Date: Tue, 30 Sep 2003 16:40:12 +0000
From: Brink Allen <lonely_hearts_2001@hotmail.com>
Subject: Rain Falling Outside My Window Ch 2 (Revised)

All the disclaimer from the first section still applies. If you don't like
this sort of material or are not allowed to views such materials in your
area leave immediately.

This is my second attempt at writing a story for this archive. The first
appears to have been removed now was a 100% true story of my first love and
sexual experience. It seemed to leave all of the readers asking for more in
my writing to express more of the story. I hope that everyone enjoys this
one more and will provide polite comments for improvements. Oh and not to
disappoint but the sex among males doesn't come in great detail for a few
more chapters. If anyone out there would be interested I could definetly use
the services of an editor/confidant to assist with the story.  The question
is, is anyone interested in reading more of this
story?

Chapter 3 Vacation in the Keys (Continuation)


The only thing that was odd or unusual about the week is that every once on
a while the mystery guy would appear. One night I walked into a small bar
close to the beach and noticed that he was there dancing with another guy.
Well that was a relief he was gay and cute and there dancing the night away
WITH SOMEONE ELSE. This only posed two problems for me, the first being I
was leaving the next morning and the second being I was not really up for a
one-night stand. I had long since decided that that type of relationship
would do nothing but make me feel bad about myself. Once during the night he
bumped into me on the dance floor and smiled, when I looked around again he
was gone. I couldn't figure out why this guy kept disappearing on me. At one
point when I first saw him I had a passing thought that he looked familiar
but couldn't place where I might have seen him before. I decided it was
wishful thinking on my part and continued my partying. After all it is my
last night in Key West. Tomorrow morning at 9:00 A.M., I am set to board a
plane returning to the big city of Gainesville. I think I made it back to my
room about 4 the next morning and was surprised to see that Lillian was
there and still awake. I sensed that she was bothered by something. I
quickly searched my mind to see what if anything I might have done and come
up with only one thing. I had not spent anytime with her all week other than
meeting for dinners. Funny thing I am so perceptive after the fact. Lillian
sat there looking at me with an evil eye that would kill as I attempted to
apologize for my inconsiderate behavior. After several minutes of picking at
her and apologizing she started to come around. We decided it was time to
get a little sleep so we could make our flight in the morning.


Chapter 4 Returning to reality The present aka April 1995

We boarded the airplane and departed for Gainesville at 9:45 A.M. I sat in
my window seat and watched as the plane rose into the air and my paradise
moved out of sight behind me. In a way I was truly sad to be leaving, I had
realized how much I continued to neglect Lillian, and I had had an amazing
time which wouldn't' have been possible with out her. She had set this whole
trip up and saw to it that I would get some rest and take some pressure off.
IT was exactly what I needed. I relaxed and partied like a teenager all week
long.I was also very disappointed that I hadn't had the guts to meet the
gorgeous hunk that kept appearing and disappearing. What is it with me and
guys at the beach anyway. I go to the beach to relaz and rejuvinate my soul
and find myself tortured by the presence of a beautiful man I woudl love to
meet. It woudl seem that I am still very self conscience about my looks even
after all the hard work I put in to get to where I am with my pohysical
apperance. I guess deep down inside I will always be that 245 pound guy.
Makes sense though since I spent more of my life as that person than I have
as the toned person I am today.

Any way it is time to return to reality though. I went from the airport
straight home after a long good bye and promises for dinner later in the
week. I was happy to be home. I spent about 45 minutes unpacking and
catching up on mail. I decided I would stop by the office and see what I
had missed and check out emails. I drove the half mile to my office, walked
in and was greeted by Marie's frowning face. I guessed from the look on her
face things had not gone well while I was gone. We talked for a few minutes
and agreed to meet in the conference room in 30 minutes to discuss
priorities for the upcoming week.I spent the 30 minutes before our meeting
wading through the junk in my mail box and email inbox. With a sigh I
realized it was goign to take forever to catch up and it was tiem to meet
Marie.

What a week this was going to be. IT was only 13 days until April 15, the
tax deadline for the nation. I had a lot of work to do to catch up for my
week off. I met Marie in the conference room and we started off with a
conversation about vacation. Marie asked what we did and if I met any nice
guys and things like that. I told her all about the vacation, really there
isn't that much to tell about the trip we partied and slept and went to the
beach. We moved on to talking about work priorities. Before we were
finished I had about 60 new tax returns to gather information for and
complete before the deadline in addition to the incomplete returns I
already had in my office. I also had to deal with being two weeks away from
final exams and final projects. I am very lucky in the fact that for Marie
school is work and I am allowed to spend work time studying. After setting
priorities I debated on getting started or going home to relax and report
home bright and early tomorrow. I decided on the later and headed out
telling Marie I would see her in the morning and get started. She smiled
and told me to have a good evening.

I decided that I would stop off at the video store and grab some Chinese
before heading back to my little apartment to relax and get a good nights
rest. It was such a nice night I decided that I would walk the two blocks
from the office to the video store. I walked in the video store and was
greeted by a smiling face with the usual "Welcome to Blockbuster" I did the
usual drill start on one end and move to the other. As I moved around to the
back wall this guy walked past me and I accidentally bumped into him almost
knocking him over. As I regained my balance I looked up and to my surprise
it was him, The guy from Key West. I stood there in shock, I must have
stared way too long because he started laughing at me. I was so embarrassed
at that point by my reaction I just turned and walked away. He yelled after
me "Dude I am sorry, I didn't mean anything by it". I just kept walking
hoping to avoid further embarrassment, I sighed in relief as I managed to
make it to the door and exit the building with out further incident.

As I turned to enter the parking lot to retrieve my car I Was thinking, why
had I reacted so badly? I already knew that this guy was gay, or had at
least seen enough at the bar in Key West to suppose that he would be. I also
thought he was reasonably attractive, so why was I so embarrassed, and why
did I leave the store in such a panic? I was completely lost in thought as I
started the car and backed out of the drive way. Just as I was putting the
car in gear to head out of the parking lot I looked up and standing in the
driveway waving a videotape at me was the guy from Key West, the guy I had
bumped into in the video store. His face was read and he had sweat streaking
down his cheeks from running to catch up with me. He approached my car and I
rolled the window down, he said "Hi, you left this at the video store" I was
surprised to see that it was the video I had been holding in my hand when I
bumped into him. I had completely forgotten about it with my hasty exit and
all.My first thought was to smile kindly and get the hell out of there.
Afterall I had been seeing this guy all over the keys while there and now
the video store and finally he was chasing me down in the parkign lot where
I worked. What kind of freak is this. Only problem was that deep down inside
somethign told me to trust him and stop the car for a minute. As I said I
roleld the window down and he began to explain that he was sorry for
embarassing me in the video store and hoped that I would take the video and
watch it as his apology.

Well I sat there thinking for a few minutes and soemthing really weird
happened. All of a sudden I had this burst of courage from out of nowhere. I
stuck my hand out the window and introduced myself to him. Brink Allen, and
you are? He replied, Bradley Wisham! WE both dispensed with the usual nice
to meet you and so forth. Then it got silent again for a moment. Then came
another burst of courage. I was abotu to go pick up some chinese food after
renting the video and go to my apartment. I asked Bradley if he would like
to join me. He said yes and told me that his friends called him Brad, the
only person that called him Bradley was his grandmother. Then with the
classic line, I like how it sounds when you call me Bradley so I guess it
isn't just my grandmother anymore.  So we drove aroudn the block and got
Chinese food and then he followed me to my apartment. Needles to say I was
nervous as hell. Where had the courage come from to get me this far and
would it return to get me through dinner and a movie with this gorgeous
stranger? As I pulled into my assigned parking place I prayed for a bolt of
lightning to strike. It never did so I got out and pointed him to the guest
parkign and waited as he walked up to my spot on the curb. HE gave me this
sweet little smile and said, shall we?


This seems like as good a place as any to end this second installment. I
hope to hear from you all with comments and suggestions for improvement. I
am not above a rewrite if necessary to make the story better. All emails
can be directed to Lonely_Hearts_2001@hotmail.com. I look forward to
hearing from anyne and everyone. One request though, be polite, be honest,
Remember I am only human.