Date: Sun, 30 Mar 2003 06:28:51 -0800 (PST)
From: JMH <trandar2002@yahoo.com>
Subject: The Watch/The Watch 6

     Well folks we're passing the half way point in this tale.  Responses
have slowed down but I still plan to keep going.  I just hope that I'm on
the right track so far.  In this chapter the story builds up on he conflict
Josh feels in loving two men.  Which of the two Josh ends up with has not
yet been decided but I am open to ideas.  Thanks.
      Again, this is a story about gay relationships so 1. if you are
breaking the law, underage, or just hate gay stuff don't read any further.
The world wide web is a big place so you can find something else. 2.  As
this story came from my imagination, everything is a big lie.  The story is
not based on any real person place thing, or another person's idea.  So any
similarities are pure chance.  3.  Since this story is of my own creation,
I have the copyright to it.  No other postings, except at nifty, are
allowed. Nor is the selling of the story to others permitted.  Enjoy!

			  JMH (just might happen)
			   trandar2002@yahoo.com

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     Robert was waiting in the car.  He face flushed with anger and
embarrassment.  How could Glenn and Kyle bring an old flame to the same gym
he went to?  Why did he feel this sudden surge of anger in knowing that
Josh had loved another man before him?  Why did he of all people feel
violated?  He knew why.  The answer had been in the tone of voice Andrew
had used when he found out that Josh was with him.  Andrew knew that Robert
was a player not to be trusted in a relationship.  Robert almost wished
that Josh would "cheat " on him with this Andrew.  It would get rid of the
guilt he was feeling over going to the baths last night but he knew such
ideas were a mistake.  If this Andrew really loved Josh and Josh felt the
same, his giving permission to Josh to pursue such love might cost Robert
Josh himself.  He could see that Josh was one of those who preferred
romantic monogamy over a pragmatic open relationship.  Robert just needed
to accept that the love of one person was enough for him.  The problem was,
that even with Josh, he still felt alone.

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     The drive to lunch was quiet.  Neither Josh nor Robert had the courage
to say anything about what had happened back at the gym.  It was only when
both men were eating away at their Caesar chicken salads that Josh finally
spoke.

     "I guess I should have told you about Andrew."

     "Its none of my business.  Who you've slept with in the past is no
concern of mine."

     "Now who's being dishonest?"  Josh returned.

     "All right I admit it.  I liked the idea that I was the first and only
man to "know" you."

     "And?"

     "And I hate that so far you've been loyal to me but I've not been
loyal to you."

     "You mean last night?"

     "Yes..." Robert said, as he was about to explain what he did.

     "Robert, don't tell me.  I know your reputation.  I know how you can
be but please recognize that even while I know all these things I still
want to be with you."

     "What about Andrew?"

     "Would you be hurt if I told you that I still love him?"

     "I would be but I think I understand.  You are a loving person."

     "Sort of Robert.  Andrew was my first.  He was the one who first got
me to realize what it was I wanted.  I just wasn't ready for the
responsibility of it all.  You got me to see that."

     Just as Josh said that, the waiter brought them a fresh round of
drinks.  "On the house."  The cute red head named Patrick smiled at Robert.

Josh looked down at Robert's drink and saw that a small note had been
written there.  Robert also was reading it and was now blushing.

"Go ahead Robert.  You have my permission to have some fun."

"No Josh I don't think I'll do that."  Robert said nervously as he adjusted
his pants.

"Robert... do you want to fuck him?"

"Yes."

"If I wasn't here right now would you still not go and meet him in the
bathroom?"

"..."

"Go Robert.  I'm not ready to be fucked yet by you or anyone and I know you
have your needs."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes Robert."

"Thanks hon... and if you want to do it with Andrew that's fine with me.  I
now understand that you still love him but that it doesn't take away your
love of me."

"All right Rob."  Josh said as the giddy Robert made his way to the
bathroom.  "Just be careful what you wish for is all."  Josh sighed still
conflicted with how he felt.

When Robert had disappeared, Josh made his way to a public phone and dialed
Kyle's cell phone number.

"Kyle Brewster..."

"Hi Kyle its Josh."

"Hey Josh.  I was wondering when you were going to call."

"Yeah, is Andrew still with you."

"Nope, he left pretty soon after you did.  He was really upset."

"I know it's my fault."  Josh apologized.

"No it was ours.  We should of guess that Robert would bring you to the gym
over the Thanksgiving holiday."

"No it was my fault I hurt him real badly."

"I know Josh..."  Kyle said not knowing how much he should admit to
knowing.

"How is he doing?"

"Well Glenn and me only ran into him last night but from what we learned
he's having a hard time of things."

"How so."

"Well... he can't find a good man for himself.  Don't worry most gay men go
through this period where every possibility turns into a nightmare."

"Tell me about it."  Josh sighed.

"Why, is there something wrong with Robert?"  Kyle said in an attempt to
hold off his laughter.

"No, it's me.  It was not until Robert entered my life that I began to see
that accepting myself as gay was a real possibility."

"And?"

"And I still love Andrew."

"Oh... I see."

"Robert says it would be ok for me to sleep with him but that's because
Robert still doesn't see the difference from when I make love and he does."

"Well everyone knows that.  Tell me what you think."

"When I want to make love to someone its because I LOVE the person.  When
Robert does it's because he wants to please and gain pleasure from another
person.  Ya'll are my friends cause I enjoy being around you.  Robert is
you're friend because deep inside he loves you.  It is through friendship
not sex that Robert shows his love.  Me having sex with Andrew is just
having fun for Robert but for me it would because I love Andrew.  I don't
mind Robert sleeping with other men cause I know it doesn't mean anything.
I have problems with myself doing o because I know that it does."

"I agree.  For some people sex is just for pleasure for others it means
more.  You're right in thinking that Robert views sex this way but I also
think that Robert knows that sex mean a lot more then just sex."

"Then why did he give me permission?"

"Because he doesn't think he deserves your love I would guess.  He's giving
you an out, a chance to find real love."

"But I love Robert.

"And you also love Andrew.  Josh, you need to forget that you're a
27-year-old married lawyer and imagine that you're in high school again.
You were not looking for the person you were planning to marry but trying
to figure out who you really were."

"I didn't date in high school." Josh said.

"Stop being difficult!  The point is that you can't yet know what you
really want you've not experienced enough yet."

"So what do you think I should do, sleep with Andrew?"

"No, not unless you want to.  What I think you should do is stop staying
away from him.  Both of you are in the same boat.  Both of you are going
thought similar experiences right now.  You should not be afraid of leaning
on each other for support.  But most importantly I think both of you miss
each other."

"You're right. I do."

So do you think you can come over for Sunday brunch?"

"Will Andrew be there?"

"Well duh!"  Kyle laughed

"I know, ...stupid question.  I'll come."

"All right but just be sure to come alone."

"No Robert?"

"No. I think Andrew and you need so time without Robert hovering over."

"All right."

"Don' worry Josh, everything will turn out for the best regardless of who
you end up with."

Josh hung up the phone and made it back to the table about two minutes
before Robert did.  As soon as Robert came back he pulled Josh into a kiss
that tasted of cum.

"Ready to go?" Robert asked.

"Yeah sure."  Josh agreed.

They drove back to the apartment but as Robert got out of the car, Josh
went up to him and took the driver keys from him.

"Rob I need to go back to my house to pick up a few things."

"Want me to come with?"  Robert asked.

"No, I think I can handle it.  All I need to do is pick up some Sunday
cloths and a few business suites to wear next week.  That and some fresh
boxers, the ones I have now are starting to reek."

"Well hold off on getting the underwear and relax wear.  I want to take you
shopping."

"Have something in mind?"  Josh said with a sly grin.

"Well let's just say I'm UP to something."  Robert laughed with raised
eyebrows.

"You're wicked."

"Hey someone has to teach you how to have a good time."

"All right, I'll just bring my work cloths just promise me you won't be
going to buy a giant dildo or something kinky."

"No I promise that it will only be sexy."

"Ok, love you Rob."  Josh said as he gave Robert a quick peck on the cheek.

"Love you too Josh."  Robert smiled.  He really liked Josh's pet name for
him.  It was almost like a sign of trust and familiarly and it tickled him
inside.  Just so long as Glenn and Kyle didn't start calling him "Rob"
everything would be just fine.

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It was a good 45-minute drive before Josh arrived back at his house on the
other side of the river.  He went up stairs to the attic and brought down
the garment bag in which he crammed in three suits.  He also packed half a
dozen ties, mostly red, two pairs of shoes one brown the other black
leather, two belts of the same black color but with different buckles and
he stuffed four pairs of dress socks into his shoes.  He had just started a
shower so he could wash off the sweat from his dirty gym cloths when the
doorbell rang.  He had to rush to turn off the water, getting wet in the
process.  As he ran, his shorts and tank top clung to his body presenting a
alluring image to the man waiting at his door...Andrew.

       "Andrew?'  Josh gasped as he saw his old friend at his door for the
first time in over a half a year.

"Josh..."  Andrew replied as he stared and Josh's muscled chest as it clung
to his shirt.

"I didn't know you were coming."

"Well I was going to just leave a letter here ...then I saw your car."

"Come on in."  Josh said, stepping out of the way.

Andrew nodded his head and slipped past him crotch to crotch, Sharing how
he felt right now in see Josh wet with Josh's dick.

Andrew was also still dressed for the gym. He was in a gray tank top that
showed off his broad hairy blond chest and a pair of too short black
running shorts that only barely covered his groin.  Josh instinctively
licked his lips in seeing his friend exposing so much skin as he guided him
to the living room.  As soon as they entered Andrew, instead of taking a
seat in one of the chairs sat himself down on one side of the sofa making a
clear statement on where he wanted Josh to sit.  Josh taking this queue
took the spot next to him but a good hand's width apart from Andrew's bare
hairy legs.



"I hate being gay."  Where the first words out of Andrews mouth after Josh
sat.

"Why?"  Josh said but he felt he knew the answer.

"What's the point of being gay if you still can't be with the person you
love?"

"..."

"Josh... How do you feel about me?"

"I'm your friend.  At least I was your friend until I screwed things up."
Josh admitted.

"It was my fault for pushing this own you."  Andrew disagreed.

"Well now that we have both admitted we were at fault for what happened
what are we going to do now?"  Josh compromised.

"I want a second chance."  Andrew said in an almost pleading tone.

"..."

"Josh... do you still love me?'

Josh didn't make a sound but nodded his head yes as he stared at the floor.

"Can I love you?"  Was Andrew's second question.

Another nod of the head.

"Can we love each other?"  Andrew asked with tears running down his face.

Josh, this time no longer able to contain himself looked Andrew in the eye
before responding with a kiss.  It was a long kiss and by the time it was
done both men had their shorts off and Josh was on his back with Andrew on
top of him, both men's faces wet with tears.

"Josh, you don't know how lonely the gay life can be.  I tried living it
for six months and I never found anything more meaningful then you."
Andrew wept as he pressed his face into Josh's chest.

Josh let his finger run down Andrew's back as he tried to comfort his
friend.  It was a complete change for Josh.  Just days ago he had been the
man needing comfort from Robert about being gay.  Now, he needed to use the
lessons he learned to try to help his best friend.  The problem though for
Josh was he had not experienced what Andrew had so he didn't know what to
say.  So he continued to hold his friend in his arms until the crying began
to die down into a few hiccups.

Just when he was sure that Andrew had finally calmed down Josh felt a wet
tongue move across his nipple.  "What are you doing Andrew?"

"Something I learned from a guy I picked up at a bar."  Andrew said as if
in a daze.  He was in his own little world now that comprised only of
himself and the man he was in love with.

Josh knew that he needed to stop this but he found that he didn't want to.
Why should Robert fuck any man that made a pass at him while Josh felt
guilty about having sex with a good friend?  It was the fact that Josh had
feelings for this friend while Robert had none for the waiter he had just
banged.  The waiter could never break Josh and Robert up, Andrew could.
Then the words of Kyle entered his head reminding him of the fact that in
this stage of his sexual awakening he had no idea what would make him
happy.  Robert made him happy but then so did Andrew.  Should he give up on
one for the sake of the other this early in the game?  Andrew had also been
his first love.  It failed not because they stopped loving each other but
because Josh had become ridden with guilt.  That was the overriding fact on
why Josh allowed Andrew to continue.  He still loved Andrew and he was now
ready to admit it.

After working on both nipples, Andrew got off him and pulled down Josh's
shorts and boxers with one single pull.  He lifted the raunchy shorts to
his nose and gave them a sniff.  He then tossed them aside and gave Josh a
smile before pulling down his own shorts.  While Andrew was blond on top,
the hairs around his dick were a dark brown and now trimmed.  He gave
himself a few strokes while he played with his chest, squeezing out a few
drops of precum that he caught with the tip of his finger.  He then brought
that finger to Josh's mouth, wetting his lips with it before going in for
another kiss.

Josh pulled Andrew back down on top of him, letting his dick press against
his thigh.  Soon Andrew was humping his leg with long slow strokes leaving
a trail of precum that let his dick slide eaisier.  Josh remained fairly
passive during this time, just like he had the first and only other time
they had made love.  He liked watching Andrew's face change expression as
passion took over, the tight contagious smile, the lifting of the eyebrows,
and the flaring of the nose.  All of it added to Josh's sense that he was
making someone very happy which in turn made him happy.

As Andrew got more into it he moved his ass closer and closer to Josh's
dick until he was almost sitting on it.  Not ready to fuck or be fucked,
Josh stopped him by putting a hand on Andrew's arm as he jacked himself
off.

"What is it?"  Andrew asked concerned.

"No fucking."  Josh replied.

"But I want you to fuck me?"  Andrew said confused.

"I know... I'm just not ready for that."

"Wow, you are a rare treasure Josh, most people turn down being fucked but
you're the first to turn down being the top."

"I don't want to do that until it means something."

"All right.  Can we then suck each other off?"

"Well I don't know how yet?"

"You mean you've never had oral sex?  Robert must be loosing his touch."
Andrew laughed.

   "Well I've been on the receiving end but I've never given."  Josh
corrected.

"Well its pretty simple just take as much as you feel comfortable with and
watch out for the teeth.  You might want to cover them with your lips if
you think it might be a problem especially if you think you might choke."

"Wow you have learned a lot."  Josh said impressed.

"Well after 37 bad dates you learn real quick what you like."

"Did you have any good ones?"

"No, I guess you spoiled me."

"I bet you have a lot of stories."

"Yeah but that's now all in the past.  I want to concentrate on the future
but more specifically the present.  I need to teach you the fine art of
69ing."

"60 what?"

"Hahaha, I forgot that you spent most of your time on the farm."

"So what does it mean?"

"Well picture a number six in your mind."

"All right."

"Now imagine that the looped portion of the six is you head."

"Ok, what about the tail end of the number?"

"Well that's you're tail silly."  Andrew laughed as he grabbed Josh's dick.

"Ok, I think I get it.  Now what does the nine have to do with it?"

"Hahaha, you're really are hopeless Josh."

"Hey, I'm learning."

"I know, its just funny.  I knew what a 69 was even before I came out."

"Hey... are you picking on me?"

"No I'm just appreciating your innocence.  Now back to the numbers.  What
does a 9 look like when you turn it around 180 degrees."

"A six," Josh replied.

"Good, now put the same parts of the six on the nine, loop for the head and
a dick for the tail."

"All right."

"Now imagine that you're a six and I'm a nine."  Andrew grinned as he began
to climb on top of Josh.  "What part of the nine would be facing your
head?"



"The tail...ooooo."  Josh finally got it.  It would have been pretty hard
for him not to, Andrew now had his dick in his face."

"And what part of your six is now in my face."  Andrew grinned.

"My dick...I mean my tail."

"Same thing."  Andrew chuckled and he began to rub Josh's dick against his
face.  "So what is a 69, Josh?"

"A double suck off... I guess."  Josh said a little embarrassed

"Congratulation you win the grand prize."

"Which is?"

"My mouth on your hot prick."

"MmmMmm."  Josh replied.  He had already taken the hint and was now working
on Andrews dick.

They went at it for several minutes until Josh felt himself ready to shoot.
"Andrew you might want to take your mouth off my dick now."

"Why?"  Andrew said, not liking his suck interrupted

"I'm about to shoot."

"Great!"  Andrew returned and went back with more fervor

"Andrew...ANDREW!" Josh shouted now a little concerned.  Andrew was now
taking his dick all the way up to the pubes and he seemed to have no intent
on letting go.

Josh gave up and leaned back down but he didn't take Andrew's dick back
into his mouth.  He didn't think he could suck on it without biting now
that he was so close.  He shot off his load into Andrew's throat.  He had
expected Andrew to remove his mouth once he had calmed down but Andrew kept
at it, this time concentrating on the head that now seemed to be twice as
sensitive.  An almost giddy calm took over Josh and he let his eyes close.
He didn't know how long he remained like that but it was Andrew's lips
touching his that woke him from his daze.  Andrew then tongue fed him the
remaining cum he had gathered around his dick, sharing what he had tasted
with the man he loved.

Josh now felt a little guilty, not over having sex but for not sucking
Andrew off the same way he had.  "Let me finish you off."

"Josh you don't have to.  As I said it was my gift to you."

"Well let me give you a gift as well."  Josh said as he pushed Andrew back
so he was now on his back and Josh was on top of him.

As Josh sucked away, Andrew gave him a few pointers on how to take more in
and how to use his tongue.  He also grabbed Josh's free hand and moved it
to his balls, wanting Josh to pull on them as he too reached climax.  He
warned Josh when he was about to shoot.  Josh removed his mouth but
continued to lick around the bottom ridge of his dick like a candy cane.
When Andrew finally shot off, most of the cum hit him in the chest but some
of it dripped out near the end covering the head.  This Josh licked up
before giving his own kiss to Andrew.

Andrew held on to Josh until he was certain he was asleep.  The workout
Josh had in the morning and the sex in the afternoon wore him out.  The
fact that Josh was now asleep in his arms instead of running away like the
last time showed Andrew that Glenn had been right.  Josh just needed some
time to become comfortable with himself.  His only worry now was what to do
about Robert or more specifically what was Josh going to do.  Andrew wanted
Josh all for himself and from what Glenn and Kyle had hinted at Robert
wanted the same.  The only difference Andrew saw was that Robert wanted
Josh all to himself but wanted to still sleep with other men.  Andrew on
the other hand wanted Josh and no one else.  This gave him what he felt was
the moral high ground.  He just wished Josh would see him as the best
choice for a long-term relationship.  This did not mean he was going to
force the issue with Josh.  He had learned his lesson from the last time.
He just wanted both Josh and himself to be happy and he was sure that they
could both be so if they were together.

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When Josh awoke it was already dark inside the house.  Andrew was still
underneath him but was wide-awake.

"What time is it?"

"8:13 PM, you're not wearing you're watch?"  Andrew said in surprise.

"I gave that up when I finally came to terms of who I am and what I did
that night."

"...  I'm glad you finally gained some peace Josh."

"I wouldn't of if Robert hadn't finally come for me."

"Come for you?"

"Yes, I've known Robert from back in the days I was an orphan.  He was like
a big brother to me."

"Wow."  Andrew said stunned.  How was he supposed to compete against that?

"When I finally found him again and found out he was also gay, it became
less of an issue for me.  If my childhood hero was gay... how could it be
wrong?"

Andrew wanted to ask why having your best friend being gay was not enough,
but instead he bit his tongue.  Many issues with sexuality start off when
one is young and it probably took Josh resolving some of his feeling from
childhood before he could accept himself.  Andrew couldn't tell.  One thing
Josh rarely talked about was his past.

"I better be going.  Robert is probably wondering where I am"

"Can't you stay with me?"

"Andrew I will be honest.  I love both of you.  It might be better if I
just didn't see either one of you until I can make up my mind on which one
of you to date but I know that neither one of you want that."

"You need some more time."  Andrew said in defeat.

"I need to find out what I need and what I can give."

"I understand."

"Andrew... I love you, don't doubt that but also don't doubt that I love
Robert as well.  I'm not being fair to the two of you and I think that I
need to gain some perspective over what has happened over these short few
days."

"So you're going to stop seeing both of us."

"When it comes to sex... yes."

"What does that leave us?"

"Friendship... A new friendship based on our new understanding on how we
feel about each other."

"I see... you know that you'll end up hurting both Robert and me with this
decision."

"I know and I'm sorry for that."

"Well as long as you don't shut me off like last time I'll be fine with
it."

"I won't, ...I promise."

So are you going over to Robert's now?"

     "Yes, just like you I think he deserves an explanation face to face
instead of a phone call."

"Then I wish you well Josh.  Call me when you get back."

"No, I think I need the rest of the night by myself.  I'll call you
tomorrow."

"All right.  Take care Josh."  Andrew said as he began putting his cloths
back on and heading for the door."

"Bye Andrew."

After Andrew had left Josh hurried and took the shower he had missed.  He
was going to tell Robert what had just happened but he saw no reason to
throw it into his face by coming back smelling like sex.  When he was
cleaned up he dressed himself in a pair of brown pants and a plaid shirt
before heading back to Robert's apartment.  It was almost ten o'clock by
the time he arrived.  He took the elevator up to his floor and found Robert
leaning against the outside of his door.

Robert halfway rushed to Josh a fevered look in his eyes but when he saw
that Josh was not carrying a suitcase he stopped.

"Where were you?"  Robert asked.

"I was at the house...where I was met by someone."

"Andrew?"  Robert said with a hope that the answer would be no.

"Yes."

"You still love him."

"Yes... and I still love you as well."

"How can you!  How can you love more then one person?"  Robert said.

"While it might seem weird that Robert would complain about such a thing,
it was because he rarely gave his heart to anyone.  In fact he only knew
two people he had ever done so, Josh and Lance.

"I just do.  That's why I can't move in with you Robert.  It wouldn't be
fair to either of you."

"I don't care if you fuck him Josh.  Don't leave me."  Robert said when the
reality of Josh's statement sunk in.

"But you do care if I love him Robert, which I do."

"Please... I don't want to be alone again."

Josh walked up and took Robert in his arms.  "I know Robert.  That's why
none of the rumors about you ever bothered me.  I know you are lonely."

"I'll give up the baths, the bars, and even the waiters if you will stay
with me."

"I'm sure you would try Robert but I don't want you to, especially if it
will cause resentment between us."

"Don't you love me?"

"Yes Robert I do... even as much as you want me to.  But I have to be fair
to both of you and myself.  I can't let myself be torn apart trying to make
both of you happy."

"Just being with you makes me happy."

"And that won't change."

"I don't understand.  How is this to work, you not feeling divided, if you
are going to see us both."

"I don't know how it will work."  Josh said frustrated.

"Hon... I'm sorry.  I wasn't thinking.  Andrew must be a great guy."

"He would have to be to compete with you."  Josh agreed as he rested his
head on Robert's chest.

"I wish I could do something to make it easier for you but I'm not going to
give up on you Josh and I bet that Andrew won't either."

"I know."

"Well Josh, I love you regardless which one of us you pick I will always be
your friend."