Date: Thu, 10 May 2012 16:37:09 -0700 (PDT)
From: Rick Rod <ja.debonaire@yahoo.com>
Subject: Big Time Rush Chapter 17

Chapter 17: Undying Love

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Viacom, or Nickelodeon. This is a work of fiction and is for entertainment
only.

This work contains acts of homosexuality, so if you're offended by such
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Note: Yet another touching chapter. I got a lot of mixed reviews about the
last Chapter, and I think it was just what this story needed. Well not much
to say here about this one. Hope you guys enjoy this one.


     The tension was strong. Kendall, James, and Logan were all sitting
down in the same room. Logan's red eyes seemed to pierce right into James'
soul. The feeling was uncomfortable for him. James could not make eye
contact with Logan, he knew that he was responsible for what happened to
Carlos, and he knew Logan wouldn't forgive very easily, if he could even
gain his forgiveness. Kendall looked at the other two and scratched his
head.

     "Okay, look James as far as what went on between you and me, well I
don't think it was the right idea for us." Kendall said clearing his
throat. "I know I didn't appreciate you enough, and well I don't think I
was really ready for another relationship. I just want us to be friends, I
want all of us to just get along right now, there is a more important
matter in front of us, Carlos."

     Logan's eyes were fixated on James. "Why should I forgive him? After
what he did to me, and after what he tried to do, he doesn't deserve
forgivness."

     "I'm sorry." James choked up and started to cry. "Listen Logan, please
believe me, I'm sorry."

     Logan got up from his chair and pounded his fists onto the
table. "Sorry just doesn't cut it! I'm sorry isn't going to make all this
dissapear! I'm sorry isn't going to make Carlos spring up from that
hospital bed.!"

     "Hey Logan please calm down dude. Sit down." Kendall said grabbing
Logan. "Come on, let's just try and work something out guys."

     "Why?" Logan asked. "So he can try and pull that same stunt off again?
You know what your problem is James? Since you've been here, this fame has
gotten to your head. Carlos may not have seen it, Kendall may not see it,
but you care more about yourself than anyone else more than ever."

     James could not answer back. He was looking into his hands trying to
say somehting, but he couldn't muster up the courage. He looked up only to
see Logan glaring at him like a demon. James closed his eyes and took a
deep breath.

     "I don't know what to say. I fucked up okay!" James felt his eyes
watering again. He dropped to his knees. "Is that what you want to hear? I
fucked up okay, I did some stupid shit, and now my best friend is in the
hospital because I was being stupid."

     Logan balled up his hand into a fist and took a deep breath. "It's not
that easy to just forget about all of this. I could forgive you now, but
what if Carlos has permanent effects from the accident? What if he dies?
How do you know if he'll forgive you."

     "I don't know. I don't. I'm trying please believe me. I never would
have wanted to hurt any of you. I love all of you, and I don't know what
came over me. I'm trying, I don't know what to do!" James started crying
again.

     Logan closed his eyes. "I'll forgive you, if he lives, if he doesn't
have any long lasting effects, but so help me, if there is anything, I'll
never forgive you."

     The stinging words sent shivers down Kendall's spine. He had never
heard such strong and intimidating words come out of Logan's mouth before.

     "In the meantime, I don't wanna see your face. I just want to be with
Carlos." Logan said looking at Kendall.

     Before Kendall could respond Logan stood up and walked out of the
room. James was still shaken up, and Kendall sat down sighing as he ran his
fingers through his hair not knowing what to do with the situation, for the
first time Kendall felt like he wouldn't be able to guide the group through
this problem alone, he was over his head.

     Logan had arrived at the hospital and Carlos' parents were in the
room. He walked in and greeted them and took a seat next to Carlos on the
other side of the bed. He took a deep breath looking at Carlos peacefully
resting in the bed. It was still a heartwrenching sight. Just to see
someone who was always upbeat and energetic connected to so much equipment
was depressing.

     "You really love him don't you?" Mrs. Garcia asked wiping her tears
with a tissue.

     "I love him more than anything in the world. I always have. Since we
grew up together, I always felt this strong love for him, and well here I
am now, I never thought I'd have to be here like this, but I will always be
here for him." Logan said as a tear came out of his right eye. "It hurts to
see him like this. I know I most likely can't feel the pain you both are,
you're his parents, I'm just a boyfriend, but he's been in my life for so
long now..."

     "Logan. My wife and I want you to know that we always knew you and
Carlos would some day well you know. We just want you to know that it means
a lot to us that you love him so much, that you're here for him. That is
the most honorable thing anyone can do, and we can't thank you enough."
Mr. Garcia said as his voice cracked.

     There was an awkward silence for a few moments when a knock came to
the door. It was the doctor. He came in with a very concerned look on his
face. He had Carlos' file in his hand. The doctor came in and looked at the
three people in the room. He took a deep breath.

     "What is wrong doctor?" Mrs. Garcia asked.

     My staff and I have just become aware that Carlos has a metal plate in
his head." The doctor said.

     "Yes. He was in an accident as a kid. What is the significance of the
plate?" Mr. Garcia asked.

     "Well as you are aware, Carlos is in a dangerous area. If he were to
go into cardiac arrest, or if his heart rate stops in any way, that we
would not be able to use a defibrilator. The shock would travel through the
body, and because of the metal plate, could cause irreversable damage to
the brain, or worse."

     Logan started crying, he tried to contain himself, but failed
miserably.

     "I know this is a very difficult time, for all of you, but there are
certain percautions we must take at this time." The doctor said. "On a
lighter side, all of the results so far have come back positive. There is
no internal bleeding, but he has suffered a concusion which concerns me. He
has a bruised lung, and two cracked ribs."

     Mr. Garcia looked at the doctor. "So what does this mean?"

     "It means that Carlos will survive, but he may suffer longterm
complication from this accident, it could involve longlasting pain and
discomfort around his rib cage, especially if he does any sort of strenous
activity, but the biggest issue at here is whether or not he can wake up
from his coma. Many people are in a coma as short as a few days, and
years. Until he wakes from his coma, we cannot be certain as to what degree
the damage is to the brain. His results from the MRI showed that there is
an inflamation in some of the tissue, would could restrict proper blood
flow, meaning a decrease of oxygen to the brain. This could cause anything
from loss of smell, or possibly even short term memory loss. Once again, we
will not be certain until he has awaken from his coma." The doctor cleared
his throat. "Our biggest concern is if the swelling in the tissues of the
brain do not decrease, it may cause potential life threatening
complications. If the brain cannot receive proper blood and oxygen flow,
some vital organs may shut down, or may even cause certain organs to act
against the body. While he was having his MRI, Carlos had an erection,
which was relieving to us, as this was an indicaion that there is no spinal
damage. His legs twitched and every one in a while his body may jerk. Now
our biggest obstacle is the swelling."

     "Well what can you do about the swelling?" Logan asked. "Is there
anything that you are giving him?"

     "We have introduced a strong anti-inflamitory into his body, we hope
that this will decrease the swelling so the blood can flow." The doctor
said. "This injury is typical in most boxers, and we are treating this as
such. Thankfully he got here to the hospital quickly, and we were able to
make certain adjustments. Now that we know the major problems, we can begin
treating these quickly."

     Mr. Garcia held his wife and looked back at the doctor. "Is there
anything we can do?"

     "Yes, I reccomend you visit him as often as you can, speak to him,
hold his hand, let him know you are here. Often enough these small things
have been able to bring people out of a coma, but there is no guarantee. He
mostly knows that all of you are here." The doctor smiled. "He is a
fighter. We will keep a close eye on him, and we will do our best to get
your son back on his feet."

     "Thank you so much." Mr. Garcia responded as he shook the doctor's
hand. "I'm sorry we never even got your name."

     "I am Doctor Kent." The man said. "If there is anything you need to
ask, please do not hesitate to call for me."

     He walked out of the room. An hour had passed when the Garcia's had
decided to leave for a short amount of time leaving Logan some time alone
with Carlos. Logan grabbed Carlos' hand and kissed it again and helf it
close to his cheek. A tear dripped from his eye and landed on Carlos'
hand. The hand twitched and Logan closed his eyes.

     "Oh baby, why did you have to run out on me. I tried to explain to you
so hard." Logan started weeping. "I was never unfaithful to you. You are my
one, my last, my everything. You are the only man in this world who own my
heart, no one else. My love is yours and only yours. This was all James'
fault. I don't know why he did what he did. I don't know if I can ever
forgive him for this, it hurts so much to see you like this. I feel like I
failed you. I didn't try hard enough to hold you, and I know if I could
have slowed you down maybe just a few more moments, that car would have
never hit you. I would rather you have been angry at me, than here in this
hospital bed. I don't know how long I can keep fighting this feeling
inside. I love you so much, and I want you to fight this and come back to
me. I promised you that I would always be here by your side, no matter
what, and here I am. You have to come back, I don't know what I would do
without you. I'm already going crazy. The bed felt so lonely and cold
without you. Life has been so dull without your witty comedy, and joyful
energy. I'm nothing without you, I was never anything without you. As long
as I can remember, you were the one who always brought out my best side. I
know before we became boyfriends we had our fights, and we had our
arguments, but we never held a grudge against one another, and at times I
wonder if you and I were meant to be. We always came back together, and I
want you to come back. I'm begging you, I know you can hear me. I know that
you can feel me here. I don't want to lose you, you are the best thing that
has ever happened to me. If I could find a miracle that would bring you
back, I would swim across the ocean, I would climb the highest mountain,
cross the most unbearable desert, even brace the coldest winds to be there
for you. Nothing in this world would ever make me give you up, not all the
money, fame, or knowledge in this life. I feel so lonely without you. These
past few days have been the most horrible days I have had in a long time."

     Logan looked up and saw Carlos' crying. His eyes were closed, but the
tears were flowing out steadily. Logan stood up and Carlos' hand grabbed
his hand and he wouldn't let go. Logan started to cry again, but more of a
loving release. He held Carlos' hand tightly and wiped the tears away form
his lover's face. At that moment somehting magical happened. A smile came
to Carlos' face before it had slowly faded away. Logan leaned forward and
gently kissed Carlos on the forehead whispering the words "I love you."