Date: Wed, 13 Feb 2008 07:34:27 -0800 (PST)
From: Randy Howard <randyhoward2@yahoo.com>
Subject: Terence / Beginnings

Terence
By
randyhoward2@yahoo.com

This, my readers is a very different kind of story.

It deals with domestic violence among gay couples.
Please read and form your own opinions.
You have my permission to reproduce this one story
if you wish. Randy.


"Hey Evan, where is Terence tonight"? Ashton asked,
surprised to see Evan without him.

"He was not feeling well, so he told me to go alone,"

Evan said smiling at the host.  "Nice party!  Where is John,"?
referring to Ashton's other half.

"Oh he is somewhere around here," he said looking around
the room.  "There he is going out to the garden," he said
pointing in the direction.

Evan edged through the room as he makes his way to the
doors that led to the garden.  He stepped into the garden in
search of John.  He saw him going into the greenhouse.
He made his way over and looked inside before opening
the door, making sure that no one else was around.

"I wasn't sure that you were coming," as he took Evan in his
arms.

"I told you that I would be here," as their lips meet in passion
and lust.
They make their way to an area where they cannot be seen.

"Where did you leave Terence"? John asked.

"At home where he belongs," as he undid his pants.
He pulled his pants and underwear down as John dropped to
his knees.


"I have dreamt of this cock all day since I saw you and
Terence this morning babe," as he swallowed Evan's
cock down his throat.  He took it all the way until he smelt the
scent of his secret lover.  He drank his scent in as he slowly
sucked on his cock, bringing him ever so close to the edge.

"I want to fuck you John," as he pulled his cock
from his mouth.  John leaned against one of the tables with
his hands bracing him as Evan lubes his ass.

"You ready babe"? as he lined up his cock.

"Yeah lover, fuck me hard and deep," as he started to
push back and Evan pushed his cock in.  John let out a
moan of delight as Evan buried his cock.

"Oh fuck Evan, your cock feels so good babe, so much
better than Ashton's".  He quickly started to fuck his lover's
ass, withdrawing to the head before slamming it back.  John
met
every thrust with a push of his own, as they fucked by
moonlight.
It was not long before John was at the edge and moaned his
pleasure.

"Oh fuck Evan, I'm coming"! As he shot his hot white come
all over the floor.  Volley after volley flowed until he was
fully quenched.

"Oh fuck babe, here I go," Evan howled in ecstasy as he
blasted his come into John's anxious ass.
Oh fuck babe you're hot, I can feel you filling me," John
moans out in delight.

They finished their sex and meandered back, separately, to the
party.  Evan left around ten and went home. Terence was still
up waiting for him.

"How was school tonight"? Terence asked.

"Fine, but the same old shit." he said as Terence gave him a
kiss.  He lingered on his neck, smelling the different colognes.

"Where did you really go Evan," Terence asked, now
realizing he has been lied to. "That cologne is not yours or
mine," he says to his face.

Evan backhanded him so hard, he fell back onto the
coffee table breaking it.

"Listen you fucking bitch, don't accuse me unless you
can prove it," he said heading to the bathroom to shower.

The next day Terence got up and headed to the bathroom.
As he passed the mirror, he saw his reflection. His eye was
black and swollen.

"Shit I guess I deserved that for accusing him of cheating,"
as he tried to cover it with make-up.

He headed to the store for groceries grabbing his sunglasses
on the way.  He knew it is not sunny but it covered his eye,
avoiding looks and questions from passers.

"Terence how you doing"? His friend Jeremy asked
as he came around the aisle corner.  "Shit man what
happened to you"? He asked, noticing his eye.

"I opened a cupboard and a damn bowl fell out getting
me square in the eye," he says looking at a display.

"Of course a bowl. They just love to jump out at us," knowing
he is lying.
 He knew his man's temper and has even seen it in action a
few times.

"Well just be careful. If you ever need to talk I'm here," giving
him a manly hug.

He got home as the phone rang.  It was an old friend.  They
talk for more than an hour discussing the old days and what
had happened since their school days.

Evan arrived home and checked the phone's "Caller Id" for
incoming calls.  He saw a call from Terence's hometown and
without hesitation, flew upstairs with the handset just as
Terence was about to come down.

"What the fuck is this number"? ramming the set into
Terence's face.

"That's my old friend.  I went to college with him," he said
continuing down the stairs.

"You're fucking cheating on me now"! He shouts as he
shoved
Terence. He fell hard, landing at the foot of the stairs
screaming in terrible pain.

"Stop your fucking screaming you damn baby," going back
into his den.  Terence tried to get up but the pain in his arm
and shoulder caused him to pass out.  He finally came-to
almost three hours later and the house was dark as he called
out for Evan, but no one answered.

"Evan!" he yelled and was finally answered.

"What the fuck do you want bitch"? He yelled from his bed.

"Help me.  I think I've broken my arm," and Evan finally
came downstairs.

"Shit!  Now I'll have to take you to the hospital won't I,"
irritated at the fact that his sleep has been interrupted.  "Make
sure you tell them you lost you footing and fell," he told him
as he glared.

"Of course that's what happened.  I'm naturally clumsy.
Everyone knows that."

At the hospital, Evan played the pillar of sainthood as he
helped his lover out of the car, calling him "babe" and
assisting him with his every need.

"You know I love you Terence.  I promise to get help with my
anger," giving Terence a kiss.

"I know you will.  I love you too," he said.


"So Mr. Burns what happened"? The doctor asked as Evan
stood behind him looking at Terence.

"I was about to come downstairs and I caught my foot on the
rug and down I went," he said, looking past the Doctor at
Evan.  The doctor turned to Evan who just smiled at him.

"Why don't you wait outside in the waiting room sir while I
set the arm and shoulder"? Motioning an orderly to show him
the way.

The doctor, while setting the arm made a comment about
the eye.

"How did you get the black eye"? He asked Terence, who was
caught off guard by his question.

"I must have done it when I fell," He said, immediately
regretting the response.

"Young man, a black eye does not set that quickly," he said
looking closely at it. "This is about one or two days old.
Now how did you do it again"?

"I forget doctor, really," looking the other way.

"Well no ones needs to put up with abuse anymore, and that
doesn't' just apply to just women," he says looking at Terence.

"I understand doctor, but I am not being abused," he said
knowing that he had caused his lover to loose his temper.

The next day Jeremy called and was up in arms over the
news he had heard.

"I just heard from a friend of mine that knows of you. You
broke your arm and dislocated your shoulder falling down the
stairs last night."

"Evan and I had a little disagreement.  He waved something at
me.  I stepped back and I lost my footing and fell," he said.

"Listen Terence, I want to ask you something and you don't
have to answer.  Did he push you down the stairs"?

After a long silence, he answered. "Yes Jeremy, he was mad
at me. He accused me of having an affair, and then shoved me
down the stairs.  He saw my old friend's phone number on our
'Caller Id' and freaked out.  He left me there until I passed
out.  When I woke up hours later, I called him for help."

"Did he help you then"?

"Well once he knew I could not do it myself, but he has
promised to get help," Terence told Jeremy.

"I could just kick his fucking ass," Jeremy was furious.

"Jeremy no. It was my own fault for provoking him."


"That is not the point man, no one deserves to be beaten or
almost killed," as a lump formed in his throat  "I love you to
much to see this happen to you."

"I will be fine Jer.  He is going for help and I am careful how I
choose my words."

"Don't you have a right to have friends too?  Look, he won't
even let me talk to you.  That reminds me, remove my number
from your Caller Id."

"I will I have to go now buddy," he said hanging up, removing
all signs of Jeremy's call.

That night in bed Evan says to Terence  "I need some sex you
know," as he crawled on top of Terence.

"Careful Evan, you are hurting my shoulder and arm."

He slapped Terence hard across the face with his open hand,
daring him to open his mouth again.

"Now just shut up and lift those legs," he said as he pushed his
cock into his man.  He pushed it all the way in, then started to
aggressively fuck him.  He fucked him hard and deep, causing
his head to hit the headboard.

"Easy man, you're hurting me," he said as another bout of
slapping reined upon him.  He fucked him until he came.
Crawling off him, he noticed that Terence had not ejaculated.

"How come you didn't blow?  You already been there today"?
He asked as he raised his hand. Terence put his arm up to
protect his face.

"Hey sorry Terence," Evan said as he lay beside him.  "I
promise I will call for help this week."

"I love you and I believe you," as he gives Evan a kiss.

The next day they were invited over to Ashton and John's for
dinner.  It has been a while since Terence has seen them.

"My God look at you," Ashton said, greeting them at the door.
"What the hell happened to you Terence"?

"Nice to see you too," hugging him in greeting.  "Just an
accident at home."

"John how nice to see you," he said as he gave him a hug.
He suddenly recognized the cologne as the one that had been
on Evan.

"Evan I must show you my prized orchids later," John tells
Evan.

"That would be great John," Evan said, looking right at him.

They had a great dinner. Terence sat and talked with Ashton
while the boys quietly disappeared.  About fifteen minutes
later, Terence said that he would like to see the orchids.

"Come on I'll take you out to the greenhouse.  They went to
the greenhouse but the guys were nowhere to be seen. Terence
looked around and he heard the sound of someone moaning.
He walked towards the sound and saw Evan fucking John.
John was bent over a table with Evan slamming his ass.

"Evan how could you," as the two of them jumped up and
Evan pulled his cock out of John's ass.
"John why"? Asks Ashton looking on in shock from behind
Terence.

Evan pulled up his pants as he came towards Terence.

"You did this on purpose to get even with me," Evan said as
he struck Terence knocking him to the floor.  John took his
queue from Evan, and similarly struck Ashton to the floor.

"That's it John, teach him his place," Evan said as he looked at
the two men lying on the ground.  "Get the fuck in the house,"
he shouted at Terence, who instantly got up and fled the
greenhouse.

"You know your way also bitch," John told Ashton who
looked in shock at his man. He got up and followed Terence
into the house.

"Now where were we"? Evan said as he kissed John.

"Your cock was fucking me stud," as John dropped his pants
and bent over, surrendering his ass to Evan's cock.

"Are you all right"? Ashton asked Terence as he took him in
his arms to comfort him.  "If John thinks he is going to abuse
me like Evan does with you he is greatly mistaken."

Ashton went to his bedroom and soon returned with a gun.

"Ashton no!  Violence against violence is not the answer."
Terence said to Ashton as he stepped up to him and grabbed
the gun.

"No one is going to put a hand on me and live to tell about
it," pushing Terence aside as he headed to the greenhouse.
Terence called 911 and told them what was happening, and
then ran to the greenhouse.  He was moments behind Ashton
when he heard the conversation in progress.

"Evan pull your cock from my man"! Ashton said pointing the
gun at the two of them.  Evan went white with fear as he saw
the gun.  He slowly pulled out of John's ass.

"Babe please," John said to his man with fear in his voice.
His pants still surrounded his ankles. "I am so sorry love for
cheating on you and hitting you, don't do this," as the gun
went off.

John dropped to the floor.

"Ashton no," Terence yelled as Ashton turned towards him
with a vacant look in his eyes.  He put the gun to his head and
pulled the trigger. He too dropped to the floor.

"Oh God Ashton why"? Terence cried as he rushed to his
friend's side while Evan stood there in shock with his pants
still around his ankles.

"The police are coming Evan, get your fucking pants up"! he
yelled at Evan who still could not move.

"Ashton why did you have to do this man"? Looking down at
his friend whom he cradled in his arms.  "All you had to do
was walk away from him love," as his tears cascaded upon the
body.

The police come rushing into the greenhouse with their guns
drawn and surveyed the scene.  Evan was still standing in
shock half naked with Terence cradling the dead Ashton.

"What happened here sir"? the officer asked.   He explained
the whole scenario to the police who took his statement as the
Coroner arrives to take the two bodies away.

"What's with him"? The officer said motioning to Evan who
was now pulling up his pants.

"He is the one that was caught fucking one of the dead
men.  The other man caught him and after he hit him he got a
gun and came out and shot him and then himself."

"Well thank you for your help, do you need any assistance"?
He asked looking at Evan then at Terence.

"Thank you officer, but I think I can handle this now," he
said assuredly while looking at Evan.

They went home, speaking not a single word as they drove
through the city.  Terence walked from the car to the house,
and unlocked the door.

"Evan," he says turning to him.  "Go upstairs and pack your
things.  I do not want you in my house anymore," turning and
walking away from him.

"Why you fucking bastard" he said, grabbing Terence by the
hair pulling him back to him.  "The two of them would be
alive if you had not come out looking for me".

He raised his hand and struck Terence across the face
knocking him to the floor.  "I am going to teach you what
happens when you are wrong fucker."  He grabbed him from
the floor, punching him in the stomach as he let him fall to the
floor again.  He kicked him in the ribs several times before he
sat on him with full might.  He punched him across his face
breaking his nose and jaw.

"Now asshole, go tell the Doctor you fell down the stairs
again," getting up and stomping on his cast, crushing it.
He left him there and climbed the stairs, turning out the lights
behind him.

"Evan please man," he agonised softly.  "I am sorry for what I
did and I forgive you," he says as he passed out from the pain.

The next morning Evan came down dressed for work.
Terence was still out on the floor.  He stepped over him on his
way to the kitchen for his morning coffee.

A half hour later, he left for work still not caring about what
he had done.  The phone rang around ten.  Jeremy was calling,
knowing that he and Terence were supposed to go shopping
for a birthday present for Ashton.

"You have reached the phone of Evan and Terence. We are
not home at the moment, please leave your name and number
and we will get back to you," he heard from the recording.

"Terence it's me, Jeremy where are you"?

He tried Terence's cell phone and got his voice mail service.

"Something is not right.  That man does not leave home
without his phone," he said aloud while grabbing his car keys
as he headed out the door.  He got to Terence's house and
noticed his car in the driveway.  He rang the doorbell but got
no response, so he proceeded to look through the side
window.

"God man where the fuck are you"? he thought to himself as
he moved to the living room window.  He shielded his eyes
with his hands as his looked in, and there on the floor, he saw
his best friend lying quite still.  He grabbed his cell and called
911.  He asked for an ambulance and a police car.  The police
were the first to arrive and he explained that his friend is
unconscious on the floor.  They bust through the door, rushing
to Terence's side.

"Oh God bud," Jeremy said as the police searched for a pulse.

"He's alive," the officer said as the paramedics came through
the door.  "We have a male beating victim unconscious." The
officer told them.

"I just know it was his partner Evan Mills," Jeremy said.  "He
has been physically abusing him for months. He works at
Max's Gym down on Main and State streets."

"Well until he comes-to we cannot be certain that he is the one
that did this," the officer said.  "But we'll send a car over and
question him about his whereabouts."

They took Terence to the hospital.  Jeremy followed soon
after, making sure his friend was going to be fine.  Several
hours later, a Doctor came to speak to him.

"Are you with the young man that was beaten"? He asked of
Jeremy looking at him very sternly.

"Yes doctor, and please do not think that for one minute I
could have done such a thing to my best friend.  His life
partner did this to him, and I intend to see that he pays dearly
for it.  How is my friend"? He asked.

"He is in a very bad condition, but he will survive.  He has
broken his arm again and several more ribs, as well as a
punctured lung.  He had internal bleeding, along with a
broken nose and jaw," he said shaking his head slowly.  "This
is one of the most violent attacks by a partner I have seen in
all my years as a doctor".

"My God doctor, may I see him"?

"Not at the moment, he is heavily sedated and should be out
for at least the next twelve hours.  I would recommend you
coming back tomorrow," he told Jeremy who is now quaking
with rage.  "He is very lucky he was found when he was, he
would have died if he had lay there another couple of hours,"
the doctor said as he turned to leave.

"That fucker will pay for this"!  Jeremy says to himself as he
left the hospital heading for the gym.

"You think you're a big man don't you fucker"? he shouted in
Evan's face in front of the men working out.

"What the fuck, are you doing here you fucking faggot"? He
yelled back at Jeremy.

"Did you tell these guys how you beat your boyfriend close to
the point of death?  Asshole!" he shouted in rage as the whole
place came to a standstill.

"Your fucking gay," a guy calls out from across the room.

"I'm no fag," he responded. "This guy is a fag that has been
hitting on me and cannot take no for an answer," he says
trying to avert attention from his sexuality.

"Let me tell you something about this man," turning and
looking at the guys who now has his full attention. "He not
only is gay and living with a man for the past two years
fucking him.  He was caught fucking the guy that was shot
and killed by his lover the other day," he said as everyone
turned to look at Evan.  Evan swung at Jeremy landing a right,
knocking him on the floor.

"You fucking faggot, I am going to kill you"! He said as he
attacked him.  Some of the guys grabbed Evan, subduing him.
The police were called and when they arrived, Jeremy pressed
assault charges against Evan.

"Officer, this man attacked me in front of these men," Jeremy
said, motioning towards the men in the room who were
nodding in agreement.

"You are under arrest, Evan Mills," the officer said as he read
him his rights.

"You wait asshole!  I will fix your ass like I did that faggot
Terence," he yelled then realizes he should have shut up.   The
officer recorded the comment.

"Did you get that officer," Jeremy asks.

"Every word," he said smiling as he took a handcuffed
Evan away, still swearing and yelling.

"Hey man, we had no idea that he was like that," one of the
gym patrons called to Jeremy.  "We don't condone any kind of
violence towards a partner," he said looking at Evan as he
headed towards the door.  "I sure hope your friend is going to
be ok," he said as he shook Jeremy's hand.

"Yes he has a long road ahead of him for recovery, but he
will make it," he said as he thanked the guys for their support.
They clapped as he left the gym and he turned and waved in
one final thanks.

He went home to rest, thinking of his friend and how he saved
his life.  The next morning he headed to the hospital with a
beautiful flower arrangement.  He peaked into the room and
noticed he was awake as he softly knocked.

"Hey dude," he said walking in with the flowers setting them
down on the stand next to the bed.  "How is my man doing
today"? He asked kissing his forehead.  The image before him
reminded him of the Invisible man in his bandage garb.  The
only difference was that the upper face remained un-
bandaged.

He was unable to talk because of his jaw.  He scribbled a note
as his eyes well up.

'They tell me that you found me.  Thank you for coming to
my aid friend.'

"Listen pal, that man of yours is in lock up as we speak or
rather I speak and you scribble," he says.  "I confronted him at
the gym about what he did to you and he attacked me.  I am
not afraid to press charges.  I know you love him, but
someone has to protect you from him," taking hold of his one
good hand.

He quickly scribbles another note to him.

'The police were here this morning babe.  I gave them a
statement of the things he did to me.  I am pressing full
charges against him.  Maybe this time I can find the courage
to get the help I need for myself,' he wrote and he burst into
tears.

"Terence I have loved you for years man, you know that.
However, you have always been attracted to the bad boy
type.  Can I have your hand in marriage now"? He asked
wiping the tears from his man's eyes.

'Yes and I am sorry for the pain I have caused you my best
friend,' he scribbled out in a hasty hand.

"I forgive you, I just wanted to see you happy, but I could
never understand why you would allow yourself be beaten by
the men you loved, and then turn around and make excuses
for them beating you," he says kissing his forehead.  "Damn
dude, you had better get that jaw healed soon, I want those
lips to kiss."

Ten weeks later, Terence went home with Jeremy.  His jaw
had healed as well as his broken bones.  Evan was sentenced
to twenty years to life for assault and battery with intent to
murder.  Terence went to counselling for his issues of
self-esteem and is doing better, according to his man.

"I love you so much Jer," Terence says lying in Jeremy's arms
as he looks into his eyes.  "Thank you Jer for being there
during my darkest times."

"I love you, and I will always be there," as their lips finally
meet.  They kissed their first kiss of love as their hearts beat
as one, with their tongues dancing.  Terence opened his legs
as he gave himself to the man he should have loved from the
start.

"Make love to me Jer," as he spreads his legs wide.  "I want a
real man to fill me with love," he whispers in his ear.  Jeremy
slowly pushes his cock into his man. Terence surrenders
himself.  He lets out a moan as he arched his back, feeling his
lover moving inside.

"Take me Jeremy, I give myself to you," as he wrapped his
arms around him kissing him with passion.  Slowly Jeremy
made love to him, taking his time as he has waited too long
for this day.

He pulled almost all the way out and then pushed slowly back
in as Terence rose to meet his gentle thrusts. They were soon
in the heat of their passion as they increased the pace of their
lovemaking, moaning out in their ecstasy.

"I'm coming Jer," Terence moans out as he shoots his seed.

"Oh fuck lover," Jeremy panted as he felt himself getting
close.  "I'm coming too," and he blasted forth into the man he
loves.

"Oh babe I can feel you as you fill me with your love," pulling
him in closer as their lips meet in passion.

As they held one another in the afterglow of their lovemaking,
they snuggle, being reminded of the love they shared.


The End


My reader's, this was a story quite out of my element.
Until recently, I had not wanted to deal with the fact that I was
also being physically abused.  Although I was a lot luckier
than Terence in the story, who by the way is totally fictional,
my partner and I are getting professional help and are doing
much better.

Violence in Gay Men's Relationships

Violence within gay relationships is a recognized health
problem. Gay men are just as susceptible to domestic violence
as any other member of society. There are some differences
though, as Ramon Johnson points out in his article about Gay
Partner Abuse. Gay people often feel they cannot seek help
from agencies that mostly offer help and advice to
heterosexual couples. Gay men are more reluctant to expose
their sexuality to health care professionals. Health workers are
not immune to prejudice and may be intolerant of gay
relationships. The victim may have the same friends as the
abuser, and can be worried about losing the support from his
partner and mutual friends. Visit Ramon's site for more
information and help: Gay Life

In many ways, domestic violence in lesbian, bisexual and
gay relationships is the same as in opposite-genders
(e.g., heterosexually-paired) relationships:
o	No one deserves to be abused.
o	Abuse can be physical, sexual, emotional, psychological,
and involve verbal behaviour used to coerce, threaten or
humiliate.
o	Abuse often occurs in a cyclical fashion.
o	The purpose of the abuse is to maintain control and
power over one's partner.
o	The abused partner feels alone, isolated and afraid, and is
usually convinced that the abuse is somehow her or his fault,
or could have been avoided if she or he knew what to do.
Several important aspects of lesbian, bisexual, and gay
relationships mean domestic violence is often experienced
differently: In same-sex abuse, a pattern of violence or
behaviours exists where one seeks to control the thoughts,
beliefs, or conduct of their intimate partner, or to punish their
partner for resisting their control. This may been seen as
physical or sexual violence, or emotional and verbal abuse.
An additional form of emotional abuse for someone who is
gay, lesbian, or bisexual may be to "out" them at work or to
family or friends. If you or someone you know is involved in
a relationship that is abusive, seek help for yourself or them.

No one should suffer abuse of any kind.  Randy.