Date: Sat, 1 Jan 2005 13:35:56 -0700
From: Wade Wright <wadewright@att.net>
Subject: Chpt. 2 for -- "You Want What?"     Male/Gay Beginnings

			      You Want What?

				Chapter Two

			      By Wade Wright

	"No, No Jamie!  No!  Don't fuck me, please!  No!  Don't!  Please, I
can't take that!"  Mike actually screamed, and attempted to jump up as
Jamie told him he just had to fuck his ass.
	"OK, OK I won't!"  Jamie quickly reassured Mike.  "You're OK, I
won't fuck you if you don't want me to.  I'm sorry, I'm sorry!"
	"Hey Jamie, ---Jamie I know, inside, mentally, I really do want you
to fuck me, but I just can't take it.  Jamie, I tried sticking part of a
hammer handle up in my ass once, and it just plain hurt too damn bad!
Jamie, I wanted to fuck my own ass once, and I just can't take something up
in my butt.  I'm sorry man, I'm sorry but I know I just can't take it!  And
besides, for God's sake man, look at the size of dick you've got too man!
There's no way in hell man I could let you fuck me!"
	"Hey hey Mike!  Calm down man, I'm not going to fuck you.  You're
OK!"
	"Oh thanks man!  Thanks!"
	As Jamie put Mikes' legs back down and then laid down on him and
slightly rubbed his sides and his chest to calm him back down, he asked,
"So Mike, you tried to fuck yourself with what,---a hammer handle once?  Is
that what you said?"
	"Yea, I did.  I didn't think I'd ever have to admit that to
anybody, but yea I did.  It was probably 10 or 12 years ago.  I was home
all by myself and was working in the garage, and I guess I was horny.
Anyway, I was just messing around with some stuff in the garage and all of
a sudden I wondered what it would feel like to stuff something up in my
ass.  I was home alone so I knew nobody was going to come in and see what I
was doing, so the more I thought about it, the more excited I got, and I
dropped my pants and tried to fuck myself with the handle of a hammer.  It
just didn't work!  I tried!  I really did, cause the more I thought about
it, the more excited I got over wanting to feel something up in there.
Jamie, I just couldn't get it up in me, and I thought I was tearing my ass,
all up, the way it hurt.  I was really excited and I guess I kept trying
longer than I should have, and was pushing harder than I should have too."
	"Mike, did you use any lube on it?  You've got to use some kind of
lube on it, especially something like a hammer handle."
	"No, no I didn't!  I guess I probably should have, but when I got
to thinking about sticking something up in there, I just got all excited
and just wanted to see what it would feel like, but then it just plain hurt
too bad and I had to quit.  I got all excited about fucking myself before I
even knew what I was going to use.  I looked around for something and
that's when I saw the hammer.  I thought I could take that.  It didn't look
too big, but man, it was!  Later I kind of wished that I had tried
something like maybe the broom handle or something a lot thinner.  But
then, I was too afraid to try something else.  I didn't want it to feel
like the handle did and I was afraid that it might!"
	As Jamie laid there and softly talked to Mike, he reassured Mike
that things could be OK, and not to always think getting fucked would feel
like it did when he tried to fuck his ass with the hammer handle.  Then he
rather laughed and told Mike he was just glad he had not tried to use the
other end of the hammer.
	"Mike, seriously, you really needed to use some lube.  A hammer
handle is not the best thing in the world to start getting fucked by.
Really man, I'm not surprised it hurt.  Trust me, I'm not going to try and
fuck you.  You got way too upset when I said I was going to do that, but
Mike, you really can get fucked.  Guys get fucked all the time.  And with
dicks bigger than mine!"
	"Man, I know I should be able to.  I know guys fuck each other all
the time, and I guess that's why I got myself so excited that day when I
was home all alone and started fantasizing about doing that."
	"Mike, have you ever tried to use a dildo on yourself?"
	"No!  No man, I'm a married guy!  I can't have things like dildos
around the house.  And besides, I'm hardly ever home by myself so that I
could even use it."
	"But you'd like to if you could, wouldn't you?"
	"Yea, ---guess I wanted to once, since I did try to do myself that
day in the garage, but after that day and as badly as that hurt, I'm not
sure I'll ever try that again."
	"Mike, relax, I promise you I'm not going to do anything that you
don't want, but I do have some dildos, and when you decide you might want
to see if you can take one up in your hot little ass, I've got a small one
that you can start with."
	"Hey Jamie, thanks man.  Seriously when you got all excited and
told me you needed to fuck me, I do admit I got really scared.  I don't
know if I'll ever try putting something back up in my butt again, but let
me decide that later.  OK?  Hey, for now, can you just kind of lick on me
and maybe suck on my dick a little.  I've got to admit, when you got all
excited and said you had to fuck me, I kind of all freaked out.  Jamie, I
need to calm back down.  Let's face it, man.  When I left the office today,
I sure as hell never expected to be doing what I'm doing now, so I need to
take things kind of slow.  OK?"
	"Hey man, I understand.  Really I do.  Just lay there and let me
take care of you.  You're OK, I'm just going to lick you, taste you, rub
you and put that dick of yours in my mouth and suck real hard on it.  Maybe
after I suck on you for awhile, then maybe your ass will get all anxious to
try something up in there again."
	"Yea Jamie, play with me for awhile.  Seriously man, I'm not sure
about putting anything up in my butt today.  For some reason, I feel like I
need to think about doing that for some time, and then maybe decide later
if I can do it or not. OK?"
	"Hell yes man!  Hell yes!"  Jamie quickly replied as he looked up
at Mike's face, just moments before he impaled his mouth with Mike's beef
steak.  "Hell yes man!  From they way you are now talking, I'm getting the
idea that maybe, just maybe tonight is not going to be the last time you
come to visit me, right?"
	As Mike laid back and enjoyed the feeling of Jamie on top of him,
and the feeling of Jamie's hands rubbing up and down his body line, and
noticing also the warm breath hitting his stomach as Jamie approached his
raging hardon, he answered.  "Well man, it's up to you.  I'll admit, I sure
as hell never expected to be doing this tonight, but Jamie, the more you
play with me and feel me, the more excited I am about being here.  I've
never, never, told anybody else about getting sucked off in that locker
room that day, and I sure as hell, have never told anybody about me trying
to fuck my own ass with that hammer handle.  So I guess now I feel like
I've pretty well given you all of me, and now I feel like I've got me a new
friend, like none that I've ever had before.  Jamie, I admit, I've wanted
to play with some guy for a long time now, or at least wanted to find out
what it was like, but things just never worked out where I could.  I'm
glad, really glad, you told me there at the bus stop that you wanted to
suck my cock, or whatever it was you said.  Shocked the shit out of me at
the time, but thank God you had the guts to do it.  This is feeling good."
	Jamie looked up at Mike, smiled and said.  "Mike, that makes me
feel good!  And, I'm damn glad you took it OK, and didn't get pissed at me.
If I had known earlier that you had been wanting to see what playing with a
guy was like, it sure as hell would not have taken me two weeks to get
around to telling you I wanted to play with you.  So I'm the first guy
you've ever played with, I assume, or ----are there still things to tell?"
Jamie asked as he looked up at Mike, grinned a large smile and then
immediately placed the back of his throat and his tonsils on Mike's rod.
	"Oh man!  Oh Jamie,-the more you do that, the more I'm just fucking
melting.  Yea-you are right.  I could tell from the way you asked that last
question, --you know damn well that dick's been sucked on by other guys,
don't you?"
	Without taking Mike's dick out of his mouth, Jamie tipped his head
up so he could look into Mike's eyes, and just grunted a "Yea" as he
attempted a mouthful of cock smile at Mike.  He then uttered, "Tell me,
tell me."
	"Jamie I've never had it as nice as I'm getting it tonight.  I've
never been in some guy's house where I could lay down and let him lay on
top of me like this. All of my previous blow jobs have been in the car, in
the bed of some guys old rattle pickup truck, or in some dark alley, some
damn dirty place where, with some guy that probably didn't even have a
home, could kneel down in front of me, grab my crotch, open my pants and
take my dick like he hadn't had anything to eat in days.  Every blow job
I've ever had, well except for Georgie and the locker room, has been in
some dark and stinking place where I had to keep watching for cars to come
by, hoping that some cop didn't drive by right then.  I've wanted to do it
like this for years and years, but tonight is the first time I've ever
gotten to.  Jamie, this is nice, real nice!  real nice!"
	Jamie listened to Mike tell about his prior experiences, and as he
did he managed to eat even that much more of Mike's stiff stick, and
actually feel that what was then happening was really a little more than
just sucking and having sex.  He was really feeling a sharing of a true
love, being expressed by Mike in the way he was describing his prior times.
Jamie was feeling very good that he had managed to gain enough courage, to
tell Mike that he wanted to suck on him.
	Jamie pulled off of Mike's dick and slid his face up Mike's stomach
line, and slowly slid his face over so that his lips were now directly on
Mike's right nipple.
	"Oh yea man!  Oh yea!"  Mike almost yelled as he watched and felt
Jamie place his mouth on his tit.  "Oh yea-oh man that feels so damn good!
Oh man, yea suck on my tit!"
	With that encouragement, Jamie took Mike's right nipple into his
mouth and so very slightly bit down, just a little.  Remembering Mike's
fear of getting it up in the ass, Jamie did not want to freak Mike out by
biting too hard.  He really did want Mike to ask for it, and he did.
	"Oh yea, chew on my tit!  Oh man, please, please chew on it,
please!"
	Jamie reacted to the instruction and not only chewed on it, but he
sucked it very strongly, and then, as he released the strong suck, he bit
firmly.  Mike jumped and jerked, but he did not tell Jamie to stop.  He
just grunted and groaned a very accepting grunt, and he grabbed Jamie
around the chest and squeezed.  Jamie took that as a signal of OK, and also
maybe a signal to move over to the left tit.
	As Jamie placed his mouth on Mike's left tit, Mike grabbed hold of
Jamie and squeezed him very tightly.  "Yes man yes!  Oh yes bite my tit!
Bite me man, bite me!  I like that !  I like that!  Oh my God Jamie, I like
that!  I've never felt that before!  Do me some more!  Oh Jamie that is
feeling so good.  Man, I've never felt that before.  Jamie, that's the
first time I've ever been chewed on, and you probably won't believe me, but
tonight's the first time I've ever sucked on some guy's cock.  Jamie, you
are the first guy I've ever sucked on.  You're the first guy to ever put
his dick in my mouth.  I've been sucked on probably 15 or 20 times, but
I've never sucked on some other guy until I did you tonight.  Seriously
man, when you dropped your pants and I saw that dick, I about went out of
my mind wanting to suck on it.  I've never felt that way before.  I've
never really ever wanted to suck on some guy.  I've always wanted him to
just suck me off and then let me go.  I've always figured that I was
wanting to re-live that day in the locker room when I was held down so that
Georgie could suck on me.  I guess that was more exciting to me than what I
wanted to admit, wasn't it?  When I grabbed you and pulled you toward me
and put my mouth on your dick, I didn't know for sure what I was doing, but
I knew I had to do it!  I just kind of spaced out knowing that I had to put
your dick in my mouth and in as far as I could get it.  Jamie, I was kind
of possessed.  The sight of your dick made me kind of go crazy, until I
heard you say that you needed to fuck me.  Then all of a sudden, I guess I
kind of snapped out of it and came to.  Really before that, I felt like I
was someplace else.  Felt good, but kind of, out there, so to say.  I guess
my mind just went kind of crazy just wanting to feel your cock in my mouth
for a little while.  Man, I've never felt that way before!  Oh Jamie, this
is so good!  Man, this is good!"