Date: Tue, 09 Nov 1999 13:29:55 EST
From: boywonder9999@hotmail.com
Subject: Heartfelt Crush

All usual disclaimers apply. Do not try to live out your fantasies, there 
are reasons why they are fantasies and should stay as such.

Heartfelt Crush

    I was a cub scout back when I was nine years old. Our pack leader was 
the man of my dreams and I had the deepest crush I've ever known on him. He 
was tall compared to me, at 5'11" to my 4'5". I was small but quick and 
could outrun most of my fellow cubs in all the games we played but I would 
let myself get caught by Brian. He was somebody special in my life.

   My father wasn't a very prominent figure in my life but I never really 
missed him while I had Brian to look up to. My dad was a plant manager over 
at the Aluminum siding factory and was always late coming home from work. He 
would be tired and cranky, especially when he had to work Saturdays aswell. 
It was my mother who would take me to cubs every tuesday and thursday nights 
and I would notice that same look in her eyes that I would get whenever I 
saw Brian. He was handsome and fit in his early thirties having recently 
retired from the air force. My mother would always say "You behave tonight 
Mark, and don't you give Brian any trouble. I'll be back at 8 to pick you 
up." She would always wait until she caught Brian's eye, then wave before 
taking off. I'm sure now she had a crush on him too.

   Our pack had a traditionnal Father-son camping trip come early June. When 
I brought this to my father's attention he just shook his head and went into 
a long speech about how he had too much work to even consider watching the 
Sunday afternoon ball game let alone take a weekend to go camping.

  That following Tuesday I approached Brian and told him I couldn't go 
because my dad was too busy. "Well that's no problem Mark, it doesn't have 
to be a father-son trip. I'm going and I don't have a son, so I don't see 
why you can't go without a father". I was so pleased by this news I just 
wanted to kiss him then and there.

   We left for our campsite early that Saturday morning, the weather was 
amazingly hot and the sun was scorching the already burn grass. I travelled 
with my neighbour Justin and his dad with another father-son  duo, because 
Justin's dad owns a minivan. Justin's dad was the worst driver I've ever 
seen, I don't think he did more than 80kph the whole trip. I was anxious not 
to miss a moment with Brian and I found myself holding my breath. Just 
thinking about Brian in his swimming trunks was giving me a painful 
erection.

   Our group was the last group arriving, everybody else who arrived before 
us was busy setting up tents or building a kitchen like area. Brian came 
walking up to us and gave us all a warm welcome, I got a particularly 
charming smile, he must have seen that look I get in my eyes. "C'mon Mark, 
let's go set up our tent!" I was speechless at this news, I got to sleep 
next to him?! I walked like a puppy, following him to where a tent bag was 
laid out on the ground. There were no other tents near our own, and I began 
to wonder."Isn't this place wonderful?! The ground is naturally flat here, 
not a root to be seen." Once we had finished setting up the tent, we joined 
the others for the rest of the afternoon. Once in a while I'd look at Brian 
and catch him staring at me, he would look away then  back at me and smile. 
The afternoon faded away into darkness, when the campfire burned down we all 
retired to our tents. I stayed out with Brian to help clean up the campsite, 
putting things in sealable packs, getting things away from the bears. Brian 
and I walked to our tent. I felt a hand on my shoulder, and Brian said, 
"Thanks for helping out Mark, it would've taken me forever to clean that 
mess up." The warmth in his hand seemed to translate into warmth in my 
loins, my penis was stiffening in my shorts and I'm sure my cheeks were 
flushed. I passed beneath the tent flap and Brian was close behind. I 
undressed quickly, so I would be able to watch Brian without interuption. I 
was sitting on my sleeping bag cross legged to hide my own erection, as I 
noticed a protrusion from the fly of his boxers. This was my chance. I 
crawled towards him on my hands and knees. He was straight backed and on his 
knees, his hard cock pointing right at me through his fly. I stopped inches 
in front of it and said "May I?". My hand seemed to have a mind of its own. 
It reached out and took his cock by the base and with the other I pulled his 
boxers down to his knees. Once before I had sucked one of my friends after 
school one day in my back shed, but we were only playing around. Here, with 
this man who I thought the world of I would certainly do all I could to 
pleasure him. I moved forward, licking my lips and gently kissed the 
pulsating head. One hand on the base and the other rolling his testicles 
between my fingers, I began to lick along the underside of his penis. I 
stroked his eight inch cock back and forth with a continual rhythm. Gently 
teasing the shaft and bulb, licking gently, sometimes with a mad passion. 
Brian was moaning softly, and I don't think that I've ever been happier in 
my life, as I was then and there, pleasing the man I knew I loved. His 
precum was forming and oozing out into my mouth, I increased the speed of my 
ryth, pulling at his skin, pushing it back, squeesing his balls in my other 
hand, taking his cock all the way to the back of my throat, controlling the 
gag reaction by knowing that the more I took in, the better it would feel 
for Brian. He was moaning louder now, and he was running his hands through 
my hair. He was having a hard time trying not to thrust his hips into my 
face, driving his cock that much further into my mouth, he knew this was my 
first time with a man and I'm sure he didn't want to hurt me. "I'm about to 
cum Mark, don't feel as if you have to swallow now." I increased my rythm 
once again to a feverish pitch. He exploded into my mouth, his cum rapidly 
filling what space was not occupied by his penis. I swallowed what I could 
and let what I couldn't shoot out onto my chest and face while pumping 
furiously, milking what was left out of him. His orgasm seemed to last 
forever. After he caught his breath, we layed down next to each other in a 
what I would have liked to have been a perpetual embrace.
"Mark, I can't believe we just did that! Now it's your turn. Lie on your 
back." I did as I was told and Brian went to work on me.

   He gently ran the tip of his fingers up my sides, circling my nipples and 
then giving each one a quick pinch. Brian straddled me low down over my legs 
and lowered his mouth to my chest, tracing the small grooves of my stomach 
with his tongue. I got goose bumps all over my body, this sensation was 
driving me mad, the anticipation, never knowing where he would turn his 
attention to next. My body would tremble whenever he would near my hard 
nipples with his tongue. Brian took my left nipple first into his mouth and 
sucked with his lips while swirling the nub around with his hot, wet tongue. 
I thought right there and then, without him even touching my dick, that I 
was about to climax. He must have sensed this because he pulled away and let 
me cool down for a second, watching me with a smile beneath him, before 
moving down towards my groin. He began to massage my upper and inner thighs 
with his powerful hands, stroking up towards my eagerly awaiting penis. I 
knew what was comming, and the waiting was killing me. He paid great 
attention to my hairless pubic area, taking my smooth sack in his hand and 
massaging it with care. Brian was stroking the underside of my 4" cock with 
his index finger sending a wonderful sensation up my spine. I could feel his 
warm breath close to my penis, poised to send me over the brink from within 
the confines of his mouth. His tongue, in one long, wet, hot lick, went from 
the base to the tip of cock then back again, as if he were licking an ice 
cream cone and didn't want to spill a drop. Reality faded away as I slipped 
into this incredible fantasy come true.I let myself relax and placed my 
entire trust into this man, his head between my legs giving the greatest 
pleasures I had ever known. Inside his mouth, my dick was thrashed about by 
Brian's tongue, I could feel myself beginning to climax. There was no 
controlling the feelings and sensations I was experiencing. I wanted to 
scream out in pleasure, but couldn't knowing that if I did, I might betray 
the both of us to everyone nearby. And then it happened. I had the most mind 
blowing orgasm in my entire life. Brian continued to suck at my still hard 
dick, throbbing in his mouth as the final after-shocks racked my small body. 
He pulled himself up to me and I cuddled into his arms. We lay there, 
tracing each other's bodies with our fingers. I concentrated on his slightly 
hairy chest and stomach, he on my smooth shoulders and neck.
    As I traced down farther than his lower stomach, his cock came to life 
once more. Rising beneath my touch, filling with blood to it's full height 
and massing glory. "I want to thank you Brian. Please let me thank you" I 
whispered. I lifted myself up onto my hands and knees, spreading my legs and 
arching my back, exposing my tight hole to him. "Mark" he said "I'm much too 
big for you. I probably do some damage in there."
"Then just take it slow, I know I can handle it. Please Brian, I want to 
feel you in me." I could hear him working up some saliva, and spreading it 
on his cock. "Mark? You tell me when it starts to hurt and I'll stop, 
alright?" I merely moaning in agreement. He placed one hand on my hip and 
the other was guiding what was soon to be within me nearer to my hole. I 
relaxed and tried to widen my anus as much as I could from my end. I was 
waiting anxiously while I heard a zipper and some other noises I couldn't 
define. "What are you doing?" I asked. "There was some vaseline in the first 
aid kit, that will help take some of the pain away" he said. Still in the 
same position, I could feel a slippery finger penetrate my anus, squishing 
around, then another, trying to loosen me up. Once the fingers were 
withdrawn, I knew what was comming next. His cock was at the hole and with a 
slow but consistent thrust, he forced past my sphincter, pushing in deeper 
and deeper. I felt full and sore inside, but held this to myself knowing 
what pleasure Brian was getting out of my pain. "Keep going" i said for 
encouragement. He went in as far as possible then started to pull out again. 
Forward once again, this time a little faster and a little deeper than 
before. Brian was moaning and so I let out one of my own. He reached around 
me and took my hard cock in his fist and started pumping with the same rhythm 
that he was pumping my ass. Faster and faster we went driving towards 
ecstacy. I could feel myself reaching the point of orgasm one more time, but 
tried to hold it back until Brian was ready behind me. His rhythm increased 
and I felt for the first time a man climax inside me, filling me with his 
seed. I too orgasmed at that point but I didn't release and sperm, I wasn't 
old enough yet. He continued pumping the both of us until his cock slipped 
out of my rectum. He turned me onto my back and kissed me firm on the lips, 
slipping his tongue into my mouth, seeking out my own.
    We cleaned each other up before slipping into one sleeping bag together. 
He kissed me softly on my neck and whispered in my ear " You can never tell 
anyone what we did tonight Mark, I could get into a lot of trouble. I really 
enjoyed what we did and would like to do it again some time if you would." I 
turned over so that my chest was up against his. I looked him straight in 
his beautiful blue eyes and said " I love you Brian, and this love affair 
will our little secret."
   That night we fell asleep in each others arms. I couldn't wait to see 
what would develop, and things certainly did.


    To be continued.....