Date: Sun, 13 Aug 2000 14:46:27 +1000
From: A.J. <mindmelded@hotmail.com>
Subject: Story submission - Rocky Road IV

Rocky Road IV

Disclaimer Warning: You know that if you are under the legal age of consent
to read such erotic material as this, or if you are offended by the subject
matter, you shouldn't be reading this, so DO NOT READ any further. This is
a Fictional story and any relation to any real person is purely
Coincidental - yadda, yadda, yadda, you know the drill. All rights
reserved. This is not to be used anywhere or reproduced without the
author's prior permission. See Part I, II  & III of Rocky Road and previous
work in extremely prolific authors' section under AJAY. Now kick back,
enjoy, and let me know if you like it.

Online friendships happen so fast because there is a certain amount of
anonymity that allows you to be free with your thoughts, feelings and
desires in a far more intimate way than any real life encounter would allow
in short term. Therefore you sometimes say what you would only dare think
of in the privacy of your own bedroom, and then only to yourself for fear
of being overheard. But when you find that special online friend, he
becomes your confidante to your innermost desires. It becomes like a
therapy, a mutual sharing of those hidden secrets, so that a catharsis
occurs and a rebirth into a new being, or so it seemed with me.

"Hiya Rocky!" I say as I see his name appear online. But I was greeted with
silence.

"Not chatting to me today Rocky?" Pause. "You're not sulking are you Rocky?"

"Howdy AJ!" came the eventual reply, "Sorry was on the phone!"

"You had me worried there for a while Rocky." I sighed in relief.

"Sorry! I was on the phone organising a volleyball team! Are you intersted
in playing at all?"

"I don't have a car so I can't get around, and there's only one kind ball I
like to play with these days."

"Oh! Not overly active then?"

"I've never been good at sports, particularly team and ball sports. I
prefer something a little more individualised, like wrestling. I was always
the last one chosen for team sports at school, and as much as I'd love to
play volleyball with young studs like you, its just not my style."

"Hey, I know that feeling, getting picked last and all!"

"Why ever would you be picked last? I'd have you first every time."

"Thanks, but it wasn't always that way! Childhood has it's fair share of
bad karma!"

"Comes with being gay I guess. Its not that I was ever out at high school
or anything, but I still felt certain isolation. I despise cricket and was
always lousy at footy. But I wasn't a scrawny, fragile kid either and I
could handle myself well in a scrape. I like watching Australian Rules
Football now even though I didn't think much of it then. But it's the boys
in their shorts that get me going, mainly these days. The atmosphere at the
game is good, too."

"I can definitely agree with that one! I like the description of aerial
ping pong for it though!"

"I certainly follow the bouncing balls... ummm. I mean, ball."

"Hhmmm! You're fun!"

"Thanks Rocky. You're not so bad yourself either dude."

"So how was your weekend? Get up to much?"

"Get UP to much? Now there's a proposition."

"Who said it was a proposition? So did you???"

"Friday night I went to the Football game. Tried to see Gladiator with a
couple from work on Saturday night but it was all booked out so we pigged
out at the Pancake parlor instead. Sunday I played around on the net in the
morning and then visited my brother in the arvo and watched vids. That was
pretty much it."

"Wish I could have done that! I vegged out pretty much on Saturday and
Sunday.  Took my bro to the brand-name factory outlet place, then walked
the furbies on Sunday!"

"Are you out to your family Rocky? Does your brother know you're gay?"

"Not really. Dad found some magazines one time because he was snooping
where he shouldn't have been! So I gather he knows. My boyfriend's family
knows and is cool, even to the extent of visiting his folks and sleeping
together. As for my brother, he's always on about some girl or the other,
so I'm not sure if he's worked it out yet. My Mum keeps making references
to grand-kids, so I hope my bro breeds! I've said it enough times that I
don't want them, so I think they'll get the hint!

"Have you ever had a girlfriend Rocky?"

"Many many moons ago! About 10 years ago!"

"Ewwwwww girlie germs! But you've given your parents hope, y'see. They're
going, 'Rocky had that lovely girl about ten years ago, he just hasn't
found the right one yet.' They're burning the torch of eternal hope for
you. I've never had a girl, at any stage. Never even pretended to have one.
It's funny because through my adolescence and college years I always played
it straight but never went as far as to get a girl to keep up the image. I
guess the only one I was really fooling was myself. All those years wasted
pretending when I could have just been myself and been a much happier person."

"Teenage dating isn't all its cracked up to be. I didn't even tongue kiss
back then in Year 8! Hahahaha! I have never even felt a breast, which most
girls find very amusing! I much prefer feeling a guy up! I think I have
always known I liked guys, but thought trying the girlfriend thing may have
helped. Anyway, I had a big crush on my PE teacher from Second semester of
Year 8 until I finished Year 12! Man was he a sexy beast! I'd still go him
if I had the chance! I often think about the last week of school, and how,
if I handled it differently, I could have had some fun with that teacher!"

"Yeah. Luckily I went to an all-boys school so the pressure wasnt as great
to do the dating thing."

"But it could have been equally as fun! Don't suppose it was a real
nurturing environment for gays though."

"No way! I was so far back in the closet at school, I had to use binoculars
just to perve on the studs that strutted around in the locker room."

"That's a great picture you've painted! So was there many studs for a
perving?"

"Too many. It was heaven and hell combined. I had a couple of them hit on
me too. Looking back on it, I should have taken them up on their offers
instead of playing it straight. At the time I didn't know if these guys
were for real, or just trying to flush out the gay boys. Now I wish I
wasn't so intent on playing Mr Straight-Guy to have taken them up on their
offer. Hindsight is a wonderful thing."

"Man I wish I had been hit on by some of the studs at my school! Teachers
or students! It could have been a lot of fun in hindsight! I actually had
one of my Dad's cousins son's suck me off once when I was in primary
school! Now he's married with children!"

"Funny how guys like to play and then go back to their wives and kids and
say how bad gays are."

"Yeah! Tell me about it. The 'I'm not gay, I'm married, but I like taking
it up the ass/sucking off guys' scenario. It's so hypocritical! Man, I have
drank too much! Have to go for a wee walk!"

"Okay, can I hold it for you while you take a wee?" I ask micheviously.

"If you want!"

"Wouldn't your boy friend get jealous of someone else holding your dick?"

"Not unless he was there to see it!"

"Don't tempt me!" I grin.

"I am tempting, it's my nature!"

"Guess you must be tempting in so many ways, Rocky. Your boyfriend is lucky
to have someone like you."

"Yeah, and I'm lucky to have him!"

"Yep." I say with a sigh.

"Hey, you'll get someone! Or I may end up single! Stranger things have
happened!"

"Its ok Rocky. It just seems of late that everyone I know is with someone
and everyone's telling me how great their partner is and how life wouldn't
be the same without them. I just feel so alone in a crowded room. As the
song says "One is the loneliest number that you'll ever know". It kind of
gets me down from time to time but I'll survive. I've been alone enough now
to be used to it."

"I know where you're coming from, and know how you feel, and no matter what
anyone says, you still feel the same! Hey if you need a platonic hug at
all, let me know."

"A platonic hug?"

"Yeah, a nice big strong hug to help you feel happier!"

"Thanks for the offer, Rocky. You're a good friend."

"Anytime matey!"

"But if you did that I might end up crying on your shoulder and it wouldn't
be good for my macho image."

"Not to worry! I have absorbent shoulders that have been used like that
many a time!"

"Y'know Rocky, I really am still a bit in shellshock that a stud like you
wants to be friends with an older dude like me. To a certain extent I guess
I'm a little scared of it. That's why I knocked you back when you said you
wanted to drop around the other day. I need a little time for the amazement
to fade and the nerve to get the courage to face you. Does that make sense
or does it sound crazy? I mean I know we're just friends and its not a
relationship or anything like that but, I don't know how to explain it."

"It's okay, I understand. I actually went and met a guy for the first time
yesterday that I met on ICQ, and I had butterflies etc, so I know what you
mean. Hey, I don't bite! But I can bite if you want! I have more of a scary
exterior that keeps people at bay, but is all soft and cuddly underneath!
Hey do you have a mobile phone? I'd like to hear your voice at least one
day, although meeting in real life would be good!"

"I'm only fun like this on the net. It gives me the freedom to say whatever
I like. You'll hardly get boo out of me in real life or on the phone. I'm
not much of a talker."

"At least I'd hear your voice then!"

"Only if you caught me live. I don't have my own voice on message bank."

"Oh! Do you have one of them ones that says to leave the phone number kind
of message?"

"Actually I have Mr Spock telling you to leave a message."

"Oh dear, trekism!"

"Sorry. My blood has always been green, so its hard to shake off the
shackles of my past."

"You're a crack up!"

"And they said the wrinkle cream would work!"

"Are you always this serious?"

"In real life, I'm as funny as a funeral director at a slayer fest."

"I find that very hard to believe! How can the real life persona and the
online persona be that different? I'm sure I could bring some of the online
persona out into the real life persona!"

"You're a star, Rocky. If you turn out to be a falling star, I'm gonna
whoop your ass good, boy!"

"I'm shining brightly on your world at the moment hey? Now where would my
star fall to? Fell free to "whoop my ass" if I let you down!"

"You're seriously breaking through all my lines of defence here, Mister.
You've got all thrusters firing, Rocky."

"Didn't know I was penetrating any shields! That's about as trekky as I
get, by the way!"

"What time do you work till tonight?"

"Whenever I want to go!"

"You can clock on and off whenever you want?"

"Yep!  Why? Do you want me to go?"

"No, not at all. It's just that I've got to go now, and I didn't wanna be
the one to walk out. Can I call you tonight on your mobile and we can
arrange to meet up or something?"

"I'll look forward to it."

"Okay Rocky, speak to you tonight. Bye for now."

If everything worked out right, at the very least we'd be having phone sex
tonight or maybe more if we met up. Part of me could hardly wait, but part
of me said it was wrong to do because Rocky was already taken. What should
I do? I was torn between my friendship with this guy and my libido. Only
time would tell what would happen next.

To be continued.