Date: Wed, 2 May 2012 19:04:43 -0700 (PDT)
From: Rick Rod <ja.debonaire@yahoo.com>
Subject: Big Time Rush Chapter 16

Big Time Rush 16

Chapter 16: It's Not My Choice

Disclaimer: I do not own nor am am I affiliated with Big Time Rush (BTR),
Viacom, or Nickelodeon. This is a work of fiction and is for entertainment
only.

This work contains acts of homosexuality, so if you're offended by such
material then leave now.

No one under the age of 18 or 21 (Check your local laws) is permitted to
read this material.

Note: Get ready for an epic Chapter, and I mean EPIC. Hey not responsible
if someone cries (just saying). So I've been working hard trying to get
this one where I wanted it to be. Needless to say, after some tweaking and
fine tuning, here is Chapter 16. This is the longest Chapter so far, and
well, there is going to be a lot going on here. You guys would have never
expected this one, and I mean it will take you by surprise. You could say
I'm just trying to work on my writing skill. Also still getting some nice
reviews, thanks guys! A lot of dialogue, and a surprise you would have
never guessed. Some of you are going to hate me after this one, well maybe,
or you will think this is the best chapter to come out so far. Get ready
for what I believe is one of the best Chapters I have written for the BTR
story! Remember, got any feedback, email me and I always answer back
personally. Without further or due, read on.



     James slowly started coming back to his senses. He couldn't easily see
what was around him. He struggled to see where he was in the darkness. As
he finally started coming through, he noticed that someone's arm was
wrapped around him.  James tried to free himself but the grasp was firm. It
was then he smelled the cologne that filled his lungs with the ultimate
peace. He was in bed cuddled up with Taylor. He couldn't really remember
what happened the night before, everything was a complete blur.

     James stopped moving around and rested his body enjoying the
moment. He felt lips touch the back of his neck and they gently kissed
him. James moaned ever so gently, he had never felt something like that
before. For those brief moments, James was happy to be where he was at,
even if he couldn't remember everything he did the night before. He had
trouble peacing things together in his mind, but eventually he started to
remember little by little.

     James was tired and didn't want to be around Kendall, Taylor offered
to let him sleep over at his place. James was going to sleep on the couch
but Taylor isisted he sleep in the bed where he would be more comfortable,
and he would take the couch. James didn't want to feel guilty, and insisted
that Taylor share the bed with him.

     Originally, it was going to be a simple innocent night, but with two
very horny and horomonally charged studs, it was not going to remain that
way for long. They had both taken a turn showering, and James didn't have
any clothes to wear so Taylor let him borrow a robe. When James had
returned, Taylor managed to find some simple spa clothes from the hotel
James could wear so he wouldn't feel uncomforatable. Taylor headed into the
shower later on and as he walked out, James couldn't help but admire the
muscular beast walk out of the shower with just a small amount of moisture
running down the center of his chest. James bit his lower lip looking at
the perfect body.

     Taylor had an impressive bulge in his towel, and James could feel his
mouth water. He remembered what Taylor was working with and found himself
wanting it. Taylor removed his towel and was wearing tight japanese style
briefs. His body was just so irresistable. Taylor turned around to see
James in the room and blushed. He was so embarassed. He didn't know he
wasn't alone.

     "It's okay. It's not like I haven't seen it before." James chuckled.

     "Hehe." Taylor laughed but he was still embarassed. "Sorry dude, I
didn't know you were there."

      "Not to weird you out, but uh, you have a killer body dude." James
said.

     "Oh, thanks man. I've really been working out a lot. Got this big
movie coming up and what not." Taylor grinned.

     "Well whatever you are doing, it is working." James said with a huge
smile on his face.

     "Well you have a realy nice body too. You must work out real often
too." Taylor said putting on his sleeping shorts and a tank top.

     "Nah, not that much. I got a little lucky, some of this is natural. I
go to the gym, just not as often as I should." James started to blush.

     "I'm gonna get a drink. You want anything dude?" Taylor asked.

     "Um, I could really go for a Diet Coke. Got any?" James asked while
standing up.

     "Yeah of course. That is what I was going to get. You wanna maybe
catch a movie or something in the living room with me? I'm not used to
going to bed this early." Taylor said.

     James smiled. "Yeah, I'd love that."

     James and Taylor joined each other out in the living room as they both
just enjoyed their soda together. Taylor was looking thorugh his TV guide
when he found Mrs. Doubtfire on TV. He started chuckling as the movie just
started.

     "Awesome." Taylor said as he got comfortable.

     James laughed too as he saw the movie starting. For some reason he
started cuddling up with Taylor and didn't really know why. He looked back
at Taylor getting ready to apologize, but Taylor looked back with a facial
expression as if he was saying not to worry about it. There was a silent
moment and then James found himself laying his head on Taylor's
shoulder. Taylor nudged his head into James' and they both just watchd the
film in bliss with one another.

     Halfway through the movie, James lowered his head and rested it on
Taylor's lap. Taylor instictively lowered his right arm and wrapped it
around James. It didn't take long before Taylor started to get hard. He did
everything he could trying to hold back his natural desire, but started to
feel himself slipping. James moved his hair, and as he did the back of his
hand brushed against Taylor's hard dick. James got up and sat down trying
to bring his heart rate back down. There was an awkward moment as Taylor
sat with his eyes closed trying to calm himself back down. About ten
minutes later Taylor started to yawn and looked back at James.

     "I'm gonna go ahead and hit the sack." Taylor said. "Wait, that didn't
sound right, I'm just gonna go lay down. I'm kinda tired."

     James started laughing. "It's okay, I know what you meant. I feel the
same right now. I'm tired too."

     Taylor turned off the TV and the two walked over to the bedroom. They
both got comfortable and rested gently with a small space between them.

     James was shuffling his hands around gathering up the courage to
talk. "Hey, um Taylor, can I ask you a simple question?"

     "Sure dude. Go ahead." Taylor said moving over to his side looking at
James in the moonlit room.

     "What did you think about the show?" James asked.

     "Oh, I loved everything. The performance was amzing. Your other
friends are good performers too. The signing, the extra with Lady Gaga,
dude it was all fantastic." Taylor said with an innocent smile.

     James smiled back as he started to lbush. "So what was your favorite
part?"

     "Oh that was easy." Taylor said inching closer to James. "It was
seeing your beautiful face up there on the grand stage. Your vocals were
angel like, and your movements were so sharp and clear."

     James was smitten. He could only smile as he felt himself looking
right into Taylor's eyes. The moon made his eyes shine so beautifully that
James felt like giving himself up, he was starting to have a hard time
containing himself. Before Taylor could utter another word, James moved in
and kissed him. Taylor was just as horny and couldn't help but give into
the heavenly feeling. James put his hands around Taylor's face as their
lips were locked. Taylor got on top of James and kept on kissing him. They
broke apart as Taylor started taking off his tank top. James took off the
t-shirt he was wearing. Taylor could feel James hard dick as he moved his
ass around on it.

     Taylor leaned forward and started kissing James' neck. James started
breathing heavier. Taylor moved his attention to the chest and started
moving down onto the stomach. James started touching himself but Taylor
grabbed the cock instead. James started to bite his lip in
anticipation. Taylor slowly rubbed the big cock thorugh the shorts and
lowered his mouth kissing it. He finally reached for the waistband and
pulled the shorts down to see James' fat cock looking right at him. Taylor
started licking the head and with his spare hand started playing with
James' balls. Taylor continued to lick the head and finally slowly and
lovingly sucked the head of the dick working it as good as he could.

     James started wiggling around as he started to feel his dick slide
down Taylor's throat. James was starting to loosen up as he felt Taylor's
finger probing his ass. James' eyes started rolling to the back of his head
as he felt his head being serviced so perfectly. Taylor started building up
a rhythym and bobbed his side up and down. Each time he came down he
twisted his head creating a breathtaking feeling. He started sucking harder
and James started moaning softly. Taylor started getting off from the faint
moaning and started sucking faster. He started playing with James' balls
again.

     James couldn't speak anymore and instead he just kept on
moaning. Taylor started sucking James' balls one by one ever so gently. The
feeling was so satisfying that James started rubbing his nipples. Taylor
moved back up to the shaft and started licking it. He worked his tongue
from the base up to the tip of the dick. As he reached the tip he sucked it
and ran his tongue down to the base again. He licked the balls and cupped
them in his hand. James started breathing heavier. Taylor got on to his
back and James got on top of him. He started kissing Taylor and slid down
the sleep shorts and underwear in one snag. James rubbed Taylor's hard
monster cock as he was getting sucked off again. James started matching
Taylor's motion. He started pushing forward and rubbed Taylor's dick with
the same pattern.

     Both of them started moaning enjoying the feeling. James started
thrusting in harder and within less than a minute started face fucking
Taylor. James looked down in the moonlit room right into Taylor's eyes as
his cock was sliding in and out of the mouth. They two kept their eye
contact with each other as James started thrusting in harder. Taylor
started fingering James and it only seemed to turn him on even more. James
was loosing control and pulled his dick out of Taylor's mouth and started
jacking off. Taylor kept on sucking the bottom of the head until he felt
James shoot his cum all over his face. The cum shot out and Taylor couldn't
help but eat it as it shot out like thick ropes. James looked down at
Taylor and smiled. He started kissing Taylor's neck and soon moved lower to
the perfect chest.

     James rubbed his hands all over Taylor's firm muscular chest. He
started rubbing the rock hard abs and lowered himself holding Taylor's fat
monster cock in his hand. He put his nose right into Taylor's balls and
took in a deep breath before he started licking the balls. He moved up and
started sucking the beast. Taylor started moaning as his hands started
rubbing the back of James' neck. James couldn't get enough of the cock in
his mouth. He tried to deepthroat it but gagged. He tried again but he
wouldn't give up. He wanted Taylor's dick inside of his throat. Finally on
the fifth try James went down until he felt Taylor's pubes on his
nose. Taylor was taken away by surprise. It was then that James stopped
sucking, he wanted Taylor inside of him.

     James got up and lined himself up slowly sitting on Taylor's fat
dick. He felt the head pop in and it felt so good. James kept lowering
himself until the entire dick was in him. He started to slowly move
around. Taylor's hands were running up and down James' side with pure
passion. James started getting hard and as he started ridding the cock, his
dick was slapping Taylor's stomach. James kept on moving harder as his dick
kept on bouncing on Taylor's stomach making a loud clapping noise.

     James started getting tired and lowered himself onto his back. Taylor
immediately put James legs on his shoulders and started pounding the juicy
ass. James was breathing heavier as he felt Taylor move in and out of him
violently. He kept on begging to get it harder. Taylor was pounding like a
jackhammer as the bed started making a lot of noise. Taylor pulled out and
made James get on all fours. Taylor shoved his dick back in place and
started pounding away as hard as he could. James started moaning loudly. He
felt his face shoved in the pillow and Taylor started showing no mercy
fucking James like it was a mission. James started moaning louder. Taylor
pulled out again and stood up. James looked over at him, and Taylor grabbed
James and made him wrap his arms around his neck. James wrapped his legs
around Taylor's waist, and Taylor started fucking James again.

     James had never been fucked like that before. He was being held up by
Taylor strong arms as he felt the monster cock violently sliding in and out
of him. Taylor started walking forward keepin his face and put James
against the wall. The continued to fuck like rabbits. James was caught in
the moment of ecstasy that he started french kissing Taylor. The hardcore
fucking went on for twenty minutes before Taylor felt he was getting
close. He carried James to the bed again and got him back in missionary
position. He was pouneding away harder and he looked right into James' eyes
as he shot his hot load deep into the hungry ass.

     Taylor was out of breath and rested on the bed next to James and
kissed him one more time. James was so taken away and he just rested his
head on Taylor's chest listening to the thumping heartbeat. Taylor then did
something that caught James by surprise. He kissed him on the forehead and
wrapped his arms around him cuddling up with him. James felt gratified at
loved. It didn't take long before both of them fell asleep.

     Now that James was awake again, it still felt like Taylor was inside
him. "Damn that was a good fuck." James thought to himself. He relaxed for
a little longer until he sould see the sun barely rising in the horizon. He
tried to break free but Taylor wouldn't let him go. Taylor had waken up and
the two just looked into each other's eyes.

     "Please don't go." Taylor said looking right into James' eyes. "Can't
you just stick around? I mean is there anything that important for you to
do today?"

     James looked back at Taylor with a puppy dog expression. "I don't have
any clothes. I need to get some clothes."

     Taylor sucked his teeth as he let James go. James looked back at
Taylor and looked away. He picked up the hotel clothes and took one last
look back at the still naked Taylor. It was such a beautiful sight seeing
the perfect body just sitting right there with the early sunlight shining
over the tan skin.

     "Hey, relax I still have your number. At least you know, if you're
ever in town, you can always give me a call."

     Taylor smiled and then James walked out of the room. He made his way
back to the apartment and crept in. He went to the room and he was slightly
heartbroken when he went in. Kendall's stuff was all gone. James sat down
on his bed feeling guilty, and partially empty. Why was he feeling that
way? He wasn't the bad one, afterall Kendall was the one who gave him no
attention. James grabbed his clothes and headed to the shower trying to
make as little noise as possible. Just as he did, Logan was standing in the
hallway. James didn't say anything and just continued to head into the
shower. He turned around and Logan was still looking at him.

     "What?" James asked putting his hands at his side.

     "Don't give me that. You know what you did. It was wrong. Rather than
try and work it out, you just walked out on him." Logan said foldning his
arms across his chest.

     "Why do you care. You don't understand anyways." James replied.

     "Oh I understand. You're just such a little slut you don't want to be
with just one person." Logan hissed back.

     "Me the slut? What because I left him? Well newsflash genuis, he
ignored me a lot. What was the point staying with him? Just to be ignored?"
James walked forward.

     "You disgust me sometimes. You know that? That shit is real fucked
up." Logan was angry.

     "What the fuck is up your ass?" James asked walking closer towards
Logan. "Or better yet what hasn't been up your ass? Come on I know you want
this dick." James grabbed his soft cock and got right into Logan's face. "I
know what Carlos is working with, yeah that little dick ain't hitting the
right places. This is a real dick right here, but you couldn't take it, not
with that little thing you take."

     Logan's face turned bright red. "What the fuck is wrong with you? Ever
since we moved out here, you're not the same anymore."

     James grabbed Logan's hand and put it on his hard cock. Logan tried
pulling away, and James leaned forward to try and kiss him just as Carlos
walked out of the door.

     "What the fuck?!" Carlos screamed out as he shoved James into the
wall. James smiled as he headed into the bathroom and Carlos was glaring
over at Logan with the look of anger.

     "How long has this shit been going on?" Carlos asked as a tear started
coming to his eye. "How could you do this to me?"

     "It wasn't baby, I promise please just listen to me." Logan said as he
started crying.

     "Bullshit. I can't believe this. After everything I've done, and you
do that with him?"

     "Please babe, listen to what I'm trying to say please." Logan was
trying to do everything he could.

     "I don't want excuses. I may not be the smartest guy alive, but I know
what I saw!" Carlos screamed.

     "No baby please listen to me, I love you." Logan started crying harder
as he tried to hug Carlos.

    Carlos pushed Logan away with an angry but tear filled face. "I don't
know if I love you anymore...not after this...."

      Carlos walked away and headed out the door slamming it shut as he
walked out. Logan couldn't see. His eyes were completely blurred as he put
his head against the wall. He let his body weight fall as he started crying
harder. Logan felt his heart crushed, but more importantly the one who hurt
him was the one he loved. Logan was crying so loudly that Kendall came
running out into the hallway thinking something bad had happened. He saw
Logan on the ground spilling his heart out. Kendall dropped down to him.

     "Loggie, what happened?" Kendall asked. "Please tell me what's wrong?
Where is Carlos?"

     Logan started crying even harder. Kendall looked into the empy room,
there was no sign of Carlos anywhere. He got worried and looked back down
at Logan. Logan looked back up at Kendall and tried to speak but none of is
words made any sense.

     "Carlos.....he was......I'm so sorry........It wasn't like something
that......." Logan kept on crying. "I........I........I........this hurts
so much......"

     Kendall grabbed Logan and looked right at him. "Calm down, please tell
me what happened?"

     "I think Carlos just broke up with me." Logan said as he started
crying again. "We just had a fight and he just walked out on me."

     "What?! How, why, when, what?" Kendall was confused.

     "James tried to get me to touch his dick, and tried to kiss me. I
didn't want him to, but he made me do it, and Carlos walked out before I
could push James off of me." Logan started crying. "I didn't do anything
wrong......I......I......I tried......he was too strong......."

     Kendall took a deep breath as he felt his heart turn on fire. He heard
the bathroom door open up and looked right at James. "What in the fuck did
you do?!" Kendall grabbed James by his shirt and pinned him against the
wall.

     James freed himself and shoved Kendall away. "Not like it matters to
you anyway."

     "Bullshit! When it involves my friends, it means a lot. How could you
do this?" Kendall started growing impatient.

     James looked back at Kendall. "I don't need this shit." James went
into his room and grabbed his wallet and phone and walked out of the
apartment.

     Kendall grabbed Logan and brought him over to the living room so he
could calm Logan down better. He went to the kitchen and grabbed some water
and mixed some sugar into it. He walked back over to Logan and made him
drink the water. After a few seconds Logan started to calm down. Kendall
sat down next to him and put his arm on his shoulder.

     "Okay, relax Loggie. Tell me what happened." Kendall asked.

     Logan started talking but he heard a bunch of sirens and he couldn't
make out the words very well. He waited until the sirens had stopped at
looked back towards Logan again.

     "When James got back, I was in the hallway. I was trying to talk to
him. It was wrong what he did to you, but then he started talking about how
Carlos has a small dick, and that I needed a real dick like his in me. He
grabbed my hand and made me touch his dick." Logan started to cry again but
took a few deep breaths. "Carlos came out as James was trying to kiss
me. He pushed James out of the way and we started fighting."

     A loud kock came to the door. Kendall got up and when he oppnened the
door there was one of the hotel staff looking as if he saw a ghost. "Um
Carlos Garcia stays here right?"

     "Yeah he does." Kendall said. "Why?"

     "He just got hit by a car in front of the hotel." The man said.

     Logan jumped up from the couch, and ran out of the apartment flying
towards the elevators, Kendall ran behind him along with the Hotel
employee. They got into the elevator and it seemed to take forever. As soon
as the doors opned on the Lobby area Logan charged out of the doors and
headed out to the main doors pushing people out of his way. Logan ran out
of the doors and saw the flashing lights of the ambulance. Mr. Bitters was
standing outside and saw Logan. He tried to stop him but he was knocked
over. Logan fell to his knees seeing a bloody Carlos on a strecher.

     Kendall caught up and saw Carlos' blood covered face and looked back
at Logan who broke threw the cop line and shoved one of the paramedics out
of the way. Kendall grabbed Logan before the cops could and Logan just
stood out screaming out Carlos' name. Kendall grabbed Logan as tight as he
could hearing Logan scream to the top of his lungs.

     "Carlos! Carlos! Carlos!" The blood curdling screams echoced
throughout the entrance to the hotel. Logan was crying and screaming out
the name as loud as he possibly could. As more people saw what was going
on, the site was heartbreaking. Kendall and Logan were both on their knees
and Logan was still screaming out Carlos' name. The paramedics managed to
get the strecher into the ambulance. People covered their mouths as they
saw the young man screaming out the name. Mr. Bitters stood silent trying
to mask his desire to cry. In the end, there was not one single dry
eye. The people couldn't help but feel the pain of Logan.

     Unknown to Kendall, James was standing just a few feet away covering
his mouth and crying. The accident was so much to take in that he had to
run back inside the hotel his face filled with tears. The cops were outside
trying to get the story from the driver of the car who was so shaken up
that they couldn't even get a clear word out. Kendall finally managed to
pick up Logan and they walked towards the entrance. A older couple was
sitting down on a bench and they moved telling the two to sit down. The
older woman was in shock covering her mouth as she looked at the pale faced
Logan. His eyes were red, and he couldn't stop crying.

     Kendall held Logan tight and cried with him. They sat on the bench
even as some of the people cleared away. One of the cops walked over to
Logan and Kendall.

     "I'm so sorry to interupt, but how do either of you know the victim?"
The cop asked.

     Kendall looked at the cop. "I'm his friend. This is his boyfriend, and
we're all part of a group. Big Time Rush. You need to call out label
company, Rocque Recods. Please I don't think I'm going to be able to."

     The cop wrote down on his tablet. "Who is the emergency contact?"

     "You need to get in touch with Gustavo Rocque. The label company has
all of the information." Kendall said.

     "Okay. I'm so sorry about this, it's just the requirments of the job
sir." The cop started walking away.

     "Wait, where are they taking him? Is he still alive?" Kendall asked
finally breaking free from Logan.

     "Look I really shouldn't be giving this information out yet, but he's
in really bad shape. Thankfully the hospital is only three blocks
away. We'll get in touch with the label company, and they'll get the
information, I'm sorry but that is the best I can do right now." The cop
said as he walked away.



     Kendall and Logan found themselves at Rocque Records. Kelly was
sitting down with them, she was trying to keep her composure. Gustavo and
Griffin where inside of the executive board room.

     "I'm so sorry boys. I just wanted to let you know that from the bottom
of my heart, I hope he pulls through." Kelly said as she walked over to
Logan and hugged him tightly.

     "When can I see him?" Logan asked. "It has been two days, when can I
see him?"

     "Oh sweety, we have to wait until we have clearence from the
hospital. His Mother and Father will be here in about two hours. Look, as
soon as we hear something, I will make it my mission to call you and let
you know what room he is in. Logan I know you love him, and everyone who
has worked with you feels for you. Even Gustavo feels really bad." Kelly
said looking towards Kendall hinting she wanted to speak with him asside.

     "What is it?" Kendall asked.

     "We haven't been able to get in touch with James. Do you have any clue
where he might be?" Kelly asked. "Please any information helps."

     "No I haven't seen him at all." Kendall said. "I've tried calling, but
he hasn't picked up his phone."

     "Well, I guess I'll take you guys home. Gustavo just texted me, he and
Griffin along with the other board members are going to be in there for a
while. Let me take you guys home." Kelly grabbed her keys.

     Everyone got into the car and made their way back to the Palm
Woods. As Kendall walked out, Kelly looked at him.

     "If you need anything, call me okay. I don't care what it is, do not
hesitate to call me. I'll contact you two when I find out anything." Kelly
said as she drove off.


......TWO DAYS LATER


     Mrs. Knight, Mrs. Garcia, Mr. Garcia, Mrs. Diamond, and Mrs. Mitchell
where all at the hospital when Logan and Kendall arrived. Joanna saw her
heartbroken son and ran up to him giving him a huge hug. Logan started
crying again and the Garcia's where sitting down in the waiting room
holding on to each other. Logan walked up to them. Mrs. Garcia hugged Logan
and Mr. Garcia stood up and shook Logan's hand. The group sat down in
silence waiting for the doctor to walk into the room.

     Ten minutes passed by when the doctor walked into the room. He looked
at everyone and asked to speak to the Garcia's.

     "It's alright. We are all like family. Anything can be said in front
of all of us." Mr. Garcia said.

     The doctor stood in front of everyone and looked at the medical
file. "Carlos is a very strong young man. He is fighting, but at this time,
he success rate is not where we would like it to be."

     "What do you mean?" Logan asked looking at the doctor.

     The doctor closed the file and sat down on the coffe table looking at
everyone. He took a deep breath. "At this moment, even though he is
fighitng, he only has a thirty percent chance of pulling through. If he
does survive, there is a fifty/fifty chance that he may be paralyzed for
life."

     Logan started crying again. He couldn't speak. His mother walked back
over to him and hugged him tightly. Mr. Garcia looked back at the doctor
and cleared his throat.

     "Can we at least see him?" Mr. Garcia asked.

     "Of course. Normally we don't allow more than five at a time, but in
this case, I have received permission from the Hospital Director, and he
will allow the seven of you to see him as loAfter about ng as there is no
major upset or interference of hospital operations." The doctor said. "He
is in ICU 9."

     Everyone walked into the room and Logan saw Carlos in the hospital bed
connected to so many wires and lines. He was banaged up and breathing on
his own. Logan took a chair and placed in next to the bed. Everyone sat in
the room for several minutes. After one hour, only Logan, Mr. Garcia, and
Mrs. Garcia remained in the room. The doctor had arrived in the room,
visiting hours for Logan were coming down to an end. Mr. and Mrs. Garcia
left but Logan wouldn't leave.

     "I'm sorry, but the visiting hours are over. You have to leave now." A
nurse said.

     "Please, I don't want to leave. Isn't there someone I can talk to
please?" Logan asked.

     The nurse took a deep breath. "Okay, I'll see if I can find the
doctor."

     "Thank you." Logan told the nurse.


     After about five minutes, the doctor came into the room. "I'm so sorry
young man, but the visiting hours for our Intensive Care Units are very
strict. I'm afraid that you cannot stay here."

     "Please, let me stay. He means so much to me." Logan said as a tear
began rolling down his cheek.

     The doctor looked at Logan with a very heartfelt face. He stood next
to Logan. "Are you family of his?"

     "I'm......I'm....." Logan took a deep breath. "I'm his boyfriend."

     The doctor sighed. "This really puts me in a tough spot. Normally the
hospital does not allow those who are not family stay, but if anyone asks,
you are his partner. I'll inform my staff."

     "Thank you so much." Logan said. "I can't thank you enough."

     "You must really love him." The doctor said as he smiled.

     "He is my everything." Logan said.

     "It's really nice to see that with younger people. The chair is the
only thing you have her, but we can bring you some blankets, and a pillow."
The doctor said.

     "Thank you sir." Logan smiled.

     Logan looked at Carlos and grabbed his hand. He kissed the hand and
held it in both of his hands. When he looked up, he saw tears coming out of
Carlos' eyes. Logan knew at that moment that Carlos knew he was there, and
that he was trying to communicate with him. Logan only smiled and felt a
warmness in his heart.

     The next morning over, Logan woke up when a knock came to the room,
and Logan nearly tipped the chair over when James walked into the room with
Taylor. Taylor saw James face and looked at James with a shy look.

     "You. This is all your fault!" Logan said. "What are you doing here?"

     "I came in to talk with you, to ask for your forgiveness. I acted like
a total ass, and all of this is my fault. If it wasn't for me, the accident
would have never happened, Carlos wouldn't be here. It's all my fault."
James said looking down to the ground.

     Logan walked up to James and slapped him. James let out a painful
yelp, but looked back at Logan.

     "I deserved that. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me." James said as he
looked at Logan.

     Before Logan could talk, Gustavo walked into the room with Kendall.

     Taylor looked at everyone. "I'm just going to go ahead and wait out in
the waiting room."

     "Boys I have some bad news." Gustavo said as he walked towards the
window. Big Time Rush may very well have come to an end."

     "What?" Logan asked. "What do you mean? Why?"

     "Griffin is worried that this could very well hinder the progress of
the group." Gustavo said.

     "Well, cant you do something?" Logan asked.

     "That isn't my choice to make." Gustavo sighed. "Griffin holds all the
power here."

     "I know that there is a lot of bad blood going on to work out here,
but this obviously isn't the place. I reccomend you boys talk your demons
out. I have to get going, I have a lot of meetins. I also came in to drop
off a get well package for Carlos." Gustavo placed a teddy beat holding an
envelop with the words "Get well soon" and he walked out of the room.

     Kendall, Logan, and James looked at each other. They would sepak with
each other in a more private setting.