Date: Wed, 01 Jul 1998 11:04:50 +1200
From: nivision@manawatu.gen.nz
Subject: Solitude

				 Solitude

       (Based on the author's personal experiences in New Zealand..)

Part 1.

Maybe it was a crazy decision to live in such a remote place, in an old
mill house without power, running water or telephone. It met his desperate
wish to escape from the restraints of landladies, the constant after hours
contacts that his work generated, and the noise and bustle of the town. It
certainly provided the peace and quiet that he sought, where he felt free
from other peoples expectations and could enjoy his own life-style.

Tony turned off the Puketapu road onto an unsealed road, rattled over a
short wooden bridge with many loose planks needing major repairs, which
spanned a small stream, to follow a winding road up a narrow valley. The
road quickly deteriorated to a track, passing through frequent stretches of
bush, often with a cliff on one side and the stream below it on the
other. He turned off the track through a break in the bush and parked the
car beside the back door of a small cottage. The sun had not yet set but
the surrounding bush gave a gloomy brooding impression to the old wooden
house with it's many windows.

Tony unlocked the door and passed through a scullery into a large lounge,
where he immediately lit a Tilly kerosene lamp to dispel the gloom. He
turned on a portable battery powered radio and began to prepare a meal on a
Primus in the scullery. It was a warm evening and the heat from the lamp
and the Primus persuaded Tony to remove his clothes to feel more
comfortable. He wore only his briefs and sandals. He would have liked to
have opened the windows but he knew that would be an invasion of insects,
including mosquitoes, attracted by the light. He hung his clothes on a rail
within a recess covered by a curtain and made up the double bed. He liked
tidiness and preferred routines, but not at the expense of freedom.

As he ate his baked beans and tomato sandwiches, he again wondered if
living alone was such a great idea. He longed for the company of someone
with interests like his own, someone who would accept his sexuality and
independent spirit. He had collected the latest issue of express from his
post box that morning and, as he drank his tea, he gave it a cursory
glance. He spent more time looking more closely at the 'Contacts' pages
wondering if he should be less cautious and reply to a likely inquirer. He
read many of the articles but continued to return to the lists of men
seeking men. He was surprised to hear the late news being broadcast at 10,
for the paper had captured his evening.

He went outside to stand beneath the trees to pee. The stillness of the
night was overwhelming. The occasional rustle of leaves disturbed the
silence. A couple of Moreporks called in the distance, periodically
answering each other, repeating their calls. He was startled by the barking
of a nearby possum and the screech of another. He shook his penis and
stroked it lovingly, thinking of the pleasure it often provided, wishing it
could be shared with another. He removed his briefs and let the cool air
caress his groin and body, taking in deep breathes as he stretched his
limbs and torso. He had a wonderful feeling of freedom.

It was a warm night and he could not sleep. He again thought about his
present circumstances . It seemed pointless, bereft of any worthwhile
direction and involvement with others. He had tried the bar scene, had
joined a social club and from time to time had taken a girl out for an
evening's entertainment. He felt no inclination to persevere with any of
these activities, soon finding them boring or irritating. His natural
reserve made it difficult for him to make friends. He felt lonely, lost and
despondent as he acknowledged the paucity of any worthwhile interests in
his life. He was feeling depressed when he fell asleep.

Tony pushed back the curtains allowing the morning sun to stream into the
bedroom and to dispel any inclination to return to bed. He looked out on
the large lawn bordered by Rhododendrons covered in bloom. He opened the
windows to hear the Tuis and Bellbirds calling from the many large trees in
the surrounding bush. He could hear the murmur of the stream which flowed
along two sides of the lawn below steep banks. Naked, Tony slowly walked
across the lawn sensing the heavy dew beneath his feet and the sharp
coolness of the early morning air. He stretched his arms skyward, danced
energetically, then lay on the lawn and rolled down it's gentle slope to
enjoy the dew on his body. He followed a pathway with steps that descended
to the stream and quickly dived into a deep dark pool of still water. As he
came to the surface he shouted and laughed, expressing the uninhibited joy
that he felt. He left the water to take a plastic soap container from
behind a rock and vigorously lathered his body, soaping his penis and
scrotum frequently. He dived into the water and swam to a large flat rock
on which he lay with his arms and legs spread-eagle, his moist body
glistening in the sunlight. He dived into the pool and after swimming a few
lengths, climbed the pathway to the lawn and the house.

Tony remained naked as he ate his breakfast, then cleaned and tidied the
house. He then carried his laundry down to the stream to wash. For a few
minutes he stood entranced by the magic of this place. Before him a deep
dark pool. some 50 metres long, spanned the width of the stream. The banks
on each side were covered with sedges, flax bushes and with over hanging
Tut and Konini trees, creating shady areas, their leaves fluttering in the
light breeze. The swiftly flowing stream chattered over the rocks and
boulders of the short stretch of rapids, with the water sparkling in the
sunlight. There were several small whirl pools and others in which debris
was trapped by the backwash. Several large flat boulders edged the pool.
He waded across to a large flat stone on which he placed the laundry. There
was another in the center of the stream, close to another large stone which
caused a large volume of water to surge through the narrow channel between
them, creating a strong sluice.  Tony dipped each garment into the water,
soaped it, and energetically rubbed and beat it against the flat stone. He
then rinsed each article by holding it in the strong current between the
rocks. A handkerchief escaped into the dark pool and Tony quickly dived in
to retrieve it. The sun was now much warmer and several Fantails darted
around him, frequently resting briefly on rocks, twittering as they pursued
the insects close to the water. They often flew close to Tony and he
stopped to watch their aerobatics. He returned to the cottage where he hung
the wet laundry on lines which he had strung between the house and a nearby
tree. He enjoyed this primitive method of washing, with the added advantage
of also being naked.

It was a gloriously sunny day, hot and still, with no one to disturb
him. He felt he needed some protection from the relentless sun so wore an
open shirt,. brief silk shorts and an old straw hat, as he went to mow the
lawn. The push mower was stored in the outdoor toilet with it's long
drop. There was not a breath of wind and the lawn seemed to have stretched
as he repeatedly traversed it. Soon he felt his shirt and shorts sticking
to his body and decided that only the pool would provide relief that he so
desperately needed As soon as the lawn was finished, he stripped, leaving
his clothes at the top of the path, quickly descended to the pool and dived
in. He swam it's short length several times before deciding to dry off in
the sun. He lay spread-eagle on the flat rock, first on his back and then
prone, until he again felt warm. He slipped into the narrow channel where
the water was flowing with considerable force. With outstretched arms
across the face of each rock, he could resist the pressure of the
water. The sensation was breathtaking as the pounding cold water cascaded
over his body. He dipped his head beneath the flow and lowered his torso
onto the gravel. He came up gasping. He turned over to lie on his back and
again dropped his head, causing the water to cascade over his chest and
stomach making his nipples harden. His cock and scrotum were being pulled
by the force of the water and he could feel the exquisite sensations it was
generating. Soon he was fully erect, and as the pressure of the water
continued to pound his cock, he could feel a rapidly growing orgasm. His
chest expanded as he took deep breaths, projecting his nipples even
more. He tensed as waves of increasing pleasure surge through his torso and
legs. He screamed as he climaxed, ejaculating several times. Unable to
move, he continued to resist the force of the water. Slowly he recovered
and then climbed back onto the rock and lay exhausted, spread-eagled in the
sun with his cock still erect. He closed his eyes and soaked in the warmth
from the rock and the sun.

Tony sensed he was not alone.  He opened his eyes to see a tall young man
standing on the shore. His open shirt displayed a strongly muscled clean
chest, and his brief shorts revealed muscular legs and a very prominent
crotch. He wore heavy boots and carried a haversack.

"I apologise for intruding on your privacy. I am following this stream to
it's source and did not expect to find anyone here. This is one of the few
rivers in this area which I have not explored. I did not expect to disturb
anyone".

Tony sat up, leaning on his elbows.

"Don't apologise, after all the public is entitled to have access to all
waterways. It is so isolated that I never expect to meet anyone here.  You
look hot and tired, why don't you have a rest ."
 
The young man sat on one of the flatter rocks.

"This is such a beautiful place, and I guess that is a great swimming hole"

" It is ideal on a day like today. It will refresh you so why don't you
have a swim?"

The guy immediately slipped off his shirt, dropped his shorts and briefs
and removed his boots. Tony noticed that he was well tanned and that there
was no sign of paleness from swimming briefs.

"I can see that you too like being naked. It is the only way to swim", Tony
said as he dived into the pool, was immediately followed by the guy. As he
surfaced he said,

"I am Tony, what is your name?"

"Philip", he replied as they each trod water.

"You look weary. Try a water massage it will help your aching
muscles". Tony showed Philip how to lie in the in the current between the
rocks and then dived back into the pool. After swimming several lengths he
returned to the rock on which he had been lying.

"That was great", said Philip as he sat on a smooth boulder.

"I can see you very much enjoyed it".

Philip grinned, but was not at all concerned about his erection.

Philip and Tony lay in the sun talking about the pleasures of tramping,
discovering that they both very much enjoyed outdoor living, nudity and the
streams and bush. They were so engrossed in each other's interests that
they did not notice the passing time. Tony began to feel the coolness of
the late afternoon and invited Philip to have tea with him. He accepted and
began to put on his clothes.

"There's no need to dress. We are alone and I remain naked as long as
possible", Tony said.

Philip put his clothes into his haversack and carrying his boots, followed
Tony up the path to the lawn. When he saw the cottage, the blaze of colour
of the Rhododendrons and the expansive lawn, his surprise and delight was
clear as he stood admiring the view.

"This is a beautiful place, do you live here?" he asked.

"I think so too. I have been living here for the past three months. I was
convinced that I had found the perfect home. At the weekends it is
terrific, but during the week it is such a drag in to work every day that I
am having second thoughts".  "I can see that you have few home comforts but
that adds to the charm of the place. I have often imagined how wonderful it
could be to live like this. Don't you find it lonely?"

Tony did not answer but Philip noticed a look of sadness and felt that his
silence confirmed his conviction.

"This is wonderful, just magic, the ideal place for a naked gamble". He
laughed, "I am green with envy, it is idyllic".

"I think so. It is my escape from civilisation where I can do as I like",
Tony replied as he showed him into the lounge. "Make yourself at home while
I prepare a meal."

Philip sat beside the coffee table on which lay a copy of the gay
newspaper, express. Tony noticed that he was looking through the contacts
pages as he set the table.

"I also subscribe to the express", said Philip. "I find it much more
informative than the Out magazine".

"So do I., but I have never had the courage to reply to any of those
advertisements, even though many are quite appealing".

"I did once, but the guy I met and I did not have much in common, except an
incessant need for sex, and more than that is needed in a true
friendship. How long have you been out?"

"I'm not. I am very much a closeted queen". Tony returned to the scullery
to bring through the food.

They lingered over the meal while Tony described many of the interesting
features of the area and his experiences living in the cottage. Philip was
very interested and asked many questions, fascinated by the attractions and
laughing with Tony as he told him about amusing situations arising from the
lack of facilities.

"Where do you work?" asked Philip.

"I am a sales clerk at Consolidated Motors", Tony replied.

An expression of sudden recognition came from Philip.

"I thought I had seen you before. I am a storeman in the Parts Division of
Consolidated Motors. Don't you work in the front office? Don't worry I wont
tell anyone that I know you are gay"

"I would appreciate that, for I am sure that my prospects with the Company
would be affected if anyone knew".

"It has made no difference for me, for most of my work mates know, even
though I do get some ribbing at times. These days most people are not much
concerned about what other peoples sexual preferences might be".

"Why then am I so uptight?" asked Tony irritated by Philip's nonchalance.

"Maybe you have not accepted your own sexuality, and though you claim
freedom to live your own life-style, this does not include sex".

"So it is no problem for you?"

"It used to be, but when I was at college I had a mate who was always
wanting it, and he taught me how to enjoy sex without any hassles. Of
course we slept together whenever we got an opportunity".

"I have never had a friend like that and have never slept with another
man".

Philip looked hard at him, clearly not believing what he had heard.

"I find that had to believe, you must be all of 26, and still a virgin? You
are having me on".

Tony's silence confirmed Philip's realisation that this guy was telling him
the truth and that he had very little, if any, experience of gay
sex. Philip told him about his early experiences and of his continuing
search for a partner. Tony asked few questions but listened intently,
realising how much he had missed. He knew that he had the same feelings as
Philip for men.

Philip checked his watch and, realising how late it was, indicated that he
had to leave if he was to hitch a ride back to town.

"Do you have to leave? You are welcome to stay the night, even though the
couch is not very comfortable".

"I would appreciate that for it is getting dark. Would you mind if I shared
your bed? I promise to keep to my side", he added with a grin.

Tony looked confused and he was not sure how to reply.

"Why not. It will be my first time sharing with a guy and I like you. Maybe
it is time that I acknowledged for myself much that you have said tonight,
and appreciate more what it means to be gay."

As he stood. he added, "I need a piss before bed and it's under the
trees. Do you want to join me?".

Philip followed Tony outside where they dropped their briefs, and caused
their golden streams to mingle. Morepork calls were the only sound to break
the silence of the night. Tony checked the locks and turned out the
lamps. On entering the bedroom, he found Philip already in bed He removed
his shorts and shirt and slipped under the blankets, feeling anxious about
this new situation. Neither made any move towards the other but lay on his
back talking quietly about the magic of the night. With the continuing
silence from Philip, Tony realised that he was asleep and blew out the
candle. He wondered about the experiences of the day as he lay listening to
the occasional distant barking of possums. He could not sleep and heard the
scratching claws of possums as they clambered over the roof. A might bang,
followed by a thud, shattered the silence. Philip leapt up.

"My God! what's that. There is someone trying to get in!"

"It's Okay, it is only copulating possums on the roof. They are noisy
bastards. Listen to them".

There was the sound of running feet on the roof followed by hissing, ear
piercing screams and more thuds. Tony could feel the bed shaking.

"It's alright Philip, lie down, they will take off shortly".

His hand touched Philip's trembling arm. He sat up and, without a second
thought, drew him close, then lay down again with Philip held in his arms.

"The old man must be having problems getting it up", Philip said, giggling
nervously. "They sure are noisy fuckers".

He snuggled close and was soon asleep. Tony realised that he was enjoying
the feel of Philip's naked flesh against his own and stroked his back,
appreciating his velvet skin. His contented sigh was the last thing he
remembered.

Tony awoke to find Philip still in his arms and a hand on his erection. He
lay still sensing the rise and fall of Philip's chest against his own. He
stroked a smooth forearm and then his chest, lingering on his
nipples. Philip's eyes opened smiling encouragement and reassurance.

"I like awakening in the arms of a lover", he said. Tony blushed but
continued to caress him. For some time they lay quietly together, each
caressing the other. Tony noticed that Philip's knees were bending and then
as he straightened his legs, the bedclothes were pushed to the end of the
bed, leaving them both uncovered. Philip grasped Tony's hand that was now
caressing his stomach and carried it to his crotch and fully erect
cock. For the first time Tony held another man's cock. He could feel
pulsations of increasing excitement as Philip lifted his hips thrusting his
cock through Tony's grip. Tony made no effort to help and was surprised
when Philip moaned and ejaculated over his hand. Philip carried Tony's hand
to his mouth and tasted the strange saltiness of his cum. He liked it and
licked off every drop.

"It really tastes divine. I can drink cum any day", he said.

Tony lay back very much aware that his raging erection was due to Philip's
continuing caresses. He closed his eyes, overwhelmed by the intense
feelings that now surged through all his senses. He felt Philip move and
gasped when his foreskin was retracted and a warm wetness enveloped his
cock. It was being massaged by a tongue. He opened his eyes to see his cock
in Philip's mouth. It felt terrific, and a tremor surged through his body
as he felt the intense sensation as Philip's tongue massaged it's length,
stroked the head, and circled the corona. The intensity increased even
more, when a hand grasped his scrotum and fondled his balls and his other
hand stroked the inside of his thighs. An orgasm of an intensity beyond
control was swelling incessantly. Tony's hips heaved and, with a shout, he
climaxed, ejaculating again and again. The intensity of the orgasm did nor
subside and he shot again. . Philip did not let go, even though cum was
spilling from his mouth, but hung on until his cock wilted. For some time
Philip lay beside Tony, then he took him in his arms and kissed him,
forcing his tongue between Tony's teeth. He tasted a salty cream, not at
all unpleasant. He inserted his tongue into Philip's mouth, to taste more
of what he now realised was his cum. He knew that by this act he was truly
liberated. A feeling of extraordinary delight swept through him as he
seized Philip passionately, returning his kiss as he embraced him.

"Man that was wonderful. What's more, I feel that I have now thrown off the
shackles of doubt and uncertainty and realise that gay sex is terrific It
was you who unlocked the chains".

There were tears in Tony's eyes as Philip held him close.

"I like you. You have a great body, a nice cock and balls, and together we
could have lots of good sex, if that is what you want. We might even begin
to find each other attractive in other ways.".

Tony was realising that communication had other dimensions. He had been
introduced to a new meaning for 'body language'. Philip was introducing him
to a language with nuances which he still had to learn, but he realised
that Philip was a competent tutor. Yet he felt vulnerable. Philip was a
stranger but he was behaving as if he was an intimate friend, Doubt and
anxieties inhibited his responses.

"You are not comfortable with this scene, are you?" said Philip.

"Remember, it's my first time", Tony replied. "Give me time. I need to know
you better".

"You are right of course. I shouldn't come on so strongly. It's been a long
time since it was my first time and I had to learn to relax before I
enjoyed sex fully". He lay on his back still holding Tony's hand. "I would
like to know you better. I hope we might become real mates".

"I would like to think that we might", Tony replied. "Will you stay with me
today".

"Sure. The stream will always be there and there will other opportunities
to discover it's upper reaches", Philip replied.  .  They lay together
talking until Tony suggested that they freshen up in the stream. He bounded
off the bed followed by Philip. His heart was full of joy as he danced
across the dewy lawn. He dropped and rolled towards the path to the pool,
lawn clippings soon covered his wet body. The next thing he knew was Philip
lying on top of him. Together they rolled across the lawn each trying to
control the other. Exhausted, Tony lay still with Philip on top of him,
holding his spread arms against the ground. He pressed his crotch against
Tony's and began to squirm and slide against him. They were soon very much
aroused as their cocks crashed against each other. Tony shot first and he
felt his cum between their stomachs. Philip followed soon after and,
exhausted, he rolled on to his back. They were now both covered with grass
clippings mixed with cum. Laughing they raced down to the pool, dived in
and came up gasping from the shock of the cold water. Tony swam over to
Philip and embraced him.

"I am so glad it was this stream that you decided to follow this
weekend. It provided me with the most important liberator of all. Thank
you".

Philip kissed Tony and held him close. "I have a feeling that you could be
just as important for me. Neither of us really want a solitary life".

Philip set the table while Tony made toast on a Primus and boiled the
kettle on another as they prepared breakfast. The tea and toast was
replenished many times, not so much due to hearty appetites, but neither
wanted the enjoyment of the situation to end. The sharing of thoughts and
information continued to leave feelings of a growing companionship, and of
a developing special relationship. Reluctantly, Tony began to stack the
crockery and took them to the scullery sink. He washed the dishes while
Philip dried them as Philip talked about his years when living in
Auckland. He was describing features in Ponsonby Road.

"There is a map in express, I can show you where they are located".

Tony placed the dishes in a cupboard, then he followed Philip into the
lounge to stand beside him, as he spread the 'Street Wise' pages on the
table. As he leant forward to take a closer look, he placed an arm across
Philip's shoulders. Immediately he felt Philip's arm around his waist. Tony
asked him many questions and then turned and looked at him. He did not
speak as he drew Philip towards him and gently kissed his lips. He held
Philip tightly, and found Philip returning his kiss, equally
sincerely. Neither of them seemed to want it to end.

"So you do like me?", asked Philip.

"I think I have shown you. It is not only your body that I admire, for
though I have known you for less than 24 hours, I find you very appealing".

"I am feeling much the same about you", Philip replied. "I hope the way we
feel about each other will grow".

"So do I. We must see more of each other for I would like this relationship
to develop".

They spent most of the day lying on a rug on the lawn in the shade of a
large tree. Tony had placed a six-pack of cider in the stream to cool, to
quench their thirst, due as much to their endless discussion than to the
heat. Several times they swam in the pool, and shared the large flat rock
to dry in the sun. Together they prepared lunch, then cleaned and tidied
the cottage.. It was sharing tasks, their nakedness, and exchanging
intimate information about themselves as they lay on the lawn, that was
cementing their friendship.

It was over tea that Philip reminded Tony that he had to get home as he
started work at 8 in the morning.

"If I stay here tonight, it will mean that you will have to leave early to
get me to work on time. It would be better if you drove me in to town
tonight. Can you manage it?"

"Sure that's no problem. I would also be prepared to drive you in early
tomorrow morning".

"I would rather return tonight. Then it would be easier if you stayed with
me, tonight", said Philip. Tony thought about it before replying,

"I would like that. I would like to share your bed in your home. That will
mean a lot to me".

Tony packed his office clothes and toilet gear into an overnight bag, made
sure that the all the windows were secure, while Philip tidied the
rooms. It was dark by the time they drove down the track, having to stop
several times to allow the possums, dazzled by the headlights, to move from
the track into the bush. Philip referred to the unsafe condition of the
bridge as they rattled across it. When they reached town he indicated the
direction of his home, and soon Tony drew up in front of a small
house. Philip told him to pull into the carport. He unlocked the door
leading from it, inviting Tony to enter. Carrying his bag, Tony entered a
small hall and Philip indicated the bedroom where he could leave it. It was
a spacious room with a queen size bed. His attention was immediately drawn
to several large prints on the walls. They were of naked males engaged in a
variety of sexual activities. He wanted to take a closer look but decided
he could do this later.

Philip was placing mugs of coffee on a low table when Tony entered the
lounge. It was a cheery room with bright coloured easy chairs and a
settee. There was a pile of gay magazines on the coffee table and several
gay videos on a shelf below the television and a VCR. Everything was neat
and tidy.

"I appreciate you bringing me home", said Philip. "I hoped you would offer,
for I wanted to introduce you to my home. I would like you to feel welcome
here, as I did when I was with you. Do make yourself at home. The toilet
and the bathroom are next to the bedroom and the kitchen is through here",
he said indicating a door behind him.

"You have a nice home. You must be very happy here".

"Not always. I spend too much time on my own. Gay videos and magazines are
not an adequate alternative to good company".

"I know how you feel. It has been the same for me. I see you have quite a
collection to help to make you feel randy.".

"Take a few home with you", said Philip as he took several from the pile of
magazines and gave them to Tony. He gave the top one a cursory look and was
surprised to see so many had illustrations of explicit sex. He would have
liked to have had a closer look but put them aside.

"These look very interesting. No doubt they will also add to my education".

"There is little value in an education that doesn't include practise",
Philip pointedly replied.

"Maybe there will be opportunities sooner than you expect", said Tony as he
drained his coffee.

Tony followed Philip into the bedroom where he turned back the sheet. "On
which side do you prefer to sleep?"

"What difference will it make? Having you beside me is sufficient choice
meantime". Tony replied.

Philip stood in front of Tony. "Let me", he quietly said as he undid his
shirt buttons, released his belt and inzipped his fly, and as Tony stepped
out of his trousers, Philip slowly removed his shirt and pulled down his
briefs. Tony stood naked before him.

"You are beautiful. Will you hold me in you arms again tonight? Last night
was special. Never before have I felt such comfort from a guy".

He kissed his chest. Tony drew him close pressing his lips against
Philip's.

"I was surprised that I wanted to hold you at first, but as you responded
so affectionately, it felt right and I wanted you to stay in my arms
forever. I would like to hold you like that again".

Philip soon stripped and they quickly got between the sheets. Immediately
Tony took Philip in his arms. Philip turned off the bedside lamp and
returned to the welcoming arms of Tony.  .

Part 2.

It was always a drag adjusting to the work routines and tackling the pile
of forms awaiting processing. Tony was having more difficulty than usual
concentrating on loading the data onto his computer. Frequently he thought
about the weekend and Philip. John had to speak to him twice before he got
his attention.

"Richard wants to see you. He tells me there is a special job that has to
be done urgently".

Tony left the Sales Department office and went along the corridor to a door
labelled Sales Manager. He knocked and entered and was told by the
secretary to go through.

A new model was to be launched and the General Manager wanted an analysis
of sales figures for the past year, immediately. Tony was asked to drop
everything and to concentrate on getting the information to Richard before
Wednesday. He returned to his desk realising that this would be a
time-consuming task, so he quickly rescheduled all other work to later in
the week. He had no time to think about anything else and at the end of the
day, realised that Philip and the weekend were no longer a distraction.

He was weary when he left for home and the journey seemed to be more of a
hassle than ever. He lingered over his tea as he looked through several of
Philip's magazine. They were mind boggling, disclosing dimensions of male
to male sexuality about which he had no idea. It was riveting reading and
he realised that he had been aroused by the explicit pictures and articles.
He dropped his trousers and briefs and masturbated until he came. It felt
good but did not compare with the sex he had enjoyed with Philip. He felt
so tired that he soon went to bed and quickly fell asleep.

The sales analysis was a massive task and by midday, he realised that he
would have to work late if it was to be completed by the following day. He
was called to the phone to hear Philip's voice.

"Will you stay for tea tonight?", he asked. "I missed you so much last
night".

"Sorry, but I have to work late. I am on a job that has to be completed
before tomorrow".

"Well, can you call in tonight when you finish? I'm sure you could benefit
from a cup of coffee and a sandwich".

"Thanks, you are right , but it may be quite late".

"No matter how late, I will be expecting you", he said as he hung up.

Tony was thrilled by the unexpected invitation. He very much wanted to see
Philip again, even though he realised he had been with him a couple of days
before. He forced himself to concentrate on the analysis, accepting no
further distractions, barely noticing the staff departing at 5.  It was 9
before he had completed the job. He leant back feeling very satisfied and
relieved that it was finished. He quickly left the office, giving a wave to
the security guard as he got in to his car. He could feel the thrill of
seeing Philip again as he quickly drove to his home. He realised he was
crazy, this guy had really got to him, he was constantly on his mind and he
wanted to be with him all the time. He had only known him for 'five
minutes' so why was he so besotted? What had he done to him?

As soon as the car drew in to the carport, Philip was standing at the open
door. He did not even have time to shut the door before he took Tony in his
arms and hugged him and kissed him passionately.

"We are both crazy, but I feel I want you all the time", said Philip.

Tony laughed. "I can't believe it, for I feel the same. I have had problems
concentrating on my job ever since you called me. What have you done to
me?. I have never felt like this before about another man".

"You might as well accept it. You are madly in love with me and I feel the
same about you", Philip replied. "We will take that coffee and sandwich to
bed with us. You can drink your coffee and eat your sandwich while I nibble
you". He began to undress Tony even though they were still in the hall and
the door was wide open. Tony kicked it shut before also attending to
Philip's shirt, belt and zipper. They left their clothes on the hall floor
as, naked, they fell on the bed, wrapped in each other's arms. It was Tony
who set the pace, much to Philip's surprise. There was no gentle foreplay,
no tantalising teasing or gentle persuasion. He ravished Philip's body,
wrapping his arms and legs around him as he passionately kissed him,
thrusting his tongue deep into his mouth. Philip responded equally
passionately. Suddenly Tony broke free and took Philip's rigid cock in his
mouth, sucking it vigorously, his tongue pushing back his foreskin and
stroking the glans rapidly. Philip's body tensed as he climaxed, filling
Tony's mouth with his juice until it spilled onto his balls. Philip then
seized Tony's cock and beat it equally enthusiastically until he
exploded. Exhausted they collapsed together.

"I like my cream before my coffee" whispered Tony. "Yours is delicious. I
expect seconds after I have had my first cup".

Philip went to the kitchen and returned with a couple of large ham
sandwiches and mugs of coffee, one of which he handed to Tony, then
together they leant against the bed-head eating and drinking.

"That was marvellous", said Philip. "I can see you want me as much as I
need you. That was lust more than love, but you must have a strong liking
for me, for you to take me like that".

"I have. I now realise that I love you. It is much more than a sexual
attraction, for I have this constant wish to be always with you. Hell
Philip, what have you done to me?"

"I have intentionally been very circumspect, done little to encourage you,
except to accept the growing affection towards me which I can see. You
don't seem to be aware of the warmth which you have been showing
me. Tonight you have shown how you really feel about me. especially when
you went down on me. I have hoped that the strength of your feelings would
make you take the initiative. Now we can show each other that we have no
reservations and can enjoy sex to the full".

It was past midnight before they slept, exhausted from a night of
unrestrained sex.

It was raining when they awoke and Philip realised that he had
overslept. He leapt out of bed and into the shower followed by Tony.

"I will drive you to work", said Tony as they towelled themselves. A quick
breakfast and a fast drive enabled Philip to reach work on time. Tony
decided that he had time to visit the supermarket to replenish his store of
groceries. He intended to invite Philip to spend the weekend with him at
the cottage, so added many luxuries, more six packs and items that he would
not otherwise have bought for himself, but which he thought Philip might
like.

It was raining when he returned to work. He was the first to arrive in the
office. He immediately checked the work he had done the night before and
placed a copy of the report in a plastic folder. He then went to Richard's
office and handed him the report. Richard carefully examined each page
while asking him a few questions.

"Well done, This is first class", he said. "This will be a great help at
today's meeting of the Board. I might be asking you to undertake more
analyses, for you seem to be very good at it. Thank you".

Tony was feeling pleased as he thought about Richard's appreciation. On
returning to his desk he took the now larger pile of returns awaiting
processing.

"You look like the cat that has just stolen the cream", said John. "I think
I can see why. Is that a love bite I can see on your neck?"

His loud guffaw caused the other two clerks who shared the office to seek
the reason for his hilarity.

"Tony boy is in love, and there is evidence of a night of passion", he told
the others. They all grinned while Tony blushed profusely.

"Who is she, or is it a secret?" asked one of them.

"I guess it wont be a secret for long, so you might as well know. His name
is Philip. I am gay".

There was a stunned silence until Jim said,

"That's great. I hope you will both very happy. Bring Philip with you to
the next office party. I am sure we would all like to meet him".

"Thank you, I would like to", Tony replied as he returned to his work. He
had not known that there was evidence of Philip's passion on his neck and
wondered where else there might be similar indications of his
enthusiasm. He did not care. He was proud of that proof of his love.

It was still raining when Tony crossed the yard to the cafeteria for
lunch. Jim joined him at his table where he sat alone.

"I very much appreciated your reply to John's smart-alec comment this
morning. I have friends who are gay and those with partners are very happy
couples. I hope you also have found someone with whom to share your life,
and be equally happy".

Tony's eyes were moist. "Thank you. I hope so too. I very much appreciate
your support. Admitting my sexuality was very much an act of bravado, but I
was angry at John's remarks".

"I can assure you many of us felt the same", Jim replied.

Soon after lunch a loud clap of thunder startled everyone. It was followed
by a spectacular electrical storm. Then the heavens opened and a heavy
downpour pounded on the office roof for more than an hour. The drains could
not cope with the deluge, and the lawns and drive were soon flooded. By
late afternoon the downpour had become a drizzle and by the time Tony left
for home, there was only a mist. This made visibility difficult and made it
necessary for him to use the wind screen wipers. The roads were still
flooded in places, so he drove very carefully along the Puketapu road. He
slowed down and was about to turn on to the Old Mill road, when he saw that
it was covered with water. He parked the car and walked on to the road to
check the depth of the water. He could see that it would be impossible for
him to get through it. Then he saw that the bridge was missing. He looked
down stream and saw several planks caught in the branches of bushes, which
were now well above the surface of the stream, even though it was still in
full flood. It must have been a lot higher for them to have been caught in
the bushes. Tony thought about the cottage and wondered whether it had
escaped, and if his possessions had also been swept away. Feeling quite
worried, he turned the car and headed back to town.  Philip opened the door
to his knock, a look of surprise on his face.

"Man you look as if something serious has happened, what's wrong?", he
asked showing his concern.

"The stream is a torrent and has swept away the bridge. There is no way I
can get to the cottage tonight."

"Bloody hell, you are in a pickle. So all you have is what you stand up
in?" he said frowning. Then with a shrug, "no sweat, every problem always
provides opportunities and for us they could be really advantageous. I can
see that you are worried sick, but it may not be too much of a problem. It
means that you and I now have a very good reason for living together".

"I would appreciate it if it is okay with you, until I find other digs".

"Of course it's okay. I am having tea, but there is still some food left,
so come in and join me".

Tony was much relieved as he followed Philip in to the kitchen and sat at
the table. He described the scene at the bridge.

"I hope your magazines are safe. I am wondering whether the cottage is
still there. Once the stream has dropped, I will have to get to it and
collect whatever of my belongings are still there."

They were washing the dishes when Tony said,

"How many love bites did you give me last night? John, at the office,
noticed this one on my neck and soon had the rest of the staff wanting to
know who is my lover. Well now they all know that I am gay. I came out to
them and, surprise, surprise, Jim congratulated me and asked me to bring
you along to the next office party"

"Wow! Do they know that it is me?"

Tony nodded. "I want everyone to know that I love you. I hope you don't
mind and that you feel the same about me".

"I do, I do", he replied, but Tony sensed there was some reservation.

"I'm sorry if what I have done is premature, and you wanted it to be a
secret. Anyway, we are now both out of our closets. Believe me, I am sure
that you are fast becoming the most important person in my life. This
opportunity to live together will help us to decide if we both feel the
same".

Philip embraced Tony. "Man, with all my heart. I want our love for each
other to grow. The flood has made it possible for us to find out whether
the way we feel about each other is for real, or will change".

They sat in the lounge discussing Tony's situation and what needed to be
done.

"I'll have to buy more clothes and essentials, like a razor and toilet
gear".

"You can borrow my wardrobe. My briefs and socks should fit, but I have
doubts about my shirts as you are broader than me. I have a couple of
larger shirts that were left by a previous boy friend, who suddenly
disappeared. I'll get them and you can try them on".

Tony rose from the settee,

"I forgot, I purchased the week's groceries this morning and they are still
in the car. I will bring them in".

Tony was placing his purchases in the cupboards and refrigerator when
Philip came in with two brightly coloured shirts. "Try these on, but first
try on one of mine".

Tony was certainly too broad to fit Philip's shirt but the others fitted
like a glove.

"They make you look more gorgeous than ever. You look much better than the
guy to whom they belonged. They are yours. Now choose your briefs, some
will scarcely hold those massive jewels".

There were bikinis, some low slung, some little more than G
strings. "Remember it is me who will be enjoying that beautiful crotch, so
choose those that will enhance it's attractions".

Tony laughed as he selected some very brief and brightly coloured
items. Philip nodded his approval. "You had better try them on", he said.

They were all a good fit. His ample crotch filled them to perfection,
causing Philip to whistle his admiration when he put on the very brief
bikini.

"Now those are for special days, like a night out", he said. Philip walked
in to the kitchen and opened one of the cupboards. "There seems to be a lot
more food here, were you preparing for a banquet?"

"No, I was intending to invite you to the cottage for the weekend so we
will now have to make good use of it here".

"I intended to find a reason to see you again, and although this is not the
Arcadia I found at the cottage, we can still enjoy life in the raw, as we
did there, and make the most of all those goodies. No don't get dressed. I
will join you. We both prefer being nude and it is warm tonight".

Philip also stripped and together they sat on the settee drinking coffee.

"You are going to be here a long time, so I will make room in the wardrobe
and give you some drawers for your things".

"I sure hope this arrangements wont be too inconvenient for you. With all
my heart, I want to stay with you, but if at any time you feel it is not
working out, tell me. I don't want this crisis to threaten our
relationship", said Tony.

They spent the evening discussing the adjustments that they would both have
to make. In his excitement and enthusiasm Philip offered a flood of ideas
and suggestions.

"Whoa ", said Tony. "Let us handle each situation as it arises. Meantime
all I want is to please you.". He pulled Philip close and kissed him,
caressing his body.

Philip moved down the settee and lay on his back with his head resting in
Tony's lap. With his index finger, Tony traced a line from his forehead
along his nose and chin, across his chest and stomach to his navel., where
his hand rested. Philip pressed his head against his crotch. "I can feel
you stirring", he said.

"No doubt, but I am enjoying this so much I am not moving. You are an over
sexed ram and when I let you have your way, it will be on very special
occasions.

"Those special occasions have been somewhat frequent since we met. Your
celibate life has only increased your appetite. Let's face it Tony, you are
randy, permanently on heat. Too much of a good thing will only satiate the
appetite and you mean much more to me than opportunities to get my rocks
off.. I find I am liking your more each day and this scene for me is just
perfect, and without soft music and dimmed lights".

Philip sighed contentedly and kissed his stomach.

The following morning, everyone in the office was discussing the storm.

"How did you survive?" Jim asked Tony.

"I have major problems. The bridge has been swept away and I have no idea
whether the cottage survived. All that I own that was there".

"So have you found somewhere to stay?" asked John

"Oh yes, Philip took me in and I am staying with him meantime"

"I bet that will be nice", he said with a smirk.

The phone rang and was answered by Jim. He told Tony that he was wanted by
Richard right away. Tony was pleased to escape from John's obvious wish to
embarrass him with further innuendoes. Richard was talking to his secretary
when he arrived but immediately beckoned him into his office.

"I am told you live on the Old Mill road. How has the storm affected you?"

Tony told him about the destroyed bridge, and about his predicament, and
that he was staying with Philip.

"That's the good looking young man working in stores, isn't it?"  Tony
confirmed that it was.

"My partner was at college with Philip. He has told me that he is a very
nice guy. I have invited a few friends to my home for a barbecue on
Saturday, would you and Philip like to come. It will be an opportunity to
meet more people, now that you are living in town".

Tony thanked him, said he would check with Philip and confirm his
acceptance the next day.

During tea, Tony told Philip about Richard's invitation and mentioned that
his partner knew him.

"Was she one of your adolescent flings?" asked Tony.

"I was his adolescent fling", he replied laughing. "That will be Alex. I
know his partner very well indeed. It was he who made me realise that being
gay is really great. So now he sleeps with Richard. Well, well, he always
wanted an affluent life style and it looks like he has achieved it. It will
be great to see him again. I would very much like to go with you on
Saturday".

"Tell me more. I had no idea Richard was gay. It doesn't show".

"What do you expect? We are not all dizzy queens. Alex looks as butch as a
rugby halfback and is built like a brick house, and his weapon is
magnificent. It always surprised me that he preferred to be fucked, and man
oh man, that was an experience never to be forgotten. I must tell you more
about our college days some other time".

They were washing the dinner dishes when Philip said,

"You know, we will have to wear appropriate gear on Saturday. How do you
feel about a complementary rig that clearly advertises that we are
together?"

"That would be okay by me, what have you in mind?"

"I'll show you as soon as we finish here".

They went into the bedroom where Philip placed a couple of pairs of shorts
of the same style but of different pastel shades on the bed. He gave one
pair to Tony and asked him to try them on. Tony found that they fitted but
hugged his muscular legs, his crotch and buttocks.

"You look terrific. Gee they make you look disgustingly sexy. Make sure you
tell everyone that you are not available. Now put on that shirt with the
striking futuristic pattern".

Tony put on the shirt that Philip had given him, tucking it in. Philip
moved around him pulling it out so that it was loosely fitting and
unbuttoned it so that Tony's chest hair could be seen.

"Perfect. We will certainly be eye catching. Everyone will want to meet
you, but watch out, for Alex will want to get into your pants".

"No way, especially when his partner is my boss".

Philip chose a shirt with a similar pattern which would be enhanced by the
colour of the other pair of shorts. Tony had to agree that they would be an
impressive couple at the barbecue.

On Saturday morning they went shopping to replenish Tony's wardrobe. Philip
constantly encouraged him to buy bright bikini briefs, shirts styled in the
latest fashion, and hip hugging slacks that suggested his ample endowment
without being too blatant.

"Your clothes should make a statement about you", said Philip

Tony laughed, "You have certainly achieved that for me. I hope it reflects
the real me and not only what you want to believe about me".  "I am hoping
it will help your liberation and make you feel that you are really your own
man".

Tony gave Philip a quick hug not bothered that the shop was busy with
customers.

All afternoon Philip kept humming one of Elaine Page's songs, I know him so
well. Suddenly he looked at Tony, and in a strong baritone began to sing




	Wasn't it good? Wasn't he fine?
	Isn't it madness he can't be mine?
	But in the end he needs a little more than me
	He needs his fantasy and freedom
	I know him so well.

Tony, irritated, suddenly said,

"What do you mean, I need a little more than you?  You are wrong, right now
you are more than enough. It is good, and it is just fine, and what makes
you think I'm not yours? It is only a week since we met and I am not the
sort of guy who suddenly becomes infatuated. My love will only stay the
distance if it has time to grow, and that means being together and sharing
everything with you. It must be the same for you if you expect me to be
your true love. Is it you who needs a little more than me? You have been
long enough in the gay scene to know that the never ending search for true
love, or whatever else you want, can only result in loneliness and
disappointments".

"I like that song and perhaps you are right, it is really talking about me,
not you. Sure it has only been a week since we met, but I feel as if it has
been much longer for we seem to be so compatible. I know you are much more
cautious and reserved but you are now less inhibited when we have sex. I
know that that is not enough for a lasting relationship and I promise to
make every effort to make it permanent".

Tony took him in his arms and kissed him. "I know you will, and I feel the
same. So let us be totally open with each other, say what we think, and
express our feelings, no matter what happens from here on".

Philip held him close. "That's the way I want our lives together to be. You
will be my one true love".

Richard lived in a two storey house with spacious grounds. When Tony and
Philip arrived there were several cars parked in a paved area near the
front door. The noise of the guests came from the rear of the house so they
followed a path in that direction. They came to a large lawn set about with
colourful borders and shady trees. Richard came forward to greet them.

"Welcome. It is great to see you", he said as he shook each of them by the
hand with the other on their shoulder. "This will be Philip. I am pleased
you were able to come with Tony. Now I remember seeing you in stores. I
continue to be surprised at how many in the Company are gay. Come and meet
my guests".

They went over to an area built for barbecues, where other men were
talking, standing, or sitting at metal tables. Richard took them to each of
the groups and introduced Tony and Philip. As they were approaching a
couple, Tony recognised Jim. He had a grin on his face. "I bet you didn't
expect to meet me here", he said. "Now you know, I also am one of the
fraternity".

"Tony and Philip have met most of the guests so I can leave you to
entertain them while I see to progress in the kitchen?" said
Richard. "Sure", Jim replied. He turned to the other guest to introduce
them.

Before Jim could introduce them, a tall well built guy with a closely cut
beard said, "I believe I know Tony, he and I were at college together and
we taught each other much more than the approved curriculum", he added with
a broad grin. "We seem to have lost contact since those college days. I
have often wondered what you were doing. I had no idea that you were living
here".

"It's really good to see you again Alex. Yes you were a good tutor and we
have put it to good use since those days. This is my partner, Tony".

"It is a pleasure to meet you", said Alex. Then turning to Tony, "Where did
you find such a handsome friend?"

"Lying on a rock, naked, in the middle of a stream in the hills. He is my
naiad, an out of this world experience.. I am still uncertain that he is
real and not a water sprite".

"Oh he is real enough", Tony replied as he pinched Philip who feigned
surprise. "We had no idea that you were Richard's partner, I know that he
is a terrific boss.".

"We have now been together five years and are very much in love. I hope you
and Tony will be as happy as we are." Then looking at Jim, "we will have to
find Jim someone to love. I know he pines for a bed mate".

Jim laughed, but with a hollowness that indicated that there was more than
an element of truth in Alex's comment. Together they went over to a table
on which a selection of drinks were offering and Alex poured each of them a
glass of wine. Everyone was very friendly and soon Tony and Philip were
separated, each the center of interest. Philip noticed that Alex was
frequently returning to talk to Tony and he felt a little anxious that he
might be more interested in him than he would have liked. He tried to
ignore his feeling and decided to circulate and enjoy the company. Richard
was an excellent host and made sure that Tony and Philip got to know all
the guests. By the end of the evening, they both felt that they had well
and truly become accepted as members of his special circle of friends.
 
A couple of weeks had passed when one evening they received a phone call
from Richard inviting them to come to dinner.

"I am not surprised", said Philip. "I bet Alex has been telling Richard how
much he likes us, especially you, and that he wants to make sure that our
friendship develops. I don't think he is as interested in me as he used to
be, but you are another matter".

"And how do you think Richard will react to that?" asked Tony.

"We will have to see. Play it cool. Remember Richard is your boss and it is
not good for our private life to threaten relationships at work. I still
think we ought to accept the invitation and see what develops".

Richard was pleased when Tony him at the office next day that they
appreciated the invitation and accepted. He told Tony that Alex very much
wanted to renew his friendship with Philip, and that he hoped that they
might all get better acquainted.

"You do know that Alex and Philip had a special relationship when they were
at college, and there is the possibility that this may once again develop?"
asked Tony.

"Yes. Alex has told me all about it. I am not a possessive man, and I don't
mind sharing my partner with another who is special to him, so long as our
love for each other is not threatened".

"I feel the same way about Philip. We have not known each other for long,
but we are very special for each other, and I value our relationship very
much. Neither of us want that to threatened and, if we are completely open
towards each other, I believe that will safeguard our friendship".

"Thank you Tony. I am pleased to hear that, and I am sure you and I will
make sure nothing threatens what we value so much.".

Richard came from behind his desk, approached Tony, and to his surprise,
clasped him and hugged him warmly.

Dinner with Richard and Alex proved to be a very merry event. Philip and
Alex had similar personalities so that their jokes and teasing caused much
merriment. Tony saw the uninhibited Philip being no match for Alex. Soon
they began to direct their suggestive comments at their partners, so that
both Richard and Tony had to respond with similar accusations. They became
increasingly indicative of their sexual penchants and accoutrements until
Richard suggested that they find out for themselves how much truth there
was in all these accusations.

"And what do you have in mind?" asked Alex.

"Well if we really want to know how exciting and enjoyable Philip and Alex
claim sex can be, why not let them show us".

There was a sudden silence. Alex eyes showed delight but Philip was clearly
uncertain. Philip looked at Tony, "what do you think?"

"Only if it is alright by you. I know that you and Alex had a good thing
going when you were boys. It would be another experience that we will have
shared".

"Sex must never be hurried", said Richard. "Would you both sleep over? Alex
and Tony can have the spare room while Philip can sleep with me".

"That would be great", was Alex's enthusiastic response. "It is already
getting late so let us turn in and make the most of a wonderful evening".

Alex showed Tony to the spare room and turned down the sheets on the king
size bed. He moved towards Tony undid the buttons and removed his shirt. He
pulled him close kissing his chest and sucking his nipples. His hands
dropped to release his belt, unzip his fly and allowed his slacks to drop
to the floor. Then he pulled down his briefs allowing Tony's half erect
cock to spring forward. He gently held it, circling it with his thumb and
forefinger, pushing back his foreskin to reveal the shining red glans,
already moist from precum. Tony stepped out of his slacks and began to
undress Alex. He smiled with delight when he saw his mat of dark chest hair
that met the line of hair that rose from his thick pubic bush . A seven
inch cock, already, rigid flipped against his stomach, ready for
action. Quickly they got under the sheets and were soon in each other's
arms.

Alex took the initiative in caressing Tony, gently passing his hands over
his body, his fingers entering every crevasse and orifice. Tony sighed with
pleasure and began to reciprocate with equally tantalising touches. Alex
rolled onto his back and, while still holding Alex in his arms, began to
talk about Philip.

"I am glad Philip has met a nice guy like you. He and I were very close
friends when we were at college, and I still think of him as special. The
day we met I remember well, for neither of us could stop looking at each
other. We were rapidly growing adolescents and the shorts he was wearing
were too tight for decency and clearly showed that he was well endowed. At
the break, I introduced myself and we were soon seeing a lot of each
other. We lived near the beach and often went body surfing together. At
first, we talked in a round about sort of way, referring to the usual
attractions of girls, but soon I realised that really we weren't much
interested in girls, and more frequently discussed the physical attractions
of the boys. It was one day after surfing, when dressing in the sand hills,
that Tony compared his cock with mine, He held his to compare it's length
with mine, suddenly he grasped mine and began wanking me. Of course I did
the same to him. We were soon hard at it and from then, experiencing each
other's sexual attributes became our major interest and attraction for each
other".

"He is still, physically, a very attractive guy but his personality
attracts me much more. I have fallen in love with him. I know he feels the
same about me and I don't want anyone threatening that relationship".

"What we had in the past is over. I no longer feel the same about Philip
and anyway, Richard and I have a partnership which is very important to
me. Even so, I would still like to remain friends, but no way will I be the
cause of coming between you".

Tony hugged Alex conveying his appreciation of his reassurance.  As Alex
shared more about his friendship with Philip, Tony felt increasingly
comfortable as he lay beside him. He turned and stroked his chest, playing
with his nipples. Alex clasped him to his chest and gently ran his hands
over his shoulders, back and buttocks, He fondled his scrotum and fingered
his arse> This excited Tony so much that he pressed his groin against
Alex. This encouraged Alex who now began to massage his cock and
balls. Tony groaned with pleasure and began to caress Alex's chest, nipping
his nipples with his teeth. Alex lay on his back with outspread arms and
legs, inviting Tony to make love to his entire body. Tony pressed his face
into his groin, breathing deeply the aroma of his sex organs. Gently his
tongue stroked the length of his erect cock, circled the carona and wiped
the head inserting it into the slit. Alex raised his hips, gasping as waves
of intense pleasure surged through his body. Tony's mouth engulfed his
erection his tongue continuing to stroke it. As he withdrew he gently blew
on it, then sucked it with increasing intensity. Alex moaned with
pleasure. "That feels wonderful", he whispered.

A sense of peace and lassitude engulfed them as they lay together. Tony
turned to Alex.

"Tell me more about yourself. Philip tells me that you were his first
love".

"Philip and I were great mates until he moved with his family to
Wellington. I missed him terribly for there was no one else to take his
place, to share ideas, and the outrageous speculations we had about the
masters and other boys, especially their sexual proclivities".

 "So what did you do after he left ?"

"It was never the same. I tried to find another guy who had similar
interests to mine, whose personality was attractive, but there was no one
until I met Richard. I have always been a voyeur and was constantly looking
for that special guy. So I visited the saunas and bars, even did the bogs,
and while I often found great sex and had many one night stands, it was
never as good as it had been with Philip. How about you? When did you
realise that you were gay?"

I knew that I was gay when I was 16. I often wanted to do those things with
other guys, but I never had the courage. I did not want to hurt my
family. My parent's expectations were important to me They expected me to
conform, to meet a nice girl that I would marry, and have kids. I had to
sublimate my constant urge to get sexual relief from other guys. It was
also fear that discouraged my inclinations. Fear of rejection by those I
approached, fear of being caught by the police, fear that my friends, work
mates and family would find out that I am gay. It seemed to be self
reinforcing making me increasingly unhappy. So I became a lonely guy. My
job dominated my life and for relaxation, I tramped in the bush. Escaping
to the cottage did not change anything.

So I bought gay magazines, watched gay videos and read gay books, all of
which made me hornier than ever. An overwhelming need to feel free, and to
acknowledge and accept my sexuality eventually became too strong to
ignore. I had to make the great decision, so when Philip found me alone,
naked in the stream, he provided the opportunity to do something about
it. It was fortuitous that he too was gay, and very understanding. I was
ready for change".

Alex did not speak for several minutes as he thought about what Tony had
said. He leant over and held his hand.

"I didn't much think of the risks, for you seemed to feel more secure when
you are mixing with a gay crowd, as I did. Attending parties and going
places with many of the guys that I met, filled most of my leisure
hours. That is how I met Richard. He and his boyfriend at the time were
attending a Devotions party. I was standing at the bar perving over the
many dishy hunks, all seemed to have partners, when he approached me and
offered me a drink. He was very relaxed and easy to talk to. It was not
long before we knew quite a lot about each other, and I was finding him
very interesting and quite attractive. His friend, who had been dancing
with another guy, joined us and was introduced to me. They suggested that I
join them, which I did. That was the best decision I ever made. I liked
Richard and he kept phoning me, wanting to see me. We always seemed to be
together, so much so, that we acknowledged that we felt strong attracted to
each other. After about six months, Richard asked me to live with him. That
would be year ago. I guess we now have a strong relationship, for I believe
he loves me very much, as I do him. Even though I knew many guys, I was
lonely too. I needed that special friend who I would love, and I know that,
at last, I have found him in Richard."

Tony turned to Alex, taking him in his arms.

"I very much appreciate your telling me about how you met Richard. We both
know what it is like to be alone, to need a special friend, a lover, one
with whom to share one's life. I am glad you found Richard to make that
possible. I hope I have found the same in Philip."

He hugged Alex and kissed him gently.

"I would like you and Richard to be our friends and later, if Philip and
Richard agree, to sleep with you again."

"I am sure they will. Philip is pleased to see me again and would like to
renew our friendship. Richard never seems to be jealous and I believe he
would also like your friendship".

Tony lay on his back still holding Alex's hand and was soon asleep.

Tony and Alex were setting the table for breakfast when Richard
appeared. He looked tired and dishevelled. Alex laughed as he entered.

"You look as if you have had a wild night".

"I have", Richard replied, "Philip is incredible, one mighty, insatiable,
sex machine. He fucked me twice last night, and again this morning. How do
you handle him Tony?"

"He is still handling me like a new bride, still respecting my virginity."

"Well after last night, your tight little arse will be feeling the length
of his rod. No wonder he rode me like a bull. He was terrific, nearly as
good as Alex."

Alex grinned broadly as he looked at Tony.

"I should have prepared you for your first fuck, but I still think it's a
special occasion that rightly belongs to lovers."

Philip appeared in the doorway looking equally exhausted.

"I suppose you two made it last night", he said

Alex nodded, "and we shared much more. Alex helped me to realise why I find
you to be such a special guy. You had a great friend in Alex, in helping
you to accept and enjoy your sexuality. He has helped me too. I hope he and
Richard will become our special friends. Apparently you and he got to know
each other intimately, and I agree that we should see more of each other?"

"I would like that", Richard replied. "Alex is still fond of Philip and he
and I would like to see much of you, to be your friends."

Over lunch at home, Tony and Philip recalled many interesting moments, and
referred to several of the guests that they found interesting or
attractive. They shared their feelings about spending the night with
Richard and Alex. They agreed that they felt comfortable about sleeping
with them, with Philip indicating that he would again like to sleep with
Alex, but only if Tony did not mind. Tony told him that Alex and he had
also talked about it, and that he felt that they should so, so long as it
did not threaten their relationship.

"You see, I do not want to return to the cottage, except for sentimental
reasons. It is where I met you and fell in love with a very special
guy. Alex has found a new love, but if Richard feels the same, I won't
mind."

"Will you stay with me for ever? Would you abandon a solitary life for
me?", Philip asked..

"Willingly, most willingly, for I am beginning to love you dearly and I
know that I would find life impossible without you. No more do I want to be
alone. You have shown me that my life can be complete and I want to be with
you always."

Philip took Tony in his arms and kissed him.

"So do I. Let us go to bed and consummate our marriage. I want to show you
how much you mean to me". Then with a grin he added, "I want to fuck the
arse off you."

 End.


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