Date: Sat, 20 Feb 1999 19:10:58 -0500 From: bsb_brok1@hotmail.com Subject: B-rok's 10000 Promises Part 7 Its Finally done, I finally got the next and sorry to say final part up, I had fun writing this. Sorry to everyone, who I couldn't reply to with e-mails, things have been really crazy and well hard on me lately, but thank you guys for all the encouragement. Special thanks goes to JM, JJ, and Bumlets, for encouragement and everything and for the great stories you guys write! David, again thank you for your help with editing and help in all other areas of my life love ya. Jonathan, you know how much you mean to me JB, I love you, I hope you enjoy it like you enjoyed the others. Bumlets one more time for the Song you wrote for the story, you are a lifesaver! And it is an excellent song the rest of you will have to read through the story to get to the great song he wrote. If I'm leaving anyone out I'm sorry, but thank you all for pushing me to get this done and I would still love to hear your comments bsb_brok1@hotmail.com I'll try to get back to most of the e-mails. So here you go I hope you enjoy it! B-rok's 10000 Promises Part7 (Dream) Walking down a road in the deep dark night, feeling something creeping up behind me I begin to jog slowly. As the noise from behind me gets louder I begin to run faster till I see a hidden mansion in the woods. I run my fastest but it seems like the mansion gets further and further away as I come up upon it. A flash of light shines in my eyes and I find myself inside an enormous house with what seemed like a never ending hallway. I strain my eyes to see in the dark room, "Where the fuck have you been?" a familiar voice says as I feel him grab my shoulder. I jump to step away and begin running as I see a light at the end of the hall. "Chris, get the fuck back here," my dad yelled from behind. For some reasons I stop and turn around, I look back, no one, "he's gone," I thought thankful. I slowly turn, what is the light? I decide to keep moving forward. "I told you to stop." I jumped backward as my dad appeared in front of me. "Dad, please, don't hurt me," I said, stumbling as I walk backward to get away. He slams his hands on my shoulders and throws me across the hall against the banister. He charges forward like a bull in a match. I begin to scream as he puts his shoulder into my stomach and throws me to the ground, punching me in the face as I get the taste of blood and numbness overwhelms my body. "Where have you been, you little faggot? Been with that bitch boyfriend of yours again, haven't you? Haven't you?" My dad screamed as I went black. A bright light flashes in my eyes as I come out of the darkness and enter a warm brightly-lit room, straining my eyes to get used to the light I see 2 figures across the room. I feel the throbbing of my head as tears still stream down my eyes from the pain and blood on my face as I hear, "Oh Nick, you know I will always love you," Brian's voice from across the room. "What? Where am I?" I thought to myself as my eyes got used to the bright light. "Bri, I will always love you too," Nick said back as they sat on the couch. "Hi guys?" I said trying to get them to notice I was there. No response. Brian and Nick cuddled closer on the couch as they turned on a basketball game. "Brian? Nick? Hello? I'm here?" I said starting to scream. I went over and sat next to Brian still no response. "Oh god what is happening? Nick has Brian now? Why god, why? I love him so much," I said as I began crying uncontrollably. I got up off the couch and ran to the door, as I walked out I began falling. Falling, it went from a very bright blue sky to the deepest thickest black as I fell kicking my legs uncontrollably trying to find something in the black air to catch onto. As I began to hear a rhythm of songs starting with "Let's Have A Party" gradually the songs got slower and slower as I fell deeper and deeper. As the songs kept going, "10,000 Promises" began. I started to cry as I thought about Nick and Brian on the couch back together, without noticing me there anymore, the song ended abruptly!(end of dream) I jolted out of bed in a pool of sweat, I looked to my side to find Brian laying peacefully asleep. I got up off the bed and headed to the balcony of the Orlando hotel room. I stepped outside and was shocked by the cold air, I stepped slowly to the railing as I looked up at the dark sky lit by what seemed like a billion stars shining bright and lighting up the dark city. I grabbed the rail as I closed my eyes and breathed in the thick fog filled air. "Babe?" I jumped as Brian startled me. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scare you." Brian said as he wrapped his strong arms around me. "Another bad dream?" Brian asked as I still didn't talk just shook my head in agreeance. "Wanna talk about it?" "No, it hurts to much." I finally broke my silence. Brian grabbed me tighter, as he lead me back in the room. He laid me on the bed and fell beside me. "So you probably don't want to go back to bed." "No not really, we have to be to the airport in an hour and half anyway." I said as I gave Brian an evil grin. "What is on your mind, chef Chris?" Brian said giggling. "Um, I don't know, come over here and you might find out." I said grabbing his hand. "Mmm, you sure you're up for this?" Brian questioned. "I think so, here you tell me if I am ok." I said as I kissed him lightly then lowered down his bare chest kissing down to his navel. I heard Brian groan as I lowered his boxers and lightly licked his cock tasting the sweat off his body. I quickly swallowed all of his cock I could get down as I heard him moan in pleasure. Bobbing up and down on his stiff cock, tasting his sweet pre-cum as his hips bounced with every stroke. "Chris?" Brain groaned. "Yeah, babe?" "Will you, fuck me?" Brian asked as he looked down at me. I didn't answer I slowly pull his legs above my shoulders and slowly started licking his puckered asshole lubing it all up as I heard him moan in pleasure I licked harder and deeper feeling his body wiggle around pushing against my tongue. I lifted myself up and lowered my boxers as I revealed my hard cock as it bobbed in the dark Brian swiftly jumped and engulfed it in his hot mouth and began lubing it up with his spit and bobbing on it like it was the last time he would be able to. He hesitantly lifted off of my hard dick and laid back on the bed raising his legs over my shoulders and spreading himself wide for my cock. "Mmm, Chris I want it all inside me please fuck me?" Brian moaned as my cock touched the pucker of his hole. I pushed forward as he loosened to let my whole length slide deep inside of his awaiting ass. I lowered down to him as our lips met, we kissed deep feeling the deepest love I ever felt. I pulled out and slammed back into him as he yelped, I kept the pace feeling him push harder and harder with every thrust. "OH GOD, Chris, I'm gonna CUMMMMMM!!!" Brian yelled loudly. I felt the cum spurt from his hard cock in between us as I let my own cock let go of my load and fill his ass. My cock popped out as cum still dripped out Brian jumped up and inhaled my hard dick into his mouth sucking every drop he could get out of my cock. After I was clean, and my cock was going limp in his mouth I raised his shoulders and pushed his head up to meet mine as we grabbed each other and our lips locked into a kiss that lasted what seemed like minutes changed to hours. "COME ON GUYS!" We heard a pounding at the door and it broke are kiss. Brian walked to the door and opened it. "Finally!" Howie exclaimed as he barged into the room. "Howie, do you mind?" Brian yelled as I quickly grabbed a blanket to throw over me. "Actually, yes I do, we have to get to the airport, the plane is scheduled to leave in 45 minutes we have to get going." Howie grabbed Brian by the arm as he yanked him out to the hall. "Damn it Howie, can't you see we are going to get ready now leave us alone for 15 minutes." Brain yelled as he tore his arm back. "Brian, I'm going to be right up front with you now, I don't want Chris to come with us to Europe." Howie said shocking Brian. "Why is that?" Brian looked at Howie with anger. "Because, he isn't for you." Howie said trying to find a reason. "He isn't for me? Howie what the hell are you talking about?" Brian was getting even angrier. "He, he's just not what you are looking for, me and Harold know you're not gay." Howie said as he looked right in Brian's eyes. "We know you're just scared of women, you're not gay, you're just leading Chris on." Howie said as fire burned in Brian's eyes. Brian pulled his arm back, made a fist and exploded as he brought it up to Howie's chin. Howie fell to the ground as AJ came running into the hall. "Brian what the fuck are you doing?" AJ yelled. I ran out to see what all the commotion was, as I saw Howie jump up and run at Brian, Howie threw Brian to the ground and began punching him. Brian bucked his hips and flung Howie to the other wall and charged him. I quickly grabbed Brian as he swung a fist and connected with Howie's stomach and his elbow came back and hit me in the chest and I collapsed to the ground. Everything went black as I hit the floor as I heard Brian scream. My eyes fluttered open as I saw the bright light in my eyes and felt a hand gripping my wrist. Brian's face came into focus and I lifted my hand and placed it on his cheek, I gripped his hand with my other hand and pulled myself up. "I'm so sorry babe, are you ok?" He said as I nodded my head. Kevin was running down the hall screaming for everyone to go to there room and kneeled beside me. Everyone walked to his rooms hesitantly, Nick being the last to finally shut his door, leaving Brian, Kevin and I outside Brian's room and mine. Kevin swiftly lifted me up and carried me to the bed, he lowered me to the bed. "So what was this all about?" Kevin asked as he looked at Brian. "I'm sorry Kevin," Brian said as a tear fell down his cheek. "Brian it wasn't your fault, I just got in the way." I said trying to stop him from crying. "No he shouldn't have been punching anyone, now what caused this Brian?" Kevin said sternly. "Howie, he came here and told me he didn't want Chris to come to Europe, he told me I wasn't gay, that I was just scared of women, Kevin that isn't true, I love Chris!" Brian started to get angry again. "Bri, I know that's not true, you have to control yourself, we know you love Chris. Chris? You ok?" Kevin asked looking down at me. "Yeah, I'm fine, just a little sore." I said as I smiled at Brian, "Babe, I'll be fine." "Ok, now I have to go talk to Howie, this won't happen again guys I promise." Kevin said angrily as he left the room. Howie's room: Kevin barges in and slams the door shut with rage in his eyes as he runs in and slams Howie down onto the bed. "What the FUCK do you think you are doing?" Kevin screamed in rage as how flung himself out onto the balcony. "Kevin, will you calm down?" Howie said in a soft tone. "Calm down? You want me to calm down? Why are you doing this to Chris and Brian, they love each other now get over it, Chris is coming on tour with us, damn it Howie, why are you so big headed?" Kevin was still angry but started to calm down. "I'm sorry Kevin, I was just, just, I don't know what I was doing, I just don't want anyone getting in the way of the Backstreet boys, if Brian ends up running off and leaving the group that will kill us." Howie said as he looked up at Kevin. "The only thing that would make him run off is your actions right now! You are acting so foolish Howie, there has to be more to it then what you are saying." Kevin looked at Howie as he saw tears in Howie's eyes. "No, just get out Kevin, just get out please?" Howie begged Kevin as he ran to the bed and collapsed into the pillows. "No, Howie, what is it? What's wrong?" Kevin said in his fatherly tone. "I, I, I'm jealous of them, of what they have. I want that." Howie sobbed into the pillow. "Howie, I understand that, in some ways we all are, but that shouldn't make us stop them from being happy. I have never seen my cousin so happy Howie and I'm glad he finally is. We need to get over any jealousy we have, you'll find someone someday, we all will." Kevin said as he grabbed Howie in his arms. "I know, I'm sorry." Howie slurred between tears. "Well I'm not the one you should apologize to." Kevin hugged Howie then stood. "I know, but how can I face them now?" Howie asked. "Just do it now or you will regret it Howie." Kevin said as he helped Howie stand. Brian and my room: Brian leaned down and kissed me as he massaged my chest and my head lay in his lap. A knock at the door startled me as my chest rang out in pain and I gasped for breath. "Oh god who is it now? Babe? I'm sorry." Brian looked me in the eyes as my fit of breathing descended. "Bri, please stop saying that, I'm fine ok." I said as Brian stood. "Ok." Brian slowly walked to the door as he shivered from leaving the warmth of the bed. He looked threw the peephole and saw Howie. Brian groaned, "Howie, would you go away and leave us alone, Chris needs rest." "No, Brian, open the door." Kevin said from behind Howie. Brian reluctantly opened the door as Howie and Kevin walked in, "Wow, he's breathing loud, maybe we should get him to a hospital?" Kevin said as he walked over to the bed. "No, I'm fine, and I am here so don't act like I'm not." I said getting angered. "Ok, babe, maybe we should go to the hall to talk and let Chris get some sleep." Brian suggested after answering me. "No, I need to hear this also, I don't want anything held from me anymore, if someone has a problem then I want to know," I said as I looked toward Howie. "Chris, I'm sorry, I don't know what else to say, I mean, I'm sorry." Howie stumbled over words. "Howie, I'm sorry but I didn't even want to hear those words anymore, I just want to know why? I mean what do you have against me?" I said as Brian tried to say something but quickly stopped. "I'm, I'm jealous, OK?" there was a long pause, "I'm just jealous." Howie started crying. "I want what you and Brian have, I mean I'm not gay but I want that love, I'm going to be 25 in august and I don't even have a girlfriend. You two god you're almost married by now." Howie cried as me and Brian looked at each other in both shock and pity for Howie. "Howie, come on now don't be so hard on yourself you have so much time, you'll meet someone believe me theirs someone out there for you who knows you might meet her tomorrow or today, but don't be jealous of us, we are different from you." I said as I pushed the pain away and got out of the bed to hug Howie. "Chris would you please get back in bed?" Kevin said fatherly. "Actually I'm feeling better." I said as I pulled away from Howie. There was another pounding on the door, "What is this the local hang out?" Brian laughed as he walked to the door. "Hey Nickie, what's up AJ?" Brian said with a grin. "I'm glad to see your in a better mood, we have to get going on the bus we are headed to Buffalo, NY for the next concert before leaving for Europe." AJ laughed as he grabbed Howie and Kevin out of the room. "And then there were two." Brian looked at me and laughed. Brian walked to the bed and leaned down to kiss me. He slowly fell atop me as I gasped a little. "Sorry babe." "No I'm fine this feels good." I said as I connected our lips again. "We should get ready, we need to be down to the bus in 5 minutes, good thing we packed last night." Brian said as he rolled off of me. "Sure is just let me jump in the shower maybe the warmth will help clear me up again." I said as I walk slowly to the shower. I took a quick shower and it made me feel almost 100 percent better, I dressed and found Brian in the hall with the others. "Couldn't even wait for me, I see, you will be punished for that," I teased Brian. "OOOOOWWWWWW," The others teased Brian also. Brian laughed as we walked down to the bus. We all entered and said hi to David and he asked us to meet up in the back lounge for a meeting, so we all split off and got cozy in the big bus and headed for the lounge. "So meeting time!" Kevin yelled. "Yes, master." Brian said in a laughing tone. "Well I'm glad to see everyone in good spirits." David smiled. We talked about the up coming concert in Buffalo and all the details of the 2 night stay in Buffalo. "So, David?" I said looking across the lounge at him. "Yeah?" David said not giving me his full attention but enough. "It's only 90 miles from my house. Is there any way I can visit there?" I said as Brian stood in joy. "Yeah, come on David, we could see April and Steve and Heather again, man April should be having that baby pretty soon, shouldn't she Chris?" Brain said smiling as everyone agreed wanting to see April and Steve. "Well I'm a little ahead of you there Chris, They have tickets to the concert, and you will be cooking dinner for all of us including them on Friday so you better think of something good." David said as everyone smiled. "I can't wait!" I said as Nick came over and sat in Brian's empty spot. "So what are you making?" Nick said as everyone looked hungrily. "I don't know. I guess it will be a surprise." I said as Brian sat into my lap. "PILLOW FIGHT!" Brian yelled as he grabbed the pillow from the couch and throwing it in my face. "Yeah I'll get you for that!" I yelled as I jumped up and Brian ran across the room. Everyone started throwing pillows around the room at everyone else. Howie and I teamed up and cornered the rest of them and took two pillows and blowed them all down to the ground as we all laughed till tears streamed down all of our faces. An hour later in Brian's bunk: "I love you Brian." I said as he pulled me to him tighter. "I love you more." Brian said as we drifted asleep in each others arms. The next morning: My eyes flutter awake as I jump straight up in the bunk, I look to my side to see Brian on his side staring at me. "Another bad dream? Chris, I'm here to protect you now," Brian said as I laid back down into his arms. "I know, and it feels so good to have you here, Brian. I want you for ever," I said as a tear came to my eye. "I want you forever too. Are you ok? Don't cry," Brian said as I kissed him and grabbed his hand. "Let's go to the lounge, I need to talk to Kevin for a minute." Brian gave me a look like I was going mad and then agreed and followed me. In the lounge: "Hi guys," I said as I walked through the door holding Brian's hand behind me. "Hey," everyone said in unison. "Um, Kevin you think we could talk for a minute?" I asked kind of shyly. "Um, sure give me a second, is everything ok?" Kevin said looking kind of worried. "Yeah, better then ok, actually," I said as I looked at Brian then back at Kevin. I walked over and grabbed my bag from the corner as Kevin stood and lead me to the front of the bus where David was driving. "David? Why are you driving?" I said surprised. "Oh Bruno needed rest he couldn't drive in the snow anymore, once he wakes up he'll take over again," David said while keeping his eye on the road. "Oh ok, man I didn't know it was snowing, wow it's pretty bad out should we stop and let the roads clear, I mean we can't risk getting in an accident. Someone could get hurt," I said as Kevin sat in the passenger seat. "Chris, always the worrier, so what's up? Are you guys ok?" Kevin said with a laugh. "Yeah, everything is great, I mean everyone is getting along now, me and Brian couldn't be happier," I said looking at Kevin in the eyes. "But?" Kevin said knowing I was going somewhere. I reached into my bag and pulled out a black velvet box, I looked at it with a kind of nervousness, then handed it to Kevin. "Oh Chris, I'm so flattered, you always know how to make a girl tear," Kevin said in a southern girls tone, as we all started laughing. "No really, are you saying you want to ask Brian to marry you?" Kevin looked at me seriously. "Yes, in a way, I mean it's like I know it won't happen for god knows how long but I want to know he's mine, forever," I said as a tear came to my eye. "Well, I couldn't be happier, unless I was the one getting proposed to, really, I have never seen Brian so happy, he does love you. Now I think you should ask him, you have my approval," Kevin said as my eyes went wide. "Really?!" I said happily. "Yes, Chris you are like a son to me, I know that having Brian is the only way you will be happy, and that's all I want is for you and him to be happy." Kevin said as he handed me the box. "How did you get the money for that thing anyway?" Kevin said with a laugh. "I have my ways, do you like it?" I asked. "Yeah it looks like something I would wear, I love silver, and that diamond is awesome in it, he'll love it, he always likes my rings but says he doesn't like jewelry much," Kevin said as I nervously put the box in my pocket. "So you going to do it now?" Kevin said pulling my from my knees in front of him. "Yeah, I think so, god, I am so nervous, I don't know if he is ready, if he says no I don't know what will happen," I said looking at Kevin my hands shaking. "Believe me Chris he won't say no," Kevin encouraged me. Just as I stood all the guys entered the front of the bus, pouring in laughing and joking with Brian right behind them. "Um, Brian, I think Chris has to talk to you about something," Kevin said as he looked at me and pushed me forward. Brian turned away from Nick and looked at me, "Yeah babe? What is it?" "Um, um, B...B...Brian, um could you sit for a minute?" I said as I pointed to the couch. "Chris? Is everything ok, you look scared about something?" Brian said in worry as all the laughing stopped and everyone looked on, Kevin with a huge white smile on his face. "Kevin, is he doing what I think he's doing?" Nick whispered next to Kevin. "Just watch Nick, Just watch," Kevin grinned bigger. "Brian, I love you so much, and I know you love me too, at least you have said it, but I need something, something more, and this is the last thing I will ever ask of you in my life, I love you so much, and I just want to know if, if--" I fumbled for the box and it fell out of my pocket I picked up the box and opened it and handed it to Brian as I saw a tear roll down his cheek, "Will you marry me?" everything went silent, I started to cry when he didn't answer, "I don't mean it has to be soon, we can wait as long as you want I just want to have a sign that you are mine, forever," I said while I held his hand, I looked up to see his puzzled tear filled eyes. "Yes," Brian whispered. "What?" I said not hearing him fully. "I love you, Chris, Yes I will marry you," Brian said as I dropped the ring and pulled him into my arms. "Now where is my ring you lost it already?" Brian teased. Everyone started clapping and hollering as I picked up the ring and slid it on my new fiance's finger. "You scared the hell out of me babe, I thought something was wrong," Brian said as he held me and smiled. "Well, I guess I was just nervous, and who scared who, you wouldn't even answer me I thought you were going to say no," I said, smiling. "Sorry, I was just surprised," Brian said as Kevin came over and hugged him followed by Nick who hugged me first. "Congratulations, I'm really happy for you guys, you are the best thing that ever happened to Brian," Nick said as he hugged me. "Thanks Nick that means a lot coming from you," I said as me and Brian got separated through the crowed of guys as they said congratulations. I sat on the couch. Brian got pushed over to the table, as everyone wanted to see the ring. We all talked for about an hour when Brian stood up and motioned for me to follow him to the back of the bus. I followed him back to the lounge and walked in. "Take a seat on the couch," Brian said seductively. "Ok," I said running my hand from his neck down to his ass as he shuddered a bit. Brian turned to lock the door and then slowly walked over to the stereo he flicked on the stereo and Truly Madly Deeply by Savage Garden rang through the speakers. Brian slowly strode over to my side and wrapped his arms around me. "I love you more with every breather truly madly deeply do," Brian sang to me as he leaned in and kissed me. "I want this to never end, babe, make love to me?" I said as I kissed the ring on his hand. "I wanna lay like this forever, until the sky falls down on me," Brian sang as he pulled me into him. "Chris, you know it's 3 months ago today that we made love the first time on this very couch," Brian whispered in my ear. "Wow, really? It seems like it's been so much longer. I feel like I have been with you forever and want to stay this way forever," I said as we heard the squeal of wind under the bus. "I wish they would find a hotel for the night, it doesn't sound good out there. Too many accidents happen when it is storming out. We can't afford for any of you guys to get hurt. I don't know what I would do if you got hurt, I'd curl up and rot in a corner." I laughed towards the end of my sentence. "Don't worry babe, they know what they're doing, we'll be fine and I'm here to protect you," Brian said comforting me. I slowly kissed Brian. As our tongues slipped into each other's mouths I began to remove Brian's shirt. Brian slowly lowered me to my back and pressed hard against my body as we slipped into a erotic daze, everything seemed to disappear leaving the two of us together experiencing the deepest love either of us had ever felt. "Babe?" Brian moaned as we kissed. "Yeah?" I said dazedly staring into his eyes. "Oh, um, nothing," Brian seemed confused. "What is it Bri?" I said looking at him worriedly as I snapped out of my gaze. "Nothing, something just feels, weird." Brian said as he grabbed me close to him. "I have the same feeling, I really think we should go have them stop the bus, it's really bad out there," I said as I cuddled with Brian. "No, we'll be fine, Chris?" Brian asked as he looked into my eyes. "Yeah babe?" I said as he kissed me again. "Will you make love to me?" Brian said with a tear in his eye. "Of course," I said as I whiped the tear away. We slowly began making the most passionate and erotic love we had ever made, touching each other in all the right spots feeling whole with each other by our sides. The most perfect feeling in the world. Brian slowly stroked his hard cock inside of me, slowly pushing in and out as we both felt the pleasure of ecstasy. "Oh, Brian," I cried out as I verged the edge of no return. "I'm gonna cum, Chris," Brian moaned. "So am I," I said as we both tightened up and exploded, Brian's cum filing my insides as my cum flew all over in between us. "Oh, god Chris, what would I do without you?" Brian said as he curled me into his arms and looked at me with his sparkling eyes. "I love you, Brian," I said as we kissed. "I love you too." Brian said as he stroked his fingers through my hair. "Do you really love me?" Brian said quizzically. "Of course I do you know that Bri," I said giving him a nudge. "I know, but do you love me enough to go get me something to eat?" Brian said as he kissed my nose. "Sure what do you want babe?" I said as I stood. "What ever just get me something I'm starving," Brian said as he threw a pair of boxers on. "Ok, I'll be back," I said as I began to walk toward the door. "Babe?" Brian called from the couch. "What?" I said turning around. "I love you," Brian said as I walked back and gave him a kiss. "Not as much as I love you," I teased. I walked to the front of the bus to the kitchenette. "Hey, god you guys are loud," A.J. teased me as my face went bright red. "Sorry," I said as I looked at the guys sitting around the table. "Not a problem, what are you doing up here? I thought you guys would go to bed right away." Kevin asked. "No Brian's hungry, he asked me to get him something," I said as I looked at the fridge. "He is always hungry after sex," Nick choked as he noticed what he was saying. "Tell me about it," I laughed. "Sorry, Chris I didn't mean to say that," Nick apologized, thinking I would get mad. "No problem Nick," I said as I grabbed a soda and a bag of chips. "Alright, I'm going to head back, are the roads ok? I mean it sounds bad out maybe we should stop for the night?" I said still thinking about the roads. "No everything's fine, it's supposed to be clear by morning." Howie said as I shrugged and started towards the back lounge. As I got the hall of bunks I heard a loud squeal, and the bus shook making everyone scream, as I dropped the soda and chips. Everything seemed to move in slow motion as I heard a loud crack and fell against the left bunks. The right bunks caved in as I screamed for Brian. "BRIAN, BRIAN?" I screamed as a pipe from the bunk snapped and bent in my direction. I let out a loud scream as the pipe broke off and implanted itself through my lower stomach. "CHRIS!?" I heard Brian's voice as everything stopped. I looked up to see Brian running towards me in shock. My eyes floated and fluttered as Brian came to my side and lifted me into his arms. Pain overwhelmed my body as then the feeling of nothingness. "Chris, please, oh god please," Brian screamed as he held me and cried. "Nick? Nick, come here," I said gasping for air. "Yeah," Nick said as he leaned down and grabbed my hand. "Kevin call an ambulance." Brian yelled. Kevin snapped out of his daze and ran to the cell phone. "Nick, please, take care of Brian, promise me that you will keep him going, I know he'll keep going," I gasped as Nick looked down at me. "Stop saying this, your going to be ok, Chris you can't leave me now, please, I need you," Brian cried. "Brian, I love you, and I always will," I said as my eyes started to close. "NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, Chris don't leave me! I need you!" Brian cried as he shook me. My eyes opened back up. "Brian, stay strong, don't give up, do that for me, I love you, this has been a dream come true for me," I said as a tear fell from my eye. "I love all of you guys, and especially you, Brian," I said as Brian leaned in and kissed me. "I am yours forever Chris," He said as a tear dropped on to my forehead from his eye. "Keep strong guys I'll be watching from above," I said as I looked around to see everyone crying. My eyes slowly shut and I shot up into a hole of bright light as I heard Brian's final plee. "God Please, not my baby, I need him!" Brian yelled as I slipped out of existence. "Brian, come on, he's gone Bri," Nick said as he felt for my pulse. "No, Nick, no," Brian breathed. "Brian, I'm sorry, but he's gone." Nick cried as he lifted Brian into a hug. Brian collapsed into Nick's arms as he kept his eyes on my dead corpse. A faint noise of an ambulance came down the road behind the bus. "Time of death 12:05 am," A paramedic says to his assistant. "Come on Bri, let's get to a hotel," David said from behind them as the paramedics lifted me onto a stretcher. "No, David, this can't be true, god it's all my fault," Brian yelled at David. "He told me to have us pull over before there was an accident," Brian cried. "It's all my fault." "Bri, stop that, that's not what Chris wants you to think, didn't you hear him, he loves you Bri," Howie said as he hugged Brian. "And now he will be looking down on you, your own little angel," Kevin said as he began to cry again. "I love him so much Kevin," Brian cried uncontrollable. "I know that, we know that, Chris knows that too, Brian, he wants you to live strong for him," Kevin said as they walked off the bus, he grabbed Brian and pushed him toward a van that showed up to bring them to the hotel. Brian was silent all the way to the hotel, he shared a room with Nick so Nick could keep an eye on him. Brian lay in Nick's lap while Nick stroked his hair as he cried himself to sleep. The next morning: Brian cell phone rings as he wakes up with a soar body. "God, where am I?" Brian stretches as he grabs his phone. "Hello?" Brian says groggily. "Hey Brian?" April's voice says happily over the phone. "Oh hi April is that you?" Brian says still sleepily. "Yeah, is Chris there I need to tell him he's an uncle of a very handsome 8 pound boy," April says very happily. "It happened last night at exactly 12:05 am," April said happily. "Oh my god," Brian broke down crying. Nick ran in and grabbed Brian as he saw the phone. "Brian? Brian? You there, what's wrong?" Nick heard April's voice in the phone. Kevin ran in and picked up the phone. "Hi, April?" Kevin said kind of scared. "Yeah, what's up Kevin?" April said happily. "You haven't gotten the message yet?" Kevin asked. "Message? We are in the hospital, we had a boy," April said questioningly. "Well, congratulations on that, but April is Steve there?" Kevin asked. "Yeah, he's right here," April said getting worried. "Good, um there's something I have to tell you, and it's not at all good," Kevin said with worry. "Where's Chris, Kevin?" April asked worriedly. "April, he's dead," Kevin said as he began to cry and heard Brian cry harder behind him. "He died last night at 12:05 am, we had a bad accident," Kevin said through tears. "No, no." April began to cry from the other end of the phone. "I'm sorry April," Kevin said in a low tone. "No Kev, it's not your fault, where are you guys?" She asked. "Just out side Syracuse," Kevin said as he looked out the window. "Ok, Kev I have a big question?" April asked. "Yeah?" "Can you and the guys plan the funeral and stay around for it?" She asked. "Of course," Kevin cried. "How is Brian doing?" She asked worried. "Not too good right now, Chris also asked him to marry him yesterday, they really were in love," Kevin said as he calmed down. "Yeah I know they were, my brother has a had a hard life, but at least he died happy Kev, you guys don't know how much you meant to him, and letting him cook for you was all he need and all he wanted in life." April cried. "Kev, I gotta go feed the baby, I'll be home tomorrow around 12:00, if you guys could be there it would be great, I need to talk to Brian." April sniffled. "Ok, we'll be there," Kevin said as they hung up. "Ok, guys, everything is canceled for the next 3 days," David came in and everyone looked up. "Ok, guys, including Brian," Kevin said as Brian looked up. "April had the baby last night, seems as Chris was swept away Steve the third swept in, so she is in the hospital. She needs us to make the funeral arrangements, Bri, you think you could help us do it?" Kevin asked as he rubbed Brian's back. "God I can't handle this, I need him back!" Brian cried. At April's house: "I'm glad you guys could make it," April cried. "Bri, could I talk to you for a minute?" Brian looked up at April and shook his head yes. They walked up to Chris's room as Brian began to cry. "Please, take what you want, I don't know what to do with this stuff now, he's gone," April cried. "Oh, April, April, I loved him, I need you to know that I never wanted him harmed." Brian started to cry uncontrollably. "I know you love him, Bri, and I know you didn't want him harmed, that's why it's called an accident." April hugged Brian as he cried on her shoulder. "I want to know if you, being his one true love, would speak at his funeral, say any last word you need to say to him." Brian didn't think as he just shook his head yes. "Thank you." April hugged him tighter as he cried harder. Kevin and Nick, with a little help from Brian planned the funeral, and the next day it all took place. Brian walked through to my coffin and did a silent prayer to me. Everyone took his or her seats as the service began. The local priest did the service and said some beautiful prayers for me. "Now, Mr. Littrell, will say a few things about Chris." Brian stood as he heard his name. He walked nervously up to the podium, He whiped the sweat off his hands. "Chris, it's still hard to believe he is gone, to believe I'll never feel his arms hold me tight again." He began to cry but kept going as he looked into the coffin. "I loved him and still do with all my heart," Brian choked. "He knew how to make me laugh, make me cry, and most of all make me completely happy, I will love you forever, Chris." He said as he walked to the coffin and put a black velvet box that held a ring exactly like his in it. "I wrote a song for you, if it's ok I'd like to sing it," Brian said as he looked down at April and she shook her head yes. It's called "(I'll Never Cry) My Final Tear" This song is dedicated to the one person I will ever love, and that's you Chris. He slowly began playing the tune on his guitar, He began the song starting to choke on tears but then smoothed it out. "The times we spent together I still cherish to this day You always knew how to make me laugh From our true love you never did stray" "But I look around and you're not here Cradled next to me each night Oh God how could I have been so wrong Not to see that you were right" He slowly began to cry as he came up on the chorus. "I'm hurting deep down Knowing that you're no longer here You touched me in so many ways I'll never cry my final tear" He slowed for a moment as he looked at me lay in the coffin, then picked it back up. "I still relive that fateful night Forced to see the horrible sight I held you tight in my arm But the Lord relieved you of your harm" "Time can never heal the pain Of losing the voice I long to hear Until I see you in Heaven I'll never cry my final tear" "I'm hurting deep down Knowing that you're no longer here You touched me in so many ways I'll never cry my final tear" "I'm hurting deep down Knowing that you're no longer here You touched me in so many ways I'll never cry my final tear" He cried uncontrollably as he finished his song. "Chris, if you can hear me Let me make one thing clear You will forever be in my heart And I'll never cry my final tear" "Chris, I love you forever," Brian said as Kevin stood and grabbed him around his shoulders and they headed off into the bus, and said goodbye to everyone. Brian I still watch you to this day and love you more then ever. "I love you." The End.