Date: Thu, 12 Nov 1998 02:07:37 EST
From: MindPieces <samuraisupremo@hotmail.com>
Subject: Afflecktion- Parts 3 & 4

Okay everyone, here is what some of you have been awaiting, the next couple
parts of Afflecktion. I'd once again like to thank everyone for their
comments and encouragement, and remind you to keep me updated on your
thoughts by e-mailing me at MindPieces <samuraisupremo@hotmail.com>.
Remember, this is complete fiction...but a guy can fantasize right?


Afflecktion- Part 3
By MindPieces

	Matt's words hit me like a speeding train, leaving me sitting in
front of him speechless and dumbfounded. I wasn't sure what was going
on. Why would Ben lie to me? Or maybe he had told the truth, and Matt was
lying to me just to create tension between Ben and I. Neither of my
theories seemed to hold much water, and each of them must have run through
my head in a split second as I sat there. Finally I managed to form a
complete sentence.
	"No, he didn't tell me." I tried to act cool, like what he had said
was no big deal.
	"Oh, I guess I figured he would have." Matt took a sip from his
drink. "Did he mention anything about me?"
	"Well he told me that you're straight," I said, looking into Matt's
eyes to glimpse his reaction.
	"Straight?" Matt let out a small laugh. "Ben certainly knows better
than that."
	"So ummm...how long were you guys...you know, together?" I finally
decided to let my curiosity get the best of me.
	"For about a year or so. I'd known Ben was gay for years, but I
never really told him I was until we were in the middle of making Good Will
Hunting. We were together from then until a couple weeks before the Oscars,
and now we're just best friends, which is how we started out anyway."
	"And what about Casey?" I asked, trying to see how far Ben's lies
had gone. "Is he straight?"
	"Oh yeah," Matt quickly replied. "Casey is as straight as they
come. Just look at him out there on the dance floor with that girl."
	The confusion was really starting to get to me by that time. All I
could think about was getting out of that place, and then maybe going and
talking to Ben. As much as I wanted to know the truth about this situation,
I didn't really know if I wanted to face him. I didn't even know if I'd be
able to look him straight in the eye. I figured I might as well see what
answers I could get from Matt, even though I couldn't be sure if he was
giving me the whole truth either.
	"So what was it?" I asked, coming out of my own thoughts for a
moment.
	"What was what?" Matt shifted in his chair, taking another sip of
his drink.
	"If you weren't being an asshole to me because you were jealous,
then what was it?"
	"Oh...well I mean think about it David. Try to put yourself in my
shoes for a minute. Ben has never brought a guy home after one night like
that. And to be honest, it scared me. All three of us are in the public
eye, and if Ben's secret ever got out, or mine for that matter, we'd most
likely be ruined. So the truth is that I didn't trust you. It wasn't
personal, it was just a natural reaction."
	"So what makes you trust me now?" I asked, taking in Matt's words
slowly. "Why are you telling me all of this?"
	"It was mainly what you said on the ride over here. The way you
were telling Casey about how you and Ben met...I could *hear* it in
your voice David. I could tell that how you feel about Ben is real, and
that you're not just in this for a quick one night stand that you'll sell
to the tabloids in the morning. So I'm putting my faith in you."
	I kept watching the way Matt was moving as he spoke...shifting in
his chair, moving his hands. I was trying to figure out if he was being
sincere, and from his movements, as well as the tone of his voice, I could
tell that he was. So that meant it was Ben that had lied to me. Now all I
wanted to know was why.
	"Listen Matt, could you take me back to your place? I'm not feeling
so well." It was a good excuse, and not a complete lie either.
	"Are you okay?" Matt asked, looking concerned.
	"I'll be fine. I just need some sleep I think."
	"Okay, no problem. Just let me go pull Casey off the dance floor."
	It took about ten minutes to get Casey away from his girl and for
all of us to get back to the car. I sat in the back seat, not saying a word
during the entire ride. I was praying I wouldn't have to talk to Ben
tonight...I just wasn't up for it and my thoughts weren't in order.
	I got a little nervous when we finally got back to the beach house
and I saw Ben's jeep parked in the driveway. I half expected to see him
waiting up for us when we walked through the front door, but all the lights
were off and his bedroom door was closed. He had probably been exhausted
from working all evening. I said goodnight to Matt and Casey as they walked
to their rooms, then I curled up on the couch, grabbing a blanket. It was
only a matter of minutes before my worries left my head and my eyes
closed...I was asleep in no time.

	I awoke almost nine hours later, to a kiss on the cheek and a hand
running through my hair. I opened my eyes and saw Ben, sitting on the floor
in front of the couch, looking at me with some sort of concern in his
eyes. As my mind cleared I finally remembered all the events of the past
night, and my thoughts were flooded again with questions. I guess this was
as good a time as any to get the answers.
	
	"Are you okay?" Ben asked as I sat up on the couch. "Matt said you
weren't feeling good last night...and then when I woke up and you weren't
there...I worried."
	"I'm not sure how I feel just yet." I kept my head down, not able
to look at those beautiful eyes of his. I knew I'd melt in an instant.
	"Well what is it? The flu or something?" Ben sat next to me on the
couch, trying to catch my eye. "What's wrong David?"
	"Why did you lie to me?" I turned and let my eyes meet Ben's.
	"Lie to you?" He asked, sounding sincerely shocked. "About what?"
	"About everything. About not having any serious relationships over
the past couple years, about Matt...do you care to explain that to me?"
	"Oh my God, Matt told you?"
	"Yep, I guess the secret's out huh?"
	"David, please listen to me. I can explain that." Ben took my hand
in his, holding it tight as he sat next to me. As much as I wanted to pull
away...as much as I wanted to be angry...I just couldn't get the energy.
	"Was it because you don't trust me Ben? That you thought I'd run
off and sell your story to Hard Copy or something? Because if you don't
trust me, this is never going to work."
	"No no no, it's not that at all. Just calm down and let me
explain. Please?"
	I nodded my head and stopped my protesting, allowing Ben to
continue.
	"The reason I didn't tell you about Matt wasn't because I don't
trust you. You have to realize that if I didn't trust you, none of this
would have happened. That night on the beach David...I can't afford to let
something like that happen with somebody that I don't have faith in. I've
known since I first saw you that you weren't going to jeopardize my career
or stab me in the back...you just have this sweetness about you, I knew you
weren't like that."
	"Then why did you lie to me?" I asked, slowly starting to feel
better as Ben went on with his explanation.
	"The reason I didn't tell you is because I didn't think it was my
place to tell you. It's not like it was just my relationship...Matt was
involved too. I didn't know if what we had together is something he would
want me talking about, and I didn't want to disrespect him. Does that make
any sense?"
	"I guess so. So you mean if I was going to find out, you'd rather
him tell me himself?"
	"Right, that way I'd know that he wanted you to know. It surprises
me that he told you though...first he's being a jerk to you all day, then
at night he's telling you his deepest secrets. I told you you'd win him
over." Ben smiled at me, and I couldn't help but smile back.
	"So now you and Matt are just friends...right?" I squeezed Ben's
hand, hoping his answer would bring this entire misunderstanding to a
close.
	"Yes, I swear to you we're just friends. What we had together was
special, but we figured out that it just wasn't meant to be...not like
that. I do think we're better friends now than we ever were though, so I
don't regret anything."
	"I understand that. I just completely freaked out last night,
trying to figure out why you didn't tell me the entire story."
	"Well let's make a pact then. From this point on, total and
complete honesty okay?"
	"Deal." I shook Ben's hand, confirming our idea, and then I wrapped
my arms around him, resting my head on his shoulder. "Complete honesty
right?"
	"Right." Ben wrapped his arms around my back, rubbing my shoulders.
	"Then I think I have something to tell you."
	"What is it?"
	"I'm a woman." I pulled away from Ben, looking him in the eyes. I
busted up laughing.
	"Now I KNOW that's not true! I have proof!" We both started
laughing and just couldn't seem to stop for about the next three minutes or
so...we were almost in tears. It was just what was needed to take the
tension out of the room.
	"Seriously though," I said after I composed myself. "There's
something I want you to know."
	"Okay, you can tell me David."
	"You remember the other day in the shower?"
	"I remember that vividly," Ben replied, an evil little grin forming
on his face.
	"You remember how you asked if you could go inside me?"
	"Yeah...but we got interrupted right after that."
	"Right. Well I thought that was a really hot idea, but it scared me
a little bit."
	"It scared you? Why?" I watched as Ben's eyes turned to that
concerned look of his...I swear he looked just like a puppy when he did
that.
	"Because nobody's ever done that before."
	It seemed to take Ben a second to process what I said, but then I
could finally see it click.
	"Oh...you mean you've never...never had a guy in you?"
	"Right...it's not that I haven't wanted to. Nothing turns me on
more than that thought...it's just that it's so important to me that I
didn't want to screw it up. So I've been waiting for the right person." I
watched Ben's face and eyes intently as my hand held his, hoping he could
understand how much this meant to me.
	"I understand that completely, and I respect it too. It's not
something I want you to worry about. I know this entire thing with us seems
to be moving at light speed, but that's mainly because it feels so
right. So you just take your time...let me know when THAT feels
right. Deal?"
	"You really mean that? I thought you'd think it was stupid or
something."
	"Not at all...you have to remember that I'm not like every other
guy you've known. I see nothing stupid in saving yourself for the right
person...it's sweet actually."
	"Damn Ben, I swear you're too perfect. I keep waiting for your
flaws to show up, and they just don't seem to."
	"I've been thinking the same thing about you." Ben leaned over and
pressed his lips against mine, kissing me tenderly and wrapping his arms
around me again. "You know I did have some other news for you, before all
of this came up."
	"What is it? Good news I hope."
	"Well, I think I landed you a job."
	"A job?? Doing what?"
	"Acting in the movie with me...what do you think?"
	I was completely shocked, and at first I thought he must have been
joking. But I could hear the sincerity in his voice.
	"Acting? Who said I can act?"
	"Listen, I thought it'd be a good opportunity. I know how much you
love movies, you told me that the first night we met. The guy who was
playing the suspect in the movie dropped out, so I talked to the director
and I recommended you. It's a small role, but it's still a pretty juicy
one."
	"But the director hates me...and my acting resume ends with a
couple plays I did in high school."
	"I talked him into it, he doesn't hate you. And I know you can do
this David...I see it in you. I think you have the talent. Just give it a
try..audition and see what happens."
	As crazy as the idea sounded, it was pretty amazing. An actual
chance to be IN a movie, not just some guy who's in the background for two
seconds. And to be in a movie with Ben, that was an even better
opportunity.
	"I bet you already set up a time for the audition right?" A smile
formed on my face...I knew Ben like the back of my hand.
	"Well yeah, it's tomorrow afternoon. And I practically had to sleep
with the director to get him to consider you, so pleeeeeeease do this for
me." Ben got off the couch and down on his knees in front of me, holding
both of my hands in his.
	"Sleep with him huh?" I laughed. "Isn't he about fifty years old,
married with kids?" I just couldn't wipe the smile off my face...I loved
watching Ben beg.
	"Come on David, tell me you'll do this."
	"I'll do it...but you do remember that I'm only in town for about 2
more weeks right?"
	"I know, and you'll be done shooting in 2 weeks, I promise." I
could see a glimpse of sadness come over Ben's face after he said this. As
much as neither of us wanted to bring it up, two more weeks is what we had.
	"Okay, I'll go there tomorrow and give it a shot. But if I suck,
don't say I didn't warn you."
	"Thank you, you're the best." He leaned forward, giving me a quick
kiss on the lips.
	"But if I'm going to do this for you, there's something I want you
to do for me."
	"Is it sexual in nature?" Ben asked, smiling. "You want me to be
your slave?"
	"That's actually not a bad idea, but not quite what I had in
mind. I want you to meet Jeff and Rick today...I need to go get my stuff if
I'm going to be staying here, and I know they'd die if you came over there
with me."
	"Okay, I can make that appearance. Are they nearly as hot as you
are?" Ben asked jokingly.
	"Yeah, but they're straight, so hands off."
	"Okay okay, I'll look but won't touch. I better go hop in the
shower and get dressed so we can go...care to join me?" Ben got to his
feet, taking my hand and trying to pull me up with him.
	"Actually there's a phone call I have to make, plus I want to get
over there sometime today, which you know won't happen if we get in there
together." It was hard for me to resist the temptation, but I knew it had
to be done.
	"Okay that's fine...the least you could do is kiss me goodbye
though."
	I got to my feet and put my hand on the back of Ben's head, pulling
him close to me. Our lips met and we began to kiss passionately...our
mouths opening and our tongues meeting moments later. It took us about
thirty seconds before we pulled away.
	"How was that?" I asked, smiling.
	"Oh you're such a tease." Ben smiled and walked into the bathroom,
leaving the door open as he turned on the shower and hopped in.

	I walked over to the phone and picked up the receiver, finally
getting ready to make a call that I should have made days ago. My best
friend back in Vegas was a girl named Mariette, who I had known since about
eighth grade. We had become really good friends during our freshman year of
high school, and by our junior year she became the very first person I ever
told I was gay.
	Luckily for me, she had been unbelievably supportive after I came
out to her. Now, about 3 years later, we had your typical "Will and Grace",
"My Best Friend's Wedding", gay man- straight woman relationship. I knew
she'd have a coronary when she heard about Ben, and I was dying to hear her
reaction. I dialed her number, and listened to about five rings before she
answered.
	"Hello."
	"Hey girl, what's up?" I took a seat on the couch, getting
comfortable.
	"Oh hey there California boy. How's the trip going?"
	"It's going great, I'm having a gay old time out here."
	"Yeah, don't you always? How are Jeff and Rick doing?" Mariette
asked, since she had also known them back in our high school days.
	"They're just peachy. How's everything in your world?"
	"Pretty dull...basically just working, you know the routine. You
all ready for school to start in a couple weeks?" There was that reminder
again.
	"As ready as I'll ever be I suppose...but I can't say I'm looking
forward to it. I do have some better news for you though."
	"What is it? Did you land some hot, California surfer boy?"
	"Not exactly," I laughed. "But I landed a part in a movie."
	"No shit?? Like a real part, or are you an extra?"
	"Well it's a real part...and it's not a total lock yet, I still
have to audition tomorrow. But I have connections, so I should do fine."
	"Connections? Where'd you find connections?" Mariette was sounding
a bit confused.
	"Oh, my boyfriend helped me out." There went one of the
bombshells...now I just had to stand back and wait for her explosion.
	"Your BOYFRIEND?? No way, are you serious?"
	"Yes! Is it that inconceivable that I'd find a boyfriend?" I was
trying to hold back my laughter.
	"Well not exactly...but you've never really had anyone serious
before. What's his name?"
	"It's someone you kind of know actually...you've seen him before."
I loved to drive her crazy.
	"Someone I've met? You know I hate guessing games, just tell me
already."
	"Well no you haven't met him, but you've seen him."
	"Just TELL ME! Don't make me fly out there and strangle you."
	"Okay, it's Ben Affleck," I said nonchalantly.
	"Right, and I'm dating Brad Pitt. Now who is it?"
	"I just told you, it's Ben." I managed to get that sentence out
sounding completely serious.
	"Come on, stop screwing around! You know you're driving me nuts
here."
	"I just told you who it is, I can't help it if you don't believe
me."
	"So it's Ben huh?" Mariette still sounded completely unconvinced,
but she was willing to go along with my story. "So prove it, put him on the
phone."
	"I can't, he's in the shower right now."
	"Ohhhh of course. Are you hanging out with Matt too?"
	"Actually I think he's at work, I haven't seen him this morning."
	"Well isn't that convenient! Now tell me who it is!" I could tell
she was ready to go postal any second.
	"Hang on a sec, I just heard the shower shut off."
	I set the phone down and walked into the bathroom, where I found
Ben standing naked, drying off.
	"Oh so you finally decided to join me?" Ben walked up to me,
dropping his towel and wrapping his arms around me. His naked crotch was
pressing right against my jeans.
	"I have a friend of mine on the phone, her name's Mariette. She's
my best friend back in Vegas and she wants to say hi to you."
	"Sounds like fun to me," Ben said, bending over to grab his
towel. I gave him a quick smack on the ass.
	"Watch out where you bend over around here." I smiled.
	Ben picked up his towel and wrapped it around his waist, following
me out of the bathroom. I handed him the phone...I couldn't wait for this
one.
	He must have talked to her for at least five minutes, though I
think most of it was spent with him attempting to convince her that he was
telling the truth. She finally must have bought it, cause I heard some sort
of weird scream coming from the phone just as Ben handed it back to me.
	"Oh my God David, it's really HIM!!!"
	I couldn't help but bust up laughing at Mariette's obvious
statement, which then in turn sent Ben laughing too.
	"Yeah I know, that's what I told you."
	"I want to know all the details! How you met and everything. Have
you met Matt too?"
	"Yeah, he lives here with Ben."
	"NO WAY!! Do not fuck this up David...this one's a keeper right?"
	"Yeah." I looked at Ben. "The first one I've ever found."

	I talked to Mariette for about another ten minutes, while Ben got
dressed so we could head to Jeff and Rick's. She eventually stopped
screaming in my ear long enough so I could tell her how we had met, which
made her laugh. It was just like me to literally *throw* myself in
front of a guy to get his attention.
	After hanging up with Mariette, I hopped in the shower and got
ready to go. I was kind of nervous thinking about actually introducing Ben
to two of my best friends, just because their opinions were so important to
me. All I could do was hope that they'd see in him a little bit of the
beauty and passion that I had fallen hard for over the past few days.
	We left in the middle of the afternoon, around three or so, and
took Ben's jeep on the forty minute journey to Jeff and Rick's. I couldn't
even tell if he was nervous...he always seemed to have a laid back, not a
worry in the world attitude about him, which was really one of his best
qualities. Once we pulled up in the driveway of their place, I figured it
was time to ask him.
	"So how are you feeling? You nervous?" I placed my hand over Ben's
as we sat there outside the house.
	"A little bit, but this should be fun. You've known these guys a
long time right?"
	"Yeah, since high school. They're like my brothers practically."
	"Okay...and they're expecting us?"
	"Well no," I laughed. "A good surprise never hurt right?"
	We hopped out of the jeep and walked up to the front door, where I
proceeded to ring the bell. I gave Ben a little "here we go" kind of
glance, and a moment later Jeff opened the door. Ben was standing off to
the side a little bit, and at first he didn't even notice him.
	"David! Long time no see bud," Jeff said as he waved for me to come
inside. "What a nice surprise."
	"I have another one for you too." I grabbed Ben's arm and pulled
him into Jeff's eyeline.
	"Hi...it's nice to meet you," Ben stated, holding out his hand so
Jeff could shake it.
	"Jesus!" I could see the shock go over Jeff's face almost
immediately...I was really getting a kick out of this.
	"No, not Jesus...I'm Ben." I saw Ben crack that famous smile after
he said that...that smile would melt any man, gay or straight.
	"Right, it's nice to meet you," Jeff said as he composed
himself. "I'm Jeff, one of David's best friends." I watched as they shook
hands, then the three of us went inside to make ourselves at home.
	It was a few minutes later before Rick came out and gave almost the
exact same reaction that Jeff had, but about fifteen minutes after that
they both lightened up and got more comfortable. There was something about
Ben that just seemed to put people at ease...a very unintimidating, human
like quality about him that one doesn't expect to find among movie stars.
	We ended up sitting around the kitchen table for hours, talking
about everything under the sun, and downing plenty of beers in between. If
there was one thing I knew for sure about Jeff and Rick, it was that their
fridge would always be stocked with enough Heinekens to prepare for a
nuclear apocalypse. I told my friends all about what had happened since I
got kicked off the movie set the other day...going out with Ben, my
upcoming movie audition ... though there were a few moments that I made
sure to edit.
	Once I got a few beers in me I started getting goofy, which is what
always happens when I get drunk. It wasn't along before everything seemed
funny, especially when Jeff and Rick retold the story about how they had
watched me lunge myself in front of Ben.
	"Well hey, at least it worked," Ben stated as he wrapped his arm
around my shoulders, pulling me close to him.
	"I have a question for you," Rick said, averting his eyes to the
man next to me.
	"Go for it," Ben replied.
	"Well every magazine I look in...US, Entertainment Weekly, you name
it...has you hooked up with Gwyneth Paltrow. You two are like the cute
couple of the year, and now you're starring in a movie together...I just
don't get it."
	I wanted to tell Rick it was an inappropriate question, but now
that he brought it up, it was something I wanted to know the answer to. I
looked at Ben, who seemed a little taken aback by the question, but willing
to answer anyway.
	"Well me and Gwyneth are NOT dating, I can tell you that right off
the bat. Being in this business, it's tough to live the kind of lifestyle
that I want to live, so Gwyneth helps me with that. She's one of my best
friends, and she's nice enough to attend certain events with me...the press
just assumes she's my girlfriend. It's the same way with Matt and Winona
Ryder."
	"So it's a cover up?" Jeff asked.
	"Jeff..." I gave him a tone that let him know I didn't approve of
the question.
	"I prefer to think of it as a friend helping a friend protect his
career...but you can call it what you will."
	After the tension of that subject lifted, we broke out a deck of
cards and played a few games of blackjack. Ben suggested strip blackjack,
which I was all for since I was already drunk off my ass, but Jeff and Rick
just laughed it off. We ended up playing cards late into the evening, and
the boys invited us to stay over, since neither of us were really fit to
drive home. Ben and I stumbled into the guest room, which is where I had
been staying before, and collapsed on the bed together. I was out like a
light in five minutes.

	I woke up the next morning, wrapped in Ben's arms with the sun
cascading through the window down upon us. It was a feeling I was getting
quite accustomed to. I turned over to find Ben half asleep, so I shook him
a bit to bring him to reality.
	"Hey, what time is it babe?" I asked as I nuzzled my head against
Ben's chest.
	"Ohhh...I don't even want to look at the clock." Ben's arm squeezed
tight against me as he closed his eyes again.
	I lifted up my head, looking at the clock by the side of the
bed. It was about ten minutes after noon.
	"What time is that audition today?"
	"Mmmmm...one o'clock...why?"
	"Shit Ben, get out of bed," I said as I threw back the covers and
jumped to my feet. "We're going to be late."
	Ben took a quick glance over at the clock, then sat straight up.
	"Oh shit. You go get in the shower, I'll get your suitcase with all
your clothes in it, and I'll pick out a good outfit for you to wear. If we
leave by 12:30 I think we can make it."
	With Ben's orders I ran from the guest room, completely naked, out
into the hallway and to the bathroom. I almost ran right into Rick, who
said good morning like my being naked and sprinting across the house was
nothing unusual. I closed the bathroom door quickly, and jumped in the
shower, washing myself faster than I ever had in my life.
	It only took about five minutes before I got out, then I wrapped a
towel around me and ran back to my room, where Ben was dressed and had a
pretty fancy outfit laid out for me on the bed.
	"Are you going to take a shower?" I asked as I dropped the towel
and slipped on a pair of boxers.
	"I'll get one after I drop you off and go back to the beach
house...until then you'll have to live with me being smelly." Ben laughed.
	"I love the way you smell, smelly or not." I gave Ben a quick kiss
on the lips, then threw my pants and shirt on.
	I ran back into the bathroom and did my hair, brushed my teeth, and
all of that good stuff. In another five minutes I was completely ready to
go, and Ben had taken care of grabbing all of my stuff from the guest room,
which is what we had showed up for in the first place. We quickly made our
way to the front door, where Jeff and Rick were waiting.
	"What's the big rush you guys?" Rick asked as we walked up to him.
	"That audition is in about a half an hour...we're running late," I
replied.
	"Oh right...good luck on that David. Make sure to call us and tell
us how it goes."
	"I definitely will, I love you guys." I gave both Jeff and Rick a
quick hug, before picking up my suitcase and opening the front door.
	"It was nice to meet both of you," Ben said, shaking their
hands. "You're everything David told me you'd be, and then some."
	Once we got in the jeep I held on for dear life, since we had about
thirty-five minutes to make it across town. Ben was driving about twice the
legal speed limit, and we arrived at the building with about five minutes
to spare. I stepped out of the jeep and closed the door behind me.
	"I'll have a driver pick you up when you're done, because I'll
probably be on the set doing some work. But I'll see you at home tonight."
	"Okay...do I look okay? I'm really nervous."
	"You look beautiful. Just go in there, the third room on your left,
and they'll tell you what to do. You can do this David, I believe in you."
	I gave Ben's hand a quick squeeze just as I was about ready to turn
and make my march into the building. I wanted to give him a kiss goodbye,
but I knew it wasn't a wise idea out in public like this.
	"Thanks Ben...I'll see you tonight." With that I squeezed his hand
one more time, turned, and prepared to feed myself to the studio
alligators.
	Ben drove off once I walked into the large building and the door
closed behind me. The large lobby was completely empty, so I went ahead and
walked to the third door on the left. There was a small window in the door
that I peeked my head into, and in the room I saw three men sitting at a
large table. One of them was the same director that had kicked me off the
set just a few days earlier.
	"Hi...I'm David Preston," I said after I opened the door and had
one foot in the door. I was hoping they'd immediately know who I was...I
really felt out of my league in a place like this.
	"Oh yes, we've been expecting you," the director said as he
approached me and shook my hand. "My name is Anthony Weaver, I'm the film
director. These are two of my producers, George Paxton and Jonathan Hyde."
	"We've heard quite a bit about you David," George said as I walked
over to him and shook his hand. I also noticed that Anthony was treating me
like the incident the other day had never occurred...whatever Ben had said
to him, it worked.
	The first thing the men handed me was a script, in which all of my
lines or scenes were highlighted. I read through it a little bit, and while
it wasn't a huge part, I did notice that there were quite a few scenes that
would require incredible acting ability. It wasn't something I thought I
had...it wasn't even something I had tried to look for in myself
before. But these three seemed determined to bring it out in me.
	The audition went on for what seemed to me like an eternity, not
only because of the amount of time spent, but because of the fact that I
was feeling incredibly lonely without Ben around. It took about an hour
just for me to read over the script and get some sense of relaxation in
front of a room of complete strangers. The following three hours were spent
with me doing a variety of different scenes, with Anthony and the two
producers acting out the other parts. I put everything I could into it, but
there was no way for me to know how I was doing. Even with the small breaks
I got in between the intense moments of the script, I was still exhausted
by the time the men finally told me I was done.
	Once I was told I was excused, I took the script and was quickly
ushered out of the room while the three head honchos stayed in there. This
was it? Four hours of auditioning, acting, pouring my heart out to these
guys...and they just push me out the door without telling me ANYTHING? I
lost the part, I knew it right there. And I could just see the look Ben
would give me when I told him...he'd try to hide the disappointment in his
face, but I knew I'd see straight to the heart of it.


Afflecktion- Part 4

	The driver came and picked me up about ten minutes later, and I
watched the sun set as I rode in the back of the limo. I knew Ben would be
out working late, and I was hoping Matt and Casey wouldn't want to probe me
with questions about my failed acting stint. I was relieved when we finally
arrived at the house and I saw most of the lights off inside...I was home
at last.
	I walked up to the front door, and finding it unlocked, opened it
and walked in. I was ready to immediately head to the bedroom, curl up, and
sleep the rest of the evening away...but to my amazement, there was
Ben...in the kitchen, cooking of all things.
	"What are you doing home?" I asked as I closed the door behind me
and collapsed on the couch.
	"I wanted to surprise you. I got Matt and Casey out of the house
for the night...you like what I've done with the place?"
	I looked around and saw that there were candles lit all around the
room, and no lights on except the one in the kitchen so Ben could see to
cook. It was a wonderfully romantic mood, but after the four hours of hell
I had gone through I didn't know what to say.
	"What's all this for?" I asked as I kicked my shoes off and relaxed
a little more.
	"To celebrate silly, what do you think? I wanted to make your
favorite food, but then I realized that I don't know what that is, so I
decided on fettucciniI alfredo. Is that okay?"
	"That is my favorite food actually...but Ben, I have to tell you
something."
	"What is it?" He immediately dropped his spatula and came walking
over, sitting right next to me on the couch.
	"It was sweet of you to do this, but I don't think there's anything
to cele-"
	"Hold that thought," Ben interrupted. Before I could say anything
he pressed his lips deeply against mine, kissing me passionately and
sweetly. I opened my mouth slightly and felt his tongue enter me, probing
my own. Then he pulled away.
	"I got a phone call tonight, just as I knew I would. It was from
Anthony...you got the part David!"
	The news hit me like a bullet, leaving me speechless for a
moment. All I could do is sit and stare at Ben.
	"What?"
	"You got the part!" I could tell that Ben was excited enough to
start jumping up and down.
	"I got the part?" I asked calmly.
	"Yes! He called like twenty minutes ago with the news...I had come
home and prepared the candles and started cooking anyway...I knew you could
do it."
	"I got the part!! I got the part!!"
	Suddenly the excitement overtook me and I lunged on Ben, tackling
him right there on the couch. We both started screaming like a couple of
high school kids that had just won some radio station contest, and after
that our screams of excitement turned into laughter. I leaned down and gave
Ben a deep kiss on the lips.
	"I can't believe this!" I said as I laid right on top of him,
running my hands through his hair and looking into those brown, doe like
eyes. "I really thought I blew it."
	"Well I never had any doubt. You should listen to me more often."
	"I will...and I do love what you've done with the place. Nothing
but the candlelight and the moonlight shining through the window...I'm a
sucker for romance."
	"Just wait til you taste dessert," Ben said as he crawled out from
under me and went to attend to the food in the kitchen.
	"And what, Mr. Wolfgang Puck, is for dessert?" I got up off the
couch and walked over to Ben, coming up behind him and wrapping my arms
around his waist as I nuzzled my head into his back.
	"Me...and it's all you can eat."
	That sent me into another fit of laughter as I started kissing the
back of Ben's neck.
	"Can I have dessert before dinner?"
	"No no, we're going to do this right."
	About ten minutes later, Ben and I were sitting across from each
other at the table eating a perfect dinner. He had shut the kitchen light
off, leaving us basking in nothing but the warm candlelight and the light
of the moon coming through the window.
	"David...you remember that complete honesty thing we talked about
yesterday?" Ben asked between bites.
	"Of course."
	"Well I have something to tell you...and it's something I can't
really hold in any longer."
	"What is it?" I asked with hesitation. I set my fork down and
looked across the table into Ben's eyes, preparing for the worst.
	"It's simple really. I love you."
	"Wha...what?" My mouth went dry almost immediately, and I could
feel my face turn red. There was water building up in my eyes.
	"I love you David."
	"I love you too Ben." A single tear rolled down my cheek, cascading
down my chin and falling on to my plate below.
	"What's wrong? Why are you crying?" Ben got up from his seat and
came over near mine, kneeling down on the floor next to me. Looking up at
me with concern in his eyes.
	"I've waited all my life to hear someone say that to me and really
mean it. It's something I've dreamt about...and now you just made my dream
come true."
	"I can make all your dreams come true."
	Ben stood up and, with one quick move, scooped me out of my seat
and up into his arms. I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed his lips
as he walked down the hallway, toward the bedroom. He kicked the door open
and walked in the room, which made me feel like some newlywed being carried
over the threshold. I immediately noticed all the candles burning around
the bed, just as Ben laid me down on it.
	He stood above me, taking his shirt off and then laying down on top
of me. His hands moved all over my torso, feeling my pecs and my nipples
through the fabric of my shirt. Soon he worked his hands inside and pushed
my shirt off over my head, leaving us both naked from the waist up. I could
feel our bare chests start to press together...those soft, wonderful chest
hairs of Ben's rubbing against me, tickling my nipples and making them
hard.
	Ben's lips moved all over me...first my face, then underneath my
arms and down to my nipples. I rubbed my hands all over his naked back, my
body squirming as he worked my sensitive nipples over with that expert
tongue of his. I felt his soft mouth moving lower and lower...first down to
my abs, then my belly button. I closed my eyes and ran my hands gently
through his hair as I felt my pants coming undone.
	The instant Ben pulled my briefs down I felt my rock hard seven and
a half inches pop out, finally free of it's strain. I felt his tongue move
through my bush of pubic hair, then over my balls and finally up the length
of my long shaft. I moaned with pleasure as he rimmed the head with the tip
of his tongue, paying special attention to the spot where it meets the
underside of my penis shaft. My back arched in pleasure as he opened wide
and took me deep down his throat.
	I looked down at Ben while he sucked my throbbing cock, watching
him strip his pants and boxers off in one quick swoop. I motioned for him
to turn around, which he did without taking his mouth off of my
manhood. Soon he was straddling me, with his hard eight inches hanging
right in front of my lips. I opened my mouth and took him inside, loving
the taste...craving it. We both started pumping away at each other's
mouths...precum flowing from both of our cocks. I swallowed every drop,
working Ben's massive cock over with my tongue to milk more out of him.
	I let out a moan as I felt Ben's hands work around to my ass,
spreading my cheeks apart and playing in my crack. First he played with the
little hairs I have in there, then he found my hole. I felt his finger
press deep inside of me, and a jolt of pure ecstasy ran through my entire
body, head to toe. I kept sucking Ben, going faster, putting more passion
into it...making him scream with pleasure.
	"Ben, I need to ask you something," I said as I momentarily removed
his throbbing penis from my mouth.
	"What is it David?"
	"I want you to make love to me."
	"Mmmmm...I am baby, I am."
	"No...I want you inside me."
	With this statement Ben paused, taking his mouth and finger away
from my body. He turned and laid himself on top of me so we were face to
face, our lips just inches apart.
	"Are you sure?" he asked, looking deeply into my eyes. Into my
soul.
	"As sure as I am that I love you."
	"I love you too." Ben pressed his lips against mine passionately,
holding me close to him. "And I'll do anything you want. Just stay on your
back for me okay?"
	I nodded my head as Ben reached under the bed and grabbed a bottle
of lube. He opened it, pouring some on his finger, which he then proceeded
to shove up my ass. It was an amazing sensation...I wiggled my ass for him,
loving it. Then he poured some on his cock, which I reached out and stroked
for him, rubbing it in.
	"Now just put your legs up on my shoulders."
	Ben crawled between my legs and I did what he said. The excitement
inside me was unbelievable...this was so new to me and I had dreamed about
it for years, but it was also a little scary.
	"Is this going to hurt?" I asked, looking up into Ben's eyes.
	"I'd never hurt you David. Not now, not ever."
	With that I felt him slowly press his cock into my tight, eager
hole. First the head went in, causing me to moan partly in pleasure, and
partly in pain. He leaned down and kissed my lips so softly, slowly but
surely pushing more and more of his eight inches into me. By the time he
had got it all the way in my moans of pain no longer existed...I felt
absolute heaven.
	Ben started moving his cock in and out, in and out...slowly at
first, then gaining more speed. I loved it more than anything...it was the
most unbelievably hot experience. I felt the head of his hard cock hitting
that secret spot inside me...my moans were getting louder and louder. Ben
took my throbbing, waiting cock in his hand, stroking it as he pumped away
at me.
	"Ohhhh David...ohhhh I love you so much."
	"I love you too Ben...I want you to cum in me."
	"Yesssss...yes I will."
	His thrusts started gaining in speed...I could feel those big, cum
filled balls slapping against my tight ass. His bush of pubic hair was
tickling me. His hand working my cock, stroking me faster and
faster. Neither of us could stop our moaning...and then, with one hard,
long thrust...I felt Ben's huge load of white hot cum empty into my
ass. Just the feeling of what was inside of him going inside of me sent me
into ecstasy, and my own white hot jism started spurting out a moment
later. Covering my chest, my face, and Ben's hand.
	He collapsed on top of me a moment later, the sweat on his body
mixing with that on mine. I kissed him softly on the lips and wiped the
wetness from his brow.
	"David...you are the best thing ever to walk into my life. You know
that?"
	"And you're the best thing that ever ran into mine," I said with a
little laugh.
	Ben pulled his softening cock out of my worked over ass and curled
up beside me, resting his head on my chest.
	"Goodnight my love," Ben whispered as he closed his eyes and draped
his arm over me.
	"Goodnight my angel."

	I didn't fall asleep right away, but instead I let some of my
thoughts get the best of me. My life was going perfectly, better than it
ever had in all of my years. I was in love with the most beautiful man in
the world, I just landed a role in a major Hollywood movie, and I had just
lost my virginity in a room full of candles and moonlight. There was only
one problem.

I was leaving in less than two weeks.

TO BE CONTINUED...