Date: Fri, 24 Jan 2003 14:05:02 -0800 (PST)
From: JACK BROWN <jack_ga_2002@yahoo.com>
Subject: brian & jack part 11

WARNING: the following story contains material that might not be
appropriate for all readers. So if you are not allowed to read this,
then don't do it!. The following is a fictional story containing guy
to guy sex and fantasy's of being with a celebrity, the celebrity
being Brian Littrell from the Backstreet Boys.  I am a fan of theirs
and in no sense is any of this story true.  Its just a little
fantasy.
You must be 18 or of legal age in your state to read this. So read
on and I hope you like it, it is my first time writing a story like
this so I hope you all like it.

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well, here we are again, another chapter, as usual, if you have comments or
anything , just send them to: jack_ga_2002@yahoo.com

well, there's not much to say now, so... the story

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I quickly walked back to where the other guys were. When I walked into the
room, they all looked at me, probably waiting for some kind of response,
but I didn't say a word, I just continued picking up all the clothes that
were laying on the floor. Josh quickly came over and started to help me
out.

"are you ok?" he asked as he continued picking up some clothes. I just
nodded.

"I was going to tell you about Justin, and..."

"Josh, can we talk about this later on?" I said as I looked at him

"ok" he said as he grabbed his microphone. The other guys just looked at me
and smiled, I just smiled back at them.

They left the room and almost immediately, Justin walked in. He started
changing his clothes but kept looking at me. At that moment I wasn't sure
what to say to him, so I tried not to look at him.

"listen Jack..."he started but I didn't want him to say anything more, so I
cut him off.

"Justin, you should already be outside" I said without looking at him

"yes but..." he continued but I cut him off again

"you're late" I said again as I helped him put his coat on. He smiled at me
and then he ran out of the room.

I just sat there thinking about the whole deal...I couldn't leave things as
they were, I mean did he really love me or did he just have a crush on
me?. If this was it, then it'd probably go away soon, but if he was really
in love with me then...I didn't know what to do. Justin was a very sweet
guy and was a complete gentleman. We had spent quite a lot of time together
and we did have a lot of fun, when we were together. He would always make
me smile when I was feeling down and I had a great time with him. Brian, on
the other hand, was the best that could have ever happened to me. He was
loving, caring and always wanted the best for me. We had spent a few months
together and everyday I loved him more...

I decided to talk to Justin about this and I was hoping that we could find
a way out of this without him getting hurt or someone else.

When the concert ended, I could hear the fans screaming and clapping. The
guys walked in the changing room completely exhausted.

"I'm first!" Lance said as he ran towards the bathroom and locked the door
behind him.

"damn it" they all said in unison.

After every concert they would have a discussion on who would shower first,
but Lance, as soon as he walked in the changing room, he would run to the
bathroom and lock himself in, so he would always shower first.

The guys just sat on the couches around the room and waited for Lance to
come out of the shower. They all took their shirts off and were just
wearing pants. I was clearing up the mess they had made, I piled up the
dirty clothes and also folded up the clothes that they hadn't used.

I made them 3 sets of costumes for each number they performed and they
would only wear one of them, but I enjoyed making them more than one, so
that they could choose whichever outfit they felt like wearing each night

Anyway, I was just doing that, when Justin came over.

"Jack, can we talk for a second?" he asked quietly as he looked at my eyes.

"maybe, it's not a good time right now..." Josh said as he looked at
Justin.

"don't worry Josh, I'll be fine" I said to Josh and got up from his seat
"come on Jack" Justin said as he walked to the other corner of the
room. There was a couch there where no one was sitting and he sat down. I
followed him.

"listen Jack, what I said about you a few minutes ago...I really meant it"
Justin said as he looked at me.

"Justin...I..." I started but he cut me off

"let me finish" Justin said sweetly as I was about to speak.

"I love you" Justin continued

"oh Justin" I sighed "you know that I'm in love with Brian"

"yes but I love you more" Justin said insistently

"Justin...I love you too" I said and his eyes widened.

"no, not the way you think, I love you as much as I love the other guys,
just as a friend" I told him "and I hope that we continue being just
that...friends"

He didn't say a word. He just stood up and walked back to where the guys
where. I was not feeling very well at all, I was really trying to make
things easier for him, but it looked like I was not doing a great job at
it.

After a while I went back to clearing up the clothes. The guys had finished
getting dressed and were ready to go.

"come on Jack, let's go" Josh told me

"oh Josh, I'm not finished here, I think I'll go to the hotel later on"

"what?" Lance said in disbelief

"yes, don't worry about me" I said again

The guys looked at me quizzed, Justin was the only one who was not looking
at me. He was leaning against the door with his head down. When they looked
at Justin they understood why I didn't want to go with them.

"ok, so we'll see you around" Josh said

"bye Jack" the others said.

Justin didn't say a word, he just walked out of the room and the others
followed. I just continued arranging the clothes while I did a lot of
thinking...

I went back to the hotel a few hours later and continued thinking about
Justin and me...Brian and me...Justin and Brian. I was lost in my thoughts
that I couldn't sleep at all that night.

The following days were really odd, Justin and I would hardly talk at
all. If we crossed a word or two was too much, it was a really awkward
situation. Whenever I was somewhere, he would try to be somewhere else or
he would be as far from me as possible.

I knew I couldn't carry on like that, so I decided to talk to a good friend
of mine and Justin's...Josh. One night, I went up to his hotel room and
knocked on his door, he answered almost immediately and he led me inside.

"I'm sorry to disturb you, but I need to talk to you" I told him as I sat
down on his bed

"no problem Jack, what's up?" he asked as he ran his hand through his hair
and sat down on the couch in front of me.

I explained him what was wrong. I told him that it was really hard for me
to talk to Justin and we could hardly see each other, we were not mad at
each other, but we tried to be as far from each other as possible. Josh
listened carefully to what I said

"well, there's only one solution to this problem" Josh said simply

"what is it?" I asked quickly

"talk to him"

"I can't Josh"

"why not?"

"because Justin doesn't want to talk to me and even if he wanted to" I said
as I got up from the bed and walked to the window "I wouldn't know what to
say to him"

"just tell him what your heart tells you"

"that's easier said than done" I said and smiled

"don't worry, I'll come up with an idea to get the two of you alone
together and so that you can talk to him" he said and smiled back

Josh and I talked about the whole deal for a long time. It must have been
around midnight when I left his room. I thanked him for his advice and told
him that I would try to follow them. I walked back to my room and as I was
opening my room, my cell phone rang.

I walked in and closed the door behind me. My cell phone continued ringing,
so I answered it and to my surprise, it was Brian.

"hi shaky!" he said sweetly

"hi Brian"

"so how's your day been?" He asked

"well, it could have been better" I said and laughed

"why?"

"well because..." I stopped unsure whether to tell Brian about Justin

"because what?" Brian asked curious

"never mind" I told him "and how are the guys?"

"Jack Brown" He said and his tone of voice was very serious "you're gonna
tell me what's going on, right now"

"ok, ok"

"so ?"

"well, the other day at the concert, Justin dedicated a love song to me and
he told me that he was in love with me" I simply said the whole thing

"what?!" he said taken back "but how, doesn't he know that you're with me?,
did you give him any motifs?, did you kiss him?"

"Stop!" I said as I shut him up, because he was starting to get the wrong
idea.

"You're getting the wrong idea Bri, don't worry, I told him that it
couldn't be possible because I was in love with you"

"ohh dear, and what did he do?" his voice seemed more calm

"well, he hasn't talked to me since then"

"have you tried talking to him"

"of course, but he keeps avoiding me" I sighed

"he'll come around, don't worry" He said in a sweet tone of voice.

We talked for a while about what he had been up to during the last couple
days. He told me he had been doing some recording and some rehearsals.

By the time I finished talking to Brian, I was really tired and just wanted
to go to bed. I quickly got undressed, brushed my teeth and then went back
to bed.

I didn't go to sleep straight away since I had so many things on my mind. I
kept thinking about Justin and Brian, but after a while I drifted off to
sleep...

The next morning I woke up around 5:30 or 6:00, since it was the last day
of the tour and the new outfits that I had prepared for the occasion were
arriving at 7 or so at the stadium so I had to get ready. I went into the
bathroom and showered. I grabbed some clothes from the closet and got
dressed, I brushed my teeth and shaved. By the time I finished getting
ready it was almost 6:30.

I put some cologne on and then I walked out of the room. I walked to the
elevator and waited for it to come. The doors opened almost immediately and
I stepped inside. I looked at my shoes and noticed that one of my shoe
laces was untied, so I bent over to tie it.

The doors were slowly closing when all of a sudden a hand stopped the door
from closing.

"thank god I didn't miss it" a familiar voice said as he stepped inside

I looked up and found the only person that had been thinking of all
night...Justin.

When he turned around to see me he was very surprised and I could see it on
his face expression.  I just smiled at him, but he didn't say anything, he
just turned the other way.

"so now you're not even talking to me" I said. He didn't answer

"could you please tell me why you..." he was telling me when abruptly the
elevator stopped. We both bumped into each other really hard before hitting
the floor. The lights inside went out and we were left in the dark. I hit
my head pretty hard against one of the walls before falling down.

As I was getting up the emergency lights came on and we could see each
other. Justin was still on the floor rubbing his arm and was looking at me.

"are you ok?" I asked him as I rubbed my head.

"yeah, I think, and you?" he said as he looked at his arm.

"well, I've had better days, but I'm fine" I answered

Justin rose to his feet and started pushing all the buttons of the
elevator, probably hoping he could get it to work again.

"stupid elevator" he said as he kicked it. I just laughed

"What are you laughing at?" Justin said sharply

"nothing" I said as I sat back again on the floor.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to sound like that" he said as he sat on the
floor in front of me.

"It's ok, don't worry"

I just looked at him and smiled, he smiled back. We stayed in silence for
quite a while and then Justin broke the silence.

"I'm sorry Jack"

"I told you it's ok" I said in a friendly way

"no, I don't mean now, I mean I'm sorry for being such a dick these days
with you" he said as he crawled and sat next to me. I turned to see him and
I could see that he was about to cry.

"It's ok, maybe I was the dick and not you" I said trying to comfort him

"no, you're always so sweet and nice to me"

"then maybe we can work this out" I said as I looked at him

"yeah maybe"

"listen Justin I am very flattered to know that you love me, but I can't
correspond you, I...love Brian and you know that" I said trying to choose
the words I said very carefully.

"I know, but..."he said and then he turned his face the other way
"I...well...can we still be friends?" he said and turned to see me

"yes Justin, of course we can still be friends, and we will always be, no
matter what" I said and I hugged him.

We hugged for a few seconds. He ran his hands along my back and then he ran
his hands along my hair, I just hugged him. After a while, the electricity
came back and the lights came on. We quickly got up from the floor and
pressed the open button, the elevator doors immediately opened. We stepped
out of the elevator and walked into the lobby

"damn, I'm so late" I said as I looked at my watch. It was already 8:30 and
I was really really late.

"well, at least we could work things out" I said to myself

"what did you say? Justin asked

"huh?, nothing, I said that I was really late, I better go now"

"ok, I'll see you later" Justin said as I started to walk to the door.

"bye Justin" I waved at him and the I walked out of the hotel.

I was very happy to see that Justin and I had worked out everything, more
or less. I took a cab and headed for the stadium...

When I arrived at the stadium, Sandra and Cory were already clearing up all
the outfits. They were piling up all the clothes, while they started to
hang them on a handrail.

"hey guys" I said as I went over and picked up some clothes

"you made it" Sandra said "I thought you were not coming"

"well, I had some problems with the elevator" I said and smiled

"is that what you call Brain now, elevator?" Cory said and burst out
laughing

"shut up" I said and smacked his arm.

We spent the next few hours getting the outfits ready for that night's
final performance. It was at last the last night of the tour, and I was
quite happy about it, because I was going to go home and have a few weeks
of holidays.

I was already making mental notes about what I was going to cook for
Christmas dinner and what presents I was going to get for Brian and my
brothers. I was really looking forward to going home...

I spent the rest of the day at the hotel. I watched tv, went to the
gym...in general I just rested until 4 or 5 in the evening. I went to my
room and showered. By 6:30 I was already at the stadium doing some last
minute check -ups.

As usual, the guys arrived at 7 or so and began to get ready, since the
show started at 8. I was a bit surprised to see that their support act,
Sugar Rush, had not come it yet. Well, the N*SYNC guys met Sugar Rush at a
party they attended and they liked their music, I kind of liked it. That's
why the guys asked them to be their support act. Usually they came in
around 6 and it was almost 7:30 and still there was no sign of them.

Anyway, I walked out of their dressing room to give them some time alone
and to get a little bit of fresh air. I went out through the backdoor and
just sat on a step. I looked up at the sky and noticed that it was a
beautiful night, all the stars were shining and there was a full moon.

I had so many thoughts in my mind at that moment that I just closed my
eyes. My mother thought me when I was a child to give the Lord thanks for
everything he had been given us. I just thanked the Lord for having the
best brothers anyone could have, I mean, even though we fought sometimes,
we really cared and loved each other. I also thanked for having such great
friends and finally I thanked God for blessing me with Brian...

I sat there for a while until I heard a screaming crowd. I opened my eyes
and noticed that it was almost 8. I ran back to the guys' dressing room and
noticed that they were ready.

"where were you?" Jc asked "we were wondering where you were"

"well, I guess I lost track of time" I answered and smiled

"well, were ready"

They did their traditional 'good luck' thing. They got in a circle and put
their hands together then shout "go!!, go!!, go!! N*SYNC!!!"

At that moment Johnny came into the room and he looked very worried. I was
sure that something was not right but we were all waiting to see what it
was.

"we've got a problem guys" Johnny said

"what is it?" we all said in unison.

"well, our opening act, Sugar Rush, won't be able to make it tonight"

"what?!" Justin shouted "why?!"

"unfortunately, they had a car accident" Johnny answered

"oh my God, are they ok?" I asked

"yes Jack, they'll be fine, but they won't come tonight"

"so, what are we going to do?" Lance asked worried "we need someone to open
the show for us"

"well, I was thinking that Jack could fill in for them" Johnny said and
looked at me, all of the guys looked at me too.

"me, you're kidding right?" I said and laughed "I don't think so"

"why not?" Johnny asked "you sing great"

"how do you know" I asked

"well, I heard you singing" Johnny said and he sounded pleased

"when?" I asked again

"when you were at a restaurant and you sang a song for Brian" he answered.

I was silent for a second thinking about it, then I remembered that
time. The guys were just looking at us, since they had no idea what we were
talking about.

"but that was a long time ago" I explained

"so?" Justin asked

"I wouldn't know what to do?" I said sheepishly

"I'm sure you can manage" Johnny said "ok, that's settled, get ready cause
you're out on ten minutes" and with that he walked to the door.

"wait!!, I haven't agreed to this yet" I told him as I walked to the door
with him. Johnny just looked at me.

"don't worry Johnny, he'll be ready" Lance called out

"ok then, see you later, good luck all of you" Johnny said and walked out
of the room.

As he closed the door, I turned around to face the guys, they were just
looking at me. I wasn't sure if I was the appropriate guy for this task,
but I was sure I was the only one available in such a short notice. I
decided to stop being a baby and go on with it.

I walked to the pile of clothes, I pulled out one outfit that the guys were
not going to use. I grabbed one of JC's pants and then I went quickly to
the sewing machine that was on the other corner of the room to make some
arrangements. I always liked having a sewing machine ready in case
something needed to be sewed.

So I sewed the pants with a few stitches.  The guys were just looking at
me. I made the pants a little bit shorter. The shirt that I grabbed fitted
me perfectly. I was almost ready, I just ran towards the bathroom and
gelled my hair back. I was ready just in time.

I looked at my watch and noticed that it was 8 o'clock. I came closer to
the guys and then I hugged them. They all wished me luck and I was glad
that I had their support. I walked out of the room and to the stage. On my
way there, I saw a guitar and decide to grab it... I stood in the middle of
the stage and waited for the curtain to open up. I could see Johnny
standing on one side of the stage and when I turned to face him, he just
held his thumb up for me. I just smiled and waited for the moment to
come...

When the curtain opened up, I was taken back by the number of people in the
crowd. That's when I realized how different it is when you're part of the
public and when you're a performer. The whole crowd was cheering, clapping
and screaming.

"hello, out there" I shouted and the crowd just screamed even louder. I
introduced myself to the public and then I told them what had happened with
our support act and then I told them that I would be filling in for them.

"well, this is a song I love very much, It's called 'The way you love me'
and I hope you like it" I said and then the lights went out.

I started playing the guitar and began singing...

I like the feel of your name on my lips,

And I like the sound of your sweet gentle kiss.

The way that your fingers run through my hair.

And how your scent lingers even when you're not there.

And I like the way your eyes dance when they laugh.

And how you enjoy your two hour bath.

And how you convinced me to dance in the rain

With everyone watching like we were insane.

But I love the way you love me (oh baby).

Strong and wild,

Slow and easy,

Heart and soul,

So completely.

I love the way you love me.

And I like the sound of old R&B.

You roll your eyes when I'm slightly off key.

And I like the innocent way that you cry

>From sappy old movies you've seen thousands of times.

But I love the way you love me (oh baby).

Strong and wild,

Slow and easy,

Heart and soul,

So completely.

I love the way you love me.

And I could list a million things

I love to like about you.

But they all come down to one reason.

I could never live without you.

And I love the way you love me (oh baby).

Strong and wild,

Slow and easy,

Heart and soul,

And so completely.

I love the way you love me.

By the time I finished singing I was very glad to see that the crowd was
screaming and clapping. I was very pleased with my performance.

"well guys, it's time for me to introduce one of the biggest bands in the
world!" I shouted "here they are, the one and only N*SYNC!!!!!!!!" I
shouted and the lights went out. I quickly walked off the stage and went
into the dressing room.

I heard the crowd screaming and then the guys went on stage. I just sat
there on one of the couches and I felt quite good actually. I had not sung
that bad. Johnny came into the room and looked really happy.

"excellent job Jack, I couldn't expect less from you" he said happily

"thanks, at first I was afraid, but then I gained more confidence" I told
him.

"I know, but that was some great singing, and you did it live and only with
a guitar" he said surprised

"thanks" was all I said. Johnny and I talked for a little bit and then he
left to check on the guys.

The guys came in when they had to change their outfits and they
congratulated me for my performance. They did it quickly since they
couldn't spend too much time with me at that time. Still, they were very
nice to me...

The rest of the show ran smoothly without any complications and by
midnight, we were already at the hotel. On our way to the hotel, they kept
telling me how good my performance had been.

"I think you better stop saying it, otherwise I'm going to start believing
it" I said and laughed

"did you ever think about being a singer?" Johnny asked

"actually, that was one of my dreams, but I never carried it out" I
answered him.

"why?" Josh asked

"well, I guessed I just focused on some other things" I told them.

When we arrived at the hotel, we all went straight to bed without
hesitation, since we had to be up by 6 and ready for departure at 7.

As soon as I put my head on my pillow, I fell asleep. The next morning I
woke up at 5:30 or something like that. I showered and then I started to
clear up all the clothes that I had and put them in my suitcase.

I was walking out of the room when my cell phone rang. With one hand I was
carrying my suitcase, and with my free hand I pulled out my cell phone and
opened it.

"hello?" I answered

"hi Shaky" Brian said

"hi my love, how's it going?"

"fine I guess, I miss you loads" he said in a sweet tone

"don't worry I'll be home by lunch time"

"really?" he asked in disbelief

"yes"

"that sound terrific, I'll be at your place by 6 so that we can go out and
celebrate!" he said happily

"celebrate?, what?" I asked him

"our anniversary!" he said proudly "you remembered it right?".

I was silent for a second, I had completely forgotten about our
anniversary. It had been already been 6 months since I had met Brian and
still seemed like yesterday...

"of course, not darling, how could I forget such an important date" I told
him.

"well, then see you tonight"

"ok, bye Bri"

"bye shaky" and with that I hung up.

'damn it' I thought. I had completely forgot our anniversary this time. I
had had so much work to do that I didn't remember it, but not all was
lost. I could still buy him something at the airport, before I got home. I
was thinking of buying him a ring or something at a jewelry.

Anyway, I walked out of the room and I was going to take the elevator, but
I hesitated for a second. I was not sure if I was going to get stuck in
there again, and I didn't want to find out, so I decided to go back to my
room and call a bell boy. I called a bell boy and in no time, he was in my
room.

The bell boy was very helpful and he took my suitcase and led me out of the
room. We took the elevator and I thanked God, I didn't get stuck again!. I
walked out of the elevator and the guys were already waiting at the lobby.

I greeted them and then we walked to the bus that would take us to the
airport. The guys looked pretty tired and all of them were dozing or even
still sleeping, and I have no idea how they could manage with all the
screaming girls that were gathering around the bus. I took a seat at the
back of the bus and just sat there looking out the window.  I smiled at the
girls, but certainly, they were not there for me, they were there because
they wanted to see N*SYNC, unfortunately, N*SYNC were too tired to even
wave at them...

When we arrived at the airport, I told the guys that I had to get something
for Brian and that I would meet them at the plane. I didn't have much time,
so I quickly went to the store and picked out the best ring that they
had. I really liked it and I was really hoping that he would too. It was
not that expensive, it must have been around $1500. The lady at the counter
wrapped it up for me and then I went back to where the guys where.

Our plane took off around 9. Finally I was just a few hours away from
home...from Brian.

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song credits:

1.- Song : I love the way you love me

    Artist: Boyzone

    Album : ...By Request

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well, that's it for chapter 11, I'll see you in chapter 12

:)

write to: jack_ga_2002@yahoo.com

"Enjoy life and always be yourself"



 bye for now

Jack B.