Date: Tue, 20 Mar 2001 22:55:55 -0500
From: steelo64 <steelo64@email.msn.com>
Subject: Angel's Wings (part 3)

What up peep this is my 1st story and after sitting back and reading
everyone else's I decided to give it a shot.  Right now sex is not going to
just pop up.  I want to set up a story line first.

Aight I don't know N'sync or Bsb .  Any thing about shows and cities or
hotels is coming straight from my exp. and imagination.

***I would like to think the few who are writing me about my story, if you
have any suggestion don't hesitate to write me I'll try to get back to you.
See y'all later.***

C-ya
Shawn

Here is
Angel's Wings

***Shane***

I couldn't handle seeing him right then, I mean outing yourself and getting
a bad response was one thing but to be outted by someone else while your
not there do say anything in defense just felt weird.  I was running
towards the door when I looked back and saw James start to chase me.

I knew I couldn't get to my car and drive off without running him down so I
took a turn before I hit the door and went over to the bar.  After seeing
him go out after me, I decided now was not the time to think but try and
let it all go in some drinks.  I headed towards the bar and sat for a min.
I don't drink much so I didn't know what was good so I decided to try and
get lost in the music.

 This quiet time only allowed my mind to go back to James.  It was weird
one second I wouldn't piss n him if he were on fire and then I feel like he
could be someone to wake up to in the morning, to bring home to the family
someone to share my life with.  I just couldn't hold back and starting
crying again.

 Then this big clean-cut guy came over to me.  "Hey what's up bud, what's
wrong?"

  He asked which made me laugh on the inside one cause I never saw this guy
before and two cause I was praying no one would smoke to close to him cause
he had enough cologne to choke a horse.

"Nothing much, just life" I stated.  "Oh come on tell Ray what's wrong.
Here let me get you a drink."  It was weird but after the drink I kinda
loosened up and started talking.  But it didn't end there he kept giving
drinks the same one.  Long Islands I think but they were good.  I figured
that I had had enough and decided to leave, well started to but I got
dizzy.  All I remember is the room swirling and every thing going black.



***Lance***

I sat at the table with Justin, Chris and Trish all around me.

"I can't believe it, I lost him before I even got a chance."

I was able to say between the few tears that started to drop.  "What do you
mean?"  Trish asked.

"You mean you like him" she answered before I could. I just simply nodded.

  "Well you not going to give up then are you?"  She asked.  "Well?" she
asked again.  "I don't know." I answered back a little loud. "I don't
know."  I said little to myself.

 "Well I'm sorry about what happened, here's my number incase you want to
get in contact with Shane later."  She said with a little uncertainty in
her voice.  "Yeah ok."  I said excepting her number and I ripped a piece
off and told her to call me in the morning to see if Shane got in ok.

We all started to leave and file away when we heard a commotion at the bar,
it seems that someone fainted.  Then some guy picked up the other person
and started walking to the door.  As we were walking towards the door I
heard Trish yell for help.  I looked over at her as she yelled that, that
was Shane.

 Justin and Chris were right behind me when we caught up to the guy as he
was putting Shane into the back of his car.  "Hey!"  Justin said getting
the mans attention.  "That's our friend"

"Well not tonight he's not, he's coming home with me."  Just then Trish ran
out behind us.  "Who the hell are you?"  "What's it to you tramp?"

 Well that was about it, I knew he fucked up when he said 'what's it to you
but when he said tramp', me and Chris just back away.  "What did you say?"
She said daring him to say it again.

"You heard me, I said what's it to you tramp."  "Well I just want to know
why would you want a lil boy like him when you can have me" She said in a
sexy voice.  I had enough.  "What the fuck are you doing?!"  I yelled at
her causing Chris and Justin to look at me like I had lost my mind.  "I
just wanna show him a good time."  Trish said as she walked up to the man.
"How I can really be."

 She paused as she rubbed her hands down his chest to his crotch. "How much
of a BITCH I can be when people piss me off!"  I thought Chris could hit
high notes.  When she grabbed his balls and squeezed them like they were
stress relief toys I swore the guys filling had popped out.

He was now on the floor crying and Trish was not letting go.  "Nice phone
you got there."  She said motioning at his cell phone.  "Give it to me."
She demanded.

If they were in jail he would definitely be her bitch. He handed her the
phone with out argument.  Without letting go of his balls Trish called the
police and told us to go wait in our car.  The police arrived and were
laughing their Asses off at how Trish had the guy.

"After explaining a few things and leaving us out of it we found that Ray
(as we were told) had slipped Shane the date rape drug.  They assured us it
would wear off and in the morning he would be ok.

"So what do we do now?"  Chris asked.  "Well I have to go to work early
tomorrow morning but I can't take him home I don't know his alarm code and
I'm staying at a friends house."

 Trish said.  "We'll we could take him to our hotel."  Justin opted.  "Do
you think we should?"  I said.  Don't get me wrong I wanted him there but
if anyone saw us then what.

 "Yeah we shouldn't have a problem."  So we decide to take him back to the
hotel after dropping off Trish.  Justin and Trish took the rental while I
took Shane's Navigator, (getting his keys was one of the most entertaining
games I've ever played).

When we got back to the hotel and we got to our suite we put all of our
stuff down in the main room and headed into our separate rooms that
branched off of the main room.  Joey and Jc must have gotten back from
their club earlier and was already asleep.

Justin said good night and Chris helped me bring Shane into my room.  I
decided against undressing him and just took off his shoes.  As soon as I
hit the bed I was knocked out still in all of my cloths.

***Shane***

I woke up the next morning at 7:00 with a huge headache.  My face was stuck
against the sheets.  I just wanted to go back to sleep on my nice firm
mattress.  'Hold up, since when did my mattress breath and have a
heartbeat'.

I sprung up and saw that my newly acquired pillow was James from last
night.  Then all of my memories from last night came back to me.  But how
did I end up here.

Did I get so plastered that I had come home with James and had great sex?
That sounds about right with my luck.  Having incredible sex for the first
time and I can't remember it.  But why did he have a painful look on his
face.  As I looked around I saw I wasn't at my house and both James and me
had on all of our cloths.

'Oh well it was the thought that was fun.' I decided to get up and get my
bearings.  A couple of things came to me.  In the night I must have wrapped
myself around James and that freaky dream I had with the nipples would
explain why James nipple was out of his tank top and kinda wet.  I couldn't
help it when I said, "Got milk?"  out loud and started to laugh.

I looked around some more and discovered that I was in a hotel.  After
looking around the bedroom I went to the bathroom and handled my bisness.
By the sink was a welcome basket with a couple of toothbrushes, shampoo and
all that cheap stuff.  I brushed my teeth and left James a note that I had
to go.  I opened his room door expecting a hall way but I ended up in A
huge living room, complete with couches in a u shape pattern, fire place,
and big screen TV.

 There was also a kitchen and dinning table.  After seeing the room I
wondered what it cold be that these guys could do, to afford such a nice
suite.  I left the suite and went to the elevator and pressed the ground
floor.  After I exited the elevator and the hotel lobby I realized that I
was about 3 blocks away from my job.  I walked down the street to my job
and saw Trish behind the desk taking orders.  She saw me as I walked
towards her.  At first she smiled a big smile but then she kind of
recoiled.  I was guessing that she remembered last night.

"Shane I'm so sorry."  I knew she must have felt bad about what happened
and nothing totally bad happened.

"It's ok Trish, no major harm done, it's not like I'll ever see James
again."  It was true they said they travel around a lot so we would
problaby never meet again after today.

 "What, Why not?"  Trish asked, scaring me a little.  "Our paths will
probably never cross again after today.  And that only because I left my
phone at his hotel."

"But But why-" she stuttered out. "Why don't you talk to him some more and
tell him how you feel."

"Are you insane after how I ran out last night, besides I don't even know
if he's gay."

 "But-" She started out but stopped.  I knew she was keeping something in
because she started to bite her lip.  "But what?"  I inquired.  "Umm
nothing."  She said as she hurried off to refill customer water glasses.
Now I knew she had information she was avoiding me.

She came back a few mins. later so I decided to change the subject.  "Care
to enlighten me on how I ended up at Lances hotel?"  That should have been
my first question, but as long as I wasn't feeling a breeze at the back
door and I had all of my cloths in tact I guess it didn't worry me.

"Well when you ran off last some how you hooked up with a sleaze ball who
spiked your drink with some 'erasers', when he tried to take you to his car
the guys and I caught him and had a heart to heart."  "What the hell you
mean I could've been raped last night."

  "Yup boo, your lucky."  "What happened then?"  "Well after I put the
squeeze on him, we called the cops.  James offered you a place to stay
because I didn't have room at my place so I got his information and he took
your car and brought you to his pad for the night."

 Damn you wake up one morning after a couple of drinks and you can't
remember the previous night you know something is wrong, from that point on
I swore off drinking.  I should have been a little upset that she actually
let James and them take me to their place.  Shit they may have wanted an
orgy, and I would have missed it, well kind of.

 "Oh man thanks Trish your always looking out for me."  "No problem bro I
know you would do the same."  "Oh yeah I brought your extra set of cloths
just incase." She said handing me bag from behind the counter.  "Thanks
love. "I said kissing her on the forehead.

I decided that I would thank James for helping me.  After saying goodbye to
Trish I started on my way back to the hotel.  I stopped by a mini-mart and
picked up a couple of things.  I was back at the hotel and I got to James
floor when I saw a very big guy sitting in front of James suite.  I went to
go open the door when he grabbed my wrist.  I knew I could easily take him.

Our mother had me and my brothers all trained in the arts. My twin and me
excelled faster than the others. She said it would come in handy when the
easy way would not be appropriate. I knew what she ment but I didn't know
it would be such a curse.

Back to the matter at hand.  I could easily flatten this guy, I mean hit
him so hard his mothers head would spin.  But I dropped my bags and grabbed
his wrist and twisted it in a position that would have surely broken it.
He yelled like a girl.  I had to laugh at that.  That's when another guy
came out of the adjacent rooms.

 "What the hell is going on out here?"  "He asked and then took in what he
saw.  At first I thought he was going to attack but he started to break out
laughing.  "Paul don't you ever listen, he was cleared last night when the
boys brought him in.  That'll teach you to listen next time."  I loosened
my grip on Paul and picked up my bags.  The other guy picked one up and
handed it to me.

"Hi I'm Leonie."  He said sticking his hand out to me.  "Hi I'm Shane."  I
replied taking his hand and then was surprised when Paul offered me his
hand I took his to and shook it.  "Sorry about that." he said.  That's all
right I replied "Here let me get that for you." Leonie said reaching in his
pocket and using a key card to let me into the suite. "Thanks" I said a
little worried that he had the key, but every thing looked ok so I guessed
he was a friend.

I went the kitchen and placed all the food down in the kitchen.  I went
back to James room and he was still out cold.  It was 8:30 so I decided to
start cooking.  I'm very active on my days off so I eat a lot more cause I
burn a lot of energy working out.  So I bought double the amount of food
for the guys and me.  I bought 3 packs of Kehalbasa sausage, a pack of
bacon, 2 lg. bags of hash browns, 10 eggs with French toast and pancakes
along with some milk and orange juice.  I even bought a box of Smacks for
who ever wanted to be picky.  I sat the table for 4 and started breakfast.

 Half way through while I was cooking the Kehilbasa and was adding the
onions James came out still in his cloths from last night looking worried
holding the note I wrote earlier.  "What's wrong?" I said causing him to
jump.  "Oh good, I thought you left."  "I did but I came back, didn't you
read my note?" "Well only half way."  He answered shyly.  "Why what's
wrong?"  I asked walking over to him and wiping my hands off on a cloth.

"Nothing." He said a little to quickly.  "Yeah right, come on man tell me."
I had a hunch but I wasn't going to get to excited.  "Well after what
happened last night I thought you were going to leave again."  "Oh." Was
all I said and I turned to avoid his gaze.  "Why did you leave?"

I didn't answer, I didn't want to tell him I was afraid to loose him as a
friend.  One I don't really even know him but I feel like I grew up with
him, second saying I was afraid of being lonely would sound weird.  I hate
to show any sign of weakness to anyone cause some people take advantage of
that some times.

"Shane?"  He said breaking me of my thought.  He really wanted an answer
and for some strange reason I was going to give it to him.  But I was
afraid of how he was going to take it.  "I was afraid."  I said very low.
"Afraid of what?" he asked in a low tone.  "You."  I said simply when I
said that I started to cry.  I hated it when I cried noting ever seems
straight.  I can't think and I don't always catch my words when they come
out.  He heard me sniff a tear and quick grabbed my shoulder and turned me
around.

"Why were you afraid of me?" He asked in a pained voice.  "I don't know,
but after Trish tol-told you I was afraid of how you would react.  I was
afraid that you would hate me be cause -" "Because what, you were gay?"  He
half stated and asked.

"I would never turn on you because of something like that.  It doesn't
change you as a person. I would never do that to a friend."  As cheesy as
it sounded it was sweet of him, and caused me to smile a little causing me
to turn my head.  He placed his hands on the sides of my face and turned me
towards him.  "If your ever afraid of something like that again never doubt
that you can talk to me ok?"

I nodded and he grabbed me in a hug that I gladly returned.  It was
amazing; his arms were so warm and soft but still so strong.  My head was
on his shoulder facing his neck I inhaled slowly taking in his smell.  It
was a Kodak moment only to be interrupted by his growling stomach. We
parted laughing a little.

"I guess your hungry."  I said with a small smile.  "We yeah kind of,
that's what woke me up this morning."  He said motioning towards the
kitchen. "Well I wanted to thank you guys for helping me out last night."
"You don't have to thank us, but thank you."

 "No problem it's the least I can do.  Why don't you get washed up and when
you get out I'll jump in ok."  He nodded and headed towards his room.
"James."  I called to him.  "Don't forget you can talk to me to."  He
nodded and got this look of total thought on his face and headed to his
room. I turned back to the near done sausages and started on the hash
browns.

***Lance***

After I walked into my room I practically collapsed against my door.  That
hug took a lot out of me.  It was racking my brain trying to think of
something so I didn't get hard.  His skin was so soft, and his body fit
perfectly with mine as we hugged.  I needed a cold shower.  Even with the
cold shower I couldn't help but think of Shane.  My mind kept drifting back
to early that morning.

I had woke up and just admired the sleeping form that was settled on my
chest.  In the night he wrapped himself around me and was practically
clinging to me.  I didn't want to disturb him so I decided to go back to
sleep.  Then he started to stir.

"Shane?"  But he didn't respond.  "Shane." I tried again, but all I got was
a small grunt.  'I guess he's still sleep.'  I thought, then out of no
where he shifted his head a little so no is face was on my bear chest, warm
breath spreading across my nipple.  I started to get excited and it wasn't
helping that I couldn't reach to adjust myself because I didn't want to
wake him up.

Then I don't know what happened but he started mumbling in his sleep and
his tongue came out and started licking around my nipple.  I couldn't
believe it, this had to be a dream, but damn what a dream.  My pants had
become 5 sizes to small for me at the moment.  I tried to think of other
things but I kept getting images of Shane and me having sex.  I started
breathing heavily and was getting ready to blow but he started stirring in
his sleep.  I had to slow my breathing and fake like I was sleep.

He must have realized what he was doing cause through peeking eyes I saw
him blushing deeply and cover me back up.  Then it hit me, I got blue
balls.  It hurt so much; I had to use everything I had to keep from
screaming out in pain.  After he left it took a while before I could even
get up.  And now memories from earlier added to our brief embrace I release
came quickly.

After I was done I went back into the room and got dressed and told Shane
that he was free to take a shower.  When I got out I was amazed at how
great the food looked.

"If your friends wake up, just eat okay. I'll be out in a few."  "Alright
but you didn't have to go through any trouble for us."  Having a meal made
for us like this was somewhat special because usually some nameless face
makes it because we pay enough.  But he did all this because we looked out
for him and he didn't even know us as N'sync.  I decided to wake up the
others so they can enjoy the food while it was hot.

 First I knocked on Justin's door.  All I got was a grunt so I went in to
wake him up.  After doing wake up calls for a while I realized that after
clubbing Justin was the most resistant to waking up, so I came up with my
own technique that became some what effective.

 First I gave him a chance to get up easily I went over to his bed and
nudged him a couple of times, but he only turned over to evade my attempt,
now came the fun part.  I walked over to the far side of the room and
called his name out one more time he opened his eyes only to close them
again and fall asleep.  I then ran towards the bed full speed and made a
cannonball jump to the empty side of Justin.  While in the air I yelled out
his name causing him sit up slightly.  When he was able to focus it was to
late.  I had landed on the bed hard causing him to be ejected out the other
side with a loud thud.

 "What was that for?"  He yelled while I was getting comfy in his
bed. "It's time to wake up."  I stated simply.

 "Couldn't you have done it a little quieter?"  He wined.  "Yeah but what
fun would that be?"

"What ever, why are you waking me up we have like 3 weeks off, I wanna
sleep."

"I would let you sleep but Shane got up this morning and decided to make us
a thank you breakfast."  "Shane is still here."  I wondered if he had even
heard that Shane had made us breakfast.  "Yeah."  I said knowing anything
else would go in one ear and out of the other.  "Alright I'll be out in a
minute."  He said rushing around picking out clothes and preparing to jump
in the shower.

I left his room and went to Joey's.  He and Chris were on his bed talking
both holding up their hands in defeat when they saw me come in.  "Were up,
were up."  Joey said in false fear.  "Yeah we heard Justin's wake up thud."
Chris said with a small smile.  "Alright be out at the in a few, Shane made
us breakfast."  "Ohh home made breakfast I can't wait." Joey exclaimed.

I left Joey and Chris and finally headed to Jc's room.  I raised my hand to
knock when he called for me to come in.  "Hey Lance what's up."  "Nothing
much I just wanted to tell you that breakfast is here."

 "You must have woke up early to have ordered it already."  "Well, I didn't
order it.  Shane made it for us."

  "Oh so I take it things went well at the club."  "Well yes and no."
"What do you mean?" Jc said with a confused look.

 "Well first I found out that Shane thinks I'm cute."  "That's good."  "But
it was because his friend slipped up and outted him causing him to almost
be abducted."  "That's bad."  "He left but he came back this morning."
"That's good."  "But it may be because I have his car."  "That's not so
bad."  "He has no idea who I am, I mean we talked and knows some of the
things I like, but he doesn't know about N'sync and Lance Bass."  "Now
that's bad."  "Tell me about it."  I said falling in a chair.  I hadn't
thought how things might change when he found out about my life.  "Well why
don't you tell him now."  "I think I will but what if he rejects me?"
"What if he doesn't?"  "Damn you and your double question logic."

***Open Field***

After talking to Jc for a few more minutes Lance headed out and saw Justin,
Joey and Chris standing around the table.  "Wow he made all of this?"
Justin said in awe.

"Damn, fine and he can cook what else could I ask for?" Justin whispered to
Chris.  "A clue."  Chris said walking away.  "What do you mean?" Justin
said stopping Chris.  "I mean he went to bed with Lance last night."  "So
they didn't have sex yet."  "And how do you know?"  "I don't but I know
someone who does."  Justin said with a mischievous grin.

 "So Lance I guess I owe you."  "What do you mean?"  Lance said with
confusion.  "I mean you laid Shane last night so you won the bet."  "I
didn't have sex with Shane last night."  "Good then that means the bet is
still on."  Justin walked away with a triumphant smirk on his face, knowing
he got just the information he wanted. They all settled down and started
filling their plates.

"Wow this is the best Breakfast I've had in a long time."  Joey exclaimed.
"I know and try the Kehabalsa they taste great."  Chris added in between
mouthfuls.  All the guys were enjoying their meals, when Shane walked out
of Lances room drying his hair. Dressed in blue jean shorts and a white
tank top. This caught the attention of three set of eyes.

Justin was first to gain his composure.  "Hi Shane, sleep well."  "Yeah
thanks."  "No thank you."  Chris spoke up.  "For this wonderful breakfast."
'Now if you would let me lick this jelly off of your naked chest this could
really be good.' Chris thought getting a small smile on his face.

"I just wanted to thank you guys for helping me out last night."  "That's
what friends are for dude."  Justin said.  "Thank you for considering me as
a friend. That means a lot."  Shane got this look of happiness on his face
for a minute that look like it couldn't be beat.

Shane took a seat between Justin and Lance sitting directly across from
Chris with Joey sitting to his left and Jc to his right.  "Jason can you
pass me the jelly."  Shane said trying to get Chris's attention.  "Jason,
Jason."  Chris didn't answer until Jc kicked him.  "What?!"  He said
angrily cause he had to stop eating.  "I'm sorry."  Shane apologized.  "I
wanted the Jelly."  Chris's face softened and quickly passed the
jelly. "Here you are, sorry I was day dreaming."  Chris said giving Shane
his sweetest smile.  'Oh my god, his smile is so cute, I'd better stop
staring.'  Shane thought causing him to blush

  "Umm Shane we have something to tell you."  Lance spoke up.  "Were not
who we said we were."  Every thing went silent.  "Wha-what do you mean."
Shane stammered out as he put down his fork.  "Well remember I told you
that we travel a lot?"  "Yeah."  Shane answered shakily.  "Well it's not
for the reason that you think.  And my name isn't James."  "Um ok but I
just wanna tell you I never judge people for what they believe.  If you're
Satanist even though it's not my bag I know some people who aren't happy
with their lives.  So how bout I recruit them for you and you let me live."
Shane said trying to get up.  "What? No we're not a cult, were well do you
know the song "Bye Bye Bye".

 Shane seemed to be thinking then the look on his face said he got it.  He
suddenly turned bright red.  "Oh my god you're the Backstreet Boys."  That
got a couple of groans and a slap in the head from Justin.  "I'm just
playing guys, but why did you lie to me."  This question that seemed to be
directed at the group, but the hurt in Shane's voice told Lance it was
directed to him.

"I'm sorry it's just that it's not normal that we meet people who treat us
normal.  We're constantly surrounded by people that only care about N'sync
and not about each of us as a person."  Lance finished looking at the
ground.  Shane turned towards Lance and put his fingers under Lances chin
until they made eye contact.  "It's ok, I know what you mean.  Having to
act the way everybody else wants you to act because of something you do."

 Even after he finished talking Shane still held Lances gaze they seemed to
stay like that for a while locked in each other's eyes.  Them finally
Justin cleared his throat causing both Shane and Lance to blush a deep red.
"Ok I know your music but I must apologize I don't know you each."  "Well
I'm Justin, that's Jc, there's Chris and Joey and right there is Lance."

  "Well I'm Shane Valdez."  "Is that Spanish?"  Jc inquired.  "Yeah."
Shane answered, "I don't mean to pry but you don't look totally Spanish."

  "It's ok I get that a lot.  While my farther was Spanish, my mother was
Hawaiian."  Every body had moved to the living area.  They were talking
when Shane noticed Justin staring at him kind of strong.

"Damn can I help you?"  Shane said laughing a little.  "Oh sorry, It's just
I swear I seen you somewhere before on T.V."

 "I haven't been on T.V really."  "Do you surf?" Justin asked determined to
remember where he saw Shane's face before.  "No only my--- Oh ok I know
where you think you saw me before.  Do you watch Bay watch?"  "Yeah a
little."  "Well my cousin is on the Hawaii edition as Jason.  People say we
look so much alike he's the lost Valdez brother it kinda corney."

 "Oh yeah now I remember.  Man you two do look exactly alike."  The group
talked a while longer until Lance announced that they had to get ready to
leave.  As everybody started to go to their rooms Shane started towards the
door.  "Ok guys well I guess I'll see you around."

  "Oh no you don't."  Joey said jogging towards Shane and grabbing his
arm. "What's up where are you going?"  "Home, I figured that you wanted to
hang by your selves."  "No way after cooking like that your not getting
away that easy, besides its to close to lunch."  He said with a grin.
"Yeah well your out of luck I don't do lunch."

  "Ok how about this, I'll let you grace us with your presence at the mall
today if you cook us diner."  "Oh how could I say no to that" As Shane
waited Lance was the first ready followed by Jc.

"Oh damn guys I forgot, I have to go home I need to get some money."  "I
could spot you."  Lance offered.  "No that's ok I'll be quick."  "Umm guys
I forgot to tell you I had to give back the car last night."  Justin said
as he was putting on his coat.  "I guess that you'll be riding with me
then."  'I don't think being around Lance all day is a good thing,' Shane
thought to himself.  'I mean staying hard all day can't be healthy.'

After getting everything settled Shane drove the guys to his house.  He
told them he would be right out and to wait in the truck.  About 2 minutes
after Shane went into his house a hunter green Jaguar pulled up, and the
driver went inside Shane's house.  "I wonder who that is."  Joey asked from
the far backseat.  About 3 minutes later Shane came out of the house
shouting every swear made in both English and Spanish.  He jumped the truck
visibly mad and sped off towards the mall.

The ride was in deadly silence.  Every body thinking the same thing.
'What's going on'?  It was finally Chris who said something.  "Are you ok
man?"  "What do mean?"  Answered back, trying to be strong but the tears in
his voice told other wise.  "What's wrong?"  Jc said in his most caring
voice.  "Nothing, just a problem with a nosey neighbor."  Amazingly Shane
had erased all traces of emotion from both his face and voice.  "Well if
you need to talk, you know where to find me."  Lance said as he reached his
hand over and placed it on Shane's.  "So what are we going to the mall
for?" Shane asked changing the conversation but never moving his hand from
Lances.  "Nothing much, just browsing."  Justin stated as he took in some
N.Y sights.

The mall was pretty much empty because it was a school day.  The guys all
decided it would be ok if they stuck together and could split if they
wanted.  As they were shopping Joey, Justin and Chris went to the sporting
goods to find some jerseys, and Shane was helping Lance pick out an outfit
while Jc was looking through shoes.

Lance was in the dressing room as Shane passed him clothes.  "Ok try these
on."  Shane said as he handed Lance a black tank top, and a black button up
guess shirt, with black jeans.  Lance put them on and came out with his
arms open to show Shane the outfit.  After letting out a couple of cat
calls the caused Lance to blush Shane got up from where he was sitting.
"Sorry Lance, if your uncomfortable with me doing things like that I'll
stop."  "No I don't mind, but what do you think of this?" "Come on Lance
you got to let go some times."  He said as he started to unbutton Lances
shirt.  "What do you mean?"  Lance said low and huskily as his breathing
and heart quickened.  "Um I mean.."  Shane couldn't answer because his mind
and body was sent into over drive due to the closeness of his and Lances
bodies.  They gazed into each other's eyes, as their lips got closer.
'This is it, if I don't screw this up I could finally live happy with
someone to call me own.'  Was one of the major thoughts running through
Lance's head.  Shane was having a meeting of the minds of his own. 'What am
I doing?'  'Your about to kiss a major hottie.'  'But I don't know him.'
'Does it matter, your about to have touchdown in 5..4..3..2..'  "Hey
Lance".  Jc yelled as he came arough the corner.  "I found some killer
shoes."  Jc said as he held up a black and red pair of air 1's.  "Did you
guys find anything?"  He asked.  "Almost."  Lance answered in a growl.
"Huh?"  Jc looked totally confused.  "Damn."  Shane said coming out of his
dazed state.  "Does anybody else feel like they need a smoke?  I need some
air."  Shane said as he headed for the exit to the mall.  "Hey wait up I'll
come." Jc yelled.  "Meet us by the benches."  Jc told Lance as he changed.

As Jc left the store he saw Shane looking at some crystal figures.  "They
beautiful aren't they, they look almost alive."  "Yeah."  "So what else do
you like?"  "Huh, what do you mean?"  "Well you may know a little about us
but we know nothing about you so what do you and don't you like?"  "Well I
like to dance and s-" Before Shane could finish he was interrupted by a
couple that were fighting near by.  "Your such a hoe."  The man yelled at
the women.  "Your always spending my money on stuff we don't need."  "What
the hell do you think I do all day, I work just like you and half that
money is mine?"  "I say where we spend the money, and you didn't need those
shoes."  "Whatever it my money, you have no say."  She said as she walked
away. "The hell I don't" With that he grabbed her and smacked her so hard
she was on the ground.

 Before Jc could say anything, Shane was already moving towards the man.
As the guy reached for the girl Shane grabbed his wrist.  "Who the hell are
you."  Shane got an evil smile on his face and said.  "I'm da baddest
bitch."  "Fuck you." The guy said as he threw a punch at Shane.  Ducking it
Shane, uppercutted the guy knocking the wind out of him.  When he was
doubled over Shane grabbed the man and drug him over to the water fountain.
"Now I want you to apologize to her." She said pointing to the girl who was
helped up by some of the people who had formed a small crowd around him.
"Sorry" he muttered out.  "Didn't hear you."  Shane said as he plunged his
head under the water.  "I said i'm sorry."  The man cried as he was allowed
to breath.  "Good."  Shane said as he dropped the now crying man on the
floor.

"You asked what I like, well that's not it." Shane said as he pulled the
shocked Jc away from the small crowd.  Jc could tell by Shane's face there
was a reason he jus beat the shit out of that guy but was afraid to ask.
Shane was leading Jc outside to the back of the mall.  Once there Shane
collapsed against the wall and started to cry.  This shocked Jc to see a
guy who moved like a warrior one minute and cried like a lost child the
next. "I'm sorry, but that's one of the things I can't stand."  Shane
sobbed out.  "As much as I hate to fight I can't stand to see abused like
that."  Jc moved closer to Shane and hugged him.  "Why, did someone do that
to your mom when you was little."  Jc asked When Shane looked up, Jc could
see the pain that tried to hide in his eyes let lose.  "No, me"

Jc took in a breath as Shane told him what happened.  "My first boyfriend I
had, had a problem.  He didn't know when to stop drinking.  It was ok when
He drank a little, but when he got loaded he unloaded on me."

Flashback

Shane's bf apartment.

"Hey boo I'm here."  Shane called into the darkness of the house.  Shane's
boyfriend Tyler had invited him over because his parents were gone for the
week.  "Tyler are you here."  Shane called again.  "In here a voice called
from upstairs."  "Hee hee what are you planning."  A curious Shane said
with a small smile as he peeked in side Tyler's bedroom door.  Then he was
pulled inside.  In the darkness of the room Shane could make out Tyler's
form by the moonlight.  He was grinning stupidly as he moved closer.  "I
was planning that we could get to know each other better."  Shane could
smell the alcohol on his breath and he knew some was wrong.  "Come here."
Tyler said as he grabbed Shane and forced his tongue in his mouth.  Shane
tried to push him off but his joiner swimmers build was no match for
Tyler's senior wrestling body.  In one move Tyler punched Shane in his
stomach and threw him on the bed.  "Look!" Tyler yelled pinning Shane to
the bed.  "I'm getting tired of you and your teasing.  You keep looking at
me with innocent eyes but you know you want it."  "But I don't-" "It
doesn't matter what you want.  You keep shaking that ass at me and expect
me to wait?  Well not anymore."  Tyler started removing his pants and then
Shane's.  As much as Shane struggled he couldn't free his hands from
Tyler's massive grip.  Losing his strength trying Shane gave up letting
Tyler kiss and bite on his nipples.  Sensing Shane settle down Tyler let
his hands lose.  Shane turned Tyler over so that he was on top a straddling
his waste.  With his hands he rubbed his way on up Tyler's leg with one
hand he got closer to Tyler's covered basket and with the other he reached
for a near by lamp.  With Tyler's eyes closed he swiftly knocked him out
with one hit.

"He was in a coma for weeks, I was so afraid, and I couldn't do anything to
stop him."  Shane said as he cried into Jc's chest.  "It's okay you didn't
have a choice."  Jc tried comforting Shane.  "But if I hadn't -" "No he was
making excuses for him self, you didn't do anything to deserve that."  Jc
held him for a while longer and slowly stood him up.  "Come on let's go
back inside."  Jc said as he wiped the tears from Shane's face and his own.
As they walked back to the benches they ran into a worried Lance, Justin,
and Chris.  "See I told you he was with Jc." Joey said as they approached.

"What happened?" Lance asked Jc as Shane kept walking.  "Shane was helping
somebody."  "Then why the hell was he crying?"  Lance snapped back not
buying Jc's story.  "Look Lance it's non of my businesses ok so drop it."
Jc snapped back and stormed off.  Lance jogged back up to Jc.  "Look man
I'm sorry."  I just got a little worried."  "I understand, don't worry
about Shane he'll be alright."

Shane decided to let Joey drive as he sat in the second seat.  Jc let him
rest his head against his shoulder and soon he fell asleep.  Joey pulled
into the back of the hotel and gave the keys to the valet as he and Jc
carried Shane up into Lances room.  Lance began to get in bed beside Shane
as he had done the night before when there was a knock on the door.

Jc peaked his head in.  "Um Lance can I talk to you for a minute?"  Lance
was tired but hearing the seriousness in Jc's voice quickly woke him up.
"Sure."

Jc lead Lance to the living room.  "Could you sleep out here tonight?"
Lance was confused.  "Why?"  "I can't tell you right now but, I just don't
want you to rush things with Shane."  "I won't, but what's going on with
you?"  Lance was getting irritated.  "First you tell me I should go after
him, and now your telling me to back off.  What now you want him for
yourself."  "Your such a dick, from what he's told me.  He doesn't even
know you gay.  So what's up with you, do want Justin to take him away from
you."  "No its not that, it's just I'm afraid what if I do it wrong or to
early."  "What's the worst that could happen?"  Jc asked softening his
voice trying to reassure his friend.  "He could walk out of my life before
I could even get a chance."  Lance said looking defeated.  "But he could do
that anyway, look tomorrow we are going to Brian's party so why don't you
invite him."  "Yeah I was planning to."  "I'm sorry about what I said
before, about you wanting Shane."

"That's ok" Jc shrugged.  "It's nothing."  'But if it's nothing why did I
feel stiff when he said that.'

They both said goodnight to each other.

The next morning Shane woke up in an empty bed.

'I wonder where Lance is?' He thought to himself as he stretched and went
into the bathroom.  'I probably scared him when I almost kissed him in the
mall yesterday.'

Shane decided that it was time to finally go home.

As he was headed to the door he stopped as he spotted Lance lying on the
couch.  He looked so cute with the light from the balcony caressing his
skin and highlighting his bare chest, and angelic features in his face.

He so wanted to kiss him as he lay there before he left but it wouldn't be
the same if the love wasn't returned.  He looked away sadly and left the
room.  He was getting on the elevator when Leonie stepped off.  "Hey Shane
what up."  "Nothing, just going home."  He said in a low voice.  "What's
wrong?"  "Huh, um nothing."  "Will you be back?"  Leonie asked with concern
in his voice.  Shane smiled at that and shrugged his shoulders. As he
pressed the button "I don't know." Was all he said and the doors closed on
him.