Date: Thu, 19 Aug 1999 03:46:42 -0700
From: JM <Lionclaw@Bellsouth.net>
Subject: Just Beginning (Chapters 23-25)

Just Beginning (Chapter 23)
Written by JM

--- Well the Awards came and went.  It would seem that I got alot of Awards
again BUT I don't think I needed them all.  Don't get me wrong, anyone
would get a big head hearing they won Story of the Millennium BUT not this
guy.  The three categories I REALLY wanted to win, I won.  So I'm happy.
So I'm proud to say I won for 'Most Romantic Couple', 'Best Use of Justin
Timberlake' and 'Best Use of Brian Littrell'.  I share my Award for
'...Brian Littrell' with my boy Leprechaun!  He taught me how to use Brian,
so I share that award with him greatfully.  I HAVE to THANK MY READERS!!!
I love you guys for voting for me, that meant a lot to me.  For the next
Awards, I EXPECT to lose to: 'Bad Boy B-Rok', 'The One', 'Brian & Keith',
'Boy Meets BSB', 'Bring Your Own BSB', 'N Sync Love' and 'Brian & Nick'
Thanks again.  ---

*** 'Just when I thought I was to be alone forever...'  This is the
continuation to the series 'Brian & Justin'.  This story involves a romance
between celebrities, mainly that of Brian Littrell (of the Backstreet Boys)
and Justin Timberlake (of 'N Sync).  If you are offended by this kind of
material, please do not read this series.  If you have not read the first
series, please do not read this one yet.  I'd like you to know the story of
Brian and Justin's saga.  Otherwise, enjoy as we continue to drift into the
lives of Brian & Justin and their friends.  Any cooments for me, please
send to: lionclaw@bellsouth.net ***

*** Welcome to the second chapter of 'Brian & Justin', perfectly titled by
David as 'Just Beginning'.  I do hope you like this series and I hope to
bring you as much joy and sorrow as the first series.  As always, read
stories like 'N Sync Love', 'Lost And Found' and 'The One' for good
storyline.  Special thank you to my inspiration and my "Blue", Leprechaun.
Read 'Bad Boy B-Rok' for his work of art.  Special thank yous to some of my
closest friends also: Donnie, Shawn, CJ, Rick, Jason, River, Mano, Jay &
Josh, Ryan & Drew, Brian and Netboy.  And very special thanks goes to all
of my OLD & NEW READERS!  I love you dearly for your support.  The BIGGEST
thank you goes to David at Nifty for his continuous support.  As always,
enjoy and hopefully, you won't be disappointed.  So now, the story is 'Just
Beginning...' ***

		A woman stood in a studio booth with her headphones on.
Her hair was pulled up into a bun with chopsticks running diagonally from
each side.  Little strands of her hair fell to her neck.  Her eyes were
hidden behind a small pair of ice-blue tinted sunglasses.  Her lips were
slightly pouted with gloss.  One of her hand carefully moved a Superman
charm from side to side on her nacklace.  He other hand tapped on the riser
that held the lyrics to her song in front of her.  her eyes were glued on
the glass window that seperated her from her friends.  She tapped her foot
lightly, feeling comfortable in her boyfriend's baggy leather jacket.  Her
halter top was just the right tightness for her while her jeans were
smoothly fitted.  She skid her blue Nike's over the floor, still awaiting
her cue to sing.
		"Okay Britney, go ahead." she finally got an okay.  Britney
sighed to herself, saying, 'Finally'.  She heard the melody return to her
headphones and she gazed down to her lyrics sheet.  She tapped her foot
with the song and prepared her verse.

	It's a little after three baby
	My mind is on nothing but you
	I gotta get away baby
	Cause I know you've been untrue
	My heart is callin' you
	But you won't bother to answer
	I know I gotta leave you
	Baby, you won't get another chance yeah

		Britney stopped and took a breath as the people behind the
glass gave her an okay.  "Nice job Britney, you can break for now and we'll
do the end of the song and ad-libs later." a smokey voice informed her.
		Britney was too wrapped up in her exhaustion to care when
she was going to finish the song.  She removed her headphones and placed
them on the riser.  It had been almost a week since her incident at the
Olive Juice premiere.  She had managed to heal from her confrontation with
Leigh Ann and had not heard from her since.  She had spent little time with
her boyfriend Joey due to her hectic schedule.  She was constantly on the
phone with family trying to plan a trip home with Joey so that he could
meet her parents.  She had just gotten back to Orlando after a two day
stint in Los Angeles in which she did promotional venues for an upcoming
tour and she filmed scenes for her appearance in Jack of All Trades.  She
was thankful that at least Joey was there with her one of the days she
filmed.
		She grabbed her Naya water from below the riser and then
made her way out of the studio.  She stepped from the studio into the
production booth where a set of her friends sat around.  She was in the
recording studio to lay down vocals for several songs for her upcoming
album and to lay down the vocals for a track for the soundtrack to 'It
Never Happened', which happened to be partially produced by Brian Littrell.
Britney was hesitant about recording a song that had anything to do with
Leigh Ann Wallace, but her record label pushed her into it and she was
fortunate enough to get Justin Littrell and A.J. McLean to write the song
for her.
		Britney looked to the mixing board where three of her
friends were.  A.J. Mclean of the Backstreet Boys sat piecing together
snippetts of the song, taking his chance at producing.  Britney peered over
her glasses to see Justin Littrell sitting next to A.J.  In the seat with
Justin was his husband, Brian Littrell.
		Justin was sitting between Brian's spread legs while
Brian's arms were wrapped around Justin's chest.  Brian was lightly kissing
Justin's neck, watching his husband work on lyrics for a song.  Justin
nuzzled his neck to Brian so that Brian would have to try so hard to
snuggle with him.  A.J. glanced at them for a minute and smiled.
"Brian... give the man a break." A.J. laughed, teasing his friend.  Brian
took A.J.'s advice and pulled his lips and hands from Justin.  He reclined
in the chair and pull Justin up into his lap.  Justin looked at A.J. and
frowned.  "Brian!  Spoooooooooooon!" Justin groaned out with desperation.
Britney pulled down her sunglasses to look at Justin wickedly.  Brian
giggled at his husband's desire for an embrace.  "No more Real World and
pizza for you Just." Brian teased him while complying with Justin's wishes.
"But all I want you to do is spooooon me!" Justin laughed out, imitating
that of Amaya.  Brian lightly tickled Justin and then placed a gentle kiss
on his ear.
		Britney ignored Brian and Justin's further cuddling and
moved over to a lush couch.  She sat down next to her boyfriend and laid
her head in his lap.  Joey removed her sunglasses and stared at the
slightly red eyes.  "You've been working too hard." Joey commented lowly.
Britney just nodded and closed her eyes.  Joey pulled back her honey blonde
hair and let her rest in his lap.  He just stared out to Brian, A.J. and
Justin as they each joked and worked on the song.
		"Is this all ya'll are going to do today?!  I mean ya'll
know we have to have five tracks done today!" Kevin barked as he and Chris
entered the production booth.  Britney sighed loudly while keeping her eyes
closed.  "Don't let your girlfriend get too comfortable Joey because
according to Johnny she has to lay down vocals for three other songs before
she gets out of here." Kevin insisted, striking his revenge against
Britney's rebel nature.  Joey eyed him, knowing what Kevin was trying to
do.  "For your information Mr. Richardson, I have to wait for Eric to free
up time to record a song with me and then I have to wait for Brian for
another song and then I have to review some lyrics with Max over the phone
before I even lay down vocals for that song.  And all of that can be done
before I get out of here.  Is that clear?" Britney snapped back with
assurideness.  "Snap." Justin snickered lowly.  Brian nudged Justin's hip
while A.J. tried to control his laughter.  Kevin listened to each word that
was said.  "Justin, you guys need to finish up with Britney in here so you
can go record with Viet.  Brian you need to go hit the studio with Eric,
then Britney and then Don Philip.  A.J. I do believe that you are supposed
to be in an interview with MTV News soon, so quit horsing around and get it
done." Kevin gave out his orders with no break or resitance.  His orders
were clear yet hated.
		Brian grumbled and grabbed Justin's hips.  "Well I had
better get moving then since I KNOW I'll have about a million things to do
if I don't." Brian finally succombed to Kevin's wishes.  He kissed Justin
on the cheek before trying to lift him.  Justin hesitantly stood with Brian
and remained standing as Brian got up.  Brian looked as his husband stood
erect.  He cocked his eyebrow at Justin, wondering why Justin hadn't sat
back down.
		"Hey ya'll, if you wanna grab some grub, hit the lounge."
Nikki interupted them.  She stepped into the production booth with Amanda
following.  Kevin seemed to lose his scowl when he saw Nikki.  "Nikki, do
us a favor and give your boyfriend some so we don't have to deal with his
uptight nature." A.J. pleaded as he spun around in his chair.  Nikki
quickly gave A.J. an angered face.  Kevin balled his fists and did his best
to show his mature side.  "Maybe if you didn't give so much up, then you
wouldn't be worried about babies all the time." Kevin replied sharply,
placing an arm around Nikki's shoulders.  A.J. dug his fingers into the
chair he sat in as he stared Kevin down.  "So you said food eh?  Let's go
grab some food." Kevin suggested to Nikki with a smile.  He smiled back to
A.J. and escorted Nikki out of the room.
		Amanda stepped in even shier with her arms crossed.  She
looked at Britney with fear.  Britney returned the look and then looked at
Justin.  Justin looked away from her quickly.  He pulled Brian into a hug,
fearing a reaction from Britney.  Brian didn't mind returning the hug to
his husband.  Justin kept his eyes away from Britney, Amanda and Joey.  He
didn't want to think of the deep secret he had been keeping from Brian for
a week.  Justin wanted to tell Brian when he took Brian to California with
the guys of 'N Sync, but couldn't.  Trust was something he valued to the
highest.
		"Can I talk to you outside for a minute baby?" Justin
requested as he rested his head on Brian's shoulder.  Brian picked up on
the slightly taunted sound in Justin's voice.  "Okay... come on babe."
Brian whispered his reply.  Brian grasped Justin's hand and led him out of
the room while eyes watched on.
		"Hey Panda, you're putting on some weight, aren't ya?"
A.J. commented, smiling at his girlfriend.  Amanda's eyes gave a dwelling
stare at A.J. before she glanced over to Britney.  Britney sighed lowly and
rolled from Joey.  "I gotta grab something to eat before I go back into the
recording booth," Britney announced, trying to avoid the obvious problems
Amanda was experiencing.  "Ugh, how much longer?" Joey comaplied, still
sitting on the couch.  "If you'er asking because you want to go home and do
something with me, put it out of your mind Mr. Fatone.  I've been double
booked for the past week and I'm tired." Britney explained coldly.  She
pulled open the door and stepped out.  Joey looked at A.J. for the advice
he knew A.J. possesed.  A.J. was too busy staring at his watch to notice.
		Joey sighed loduly and stood.  "I guess I better go see if
she's okay." Joey grumbled, walking towards the door.  Amanda gave him a
disappointed look.  "You know Joey, sex isn't the way to a girl's heart."
Amanda advised him.  "Yeah and neither is diamonds." A.J. joked from the
chair.  Amanda didn't even bother to look at her boyfriend.  She stared
into Joey's deep brown eyes with hr gentle advice.  "I didn't say I wanted
to sleep with her Amanda.  I just wanted ten minutes to at least be with
her." Joey explained his side.  "I thought it only took three minutes?"
A.J. gave a thought-provoking comment before smiling.  "Shut up A.J." Joey
hissed.  Amanda kept her same posture.  "Just tell her you want some of her
time and she'll give it to you." Amanda pleaded simply.  Joey sighed once
again and left the room silently.
		Amanda turned to A.J. with a scowl.  He gave her a
surprised grin but then caught onto her strong anger.  "We're going to have
to have those talks where I talk and you listen A.J." Amanda insisted
boldly.  A.J. sat back in his chair and gave her a challenging look.  "And
why's that?" A.J. boldly questioned.  "Because there's somethings you
should know." Amanda replied bitterly.  She gave her a haunting stare that
made A.J. feel insecure with her apparent anger.
		Justin was silently walking with Brian down the stretch of
hallway that led to a side exit of the studios.  Brian held Justin's hand
firmly for assurance, just as he always did.  He knew that no one would
notice them as they walked down the side hall.  Justin didn't feel nervous
with the idea.  He nibbled his lower lip knowing what he and Brian's
conversation was going to be about.  "It's kind of chilly outside." Brian
warned Justin with a whisper.  Justin nodded and pulled up his hoody.  He
wore a navy blue, thin-hoddy.  His jeans were the perfect warmth while his
shirt gave little protection.  Brian had managed to slip on his jacket
before they left the main area and was happy he did.
		Brian released Justin's warm hand and pushed open the exit
door.  He let the breeze hit his face and then he shivered slightly.  The
day wasn't as warm as he wanted it for August, but he let the chill
subside.  He stepped outside and peered his eyes around.  He sighed when he
saw a small group of people towards the other entrance.  Justin followed
him outside and crossed his arms for comfort.  He saw what Brian was
looking at and frowned.  "I swear they always find us.  Damn MTV for even
coming here, the fans would never know we were here if it wasn't for them."
Brian pouted with disappointment.  Justin ran his hands over Brian's back
for comfort.  "Sign some autographs and then slip away is my motto." Justin
whispered genuinely.  Brian nodded as he saw a small group of fans
approaching.
		Brian and Justin made short work of their small group of
fans by giving each of them an autograph and had security escort them away.
Brian took that second he had and escorted his husband to a more secure
area of the outside.  He had pulled Justin in a corner of the outside and
let Justin lean against the wall.  He let Justin have the time he needed to
think of the right words to say to Brian.  Brian ran a finger over Justin's
smooth cheek and tried to glare into Justin's eyes.  Justin lifted his
sulking head and gave Brian a timid stare.  "What's wrong?" Brian asked
softly, his voice carried by the wind.  Justin kept his nibble on his lower
lip, becoming nervous with Brian.  Brian leaned in closer to Justin and
placed his hands on Justin's hips.  "Bri... there's something you should
know..." Justin finally murmured.  Brian nodded, already figuring it was
something deep.  "Brian, Amanda's going to have a baby." Justin said with a
hint of fear.  Brian was taken back by the words Justin spoke so calmly.
Brian was shaken by it, not giving Justin a lively stare.  Justin looked
down to his shoes and tried to avoid Brian's dead stare.  "How... how?"
Brian stammered out his question.  "She was pregnant all along but she
didn't want to tell A.J. after what he did." Justin replied softly, still
looking at his shoes.  He plaed his palsm on the wall behind him, trying to
give Brian an oppurtunity to pull away.  Brian kept his hands on Justin's
hips and snapped out of his stare.  "You knew?" Brian questioned, curious
to Justin's answer.  Justin looked up to Brian with devastated eyes.  "For
about a week now.  Britney told me... but she asked me not to tell you
because she didn't want A.J. to know." Justin replied, living within his
secret.
		Brian sighed and turned his head towards the wall.  Justin
knew that sign and grabbed Brian's hands.  He tried to remove them from his
hips but Brian refused to lose his grip.  "You could have told me anytime
Justin and you know that." Brian said slowly and calmly.  Justin stopped
trying to remove Brian's hands and listened to him.  "I mean... we're not
supposed to keep secrets from each other... you're my husband Justin.. you
shouldn't be scared to tell me." Brian added with reservation, knowing he
had made the same mistake before.  Justin was stumped that Brian was more
disappointed then mad.  "I understand though... they are your friends."
Brian whispered sadly.  Justin felt Brian's sorrow.  He used his index
finger to lift Brian's chin and gave him a sincere smile.  "But you're my
life." Justin assured him.  Brian gave back that small smile.
		Justin lifted his hands and placed them on Brian's
shoulders.  "Why'd you tell me?" Brian asked out of curiosity.  "Because I
hate keeping secrets from you." Justin answered honestly.  Brian smiled
even brighter for Justin.  "Well I hate for you to have to keep anything
from me." Brian whispered.  Justin was caught up in Brian's genuine
kindness.  He pulled Brian into a hug to comfort himself and Brian.  "I
could never imagine being in their situation..." Justin whimpered out.
Brian rubbed his hands over Juatin's back as he shivered in his arms.
"That's not a very healthy relationship for them... nor for them as future
parents." Brian sighed, knowing the agony A.J. will feel.
		Justin rubbed his hand over Brian's soft hair.  Brian
listened closely and could hear Justin's sniffles.  Brian pulled out of the
hug to get a glimpse of his husband's face.  He saw the two tears that ran
on each side of Justin's face.  Brian was stunned to see Justin crying.
"Why are you crying?" Brian asked quietly, rubbing the tears away.  Justin
blinked the last of his tears from his eyes and shook his head.  "I don't
know... I guess I thought you'd be really pissed at me or would walk away
after I told you... but you didn't." Justin sniffled out.  Brian lost his
smile and kept rubbing the tears away.  His fingers glided over the smooth
cheeks with the salty tears.  "I usually do don't I?" Brian asked, ashamed
of his past actions.  Justin felt bad for causing Brian the guilt that he
did.  "Oh Brian, we just get so caught up in everyone else's problems."
Justin stated with as much depression as he could muster.  Brian nodded.
		"Hey... it doesn't mean me and my husband can't be happy."
Justin whispered, rubbing his hand over Brian's defined cheek.  Brian
smiled slightly, agreeing with Justin through his actions.  He looked at
Justin as he shivered slightly.  "You're cold baby." Brian quickly said,
pulling Justin into his jacket.  "Doesn't matter... you're holding me."
Justin whispered into Brian's ear.  Brian's joyful smile returned.  "How
about I get you back inside and make you even warmer with something to
eat?" Brian suggested, pulling back slightly from their hug.  Justin
sighed, loving each moment he spent along with his husband.  "Come on J, we
can share a plate and relax." Brian coaxed Justin more.  Justin nodded,
giving into Brian's request.  Brian leaned in and gave Justin a small kiss
on his nose.  "I love you..." Brian whispered out of joy.  Justin smiled
and gave Brian a ginger kiss.  Brian let the kiss continue as he slid his
hand to the back of Justin's head.  Justin was unprepared for the kiss but
let it continue.  'Oh, I wish I could say how much...' Brian thought to
himself as his lips rubbed against Justin's velvet-like lips.  Justin's
mind was far from what Brian was thinking.  He had just the thought of
being gentle during their kiss to occupy his mind.
		Brian pulled away from their passionate kiss and licked his
lips.  "You taste sweet Just." Brian chimed.  Justin giggled with Brian's
comment.  "Thanks." Justin shivered out.  "Come on, inside with your cute
butt." Brian suggested, pinching Justin's ass.  Justin jumped slightly
before nudging Brian.  "That ass is off limits until you take me home and
make love to me for that time you were gone." Justin warned him with a
smile.  Brian gave him a sour smile and shrugged.  "Anytime baby, we can
leave now." Brian's smile burned with sexuality.  The temptation was strong
for Justin but he controlled his hormones.  "And miss a chance for you to
record the song for our future baby, never." Justin reveled.  Brian rolled
his eyes at Justin before swinging his arm around Justin's shoulders.  "You
can't do that now." Justin reminded him sorely.
		Brian dropped his arm with irritation.  "One day
Justin... one day..." Brian mumbled with distaste.  "What?  One day you're
going to fuck me in front of the reporters?" Justin giggled.  Brian elbowed
him lovingly.  "Hey, that sounds kind of kinky.  All of those cameras
taking pictures of my dick." Brian laughed loudly.  Justin rolled his eyes
and kept a steady pace with Brian.  "If you wanted someone to take
pictures... you should have asked." Justin seductively commented.  Brian
pondered the thought with excitement.  It was kinky and appealing to Brian.
"I can do a wonderful Playgirl spread for you." Justin added to intensify
Brian's thoughts.  Brian did his best to shake the thoughts as they reached
the door back to the studio.
		Brian and Justin walked into the hallway with silence,
trying to make sure no cameras caught them.  Justin could hear the faint
sound of yelling and his eyes shifted to one of the closed studio doors.
He listened closely as they approached the area.  He saw Howie and Veronica
standing outside the door with curious eyes.  He gave each of them an
unsure look until he heard the unique tone that he knew A.J. to have only
when he was truly upset.  "That's not something you can fucking play around
with Amanda!" Justin heard A.J. shouting.  He drooped his head when he
realized what had happened.
		"Aye J, get in here!" Lance called out.  Justin's head
turned to the office in which he could see Lance was in.  Brian and Justin
stopped their walk.  Justin's eyes gazed back to the door that was still
closed with arguing.  Brian pulled on Justin to grasp his attention.
Justin quickly jerked his head in Brian's direction.  "Lance wants you..."
Brian reminded him.  Justin snapped out of his perculiar stare and nodded.
He and Brian walked towards the office while A.J. and Amanda continued
their endless battle.
		Brian was the first to enter the office and looked at
Lance.  Lance sat at a computer, typing while nearby was Jason, their
Internet P.R.  Jason was also working hard as Justin stepped into the room.
Chris was sitting in a corner of the room, talking with his mother on his
cell phone.  He didn't give anyone much acknowledgement as he talked.
"What's up Lance?" Justin questioned, standing right behind Brian.  He was
curious to his friends's sudden need to see him.  "I wanted you to come
over here and answer some of these questions on this online chat I'm
having.  Since half of them are the basic, 'I LOVE Justin... will he marry
me!'" Lance giggled, quoting from the endless message he got.  Justin
laughed from behind Brian while Brian frowned slightly.  "Okay, I'll answer
a few, but then I gotta go in the studio and work on the song." Justin
agreed, stepping from behind Brian and walking over to Lance.
		Justin pulled out the roll away chair next to Lance and sat
down.  He watched as Lance began to answer a few more questions.  Brian
looked around the room, admiring the plaques for 'N Sync and all the awards
they had received from different associations.  Brian admired one
certificate that made him smile.  'Justin Timberlake - Sexiest Newcomer'.
He giggled to himself with the thought of thousands of girls voting his
husband as a 'sex idol'.
		"Okay, just let me answer these last questions and I'll let
you get in here." Lance stated while typing up a couple of more answers to
the many questions he received.  "Hey Chris, some girl wants to adopt
Busta!" Lance called out to grasp Chris's attention.  Chris pulled the
phone from his ear for a mere second.  "Tell her to buy her own." Chris
sighed, annoyed with the question.  "I'm guessing he wants you to say,
'Busta has a nice home'." Jason joked to Lance.  Lance laughed along and
typed up an answer.

	<Timber9782> Do any of you guys have girlfriends?
	<NSYNC> Well some of us have people that are special in our
lives... right now though, I'm single.
	<LuvUJoey34> Where are you guys now and when are you coming back to
New York?
	<NSYNC> Right now we're in an office at the studio.  We're hear
today to record some songs and wok with some artists but all of that is
secret right now.  :)
	<NSYNC> I think we'll be in New York for awhile next week to be on
Total Request Live and then we're taping our first ever show on Saturday
Night Live also.  So maybe some fans we'll see us in our busy schedule.
Chris says: Don't follow us to the hotel because we got in trouble last
time.  :)

		Lance did his best to answer each question accurately, but
his mind was on the question that was asked earlier.  Lance no longer got
to say he had someone special in his life and he did his best to smile and
move on.  Only his heart never smiled anymore, living in a dark tomb that
didn't let him open up for others anymore.  He only let his mother and
father try to push down those barriers while he was away.  He was even more
saddened that he only had three days to spend home.  He had to cut his
visit short to record with the guys of 'N Sync and to do more production
for their new album.  Lance had learned to keep as much distance from
J.C. as possible while pushing the others away gradually.

	<Coca_Better72> Do any of you have tattoos?
	<NSYNC> Can I answer that one?
	<NSYNC> Yes, everyone BUT JC has a tattoo.  JC is scared of
needles.
	<NSYNC> I have a tattoo on my ankle, but Joey has a Suerpman on his
ankle with his flame tattoo.  We got the flame from our album on our
ankles.
	<NSYNC> And Chris has a big one on his ankle.
	<NSYNC> Justin's going to kill me for this but he just got another
tattoo recently.  He got one in Japanese latters on his back.  It's REALLY
cool.  :-)
	<Sarah683> Are you guys going to tour with the Backstreet Boys
again?  I LOVE YOU LANCE!!!
	<NSYNC> WOW!  Well I love you too.
	<NSYNC> Actually, in about three weeks or less... we'll be on the
Backstreet Boys European tour.  Otherwise, I don't think we'll be touring
with them after that.
	<NSYNC> We have to do promotional things for our new album.

		Justin pouted at the thought.  He didn't want to do
seperate tours from Brian and knew that was coming.  He reclined in his
chair and waited for Lance to pass the keyboard.  "Okay, here you go.  I
have to get on the phone with LeAnn Rimes's people and find out if she's
coming to the studio today or tomorrow." Lance explained, passing Justin
the keyboard.  Jason made sure to remind Justin of the basics in an online
chat while Lance stood.  "Are ya'll still going to record that duet?" Chris
questioned, his own phone conversation ended.  "Trying to.  I was hoping
they'd okay it for the soundtrack." Lance replied, glancing to Brian.
Brian looked up to Lance and shrugged.  "I don't know anything about it.  I
just know what tracks I'm handling for this soundtrack." Brian stated
honestly.  Lance nodded and sighed.  "If not, we can throw it on her new
album." Lance lamented.
		Chris let Lance sulk before scooting over to Justin so he
could watch Justin chat.  "Okay, I'm ready." Justin announced as he
adjusted his tennis bracelet.  Jason nodded and prepped his own computer
screen.

	<NSYNCJ> Okay people, we've got Justin from 'N Sync here and he's
ready to answer any questions you have for him.  So keep sending them in
and he'll answer.
	<NSYNC> Hey guys, this is Justin.  I'm glad you came to the chat.
	<MarryMeJT> Justin, will you marry me?!?!?!?!?!

		Chris bursted into laughter when he read the question.  "Oh
yeah, he'll be glad to marry you once he gets a simple divorce." Chris
snickered, teasing Justin.  Justin nudged him and tried to think of a
concealing answer.

	<NSYNC> Well... I'm still kind of young to marry you.
	<NSYNC> Plus I think Brian of the Backstreet Boys asked me first.
But I'll tell him you asked and we'll see what he says.  :)

		Chris rolled his eyes at Justin's response.  "You should
have made it juicy like... I can't marry you because I'm married to Brian
and having an affari with Britney Spears and me and Britney have three
kids!" Chris boasted his phantasm.  "Okay... no." Justin replied flatly.
Chris bursted into laughter while Justin turned his eyes back to the
computer screen.

	<LisaTChasez> Is it hard being 18 and on the road?
	<NSYNC> Actually... sometimes it is.  I mean I have four great
friends to back me up always and then I have five new friends that are
always there for me.
	<NSYNC> But it is hard to do it sometimes because I am young... but
I always have someone there for me... either my mom or someone else.
	<NSYNC> So yes it's hard but then again we have benefits to it too,
so I can adjust.  :-)
	<CheesyGirl82> What is the most romantic thing you've done for
someone?  A girlfriend?
	<NSYNC> :)
	<NSYNC> Uhm, the last romantic thing I did was... oh, I remember
one time I made spaghetti for someone and we just sat and watched TV for
awhile.  It was romantic because we were alone and we were happy.

		Justin smiled with the memory.  He looked back to Brian who
was busy looking around the office.  "Yo Brian!  Your hubby over here is
spilling the dish about what he's done for you!" Chris shouted, making
Justin smile.  Justin wanted to say something to Brian but instead he
turned back to the chat.

	<LuckyLinda1999> Is JC married?!  Does he really have a steady
girlfriend?
	<NSYNC> LOL... no, JC's not married.
	<NSYNC> He did just start seeing someone though... sorry.  I'm sure
if you asked earlier he would have went out with you.
	<RealWorldLoser> What's your favorite CD out right now?
	<NSYNC> Do you mean what am I listening to right now?
	<NSYNC> I haven't had much time to listen to my CD's anymore BUT
I've been listening to 702, TLC, Kirk Franklin and our new stuff.
	<NSYNC> Oh, also the new Backstreet Boys' album.  Can't get enough
of that.  :)
	<NSYNC> Chris has got me listening to LEN too... they're pretty
good.  I like that 'Sunshine' song.

		Chris smiled proudly, knowing he had once again influenced
one of this bandmates.  justin awaited the next question as Jason sorted
through them.

	<Molly1976> Why did you change your hair back to blonde?!  And is
Chris going to change his braids?
	<NSYNC> You don't like my hair?  Actually right now it's strawberry
blonde again because someone asked me to do it.  I like it.
	<NSYNC> Chris says: I am going to put blue streaks in my braids for
the next tour.  Wish me luck.  :-)
	<MarkWTimbs> Do you guys have many guy fans and do you support your
guy fans or do you think they're just like you because they like guys?
	<NSYNC> ?
	<NSYNC> We actually support ALL of our fans, if you're guy or girl.
Some folks say we don't.  What's up with dat ya'll?!
	<NSYNC> We think it's cool to have guys support us because they're
like us.  You know?  They know what it's like to keep things real.  So no
we think our guy fans support us for our music... we don't think anyone
should support us if they think we just look good.

		Chris was proud of Justin's remark.  Justin wasn't
offended, nor was he rude.  He was just Justin and Chris always loved that.
He gave Justin a loving rub on the back and scooted forward to see more of
the questions that Jason had to shift through.
		Brian walked over to them and stood behind Justin.  He
looked down as Justin looked over the next question.

	<BSBLuvr> Who's your favorite Backstreet Boy and do you get along
with all of them?  Or just one?
	<NSYNC> OH NICK'S MY FAVORITE!  :)
	<NSYNC> Everyone says that.  Actually, I don't usually choose
favorites.  I do have one that I get along with the best and that's Brian.
	<NSYNC> He's in the office bugging me right now!  Guess that's why
he's cool.  Otherwise, I get along with all of them.  Me and Nick are about
the same age, so we have alot of the same problems.  A.J.'s just CRAZY!  So
I love him.  :)
	<NSYNC> But Brian says I have to love him too because we shoot
hoops together.
	<NSYNC> Kevin's like my older brother who always makes sure I do
things right the first time around.  Howie's the one I can hang with for
awhile because he loves to shop.  So do I.  :)
	<NSYNC> And everyone wish JC a happy birthday!  He's a year older
today and he's even more grumpier.  :)

		Chris giggled as he saw the next question Jason was going
to propose.  "He'll love that one!" Chris snickered, picking one out for
Jason.  "You're going to get me fired." Jason warned him with a mischevious
smile.  "That's okay, I'll rehire you." Chris assured him, still laughing.
		Brian began to rub Justin's shoulders while Justin listened
to Chris and Jason go back and forth.  "Just give me a question before
these folks go crazy." Justin ordered them, trying to remain relaxed.

	<BabyBluesBoo> Justin, are you a virgin?
	<NYSNC> :O

		Justin turned his head to Chris with a scowl.  Chris
laughed loudly when he saw Justin's face.  He eased back in his chair,
trying to avoid any physical contact from Justin.  Justin sighed and
returned his attention to the screen.

	<NSYNC> I think I'll keep that to myself.
	<NSYNC> Why?  Are you a vampire looking for blood?  :)

		Brian reached down and wrapped his arms around Justin's
neck.  He kissed Justin's ear and smiled.  "You're good at this." Brian
whispered.  "I've had years of experience covering up my personal life
now." Justin replied sadly.  Most days he wished to have a normal life.
The lights, the money, the nice cars and the fame were nice every other day
but the days he just wanted to be held were the days he'd gladly stop it
all.

	<AppleJax10> What's your favorite food?
	<NSYNC> Brian says: Everytime you look, Justin has a spoon of
cereal in his mouth!
	<DonnaLou> Are you really dating Britney Spears because I hear you
and her went to a movie together?  Do any of you have girlfriends right
now?
	<NSYNC> NO!
	<NSYNC> I'm not dating Britney Spears.  She's just a friend of
mine.  She's cool to hang with, but I'm not interested in seeing her.
Actually, Joey is still dating Britney.  But don't tell him I told you.  I
did escort her to a premiere we went to though, but just as friends.
	<NSYNC> JC is dating someone right now... Chris is single for the
next five minutes and Lance is single.
	<NSYNC> As for me, I am very happy with my special someone.

		Brian hugged onto Justin tighter with a genuine smile.
"I'm VERY happy with that certain someone." Justin added verbally.  Brian
rubbed his cheek to Justin's, looking at the next question.

	<Justins_Girl> Who would you like to do a duet with?
	<NSYNC> I'd like to do a group with Lauryn Hill actually.
	<NSYNC> As a group, we'd already worked with great people like Phil
Collins, Britney Spears, the Backstreet Boys, Gloria Estefan and what not.
I had a lot of fun working with Brian on the new song for our album too.
	<NSYNC> We'd like to do a new version of a song with 702.  We'd
call it, "Where My Boys At?"
	<NSYNC> Just kidding.  :)
	<Blue_Angel> Justin... are you really dating Brian or is this a
joke?
	<NSYNC> LOL!
	<NSYNC> Actually I don't know why so many people ask this question.
Me and Brian hang out and all but no, we're not dating.

		Brian frowned at Justin's response.  "Why'd you say that?"
Chris asked quickly, sensing Brian's depression.  Justin tried to glance at
Brian when Chris questioned him.  "Because I'm not dating Brian.  I'm
married to him." Justin replied slyly.  Brian lovingly shook Justin.  "You
asshole." Brian hissed.  Chris rolled his eyes at Justin.  "It's true
though.  I can not tell a lie." Justin giggled, mocking George Washington.
Brian rubbed a hand over Justin's hair and let him continue with his chat.

	<NSYNCJ> We have time for one last question and then Justin has to
get moving guys.
	<Lil_Crunk81> Justin, do you want a family after this is over?
	<NSYNC> :)
	<NSYNC> Yes, I REALLY want a family.  That'd be really nice.
	<NSYNC> I have my puppy BJ and she's like a baby for me but I want
children.  Maybe two or three.  I love kids.
	<NSYNC> Though it's hard to say when I'll have kids because of our
constant touring.  I'm young though.  I don't need to worry too much about
it.
	<NSYNCJ> Thank you all for asking Justin you're questions.  He has
to get going now because he has to be in the studio.  We're going to have
JC and Joey in here tomorrow if you'd like to talk to them.
	<NSYNC> THANK YOU all for coming.  I had a lot of fun.  I wish I
could have answered all the questions.  I do have to get in the studio
though before we leave for rehearsals.  Don't forget about our next album
coming out and our next video.  God Bless.

		Brian released Justin so that he could scoot back from the
computer.  "Great chat Justin, thanks." Jason spoke up to Justin as Justin
rose from the chair.  "No prob J.  Thanks for setting it up.  I always have
fun at those things." Justin replied happily.  Brian eased back from the
conversation, trying to plan out his time.  "Man, we aren't going to have
much time to record if we don't hurry." Chris informed Justin, looking at
his watch.  "We have the rest of today Chris.  Johnny made sure to book the
studio for the full day." Justin reminded him, grabbing Brian's hand.
Chris gasped, realizing his simple mistake.
		"What about J.C.?" Chris questioned.  Justin sighed lowly,
thinking of his close friend.  "Damn I wish they'd give us just one day
off." Justin complained, his thinking driving him to a breaking point.
"Joey said he got the cake and all we have to do is go into the studio."
Chris informed Justin of their plans.  Justin nodded, feeling guilty for
not having the time to get J.C. something special.  He was happy that he
and his friends went into together with their gift.
		"Let's just go record and get this day over with." Chris
advised, grabbing his cell phone so that he could leave.  Brian leaned
forward and gave Justin a quick kiss on the cheek.  "Walk with me." Justin
requested, not wanting to end his moments with Brian.  Brian nodded
happily.  His baby blue eyes glimmered in the light, making Justin's face
glow with love.  "My baby doesn't wanna let me go." Brian teased him.  "Can
you blame me?" Justin asked.  Brian shook his head and smiled even harder
for Justin.
		Brian pulled Justin forward slightly and gave him a slow
yet passionate kiss.  His lips were tender and his thoughts even more of a
comfort zone.  Justin took in the kiss while wrapping his arms around
Brian's neck.  "Oh baby..." Justin whispered between kisses.  Brian kept
his eyes closed as his tongue slithered into Justin's mouth.  Justin sucked
on the tongue for seconds before rubbing his tongue over Brian's.  Brian
tilted his head even more to accept Justin's kiss.  "Mmmmm..." Brian moaned
as he enjoyed their kiss.  He rubbed his hands over Justin's back, pulling
Justin even closer.  He hadn't made love to Justin in days, so each kiss
made up for the time he missed working and the time Justin spent promoting.
Justin wanted to gasp out and ask Brian to make love to him the second
their hips began a gentle grind, until reality set in.  He knew where he
was and who was watching and he knew he had to stop.
		"Babe..." Justin mumbled as he pushed Brian back gently.
Brian kept his eyes shut while panting lowly.  Justin looked at him with
sincerity.  Brian's eyes finally blinked open, catching the glimmer in
Justin's deep blue eyes.  Brian sighed as he found himself once again
sinking into the blue ocean that were Justin's eyes.  "We have... work to
do." Justin whispered.  He ran a finger over Brian's nose and smiled
appreciatively.  'Love you,' Justin mouthed for Brian.  Brian's face never
lost it's smile as he stared at Justin.  He had learn to forget all about
the problems that had interupted them earlier.  Even with the thought of
Amanda being pregnant, Brian pressed on as Justin's husband.


Just Beginning (Chapter 24)
Written by JM

		Nick rubbed his fingers over J.C.'s defined cheek.  His
lips were gently pressed against J.C.'s, savouring the taste of his new
lover's lips.  Nick's hands roamed J.C.'s face and neck.  He was dazzled by
J.C.'s unique technique of kissing, one that pleasured him greatly.
J.C. was secure in his kiss with his lover.  His hands gently placed on
Nick's thighs, his lips moving at a calm rate and his mind locked into a
world only he experienced when alone with Nick.
		J.C. brushed back the small tendrils of Nick's blonde hair
and leaned more into their kiss.  In his mind, he was loving every second
of it but in his heart, he still felt guilt.  Nick shared the silent guilt,
except his was for another.  Only two people remained in J.C. and Nick's
lives that they yet had finished their love with, Lance and Brian.  Yet
neither of them wanted to lose a second they shared together.  They knew in
their hearts that they wouldn't change a moment of what they had shared in
over a week's time.
		Nick hesitantly pulled back from their tantalizing kiss.
He panted lightly, opening his silver blue eyes for J.C. to admire.
J.C. ran his finger over Nick's red lips, wanting them back with his.  His
crave was withdrawn, knowing Nick had something to say.  "I missed you."
Nick whispered, giving off a caressing stare.  J.C. leaned back on the
couch they sat in and smiled.
		J.C. was tangled with Nick on the couch in one of the
production booths.  J.C. had locked tohe door to make sure he and Nick got
their privacy.  It was easy for him to avoid the others as they were
wrapped up in recording, meetings and interviews.  "I hate it when you have
to keep leaving for different shit." Nick complained lowly.  J.C. pulled
Nick loser, wrapping an arm around Nick's shoulders.  "I hate it too but
it's our jobs." J.C. sighed.  Nick groaned arrogantly.  "A job I'd give up
for a day if I could have you like this," J.C. added to lighten Nick's
mood.  "Is that an option anymore?" Nick huffed.  "I could always be like
Justin and take you with me." J.C. whispered into Nick's ear.  Nick giggled
slightly, J.C.'s words tickling his ear.  "You can't Josh.  You know the
only reason the label let's Brian get away with so much is because Brian
and Justin are married.  They barely get any time together and I guess
that's why the label feels guilty.  Brian's been working a triple shift
with doing this soundtrack, going places with 'N Sync and still spending
hours rehearsing with us and Fatima." Nick stated, feeling for his long
time friend.  J.C. nodded, trying not to dwell on the negative marriage
that Brian and Justin had been living for a week.  "But I barely get to see
you with all the traveling we've been doing.  A phone call just ain't
enough." Nick added cautiously.
		J.C. ran a hand over Nick's thigh and grumbled.  Nick
sensed J.C.'s disappointment.  "I just miss you..." Nick softly said.
J.C. nodded and gave Nick a simple kiss on the cheek.  "I really miss you
too Nickie..." J.C. whispered, closing his eyes.  Nick extended his tongue
out and ran it over J.C.'s lips.  "What can we do to change that?" Nick
questioned, trying to pull J.C. into a kiss.  "Mmmm Nick... it's my
birthday... all I want is for you to spend the rest of the day with me."
J.C. replied, agreeing to Nick's kiss.
		Nick didn't have to answer his boyfriend.  He slid
J.C. back on the couch and laid on top of him.  Nick began an erotic grind
with his crotch against J.C.'s, trying to bring J.C. to erection.
J.C. feverishly ran his hands over Nick's black shirt.  Nick moaned through
their kiss, reaching his hands down to J.C.'s jeans.  J.C. sensed Nick's
want to have sex in the production booth and it brought about erotic
thoughts into his head.
		Just as Nick's fingers began to fumble with J.C.'s zipper,
a loud knock came to the door.  Nick wanted to continue his movements but
stopped for the sake of their relationship.  J.C. gasped with fear as Nick
released him.  He looked up to Nick who stared down at him with fright.
"Wh... who is it?" J.C. called out nervously.  "Open up J.C.  We've got mad
work to do." Chris replied.  J.C. sighed with disappointment.  Nick pulled
fully off of J.C. and adjusted his clothing.  J.C. looked at the grief
written all over Nick's young face.  He licked his lips and then began to
stand.
		J.C. stood to his feet and stretched momentarily.  "Come on
J.C.!  We got folks waiting!" Joey shouted with aggrivation.  "And I care
because?" J.C. called back.  He stopped in front of Nick and leaned down.
"Come here Nickie..." J.C. whispered.  Nick scooted forward and let
J.C. hug him.  "I love you..." J.C. whispered into Nick's ear.  Nick nodded
and replied, "I love you too Joshua..."  J.C. smiled and gave Nick a gentle
kiss on the cheek.  'This is so much better than my last birthday'
J.C. sighed to himself.  'I have a man to love... and he actually loves me
more than Lance did.' J.C. added as he and Nick ended the hug.  "Is Nick in
there?!" Chris screamed at the door.  "Oh shut up!" J.C. laughed as he
apparoached the door.  He flipped the lights on to full brightness and
unlocked the door.
		"If I find any condoms...." Chris's words were ended when
the door swung open.  "You'll do what?" J.C. asked boldly, giving him an
intense stare.  Chris feared the stare, knowing if the wrong answer escaped
his lips, J.C. would start an argument.  "I'll pat you on the back for
using protection." Chris smiled coyly, pushing back J.C. to get into the
production booth.  Joey frowned at J.C.'s scowl.  "Lighten up J.C.  They
say when you're getting some you're not supposed to be so tense." Joey
suggested confidently.  "Well then I guess you're not getting any?" Chris
teased him from inside.  Joey gave Chris the middle finger as he entered
the booth.
		Nick reclined on the couch as he got painful looks from
both Joey and Chris.  Nick looked up to them and shuttered.  "If ya'll want
me to leave, just say it." Nick grumbled.  J.C. looked down at Nick with
disappointment before turning his attention to his friends.  "Stop it, both
of you." J.C. hissed at them.  Joey smiled while Chris turned his eyes to
the glass window.  "So Nick... planning on giving the birthday boy here
some sugar for his special day?" Joey yteased him, plopping down on the
large black couch.  Nick blushed slightly, pulling a side of his hair back.
"If he asks..." Nick shyly replied.  Joey laughed tauntingly while
J.C. flushed.  "The man has been horny for days!  He hid his dick under a
table everytime we had an interview!" Joey bellowed out in humor.
J.C. shook his head at Joey and walked over to the mixing board.
		"So as soon as Scoop gets here, we'll walk down the hall to
the studio so we can work with Mocha on that track." Chris informed J.C. as
J.C fiddled with a few of the buttons on the mixing board.  "Oh."
J.C. replied lowly.  "Don't get TOO happy J.C." Chris teased him.
J.C. shook his head, thinking about the tension between him, Nick and Lance
at the moment.  "Is Mocha here?" J.C. asked, trying to avoid the battle.
"I heard she just arrived with 702." Joey replied, giving Chris a
tease-filled smile.  Chris looked back at him and eyed him.  "What's wrong
Chris?  Still don't want folks to find out about you and Meelah?" Joey
teased him further.  "What about him and Meelah?" J.C. questioned, losing
his touch on reality.  Chris gave Joey a warning in his stare.  "Oh
nothing... just the fact that Chris is actually taking Meelah to dinner
before she leaves on tour!" Joey boasted loudly.  Chris balled his fist,
ready to swing on his friend.  "Oh really Chris?" J.C. asked with intrigue.
"It's just dinner.  Nothing for the fucking tabloids to find out about."
Chris grumbled bitterly.
		Nick giggled in the intensity of their discussion.  "What
are you laughing at pretty boy?  When was the last time you and J.C. had a
quiet dinner instead of fucking?" Chris blurted out in anger.  Nick's mouth
eased open with shock and disturbance.  "I... I..." Nick couldn't find the
words to defend himself.  He was too ashamed to turn to his boyfriend for
help.  He stood to his feet with desperation and made a quick walk out of
the production booth, small tears forming in his eyes.
		J.C. turned to look at Chris, ready to leap upon him and
kill him.  The anger and hatred showed in his blue eyes.  Chris cursed
under his beath and turned to face J.C.'s blazing eyes.  "I'm sorry J.C.
I... I didn't mean to say that." Chris sighed, feeling the guilt that
J.C.'s eyes left him with.  He was stripped of his care and forced into a
corner where an apology helped minorly.  J.C. slammed his fist against the
mixing board and walked away.  "Damn!" Chris gripped, leaning against the
board.  Joey sat watching Chris sulk while J.C. left the room.  He knew
where J.C. was going but he didn't know where Chris's thoughts were moving
to.
		Nick's walk began to slow down as he walked through one of
the many halls of the studio.  He lazily stumbled through the hall with the
tears still stinging his eyes.  'You're just a big joke Nick... you'll
never be able to have that special bod with Josh...' Nick put himself down
as he walked.
		He listened to a gentle whimper as his walk became less
feverish.  He looked up to see Amanda leaning against a wall, her head
tilted back and soft tears sliding down her face.  Nick inched near her
with caution.  "A.. Amanda?" he asked carefully, placing his hand on her
shoulder.  Amanda sighed and began to wipe away her painful tears.  "What
Nick?" Amanda asked coldly, avoiding his eyes.  "Is there... something
wrong?" Nick asked with a friendly smile.  "Like you don't know." Amanda
heaved out.  Nick shook his head at her, still confused.  "I'm nineteen and
I just lost my virginity the other day... there's a lot of things I don't
know." Nick tried to joke with her.  Amanda smiled lightly and turned her
head to him.  "You're such an ass." she giggled out.  "J.C. says I have a
cute ass." Nick snickered, rubbing Amanda's shoulder.  "You do Nick... you
have a cute ass." Amanda laughed through her tears.
		"Well my ass never made anyone cry before?" Nick tried to
find the route to Amanda's tears with another joke.  Amanda let her sobs
continue before jerking Nick into a hug.  Nick was stunned and dumbfounded
by Amanda's quick sign of affection.  She rested her head on his shoulder
and let the tears continue.  Amanda had always consider Nick as a younger
brother when she started to date A.J.  This time her 'younger brother' was
looking out for her.  "What is it Panda?" Nick asked, using A.J.'s favorite
pet name for her.  "Oh... don't call me that.  it'll only remind me of the
fucked up man that did this to me again." Amanda sniffled with shame.  Nick
rubbed her back for comfort, trying to hush her sobs.  "Nick... let's just
say that if you were A.J.'s brother, you'd be an uncle..." Amanda sighed
out, letting her crystal tears become solid with bitterness.  Nick was
stumped as to her enigma.  "Uhm Amanda, maybe I should remind you... I'm a
blonde.  We like when you just give it to us plain." Nick joked to lighten
the situation.  "Let's just say I won't be able to ride the rides at Six
Flags anymore." Amanda sighed with less feeling.  Nick puzzled out her
words even further.  "Okay Nick, could you be a bigger bimbo?  I'm fucking
pregnant!" Amanda tried to joke at first but her feelings were too strong
for the situation.
		Nick swiftly pulled away with utter surprise.  "No.. no,
no, no!" Nick bellowed out, still in surprise.  Amanda threw her hand over
his mouth for her own protection.  "Shut up Nickolas." Amanda hissed at
him.  "If the media finds this out, A.J. is screwed." Amanda warned him.
Nick nodded with fear, blinking his eyes several times.  Amanda removed her
hand and sighed.  "Nick, he's such a fucking loser.  You'd think one time
he'd be happy he's going to have a child but instead he's worried about his
image." Amanda complained, returning to her position on the wall.  Nick
stood in awe at the situation.  "That can't be true." Nick disagreed
flatly.  "Oh believe it baby!  Your boy would prefer me not have a baby."
Amanda whimpered, still fighting her tears.  Nick leaned in and then rested
his body against hers.  "It just can't be.  All of us want children." Nick
argued softly, rubbing his hand on her shoulder.  "All of you aren't twenty
one and still unsure of where your life is headed." Amanda sobbed lowly.
Nick leaned his head against Amanda's for further comfort.  "And all your
girlfriend wants is for you to be there for her and your baby..." Amanda
began to cry once again.  Nick wrapped his arm around her shoulders and ler
het cry on his shoulder.
		"How... how many months are you?" Nick questioned
cautiously.  He made sure to take one step at a time.  "I'm three months."
Amanda sighed, letting her cry end once again.  Nick shook his head with
shame.  "You could have told us Panda." Nick reminded her of the guilt she
lived with.  "Oh yeah and get the same fucking response I got from
A.J. today?" Amanda whimpered.  Nick ran his fingers through her ebony hair
and sighed with her.  "He's the bes asshole you know." Nick tried to
brighten her moment.  "I thought you were?" Amanda joked along.  Nick
smiled and released her from their small hug.
		"Look at us... we're both miserable.  Except you don't have
to be." Amanda pouted, looking right into Nick's eyes.  Nick turned his
head, still thinking of why he felt his boyfriend behind.  "Is it about
J.C.?" Amanda question, trying to be of help to him.  "I love him so much
Amanda!  And no one fucking understand it!" Nick barked out, trying to let
lose the tension that built upon him.  Amanda raised her brow at him with
surprise.  "Where did that come from?" Amanda asked with a smile.  Nick
caught onto what he did and blushed.  "I just really love him..." Nick said
softer.  Amanda nodded and kept her generous smile.  "Nick, I actually
believe you.  Which scares me." Amanda giggled.  Nick nudged her and a
smile formed over his lips.  "But I guess it shouldn't matter who thinks
it's good or bad?  If you two love each other, that's all that matters."
Amanda gave her advice.  Nick pulled his hair back and nodded.  "It's
just... ugh, it's hard to deal with sometimes." Nick groaned, trapped in
his sorrow.  Amanda placed her hand on Nick's shoulder for the role
reversal.  "I don't care what they say Nick... J.C. loves you and you love
him.  So ignore them for now and concentrate on a relationship." Amanda
suggested with a pure concern.
		Nick bit his lower lip before smiling for her.  "Thank
you." he whispered.  Amanda giggled and once again hugged Nick.  "This is
the old Nick that I miss." Amanda whispered into his ear.  Nick returned
the hug towards a woman that has been a constant look out for him.
"Well... I'll be the 'old' Nick if you'll be the 'old' Panda." Nick
replied, hugging her tighter.  Amanda laughed lowly with his response.
"Okay but when I get morning sickness and bitchy, don't gte mad." Amanda
laughed.  Nick agreed and kept their hug going strong.
		Justin sat on a familiar black couch in one of the studios.
He was curled up on the couch, rubbing Tyke's head.  His head was rested
against the arm of the chair and his shoes were off.  He just listened to
the music as it filled the production booth.  His eyes were gently closed
as he comforted the dog.  He loved hugging onto to Tyke due to Tyke's
strong affection for Justin.
		"Okay, that's a wrap for now Britney." Justin heard Brian
say.  "I'm gonna run down to the other studio and work with Don for a bit,"
Eric Foster White informed Brian before exiting the studio.  Justin yawned
lowly and batted his eyes open.  He saw Brian kneeling in front of him and
smiled.  "Hey baby..." Justin whispered, feeling Brian rub his hand over
his head.  "Tired Just?" Brian asked sincerely.  "Just a bit." Justin
answered horesely.  "Do you want me to take Tyke so you can catch a nap?"
Brian offered lowly.  Justin shook his head, trying to keep his eyes open.
"No, I'm fine.  I have to get down to the studio anyways." Justin replied
verbally for Brian.  Brian nodded sadly.  "I wish we could nap together."
Brian whispered to his husband.  Justin moaned with delight, daydreaming
about the thought.  "Before you leave, we will cutie." Justin softly
replied.  Brian smiled happily and rubbed his finger over Justin's nose.
Justin grinned slightly and let his eyes fall closed again.
		"You know... I'm thinking we should re-do that bridge
again." Britney announced, entering the production booth with her water.
She sipped on her Naya water and noticed her interuption of Brian and
Justin's moment.  "And I'm also thinking I should come back at another
time." Britney said with embarassment.  "Nah, it's cool." Justin assured
her, winking his eyes open again.  "You see... Brian aren't you thankful
you married that loser?  He doesn't mind interuptions." Britney teased
Justin timelessly.  Brian rolled his eyes with laughter.
		"And aren't you glad that it won't last forever?" Britney,
Justin and Brian heard a voice interupt them as the production door swung
open.  Justin popped up in shock, propiping himself up on his elbows.
Brian stood up, leaving his husband in awe.  Britney quickly placed her
bottled water on the mixing board and crossed her arms.
		"Wow!  I have never received such a heart-filled greeting
before." Leigh Ann chimed as she walked into the room.  Justin groaned and
rolled to a sitting position.  "Oh yes, it's Leigh Ann Wallace, everyone's
favorite sweetheart." Leigh Ann bubbled as she entered the room.  Brian
crossed his arms and gave Leigh Ann a cold stare as she flaunted herself
around.
		"Geez Leigh Ann, shouldn't you be throwing up lunch right
about now?" Britney snapped with no reservations.  Leigh Ann brushed her
hair back and smiled at Brian.  "She's got quite the mouth Brian... I guess
that's why I hear she's always got something in it?" Leigh Ann spoke
perkily towards Brian.  Britney clinched her fists, prepared to give a
repeat performance for Leigh Ann.  "But you know Britney, you're the least
of my concerns today." Leigh Ann finally smiled towards Britney.  Her smile
was terrifying in the way that she used it to her advantage.  "And who is
your main concern today?" Brian curiously asked.  Leigh Ann grinned towards
Justin, making him turn his eyes from her.  "Let's just say only one of us
will walk out of here with tears in their eyes." Leigh Ann clearly stated,
keeping her taunting smile.
		Brian was intrigued by Leigh Ann's words but feared for his
husband.  "God... why did God create bitches!" Britney groaned out.
"Because if He didn't, what fun would you have?" Leigh Ann charmed her way
through the room.  Justin cuddled closer to Tyke again and watched as the
war of words began.  "I'll tell you one thing, God created Britney to beat
bitches' asses and I sure am gonna do my job." Britney announced, beginning
to remove her necklace.  Leigh Ann carefully began to remove her jewlery,
awaiting to see if Britney was bold enough to fight in front of Brian and
Justin.  "Stop it... both of you!" Brian barked at them.  Justin and Tyke
jumped with shock, hearing the pure hatred in Brian's tone.  Britney
stopped her movement while Leigh Ann's smile returned.  "Gladly Brian."
Leigh Ann chimed.
		Britney cursed under her beath, backing away from Brian so
that she could think for a few moments.  "Well let's talk about why I'm
here, shall we?" Leigh Ann suggested with her silly grin.  She pulled a
folded newspaper from a folder she held and dropped it in Justin's lap.
"Read 'em and weep Mr. Littrell.  I told you I can do things you just
can't." Leigh Ann boasted, letting Justin looked at the paper.  On the
front od the newpaper read: 'Backstreet Boy Brian Littrell starts budding
relationship with new starlit Leigh Ann Wallace...'  Justin looked up to
Brian, his eyes filled with depression.  "Oh you should read on to the part
about me and Brian's kiss... then there's how in love we are... of course
there is stuff about how we've dated before and are starting again... and
uhm, there is also a part that confirms a rumor about you and Britney being
a couple." Leigh Ann bragged even further, drapping her arm on Brian's left
shoulder.
		Britney grabbed her bottled water and hurled it across the
room.  The bottle hit the production door loudly and fell to the floor with
a thud.  "You have pulled the last nerve bitch!" Britney shouted at Leigh
Ann.  "Oh no, not yet Britney..." Leigh Ann smiled, turning towards
Britney.  "See two can play the little game you and Justin played.  You
lied to the press about me being anoerixc and I lied to them about me and
Brian being a couple and about you and Justin." Leigh Ann stated boldly.
Britney shook her head, trying to control her anger.  The rage in her eyes
only made Leigh Ann smile brighter.
		"But it doesn't end there ladies and gents." Leigh Ann
added with pleasure.  Justin sighed painfully.  He had wanted to end his
battle with Leigh Ann months ago but her tireless antics prevented him from
living the normal life he wanted with Brian.  "Leigh Ann... could you give
all of us a break and just tell us what it is that you have in mind?" Brian
requested.  He looked down at Justin and saw the agony in Justin's eyes.
		"See it's very simple Brian... a little too easy for me.
See I decided to seek the council of my lawyers after me and Britney's
confrontation at the premiere.  And boy did I have a good time.  It turns
out that what Britney did is called assault people.  So I have a proposal
for everyone." Leigh Ann chimed with the game to her advantage.  "See I can
have Britney arrested, I can press charges, then put a restraining order on
her and easily screw up her career with all of the above.  Everyone's
favorite Pop Queen would become everyone's hated Pop Jailbird." Leigh Ann
stated evily, looking directly at Britney.  Britney kept the anger in her
own stare, yet on the inside there was fear.  Her life could easily be
ruined with a simple phone call and Britney could do nothing about it.
		Justin;s hate for Leigh Ann grew by the second.  Her eyes
caught glimpse of him and his frown became a straight face.  'She won't get
the best of me' Justin tried to coach himself as best he could.  "But
there's a way to prevent all of that drama..." Leigh Ann said clearly yet
gently.  Brian caught Leigh Ann's eyes looking at Justin and shook his
head.  "No, anything that's going to hurt Justin, I won't do." Brian
quickly stated.  Leigh Ann turned her view towards Brian and frowned.
"Hurt Justin?  Me?  Never." Leigh Ann sarcastically said as she pouted.
"Bullshit." Britney hissed.  "Britney, darlin', please cotnrol your
language." Leigh Ann spoke motherly towards her.  "Oh she's a freakin'
crack case." Britney groaned, turning her back on all of them.
		"You see Brian, all you have to do is... divorce Justin."
Leigh Ann spoke up with her idea.  The utter mention of the statement
caused Justin to shiver.  Brian's eyes flew open with surprise.  "That's
right, cut the ribbon Brian.  I don't care if you're not with me, but you
can't be with him.  I've talked to my lawyers and this can easily be
negotiated.  We can have contracts and all of those privacy agreements.
The world we'll never know because the world doesn't even know you two are
married." Leigh Ann explained her idea further.  "NO!" Brian barked at her.
Leigh Ann crossed her arms and gave him a doubting frown.  "Don't try to
fight this Brian.  Because if people find out that me and Britney got into
any form of fight, they'll have to know why.  Then your little secret will
be out and the world will know that Brian Littrell is married to Justin
Timberlake.  That'll mess up not only you and Justin's career, but
Britney's also." Leigh Ann gripped with him.
		Justin released Tyke from his grip and looked away from
Brian.  He needed Brian to make a decision on his own and without guilt.
"I have already drawn up a contract that simply says in a week when the
papers are finished, you will divorce Justin Timberlake.  With that, I'll
gladly leave you two alone, leave Britney alone and continue with my
Hollywood career.  We can save everyone the pain after that." Leigh Ann
explained with the sinful tongue she used.  "I... I won't divorce him... I
don't wanna lose him..." Brian stuttered out, feeling small tears fill his
eyes.  Leigh Ann wasn't prepared for the impact of her words.
		Britney turned back to them to see the desperation in
Brian's eyes.  "Don't you even think about it Brian.  I'm the one that got
into a fight with Leigh Ann and I'll take the wrap for it." Britney assured
him.  "Excuse me?  If you go through with this, it'll still get out about
Brian and Justin," Leigh Ann reminded her.  Britney shook her head
confidently.  "I beat your ass because I just don't like you.  It has
nothing to do with Brian and Justin.  The minute you try to bring them up,
I'll do it again." Britney freely said.
		"Oh she won't bring them up at all." each heard a voice say
as a nicely tailored young man stepped into the room.  Justin's head looked
up with confidence when he saw Bryce standing in the doorway.  "You see
Leigh Ann's lawyers contacted the office and uhm, she can't do anything
about this.  See she's already broke her privacy agreement by telling the
press she was seeing Brian." Bryce explained when he stepped into the room.
He closed the door behind himself and smiled at Leigh Ann.  "You see Leigh
Ann, when the label set you and Brian up a year or so ago, you signed a
contract.  That contract states that the second you and Brian break up,
your relationship is no more and is not to be discussed with the press
unless given signed permission.  You seemed to have failed to follow the
rules and that means you are facing charges and jail time." Bryce
confidentaly informed her.  Leigh Ann's lower lip trembled with the
thought.  "Oh and I can easily fax that info down to the folks at Jive and
hey, they'll have no problem with inforcing the terms of the contract."
Bryce added.
		Britney giggled happily from near the mixing board.  "Well
I won't give in then.  I'll contact my lawyers and see the depth of that
agreement but I'm sure there is more trouble with Brian and Justin than
with me." Leigh Ann assured him.  Bryce let his joyful expression fade and
he turned towards Justin.  "You are in serious danger of baching your
contract Justin." Bryce informed Justin sadly.  Justin nodded and let a
tear roll down his face.  "RCA doesn't want you and Brian's marriage to get
out and they want you two to keep it that way. So letting idiots like Leigh
Ann anywhere near your relationship is dangerous and could mean beaching
the terms you signed to okay this marriage." Bryce explained, watching
another tear grace Justin's cheek.  He looked down at the floor, feeling
sorry for Justin.
		"Another point for Miss Wallace." Leigh Ann boasted.  She
pulled out several papers from her folder and approached Brian.  "Now all
you have to do is sign this little paper and you will spare Justin any
further tears." Leigh Ann smiled towards Brian, passing him the papers.
Brian clinched the papers and looked at Justin.  Justin let another tear
roll down his cheek, yet he refused to look at his husband.  Brian closed
his eyes and let the other tears fall freely.  "Time to pay the Piper..."
Leigh Ann grinned deviously.  He grabbed a pen from Leigh Ann's fingers and
quickly scribbled on the paper.  "Brian... are you kidding me?!" Britney
shouted at him.  Bryce sighed and pulled out his cell phone.  "You can't
fucking do this to him!  He loves you!" Britney barked at Brian.  She was
enraged by Brian's act.  She thought she would never see the day when brian
would turn his back on his husband.  Leigh Ann smiled happily and held the
paper.
		"And you see Justin... I always win out..." Leigh Ann
raved, waving the paper around for everyone to see.  Brian walked over to
Justin and grabbed his hand.  He sniffled lowly, trying to get Justin to
look at him.  Justin refused to, believing that his love for Brian was
strong enough to fight Leigh Ann.  His hurt was too much and he knew it'd
grow deeper if he looked into Brian's eyes.
		"It says right here... signed..." Leigh Ann's mouth fell
open when she read the name that was signed to the paper.  "Signed Fuck
You?" Leigh Ann questioned, looking up at Brian with surprise.  "Fuck you
Leigh Ann." Brian stated clearly before gripping Justin's hand.  "I won't
leave my baby." Brian whispered, kissing Justin's hand.  Justin looked up
and giggled lightly.  His tears still fell but he was happy that Brian said
the words he did.
		Britney bursted into laughter while Bryce smiled at the
loving couple.  "Ah once again she loses!" Britney bragged with joy.  "How
dare you leave me for that bitch of a husband!" Leigh Ann shouted at Brian.
"But I love my bitch." Brian replied, keeping his eyes in Justin's.  Brian
leaned in and pulled Justin into his arms.  "Come on Curly, you have a song
to record." Brian whispered, cradling Justin.  Justin leaned forward and
kissed Brian upon the lips.  "I love you..." Justin whispered, keeping his
face close to Brian's.  Brian stood to his feet and just held Justin.  "I
love you too." Brian whispered, carrying Justin from the couch and then out
of the production booth.


Just Beginning (Chapter 25)
Written by JM

		Joey bobbed his head to the music as it faded from the
production booth.  "Well people?" Joey asked, looking around at all the
faces in the booth.  "I think it's great." Lance replied, standing from his
stool.  "Two thumbs up." Brian responded.  "I think it sounds great.  I'm
happy I did it." Mocha replied with her smokey voice.  "Well your rap was
hot!" Joey complimented her.  Mocha giggled softly and then thanked him.
		"What did you think Chris?" Joey asked.  His eyes shifted
to Chris who was deep into a conversation with Meelah from 702.  "Hmmm,
looks like he's busy?" Lance teased them.  Chris had a loving smile on his
face, as did Meelah as they talked.  Their conversation was quiet, as if no
one but the two were in the room.  "Yo Chris!" Justin shouted, trying to
grasp Chris's attention.  Chris turned his head toward Justin with
surprise.  He saw that everyone's eyes were on him and Meelah.  "What is
it?  What are ya'll staring at?" Chris stammered out.  Brian was the first
to burst into laughter, followed by the others.  "Did you like the song
Chris?" Justin asked, trying to control his feverish laughter.  "Oh?  The
song?  Oh yeah!  I loved it, at remix ya'll!" Chris replied, trying to
cover up his ignorance.  "Oh yes, sure you did." Mocha teased him with a
smile.  Meelah smiled with her, knowing her feelings towards Chris were
growing with the moments.
		"It's getting late guys.  I have to hit the studio with
Missy tomorrow morning for some recording." Mocha announced, grabbing her
backpack and throwing it on.  She slipped on her Kangol hat and looked at
Meelah.  "Oh!  I gotta give Mocha a ride to the airport." Meelah spoke up,
dreading that moment.  She stood to her feet and Chris followed her move.
"Uhm I'll walk ya'll out then." Chris stumbled on his words as he looked
into Meelah's eyes.  "Okay, come on." Meelah smiled happily.  Chris grabbed
her hand and they all said their goodbye's as Meelah and Mocha left.
		"That's a cute couple." Lance commented.  "Yeah, sure is."
Joey agreed, thinking of his own girlfriend and the news that he was just
informed with an hour ago.  His eyes turned to Brian and Justin.  The
second Mocha, Meelah and Chris had left, Brian and Justin were in each
other's arms, making out on the lush couch.  Joey sighed and turned his
head from them.
		Brian ran his hand over Justin's thigh and moaned in their
kiss.  He wanted to slip his hand further inside but paced himself.
"Excuse me you two!" J.C. hollered before taking a seat in Justin's lap.
Brian muffled a complaint in their kiss before pulling away from Justin.
"Josh!" Justin complained, wanting to return to his kiss with Brian.  "I'm
the birthday boy and I get to do what I want!" J.C. bellowed with
happiness.  Justin laughed sorely, trying to push J.C. off of him.  "Yes
birthday boy!" Justin groaned out.  "Brian... I don't appreciate you
getting Justin hard.  His dick is poking at my ass." J.C. commented,
turning to look at Brian.  Justin flushed quickly, punching J.C. in the
side.  "Well I can take care of that." Brian whispered, placing his hand
between J.C.'s thighs to get to Justin's crotch.  "WHOA!" J.C. shouted,
jumping from Justin's lap.  Brian and Justin fell into laughter as
J.C. blushed.  "Assholes!" J.C. laughed along with them.
		Another hour drifted on as Lance stood in the hallway
talking with Bryce.  "So I can probably get some time off towards the end
of the month?" Lance requested of Bryce.  "Uhm... I'll contact Johnny about
it and see if you can get a week off after the tour?" Bryce suggested,
hoping to help Lance's dilemma.  Lance nodded, frowning at the thought of
waiting so long to see his family again.  "I'm sorry Lance but with this
tour, you guys are pretty much booked.  I had to tell Justin today that he
can't even leave early to go see Brian like he wanted to.  He's stuck here
in Orlando until you guys actually leave for the tour." Bryce explained.
		Lance murmured his words out, looking down at the floor.
Bryce frowned with him and placed his arm around him.  "Justin told me all
about the whole Nick and J.C. thing.  I'm sorry Lance." Bryce whispered
into Lance's ear.  Lance's depressed expression wouldn't leave his face as
he looked up again.  "It's old news." Lance whispered back.  Lance turned
his eyes to Bryce and could see the genuine care Bryce had.  "Are you sure?
I know you and J.C. had something really good going.  I'd hate for you to
sit around here and be depressed about it." Bryce offered his friendship.
Lance and Bryce had always been good friends when Bryce started working for
Wright Entertainment Group.  He was thanful for the times that Bryce
supported him in his relationships.  "Yeah, I'll get over Josh." Lance
sighed, still looking into Bryce's eyes.
		"Okay... I'll try and get you a few days off next week and
you can go to the beach or something." Bryce mentioned, giving Lance an
oppurtunity to relax again.  "Would you come with me?" Lance asked softly.
Bryce gave Lance a crooked stare.  "Me?" Bryce questioned.  After the words
had cleared Bryce;s lips, Lance poulled Bryce into a soothing kiss.  Bryce
was stunned by the touch of Lance's thin, red lips.  Lance tried to hold
the kiss as Bryce closed his eyes.  Bryce found himself moaning in the
kiss.  Lance's tongue lunged forward and opened Bryce's mouth further.
'Oh... that's it Bryce...' Lance thought to himself.  He slid his left hand
down Bryce's body and began to grop Bryce's crotch.  Bryce played with
Lance's tongue until he felt an erection forming in his boxers.  He tried
to pull back but the temptation that brought him into the kiss stopped him.
		Lance began to unzip Bryce's slacks and then Bryce knew he
had to end the kiss.  He lurched back with desperation.  Lance looked at
him with surprise.  "Lance... Lance what are you... what are we doing?"
Bryce asked, panting softly.  Lance just stared at Bryce with care.  "We're
going to make love... tonight..." Lance replied exotically.  He leaned
forward and kissed Bryce's cheek.  "All of those times you were there for
me Bryce... all of the times I thought about you... I just want us to fuck
tonight..." Lance whispered into Bryce's ear.  Bryce felt Lance jacking him
off through his clothing.  He moaned into Lance's ear and titlted his head
back.  "Come on baby... you know you'd like it too..." Lance giggled,
continuing his rough grabbing of Bryce's erect penis.
		Bryce thought over the idea.  Many times he thought of
Lance in a sexual way but he respected Lance too much to ruin anything they
had shared.  "I've got a condom in my jeans..." Lance whispered, rubbing
his tongue over Bryce's ear.  Bryce gasped with pleasure.  "It's okay
Bryce... it's okay to feel good.. to be hard and feel good..." Lance
continued his onslaught of sexual thoughts into Bryce's head.  "Please
stop..." Bryce begged with a tear running down his cheek.  Lance released
Bryce's crotch and brought his hands to Bryce's hips.  He pulled Bryce
close to him and started to grind with Bryce.  Bryce moaned even softer and
closed his eyes.  "Bryce... please..." Lance pleaded.  "Lance... Lance I'm
a... virgin..." Bryce managed to gasp out as Lance tried to move further
upon him.
		Lance quickly stopped his grinding and moved away from
Bryce.  "You're a... a..." Lance started to stumble on his words.  He stood
against the opposite wall with surprise written into his expression.  Bryce
nodded with shame.  Lance kicked himself for being so forceful on Bryce.
"Look, I'll call Johnny and tell him you need some time off soon..." Bryce
said, grabbing his cell phone from his pocket.  He looked at Lance one more
time before walking away with hurt in his eyes.
		"Bryce..." Lance called out but Bryce was too far gone to
hear.  "Bryce I'm sorry..." Lance whispered.  He was saddened by the
thought of coming close to stealing something so precious to Bryce.
"Man... I've got to stop this." Lance said, rubbing his hand over his hair.
He looked at the floor and stood there for minutes, thinking over his
newfound sexual desire for Bryce.
		The night was not new to the Littrell's.  Justin and Brian
stood in the kitchen of their house.  Justin stood behind Brian, hugging
onto his waist.  Brian was carefully chopping vegetables as Justin
instructed him.  A pot of water with noodles simmered nearby on the stove.
Another pot sat next to it with bioling tomatoes that were curshed to make
sauce.  "Green peppers?" Brian questioned as he cut the peppers up.  "Gives
it flavor Bri." Justin giggled.  Brian nodded and continued his chopping.
		Justin was savouring the moment he was sharing with Brian.
Brian had asked Justin to teach him to cook and Justin gladly showed Brian
how to cook spaghetti.  "Okay, put those in the sauce pot." Justin
instructed him.  Brian did as he was told while Justin backed away from
Brian.  Justin took a seat on the other counter and watched as Brian
stirred the sauce and the herbs.  "This is kind of easy." Brian laughed,
thinking of the trouble he had gone through before making food.  "It's
because you're a natural baby." Justin laughed along with him.
		"Do you thik J.C. was upset about tonight?" Brian
questioned, stirring the noodles.  "Nah, he wanted to be alone with Nick
tonight.  He told me." Justin assured him.  Brian nodded, dwelling on the
thoughts of J.C. and Nick as a couple.  "Well that's good because I wanted
to spend the night alone with my husband." Brian chimed, looking back to
Justin with a grin.  Justin rolled his eyes at Brian lovingly.
		Brian made his way over to Justin and bent down.  He kissed
Justin's knee and then began to rub Justin's thighs.  "I wanna make love
tonight... in our bed." Brian pleaded with Justin.  Justin nodded with a
straight face.  "Actually, I want you to make love to me..." Brian
whispered, leaning up to catch Justin's lips.  Justin leaned down for him
and kissed him carefully.  Brian continued to massage Justin's thighs while
kissing him.  "B-Brian..." Justin giggled through their kiss.  Brian
stopped kissing Justin long enough to find out what Justin wanted.  "The
food..." Justin whispered to him with a smile.  Brian gasped and turned
back towards the stove.  "Don't let those lips go anywhere, I want to
finish what I started." Brian begged before running over to the stove.
		Justin leaned back up on the counter and sighed.  He
watched Brian prepare the rest of the spaghetti with a simple smile.
"Brian... do you remember the morning after we first made love?" Justin
asked his question out of the blue.  Brian nodded with a generous grin.  "I
was so damn sticky." Brian said sarcastically.  Justin giggled softly.
Brian walked over to Justin with two plates of spaghetti.  He handed Justin
one of the plates while he held the other.  "What about the words we said
to each other babe?" Justin asked, twirling some spaghetti on his fork.
Brian thought over that morning, digging into his memories for one of his
favorites.  "Oh yeah... I remember..." Brian replied softly.  He looked at
Justin and could see the love that Justin missed.  "You still mean what you
said right?" Justin questioned sadly.  Brian nodded with admiration.
"Every last word." Brian added with his Southern accent.  Justin ended his
frown and became captivated by Brian's baby blues.  His mind drifted to
that first bracelet Brian got him as a sign of affection.  He could still
see the 'B.L. + J.T.' inscribed into it.
		"What about you?" Brian questioned before taking in another
fork-full of spaghetti.  "Always." Justin chimed.  He spread his legs and
let Brian scoot in so that he was standing with his waist between Justin's
knees.  "Even today?" Brian questioned with his mouth filled with
spaghetti.  Justin busted into laughter and rubbed his hand over Brian's
hair.  "Today was scary." Justin finally replied with a serious tone.
Brian nodded, looking at Justin's thigh.  "I saw you crying." Justin said
softly, trying to make his husband feel at ease with it.  "I had something
in my eye." Brian snubbed the idea off.  "You did not!" Justin hollered
back.  "Yeah I did." Brian disagreed, trying to hide his eyes.  "Okay, you
did." Justin led Brian on.  Brian looked up to Justin and grinned.  "You
had a tear in your eye!" Justin snickered.  Brian sighed and began to
tickle Justin's inner thighs.  "Did not!" Brian argued with laughter.  "YES
YOU DID BABY!!!" Justin screamed back with laughter.
		Brian ended his onslaught on Justin's legs and let Justin
cry and laugh the rest out of his system.  Justin took a deep breath and
then looked at Brian.  "You know, this is rather good." Brian complimented
himself on making the spaghetti.  "It's tasty." Justin agreed.  "Mmmm, even
tastier right here..." Brian said as he used his fork to rub some of the
sauce on Justin's inner thigh.  Justin watched Brian in awe.  Brian leaned
down and began to suck the sauce from Justin's thigh.  "Brian... you're so
damn kinky..." Justin giggled before releasing a moan.  Brian's smooth
tongue rubbed his inner thigh, collecting all of the sauce as he licked.
Brian began to kiss the inner portion of Justin's thigh, making sure he got
all of the sauce.  "You taste... mmm, so good..." Brian moaned while
kissing.  Justin shuttered at Brian's caressing tongue.
		Brian stood back up and licked his lips.  "Mmm, you taste
so good down there..." Brian hummed for Justin.  He grabbed more sauce and
lifted Justin's shirt slightly.  Justin looked at him with utter disbelief.
Brian dipped the sauce into Justin's belly button and then smiled up to
him.  Justin's eyes grew with suspicion.  "Don't..." Justin pleaded.
Before he could get Brian's eyes again, Brian bent down and began to tongue
Justin's belly button.  Justin gripped onto the counter with excitement and
pleasure.  "Ugh..." Justin murmured as Brian's tongue rubbed in him.  Brian
began kissing Justin's belly button as Justin began to laugh with pleasure.
"Stop it baby..." Justin requested through laughs.  Brian smiled and then
licked Justin's belly button one last time.
		Brian lifted his head and once again licked his lips.
Justin giggled quietly before grabbing a long noodle from his plate.  "Come
here baby.." Justin requested.  Brian inched forward and then stood on his
tippy toes.  Justin made Brian tilt his head to the side and then he laced
the noodle on Brian's neck.  Brian felt the warm sauce stick to him and he
smiled.  Justin leaned down and began to suck and lick the noddle off of
Brian.  Brian groaned deeply.  Justin's long tongue scooped the noodle up
but that didn't keep Justin from his licking.  His tongue ran the base of
Brian's neck with care.
		"Careful... careful... you may make me hard..." Brian
warned him through his moans of pleasure.  "Well.. I'm already hard."
Justin replied before returning his lips to Brian's neck.  Brian ran his
fingers through Justin's strawberry blonde curls and moaned with each kiss
to his neck.  "Let's go upstairs?" Brian suggested, trying to slow Justin's
licking.  Justin agreed and released Brian's tender neck.
		Justin leaped from the counter with enthusiasm.  He quickly
pulled Brian up into his arms and smiled at his husband.  "Shall we make
love like it's 1999?" Justin questioned with a grin.  "It is 1999 idiot."
Brian giggled at Justin's attempt of cliche.  "Then we'll fuck like it's
2999!" Justin bellowed out, carrying Brian out of the kitchen.  "No... no."
Brian said flatly, causing Justin to stop his walk up the steps.  "Save the
fucking for when I get home.  I want to MAKE LOVE tonight." Brian pleaded
with his puppy dog eyes.  Justin stared into his endless baby blue eyes.
He nodded shyly and continued his walk up the steps.
		BJ followed the two up the steps, panting with excitement.
She was lost to what her master was going to do with his husband.  Justin
and Brian reached the door and Justin stopped.  "Sorry BJ, this is as far
as you can go... I don't want you to know what guys do together." Justin
chimed, stopping his puppy.  "Daddy loves you though." Justin added,
listening to his puppy whimper.  "Poor baby." Brian cooed as Justin pushed
the door closed.  The last sound BJ heard before she ran off was, "OH
JUSTIN!! YES BABY!!"
		J.C. walked with Nick down the peir, hand-in-hand.  Their
conversation was light, yet friendly.  The wind was scarce and humid.  Nick
carried his shoes in his left hand while J.C. started his lean towards
Nick.  "It's nice out here." J.C. commented, enjoying the pale moon's
sight.  "Yeah, I love being out here... especially on those really warm
mornings." Nick agreed, admiring the boats as they passed.  "I'd like to
spend one of those mornings with you," J.C. softly said, basking in the
moment.  "Hmmm, I'd love that!" Nick exclaimed with utter pleasure.
J.C. giggled at Nick's enthusiasm.
		Nick stopped their walk when they reached the edge of the
peir.  "Here she is..." Nick humbled himself before his boat.  The white
sculpted boat was just big enough for Nick and the family to travel in, one
of his three that sat in his collection.  "She's a beauty..." J.C. awed at
the sight.  Nick smiled greatfully before walking J.C. onto the boat.  "She
does great on the windy days... catches a sail and she doesn't stop until
we hit Tampa." Nick boasted.  J.C. walked carefully on the boat, still
holding Nick's hand.  He ran his hand over the nicely polished wood as they
walked.  His eyes were dazzled by the sight of the finely crafted boat.
		"I'll tell you about the rest of her wonders later..." Nick
saif quietly, trying to catch the glimmer in J.C.'s eyes.  J.C. looked up
at him and smiled.  "Why not now?" J.C. asked out of human curiosity.
"Because I have something else to show you..." Nick replied, winking at
J.C.  J.C. nodded and followed Nick down to the lower deck of the boat.
		When J.C. reached the dim lower level, his eyes sparkled
with surprise.  He looked down the comfortable bed and saw nothing but
yellow rose petals covering the bed.  A small gift box sat on the bed in
the midst of the garden of roses.  "Nick..." J.C. managed to whisper out.
Nick smiled, seeing J.C.'s dumbfounded reaction to what he had set up hours
before.  "Come on Josh..." Nick whispered, leading J.C. over to the bed.
		J.C. followed Nick's lead before Nick changed positions.
He stood J.C. in front of the bed and smiled at him.  "Uh.... happy
birthday?" Nick found himself at a lose of words.  J.C. giggled and leaned
forward.  He gave Nick a soft and gentle kiss upon the lips to start the
night.  J.C. leaned back and kept his loving smile scripted onto his finely
chisled cheeks.
		Nick placed his hands nervously on J.C.'s shoulders and
began to seat him on the bed.  J.C. followed with Nick's silent gesture and
sat on the bed.  Nick kept his honest smile with J.C. as he laid J.C. back
on the pedals.  J.C. smiled faded but the love upon his lips stayed.  Nick
gently mounted J.C. and ran his hands across his cheek.  Nick reached
forward slightly and grabbed the small gift box.  He handed the gift box to
J.C. and kept his innocent look as he stared into J.C.'s eyes.  "It's my
birthday present for you..." Nick explained shyly.  J.C. gladly began to
open the small box.
		J.C. popped the box open and soon the shiny bracelet caught
his eye.  Burried within the crushed velvet was a silver I.D. bracelet.
The chain was linked silver that shined brightly while the connecting plate
was silver-gold.  J.C.'s eyes blinked with exictement as he cradled the
bracelet in his hands.  "I hope you like it.  I... I wasn't sure what to
get you." Nick stumbled out as J.C. admired the bracelet.  On the plate of
the bracelet was an inscribed lion's head that resembled that of the ivory
Leo necklace J.C. wore around his neck.  Next to the lion's head were the
words, 'Joshua'.  "I got the Leo on it because I know how much you love
your necklace and I hope you like it and I just wanted to get you something
nice and..." Nick was stopped when J.C. placed his hand on Nick's thigh.
Nick stopped his babbling to look down at J.C.  "I love it..."
J.C. whispered with his honest and heart-filled smile.  Nick sighed with
relief and smiled back at J.C.
		"Uhm... read the back..." Nick requested, biting his lower
lip with shyness.  J.C. did as Nick instructed and turned the bracelet
over.  He read the inscription with a sharp eye.  'U R My Heart' was the
engraving to the bracelet.  J.C. wanted to let a tear slip from his eye
when he looked at the bracelet.  J.C. did his best to lean up and Nick
caught onto his sign.  He leaned down for J.C. and soon there lips were
firmly pressed together.  J.C. ran his mouth lightly over Nick's.  He
brought depths to the kiss by rubbing his tongue into Nick's mouth.  Nick
gladly accepted the tongue, feeling J.C.'s affection in each move of their
lips.
		Nick slipped out of the kiss, trying to keep his plans at
the rate he wanted.  J.C. leaned back on the bed, still gripping the
bracelet.  "I love it Nickie.." J.C. chimed after recovering from the kiss.
Nick gleamed with happiness.  "And I love you." J.C. added, looking up to
his boyfriend with pure affection.  Nick sat with pleasure in his eyes.
"Even after such a short time?" Nick questioned, curious to finding J.C.'s
true self.  "Hmmm.... YES!" J.C. boasted.  Nick snickered with him.
		Nick brushed his hand over J.C.'s golden brown hair and
then thought of the perfect way to approach J.C.  "J.C. can I make love to
you tonight?" Nick shyly asked but yet bluntly.  J.C. stopped staring at
his gift and looked up to his boyfriend.  He kept Nick in silence for
minutes, just staring at him.  Soon a caring smile curled his lips.
"Yes... make love to me..." J.C. replied, spreading his legs slightly.
Nick sighed in his mind and began to rub his hands over J.C.'s covered
chest.
		J.C. placed the bracelet back into the gift box and set the
gift box to the floor.  Nick cautiously leaned down and he and J.C. began
their intimate kiss.  Nick's hands playfully toyed with J.C.'s red knitted
shirt.  J.C. ran his hands over Nick's back as Nick began to pull the shirt
up.  Nick's tongue ran the depths of J.C.'s mouth, stimulating the ecstasy
between the two.
		J.C. gasped softly as Nick ended their kiss.  Nick's lips
parted from J.C.'s so that he could lift the shirt fully.  He pulled the
shirt over and off of J.C.'s body with little help from J.C.  Nick drapped
the shirt to the side and let J.C. play with his shirt.  Nick rested his
hands on J.C.'s chest and began to massage his pecs.  "Oh Nickie..."
J.C. groaned, lifting Nick's black shirt.  Nick lifted his arms and then
pulled the rest of his shirt off.
		Nick dropped the shirt on the bed and leaned down again.
He and J.C. embraced once again, Nick's hands keeping their steady rub over
J.C.'s chest.  J.C.'s hands were busy fumbling with Nick's zipper.
"Mmoh... do you want me... to use protection?  Condom?" Nick asked, his
words muffled by J.C.'s constant kissing.  "N... no... I love you
enough... to use no... uhm, protection..." J.C. mumbled while trying to
keep his tongue in Nick's mouth.  Nick nodded as J.C.'s hands unzipped him
fully.
		Nick slipped out of his jeans and let them slide to the
floor.  He burried his hands in the rose petals while licking at J.C.'s
neck.  J.C.'s hands stayed on Nick's back, grasping with desire.  Nick's
erection began to slip from under his boxers and he knew that their love
making how to happen in order for him to last.
		Nick pulled his mouth from J.C.'s neck and sat up on J.C.'s
legs.  He began to unzip J.C.'s jeans while J.C.'s own hands romaed his own
heaving chest.  Nick bit his lower lip with excitement as he pulled down
his lover's jeans.  He slid them fully off and let them fall off the bed.
J.C. panted with excitement when his eyes met Nick's again.  He reached up
to brush the blonde strands of Nick's hair back, awaiting Nick's movements
to singal their next gesture.  Nick's nervousness held him in a state of
inability.  J.C. sensed this and he knew he made to make the nineteen year
old comfortable with what he was going to do.  J.C. spread his legs widely
and then grabbed a hold of Nick's left hand.  He brought Nick's hand to his
stomach and rested it there.  Nick watched J.C.'s every moment with an
obsevervant eye.  He turned the view to J.C.'s face, glowing in every
essence.  "It's okay Nickie... just take me..." J.C. whispered, trying to
urge his lover.  'Come on Nick, you've done this a hundered times to Lance,
why not him?  He loves you... this is your chance to show him even more of
the love you have.  It's his birthday, don't ruin this night for him.' Nick
coached himself confidently.
		Without voluntary movement, Nick's fingers began to rub
J.C.'s strong abs.  His index finger ran over J.C.'s belly button before
finally making his move for J.C.'s boxers.  J.C. closed his eyes as both of
Nick's large hands grasped the waistband of his boxers.  Soon J.C. felt the
draft of the boat sweep over his entire body.  He lifted his legs slightly
so that Nick could take his boxers off fully.
		Nick clinched the boxers tightly, feeling he had
accomplished something.  He then looked down at his awaiting lover.
J.C. laid innocently in the bed of roses, his eyes timid and his stare
gentle.  Nick was swept into J.C.'s look, trapped between reality and the
world he always found himself in with J.C.  Nick was at a lose of words but
he knew what was to follow.  He slipped out of his boxers and stared away
from J.C.
		J.C. could still see the fear in Nick.  He reached his hand
out and grasped Nick's strong, long penis.  Nick shuttered with shock until
he felt J.C.'s smooth stroking.  "Oh...." Nick groaned deeply, feeling his
lover jerking him off.  J.C. watched as his hand made small sheaths around
Nick's cock each time he went in to jack him off.  Nick leaned forward
slightly and grunted.  "It's okay Nickie... go inside of me..." J.C. tried
to comfort him.  He leaned up and kissed Nick's right nipple and then gave
it a tender lick.
		Nick nodded and felt J.C. wrap his arms around his neck.
Neck braised himself on the bed as he stood over J.C.  He broguth his erect
penis past J.C.'s balls and his sensitive area.  Nick kept his lowering
until he reached a hole that he was not yet familiar with.  "Just
slowly..." J.C. advised, closing his eyes again.  Nick took a deep breath
and followed J.C.'s instructions.  He bent down a little and then aimed
himself for J.C.  "Wait... what about lube or something?" Nick asked out of
fear for J.C.  J.C. moaned slightly, with disappointment and anticipation.
"Nickie..." J.C. stopped himself.  He felt in his heart somehow he was
rushing an experience that meant alot to him and to Nick.  "I've got some
vaseline in my backpack upstairs if you wanna use that..." J.C. replied,
opening his eyes.  Nick looked down at him and felt he had somehow spoiled
the moment.  "Joshua... do you trust me enough to do it without lube?" Nick
asked with a tremble.  J.C. kept his tight hug on Nick's neck and nodded.
"You are my heart..." J.C. whispered to encourage Nick.  Nick grinned
delightfully and returned to his motions.
		J.C. closed his eyes once again.  Soon he felt the head of
Nick's cock trying to enter him.  J.C. found that he wasn't loose enough
for Nick as he tried his best to relax.  Nick tried force the head of his
member inside, causing J.C.'s eyes to fly open with hurt.  J.C. hissed
lowly, trying to prevent Nick from hearing him.  Nick looked down with
fright, preparing to leave J.C.'s body.  J.C. just held Nick and let two
tears escape his eyes.  He sniffled slightly, recovering from the initial
shock and pain of their dry-fuck.  "I'm... I'm so-sorry..." Nick found
himself releasing tears as he looked at the grimace on J.C.'s face.
		J.C. inched forward a bit, his muscles relaxed enough to
take another inch of Nick inside.  Nick watched as J.C. began to take him
inside.  It was the only way that J.C. could comfort Nick at the moment.
Nick leaned down and pulled J.C. into an embrace.  He held onto
J.C. tightly, beginning his own pushing inside of J.C.  J.C. gasped with
pleasure and relaxed fully in his lover's arms.  J.C. brushed his hands
over Nick's hair and smiled.  "Mmmm... Nickie... it'd help if you made love
to me now." J.C. giggled.  He felt Nick was fully inside of him, Nick's
soft balls resting against his cheeks.  Nick snapped out of his trance long
enough to begin a slow and steady movement inside of J.C.
		Nick released J.C.'s back and let J.C. lay on the pedals.
His own eyes were shut as he rocked back and forth inside of J.C.
J.C. shuttered with joy a Nick made love to him for the first time in their
relationship.  J.C. let go of Nick's neck and moved his hands to Nick's
broad chest.  He rubbed his fingers over the young flesh.  'Ooh...'
J.C. cooed as his hands ran over Nick's erect nipples.  Nick pleasured from
J.C.'s erotic touching.  "Heh heh..." Nick panted, gropping J.C.'s hips as
his pace moved a little faster.
		J.C. felt himself slipping into his pleasureable area.  He
had never made love on a bed of rose pedals, on a boat, on his birthday and
with a man he had learned to love and give his heart to.  The new
experiences were slightly overwhelming for J.C. but in a good way.  He let
Nick's hand rub over the head of his cock before he moaned deeply.
"Joshua... oh..." Nick groaned, shfting the weight of his penis.  Nick
pulled back J.C. hair and leaned in.  He kissed J.C. on the forehead and
rocked a little slower.  'Gotta be careful...' Nick advised himself.  He
let his hips relax a bit while petting his lover's body.
"Nickie... mmmm...." J.C. hummed gloriously.  He placed his hands on the
rose pedals and the silk sheets that lay beneath them.
		Soon Nick's lips were rubbing against J.C.'s again.
J.C. accepted the kiss with an open mouth.  His tongue began to massage
Nick's as Nick's hips returned to their regular pace again.  J.C. raised
his legs even further to give Nick better access to his body.
"Ah... ah... uh..." J.C. gasped with pleasure, ending their kiss.  Nick's
hand had begun a quick and erotic stroke upon J.C.'s penis.  Nick smiled,
feeling he was doing a good job at making love to J.C.  He leaned down and
began to kiss the hicket he felt J.C. with earlier.  "Happy brithday
sweetie..." Nick whispered, bucking quicker in J.C.  J.C. clinched his eyes
shut, wanting to respond to Nick but unable to.
		J.C.'s head bobbed slightly as Nick moved faster.
"Mmmm... I love you..." J.C. groaned out unexpectidely.  Nick smiled again
and moved his lips back to J.C.'s.  He gave him a quick kiss before saying,
"I love you too Josh."  Josh grinned delightfully.  He felt Nick grasp his
hips and holed them tightly.  Within a moment's time, Nick slowed himself
again.  "Uh... yes.. yes, yes Nickie..." J.C. managed to moan.  Nick's hand
didn't have to return to J.C.'s cock again.  After the slow pace began
again, J.C. released himself between the two.  His cum shot up in long
strings.  "OH!  Nick... oh Nickolas..." J.C. grunted out.  Nick moaned with
him, knowing J.C. was enjoying their hour of love making.  "Nick..."
J.C. sighed with gratification.
		Nick wiped the sweat from J.C.'s head and then pulled his
hair back again.  "I... love you..." J.C. began to let tears out.  Nick was
confused by the sounds of J.C.'s whimpers.  Nick wanted to stop but he knew
J.C. wouldn't let him.  Nick bent down and used his tongue to scoop up the
tears.  The saltiness of the tears didn't faze Nick.  "Please... please
don't cry Josh.  I... I love you too baby..." Nick whispered, continuing to
thrust.  J.C. stopped his tears and sniffled slightly.  He was deeply in
love with Nick and it brought to tears to his eyes.
		After mere minutes of his continued movement, Nick was
screaming out in ecstasy.  "God!  JOSHUA!!!" Nick hollered out, ejaculating
his sperm into J.C.'s body.  J.C. held Nick tightly as he came, letting
Nick continue to fuck him as he did.  Nick's body shivered with delight.
"I... ah.. ah.. uh, uh, yeah yeah... ooh, Josh..." Nick couldn't get the
words out as he let his cock release all of it's cum.  J.C. felt Nick
softening and continued to pet his hair.
		Nick slipped out of J.C. and gasped for air.  J.C. gently
rolled Nick to his side, still hugging him.  "Are you okay?" J.C. asked,
concerned for his heavy breathing lover.  "Ye... yes Josh..." Nick panted
out.  J.C. pushed Nick's hair back and held him in his strong, athletic
arms.  He placed small kisses across Nick's face, letting Nick recover from
his orgasm.  "Thank you... it was a sweet birthday present.."
J.C. whispered, rubbing Nick's cheek.
		Nick closed his eyes and rested.  "I truly love you Joshua
Chasez..." Nick softly added to J.C.'s words.  "This wasn't as much a
birthday gift as it was an 'I love you so much' gift." Nick explained,
drifting in and out of his coma-like sleep.  J.C. was touched by Nick's
sentiment.  "You are so precious." J.C. whispered, rubbing his tongue over
Nick's lips.  Nick was too tired to return the gesture, pouting his lips
slightly for his boyfriend.  "I want you all to myself." J.C. sighed
quietly, letting Nick fall asleep in his arms.  Before Nick was fully
sleep, he traced the letters, 'N-C + J-C' on J.C.'s abs.  J.C. grinned
continously and feel asleep with Nick.
		"God it feels so nice to get a hot shower.  The hotels and
dressing rooms now a days either have too hot of water, too cold of water,
hot and then cold water, soft water, hard water... just too much drama for
poor Britney." Britney stated as she walked back into Joey's room.  She was
drying her damp hair with a towel, shagging it out to perfection.  She wore
one of Joey's oversized shirts while she approached the bed that Joey laid
upon.
		Joey was wearing his Superman boxers and a wifebeater as he
watched his elegant girlfriend approach.  He was curled to one side, the
sheets and covers pulled back on his bed.  His face was not filled with the
usual splendor he had when he looked at Britney.  He just watched as her
lips moved but he heard no words that were spoken.  "I guess it's all
because I HAVE to be Britney Spears for the cameras and can't ever be just
Britney Jean for the world." Britney sighed, staring down at her lost
boyfriend.  Joey managed to catch her last words with suddenness.  He
stared into her mocha brown eyes for seconds before looking away fully.
"We've gotta talk Brit." Joey said with seriousness, rubbing his hands over
his sheets.  Britney looked at him awkwardly, catching the serious tone he
used.
		Britney gripped her towel and took a seat on the opposite
side of the bed.  She brought her knees up on the couch and looked at him
curiously.  "What is it?" Britney asked to break the silence.  Joey shook
his head and looked up at her.  "We have to talk about us." Joey replied
softly.  Britney felt her heart drop slightly.  She had heard that
statement several times within a bad relationship.  She couldn't see how
after months of dating Joey that something may finally go wrong.  "When I
found out about the incident with Leigh Ann, it really surprised me.  Then
I realized, you did it for Justin.  You didn't do it because you had a real
problem with Leigh Ann because she's never talked to you.  You did it
because of something inside of you that says, 'I have to do this because I
owe Justin something'." Joey stated without reservation.  Britney heard
Joey out with subtle eyes.  "What would evre make you think that Joey?"
Britney questioned bitterly.  "No, just hear me out Britney." Joey swiftly
interupted her.  Britney eased back slightly and gave him a pain's taking
stare.  "The Leigh Ann thing was a small peice of what's been going on.
Then there's the thing where you are constantly gone.  Either in the
studio, doing T.V. appearances, radio calls, interviews, touring.  It's
just non-stop and you don't ever say, 'Well Joey I miss you and as soon as
this is all over, I'll take a break'.  It's just, 'Joey I miss you but I've
gotta go do something now'.  That kind of realtionship belongs to actors
and all." Joey spoke with his heart.  "Joey you know I have little control
of those things right now.  I'm still doing promotional things that I don't
wanna do but this is so I can get some off time for awhile and just kick
it." Britney argued.
		Joey shook his head and took his eyes off of her again.
"Me and the guys make sure we take time off for our loved ones.  Look at
Justin, he's always begging for at least an hour off so he can call his
husband and touch basis with him." Joey grumbled.  "Joey, if one of you
isn't there, you can still do a show.  if Britney Spears isn't there,
where's the show at?" Britney barked at him.  Joey gripped his sheets with
anger.  "If Joey Fatone isn't here then who will Britney love?!" Joey
hissed.  "Is that what you want?" Britney asked, finally letting the pain
hit her fully.  "Britney... you're constantly pushing this relationship off
for other things." Joey explained.  He was trying to pour his heart out to
her yet he had never had to do that for a girlfriend because he had never
cared for someone like he did Britney.  "How?  How can I put off someone I
love Joey?" Britney asked with tears in her eyes.  Joey turned to her again
and watched a tear fall.  "Please Britney... I'm saying that you let all of
these other things cloud your mind and you never once say, 'Joey I need you
because I'm stressed out.'" Joey stated, sitting up on the bed.  Britney
wiped some of her tears away and tried to control her anger.  "You know I
need you.  I'm constantly just saying 'I love you', but that's not for
nothing. I'm not here with you in vain.  You know I need you." Britney
whimpered out.
		Her voice cracked slightly as she spoke.  The tears tore
down her cheeks as if they weren't meant to be.  It was the terpentine to
her artwork.  "We have to be friends if we're going to be lovers." Joey
tried to reason with her.  "Lovers?!  What does sex have to do with it
Joey?" Britney asked coldly.  "There is none!" Joey barked at her.  Britney
shuttered slightly and let out more tears.  She refused to fall to full
fledged crying in front of him.  "Is that what it takes to keep you?  Sex?"
Britney asked with a tremble.  Joey shook his head again at her.  "It takes
us to be a couple.  Not one or the other." Joey argued.  Britney sighed,
wiping more tears away.  "I don't want you to cry Britney." Joey whispered,
feeling for her physically and emotionally.  "Then what do you want Joey?"
Britney raised her voice as she questioned him.  Joey laid back on the bed
and tilted his head to the ceiling.  "I think we both need space right
now." Joey sighed out.  Britney strained as she held her towel.  "Just time
to think and work this thing out a bit." Joey added, turning his head so he
could look at her.  Britney stood from the bed.  "If that's what you want
Joey, I'll be out tomorrow." Britney whimpered.  She snatched up her pillow
from his bed.  "But Britney I didn't want you to go!" Joey called to her.
She just whimpered and exited his room.
		Joey groaned, no attempting to run after Britney.  'You did
the right thing Joey' Joey tried to assure himself.  As he did, a small
tear ran out of his eye.  He quickly caught the tear and washed it away.
he ran his fingrs through his maroon red hair and sighed again.  He did his
best to close his eyes and forget the night he lost Britney.
		'I need to know that you love me too.  I need to know that
we'd give up anything for each other.  I want to know that you'll someday
say you'll marry me and we can be together forever.'  The words were strong
and cherished in the mind of Justin Littrell.  The thoughts of his husband
proposing to him in the hospital brought back fond memories.  The laughs,
the cries, the love, the emotion and everything placed together to link the
puzzle of Brian and Justin Littrell's romance gave Justin butterflies.
		'I can't express in idol words how much you've touched my
heart with each passing day.  You've been my friend, my partner, my lover,
my teacher, my student and most important, my heart.  You've looked past my
flaws and you've cherished my strong points.  Through my deepest pain,
through my injuries, I've always woken up to your face.  I couldn't ask God
for anything more than that.  The world is filled with people who search
endless years for someone just to make them smile, but I don't have to
search anymore.  The doubt that comes along with love is no longer within
me.  And one things for sure, you always keep me laughing and smiling.
You're the one friend that I've had that has yet to tell me, 'Love is for
fools'.  People say that life begins at forty, but the day I found you
Justin, life started all over again for me.  Because I know that our life
is now, just beginning.  And I promise to let you be my eyes, my hands, my
mouth, my ears and my heart.  Through sickness and in health, and 'til
death do us part.  So with this ring, I, Brian Littrell, thee wed.'  Justin
seemed to remember the words verabtim, thinking of the vows that Brian
wrote for him and him only.
		Justin felt a hand shaking him, causing his eyes to flutter
open.  Justin's eyes quickly stung to the light's shine, causing Justin to
placed his hands over his face.  "Wake up Curly." he heard a soft, Southern
voice request.  Justin removed his hands and turned his head to the side.
He saw Brian knealing next to him with a smile.  Justin moaned and
stretched where he laid.  "Time to go Just," Brian added, running his hand
through Justin's curls.  Justin realized that he had fallen asleep in the
studio.
		It was a new day that Brian and Justin didn't get a chance
to enjoy much.  Justin agreed to accompany his husband to the studio, in
which they arrived at around eight.  it was a morning of meeting with other
artists and recording that Brian endured while Justin sat behind the scenes
watching his husband work.
		Justin ywaned quietly and then began to look into his
husband's eyes.  "What... what time is it?" Justin yawned out.  Brian
giggled and then looked at his watch.  "It's about three now." Brian
replied.  Justin gave Brian an odd stare.  "Only three?  And you're done?"
Justin questioned.  Brian nodded happily.  "Britney didn't show up for her
recording session and Eric's going to finish the work with Don sometime
next week." Brian explained.  Justin smiled with delight.  "So we get to go
home early while the other producers schedule more recording sessions."
Brian added.  Justin yawned again before sitting up.  He felt Brian
massaging his thighs as he tried to awaken himself.  "Do you wanna go home
or go out to eat?" Brian asked, trying to savor his last moments with
Justin.  Justin looked down to him and thought over the choices.  "Let's go
to mom's.  I wanna see Jonathan since he's in town," Justin answered
softly.  Brian sighed and then nodded.  Brian was thrilled to see Jonathan
but the idea of dealing with Lynn was something Brian did not look forward
to.
		Before Brian could offer up any disagreement to the idea,
the door of the studio opened.  Brian stood from his feet, backing slightly
away from Justin to see who was entering.  J.C. entered with a smile on his
face, looking around the room as he entered.  Justin sighed with relief and
reclined on the couch he had been laying on.  "Hey J.C.!" Brian chimed,
starting to walk towards Justin.  J.C. raised his hand and shook his head
at Brian.  Brian stopped in mid-step to look at J.C.  "Hey Justin, these
are two fans that won a local radio contest." J.C. announced, trying to
alarm Brian of his actions.  Brian nodded at J.C. and stopped walking.
		J.C. pulled the door open fully and let the young, fourteen
year old walk into the studio.  Her eyes lit up with awe and she looked
around the room.  A sixteen year old male followed her in with a meek
smile.  He caught glimpse of Brian and gave the traditional head nod to
him.  Brian replied with the same.  "They get a chance to meet us and get
autographs but since we weren't ready, we couldn't do it formally.  So we
figured give them a small tour and let them at least see us and get
autographs." J.C. explained, letting the door close behind him.  Justin
listened to every word J.C. said as the fans looked around.
		"Well I'm glad they came." Justin cheered, trying to put on
a show for them.  The girl's eyes flung over to Justin with happiness.  She
tried to control her squeals of joy when she caught his blue eyes looking
back at her.  "Hey there sweetheart." he chimed.  The girl felt weak in her
knees as she stared at her dream.  "Well what do I sign?" Justin called out
with laughter.  The girl quickly approached and handed Justin her poster
and ticket stub.  Justin grabbed both and smiled again at her.  "You went
to the show here in Orlando?" Justin asked, scribbling his name on her
ticket.  She nodded quickly.  Justin giggled at her and grasped the poster
of himself.  "What's your name sweetheart?" Justin asked, looking up at
her.  "M... Mandy." she managed to murmur out.  Justin licked his lips and
then scribbled his name and a small message for Mandy.  "Well I'm glad you
won Mandy.  It's cool that you got to come to the studio so we could see
you." Justin added as she gave her the poster and ticket.  "I... I wanted
to talk to you on the chat yesterday but the room was booked and I couldn't
get in." Mandy managed to say before frowning.  Justin felt for her.  "Well
how about this... you can ask me three questions while I sign..." Justin
looked to the boy with a questionable face.  "Oh... my name is Josh." he
replied with a small stutter.  Justin grinned at him and then turned back
to Mandy.  "While I sign whatever Josh wants me to sign." Justin finished
his statement.  Mandy controlled herself, wanting to jump for joy.
		Josh stepped forward with his fisherman hat on and handed
Justin a CD jacket.  Justin took the jacket and waved to the boy.  "Okay
Josh..." Justin said while scribbling his name on the jacket.  "You can ask
him the questions Mandy." J.C. spoke up from the side.  Mandy jumped with
shock, still pondering her questions.  "Uh... when's the new CD coming
out?" Mandy asked, trying not to get too personal with her first question.
"It's going to come out next month.  We just shot our next video last week
and that'll be out next week I think." Justin answered, handing Josh back
the CD jacket from their first album.  "Uhm, can you sign my North Carolina
jersey?" Josh asked, lifting up a balled up jersey.  Justin turned his eyes
to Josh and nodded happily.  "You a Tar Heels fan?" Justin asked, grabbing
the jersey.  "The BIGGEST!" Josh exclaimed with excitement.
		Brian found himself laughing at the boy.  Josh turned back
to look at Brian with wonder.  "Just ignore him... he's a Kentucky fan."
Justin joked, unwraveling the jersey to sign it.  "And proud of it!" Brian
shouted at Justin.  Justin kept his silly grin while writing a message on
the jersey.  "Maybe sometime when I'm in town again Josh, me and you can
hit the court for a Tar Heels game or something?" Justin offered, looking
to the young man.  Josh's eyes lit up with stars.  "me and Justin
Timberlake?" Josh asked happily.  Justin snickered and nodded.  "If Brian
can come along." Justin added, looking back to Brian.  "Only if the
Wildcats are playing!" Brian laughed out.  Justin rolled his eyes at him
and turned back to Josh.  "I'd love to go!" Josh flushed.  Justin nodded
and looked over to Mandy.  "Next question babe." he said with a smile.
		Mandy felt even weaker when he called her 'babe'.  "I read
you have a girlfriend or something?  Can I ask who?" Mandy questioned with
a jittery voice.  Justin grinned and reclined further on the couch.  "Well
I won't say any names but I am seeing someone or rather in love with
someone right now.  I'm happy too.  So I hope that answers your question."
Justin answered confidently, learning to cover for his marriage to Brian.
Mandy nodded happily.  "Uh... can I see your new tattoo?" Mandy questioned
shyly.  Justin's eyes flew open with shock.  Brian crossed his arms with
wonder at the girl's request.  J.C. awaited Justin's reply with a sly grin.
"Oh what the hell.  It's no biggie." Justin finally agreed to it.
		Justin stood from the couch and handed Josh his jersey.
J.C. found himself staring at Justin with shock while Brian stood in the
background watching.  Justin turned around and pulled up his baby blue
shirt.  Josh and Mandy both looked with awe, searching his back for the
tattoo.  "It's right there." Brian pointed it out for them.  Their eyes
quickly moved to the Japanese lettering on Justin's back.  "What does it
say?" Mandy asked with wonder.  Justin laughed at her question.  "Ah ah, I
said only three questions." Justin teased her, dropping his shirt.  Mandy
smiled at him when he turned around again.
		Justin sat back on the couch and looked at Josh.  "Did you
have to ask me anything?" Justin questioned, scratching his head.  Josh
took a minute to think of a question while Justin looked back to Brian.
"Yeah... I wanted to know if it bugged you and Brian that you two are
ALWAYS being put together as a couple?  Does it bother your girlfriends and
all?  I mean I know it'd bother mine if she knew the world sometimes thinks
I'm dating a guy." Josh let his question slip in with his comments.  Justin
frowned at the question.  "It doesn't really bother me.  The press and
media like to hype alot of things up.  Me and Justin aren't dating so it's
not a problem for us.  We like to laugh those things off." Brian answered
from behind Josh.  Josh turned to stare at Brian.  "And Leigh Ann doesn't
mind?" he questioned.  Brian shook his head with laughter.  "I'm not seeing
Leigh Ann.  She's not my girlfriend." Brian grumbled.  Josh nodded with the
realization.  "I agree with what Brian said.  We just take it as it comes
because it's just the media trying to make things bigger than they are."
Justin added to end the conversation.
		The hour went by as Justin sat in the living room of his
former house.  He knew that Brian was out in the backyard playing with
Jonathan after Lynn had requested a moment alone with her son.  Justin's
head was proppoed by his elbow, awaiting his mother to return to the room.
He sensed the urgency of his mother's want to talk with him.  However
Justin was glad that Lynn chose to do it in the living room.  Justin hated
having any talks with his mother the in cold decore of her office.
		Justin looked up when his mother stepped passed him and
took a seat on the opposite couch.  She looked around the room to make sure
there were no flaws.  Justin watched her with a loving eye.  "Mommy, what
did you want to talk about?" Justin asked kindly.  Lynn smiled at her son's
use of a childhood name.  "Justin, we need to talk about Jonathan... and
you and your husband." Lynn informed Justin.  Justin raised his brow at her
with suspicion.  Lynn looked around the room again.  Justin knewthat she
had something burdening on her mind.  He flicked a piece of lunt from the
couch and awaited her words.
		Lynn fluffed a pillow next to her, still dwelling in her
thoughts.  "Justin, I don't want you and Brian to kiss, hug or show alot of
affection around Jonathan anymore." Lynn managed to speak out.  Justin sat
up swiftly and looked at her with a sense of dislike.  Lynn grasped his
attention with her words.  "Justin... Jonathan and his friend Ryan kissed
today while they played outside." Lynn gave a short explaination.  Justin's
mouth fell open with surprise.  "I went to check on them and when I walked
outside, I saw Jonathan kiss him.  Ryan passed it off as nothing BUT I
didn't." Lynn stated.  Justin ran his hands through his hair with fright.
"Did you ask him about it?" Justin questioned.  Lynn nodded sorely.  She
grabbed the pillow and fluffed it again.  "He said that he thought it was
okay because he saw you and Brian do it." Lynn replied after adjusting the
pillow again.  Justin sighed with her remark.
		"Mom, if Jonathan kissed a guy, it's no big deal." Justin
eased off the discussion.  Lynn stood from the couch and began to walk
around the room.  "It's a big deal Justin.  I don't want to have to call
home to your father and say, 'Oh Jonathan's fine, he's just kissing the
boys in the neighborhood'." Lynn exagerrated her claim.  "My Lord mommy it
was just ONE person." Justin exclaimed.  Lynn adjusted a picture nearby
before turning to Justin.  "It's a serious thing Justin.  What if he thinks
it's right to kiss boys?" Lynn questioned seriously.  Justin crossed his
arms with anger.  "So now it's wrong?" Justin bitterly asked.  Lynn rolled
her eyes at him.  "People don't just adjust that easily Justin." Lynn
argued softly.  "Did you bother to ask Jonathan if he had a crush on Ryan?
Loved him in any form?" Justin asked her, trying to prove his argument.
"Of course not!" Lynn scoffed.  Justin shook his head at her.  "What are
you afraid of?" Justin asked her, relaxing on the couch again.  "Nothing."
Lynn quickly answered.  "Yes you are." Justin disagreed.  Lynn walked past
Justin with a furry.  "You're afraid he might like boys." Justin added
carefreely.
		Lynn quickly turned around to him.  "Jonathan is not gay
Justin!" Lynn barked at him.  Justin shook his head at her again and
exhaled greatly.  "Liking a guy doesn't make you gay mom.  That's what the
world would love you to think.  There doesn't have to be a label for love."
Justin said calmly.  "Justin, let me make this clear to you.  I don't want
you and Brian making out and all of that in front of your little brother.
He gets ideas in his head!" Lynn snapped at him.  "What ideas?!  He kissed
a guy and he's not wrong for it.  He was probably curious!" Justin barked
at her.  "Don't you take that tone of voice with me.  Jonathan doesn't need
to think he's in love with another boy." Lynn argued.  Justin stood from
the couch to look at her.  "I'm in love with another man mom.  Hell, I'm
married to one.  Are you mad?  Do you hate me?" Justin boldly asked.  Lynn
took a step back and looked around again.  "I don't hate you.  I don't hate
Brian either." Lynn stated raitonally.  Justin turned fro her and looked
around the vast room.
		"I just don't think Jonathan knows what he's getting into."
Lynn clarified her remarks.  Justin took a deep breath.  "What is he
getting into then?" Justin asked softly.  "Justin, people will
talk... they'll say things.  I don't think Jonathan wants to go through
that." Lynn rationalized.  Justin spun around on his heels to look at her.
"He doesn't want to go through it or you don't want people talking about
you?" Justin asked coldly.  He ended his conversation with her by walking
past her and then to the backyard.
		Justin stepped into the backyard to see Jonathan chasing
Brian around the grassy area.  "You'll never catch me!" Brian screamed out,
running from the little boy.  "Yes I am!" Jonathan shouted as she ran
quickly.  Justin laughed at the scene before him.  Brian stopped his
running, tired from the high sprint he kept.  Jonathan leaped on his leg
and they both fell to the floor with laughter.
		Justin walked over to them with a caring smile.  "You got
me silly boy!" Brian exclaimed, ruffling Jonathan's hair.  "Yeah!" Jonathan
cheered.  "And I've got you both." Justin chimed, standing over them.
Jonathan looked up to his older brother with his child-like smile.  "I
caught my new brother!" Jonathan clapped for himself.  "I see that
Jonathan." Justin giggled, looking at him and Brian.  Brian hugged Jonathan
as they laid on the ground.
		"Jonathan, do you wanna show your brother what I did for
him?" Brian asked of his husband's younger sibling.  Jonathan nodded with
excitement.  Brian soon stood and helped Jonathan up.  "Come with us."
Brian said, grabbing Justin's hand.  Brian held Jonathan and Justin's hand
as they walked to one of the trees in the backyard.  Brian stopped in front
of the tree and released both Justin and Jonathan's hands.  Brian stuck his
finger out, pointing to the tree.  Justin looked to the area Brian pointed
too and a bright smile soon formed on his lips.  Carved into the base of
the tree was a heart and in the heart said, 'Brian Loves Justin'.  Brian
wrapped an arm around Justin and smiled with him.  "My mom's gonna kill
you." Justin giggled, still glaring at Brian's artwork.  "She'll get over
it." Brian snickered.  Justin nodded before catching Jonathan looking at
the loving couple.
		Justin pulled from Brian and knelt down to his brother.  He
looked into Jonathan's baby blue eyes and smiled.  "Jonathan, do you have a
crush on Ryan?" Justin asked without reservation.  Jonathan blushed at the
question.  "I'm not sure." Jonathan shrugged, looking at the ground.  "When
you kissed him today... did you like it?" Justin questioned.  Jonathan gave
a small nod.  "Was okay.." Jonathan verbally replied.  "When you kiss Emily
down the street, is that 'okay'?" Justin questioned, still trying to figure
his brother out.  "I guess.  She kisses messy!  Ryan kisses nice." Jonathan
answered, looking back to his brother's eyes.  Justin nodded with a smile.
He pulled Jonathan into a hug happily.  "It's okay bro.  Don't kiss Ryan
unless he asks but don't do it around others.  They might get mad that
you're keeping Ryan all to yourself." Justin stated in a child-like way to
help Jonathan understand.  They ended their hug with Jonathan nodding.
		Brian bent down to where they were and grabbed Jonathan's
hand.  "You're a cutie Jon, don't be scared to say you like someone." Brian
advised with a caring smile.  Brian leaned over and gave Jonathan a quick
kiss on the cheek.  "It's okay to be like your older bro.  He's a cutie and
he wasn't afraid to say he loves me." Brian added, releasing Jonathan's
hand to hold his husband's.  "Like when you and my brother got married?"
Jonathan cooed.  Justin laughed while Brian nodded.  "You're a smart kid."
Brian finally gave into his own laughter.  Justin agreed, both of them
hugging Jonathan.
		Justin couldn't imagine how his happy mood had soon faded.
He was at home, sitting on the bed lonely.  The room was empty as Brian was
downstairs on the phone.  The minute they walked in the door, Brian hopped
from conversation to conversation, ignoring his husband fully as he talked
on the phone.  Justin watched Tyke prance into the room and play with BJ.
He shook his head with even more anger.  'The last night... the last night
he's here with me and he can't just disconnect the phone.' Justin battled
in his head.
		Another fifteen minutes rolled by before Brian made his
entrance into the bedroom.  As he did, he placed his cellular phone on his
dresser and looked at his brooding husband.  Brian was stressed from his
phone calls and ignored the question of, 'Why'.  Brian removed his shirt
and dropped it to the floor.  He made his way to the bed and sat down next
to Justin.
		Justin felt the warmth of Brian's body next to his and
rejected it.  Brian leaned in and began to kiss Justin's neck.  When
Brian's lips began to run the length of Justin's neck, Justin jerked away.
He stood from the bed and stepped over to his dresser.  Brian looked at him
with aggrivation.  "What did I do this time?" Brian sighed out.  Justin
adjusted the picture of Brian he had on his dresser as Brian spoke.  "Don't
act like it's always your fault when I'm mad." Justin grumbled at him.
"Fine then, what did your mom do wrong?" Brian quickly replied.  Justin
shook his head with disgrace.  "Justin, I'm too tired to read your mind
tonight, so please just say it." Brian complained arrogantly.  "That's just
it Brian!" Justin finally lashed out at him.  "You're always too tierd for
anything.  if it's not sex then it's, 'Justin can it wait until tomorrow?'"
Justin chastised him.  Brian groaned and sat erect on the bed.  "I have
alot of stuff going on right now Justin, I'm about to leave the country
for..." Brian started.  "For a month." Justin finished bitterly.  "A whole
month Brian.  You can't put shit aside for your husband?!" Justin began to
loud roar again.  "I put everything aside for your needs!" Brian argued.
"The hell you do Brian!  It's been this soundtrack, rehearsals, interviews
and all the other bullshit.  When half of it you could easily put off."
Justin lashed back swiftly.  Brian balled his fist and stood from the bed.
"I'd prefer get it all done now so when I see you in two weeks, we can
relax on the tour!" Brian bitterly stated.
		Justin walked away from his dresser and back to the bed
where Brian had sat.  "If you could just put it aside for two minutes and
just say, 'Just I love you', it wouldn't be so damn bad." Justin lowly
complained.  Brian sighed before rolling his eyes.  "I say I love you all
the time.  Don't make it sound as if I'm the bad guy here." Brian argued.
Justin looked at the floor with disgrace.  "As if it's easy geting two
minutes of your time?  You're the one always on the run promoting things."
Brian brought up a clear point.  "I can't get out of those negotiations
Brian.  That's all Johnny and management's decision." Justin explained.
"Yes, just like with me, I'm tied to something to." Brian boasted.  "Yeah,
Leigh Ann's heart." Justin softly remarked.  "Oh fuck, where does she come
into this?!" Brian hollered with angst.  "She's always coming between us
and you know it.  It's just the fact that you let her do it." Justin looked
up to make his words hurt.  "I don't let Leigh Ann do anything.  Unlike you
seem to think, I ty and keep peace with all of my friends." Brian hissed.
		"Oh yeah, like Matt Thompson?" Justin sorely asked.
"Matt?!  Matt is just a friend!  Why must you always be so damn jealous of
someone that gives a little more of my attentiont han you do at times?"
Brian snapped at his husband.  Justin grasped his pillow and hugged onto
it.  "Because you act like they're the world!" Justin finally complained.
"Justin, how many times can I say that you're my world?!" Brian snapped.
"I just wanna spend some time with my boyfriend alone." Justin complained
sorely.  Brian ran his hands through his hair, controlling his anger.  "I
try and make time for you but you seem so wrapped up in everyone else."
Brian griped.  He looked at Justin and watched a few tears run down
Justin's face.
		"I... I..." Brian was at a lose of words when he saw the
absolute sadness on Justin's face.  "I have to go call my mom before I
leave for the airport." Brian softly announced, drifting his eyes from
Justin's depressed expression.  Brian relaxed his hands before slipping out
of the room.  He let a few tears run down his own face, thinking of the
first serious argument he and his husband had just suffered as a married
couple.
		"Yes mom... yes, I'm going to miss you too.  No, I... I
don't know what Justin's doing right now.  I'm sure he'll call you while
I'm gone." Brian spoke into his office phone.  He sat in his office chair,
swivelling from side to side as he talked to his mother.  "I'm going to
miss him so much mom..." Brian felt his voice crack when he thought of
losing Justin.  "Yeah I know, the phone bill will be big but... I'll call
him everyday." Brian added as he and his mother spoke.  "Yeah, he'd love to
go up there for a few days to see Jacob.  I'll try and convince him to slip
away and do so." Brian nodded, listening to his mother ramble on.  "Yes
mom, we're doing our best to get a hold of some adoption agencies and
all... of course, he made the perfect daddy!" Brian bragged on with his
mother.  "I love you too... I'll tell him you said hi mommy.  I LOVE you.
Tell dad I said bye and tell Harold to call me sometime while I'm in
Europe.  I want him to come out and see me... yes, me and Justin love you.
Bye bye," Brian ended his conversation with her sadly.
		Brian placed his phone back on the receiver.  'Called mom
and the fam, set up appointments with the office and nothing else is
left...' Brian thought out the rest of his evening as the night had
stricken Orlando in it's shadowy cloak.
		Brian shuffled a few papers around before looking up to his
office doorway.  As he did, his blue eyes were sent into mystery.  Standing
in the door way was Justin's sleek figure.  Justin's body was lightly
covered by a navy blue, silk robe.  One of his arms gripped onto the
entrance way while the other rested on his side.  Justin's face was
innocent of all orevious crimes in their relationship.  His eyes were timid
and filled with sorrow.
		Justin began a slow and nervous walk into Brian's office.
His body was tense and his mind was not at ease.  He had spent a half hour
in the bathroom crying and another hour trying to think over how he could
make things right for he and Brian again.  Brian backed away from his desk
and watched his husband take a seat into his lap.  Justin sat there
motionless, wondering if Brian would push him away.  Brian didn't push
Justin away or reject him.  He ran his fingers over the soft material of
Justin's robe.  Justin felt Brian pull on him and soon they ere in a tender
embrace.  "I'm so sorry Brian." Justin whispered, returning the gentle hug.
Brian nodded, holding onto Justin tightly.  "I... I won't be able to hold
you for two weeks." Justin whimpered, cluching Brian tighter.  Brian
empathized with Justin, rubbing his fingers under the soft material.
"Don't cry." Brian requested, wanting to hold in his own tears.  Justin
with held the strong tears for Brian.  "Just know I love you and everything
will be okay." Brian added, hushing his husband's sniffles.
		Brian pulled from the hug and kept his eyes in Justin's.
He reached past Justin to an object on his desk.  He held the object before
handing it to Justin.  Justin cherished the object as he looked at it.
Justin held Brian's gold cross in his hands.  The cross was linked onto a
chain, shimmering in the brightly lit room.  "This chain means a lot to me.
When I'm lonely... it gives me faith.  So I'm I want you to hold it while
I'm gone.  For those nights when I can't call you and you really, really
miss me, just hold this cross and pray to God.  Everything will be okay
after that." Brian explained the sentiment behind the cross he was leaving
with Justin.  Justin was losing touch with the words he wanted to say as he
held the cross.  "Brian... I can't take something that means so much to
you." Justin stuttered out.  Brian shook his head with disagreeance.  "Its
the only way I can keep my faith too Justin.  I want... I need you to hold
this for me.  Please." Brian pleaded, keeping Justin's hands closed around
the cross.  Justin did not want to disappoint his husband.  He nodded
shyly.  Brian smiled with relief.  He pulled Justin back into a hug and
kept his adoring smile.  He said a silent prayer while holding Justin.
		"Hey... I have a surprise for you." Justin whispered into
Brian's ear.  Brian moaned softly and ended his hug with Justin.
"Surprise?" Brian questioned in his soft, Southern accent.  Justin placed
his finger over Brian's lips to silence him.  "You'll love it baby..."
Justin assured him with a whisper.
		Justin stood and grabbed Brian's hand.  He began leading
Brian out of the office with a sexy stride.  When Brian and Justin reached
the door way, Justin grabbed the belt and began to unbuckle it from Brian's
waist.  He ripped the belt off and dropped it in the doorway.  Brian
watched him with suspicion.  Justin began their walk again, walking down
the hall.  They passed their bedroom and Justin continued the endless walk.
When they reached the middle of the hall, Justin turned to face Brian
again.  He unzipped Brian's baggy pants and let them fall to his ankles.
Brian stepped out of the jeans with even more curiosity.
		Brian and Justin reached the bathroom and Justin stopped
with a smile.  He grabbed the top of Brian's black breifs and held them
tightly.  "Ready?" Justin questioned softly.  Brian scratched his head with
morbid curiosity.  "Ready for what?" Brian asked hesitantly.  Justin
grinned and them began to pull the briefs down.  Justin knelt down to the
floor, pulling the breifs to Brian's ankles.  Brian braced himself on the
door and then stepped out of his briefs.
		Justin scooted the briefs aside and stood again.  "Help me
with this..." Justin requested, putting towards his robe.  Brian shrugged
and grabbed the tie that held Justin's robe closed.  He untied it and let
the strings drop to the sides of Justin.  With a breeze, Justin's robe fell
open.  Brian admired the small portions of Justin's body available to him
through the robe.  Justin held his child-like innocence as he hoped Brian
would become entangled in the mood he was trying to create.
		Brian sensed Justin's need by staring into Justin's eyes.
The ecliptic light ran over Justin's blue eyes.  Brian stepped forward and
bit his lower lip with excitement.  "I love you." he whispered.  Brian
raised his hands and grabbed each side of Justin's robe.  Brian pulled down
the side of Justin's left shoulder.  He leaned in and began to kiss
Justin's shoulder as he pulled Justin's shoulder out of the arm.  Brian's
lips placed small kisses all over Justin's collarbone.  Justin wrapped his
hands on Brian's head and began running his fingers through Brian's sandy
brown hair.  "Mmm... ah..." Justin gasped out, feeling Brian's tongue dip
into the nape of his neck.
		Brian's other hand pulled down the right side of Justin's
robe.  Brian's tongue washed over the nape of Justin's neck while slowly
bringing down the robe.  "Mmph.." Brian groaned, slipping his tongue to the
right side of Justin's body.  His tongue traced Justin's shoulder before he
retracted it to kiss his shoulder.  "Oh Brian..." Justin moaned, still
rubbing his fingres through Brian's hair.
		Brian lifted his head.  He pulled Justin to him by gripping
the robe in his hands and jerking forward.  Soon Justin's erect penis
rubbed against Brian's.  Justin let out a deep moan when their cocks
touched.  "What did you... mmmm, have in mind Justin?" Brian asked, trying
to rub their chests together.  Justin's heart beat with an intensity.
"Brian... hmmm, you'll see..." Justin groaned into Brian's ear.  Brian was
troubled in his head but rejected the thoughts as soon as Justin's hands
rubbed his neck.  Brian released the robe and let it fall to the floor so
that he could hug Justin.
		Justin held Brian in one arm while his other hand reached
back to the bathroom door.  Justin pushed it open and released Brian from
the hug.  Brian lowered his panting to look past Justin.  He looked inside
of the vast bathroom.  The large bathtub was filled with water.  On one of
the sides of the bathtub was a white rose, laying in it's beauty.  A single
candle was lit on the sink where a stereo was waiting nearby.  Brian looked
in with awe.  "I'm going to miss you..." Justin whispered into Brian's ear.
Brian blinked his eyes as a small tear ran down his cheek.  "Look what you
did... you made me get moist." Brian tried to sarcastically comment.
Justin rubbed his cheek on Brian's and disregarded his words.
		Justin grabbed Brian's hands and led him into the bathroom.
Once inside, Justin closed the door behind them and locked it.  He turned
back to Brian who was still staring around the room.  "I'm so sorry about
before." Justin said, wrappin his arms around Brian's chest.  Brian nodded,
feeling the guilt for arguing with Justin before.
		Justin bent down and lifted Brian into his arms.  "I never
get tired of carrying you this way." Justin said sarcastically.  "And I
never get tired of being the bride." Brian giggled.  Justin carried Brian
to the bath.  He lowered Brian into the bath water and then stepped in with
him.
		Brian adjusted to the size of the tub and let Justin lay
between his spread legs.  He wrapped his arms around Justin's neck and held
him.  They both relaxed in the warm water, hugging onto each other.
"Mmmm... this feels nice.." Brian moaned, rubbing Justin's ear.  Justin
snuggled his head to Brian's chest, letting the water run over his body.
"I wouldn't spend this day with anyone else." Brian whispered, trying to
reassure his husband of his love.  Brian ran his water soaked hand over
Justin's hair, causing beads of water to form in his curls.  "I love you
Justin Littrell..." Brian added, rubbing his tongue over Justin's ear.
		Justin groaned softly, dipping his own hand to his soft
penis.  "No..." Brian grabbed Justin's hand and stopped him.  "Let me..."
Brian requested, replacing Justin's hand.  Brian's hand swirled through the
water, rubbing Justin's head.  The candle lit shined over their bodies,
creating a glow over them in the water.  Justin let out a soft cry, feeling
himself become erect under water.  Brian moaned with Justin, letting
himself become hard.
		Soon Brian and Justin were swirling in the tub so that
Justin could face Brian.  They both knelt in the tub, Brian's hands rubbing
over Justin's abs while Justin's hands roamed Brian's chest.  The night was
allowing them to gte to know each other's bodies once again.  Justin felt
Brian's hands become daring again and drift to his cock.  He was still
erect when Brian began to cup his balls and massage his penis.  Justin
leaned in more and allowed Brian free access to his body.  Justin's own
large hands moved to Brian's back and then slipped to his ass.  Justin
massage Brian's ass cheeks while Brian jerked him off in an erotic way.
"Heh heh... B-Rok..." Justin husked out.  Brian hadn't heard Justin use the
name in months.  He slowed the rocking of his hand to try and hear Justin's
pleas.
		Justin strongly pulled them into an embrace.  Their cocks
rubbed up against each other before Brian caught onto what Justin wanted.
Brian released Justin's penis and raised his arms.  He placed his arms
around Justin's neck.  Justin began to move his body up and down against
Brian's.  Brian began to do the same, grinding their hips together.
"Ah..." Justin gasped out.  He rubbed his hands up to Brian's upper back
with pleasure.  Brian's eyes were shut as he searched for Justin's bare
neck.  His lips met Justin's adam's apple and he began his sucking.
Brian's hands brushed Justin's hair lovingly.  Justin moaned against
Brian's shoulder, feeling the love they shared.
		Justin lowered one of his hands to Brian's ass.  He spread
the cheek's easily and slid a finger over Brian's hole.  Brian shuttered
with the feeling.  "Brian..." Justin groaned, gripping Brian's back.
"Yes..." Brian moaned back, thrashhing his head.  Justin slipped his finger
inside of Brian and began to finger fuck him as their bodies grind.  Brian
hissed slightly, letting Justin's middle finger toy inside of him.  His wet
hands caressed Justin's hair, leaving his neck with a strawberry red
hickey.
		Brian felt himself being overwhlemed with the sexual
pleasure they shared.  Justin sensed this and helped Brian slightly.
Justin leaned back so that he was laying against the side of the tub.
Brian mounted him so that they ere in the same position while laying in the
bathtub.  Brian's grinding was just as intense underwater, still having
Justin's finger burried inside of him.
		Brian opened his eyes to find Justin's pouting lips.  'Kiss
him... kiss him like you love him more than anything...' Brian conscience
advised him.  Brian followed through.  He leaned down and began to press
his lips with Justin's.  Justin felt the lips burry themselves on Justin's.
The surprise came as intrigue for Justin.  He slowed all of his movements.
Brian's hand grazed over his cheek, kissing Justin tenderily.  Justin felt
Heaven rinse over his body.  He slipped his finger from inside of Brian and
slipped his hands over Brian's wet back.  Brian sighed within their kiss,
enjoying their tender moment.  'Yes...' Brian exhaled in his mind.
		Justin slipped out of the kiss, much to Brian's
disappointment.  "Please..." Brian requested, trying to pull back into the
kiss.  Justin rubbed his finger ovrr Brian's lips and smiled.  "Wait..."
Justin whispered.  They released each other, Brian sliding to the otherside
of the tub.
		Justin stepped out of the tub and walked over to the
counter.  Brian held himself in the water, watching Justin's every move.
Water dripped from Justin's body as he turned on the stereo.  He flckied
the switch until the CD dial read 'Track 10'.  Justin smiled and pressed
the play button.  Justin pressed 'Repeat' and let the CD run it's course.
Soon the sounds of the smooth bass, the powerful instrumental, the coarsing
keyboards and the ultimate harmony of Xscape's 'Work Me Slow' filled the
bathroom and the house.
		Justin sat back into the tub, slipping between Brian's
legs.  He ran his hands over Brian's face and pulled him back into the
kiss.  Brian gladly accepted the kiss again and initiated the movement of
their hands.  Brian's hands ran the small of Justin's back while Justin's
hands rubbed Brian's pecs.  He traced a finger over Brian's scar with care.
Their lips were in the same, gentle motion.  No tongue's, no rush, just
ecstasy through their lips.

	Play me some music
	And pour me some wine
	I'm in the mood now
	Got love on my mind
	I want you to know
	That I like it real slow
	And whenever your ready
	You can slide off my clothes

		Brian's hands ran down the center of Justin's back slowly.
He gradually built the sexual tension in their kiss.  Justin's wet hands
grazed over Brian's hair and then his defined cheeks.  Justin moaned softly
in the kiss, taking his time.

	And touch my body
	Anywhere
	I'm yours tonight, make it right
	Baby just take me there

		Brian's hands slipped forward and made their way to
Justin's thighs.  Brian rubbed Justin's thighs while slipping his tongue
into Justin's mouth.  Justin accepted the tongue by massaging his own over
Brian's.  His hands were still freely romaing Brian's head and face.  Brian
savored the tongue in his motuh, sucking upon it.

	Take your time and work me slowly (work it)
	Cause I'm the kind of girl, who needs the kind of guy
	That can last (work it work it)
	Don't need no man around, if he slowin' down
	Too fast
	You gotta work, me slowly

		Brian was caught up in their ecstasy.  His hands rubbed
Justin's stomach, feeling the tight abs, the defined muscles, the small
belly button and the trails of hair that ran from the bottom of Justin's
belly button to his penis.

	Now change ya position
	And keep it right there
	Just go with my motions
	Rub your hands through my hair
	I hope you don't mind it
	If I let out a scream
	Cause it's feeling too good to me
	It's more then I dreamed

		Justin's head was spinning.  He didn't know how their kiss
had become so intimate but he knew it wasn't ending.  He felt his tongue
reatract to let Brian have his way.  'I don't want this... he can't leave
me..' Justin sniffled through their kiss.  His tears fell as they kissed,
warming his cheeks.  Justin's lips began to tremble within the kiss,
causing Brian to sense the obvious.

	It's more then pleasure
	It's ecstasy
	Up and down round and round
	Baby just come with me

		Brian pulled out of the kiss to see Justin's tears.  He
didn't stop his motions.  Brian simply leaned in and bega to lick the salty
tears away.  No words had yet been exchange between the two.  Justin hugged
onto his lover with need.  He understood Brian's want to forget all the
tears they would shed.  Brian's tongue moved from Justin's teary cheeks
back to his lips.  He licked a way to Justin's entrance before slipping his
tongue inside of Justin's mouth.

	Take your time and work me slowly (work it)
	Cause I'm the kind of girl, who needs the kind of guy
	That can last (work it work it)
	Don't need no man around, if he slowin' down
	Too fast
	You gotta work, me slowly

		Brian pulled out of their kiss and brought Justin into an
embrace.  His lips met with Justin's neck while Justin's arm wrapped around
Brian.  Justin slipped into Brian's lap and just held him while Brian made
love to his neck.  Justin rubbed his fingers across Brian's neck as Brian's
own hands rubbed his back.  Justin felt he was getting another hickey on
his neck as Brian sucked feverishly.  "Ma... make... make love to me..."
Justin heaved out, feeling Brian grinding his crotch to Justin's ass.
Brian released Justin's neck for a second and then returned to it with his
smooth tongue.
		Justin lifted himself slightly for Brian's erection.  Brian
took one of his hands so that he could guide himself into Justin with care.
Brian let out a timid moan and then continued to kiss his lover's neck.
Justin let the sensations of pain run their course before pleasure entered
his system.

	And then in the morning
	We'll do it all over again (we'll do it all over again)
	I don't want this feeling
	To ever end (no, no)
	I can't believe how your loving me
	You get me off (baby you get me off)
	I can't believe your still strokin' me
	Cause baby you're taking it all

		Justin felt the lyrics of the song were true to what he and
Brian were doing.  Sharing their most intimate night in days.  Justin
panted hard with Brian, raising and dropping his hips slowly within the
water.  The stamina he kept helped him in more ways than one when it came
to sex.  Brian however was too into his kissing to savor the sensations
Justin gave his body.  He felt numb to the world, high off the of love
Justin injected into his body.
		Brian snapped out of his world.  He placed his hand on
Justin's chin and guided his lips to Justin's.  "Don't ever let go..." he
whispered before beginning a slow kiss with Justin.  Justin felt another
tear escape his eyes, except it was a tear of joy.  Brian had removed the
sorrow from his mind long enough for them to pleasure from their love
making.  Brian's hand caressed the head of Justin's cock as Justin bounced
on his lap.  "Mmmmm..." Brian moaned in their kiss.
		Justin had to release their kiss long enough to scream out
in delight.  He pulled Brian's hair back and kissed him on the cheek.
"Baby... a little... oh, oh... longer..." Justin breathed out, rubbing his
hand over Brian's cheek.  Brian understood and increased the speed of his
jacking.

	Take your time and work me slowly (work it)
	Cause I'm the kind of girl, who needs the kind of guy
	That can last (work it work it)
	Don't need no man around, if he slowin' down
	Too fast
	You gotta work, me slowly

		"Oh Just..." Brian holldered out.  He knew he was close to
cumming with Justin's steady movements.  The stroke was deep, rubbing over
Justin's prostate.  "Mmmph... almost." Brian grunted.  Justin felt his head
rubbed against Brian's palm once more.  "No... oh... uh, uh, yes..." Justin
gasped, wrapping his arms around Brian's neck.  Brian let Justin cum under
the water, the cream mixing with the water.  Justin panted heavily against
Brian's neck, still trying to make love with Brian.  "It's okay
Justin... you're tired..." Brian tried to assure him, slowing Justin's
rocking.  Justin kissed Brian's neck for his concern.  He kept moving so
that Brian could enjoy the pleasure he did.  Brian tilted his head back,
his penis expanding inside of Justin.  "UH!" Brian grunted hard.  "Oh
God.. mmm, yes... oh Justin... oh lover... ah, ah, ah, yes!" Brian let all
of his pleasureable grunts be released as his cock shot seven loads of cum
into Justin's body.  Justin stopped his riding and let Brian's dick just
pulsate inside of him.  Brian shivered as he came, each drop entering
Justin's ass.  Brian exhaled hard, just holding Justin.  Justin lt him
relax, not wanting to cry again for Brian.
		Brian finally made his way out of the bathroom holding the
rose in his hand.  He was drying his hair with a towel while another towel
was wrapped around his waist.  He lifted the rose to his nose and took in
the strong aroma.  'Mmmmmm... smells just like Justin's cologne.' Brian
sighed with a smile.  'I wonder where my husband is?' Brian pondered,
walking down the hall.  'He probably went to bed... poor Justin.' Brian
shook his head, knowing Justin probably cried himself to sleep.
		Brian walked further down the hall until he reached
Justin's old room.  He noticed the door was open.  He peered his head
inside and saw Justin, sleeping nude on the bed with BJ wrapped in his
arms.  Brian tiltied his head as he glared at Justin.  'Angel,' Brian
thought as he looked at his sleeping husband.
		Brian pushed the door open fully and walked into the room.
'Be glad you packed Brian, otherwise you couldn't do this.' Brian thought
to himself.  He crawled onto the bed and wrapped his arms around Justin.
Brian dropped his towel and placed the rose in front of Justin.  "I love
you..." Brian whispered into Justin's ear before snuggling up with him.
Justin stirred a little but kept his same position.  The warmth of their
bodies were all they needed as they slept in the bed together.

	This can't be right
	Cause each and everytime
	I look deep in your eyes
	I see the shining stars
	Beautiful work of art
	Still we do slip apart
	Let's talk it through you and I
	Here tonight oh ho

		Nick listened to the sounds of 702 as he sat at the Orlando
International Airport.  He had grown to love 'Don't Go Breaking My Heart'
thanks to his boyfriend J.C.  He eyed J.C. from where he sat.  J.C was busy
saying his farewells to Howie, not giving Nick the time he wanted to say
goodbye.  Nick ran a hand over his hair, trying not to knock his hed phones
off.  He bit his lower lip and began to flip through his CD case.  'Maybe
some Journey won't make this so bad for me.' Nick thought to himself,
grabbing the CD from his case.
		"So you're saying even if I protest, you can't stay?" Nikki
complained, not wantning to end her second hug with her boyfriend.  "You're
going to make this so hard for me when they start boarding us." Kevin
sighed.  He ran his hand over her sunshine red hair.  "I guess that means
you don't want to say goodbye?" Nikki sadly asked, trying to keep the tears
from overwhelming her.  "Come on Nikki, let's go to the lounge." Kevin
advised, wanting to spend his last minutes alone with his girlfriend.  "But
then I can't say goodbye to A.J." Nikki argued kindly.  Kevin held her hand
and frowned.  "This is hard enough Nik.  Please, give me the ten minutes I
need to say, 'I love you'." Kevin pleaded with a frown.  Nikki added to the
frown and leaned up and kissed him.  "Then give me two minutes." Nikki
requested.  Kevin nodded sorely and grabbed one of his bags to walk away.
		Nikki ran over to where A.J. sat with Irish and Misha.
Nikki took a seat next to A.J, interrupting his coversation with Irish and
Misha.  "I'm sorry ladies, I need Alex's attention for two minutes." Nikki
explained her sudden appearance.  "Sure, I need to go call Tony anyway,"
Misha agreed.  "Yeah, I want to go say goodbye to Justin before I leave
too." Irish added, standing up from her seat.  Both girls left, leaving
Nikki and A.J. alone.
		A.J. turned to Nikki and removed his sunglasses to talk to
her.  "What's up Peaches?" A.J. asked, dropping his hand over her's.
"Alex, we've gotta talk about Amanda." Nikki begged in a subtle way.
A.J. removed his hand from her's and flipped his sunglasses back on.  "Not
interested." A.J. bitterly answered.  Nikki snatched his sunglasses off to
grasp his attention again.  "I didn't ask if you were.  We're going to talk
about ehr regardless though." Nikki demanded.  A.J. grabbed his sunglasses
from her and stared at her.  Nikki felt she had his attention, keeping her
serious expression.  "Alex, she didn't know what to do.  You weren't ready
for a baby.  She couldn't just say, 'Oh A.J., I'm pregnant but let's
breakup so we don't fight about me keeping the baby.'" Nikki gave her
scenario.  "That's my baby!" A.J. argued.  Nikki sighed loudly.  "I know
it's your baby, but it's hers too.  She has to carry that little boy or
girl around for nine whole months.  Less than that now.  If the father of
her child didn't want a baby, then she felt she couldn't tell him the
truth.  So she hid it from you and the others." Nikki stated, defending her
friend's actions.  A.J. shook his head hatefully, still angered by his
ex-girlfriend's actions.
		"Look Alex, just take this." Nikki said, passing A.J. a
folded piece of paper.  A.J. grabbed the paper and slumped in his seat.  "I
love you Alex, have fun and please, take care of Pumkin for me." Nikki
requested, kissing A.J. on the cheek.  "I love you too Peaches and I'll
watch for your boyfriend." A.J. replied, letting her stand.  Nikki walked
off to be with Kevin while A.J. brooding about looking at the paper.
		A.J. sighed and defolded the paper.  When he opened it
fully, a small picture slipped out.  A.J. caught the picture and looked at
it.  It was fairly black with waves and other blouches on it.  He looked at
it curiously.  A.J. turned it over and read the back of the picture.
'Amanda Latona, three months: First Ultra Sound'.  A.J.'s eyes winded at
the sight.  He realized that the picture he held was an actual picture of
his child.  He quickly flipped it over again to stare at it.  He ran a
finger over the picture, trying to make out his baby in the tangles.  He
was in awe at the sight.
		He swiftly opened the letter and looked at each word with
wonder.  he knew Amanda's writing and he knew it meant something.

	Dear Alex,

		I don't know what happened and I don't know where I went
wrong, but I know it's not doing me any good.  I kept something from you
that I shouldn't have but I had to.  I can't expect you to understand what
a child means to a woman.  We're both still very young and we're not even
married.  We've had our shares of good and bad, but more good than bad.
Forgiveness never comes easy for me and you, but it's always what keeps the
bond of Panda and Bear.  I'm keeping the baby Alex.  I know it's not in the
best interest, but I'm not losing something that's a part of my body.  We
created this baby, me and you.  I'm not ready to give up.  I know you're
not ready for a child.  That's why I won't hold you to it.  I have enough
money, a stable place to live and friends to help me.  Lynn is already
setting things up for me so I'll have a good nanny and things with me when
I have touring to do.
		I love you always, you know.  I'd push apart oceans and
walk over mountains.  This time Alex, I have to slow down and think about
something more.  Our child.  He/She wasn't a mistake, but a blessing.  A
relity check for me and maybe one for you.  The baby will always know who
their father is, always.  Don't worry about this getting to the press or
anyone, I'll be on hiatus for a bit from the group so that people don't
know.  It'll just be my little secret.  I wish you the best Alex, with all
of my heart.  I was thinking of naming the baby Panda if it's a girl and
Alexander if it's a boy.

	I love you,
	Amanda Latona AKA Panda

	P.S. I attached a picture of our baby's first ultra sound.  Please
keep it so you'll have some part in your child's life.  Thank you Alex.

		The tears seem to grace A.J.'s cheek for the first time in
ages.  The tears of regret and soroow left A.J. in pieces.  A.J. held the
letter tightly in one hand and the picture in the other.  He held his head
in shame, thinking of the woman he let get away.
		"A.J.?  Bone?  What's wrong buddy?" he heard Howie's
Spanish accent ring in his ears.  As he did, the tears began to flood his
face.  Howie swiftly sat down next to A.J. before A.J. pulled him into a
brotherly hug.  Howie did his best to calm his friend, still not knowing
why A.J. was crying so hard.  A.J. just let his tear continue to fall,
thinking of Amanda with each drop.
		Justin ran his fingers through Brian's hair as Brian
admired his wedding ring.  Brian's head was in Justin's lap, his body
resting on some nearby chairs.  A few tears ran down his face while
Justin's remained tear free.  Justin rubbed away each tear for Brian's
sake.  "Look at you Justin.  Kast night you were a baby and today you're
hard as a rock." Brian tried to joke with another tear.  Justin wiped it
away quickly.  "I don't want you to cry as much as I will." Justin gave his
answer sadly.  Brian nodded, captivated by his ring.
		"I really don't want to interupt this." a soft female voice
said.  Justin looked up and then smiled.  "It's okay Irish." Justin assured
her.  Irish smiled at Justin and then Brian before taking a seat next to
Justin.  "So... two weeks before I see ya?" Irish tried to start a simple
conversation.  Justin nodded without emotion.  "Bet you're glad you're
getting a break from this goofy guy." Irish teased Brian, trying to make
Justin crack a smile.  Justin giggled with her.  "Yeah, two weeks of an
empty house." Justin sarcastically added to his pain.  "And one hell of a
phone bill," Brian added with a meek smile.  Irish bursted into laughter,
looking at Brian's face.
		"It won't be so bad.  You can call each other when you feel
lonely." Irish tried to lighten the sadness between Brian and Justin.
"That and phone sex!" Brian chimed, trying to make everyone smile.  Irish
pretended to gag while Justin was caught up in laughter.
		"See Brian if you keep trying to take my man, then we're
gonna have to fight." Irish joked, hugging onto Justin.  "And if you keep
flirting with my husband, we really will fight." Brian joked back.  Irish
fell into laughter, leaning down to hug him.  "You don't want none of me
baby." Irish cheered.  "Why?" Brian questioned with a grin.  "Misha!  Where
my girls at?!" Irish called out to her older sister.  Misha took the phone
from her ear and replied, "Put one hand up!"  Irish threw her hand up with
laughter.  Brian sat up from Justin's lap and grinned deviously.  "Aye
Nick!  Where my boys at?!" Brian yelled out to his friend.  Nick turned to
them with an equally charming smile.  "From the front to back!" Nick
hollered back.  "Lord, don't make them break into chorus!" Justin bellowed.
Brian began to tickle him with delight, causing Justin to fall into Irish's
lap.
		"Hey Nick, where's my boyfriend at?" Nick heard a quiet
voice ask.  Nick looked back and saw J.C. standing over him.  Nick smiled
happily, offering J.C. a seat next to him.  J.C. lifted Nick's backpack and
sat down next to him.  They stared at each other for what seemed like hours
to them.  "I'll miss you sooooo much Josh!" Nick said, trying not to
complain about it.  J.C. grinned.  "Yu'll have me everyday baby.  I'll call
on the hour." J.C. replied cheerfully.  "What if I'm jerking off?" Nick
questioned slyly.  "You'll still be on the phone with me because I'll be
the one getting you off." J.C. replied evily.  Nick fell back into his
chair with a smile.  "With just the right words... oh Nick.." J.C. played
with Nick's mind, running his hand over Nick's crotch.  Nick slapped his
hand away with fright.  "If I get hard and have to talk to Brian about how
surivive on masturbation, I'm blaming you!" Nick warned him.  "That's just
your way of saying, 'I love you'." J.C. humbled himself.  He rubbed his
hand over Nick's hair before grabbing his hand to hold.  Nick nodded and
held J.C.'s hand while he waited.
		Nick glared to the windows and a face seemed to mirage on
the window.  'I'll miss you Lance... you'll be in my heart.' Nick said to
himself, seeing a smile on Lance's face through his mirage.  It saddened
him that Lance refused to come and say goodbye to him and the guys, but he
understood Lance's pain.  He had once stood in the shoes that Lance had to
fill now.
		"Special Flight 1379 for London Englad is now boarding and
registering.  Please come to the front desk for boarding." the woman said
over the announcement.  The plane was set to leave at four thirty in the
morning and everyone had arrived an hour early for final bagagge check in
and to make sure nothing went wrong.  Kevin made sure that everyone was set
with their carry-on's and that everyone was in the right place at the right
time.
		Chris held Meelah's hand as they walked to the front desk.
"You have my cell phone number, right?" Meelah asked, holding his hand
tightly.  Chris nodded with depression.  "Okay, I want you to call me later
on." Meelah requested, looking into his ebony brown eyes.  Chris nodded
once again, staring at his new found girlfriend.  Meelah sighed, hating the
looks Chrishad given her since they arrived.  "If you don't cheer up, I'll
have Justin kick your ass." Meelah warned him with a warm smile.  Chris
found the strength to smile back.  Meelah felt thrilled for that second she
saw his smile.  "Don't miss me Chris." she whispered, giving him a quick
kiss on the cheek.  "That'll be hard." Chris replied, releasing her hand.
Meelah waved at him and began to board the plane.
		"Don't miss me too much either Chris baby!" Howie howled
before slapping Chris's ass.  Chris jumped with shock.  Misha laughed along
with Howie as they walked together for the plane.  "Bye Chris!" Misha
called out, stepping into the boarding area with Howie.  Chris waved to
both of them, his mind still set on Meelah.
		"If you stick your tongue any further down his throat,
you'll be tasting what he had for dinner." Kevin complained as he and Nikki
wacthed J.C. and Nick make out one last time.  Nick and J.C. didn't stop
their kissing, trying to take advantage of the last minutes they had.
"Kev, you gotta get your stuff on the plane." Mike, one of security guards,
advised him.  Kevin nodded, taking his eyes off of Nick and J.C.
		Nikki bit her lower lip and turned to her boyfriend.  "Just
say goodbye so my make-up isn't screwed." Nikki tried to joke off their
goodbye.  "I won't say goodbye.  You know that Peach.  I'll say I love you
Peach and that I cherish you.  Even if sometimes I don't say so.  I don't
think of anyone else but you.  So I'll see you in a month and I'll think of
you thirty days straight." Kevin made his words poetic and sentimental.
Nikki gushed at his words before letting a tear escape her eye.  "Damn you
Kev." Nikki pouted, trying to wipe away the tear.  Kevin smiled.  He leaned
down and gave her a smoothing kiss.  Nikki closed her eyes and thought of
being 'Mrs. Kevin Richardson' as they kissed.
		Nick let J.C. walk him to the gate.  Tears ran down Nick's
face as J.C. tried to remain strong.  Nick knew he should just let go of
J.C.'s hand and walk the rest of the way alone.  When they reached the
gate, Nick did as he thought of.  He released J.C.'s hand and attempted to
walk the rest without a goodbye.  J.C. gripped his arm and stopped him.
Nick flinched with pain and turned to face J.C.  "Josh... please." Nick
pleaded, another tear gracing his cheek.  J.C. wiped the tear away and
smiled.  He pulled a ring from his pocket and held it up.  It was a
sterling silver ring, catching Nick's eye.  J.C. grabbed Nick's right hand
and slipped it on Nick's ring finger.  Nick stood stiff with surprise.
J.C. gripped the warm hand and kept his smile.  "This is a promise ring
Nickolas.  It means I promise to be your heart when we see each other
again.  I won't stray and I won't be tempted.  My heart belongs to you
now." J.C. explained, becoming misty himself.  Nick let the tears fall
freely again.  J.C. giggled and pulled Nick into a hug.  "I love you
Nickolas Gene Carter... don't forget that." J.C. whispered into Nick's ear.
"I... I... I love you too Joshua." Nick whimpered.  J.C. rubbed Nick's back
for comfort.  They ended their hug so that Nick could board the plane in
silence.
		"Okay, I'll let you borrow my Kangol hat if you let me
borrow your cargo pants." Irish began her negotiations with A.J. as they
two walked to the gate.  "Hmmm... deal." A.J. agreed with a grin.  Both did
the best they could to get over having to say goodbye to Justin.  "Now what
about those halter tops ya'll wear?!" A.J. laughed out, bringing a
perculiar smile to Irish's face.
		"ALEX!" A.J. heard a voice call out just as he and Irish
reached the gate.  A.J. turned his head in the direction of the voice.  His
eyes caught onto a figure jogging towards them.  A.J. quickly released
Irish and ran back towards the calling voice.  "Alex!" she called again.
A.J. reached her before she could reach him and swung her into an embrace.
"Panda." A.J. gave a sigh of relief as he held her.  He didn't let any
tears fall, holding them back for her words.  "I had to say goodbye face to
face and to tell you I love you and good luck." Amanda said when
A.J. finally placed her on the floor.
		A.J. smiled, pulling away from the hug.  "Panda I love
you." A.J. quickly interrupted her.  "I love ya too A.J.  So I wish you
well." Amanda nodded.  A.J. shook his head at her.  "No, I LOVE you.  I
don't want to breakup over this.  I want to... I want to be there with you
to raise the baby." A.J. finally made a decision in his life that he never
thought twice about.  Amanda's eyes lit up with love.  "Will you take me
back?" A.J. asked with fear.  "Don't ask me silly!" Amanda giggled, pulling
him into another hug.  A.J. exhaled lowly, happy to finally have something
stable in his life.  "You get on that plane Alexander McLean and remember
that you have a baby at home.  So don't flirt with those German girls!"
Amanda tried to make light of his leaving to prevent a show of tears.
A.J. hugged her tighter, thinking about her and her only.  "Hey, I've got a
baby in there!" Amanda warned him with laughter.  A.J. quickly backed away
with surprise.  "I'm sorry lil' Panda." A.J. said, apologizing to Amanda's
stomach.  Amanda laughed before punching him in the arm.  "Get out of
here!" she advised of him.  A.J. nodded and gave her a swift kiss on the
lips.  "I'm going to call you." A.J. added before running off.  Amanda
waved him off with a smile.
		Endless minutes.  That's all there was in Brian and
Justin's embrace.  Tears slipped down Justin's face but they were silent.
Brian's eyes stung with desperation but he refused to shed more tears.
Justin sighed lowly, letting Brian caress his head with his fingers.  "I
love you." Brian whispered.  Justin blinked his eyes as another tear fell
to meet the others.  "I... I.. I love... you too..." Justin began to sob.
Brian hugged Justin tighter, knowing the tears were falling down Justin's
face and his heart.  "It's okay Justin... it's okay." Brian hushed him,
still caressing his hair.
		"Brian... uhm, we've got to get on now.  They have to take
off in about fifteen minutes." Kevin spoke up to them.  Justin let the
tears roll harder, loosening his grip on Brian.  Brian sensed this and
sighed.  "Just give me five minutes Kev." Brian requested.  Kevin nodded
and walked over to the gates.
		Brian grabbed Justin by the hips and led him to nearby
seats.  He sat Justin down in one of the seats and knelt down on one knee
in front of Justin.  Justin watched him with ever flowing tears.  Brian
grabbed Justin's left hand and held it in his own.  "I promise to love
you... honor you... cherish you... and hold you as the center of my heart."
Brian whispered to Justin.  Justin's lip trembled as he watched Brian.  "If
you just need to say 'Hello', call me Justin.  If ou trip over your shoe
laces, call me Justin.  If you can't find Tyke, call me Justin.  If you
need someone to whisper those special things you like, call.  And if you
just need someone to sing you to sleep... please call me." Brian listed his
requests, with the last one letting a tear slip out.  Justin nodded.
"Please tell me what I want to hear..." Brian asked.  He scooted forward to
Justin and plaed his hand over the area that Justin's heart beat.  Justin
thought of the only words he needed to say.  "Thank you for marrying
me... I love you Brian Littrell." he managed to get out without tears.
Brian grinned and leaned upwards.  "Just two weeks." Brian softly said.  He
placed a loving kiss on Justin's red lips.  Justin took the kiss as Brian's
love.  Brian pulled Justin into one more hug for his goodbye.  "You're the
song in my heart..." Brian whispered when he ended the hug.
		"Last call for Flight 1379." the announcement was heard
clearly.  Brian kissed away a few of Justin's tears and released him.  As
he did, Justin slipped something into Brian's hand.  Justin grabbed the hat
Brian wore and turned it backwards.  "You look better like that babe."
Justin managed to say as he adjusted Brian's hat.  Brian smiled and stood.
		Brian walked towards the gate with a semi-smile.  He opened
his hand and in his hand as the tennis bracelet Brian had bought Justin for
a wedding gift.  Brian turned back to face Justin with wonder.  He knew it
was a 'Remember me' momento.  He blew a small kiss to Justin before
following Kevin towards the plane.
		J.C. made his way over to Justin with Chris, Nikki and
Amanda in tow.  They watched as Justin sat in the seat with his knees
brought up to his chest.  Justin's chin was resting on his knees and he was
hugging his legs with his arms.  Tears streamed his face s Justin thought
about losing his husband.  "Curly?  Curly, are you ready to go?" Chris
asked hesitantly while J.C. took a seat next to Justin.  Justin wa stoo
shaken to answer Chris.  J.C. placed his arm around Justin's shoulders for
comfort.  "Justin... we all know how you feel." Nikki spoke up.  Amanda
swiftly agreed.  Justin sobbed harder with that.  "None of you saw your
husband leave you..." Justin's words were in tremble.  J.C. felt for his
friend as he bottled himself up from help.  "I... I can't do this..."
Justin whimpered, his eyes shut to release the tears.  Amanda moved in to
hug Justin and help him get past one of his toughest mornings.  "Come on J,
you can come stay at me and Chris's." J.C. whispered.  Amanda began to wipe
away his tears.  "You will always be Justin Littrell and he'll see you in
two weeks." Amanda softly reminded him.  Justin nodded, still holding his
ball position.

				TO BE CONTINUED...

*** Chapter 25 was LONG!!!  Yes, it was!  Hope it was worth it too.  I can
see you're crying right?  It took me a lot of work to actually snap out of
the sad mood I created.  So if I made you cry, I'm SORRY!  Think good
thoughts and it'll go away.  :) Thank you for your patience on this story,
it's been about two weeks coming.  It was a small break that I took.  I get
to go see 'N Sync on Thursday next week, so I'm excited.  School starts
Monday, so things will slow down a bit.  I hope you enjoyed this part.
I'll be doing a little side writing for a fellow author.  So look out for
that.  It'll be a one time thing, but I'm honored to be doing it.  i won't
say who yet though, I'll see if you spot me somewhere.  Please enjoy
yourselves and stay safe... ***

** Sex and drama, are those two of your favorite words?  Well lets just say
they seem to make a good story.  Let's talk about it for a minute though.
I have been getting minor complaints in which readers want less sex and
more drama.  NO!  I love drama as much as the next and I do tend to have
drama always in my stories, but I won't cut out on any of the sex scenes.
It bothres me a lot that every other story coming out on Nifty now is all
of ths fluffy romance and nothing real.  Sex is apart of a relationship
people.  NO authors touch on it though.  Most authors either make it short
and cute or make it one of those things where you're supposed to guess
someone's had sex.  Now I'm not a sex freak or anything, but I can't see
how so many authors can think sex isn't apart of love or anything because
it is.  So please don't ask me to cut down on sexual acts between couples
because think about it, don't couples have sex?!  I try to be the one
author that does touch on sex between several couples because it's reality.
And ya'll know I LOVE reality!  :) Thanks.  **

* Opinion time.  Well a little bit of opinion.  These Chapters were hard
hitting chapters.  A lot of ifferent things happened and some things aren't
resolved.  So tell me what you think would be a good way to resolve some
things.  You can read through the story and pick a storyline or whatever
and tell me what you think about it.  Those of you requesting Howie and
Chris have a relationship, it's coming along and as for Kevin & Nikki,
they're coming along too!  *