Date: Thu, 28 Sep 2000 21:26:07 +0930
From: papernquill@hotmail.com
Subject: secret diary of toby wilson 2 part

The secret diary of Toby Wilson
Part 11

There was no where else to look.  Toby sat on the end of his bed a closed
his eyes.  "Where could It be for 'f' sake!" Tears of frustration and worry
began to roll down his cheeks. Toby scanned the room one more time just
incase, but to no avail.
" Mum must have my diary, why else would she want to see me, and why has
father come home early from work?" There was nothing left for him to do; he
could stay in his room and avoid the whole situation or he could go down
stairs and face the music.  Toby stood, wiped his eyes and walk to the door.
He had almost walked through it when he stopped and retreated to his bed.
He decided he would give Craig a ring and see if he had any ideas.
Craig was brilliant at getting out of trouble. Toby has always been in awe
at his ability to twist things just enough to make it impossible for him to
be wrong.  Sometimes he gets things so confusing that eventually people just
give up, forgetting what they were originally talking about.  Toby dialed
Craig's number.  Tears began to well again as the phone began to ring.  Toby
was scared.  Scared because he didn't want his mum and Dad to find out about
his sexual contact with Craig. Scared that he would be stopped from seeing
him even, He was terrified knowing that his father was going to hit the
ceiling and most importantly he was worried how Craig was going to react.
Craig never liked Toby's diary.   He knew that Toby didn't document too much
of his private life, but he did document everything down to the last detail
from camp.
Craig would quite often ask Toby to take those pages out and keep them some
place else just incase.

The phone had almost rung out before Craig's Dad answered it.
"hello?" said Craig's Dad, panting as he had run in from the front garden,
where he was mowing the lawn.
" Hi Pa, its me." Toby and Craig always call his Dad Pa.  Steve, Craig's
Dad, has been good to Toby; A kind word here and there, and a hug every now
and then for now reason.  Toby loved him and Craig's mum very much.  "Is
Craig there?"  Toby tried to sound as un-panicked as possible.
" yeah  he is here Toby, but he is fast asleep and I don't want to wake him
he was dog tired.  He came in the door and Craig and Barney (barney, Craig's
dog) went straight to bed.  Why don't you ring back in an hour or so
Shorty."  Toby knew it was a waste of time arguing with Steve.
"Ok Pa, if he wakes up can you get him to ring me, its quite important."
" Sure thing buddy! Is everything ok Toby? Is there something I can.."  Pa
was cut off by Toby.  "Yeah everything's ok honest, it can wait.  See ya."
"Ok Tobs see ya."  Toby hung up the phone, knowing that he was on his own
this time.  He took a deep breath and again made his way to the door to face
the music.  He often thought about what he would say if he and Craig were
ever caught or challenged, and he failed miserably, and the here and now is
no different.

Meanwhile in the Kitchen

Toby's mother is sitting at the breakfast bar drinking a coffee. She was
distracted and surprised to see her husband come through the door.
"Peter what are you doing home?" She stands and helps him through the door
as he is clearly in distress.
"Oh I don't know, I started feeling ill when I got up this morning, but I
though it was because we had such a late night."  Peter sat down and cupped
his head in his hands.  Toby's mum moved to his side and put her arm around
him.  Toby arrived silently at the kitchen door.
" I feel so utterly sick to my stomach." Mary began to rub peters back in
sympathy, neither parent had noticed Toby.  Toby felt the blood leave his
body; his heart pounded furiously and tears instantly welled in his eyes.
Toby stepped back, as his emotions bombarded him uncontrollably.  "They
know! I knew that would be Dads reaction! "  Toby knew he was finished his
Dad was going to disown him.  The situation was serious.  If he had broken a
window or scratched the car his Dad would be pissed beyond measure, but he
would get over it.  But this was different. Sex always moves things into a
different arena, an arena where kids were not admitted.  Toby thought he was
going to run, he was not sure where, just away.  Somewhere where he could
not be found; where nobody knew him.  He closed his eyes and allowed his
tears to roll silently down his face unto the floor.  Toby turned ready to
make his exit but was stopped by words said the night before. He remembered
the sincerity behind Craig's words. "I just don't want to play games
anymore."
It gave Toby strength, a kind of inner courage.  He knew that the things he
had shared with Craig were important to him, as was his love.  " I do love
him! I love him and I don't care who knows."  Shouted Toby in his head.
Strange warmth came over him as he turned to face his parents.  He dried his
eyes and summoned their attention.
" Hi Mum.. Dad."
 Toby walked into the kitchen and sat next to his father.  His actions
appeared bold as brass on the outside, but really he was shitting himself.


Luke's Place.

Luke walked into the bathroom, closely followed by his brother Nick.  Luke
and Nicholas often showered together.  It has been something they have
always done ever since they were youngsters.  There was a time not long ago
when they hated to be apart full stop.  It is not unusual for identical
twins to have such a bond, and to share beds, showers etc especially when
they are young.  Their parents know that they shower together but have never
chosen   to stop them.  I imagine that they were not aware of what they were
doing in there.

 "Well come on Luke Tell! "  Nick was taking off his clothes and trying to
pry information out of his brother.  Luke just smiled and turned the water
on.
" God calm down Nick your going to piss yourself in a minute." Luke climbed
under the water and allowed the warm spray to roll over his shoulders.  By
now Nick had entered also, still chopping at the bit.
"Come on Luke you know I like all the details."  Nick put his back to Luke
and Luke began to wash Nicks hair.
" Its weird Nick. I feel weird."
"Well there's probably a reason for that." said Nick rolling his eyes as
Luke massaged the shampoo onto his  hair.
"No! not us, I mean the situation with David."
"well what do you mean?"
"Well you know when we do Stuff, its just fun yeah?"
"Yeah.?"
"Well Dave is different, I feel the same about him even when we are not
doing stuff, its like just being with him is enough.."   Luke and nick
swapped places and Nick started to wash Luke's hair.
" You mean like you're in love?" Nick was more disappointed than shocked, he
always got very jealous of Luke.   Luke began to get palpitations and his
heart move to his throat,  "Yeah.. I guess."
Nick felt a little more uncomfortable, jealous.  He didn't have to say
anything, his silence said too much. Luke turned and put his arms around his
brother.
"Nick, I will still love you, I will always love you." Luke kissed his
brother and they hugged again.
"luke I know.  I just felt a little left out that's all. "  Both boys left
the shower and were drying themselves.
"I'm not really sure where all this is going to end up Nick, but it feel
kind of cool."  Luke was glowing as he sat on the closed lid of the toilet
to dry his legs.
" well bro, you still haven't told me what you got up to last night."
Luke turned his head with a devious look on his face," you want me to show
you"?

****

Cross communication

" Hey Kid, Said Toby's dad tapping the stool next to him.  Toby was a little
shocked by his father's lack of anger.
" What's up Dad, you look terrible?"
" I felt a little sick at work so I've come home."  Toby started to feel
like a bit of a drama queen.
"Mum what did you want to talk to me about."
" Oh yeah!  We were talking with Craig's Mum and Dad last night."  Toby's
heart stopped.
" Oh yeah? " said Toby nonchalantly.
" Anyway, Craig's Mum is coming up for long service next month and they are
going on a six week cruise.  But because you and Craig are in your exam year
they have asked if Craig could come and stay with us while they go away."
Toby didn't know what to say, he was totally lost.  He was both excited,
relieved, he had experienced every emotion knew to the world in the last
half an hour, and he was mentally exhausted.
"Mum that would be so cool!"
"Well you say that now Toby but you will have to share your room with him,
and its all fun in the beginning but when you are use to have your room to
yourself and then suddenly have to share, it can be a very different story."
Said Toby's Dad.
Toby didn't give a damb about sharing his room with Craig.  Craig could have
everything he owned for all he cared. " the things we will get up.."  said
Toby to himself, he even had to discreetly adjust his stiffy.
"does craig know?" said Toby standing from his stool.
"No we thought you would like to ask him yourself, he thinks he will be
going to his Auntie Sues.
Toby was so excited.  Toby went to rush out of the room to ring Craig.  He
stopped and kissed both his parents. " I love you guys! "  were his last
words as his disappeared, leaving his parents with jus the memory of his
presence.
Toby's Dad felt a warm glow deep down.  Toby had never kissed him before,
and he had certainly never told him he loved him.  Mr Wilson looked at his
wife, smiling as she prepared some disgusting stomach thing from a packet. "
I am the luckiest man alive." warmed Mr Wilson to himself. The memory of
Toby's kiss rained on his heart. " I need to tell that boy I love him more
often."  He was even a little choked, but he put that down to his sickly
state. "here you go my little soldier."  Said mrs Wilson handing Him his
drink.   Peter and Mary touched hands as she passed him the glass.  "I love
you Mrs Wilson." Mary has knocked back a little, as this was not normal
behavior for Peter. "and I love you MR Wilson..

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I hope you enjoyed part 11.  Part 12 is on the way.
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