Date: Thu, 5 Nov 1998 22:45:49 EST
From: BBBRok1057@aol.com
Subject: Bad Boy B-Rok

Ok, this is going to be the last part to Bad Boy B-Rok!  It's gone on long
enough already, so I think I better end it.  I'm sorry it took so long to
get this part out, but I wanted to go out with a "bang"!! I hope all of my
"fans" don't turn on me, 'cause I plan on doing some spin-off's and
requests that I have recieved sometime in the near future. I really enjoyed
writing this story, so don't worry, I'll be back with more sometime!  But
anyway, don't read this story if homo-sex repulses you, if it might be
illegal in your state, county, whatever, or if you are under 18 yrs of age!
If you want to tell me you liked the story, give constructive criticisms,
suggestions, or just want to say "hey", you can e-mail me at
BBBRok1057@aol.com! Make sure to put Bad Boy B-Rok as the subject! Oh, by the
way, this section is dedicated to Chris! (He knows why!) ENJOY!!!!!


Bad Boy B-Rok
By-Leprechaun


(Part 13)

    "What the fuck are you doing Nick?!?"  Brian came storming towards us.
    "Brian, he's just drunk, it's ok, really."  I threw myself in front of
Nick.
    "What the fuck is he doing kissing on you?!?"  Brian was really upset.
    "Brian, I don't know why I did it--I'm sorry!"  I could tell that Nick
was scared.
    "See Brian, he apologized, let's go to your room and let him go to bed,
k?"  I was still standing in Brian's way to Nick.
    "No fucking way, we're gonna settle this."  Brian shoved me trying to
make me move.
    "Listen, Brian, you've both had several drinks, calm down."  I tried to
place my hands on his shoulders, but he slapped them away.
    "I'm not taking this shit from you anymore!"  Brian was practically
trying to scale my body to get to Nick.

    When I wouldn't let Brian at Nick, he shoved me, pushing me into Nick.
I didn't know how else to react.  I took all my strength and shoved Brian
back, slamming him hard into the wall.

    "Goddamnit Brian!"  I shouted. "Nick apologized, now let's go and let
him sleep it off.  You don't need to kick anybody's ass tonight."
    "Then he needs to tell me why the hell I came out into the hall and see
him practically forcing himself on you!"  Brian stood and put his finger in
Nick's face from over my shoulder.
    "I don't know, I just did."  Nick sounded pathetic.

    By now, all the other guys were out in the hall, watching us from their
doorways.  A.J. was walking down the hall towards us.  I put a hand out,
letting him know to stay out of it.  He stopped and stood there with his
arms crossed, watching us.

    "What?  Wouldn't Devon give you any?  Is that why you're trying to find
someone to fuck?!?"  Brian was hitting below the belt.
    "Fuck you!!!"  Nick shouted over my shoulder, looking like he could
fight now.
    "You just did fuck me!"  Brian pointed at me, insenuating the fact that
he kissed me.
    "Nick, go to bed!  Brian get to your room and sleep it off!  Both of
you are being fucking childish."  My face was getting red from anger.
    "Uh uh.  Not now, I'm ready to kick his ass!"  Brian shouted.
    "Bring it on Brian!  I'll whoop your fucking ass!"  Nick was trying to
intimidate Brian.

    That was all Brian needed to take the first swing.  Brian swung hard at
Nick's face.  Nick and I both ducked, causing Brian to bust his hand
against the door frame.  I knew it had to hurt, but it didn't stop him one
bit, he took another swing.  He barely missed me, but I fell hard on my ass
on the hallway floor.  Somehow, Nick had dodged the swing, too.  I looked
up just in time to see Brian throw another punch and sock Nick square in
the eye.  Nick came back at him and busted Brian in the chin pretty hard.
I got up as quick as I could and jumped on Brian, yanking him away and
throwing him up against the wall across the hall.  Nick hadn't realized
that Brian was gone because he threw another punch, hitting me right in the
nose.  I shook my head from the shock, then shoved Nick hard, making him
fall against the door to his room and land on his ass.
    I turned around to see Kevin holding Brian back with all his might.
A.J. and Howie ran over to Nick and picked him up.  As soon as Nick was on
his feet, he tried to break free from them to no avail.  When A.J. was
satisified that the commotion had died down and Brian and Nick were
restrained okay, he came over and grabbed the back of my head, tilting it
up and looked at my nose.

    "I'm okay, I'm okay."  I tried to be nice.
    "What the hell started this?"  Kevin spoke up like the father figure,
still holding Brian back.
    "Nothing."  I looked over at Nick, then Brian.  "They just drank a
little too much and said the wrong things."
    "Bullshit!"  Brian screamed.
    "Brian, shut the fuck up!"  I yelled back, making everyone go
silent. "Just go to bed, I'll be in there in a minute!"
    "Come on, Brian."  Kevin had to halfway drag Brian towards his room.
    "Matt, are you okay, I didn't mean to hit you."  Nick apologized,
practically crying.
    "Nick, just go to bed, you've done enough."  I practically whispered.
    "Nick, let's get you to bed."  Howie grabbed Nick around the shoulders
and opened the door, leading him in.

    A.J. and I stood alone in the hall for a minute, me with my head hung
like a wounded dog.  I shuffled over to the wall across from Nick's room
and slid down the wall until I was sitting.  A.J. walked over and sat down
next to me.  I pulled my cigarettes and lighter out of my pocket and lit
one, blowing the smoke forcively out into the air.

    "So, Nick hit on you, huh?"  A.J. asked in a whisper.
    "How the hell did you know?"  I looked shocked.
    "He's done it before."  A.J. smirked.
    "Oh."  I took a drag off my cigarette. "Did Brian try to kick his ass
then, too?"
    "No, Brian really didn't seem to care with all the other guys.  I used
to think they shared dick or something."  A.J. couldn't help but laugh.
    "Sounds nice."  I had to giggle at A.J.'s comment.
    "So, Brian bought you a ring?"  A.J. grabbed my hand and held it up to
his face.
    "Yeah, Nick made a comment about it, too.  He got himself one just like
it."
    "It's really pretty."  A.J. smiled, still examining it.
    "Well, you need to see the inscription."  I put my cigarette between my
lips, then removed the ring and handed it to him.

    A.J. read the inscription then handed the ring back.

    "You know he does, right?"  A.J. asked.
    "Yeah, I know."  I slipped the ring back on.  "I just don't know why he
felt that he needed to defend my honor."
    "I'll tell you why."  A.J. slapped me on the knee. "He knows the same
thing I know.  Nick saw the ring and knew he was losing any chances at ever
having Brian again, and tried to break ya'll up by hitting on you."
    "Well, it was still pretty fucking childish."  I smiled.
    "Yeah, they can be that way sometimes."  A.J. explained. "Did I ever
tell you about the time Nick and I got into it?"
    "No, what happened?"  I turned to look at A.J.
    "Well, it was about four years ago, when we were pretty new, and we
were doing a concert in Europe."  A.J. explained. "We were all wrestling
around in the dressing room and getting rowdy.  Nick had just taken off his
jeans and shirt and just had his underwear on.  Well, Howie and I threw him
out into the hall, and the girls that were the opening act saw him."
    "What did Nick do?"  I laughed.
    "As soon as we let him back into the room, we started shoving each
other and Kevin had to break it up.  Nick and I were stupid little kids and
were saying stuff like 'I ain't never gonna talk to you again!'"
A.J. reminisced with a laugh.
    "Now, THAT'S childish."  I teased.
    "Yeah, those were the good ole days."  A.J. smiled.
    "Do you think I should go down and see how Brian is?"  I looked towards
his room.
    "You might want to wait until Kevin has had time to talk to him.  He's
probably down there chastising him right now."  A.J. answered.
    "Otay."

    Howie stepped out of the room and closed the door gently behind him.
He walked over and sat down next to me.  He grabbed my pack of cigarettes
and took one out and lit it.  I was shocked to see him smoke.

    "What?  I smoke sometimes."  Howie laughed as he exhaled.
    "How's Nick doing?"  I asked.
    "He's okay, I put him in his pajamas and threw him into bed." Howie
took a drag. "He started crying and said to tell you and Brian he's sorry."
    "God, is everyone gonna know what happened?"  I sorta laughed.
    "What's wrong with us knowing?"  A.J. asked me.
    "It's just embarassing."  I replied.
    "Believe us, it's not all that embarassing."  Howie smiled at me.
    "Matt?"  I looked up to see Brian walking down the hall towards us.
    "Howie, it's getting kinda late."  A.J. stood.
    "Yeah, we'll see ya tomorrow, Matt!"  Howie stood and walked down the
hall with A.J. towards their rooms.

    Brian came down and waited for the guys to dissappear into their rooms
before straddling me and squatting on my lap.  He didn't get too close to
me, cause he could tell I was still a little upset by the fight.

    "I just wanted to tell you that I'm sorry about that, I mean, when I
saw Nick jump on you like that and kiss you.  I went crazy.  I mean, it
really bothered me most 'cause I could tell you weren't exactly enjoying
it."  Brian was looking down, not making eye contact.
    "Brian, I can handle myself. I managed to pull you two off of each
other, I think I can handle Nick by himself."  I tried to lighten the mood.
    "I know, I just hated the thought of someone else touching you, let
alone kissing you."  Brian still was not trying to look directly at me.
    "Brian, you know, I'm an actor.  You're gonna be seeing me kiss alot of
people.  Nick was just drunk, he wouldn't have pulled that otherwise."  I
placed a finger under Brian's chin and brought his eyes up to meet mine.
    "I'm sorry.  I probably should have just told him not to do it again
and leave it at that, but like I said, I was jealous."  Brian looked down
again.
    "Well, it's okay. I just hope I don't have like a bruise in the middle
of my face tomorrow.  Barb will throw a shit-fit."  I laughed.

    Brian was still looking down.  I grabbed him and pulled him towards me,
hugging him.  He waited a minute to make sure I was being sincere and
returned the hug.  I held Brian for a minute then let him pull away.

    "So did Kevin beat your ass or what?"  I laughed and lit another
cigarette.
    "Well, he made it clear that he didn't exactly appreciate my behavior."
Brian giggled.
    "Well, he loves you.  He just worries about you."  I sounded like
Kevin.
    "I know."  Brian looked down again.
    "Jesus Christ!"  I grabbed Brian's hand and looked at his knuckles
where he had hit the door.

    Brian's knuckles were black and blue already and some blood had dried
on them.

    "I know, I missed."  Brian groaned.
    "See what happens when you act childish?"  I WAS sounding like Kevin.

    Brian got a hurt look like I had just spit in his face.  It hurt me to
see him look like that.  I pulled his hand up to my lips and gave it a
gentle kiss.  Brian looked up at me, with a questioning look.  I placed my
hand on the side of his face, moved forward and gave him a kiss gently on
the lips.  Brian looked at me for a minute, wondering if I was really being
nice or just humoring him.  When he realized I was being nice, he
immediatley kissed me back, deeply, shoving his tongue into my mouth.
    It wasn't long before Brian was dry-humping me there in the hallway,
straddled across my lap.  I had a raging hard on from the friction Brian
was creating.  I grabbed the back of Brian's head and kissed him harder,
trying to shove my tongue down his throat.  We were so engrossed in trying
to get each other off right there that we hadn't noticed Kevin come out of
his room and walk down to us.  He stopped right behind Brian, and stood
there.  I don't know how long he had been standing there before I noticed
him and put my hand over Brian's mouth, stopping him in mid hump.

    "I see you guys made up."  Kevin sorta laughed.
    "Oh, hi Kev."  Brian was embarassed that his cousin had caught him.
    "Couldn't ya'll wait until you got into your room?"
    "I didn't do it."  I replied, making Brian snicker.
    "Well, I was coming to see if everything was going alright now, and I
guess I just got my answer."  Kevin smiled down at us.
    "Yeah, we're okay."  Brian drew his bottom lip into his mouth, getting
the wet off.
    "Okay, well, I'll leave ya'll alone." Kevin started back to his
room. "Please go to your room though before you start getting any farther
into it."
    "Alright."  I tried not to laugh.
    "Goodnight."  Kevin waved over his shoulder as he walked off.
    "Nite!"  Brian and I responded in unison.

    As soon as Kevin's door was closed, Brian and I both cracked up.
Everytime we looked at each other, we started laughing harder.  Finally
when we were done rolling, Brian hopped up, grabbed my hand and pulled me
up to face him.  He kissed me quickly before dragging me with him down the
hall towards his room.  We got into Brian's room and Brian immediately,
like usual, started kissing me and peeling off my clothing.
    Brian stripped my shirt off of me and I kicked my shoes off.  We
started kissing, our tongues dancing.  I was started to breath heavy and
was sporting a major erection, when Brian dragged me over to the bed and
pushed me down.  Brian jumped on top of me and straddled my waist, bending
down to kiss me.  He pulled back away from me and yanked his shirt off over
his head.  I still couldn't get over how beautiful he was.
    Brian somehow managed to yank his shorts off, still straddling me.  He
reached around, unzipped my pants and yanked my hard on out.  In one swift
move, Brian impaled his ass on my cock.  I grabbed ahold of Brian's hips
and bucked upwards.  I was already halfway to orgasm just from feeling my
cock surrounded by Brian's warm hole.  Brian reached down and started
jacking himself off, still humping me.
    Soon, I was bouncing off the bed so hard I thought Brian would fall off
of me.  Brian squeezed his cock a few more times before letting loose a
rope of cum that splashed against my chest and neck.  The thought of Brian
cumming all over me did me in.  I bucked a few more times before letting
loose and filling Brian's hole with my love.  I bucked a couple more times
then finally settled back onto the bed.  Brian collapsed on top of me,
landing in his own cum.  Soon, Brian and I were fast asleep in each other's
arms, just like that.


(Part 14)

    I woke up the next morning content as ever.  Brian was still holding me
snuggly against his warm, naked body.  I guess Brian had woken up and
pulled the covers over us, because we had fallen asleep in each other's
arms nude.  I laid there for a minute, silently listening to Brian's lazy
breathing, feeling his bare chest move up and down against my back with
each breath.I rolled over in Brian's arms and looked at him.  He had the
cutest smile when he slept.  I laid there for a minute in his arms, just
staring at him.  I finally couldn't resist.  I leaned forward and kissed
him gently.  I wanted to attack him, but decided that would be too rude of
a wake up call.  I pulled away as Brian's eyelids started to flutter.

    "Well, it's awake."  I smiled.
    "What time is it?"  Brian reached up and rubbed his eyes.
    "Eight o'clock. Why, you taking medication or something?"  I replied.
    "Oh shit!  Eight???"  Brian sat up straight in bed.
    "What?"  I laughed, and sat up. "I've never seen you up this early!
What could be so important?"
    "Nothing."  Brian looked back at me. "I just have some stuff to take
care of is all."

    I sensed Brian was hiding something, but figured it was just private
and ignored the feeling.

    "Well, we have to doctor your hand before you go ANYWHERE."  I sounded
like his mother or something.
    "It's okay."  Brian tried to get up.
    "There's still dried blood on it from last night."  I yanked Brian
back. "Let me just go see what you have in the bathroom and I'll do it real
quick before you leave.  Besides, I don't want your fingers falling off if
that thing gets infected."
    "My fingers aren't going to fall off."  Brian laughed at the thought.
    "Stranger things have happened."  I replied and got up, threw my
underwear on and went into the bathroom.

    I found some alcohol and cotton balls and grabbed them, putting them
under one arm.  I grabbed the washcloth on the sink and ran it under the
tap real quick, squeezing the excess out and went back to the bed where
Brian was waiting.  I sat down on the bed and put the alcohol and cotton
balls next to me, then propped one knee up on the bed and faced Brian.

    "Ok, give me your hand."  I held my hand out.
    "Oooooo, let's play doctor."  Brian laughed as he held out his hand.
    "I always wanted to go to Med school."  I laughed. "Then I would get to
grab guy's balls and say 'cough'."

    I held Brian's hand and started scrubbing all the dried blood off.

    "Jesus, that stings!"  Brian winced.
    "You're lucky you didn't break it."  I chastised him. "Just wait until
I put some alcohol on it and you'll see what stinging really is."
    "I just love you."  Brian looked up at me.
    "Why?  'Cause I'm willing to clean dried blood off of your hand?"  I
laughed.
    "No, 'cause you love me even after what I pulled last night.  And after
that, you're willing to clean dried blood off my hand" Brian laughed at his
last remark.
    "I don't think you could do anything to make me stop loving you, well
except maybe if you like went straight and started dating a Spice Girl or
something.  I would have to kill you then just on principle."  I laughed.
    "I don't think that will EVER happen, atleast not as long as I have
you."  Brian smiled.

    I finished cleaning the blood off of Brian's knuckles, which they were
so bruised it looked like they were still covered in dried blood.  I laid
the washcloth on the bed and picked up the alcohol and a cotton ball.  I
doused the cotton ball, grabbed Brian's hand and told him to bear down.  I
had barely touched his hand with the cotton ball and he started drawing air
through his teeth, making a loud hissing noise.

    "Pussy."  I laughed.
    "I bet you would be the same way."  Brian winced.

    After I had finished doctoring Brian's hand, I went and put the
alcohol, cotton balls and washcloth up.  I used the bathroom really quick
and when I got back into the room, Brian was fully clothed and about to
head out the door.

    "Do you want me to call down and have the limo brought around?"  I
suggested.
    "Nah, I'll be fine.  I'll rough it today."  Brian replied with a laugh,
grabbing his backpack.
    "Do you want mommy to pack you a lunch."  I made fun of myself.
    "No, but thank you."  Brian laughed back.
    "Okay, play nicely with the other boys and girls today."  I sat down on
the bed and watched Brian walk towards the door.
    "I'll be back after awhile.  I bet the guys will be getting breakfast,
so go down and pig out for once."  Brian laughed.
    "I'll think about it."

    With that, Brian was gone.  I sat there on the edge of the bed for a
minute, not knowing if I wanted to go back to sleep or go wake A.J. up.  I
finally settled on sleeping awhile and crawled back under the covers.  I
laid there for a minute, feeling very alone.  I had practically fell asleep
in Brian's arms everynight since I had met him, but now I had to sleep
without him.  Impossible.  I started thinking about everything that we had
done together since we met, and soon I was so content that I was fast
asleep, a smile on my face.


(Part 15)

    I woke up again about an hour later, to a knock at the door.  I crawled
out of bed, not knowing who would be knocking on the door.  I stumbled over
to the door, feeling like I had been asleep for days, just from the short
nap.  I opened the door, rubbing my eyes.  When I pulled my hand down,
there was Barb.

    "Barb?!?  What are you doing here?"  I was shocked to see her.
    "Well....you weren't at the hotel, so I figured you'd be here. Duh."
Barb laughed and walked in.
    "Well, I sorta figured that, but I mean--what are you doing here?"  I
didn't know why she needed to see me.
    "Jeez, can't I come and tell you what Bob just offered you to do the
movie with Devon and Leo?"  Barb smiled widely.
    "Not un-announced."  I laughed, then sat down on the edge of the
bed. "Just kidding.  What did he offer me?"
    "Well....."  Barb sat down next to me and started talking.

    As Barb announced the amount, it felt like I was underwater.  Barb just
stared at me.

    "You still there?"  Barb laughed.
    "Oh my god, really?"  I knew I was pale.
    "Yes really.  When you never made that appointment with him, he knew he
had better act quickly, I guess."  Barb smiled.
    "Jesus--Do I even need to think about it?"  I tried to smile but was
too shocked.
    "Hell no!  I mean, we've both seen the treatments, right?  It'll be a
blockbuster."  Barb urged me on.
    "Oh god!"  I stood up and started jumping around like an idiot.
    "Okay, okay."  Barbara couldn't help but laugh at my behavior.
    "Oh shit, I can buy myself a house out here--AND a car."  I laughed.
    "You haven't gotten it yet.  You have to wait until they give you the
check before you start spending it."  Barb lit a cigarette.
    "Well, it's still pretty fuckin' cool."  I laughed and sat back down.
    "Yeah, especially since I get ten percent."  Barb smiled.
    "Well, I guess you're worth it."  I lit a cigarette.
    "So, how's the situation with Brian going?"  Barb turned serious.
    "It's going good.  Even though I only have two and a half weeks left
with him, it's going well."  I responded.
    "Well, I've got a great idea, why don't we go out to celebrate?"  Barb
looked at me.
    "Sounds like a plan!"  I jumped up and walked over to the phone.

    I dialed A.J.'s number, and explained that I needed to borrow more
clothes.  Within moments, A.J. was down at Brian's room with a change of
clothes for me.  He came in and talked to Barb while I took a quick shower
and changed.  I made sure to shave and dry my hair so I would look like the
"high-paid move star" that I now was.

    "You comin' with us A.J?"  I asked as I walked out of the bathroom, a
cloud of steam following me.
    "Sure, where you guys going?"  A.J. stood.
    "I don't care, Barb's paying with her ten percent."  I laughed.
    "Why not?"  Barb laughed as we all walked out of the door.

    We all went downstairs and climbed into Barb's car and were on our way.
I filled A.J. in on what Bob had offered me in the car.  He seemed pretty
impressed when I told him the amount.  He also reminded me that I would
have to remember him when I needed a "date" for the premiere.  I just
laughed and told him he would be one of the five "dates" I would be taking.
    Barb ended up taking us to Planet Hollywood, which excited me since I
had never gotten a chance to go even though I had been in L.A. many times.
Barb and A.J. took their time getting out of the car.  I made some comment
about maybe seeing Bruce Willis and jumped out and ran to the door.  I
could tell Barb and A.J. were making fun of me, even though I couldn't hear
what they were saying, as they walked towards me.
    We all went in together.  The hostess immediately recognized A.J. and
me and seated us as quickly as she could.  Even though anonymity was fun,
it was still nice to be "priviledged" every once in awhile.  Barb and I
immediately lit a cigarette as A.J. picked up a menu.  A.J. decided pretty
quick what he wanted and put his menu down.  After Barb and I finished our
cigarette, we found what we wanted to eat and the waitress came and took
our order.  She asked A.J. and me for our autographs, which we happily gave
to her.  When I ordered a double cheeseburger and fries, Barb and
A.J. looked at me like I was crazy.

    "I can pig out sometimes."  I laughed and lit another cigarette.
    "We just thought we would never see you do it."  Barb laughed.
    "If you're not careful, you won't be able to share clothes with me."
A.J. teased.
    "Fuck ya'll."  I laughed.
    "I gotta go to the bathroom, I'll be back."  A.J. stood and walked to
the restroom.

    Barb and I sat there in silence.  I was thinking about the offer and
all kinds of things, when a man stepped onstage.  Upon further inspection,
I realized it was Bruce Willis.  Barb thought she was gonna have to strap
me down, 'cause I immediately started bouncing in my seat from excitement.
Bruce got the mic and the spotlight hit him.

    "What's up everyone?"  Bruce shouted, followed by enthusiastic replies
all around.

    I grabbed Barb's arm hard and started squeezing.

    "We have something special for ya'll tonight!  We have a very special
person in da' house tonight."  Bruce spoke.  "Tonight, we have Matt
Thompson!!"

    The spotlight hit me and I froze.  I was shocked.

    "Guess what?"  Bruce was speaking to me.

    I just shrugged my shoulders, as if to say "I don't know".

    "Your manager and some friends just let me in on a big secret."  Bruce
spoke up.

    I looked at Barb.  She couldn't possibly have found out.

    "Well, everyone, guess what today is?"  Bruce asked the crowd. "Today
is little Matt's nineteenth birthday!"
    "Barbara, you bitch!"  I laughed and hugged her.
    "Just wait."  Barb whispered in my ear as we hugged.
    "Matt, to help you celebrate, some of your friends came down and wanted
to put on a little private concert for you and everyone else today.
Everyone, give it up for the Backstreet Boys!!"  Bruce jumped off the stage
and the spotlight went out.

    Everyone started cheering loudly, awaiting the appearance of the guys.
I was shocked.  So that's what Brian had to leave so early for?  I was
gonna have to pay him back tonight.  I didn't have long to think of what I
was gonna do to Brian, 'cause they immediately came on stage.  I grabbed
Barb's arm harder this time as all five guys, including A.J. strolled
onstage and took their seats on the stools set up for them with five mics.

    "Before we start, we all just want to tell Matt Happy Birthday, and
that we're all glad that we have a friend like him."  A.J. spoke into his
mic.
    "Happy Birthday, Matt."  They all said in unison.

    Barb let out of squeal of pain as I dug my nails into her arm.  I just
laughed and bared down from the thought of the guys singing to me.
    The music started and I immediately recognized 'Quit Playing Games With
My Heart' as the song.  I tried not to act too excited and dippy 'cause I
knew everyone in the resturaunt had their eyes on me.  I knew Barb was
gonna have impressions of my nails in her arm for a long time, though.  As
soon as Nick started his verse, all the women in the audience screeched.  I
felt like standing up on the table and screaming that Brian was the
hottest, but decided that it probably wasn't a good idea.
    As soon as they were done, they started singing 'If You Want It To Be
Good Girl(Get Yourself A Bad Boy)'. It was the first time ever that I had
heard the song performed live.  I could tell that everytime Nick sang 'If
you want it to be good girl get yourself a bad boy,' Brian was looking at
me discreetly.  I sorta waved to him, trying not to let anyone see me.
    As soon as they finished the song, they sang 'Happy Birthday' to me,
then left the stage, much to the screaming of everyone in the resturaunt.

    "Happy Birthday, Matt."  Barb pried my fingers out of her arm and
looked at me.
    "How'd you find out?"  I smiled.
    "I'll never tell."  Barb laughed.

    Barb and I sat there for awhile longer, just talking about nothing,
when finally the guys made their way over to our booth and sat down with
us.  Brian sort of made a face when A.J. got into the booth and scootched
down next to me, making Brian sit at the end.  I didn't really think
anything of it, I just figured A.J. wasn't thinking about Brian.
    All the guys took their turns wishing me Happy Birthday.  Brian reached
under the table across A.J.'s lap and squeezed my thigh, getting my
attention, and told me Happy Birthday.  I leaned across A.J. and whispered
to Brian that I would pay him back later.  A.J. made some type of snorting
noise, and I leaned back to my seat.  Brian just gave A.J. a look.  I
thought he made the noise cause we were crowding him.

    "Matt, I'm planning on going to do some shopping and eat out tomorrow,
you want to come?"  A.J. looked at me.
    "Yeah," I looked across A.J. at Brian. "Sound fun to you?"
    "Sure, sounds great."

    As soon as Brian said 'yes', A.J. frowned.

    "Oh, wait, I told Kevin and Nick I would go out with them to a movie."
Brian looked dissappointed.

    I swear A.J. grinned.

    "Well, you can still go can't you?"  A.J. looked at me.
    "Ummm," I looked at Brian. "Yeah, why not?"
    "Great!"  A.J. smiled.

    I looked over at the other guys and noticed Nick had a black eye.  I
was gonna say something sympathetic, but finally decided that it would
probably be taken sarcastically and kept my mouth shut.  We all broke up
into our usual groups and chatted.  I talked with A.J. and Brian while Barb
chatted with the other guys. Finally, curiousity got the better of me and I
decided to ask.

    "So, did you boys make up?"  I took a puff off of my cigarette.

    Everyone flinched.

    "We really haven't had a chance to talk yet."  Nick looked across the
table at Brian.
    "Oh, well, I guess you guys will have to talk tonight, then."  I went
back to talking to A.J. as if nothing was said.

    The whole time I was talking to A.J. he kept making faces like he
couldn't believe I brought it up.

    I just ignored A.J.'s looks and kept talking to him.  After awhile,
A.J. decided he had to go to the restroom again, and as soon as Brian let
him out of the booth, he scooted back in and ended up practically sitting
in my lap.  I had to remind Brian we were in public and he had to be
discreet.
    As soon as A.J. got back, I noticed the look on his face.  He looked
sorta upset that Brian was sitting next to me instead of himself, but I
just looked away from him and said something off the wall to Barb to keep
from having to look at him.  Barb and I talked for awhile, while Brian slid
his hand up and down my thigh, under the table.  Every now and then, he'd
get brave and lay his hand on my crotch.  I just smiled at him, trying to
keep a straight face.

    "I guess it's time we headed out."  I looked at Brian, giving a knowing
grin.
    "Yeah, guess so."  Brian squeezed my thigh.
    "Well, do ya'll wanna go out later?"  Howie asked quickly.
    "Yeah, why don't we all go back to the Crystal Connection tonight?"
Kevin followed up.
    "Sure, sounds good to me."  I looked at Brian.
    "Yeah sounds fun."  Brian smiled.
    "Alright, why don't we all meet at the hotel about six o'clock?"  Howie
suggested.
    "Yeah, see ya' there."  Brian and I pushed A.J. out of the booth and
stood up, facing the rest of the guys.
    "You gonna come, Barb?"  Brian asked.
    "Naw, you guys go have fun.  You don't need a middle aged woman to
weigh you down."  She laughed.
    "Sure we do.  Come on Barb!"  I laughed.
    "Yeah, come on."  Nick finally spoke.
    "I'll think about it."  Barb bartered.
    "Okay, well, if you decided to come, meet us at six at the Carlton, k?"
I asked.
    "Sure."

    With that, Brian and I left.  We walked out into the afternoon sun, and
started walking.  We ended up walking to the hotel like we did the night
after the rehearsal for the concert.  We talked and strolled down the
street, oblivious to all the passerbys staring at us.  Somehow, we ended up
in West Hollywood.  Boys Town of all places.  We hadn't gotten far into the
district when we heard a shrill scream.  I looked at Brian, then we both
spun around simultaneously.  We both expected to see a couple women running
towards us, but instead, we saw a group of screaming queens running at us.
I didn't know if we should start running or what.
    We both just stood there, shocked.  I looked at Brian and cracked a
smile.  I leaned over and whispered about what a change this was.  He just
returned the smile, trying not to let on to the guys running towards us we
were talking about them.  We both stood there, waiting for the group to
surround us.

    "Oh my god, it's really Matt and Brian!!!!!"  The first guy to reach us
screamed back at his slower friends.

    Matt and Brian?

    "Hey, what's up?"  Brian put his hand out to the guy.
    "This is sooooo awesome!"  The guy grabbed Brian's hand and shook it
excitedly.
    "It IS Matt and Brian!"  The next guy's chin dropped as he approached
us.
    "Yep.  Nice to meet you."  I put on my phoniest smile and extended my
hand, following Brian's lead.
    "Oh shit, it's nice to meet you, too."  The guy grabbed my hand and
shook it harder than the other guy had shook Brian's.

    Brian and I shook all of the guys' hands as they approached, being
cordial to them.  The guys were about to crack me up.  I got a mental
picture of drool hanging out of their mouths, and I almost died, but
managed to control myself.  All the guys were asking Brian and me stupid
questions like who were we going out with and asking if we wanted to go
party.  Brian just acted cool and played stupid, like he didn't know what
they were refering to, and I followed his lead.  The leader of the group
was trying to get us to go have coffee with them, which I respectively
declined.  They all seemed disappointed, so Brian and I both felt bad.

    "You know, we don't HAVE to do anything until six, I guess it couldn't
hurt to go have just one cup of coffee."  Brian looked at me.
    "No, I guess not."  I smiled at the crowd of guys that had turned into
about seven.
    "Alright!"  All the guys seemed to shout at once.

    We were like pulled into the group and seperated, Brian on one end and
me on the other.  Some of the guys were really bold and were telling me how
hot I was and how they fantasized about me.  Gay or not, it sorta freaked
me out.  I just managed to smile and say it was cool, or some dumbass
remark like that.  They dragged us over to a big building that certainly
didn't look like a coffee shop to Brian or me, but we decided it was
harmless and went in with them.
    When we got into the building, we immediately realized we were in a gay
bar.  There were women and men over on one side, dancing on the dance
floor, and the other side were couples having coffee and other drinks
together.  Brian and I stayed behind the group and looked at each other.

    "If Barb finds out I came in here, she'll fucking kill me."  I looked
at Brian seriously.
    "I know, same with my manager."  Brian looked back at me.
    "Fuck it."  We both said in unison with a laugh and caught up to the
guys.

    All the guys that had brought us here got beer and shots, but Brian and
I just got a couple cafe mochas and joined the guys at their table.  We all
sat there together, talking--mainly about Brian and me.  They all made
comments about how it was so cool to have the hottest singer and hottest
actor together at a table with them.  Brian and I were both happy to hear
they felt that way, but a little uncomfortable.  After awhile, the caffeine
settled and we got over the fact that we were in a gay bar with seven
strange gay men and that our managers would probably kill us and just
started having fun.
    The bar was dimly lit, like a nightclub would be.  You wouldn't know
from being inside the bar that it was light outside.  After awhile, a
couple of the guys got up and went and started dancing.  Slowly, all the
guys got up to join them.  Brian and I sat there, watching them dance.

    "You know what?"  Brian leaned over to me.
    "What?"  I asked with a smile.
    "I would love to get you out on that dance floor and just grind away."
Brian laughed.
    "I know, I wish we could."  I sighed.
    "Why can't we?"  Brian's eyes got big as he smiled.

    The next thing I knew, Brian reached under the table and grabbed me by
the wrist and pulled me up out of my chair.

    "Brian, we can't, someone is bound to say something."  I tried to pull
away.
    "So?  We're in a gay bar, what more could they say?"  Brian laughed and
pulled harder.

    I realized Brian was right and decided to stop playing it straight all
the time and followed him out onto the dance floor.  Brian lead me to the
very center of the dance floor and pulled me up on him.  Any closer, and we
would have been fucking.  Brian slowly started dancing, holding me close to
him so his pelvis was rubbing against me.  All the guys around us stopped
and started watching us.  I was just standing there, but when I realized
the guys were watching, I was gonna have to do something.

    "I'll get you for this later."  I whispered into Brian's ear, then
started dancing seductively like he was.

    Soon we had all the guys in the bar hooting and hollering for us.  When
the song was over, all the guys clapped for us, and a slow song started.
Brian pulled me as close as he could and put his arms around my waist.  I
laughed and put my arms around his neck.  Brian cracked me up when he
dropped his hands and placed either of them in my butt pockets in my jeans.

    "I wish we could do this all the time."  Brian whispered into my ear.
    "Well, we do have an image, right?"  I laughed at the thought after
what we had just pulled in front of all these people.
    "Yeah, but I wish no one cared about images."  Brian sighed and laid
his head on my shoulder.
    "Know what ya' mean."  I lightly kissed him on the cheek, hoping no one
noticed.


(Part 16)

    Brian and I got back to the hotel around five o'clock and immediately
were going at it.  We knew we didn't have long before we had to shower and
meet the guys downstairs.  Brian pushed me down on the bed and knelt in
front of me.  He quickly undid my belt, unbuttoned my pants and yanked them
off of me.  Brian took my hardening cock between his lips and pushed all
the way down until my cock was buried deep in his throat.  I sat there,
looking down at him, sucking me off.  Brian looked at me with his blue eyes
and I almost shot my load right there.
    Brian sensed that I was enjoying watching him and reached under me,
shoving a finger up my ass, looking at me the whole time, while he sucked
my cock and finger fucked me.  I grabbed the back of Brian's head, not
shoving him down, but just let my hands follow his head up and down.  Brian
snuck another finger into my ass, causing me to jump, sending my cock deep
into his throat.
    When Brian pushed another finger into my ass, I started bucking
uncontrollably and started fucking Brian's face with a vengeance.  Brian
started moving the three fingers in and out of my ass, finally making me
lose it, shooting jet after jet of cum down his waiting throat.  I started
shivering uncontrollably as Brian pulled his fingers out of my puckered
opening.  I fell back on the bed, panting.

    "I love you."  Brian crawled up and laid down beside me.
    "I love you more."  I laughed slightly and grabbed him, pulling him
into me.
    "Not possible."  Brian looked at me and smiled.
    "So what can I do for you?"  I grinned.
    "I'm gonna wait until tonight for mine. I've got something special for
us."  He smiled and pulled away from me.

    Brian stood and walked to the bathroom, looking back at me.  I watched
him walk away in all his nakedness, getting turned on again.  I laid there
for awhile, looking up at the ceiling, feeling very superior.  I heard
Brian turn the water on in the shower, then the shower door slide back,
then close back.  I laid there and listened for awhile as Brian showered
and sang.  I thought it was so cute that he sang in the shower.  I jumped
up and walked into the bathroom, and swung the shower door back, and joined
him in the shower.
    Brian and I washed each other off, trying to keep our hands off of the
obvious spots, to avoid being late to meet the guys.  After the shower we
dressed again and I had a quick cigarette.  About five 'til six, we headed
down to the lobby, where the guys were all waiting on us.  I was surprised
to see Nick waiting with A.J., Howie and Kevin.  I figured he would stay
behind, but was sorta glad to see they were already going back out
together.

    "Ya'll ready?"  A.J. asked as soon as we were in an ear's reach.
    "Ready as we'll ever be."  Brian smiled.
    "They're having the car we drove the other night pulled around for us."
Nick looked at me.
    "Great."  I replied.
    "I get to drive this time." Brian gave me a stern look.
    "Fine, but I get shotgun."  I smiled.
    "Ofcourse, just as long as I do the driving."  Brian replied.

    Once the Expedition was pulled back around, Brian and I hopped into the
front and the other guys squeezed into the backseat.  Halfway around the
block, A.J. slid over the front seat and sat down between Brian and me.
The other guys started laughing at himm, the way he had to contort his body
to get over the seat.  I immediately hopped into A.J.'s lap getting a look
from Brian.  I shoved A.J. to the passenger seat, so I could sit next to
Brian.  Once Brian realized what I was doing, he smiled.  A.J. stared at me
for awhile as we sat in the front together.  I didn't know why he was
staring at me, but he kept on doing it.
    We all decided to go back to the resturaunt we went to that night.  We
were ofcourse seated right away and again, Brian had to fight A.J. over the
right to sit next to me.  All the guys seemed to be picking up on the
tension between A.J. and Brian.  I just thought it was cute that A.J. liked
me as a friend so much that he liked being around me that much.  Brian
didn't seem to think it was very cute, being paranoid over what Nick had
done.  I just whispered to Brian to chill out, and that A.J. didn't mean
anything by it.
    We all ordered our drinks and food, then chatted while sipping our
drinks until our food came out.  A.J ended up telling all the guys about
the deal with Bob to do the movie with Leo and Devon.  I let them all know
that I decided to do it.  Kevin seemed to be the most impressed.  He kept
trying to get me to tell him how much I was offered, but I kept my mouth
shut.  I could tell Kevin wanted to slap the shit out of me for not telling
him.
    When we were done with dinner, we paid the tab and headed out.  Brian
drove again over to the club with A.J. and me in the front seat next to
him.  Once we arrived at the club, every jumped out, and we practically
raced to the door.  There was a line halfway around the block of people
trying to get in, but the doorman immediately ushered us through the crowd
and let us in.  All the people we passed on the way to the door were
throwing themselves on us, practically tackling us.
    As soon as we got into the club, it was elbow to elbow, just like the
night before when we went to see Hole.  Brian and I fought through the
crowd and somehow found an empty table.  It wasn't long before A.J. and the
other guys caught up to us and squeezed in to sit at the table with us.  We
sent Kevin up to the bar to get us all a round of drinks.  We had to wait
quite awhile for Kevin to appear again with a waitress helping him carry
the drinks.  We all chugged our drinks and Howie, Kevin and Nick
dissappeared onto the dance floor.  A.J., Brian and I all stayed behind,
having the waitress go back for a second round.  Every now and then, we
would see one of the guys pop up at the sidelines of the dance floor before
being "black-holed" back in.
    We were starting on our third round when all the guys came back to the
table.  They were all hot and sweaty from all the dancing.  When I stood up
to go to the bathroom, it was like a chain reaction, all the other guys
stood up like I was leaving for good.

    "I'm just going to the restroom, guys."  I laughed and pushed my chair
back under the table.
    "I'll come with ya'."  A.J. stood.
    "He doesn't need help shaking it, A.J."  Brian leered at him.
    "Brian, chill, we'll be right back."  I just laughed and headed off
with A.J.

    A.J. and I practically had hold hands on the way to the bathroom to
keep from getting seperated in the crowd.  The bathroom was completely
empty.  A.J. ended up pulling a Nick, locking the door behind us.  I just
looked at him quickly before heading to the urinal and taking care of my
business.  A.J. followed my lead.
    After relieving myself, I walked over to the sink and washed my hands.
A.J. walked over and washed his hands, then lean up against the sink,
watching me.

    "What?!?"  I giggled.
    "Nothing."  A.J. stared at me blankly.
    "Well then, why are you staring at me?"  I turned to look at him.
    "Just because."  He kept staring.
    "A.J., stop it, you're starting to...."  I wasn't able to finish my
sentence.

    Before I knew what had happened, A.J. had grabbed me, pulled me towards
him and planted a kiss on my lips.  He didn't exactly do like Nick, he just
quickly kissed me, then shoved me away from him again.  As soon as he
shoved me away, I just stood there and looked at him, amazed.  He looked at
me like he was worried about what I was gonna say.  Finally, I "woke up"
and spoke.

    "What the fuck was that?"  I practically whispered.
    "I wanted to kiss you, so I did."  A.J. whispered back.
    "So you just DID?!?"  I yelled.
    "I'm sorry, but I couldn't stand to be around you anymore and not do
it."  A.J. replied.
    "A.J., you're straight, get a fucking clue."  I started to walk out of
the bathroom.
    "I may be straight, but that doesn't mean I can't fall in love with
another man."  A.J. grabbed me, pulling me back to face him.
    "LOVE ME?"  I screamed again.
    "Yeah, I love you."  A.J. smiled.
    "Well, I love you, too.  However, I don't LOVE you."  I explained.
"You're a good friend, but friends don't kiss, and they especially don't
kiss a friend that has a boyfriend."
    "We don't have to kiss, we can fuck."  A.J. was creeping me out.
    "A.J., did somebody slip a rufie into your drink?"  I stared at him
wide-eyed. "This is completely insane.  I would expect something like this
from Nick, but not you!  You were supposed to be my fucking friend."
    "I am your friend."  A.J. replied.
    "A.J. I suggest you don't let Brian find out about this.  And no, we
CAN'T fuck."  I answered.
    "Why not, I'm not gonna tell Brian.  I mean, I've always wanted to try
it since Brian told me he was gay, but I wanted to do it with somebody I
loved."  A.J. grabbed me again.
    "Because I love Brian, and Brian is your friend.  What the fuck is
wrong with you and Nick?  Don't you care about Brian's feelings?!?  I'm
beginning to think all of you are fucking crazy!"  I was hysterical, I
couldn't believe it.
    "I care about Brian, but I also care about my feelings, too."
A.J. tried to pull me into to hug him.
    "Get off!"  I shoved A.J., then stormed out of the bathroom.

    I walked as quickly as I could back over to our table without running,
and sat down next to Brian.

    "Did everything come out okay?"  Nick laughed.

    I just smiled, trying not to look like I was fixing to kill A.J.  We
sat there for awhile, all of us watching the people all around us pass by.
Finally, A.J. made his way back to the table and sat down next to me.  I
was glad all the guys weren't watching 'cause I unintentionally flinched
and scooted closer to Brian.  A.J. did something I never would imagine--he
reached under the table and grabbed my thigh, then smiled at me.  I was so
shocked, I bounced in my seat, hitting the table with my knee, spilling the
drinks all over the top of the table.
    I quickly stood, followed by the other guys.  However, the guys were
trying to keep from getting doused, I was trying to keep from A.J. feeling
on me.  I stood there for a minute, while all the guys took turns giving me
looks like I was crazy.

    "Jesus, Matt!  Are you a little high strung tonight?"  Brian laughed.
    "I'm ready to go!"  I didn't even wait for him, I started walking
towards the door.
    "What?!"  I heard Brian say in amazement as I walked away.

    I stood outside of the club, smoking a cigarette, while all of the
people in line gawked at me.  Finally, Brian came out of the club and
walked towards me, followed by more stares from the people.  We both walked
around to the side where no one would be watching us.  Brian stood there
for a minute, just looking at me.  I looked at him for a minute before
speaking.

    "Can you take me to my hotel?"  I asked, trying no to look at him.
    "What's wrong, Matt?"  Brian walked towards me. "Did A.J. say something
to hurt your feelings?"
    "No."  I was a poor liar. "I just want to go home.  I don't feel good."
    "Before you went to the bathroom, you felt fine."  Brian was starting
to get suspicious.
    "I just want to go fucking home."  I screamed.

    I could tell all the people waiting in line heard me, 'cause I heard
what sounded like thousands of whispers all of the sudden.

    "Okay."  Brian stared at me in amazement. "Let me tell the guys I'll be
right back."
    "I'll be waiting right here."  I kept an even tone.

    I hadn't been waiting five minutes when Brian came back out with Kevin.
Brian hopped into the front seat.  He was dissappointed when I jumped into
the backseat, allowing Kevin to sit shotgun.  I sat behind Brian so he
couldn't see me and just looked out the window as he pulled out of the
parking lot.

    "So what's wrong?"  Kevin turned sideways in his seat to talk to me.
    "Nothing.  I don't feel good and I want to go home."  I kept looking
out the window.
    "What hurts?"  Kevin asked, concerned.
    "Nothing hurts. I just feel like I could retch."
    "Do we need to take you to the hospital?"  Brian believed that I just
didn't feel good.
    "No, I just need to go home and go to bed."  I looked at the back of
Brian's head.

    Finally, the guys dropped me off at the front of my hotel and I jumped
out.  Brian told Kevin to wait there and he followed me.  I tried to walk
quickly, to make him get the hint, but he was like a lost puppy, he kept
following me.  He jumped in the elevator just in time, before the doors
closed.  He talked to me all the way up my floor, but I just ignored him.
When we got to my room, I tried to close the door before he came in, but he
pushed it open.

    "What the hell is wrong with you, Matt?"  Brian sounded worried as he
closed the door behind him.
    "You want to know what's wrong with me?  This is what's wrong with me!"
I screeched, as I held up my hand, showing him the ring.
    "WHAT?!?"  Brian's eyes started watering.
    "I think you should just take it back.  I mean it never was gonna
work."  I tried to pry the ring off my finger.

    Brian immediately raced over to me, shoving my hands down.

    "No, I don't want it back, I want you."  Brian tried to hug me, only to
have me push him way.
    "Brian, it's not gonna work.  I mean, as soon as you and I are doing
well, something shitty is gonna happen.  Just take it back, I don't want
it."  I didn't know what I was saying.
    "Matt, NO!  I don't want to lose you."  Brian started weeping as I
yanked the ring off my finger.
    "I finally realized tonight that this is all just a joke.  I mean, it
was stupid of us to think that we could actually be more than friends."  I
sorta hysterically laughed and slapped the ring into Brian's hand.
    "Matt, please just calm down and talk to me."  Brian tried to hug me
again.
    "I don't want to talk."  I lit a cigarette. "I just want you to leave."
    "Matt--"
    "GET THE HELL OUT!!!!"  I screamed, completely delirious by that point.

    Brian gave me a shocked look, then quietly walked away from me.  He
turned to look at me again before opening the door.  I just turned, so I
wouldn't have to look at him as he left.  As soon as I heard the door
close, I started balling.  Why did I do that over one little thing that
stupid-ass A.J. had done?  I fell down on the bed, almost burning myself
with my cigarette.  I immediately started quivering from sobbing so hard.
I snubbed my cigarette out in the ashtray on the bedside table, pulled the
covers back and crawled into bed without taking my clothes off.  I laid
there for quite awhile, before crying myself into oblivion.


(Part 17)

    "Hey, what are you doing here?"  Barb laughed as I opened the door.
    "Mornin' Barb."  I tried to smile and failed miserably.
    "Don't look too excited."  Barb smiled. "I brough over a bunch of stuff
we need to work on today."

    Barb walked in.  She sat down at the table and immediately started
pulling all kinds of papers and books out of her bag.  I walked over and
sat next to her at the table.  I glanced at the papers and recognized them
as the treatments for the movie and parts of the script and a contract from
Bob.

    "We need to read over the contract, sign it if it's suitable, and give
it back to Bob."  Barb laid it in front of me.  "Also he asked me to have
you look over the script and treatments and give him so input on what you
think."

    I immediately started looking over the contract.  It was pretty
standard except for one part.

    "What's this part about 'creative control'?"  I asked with a cocked
eyebrow.
    "That's something special.  I told Bob you wouldn't sign without some
control over the creation of the movie."  Barb looked proud of herself.
    "That's great, Barb.  What does it mean?"  I laughed slightly.
    "It means that if you aren't happy with an aspect of the movie, you
have the right to negotiate changes with it."  Barb laughed at my
stupidity.
    "Oh, ok."  I smiled, then signed the contract.
    "Now that that's out of the way...."  Barb folded the contract back up
and put it into an envelope. "What happened between you and Brian?"
    "What?!?"  how did Barb know?
    "Brian called me last night and woke me up, crying."  Barb frowned.
    "We broke up."  I stood, walked over to the bedside table, and lit a
cigarette.
    "WHAT?!?"  Barb was shocked. "What happened?"
    "A.J. hit on me."  I sighed.
    "He came onto you?"  Barb's chin dropped.
    "Yeah, and Nick did the night before last."  I laughed sarcastically.
    "So that's why Nick had the black eye?  I was dying to ask."  Barb
looked amazed.
    "Yeah, but Brian doesn't know that A.J. did, too."  I replied, taking a
puff off my cigarette.
    "Is that why ya'll broke up?"  Barb looked puzzled.
    "Sorta.  I knew we probably would before he left to tour and I went to
New York to film, but after those two retards pulled that shit, I knew if I
kept staying around Brian, I would eventually bring about the break-up of
the BSB."  I let a tear roll down my cheek.
    "I'm so sorry.  I had no idea that you guys broke up.  All I could make
out over Brian's sobbing was that you were mad at him and he didn't know
why."  Barb reached over and placed a hand on my shoulder.
    "Let's not talk about it, let's get to work."  I was actually able to
fake a smile and pick up part of the script.
    "Are you sure you feel like it?"  Barb asked quizzically.
    "Yeah, let's do it."  I laughed.

    Barb and I spent the whole day ordering room service and coffee,
smoking and reading over the material Bob had provided me with.  Brian
tried to call twice while we were working, but I told Barb to tell him I
wasn't there when he called.  We both were fairly pleased with the script
and treatments, only making minor adjustments here and there.  Halfway
through the day, I started to lighten up and started cracking jokes with
Barb.  About midnight, I laid the last part of the script down and sighed,
lighting a cigarette.

    "I don't know about you, but I am exhausted."  I grinned stupidly.
    "Yeah, I better head out."  Barb stood.
    "Okay, you'll be over at the same time tomorrow?"  I asked.
    "Yep, but maybe tomorrow we'll go somewhere else instead of sitting in
this dark room all day."  Barb smiled and headed out.
    "Call me when you get home."  I leaned back in the chair.
    "Will do."

    With that, Barb was gone.  I stayed in the chair for a good half hour
after Barb left, waiting for her to call.  I was about to give up and go to
bed when the phone finally rang.  I hobbled over and picked up the
reciever.

    "It's about time you called."  I laughed into the reciever.
    "Matt?  I've been trying to get ahold of you all day."  Brian's voice
replied.
    "Brian, what do you want."  I tried to act cold.
    "I was just calling to tell you that we just got a notice from
management that we will be leaving tomorrow to start touring again.  We
won't be here for the full time we expected."  Brian whispered.

    My heart sank.  Even though I knew it wasn't meant to be forever,
especially after the night before, I was crushed.  Atleast when he was in
L.A., wether we were together or not, I could atleast be in the same city.

    "Matt, you still there?"  Brian asked.
    "Yeah, I'm here."  I replied, trying to hold back the lump in my
throat.
    "Well, I just thought you would want to know."  I could tell Brian was
gonna cry, too.
    "Have a safe trip.  Tell all the guys I said goodbye and everything."
I wanted to hang up I was so close to crying.
    "I will."  Brian was sobbing.
    "Okay, I hope I see you again someday."  I replied into the phone, my
throat clenching shut.
    "Same here."
    "Well, bye."  I was about to hang up.
    "Matt!  Just one thing before you go...I just wanted to say one last
time that I love you.  I have never told ANYONE I loved them except maybe
family, and no matter what you say, I'll always love you, and you'll always
love me."  Brian sobbed freely. "And If I could take back whatever I did, I
would.  I don't even know what I did, but I know it was all my fault, and I
just love you sooooo much."
    "No--" I tried to cut him.
    "Matt, just tell me you love me and I'll leave you alone, I just want
to be able to hear you say it one last time before we never see each other
again, cause we both know that that's what's gonna happen."  Brian stopped
sobbing.
    "Brian, I love you."  I broke down.  "But we can't be together."
    "Okay, I gotta go."  Brian sounder somber now.
    "Okay, bye."  I bit my lower lip and placed the reciever back on the
rest.
    "Bye."

    I fell back on the bed.  I laid there for a minute, trying to choke the
tears back.  I didn't know how I had fallen in love, had the best sex of my
life, then lost my love.  How could I just throw away the love of life?
How could I throw BRIAN away?  I didn't have too long to think.  The phone
began ringing, bringing me back from my stupor.

    "Hello?"  I asked, wiping the tears out of my eye.
    "It's me, I was just calling to tell you that I made it home okay."
Barb laughed.
    "Good, thanks for calling."  I laughed through my tears.
    "Hey, I forgot to tell you, I have some more bullshit for you to look
through tomorrow.  I think we are gonna try to get you on The Tonight Show,
hell maybe Oprah."  Barb laughed.
    "Hey, Barb."  I tried to interrupt her.
    "I got a call from Rosie's people today and they want to get you on her
show, plus I think we will get you on The Today Show."  Barb wouldn't shut
up.
    "BARB!!!!!"  I screamed into the phone.
    "What?"  Barb whined.
    That's great, but I got to go.  I have to go fix something."  I slammed
the phone down, grabbed my coat, and headed out the door.

    I wasn't going to let go of love that easily......


Well everyone, I guess that's just about it.  I don't think I need to
finish it, but maybe one of these days there will be like a final chapter,
letting you know if things really did get fixed or not?  Hope you all liked
this part, I know it was a little late, but I hope you can all forgive me!
I hope that the last chapter lived up to everyone's expectations, if not,
maybe my next story will make up for it!!!

(I'LL NEVER BREAK YOUR HEART, I'LL NEVER MAKE YOU CRY, I'D RATHER DIE, THAN
LIVE WITHOUT YOU, I'LL GIVE YOU ALL OF ME, HONEY THAT'S NO LIE)

THE END?