a
dramatic, nasty fall not far from Beniamino's house, just at the moment
he was coming out. Beniamino, on instinct, approached him to see if the
young man had hurt himself. Angelo, who didn't see him coming out from
his home, seeing somebody approaching him, lifted his head, with a still
dazed and pained expression from the bad fall, and his eyes met those of
Marco. He was so surprised, confused, excited, that for a long while he
just remained there on the pavement looking at him.

Then he averted his eyes, and Marco asked him: "Are you ok? Did you hurt
yourself?" and gave him a hand to gather his purchases spread on the
sidewalk.

"No, not too much, thank you. You are very kind... The downpour caught
me and I was running..." he said and than he had a lively idea, so
continued: "I live here close. But I remembered now that I went out
without taking my key... so I have to remain in the rain until my friend
comes back home... I was planning to go to the nearby bar, before
getting completely soaked..."

Beniamino was staring at him. Angelo read in his eyes a spark of
interest.

When they finished putting everything back in the plastic bags,
Beniamino said: "You are all wet... and dirty. You cannot possibly go to
the bar in this condition... I live just here, why don't you came
upstairs with me? Will your... friend be late?"

"Bah, I'm afraid so... at least a couple of hours. But don't bother
yourself, thank you. I'll just go to the bar..."

"No, no it's no bother. At my place you can dry, while you wait, and
clean up somewhat. Come, don't stand on ceremony."

"But you are perhaps busy..."

"Nothing important. I was just going to buy a magazine, but I'll get it
later. Will you came?"

"Thank you so much. You are really kind." Angelo said, and followed him.

Marco-Beniamino took him upstairs. "How about a sip to warm you up?"

"Yes, thank you. But I'm wetting all your floor..."

"No problem, it will dry. But, take off your clothes, I'll give you my
bath robe. You can rinse your jeans there in the tub, they are filthy.
Then we can put them to dry here on the radiator..."

"I wouldn't bother you so much, but if I keep them on me, I'm afraid I
may catch a chill..."

"Yes, right. Wait a moment, I'll go to get you a bath robe."

Angelo started to take off his drenched jumper, then unbuttoned his
shirt and pulled off that also. He was taking off his T shirt, when
Beniamino came back. Angelo noticed how his eyes instantly dropped to
linger on his chest that was becoming uncovered.

"I brought a towel also, take it..."

"Thank you, you are so kind." Angelo said taking the towel and starting
to rub his chest and shoulders. Beniamino didn't take his eyes off him,
not even for a moment. Angelo pretended not to be aware of it. He
slipped out of his shoes, then started to pull off his trousers.
Remaining now just with his underpants, he started to rub also his
abdomen and legs.

Beniamino, then, innocently, asked: "Also your boxers are wet?"

"Well, yes, somewhat, but it doesn't matter."

"If you want to take them off... I'm not scandalized for so little."

"It may seem silly to you, but I feel embarrassed to completely undress
in front of another person. They never saw me naked, even at home..."
Angelo answered putting on the bath robe.

"Have a seat, please." Beniamino said pointing at the free place near
him on the sofa.

"Thank you." Angelo said, but he sat in the armchair.

"We didn't even introduce ourselves. I am Beniamino Petrucci."

"Ah, and I am Angelo Adeodato. I never saw you before, and yet I live
just one block from here."

"Me neither. Your friend... lives with you?"

"No, I live alone. He is my guest just for a couple of days, he is from
out of town. When he cones to Turin, he always stays at my place."

"It is a great thing, friendship."

"Yes, sure, makes you feel less lonely."

"I too live here alone."

"Don't you have friends?"

"Some, downtown. Two or three. How old are you?"

"Twenty nine, almost. And you?"

"Twenty four. But I thought you were younger, at most twenty six."

"Do you think I'm old?"

"No, absolutely not. Moreover, what really counts is the interior age."

"Ah, the physical too counts. When one become old, decrepit, he for sure
has no more the freshness of the twenties..."

"Would you say you feel old! You are just five years older than me."

"No, no, not at all."

"Before, while you were changing, I noticed you have an handsome body.
Anything but old."

"I do some sports."

Marco was trying all the ways he knew to get to what surged in him.
Angelo was aware of that, but he didn't encourage nor discourage him. He
wanted the first clear step to come from Beniamino.

"Do you feel like listening to some music, Angelo?"

"Yes, sure. What kind do you have?"

"Symphonic... does it bother you?"

"No, on the contrary. Classic music at times makes me dream, makes me
relax."

"What kind of music do you listen at, usually?"

"A little of everything. It depends on my mood."

Beniamino stood up, searched in his records and at last he put on a
piece of Mahler. They listened to it for a while, in silence. Angelo
noticed that Marco had closed his eyes, almost as to enjoy the piece
even more. Marco was really beautiful, but in that moment seemed more
beautiful than ever. When he opened his eyes and saw that Angelo was
looking at him, he slightly blushed.

"Sorry, I let myself be taken by the music and so I left you alone..."

"No, it is beautiful to see how much you enjoy music. Do you know about
it?"

"Yes, I studied it for years. I play the violin."

"I would like to listen to you."

"Another time, possibly."

Angelo felt that that answer was an invitation to meet again: "Yes, with
pleasure." he answered.

Now Beniamino's eyes were lingering to gaze at that part of Angelo's
chest that was visible through the robe that had loosened a little.
Angelo felt the impulse to pull off the robe, to stand up, to kiss the
boy. But he decided that he wanted Marco to make the first move,
therefore remained still.

The music ended. Beniamino seemed to shiver and asked his guest if he
wanted some coffee or if he preferred some more liqueur. Angelo opted
for the coffee.

"Would you like to come to the kitchen while I prepare it?"

"Sure."

"How do you like your coffee?"

"Strong."

"Ahhh then, you too like the coffee to be warm, strong and sweet as they
say a man must be?"

"Yes, but of course," Angelo said.

A slightly tense atmosphere developed between the two youths, one that
is born when two desire the same thing, but when each one waits for the
other to clearly express it first. Neither seemed to want to take the
first step, but neither wanted to abandon the field. Each of them
discretely threw baits, but seemed not to catch those thrown by the
other.

"It's nice, here at your place." Angelo said.

"Well... it could be better. But, you know, living alone, you don't even
feel like making the ambience more welcoming."

"I understand you... it's like this way for me too."

"Don't you have a girl friend?" Beniamino asked.

"No... what is your work?" Angelo asked, almost to divert the
conversation to a less intimate field.

"I do concerts. Nothing yet really significant. Mainly in the province.
And you?"

"I work in an office."

Again silence fell. They went back to the living room.

Angelo looked at his watch: "My friend must be at home by now. I should
go..."

"Your clothes are still wet. Wait a little more, it's better..."

"No thank you, it doesn't matter..."

"We are more or less the same size. I'll lend you something of mine,
then. Wait a moment." Beniamino said and went to his room.

He came back with some clothes he handed to Angelo. He seemed hesitant,
but then thanked him, took off the robe and put on Beniamino's clothes.
Again his host looked at him, as soon as he pulled off the robe, almost
caressing his body with his eyes.

"When can I give them back to you? This evening?"

"No, I'm not at home, this evening, nor tomorrow. I'll give you my
telephone number, you can call when it's convenient for you."

"I don't have the telephone at home, they still haven't connected it.
I'll write you my address, if you give me a scrape of paper."

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Fifth Scene:

Angelo went back home. They would meet again, this was the important
thing. And Marco liked him, he had no doubt of that, even if he couldn't
be certain if he didn't try. Marco was the most desirable boy he never
met. The way Marco looked at him while he was changing, didn't leave him
any doubt about being desired by Marco. This thought aroused him. Now he
had just make certain not to let him escape. He had to make Marco fall
in love with him.

He phoned him two days after: "Hallo, Beniamino, it's Angelo speaking...
If you have some free time, I'll bring you back your clothes... Yes, I'm
here downstairs, at the bar... I'm coming up."

Marco was waiting for him at the door, a big smile imprinted on his
face: "Come in, please. I'm happy to meet you again."

"Were you afraid I would keep your clothes?" Angelo joked, "Thank you.
In this bag are your clothes. And here a small present for your
kindness." he said handing him a small parcel wrapped in nice paper.

"You didn't have to... What's it? Can I open it now?"

"Of course." Angelo smiled, sitting in the armchair.

Beniamino at once opened the parcel: "Oh! 'The Little Prince'! That's
wonderful..."

"Do you know it? I hope you don't already have it..."

"No, I read it some ten years ago. Or rather, my first real friend read
it to me. His name was Valerio. It is a splendid present, thank you."

Marco thumbed through it and lingered on the dedication: "from Angelo,
in memory of a raining day...'

"Are you still friends, you and Valerio?"

"No. We have been parted... I had very few friends. Valerio was the
first, then Herman. Also from him I've been parted. And then, after,
each time I convinced myself that I found a new friend, for one reason
or another, suddenly all was over... One must try to never tie to
anybody..."

"I don't agree. One has to search until he meets the right person."

"But meanwhile you suffer. Especially for Valerio, and then for Herman,
I really suffered."

"One cannot live without friends. Everybody needs somebody with whom to
be open, on whom to count, on whom to rely."

"To then be left alone and became aware that each time you are lonelier
than before?"

"It's a risk. But if you don't run risks, you'll never be able to find
the right person. That is somebody with whom you can be your real
yourself, you can open without fear, you can confide him your weak
points knowing that the other won't judge you, because he loves you."

"Do you have friends?"

"Not here, not yet. It's just a short time since I moved to Turin. But I
always had, and I'll find some here also."

"I... I would like to be your friend."

"We can try. Possibly we can became friends."

It seemed as if Marco was about saying something, but then Beniamino
took over: "Can you stay a while?"

"Willingly. Can you put on the music of the other day?"

"The Symphony # 4 in G major? It is still on the turn table..." The
music rose almost suddenly. "What do you do to pass your time?"
Beniamino asked.

"At times I go to the movies, or to the hill to stroll in the parks,
especially now that the fine weather is coming. I read. Or I go to the
pool to swim a while."

"I too like swimming. My friendship with Herman started right in a pool.
Herman was a really skilled swimmer."

"Not I, I just manage to swim."

"Would you feel like coming to the pool with me, some times?"

"Yes, sure. When?"

"The day after tomorrow?"

"Agreed."

"I can come to fetch you around 10 a.m. It is Sunday, you don't have to
work, right?"

"Sure. You ring my bell and I'll come downstairs immediately."

"Then, if you feel like, we can have lunch in a pizza restaurant... then
we can to have a walk on the Maddalena Hill, or at the Europa Park..."

"A nice program. It will be an agreeable Sunday."

"Yes, I hope so."

"Now I have to go. To Sunday, then."

"To Sunday. I'm happy I met you, do you know?"

"Me too. Bye bye..."

Angelo almost ran away from Marco's home, because he became aware that
he was aroused and, wearing rather fitting trousers, he didn't want
Marco to become aware of it. That boy, with just being near to him,
excited him very much. Angelo started to doubt he would have been able
to resist him for long time - if Marco didn't decide to make the first
move, he was afraid, he would have done it, in spite of his resolutions.

The Sunday at the pool, Angelo for the first time saw the almost naked
body of Marco. It excited him so much, that he had to hold his towel on
his lap to hide his erection, in fact his wet swimming suit in diagonal
blue and green stripes gave evidence of his state of arousal, as it was
a latex Speedo.

They were half lying on the edge of the pool when Marco said: "I know to
whom you resemble! Rob Lowe!"

"That's a nice compliment, thank you. But he has hair and eyes lighter
than mine."

"But not more beautiful. And you are here, real, in flesh."

"Did you see many of his movies?"

"Almost all. He is two years older than me, therefore three younger than
you. He is my favorite actor, he is beautiful and talented."

The day went on as planned. When they climbed the Maddalena Hill, they
strolled in the woods. Then lay on the fresh grass, side by side, on
their backs, looking at the luminous sky. And then Beniamino started to
talk about himself. Angelo was aware that, even if the plot of his life
was that invented for Beniamino, the sensations, the thoughts, the
emotions were those of Marco.

Marco talked for a long time, almost uninterruptedly, quietly. Angelo
listened at his beautiful, deep and warm voice, often vibrating with
emotion in recalling some of the sensations he felt, in telling things
he thought. Marco narrated all his sadness, like in a confession.

"But I'm bothering you with all my prattle."

"No, I like listening to you..." Angelo said sincerely.

"I told you things... of no interest."

"I'm deeply interested, instead. Now I know you somewhat better than
before. I feel you a little more friend than before."

"Thank you, you are kind."

"But it's true. I feel good here with you. But now it's starting to
chill. Would you came back with me?"

When they were in front of Angelo's house, he said: "Thank you for the
splendid day, Beniamino."

"May I come upstairs with you? I don't want to be alone yet."

"Certainly. Then you can see where I live."

When at home, Angelo could sense the tension of Marco. He understood
that he was trying to reveal him in some way his desire. He made Marco
sit on a chair, and he sat on the edge of his bed, in fact the apartment
was composed of a mini-kitchen, a bath, and the only real room was both
living room and bedroom at once.

"Beniamino, how about a beer?"

"Yes, thank you."

When he handed him the glass, their hands brushed and at once their eyes
met.

"Angelo, I wanted to tell you... thanks for today." Marco concluded
evidently changing his words.

Angelo crouched in front of him and put his hands on Marco's knees - he
felt the boy shuddering. Their eyes didn't divert, like magnetized.

With a serious expression, Angelo said: "I felt so good with you. I feel
good, with you."

Beniamino put, on a very light caress, his free hand on one of Angelo's
hands that still rested light but firm on his thighs.

"You really want to be my friend?"

"Yes, really," Angelo almost whispered.

Beniamino put down his beer glass and, bending lightly forward, towards
Angelo, put his now free hand on his cheek: "My intimate friend?" he
asked.

"Yes..."

"Do you understand what I'm really saying?"

"Yes..." Angelo answered and, bent his head, lightly kissed Beniamino's
hand still lying on his hand. With the other hand he slipped between
Marco's legs and felt his turgidity, and in a whisper said: "You are
aroused…"

"Yes."

"For me?"

"Yes, for you."

Then Angelo stood up in front of the other who still was sitting and
said: "I too... for you..." and took his wrist and guided his hand on
his fly.

Marco, at first, brushed it lightly, then pressed it with his palm.
Then, with feverish moves, unbuttoned Angelo's trousers, freed his
member, drew nearer with his head and, without a word, took it between
his lips. Angelo, for a while, let him do it, caressing his hair,
feeling terribly moved.

Then, his voice hoarse, he murmured: "Let's undress, Beniamino... let's
go to my bed..."

The two youths undressed each other slowly, looking at each other, while
they were feeling that the room temperature was suddenly increasing.
They let their clothes fall on the floor, in a disordered pile. Then,
standing one in front of the other, they caressed the other's body,
quivering with desire, until they intertwined and united in a long kiss,
slowly gliding onto the bed. Their senses went wild in a no more
controllable crescendo. Their bodies searched each other with a frenzy
too long a time restrained, their mutual desire finally revealed itself
in full freedom.

And like the water restrained by a levee accumulates in slow, lazy and
calm spirals, but as soon as a leak opens, it floods out with energy and
speed, and flows until the basin is empty, then resumes to flow once
again quietly, so was for them. Opened the door of the mutual desire,
this revealed itself with impetuosity until it reached its peak, then a
sweet calm returned, so that they remained embraced to tenderly caress
each other.

Angelo was overwhelmed by the emotion. That event so long dreamed of, so
long desired, so long awaited, had finally become reality. It exceeded
any fantasy, any prevision. Now he could understand the enthusiasm of
Matteo... he could understand how one could loose his mind for Marco.
The only thing that somewhat attenuated his enthusiasm, was the
awareness of the use that the boy was making of his talents, of his
ability to fascinate. Angelo, still caressing his wonderful body, became
aware how easy it was to become his slave, mainly for the way Marco was
able to make of it a tool of more than refined pleasure. Did Marco
pretend passion with him also, or did he really feel it? Would Marco try
to manipulate him, to use him as he used the three other men? Of course
Angelo would not have allowed that to happen, but he hoped it was not
that way, because he felt he really was in love with that boy with
renewed ardor, in spite of knowing all his bad secrets.

Marco looked at him: "Angelo, it has been so wonderful! From the very
first moment I saw you, when you fell there, in the rain, I did nothing
but desire this moment."

"Who knows how many men you have had. You can make anybody lose his head
over you, do you know that?"

"I can't deny it. But you are something different, after all these
years."

"One always says so, when there is the novelty of the discover..."

"No. I feel you can be at the level of Valerio, of Herman. And possibly
even more, because then we were just kids, but now, both you and I, are
adults. If you want, it could become something really more serious."

"We still know each other so little."

"Then, we have to know each other better."

"Yes. The most beautiful thing would be to arrive at a point where there
are no more secrets between each other. Each of us keeps something
hidden from the others, some more, some less. It is a kind of safety
exit, a defense to be able to run away when you need to, to defend,
protect himself. But until it is so, any relationship, be it friendship
or sex, is doomed to end. To open oneself to each other, is not easy. To
disarm oneself completely, is not without pain. To be completely in the
other's hands requires a total trust that it is not easy to get. Just
love can give this force, true love."

"I... I feel I would like to have this strength."

"Don't confuse passion, desire, a crush and even falling in love at
first sight, with the real love."

"And how can you recognize love?"

"You can recognize it little by little, living it, and then you can make
it grow, unveiling you to the other, compromising you."

"But if then the other, seeing your true self, knowing you in deepness,
refuses you? If he doesn't like as you really are?"

"It means that the other is not really in love with you. Therefore, you
have little to lose. I would like to be loved for what I am, not for
what I seem to be. Otherwise the other doesn't love me, but just the
image of me that he made, or that I showed to him. But I want to be
loved for what I really am."

"Yes, I think you are right."

"Anyway, don't you think it is too early to talk about love, between us?
I like you, you like me. Sex between us has been very beautiful. There
is a clear reciprocal liking..."

"I already have all the gratifying sex I could desire. But real friends,
not a single one. And therefore not even a lover. I think I would like
very much you to be my real friend, to become my lover."

"To how many other men did you say that?"

"Yes, it is true, I already said these words, I can't deny it. But... or
the other didn't accept or I.... I wasn't sincere. At times I said so
just to ensnare the other, to bend him to my desire, to amuse myself."

"That's not honest, you know it. And who knows that you are not doing it
with me too?"

"No. I feel you are different. I really would like something beautiful,
special, starting between us."

"Yes, I too would like that."

"Do you want we to try, then?"

"You and I, Beniamino?" Angelo asked almost emphasizing the fake name,
almost to remind Marco how much their relation was starting on a lie.

Marco seemed to have caught the implicit accusation contained in the
name. An accusation that he didn't think the other was able to really
make, but that he felt was just and undeniable.

He thought it over for a while, than said to Angelo: "Let's try,
anyway."

"All right. But without illusions... not to be disappointed afterwards."

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Sixth Scene:

They parted after making a date for two days later. But already on the
following day, Angelo found a note in his post box. There was written:
"I miss you. I'm longing for tomorrow to come. I do nothing but think of
you. Out first encounter has been so wonderful, and I would like the
next to be more and more beautiful, until we will be no more able to be
without the other. See you tomorrow."

Angelo noticed that there was no signature. Perhaps Marco didn't feel
like ending that sincere message with a fake name. If it really was so,
it was a good sign.

They met several times, they made love, talked, went to walk, to the
movies, to the pool, to the restaurant together. But Angelo knew that
Marco continued to see Ugo, Guglielmo and Franco as before. At the same
time he was also aware that Marco was dedicating more and more time to
him, and less and less to the other three men. Even if now Angelo didn't
follow him like before, as now that they met it would have been almost
impossible to shadow him without being noticed, at other times still
shadowed him. Angelo decided to quicken the tempo, to go on the
offensive, to get Marco on the ropes to help him to find again his true
self, to really and completely open to him.

So, after a couple of months they met, one day, and just after making
love, Angelo said to him: "I still know so little about you. Between our
encounters, what do you do? How do you spend your days when you are not
with me? I often ask myself that, I would like to know, to be able to
imagine you, to feel you near when we are not together. You always tell
me what you think, what you feel... but never what you do."

"I never asked you what you do..."

"That's true, but you just have to ask me. I would like to be an open
book to you. But you... I feel you have secrets."

"Yes, it is true. It is not easy to talk about them. They could be
things you couldn't understand, that I'm ashamed to tell you."

"You cannot know if I can understand or not, until you tell me."

"It is not that easy."

"Is there perhaps another man in your life? Are you perhaps in love with
another man?"

"No, I'm not in love with any other, but... It is not easy to explain
you…"

"Try me."

"See, I... I have a relationship with my agent." Marco said visibly ill
at ease, gauging with anxiety Angelo's reaction.

"Are you in love with him?"

"No, not at all. He is physically agreeable, nothing more."

"Did he force you going in bed with him to give you a job?"

"He did that with almost all the boys he liked. He forced the others.
But with me... I wanted it."

"Why do you say he did so with the other boys? He doesn't any more?"

"No. I made him fall in love with me, then I imposed on him my
conditions. Now he comes in bed just with me. Now he does all I ask him
to do. He will do anything in order not to lose me."

"And you like that? It makes you feel important, powerful?"

"I liked it, yes. You see, in all my life I had been directed,
controlled, conditioned by my father. So I looked for a man who was
treating the others like his puppets, and made him become my puppet."

"You wanted a revenge. But does this give you pleasure?"

"It did give me pleasure. No, not anymore, now."

"Why don't you leave him, then?"

"It is not easy. The puppeteer is tied to the ropes as much as the
puppet. I despise that man almost as I despised my father. But now,
after all, I'm starting to despise myself also, because I put myself at
their same level... Aren't you disgusted with me, now?"

"No. I just pity that man. I would not be in his place."

"But you are different. You have lot more value."

"And what do you know? Each man has value. And he, for what you tell me,
is in love with you..."

"To not lose me he would be ready to do anything. He wants just possess
me, and he is convinced he has succeeded in that."

"You too want to own me?"

"No. With you I am in love."

"But you carry out a double life."

"It's true. Do you want me to leave him?"

"I don't demand of you anything. I would just like to give you my love
and to see you happy. But how can one be happy, serene, when he uses
another?"

"He will not want to lose me, he will do all he can... If he knew I am
with you, he will try to stop me as my father did when he knew about
Valerio or Herman."

"But your father died of cirrhosis of the liver, you told me. Don't you
think he paid for what he did to you?"

"This is another lie I told you. He died of cancer."

"It doesn't make so much difference. But why this lie?"

"I told you many. It is three years I live on lies. How can I come out
of that? It is not easy to bury the past under a stone."

"It is not question of burying the past under stones - they will crumble
down and the past will come to the light and will become an obstacle
between us."

"But then? Did I dig my grave with my own hands?"

"But you can still climb out of it."

"I will need a lot of strength... and of time. Will you have the
patience to wait?"

"I hope so. I'll try."

"Do you love me?"

"Yes."

"But why do you love me?"

"Possibly because I know you more than you could guess."

"Why didn't I met you before? Before making all those mistakes? Now all
has become so more difficult. I could simply leave it all... and run
away with you."

"Run away? And where? You could never run away from your self."

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Last scene:

Marco had entered a new phase. Little by little he told everything about
his relation with Guglielmo. But he still said nothing about the two
other men, or about his true identity. Angelo was waiting...

To make things go faster, Angelo decided to bring about a small
incident. He lay in wait in a bar of Silvio Pellico Street, not far from
the secret base of Marco. When from behind the window curtain he saw him
arrive in the clothes of Beniamino, he waited - in a short while, he
knew, he would see him coming out with the identity of one of the two
other personages. In fact, after less than one hour, Marco came out in
the guise of Bruno Testi, the hustler.

Then Angelo left the bar, followed him for a couple of blocks, then
accelerated his pace and, reached him, called him, taking his arm from
his back and smiling: "Hi, Beniamino! My friend!"

Marco turned back and for a moment he seemed a prey of panic. But then
he recovered his control and said with a brazen air: "Look, you are
wrong, Handsome! My name is Bruno."

"Oh... sorry! But you resemble a friend of mine so much..."

"That's an old line. What do you want from me?"

Angelo acted his part: "Nothing. Beniamino is a dear friend, very close,
and..."

"Why are you staring at me so?"

"You have the same warm voice, the same handsome body..."

"And so you want to fuck with me?"

"No. To me my friend is enough."

"Ah, a faithful faggot! But your boyfriend, is he faithful to you?"

"No..."

"So then, why don't you cheat at him with me? I'm cheap, I'm not an
expensive hustler, with handsome people like you."

"No, forget it. Sorry for the mistake." Angelo said going away
hurriedly.

Angelo thought that he would have liked to go in bed with Marco-Bruno.
Who knows if he made love in a different way? He liked the sweet and
gentle Beniamino, but was also attracted by the brazen Bruno. And the
refined Massimo... Marco was all them three, therefore he wanted to
bring back his Marco. When the boy did finally decide to abandon all
these three roles, when he came back being simply and fully Marco, he
could have a refined, gentle and brazen lover at the same time. Angelo
wished that day would come soon.

That same evening, Angelo went up to Beniamino's apartment. When he
opened the door, welcomed Angelo with an hesitant smile.

"I didn't expect you, Angelo."

"I saw the light was on... did I do wrong to come? If you want, I can go
home..."

"No! No, please come in."

"Are you possibly waiting for somebody?"

"No. Just Guglielmo knows my address, but he never comes here. Come, I'm
pleased to see you."

"Do you have free time?"

"I was to meet Guglielmo after supper, but I call him and postpone. I
prefer being with you. I'll find an excuse."

"As you like."

"No, please, don't say it like that. I don't like this expression. If we
both want it, it is all right. You don't have to do as I like."

"Then you don't either."

"I would like very much to spend this evening with you. And you?"

"I too, very much. I'd like you to spend all the nights with me, you
know that..."

Beniamino phoned to Guglielmo at his office, telling him that a friend
came to see him, therefore he intended to go out with him... Then he
said to Angelo: "Would you have dinner here, with me?"

"Yes... but if Guglielmo comes?"

"He won't come, I'm sure. Come to the kitchen, I'll start to prepare
it."

"I wanted to tell you something that happened to me today..." Angelo
then said, and told him of his encounter in Silvio Pellico Street.

Marco listened somewhat embarrassed, but he hid it rather well.

"He was a hustler?"

"So he said."

"What type was he? Did you like him? Did he resemble to me very much?"

"Yes, he resembled you incredibly. He was a beautiful type, very sexy."

"Did you like him?"

"Yes, very much."

"Why didn't you go with him?"

"I was afraid I would like him too much."

"I have no right being jealous, you know that. But really, I'm happy you
didn't go with that hustler. And then, you didn't even have to tell me."

"But I would like it if there was no secret between us, Beniamino."
Angelo answered caressing his cheek.

Marco started to cry, silently.

Angelo didn't expect that. "What's up, Beniamino? What's wrong now?"

"It is that I... I... my name is not Beniamino, and not even Petrucci...
I'm terribly ashamed... I'm afraid I'll lose you, if I tell you
everything... but I can't go on like this... not with you!"

"Possibly it is a risk. But who doesn't run risks, doesn't really
live..."

"But what if you leave me then? I... I don't want to lose you too!"

"But you don't have me yet really. And you will not, as long as you are
not your self."

"But what if the real me... if you don't like it?"

"We don't know - let's try."

Marco was visibly torn and tortured. He was trembling. Then he said:
"Then, come with me."

"Where?"

"To... Pellico Street."

"Where I met that hustler?"

"Yes, not far from there."

"Do you want to meet him you too? I don't understand..." Angelo said,
feeling overjoyed but continuing to act. Possibly he was near the end,
possibly he was about to find once more the real Marco...

"Yes, you'll meet Bruno, and also Massimo... And, I hope, also Marco.
Come."

"Who are they?"

"I'll introduce them to you. Come." the young man repeated, almost in a
praying tone.

END OF ACT FIVE

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CONTINUES IN CHAPTER 6

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