Date: Sun, 23 Feb 2003 13:25:34 -0800 (PST)
From: JACK BROWN <jack_ga_2002@yahoo.com>
Subject: gay/celebrity/boybands/brian and Jack / part 13

WARNING: the following story contains material that might not be
appropriate for all readers. So if you are not allowed to read this,
then don't do it!. The following is a fictional story containing guy
to guy sex and fantasy's of being with a celebrity, the celebrity
being Brian Littrell from the Backstreet Boys.  I am a fan of theirs
and in no sense is any of this story true.  Its just a little
fantasy.
You must be 18 or of legal age in your state to read this. So read
on and I hope you like it, it is my first time writing a story like
this so I hope you all like it.

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well, here we are again, another chapter. As usual, thank you for all the
feedback, I really appreciate it.

the next chapter will be here around next week, I hope you all remember
that I have a job and I can't spend 24 hours writing this story.

I write it because you all keep telling me to carry on, but sometimes it's
hard for me, since I get home around 8 or so, and I'm actually quite tired
to continue writing.

In my spare time or weekends I write the story... so just hang in there
while I sort my schedule out... Thanks for all you guys who keep writing, I
won't let you down :) and I will continue for as long as I can...


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The next morning I woke up really early, it must have been around 7 or
so. I looked out the window and noticed that it was raining. `Great way to
start' I thought sarcastically.

I went into the bathroom and got showered. I was still thinking about
Brian, I had spent all night thinking about him... I got dressed quickly; I
just grabbed a pair of pants and a t-shirt. I decided to make breakfast for
all of us. My brothers were probably still sleeping since it was still
early.

I walked to the kitchen and started making some pancakes for all of us. I
turned the tv on to see what was on. Our kitchen was very spacious, and my
brothers had decided to buy me a tv for me to watch while I cooked. Anyway,
I turned it on and this advertisement came on about a big sale on a local
store. I really loved that store and it would help me take my mind off
Brian, so I decided to go.

I finished making breakfast; it must have been around 8 and still no sign
of my brothers, so I had breakfast alone. I ate my pancakes and then went
upstairs to get changed and brush my teeth. I put on some other clothes and
then I walked down again.

I left a note by the refrigerator to my brothers:


John, Paul:
	I went to the mall to do some shopping; I'll be back this
evening. I already made you some pancakes for breakfast, have fun guys.

     Jack.



I looked at the note once more and then I headed towards the door. I went
to the garage and got into the van. Paul and I had bought together a Ford
Windstar which we only used from time to time, but it was really useful
when we went on holidays. My brother Paul drove a Mercedes and I had a VW
Beetle, which I was planning on changing this Christmas. I was going to
change it for a BMW or a Porsche. I was going to consider it my Christmas
gift.

Paul and I made good money, he was an agent and I worked for the two best
boy bands in the world. In a way I was happy with my life, but sometimes I
wish I could just run away and go somewhere else where nobody knew me and
start all over again. Sometimes I also wanted to go back to England again.

My brother Jacob was living in England and I had not seen him since I was
17, it's been 6 years since then...from that you can tell that I'm 23, well
actually I'll be officially 23 on the 6th of January. Anyway, I wish I
could go back to England to see how things were going with him.

>From time to time we received a letter from Jacob and in the last one, he
said that he had opened a nice little restaurant. I was very glad for him,
because I could see that he was making a progress. Jacob had always been
the trouble child, but I was thinking that he was finally growing up
although he was just two years younger than me.

When my brother wrote that letter, he also asked if I wanted to go and
become his head chef. I was glad that he had thought about me first, but I
had to turn down that offer because at that time, I was doing quite well
with my job as a dancer for Britney.

Since I was young, I had always had two dreams, actually, three, one of
them was to be a dancer, another one was to be a singer and the last one
was to be a chef. I never thought that I would become a designer but I did,
I enjoyed it and I still do. I just thank God for everything...

Anyway, I drove quite fast until I reached the mall.

I had always enjoyed shopping. It all probably started with my mother; she
used to take me out on her shopping trips. At first I did not enjoy it at
all, but as time went by I enjoyed it more and more. My mum used to say
that it helps you clear your mind. Some people prefer doing some kind of
physical exercise to clear their minds; others prefer to do some kind of
manual activity, such as painting and things like that. Sometimes I do
those things, but what I enjoy more is shopping...that's why I decided to
so some retail therapy today!

Well, I went into the parking lot and parked there, I could see that it was
already a bit crowded, but I didn't have any problem finding a space. I was
getting out of the car when my cell phone rang. I looked at the caller ID
and I knew that it was Brian. I decided not to answer it. I still didn't
want to get to talk to Brian at that moment.

I walked into the mall and started my shopping...

I went into a few different stores and since were having their Christmas
sale, I decided to start buying my Christmas presents. We were still a week
and a half away from Christmas, but I didn't want to get into the last
minute rush.

I spent many hours at the mall just shopping and shopping until I could not
shop anymore. I was carrying an awful lot of bags that I could barely
walk. I was really tired and I was also hungry, so I decide to get
something for lunch.

I was walking towards a restaurant, when I felt someone tap my shoulder. To
my surprise it was my best friend...Sean!!

"Oh my god!" I said excited "I'm so happy to see you" I hugged him tight
and I dropped all of my bags.

"I'm so glad to see you too" he said as he lifted me up.

"So am I" I answered "where have you been?"

"That's what I should ask you, where have you been?" he asked me as he put
me down.

"Well, you know, I've been here and there" I answered and smiled

"...and you've become N*SYNC's  and BSB's designer"

"How do you know?" I asked

"How do I know?, well everyone knows, you're famous!"

"Shut up, that's not true" I said and laughed

"But it's true"

"So how did you know I was here?" I asked him as I started collecting all
of my bags, he quickly helped me

"I didn't, I was just standing over there" he answered as he pointed to the
other side of the mall "...when I saw this man walking carrying an awful
lot of bags and I knew that only one person was capable of carrying that
many bags"

"Me?"

"Exactly" he said and laughed

"Shut up, everyone carries lots of bags" I got up

"Ok, show me one person that is carrying the same amount of bags" he said
as he got up too.

"I'll show you" I told him

I looked around and noticed that he was right, no other person was carrying
the same amount of bags that I was.

"Ok, I get your point" I replied and laughed

"So what's bothering you this time" he asked

"What do you mean?"

"Well, you only shop this much when something is bothering you"

"Oh, so you think you know me very well, don't you?" I asked

"I do"

"Do you want to join me for lunch, well a late lunch" I said as I looked at
my watch. It was almost 4

"Of course" he answered as he rubbed his stomach

"Hungry?" I asked and laughed

"Yea!" he replied

"Ok, let's get something to eat" I said as I started to walk to the
restaurant

"...and you can tell me what's bothering you"

"All right" I answered.

I really wanted to tell him what was going on my life, I was sure that he
could give me some advice. Sean was my best friend, although I had not seen
him for months. He had been my friend since I was in high school. Let me
tell you how I met him and how we started being friends.

When I was younger, I did not have many friends. I was the fat little boy
that nobody liked. By the time I entered High school, I was still pretty
fat and small and I had no friends. I was really going through hard time,
because I had not still coped with my parents' death and I was very sad.

Things were looking pretty bad for me and I had decided to drop out of
school. It was not because I had no friends but because I just had feelings
of blame and guilt and I was even thinking about suicide... The night my
parents died, I had had a terrible argument with them, we yelled terrible
things at each other, and I guess I blamed myself for a long time for not
letting them know how much they meant to me. I can remember it perfectly as
if it were yesterday, we were arguing about something and then I yelled
something like `I hate you' and stormed out of the house. I can't remember
where I went but when I came back, my brothers were hysterical and they
were on their way to the hospital, I went along and on the way, they filled
me in on what had happened to our parents.

To make the long story short, my parents went out to look for me and on
their way, a drunk driver just smashed his car against my parents' car and
they were pretty bad injured and they died as soon as they got to the
hospital...

I blamed myself for a long time until my brothers decided to bring me
here. Everybody told me that it had not been my fault and that I should get
on with my life, but I just couldn't...

Anyway, one day, I was coming out of the school carrying all my books,
since I had no plans of coming back, and a bunch of jock guys just pushed
me and I fell to the ground and all my books were scattered all over the
floor. Then this jock comes up to me and apologizes for what his friends
had done. I just smiled at him and then I grabbed my books, he helped me up
and then I thanked him for apologizing. His name was Sean and he was very
friendly, I also knew that he was one of the most popular kids at school.

He asked if I was ok and I just nodded. I grabbed all my books and started
to walk away. He must have noticed that I was very sad because he asked if
he could walk with me, since his house was on the same path I was going.

Sean was very friendly and he even made me laugh, something I had not done
in a long time. Well, somehow, his house turned out to be the one across
the street from mine. He was as surprised as I was, since we had never seen
each other before...

Time went by and Sean and I became really good friends. I told him about my
parents and he really helped me out of my depression. He was very
supportive and I managed to get over my parents death.

At school, I did quite well. At first, I was not such a good student, but
afterwards, I was the best in my class. Sean used to work out a lot to keep
in shape, and form time to time I used to work out a little with him
too. Within a few months, I noticed that my fat body was starting to look
less fat and I really liked it.

From then on, I worked out everyday, even on Sundays!. By the end of my
first year of high school, my body had changed completely, I had great
strong arms and great legs, and I had also achieved a six pack abs, which I
loved. I also played lots of sports, but the one I liked the most was
swimming, which helped quite a lot to grow a little bit more.

Although I was not tall, I was very popular among the girls and even some
boys. During my next years of high school I became really popular and I was
one of the best students, I always wanted to keep top marks.

Anyway, Sean and I walked into the restaurant and a waiter told us where we
could sit. We sat down and after a while, we ordered our meal. During
lunch, I told Sean the whole story about me and Brian, and I also told him
what had happened the night before. Sean just listened quietly. When I
finished explaining everything, I felt a little bit better, I felt a bit
relieved because I really needed to talk to someone about Brian.

"I can see that you love him" Sean started

"I know, I do love him really much" I said and smiled

"Well, then just forget what happened"

"I know I should, but it's so difficult"

"Why?" he asked

"Well, because, he keeps thinking that I'm always cheating on him" I said
and I tear escaped from my eye "if it's not Lee, then it's Justin and so
on..."

"Have you tried talking to him about this?"

"No"

"Well, there you go, you should talk to him about this, he'll understand"
Sean said as he grabbed my hand from the other side of the table and
squeezed it.

I was really glad that I could talk to Sean and, as usual, he helped me out
of my problems. We finished lunch and then we left the restaurant. I
decided to go home since it was already around 6 or so.

"Did you bring a car?" I asked Sean

"No, but I'm going home with you" he said

"Ok then, let's go"

We walked to the car and I put all the bags at the back of the van and then
we got in. I drove out of the mall and headed towards home. After all those
years, Sean and I still lived at the same places. He lived just across the
street. When we reached his place, I just stopped the van.

"Well, it was nice to see you again" he said

"I know, we should go out sometime" I told him

"Ok, call me" he answered "actually, I'll call you"

"Ok then" I said as he came closer to me and hugged me. I hugged him back
and then he stepped out of the van

"Remember to come over for our Christmas party"  I told him before he
closed the door.

"I wouldn't want to miss it all" he answered "see you then" and then he
closed the door.

I just parked the van inside the garage and then I took out all the bags. I
went inside and my brothers were just watching tv.

"Hi guys I'm home!" I said loudly

"Good to see you J" Paul shouted

I walked up to my room and then I put all the bags down, I started opening
them and sorting them out. I had not noticed that I had bought so many
things `well, it's always good to have extra presents' I thought and then
my cell phone rang and I pulled it out from my pocket and answered it

"Hello?"

"Hi Jack, this is Nick"

"Oh hi Nick"

"Are we still going out tonight?"

"I'm not sure Nick..."

"You're not getting off that easily, AJ and I want you to come, we'll just
go clubbing and that's all" he told me and laughed

"Ok Nick, I'll go"

"Excellent, we'll pick you up around 11:30 ok?" Nick said enthusiastically.

"Fine by me" I answered

"Oh, by the way, we're going single, so don't bring your church boy with
you ok?"

"Who's my church boy?" I asked intrigued

"What do you mean `who's your church boy', I'm talking about Brian!!" Nick
answered and burst out laughing

"I couldn't even if I wanted too" I said quietly

"Brian told me what happened, he can be such a baby sometimes but maybe if
you..."

"Listen Nick" I interrupted him "I don't want to talk about it right now,
all right?" I

"Ok man, whatever you say"

"So I'll see you later then" I told him

"Yes, see later bro, bye"

"Bye Nick" I said and then I put my cell phone down.

I knew I had to talk to Brian to fix things, but I didn't want to talk
about him right now. I sat on my bed thinking about him and what Sean had
advised me to do over lunch...

Since we were very close to Christmas I decided to take my mind off Brian
for a bit and start decorating the house. I changed clothes and then walked
up the stairs and into the attic.

My brothers were much unorganized and they only threw everything that
couldn't fit in their closet to the attic. The attic was always in such a
mess that I hated it. The floor was always covered with clothes, books,
lamps, everything you could imagine. We were very lucky not to have any
rats up there! Every time I went into the attic, I would tell my brothers
off because I would clean all the mess they had before I could do what I
was going to do. At that moment, I started cleaning up all the mess before
I got started in my duty.

Thankfully, I was the one in charge of the Christmas decorations;
therefore, I kept everything in well labeled boxes. I found all the
Christmas boxes except the artificial Christmas tree, I wasn't sure where
it was, so I decided to ask my brothers.

"John?, Paul? Where's the plastic Christmas tree?" I asked as I walked into
the tv room where my brothers were.

"How should I know" John answered "you're the one that puts it away"

"I know, but I can't' find it" I said wondering where it could be

"You lost it again?" Paul asked amazed

"I guess so, well I'll get another one tomorrow" I answered.

"Keep searching, you might find it" John said as he kept watching tv.

I walked out of the room and went up to the attic again. I could not
believe how I could lose a Christmas tree in the attic, and it was not the
first time, it had happened to me every single year!! I put the tree away
and for the following year is gone so I have to get a new one.

I put up a natural Christmas tree in the living room because it smells
great and they are nicer, but I put up the plastic tree on the roof
surrounded by lights. I love putting up lights all around the house.

Anyway, I went up to the attic and I kept searching for it with no
success. After a few hours of searching, I gave up and decided to start
with the Christmas lights. It doesn't take me that long to put up the
Christmas lights all around the house.

I grabbed the box with the Christmas lights and carried it downstairs. It
must have been around 8 or so, I was determined that I was not going to do
it on my own, so I decided to get some help from my brothers.

"Hey you guys, could you give me a hand with the lights?" I said as I
walked passed the tv room.

"I wish I could but I don't want to!" John said aloud

"Why not?" I asked

"Because we're watching tv" Paul said and laughed. John followed but I
didn't find it amusing at all. I put the box down and went back to the tv
room.

"You two are so coming with me" I said as I grabbed both of my brothers by
their ears and pulled them up.

"Ok ok" John quickly said as I released his ear from my grip.

"We'll help you" Paul said as he rubbed his ear.

"Excellent" I said happily as I walked down the stairs and my brothers
followed me.

We went outside and I started to unpack all the lights. Paul brought out
the ladder and then I told them what they had to do. We spent a couple of
hours putting up the lights until we finished. I was very pleased to see
that we had finished quickly.

"Turn them on!" John said excited

"Ok, wait here" I went inside and turned the lights on. In no time the
house was all illuminated. I ran outside to see how the house looked like
and I loved it. The only problem was that we were the first ones to have
our Christmas lights up, but I didn't mind at all, because it looked great.

We were just looking at our house, when Steve came. Steve was John's friend
and he lived a few houses away from us.

"Hi there fellas" he said and we all turned around and greeted him.

"I like your lights" he said as he stared amazed

"Thanks" I answered

"Although I think there's something missing..." he said as he looked at the
roof.

"What is it?" I asked

"It's the tree" Paul said

"Exactly" Steve replied

"I couldn't find it" I told him

"Never mind we'll buy another one" John said a bit abruptly

"Oh, I've got your Christmas tree, do you want it?" Steve replied and John
quickly shot a look at him

"You have our Christmas tree?" Paul and I asked surprised

"Yes" Steve replied "actually, I've got like 4 of them and all of them are
yours"

"What!" I raised my voice

"Yeah, John gave them to me"

"Oh, did he?" Paul and I both looked at John, and he just excused himself
and ran into the house

"Yeah, do you want one of them?" Steve asked again

"No, you keep those ones" Paul said before I could answer

"Well, see you later guys" Steve said before he left.

I said goodbye to Steve and also I invited him to our Christmas party. He
immediately agreed and then he left. As soon as he left I turned around and
was about to go into the house

"I'm so gonna kill John" I told Paul

"How could he give all of them away!?" Paul said amazed

"I know, they were brand new" I answered

I started to walk to the house when I heard someone call out my name. I was
sure who it was, but I slowly turned around and found Brian standing there
in front of me.

"Hi Jack" He said lowly "can we talk?"

"Listen Brian, I think..." I started because I really didn't want to talk
to Brian at that moment, but my brother cut me off

"He'll talk to you Bri" Paul said and then he ran into the house and locked
the door leaving me outside. I just looked at the door

"I guess we'll talk" I turned to tell Brian and he smiled "come on"

I walked with him to the back garden and we sat there on a small bench that
we had and looked up at the sky. None of us said anything for a while; we
just sat there in silence looking at the sky. It was such a beautiful
night, the sky was clear and all the stars were shining.

"Listen Jack" Brian started "I'm sorry for what happened yesterday, I
shouldn't have said those horrible things". I put my head down and then
looked at him. His face was so pretty, I could just stare forever.

"Brian, I think we need to trust each other" I said

"I know, it's just that I'm really afraid of losing you" he answered
quickly. I really felt bad and I just got closer to him and kissed him. His
lips were very soft, and I just put mine on them and kissed him again. This
time he put his hand on the back of my head and we actually kissed for a
long time.

"I'm sorry for ruining our anniversary" Brian said as we broke our kiss

"Well, we can still celebrate it" I replied and smiled

"What do you mean?"

"Well, we're still going on holidays aren't we?" I asked

"Yes, you're right, we can celebrate there" Brian answered happily "look,
I'm wearing it"

Brian extended his hand and I could see that he was wearing the ring that I
had given him the night before. He smiled at me and I kissed his lips.

We stayed there for a while just looking at the sky. I put my head on
Brian's shoulder and then he put his arm around me. It was really nice to
be back with him again.

"Why don't we go inside, it's getting cold" I said as I started to get up

"You're right, it is quite cold" Brian said too.

We went back inside through the back door. We went into the living room and
sat in front of the chimney. I was really cold, so I decided to start the
fire. I got up and Brian quickly got up to help me. We went outside to get
some wood and then we went back inside. Brain wanted to be a gentleman as
usual and he told me he could start the fire, so I agreed.

It was really funny to see that he couldn't start the fire. I guess he was
not used to starting fires. I just laughed at him.

"Why are you laughing?" he asked as he turned to see me

"Because you have no idea what you're doing" I said as I kept laughing

"How do you know?" he asked and smiled

"Well, do you?"

"No, but I can learn if you show me" he answered as he got closer to me and
kissed my lips.

"Here, watch and learn" I said as I got on my knees and then started the
fire.

When the fire was up and burning, we sat a few feet away and we just stared
at the fire. It was really cozy and nice. Brian put his arms around me for
a while, while I again put my head on his shoulder. He ran one of his hands
through my hair.

"Wait a sec" he said as he got up and walked over to a shelve. He came back
with my brother's guitar.

"Who's is this?" Brian asked as he looked at it

"Well, it's actually my brother's, but I'm the one who plays it"

"I'll play something for you"

"That's great" I said as I sat up properly. Brian sat up too and then he
started playing and singing...


So many times I thought I had it in my hands
but just like grains of sand,
love slipped through my fingers...
So many nights, I asked the lord above
please make me lucky enough
to find a love that lingers.

Something keeps telling me
that you could be my answer prayer,
you must be heaven sent I swear

'Cause something happens
when you look at me I forget to speak
something happens
when you kiss my mouth my knees get so weak
could it be true
this is what God has meant for me
'Cause baby I can't believe
that something like you could happen to me
(something like you)

Boy in your eyes, I feel your fire burn,
all your secrets I will learn
even if it takes forever....
with you by my side I can do anything,
I don't care what tomorrow brings,
as long as we're together
my heart is telling me
that you could be my meant to be
I know it more each time we touch

'Cause something happens
when you look at me I forget to speak
something happens
when you kiss my mouth my knees get so weak
could it be true
this is what God has meant for me
'Cause baby I can't believe
that something like you could happen to me
(something like you)

Something magical, something spiritual,
something stronger than the two of us alone, yeah
something physical,
something undeniable, nothing like anything
that I've ever known

'Cause something happens
when you look at me I forget to speak
something happens
when you kiss my mouth my knees get so weak
could it be true
this is what God has meant for me
'Cause baby I can't believe
that something like you could happen to me
(something like you)

That something like you could happen to me....
something happen.....ooooohh
can't believe that you happened to me yeah yeah

By the time Brian finished singing, I was about to cry. I really loved
Brian a lot and I was really happy that we had made up again.

"Did you write it?" I asked

"No, but I think it was perfect for the moment and the way I feel about
you" he answered.

I just hugged him and kissed him. I was at that moment, the happiest man in
the world. We kissed and then he rolled on top of me, he ran his hands
along my hair and I did the same. Then his hands started to trail down
until they reached the top of my pants. He then put his hands inside my
shirt and started to feel my bare chest. I was overtaken by emotions and I
just grabbed Brian's shirt and ripped it open. He just moaned and
unbuttoned my shirt quickly. We were just getting into it when my brother
John appeared

"Oh guys!" he gasped and we quickly sat up.

"Get out John! This is private" I said and threw a cushion at him.

"Ok, I'm going, I was just going to get a glass of milk" John answered as
he walked to the kitchen. Meanwhile, Brian and I just grabbed our
shirts. That's when I realized it was almost 11!

"Oh shit! I'm late" I said as I looked at my watch

"For what?" Brian asked

"Nick and AJ we'll be here soon, because we are going out"

"We?" Brian asked amazed

"Yea" I answered "Nick, AJ and me"

"And me?" he said again

"No my love, they said I couldn't bring you along" I replied and then I
looked at him, he seemed a little disappointed.

"But if you talk to them, maybe you can come too" I told him and his eyes
immediately shone.

I grabbed his hand and led him up the stairs towards my room.

"You can call them while I get changed" I said as I pulled his hand.

"Right on" he replied and then we both went into my room closing the door
behind us...


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Song credits:
1.- Song  :	Something like you
    Artist:	N*Sync
    Album:	Celebrity



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well, that's it for this chapter, all the feedback is welcome, just write to:

jack_ga_2002@yahoo.com

bye for now

"Enjoy life and always be yourself"


Jack