Date: Wed, 21 Feb 2001 21:27:41 EST
From: PHOENIXPUMA@aol.com
Subject: Brian's Seven Sea's of Loneliness 34

Brian's 7 Sea's of Loneliness
part 34 by Jon


	Brian seemed to be thinking, while he was talking. "Jon...." He
wasn't sure just what to say. "HMMMMMM HMMM HMM yeah yeah. Baby, please try
to forgive me." Flowed from his mouth. "Stay here, don't put out the
glow. Hold me now.... Don't bother. If every minute it makes me weaker. You
can save me, from the man I've become."

A small tear fell from his eye, as the rest of the guys looked at him, and
he nodded. Then they all joined in understanding what he was
doing. "Looking back on the things I've done, I was trying to be someone. I
play my part, kept you in the dark, now let me show you the shape of my
heart."

 AJ voice penetrated the room, as the guys softened, looking at Jon, as if
asking the same thing as the rest of them, for forgiveness. "sadness, is
beautiful. Loneliness is tragic. So help me, I can't win this war, no
nooo."

Kevin joined in With AJ, his voice, solemn as his eyes looked down at Jon,
as if pleading. "Touch me now don't bother, if every second it makes me
weaker. You can save me from the man I've become."

All at once, the five men were harmonizing together "Looking back on the
things I've done, I was trying to be someone. I play my part, kept you in
the dark, now let me show you the shape of my heart."

Nick's voice seemed to wake me out of my stupor, I realized each man was
here, singing these words, and to each one of them, they were asking a
different question. "I'm here, with my confession. Got nothing to hide, no
more. I don't know where to start. But to show you the shape of my heart!"

Everyone hit the bridge together "I'm looking back, on things I've done. I
never want to play the same old part, and keep you in the dark. Now let me
show you the shape of my heart."

All the voices blended together again in the chorus "Looking back on the
things I've done, I was trying to be someone. I play my part, kept you in
the dark, now let me show you the shape of my heart."

Then out of no where, as if a tormented soul, from sorrow, and loneliness,
and fear, Nick's voice cut in through the chorus "Now let me show you the
true shape of my heart" They all were in the end finishing the song off, as
a team. "Looking back on the things I've done, I was trying to be
someone. I play my part, kept you in the dark, now let me show you the
shape of my heart." "The Shape of my heart!" The last line was dragged out,
and Brian sang it alone. Looking deep into my eyes, he sang the line.


	They all looked at me, as I opened my eyes. Slowly, and carefully,
I opened them as I lay in Nick's arms. Gwen was awe struck by the scene,
and I must admit, so was i. My whole body was still numb, and I had this
overwhelming urge to just let sleep take me. I mustered my voice, trying to
remain distant and cold. "That doesn't answer why." I said it. I acted as
if the song meant nothing to me. I wanted to know why they did what they
did. What possible reason.

	My eyes remained locked on Brian. "Jon.... I thought I had lost
you, for good. I thought you were dead, and when I heard your voice, I
thought you were just trying to make me miserable. I laid in your bed for 3
days, wishing I could hear your voice..." I just stared at him.... "I could
never make you miserable, I never stopped loving you, and all I wanted was
your happiness, be it with someone else if that is how it had to be."

	He dropped to his knee's as the tears flew from his eyes. I still
couldn't feel my body, and the urge to sleep was getting greater by the
second. My head slowly rolled back in Nick's arms, as did my eyes to my
head. I let the numbness consume me, and I couldn't keep my eyes open. I
was far from asleep, but not very awake either. "Jon no, you can't do this,
you can't go to sleep and not wake up on us!" Brian shouted at me. He took
me in his arms, and stroked my hair lovingly. Kevin, AJ, and Howie just
looked onto the scene in a state of horror, almost as if it were just a bad
movie. Something from a dream long ago, and yet just a few days ago all at
once. Kevin just went into the bathroom, with AJ and Howie staring at him,
In a state of utter confusion, as they heard the water start running.

	Brian slipped into place, where Nick once held me, feeling how cold
my body had gotten, and how lifeless it was. He continued to stroke the
hair off my face, and hold me. Half trying to warm my cold body, and half
trying to comfort it to where ever it was heading. Kevin knelt down on one
knee, and dipped a face cloth into the steaming water, applying the hot
towel to my forehead. Everyone else watched in horror, yet Kevin seemed as
calm as one could be. Brian did his best not to fall apart and freak out,
but he was losing it. "Its going to be OK Brian, he just absorbed a lot of
information, and he wasn't so good before we got here either...." And with
that Gwen got a look on her face, as if she was going to melt Kevin in his
shoes. "BEFORE THIS HE WAS FINE!" She screamed at the top of her lungs, not
caring these people were famous, nor did she care how much she'd hate
herself later.

	They all felt another stare coming at them from the doorway. It was
as if the eyes were hitting them all with bullets as they stood there. The
face was familiar, yet completely estranged to them. The eyes were narrow
slits, as if trying to give the appearance of a snake ready to strike. Two
fists balled at her side, as she looked at the scene. Her skin, normally
white, seemed to be red hot, as if she would spontaneously combust there on
the scene. Her teeth were clenched like a vice, and it was almost as if her
two pointed top teeth had grown into fangs as she looked on.

	"What did you people do to him!" The voice, one that used to be
friendly, seemed to have venom on it. Everyone's jaw's dropped, none having
seen this side to Gray. Gwen also got up, her face and features much like
Gray's still trying to figure out what to do. Gray started approaching the
mass that was my body, and Brian. Her eyes stared at Kevin, as he continued
to swab the cloth on my forehead. Kevin had ignored Gracie, after he saw
her, turning his attention to trying to wake me up, yet part of him had
some idea what was about to happen. Nick got up quickly, remembering what
Gray had said earlier to him about killing Kevin. "Gray no, you don't
understand." She shook her head no at Nick, and AJ and Howie stood, as if
to form some sort of wall. Gray looked at AJ, hatred beaming through her
eyes, and he just looked down. The cold eyes soon flared at Howie, and he
started to look back, as tears slid down his eyes. He wouldn't budge, he
looked her straight in the eyes. He was facing another of his demons,
knowing this would have to have happened. "MOVE!" It was a simple word, but
the voice behind it, showed she meant business. In a single word she had
spoken a book of her intentions. She had made it clear she wanted blood on
her hands, and her friend safe from harm.

	Gwen looked at Gracie, and stared at her. Gwen's eyes seemed even
more pissed at the moment. "Who the hell are you, and what do you think
your doing?!?" Nick, Howie, and AJ gasped hearing Gwen. Gwen stared Gracie
in the eyes, and balled her fists up, approaching the woman. Grace raised
her right eyebrow slightly, and looked at the woman, a bit bewildered as to
who she was, but even more amused that she would stand up to her like
that. Yes her face showed almost a look of amusement for a moment, but only
a moment. "Who do you think you are fooling girl! If I have to single
handily go through all of you to get to Jon, and get Kevin away from him,
then goddess help you, and hope you caught up on your prayers, cause your
gonna meet your maker." Gwen took another defiant step towards Grace. "Well
you'd best kill me, cause if you don't I'll be killing you. I'll be damned
if I let another person hurt Jon again."

	The only thing that registered on Gracie's face was utter
shock. Pure and utter shock. "hurt... hurt him. I would never... we've been
too close too long. I'm here to help him..." Gwen looked at her
suspiciously "Well if your here to help him I suggest you sit down, shut
up, and let them do what they're doing. And gods help me, if you guys"
looking at them all she continued "hurt him in any way, seems you have two
of us that are going to rip you apart." Howie, Nick, and AJ didn't seem to
know what to say, or do. They seemed defeated, yet like they'd won all at
the same time. Nick went back over to Brian, and sat there with him and
Jon, while Kevin tried to keep the cloth warm. Nick grabbed a thick blanket
off the bed on the way and covered Brian and Jon up as he did. Rubbing the
side of the blanket where my arms where, in an attempt to cause friction,
and keep Jon warm. Gray and Gwen started to talk, little things at first,
introductions, and who they were, yet both kept a steady eye on Jon and
Kevin. Like two little pit bulls, small in stature, but given the need,
would rip you apart in nothing flat. They seemed to be hitting it off
really well.

	Almost 3 hours had passed, and by now Brian was getting really
worried. He refused to lose it, while holding me in his arms. Only a few
minutes after Gracie had walked in, and they moved me onto the bed, Brian
holding me in his arms the whole way. The guys were getting worried I had
slipped into a coma, with how cold I was, and how unresponsive I had
been. Had it not been for the stray movement of my arm, they would have
fully believed it to be a coma. Little by little, Gwen filled in Nick and
Gray on what she knew of what had happened, and the guys slowly started to
see what the commotion was all about. Gray's eyes seemed to soften a bit as
she looked at Gwen, feeling a connection. Nick had the same treatment. AJ
and Howie got death looks from her, as did Kevin. Kevin... for the moment
brushed it off, but the look in AJ and Howie's eyes betrayed how much it
was killing them. They lost Gray for what seems completely now, and they
almost lost a dear friend.

	The day went on as more of the same. Slowly but surely my body
started to warm up under the hot cloth, blanket, and body heat. It was well
into the night before I could even open my eyes. As I did, I saw Gray and
Gwen watching over me. I was confused as to when and how Gray got here, and
I looked to my right to see Kevin holding Nick in a chair. Their eyes were
tired, but not sleepy. At the movement of my head, Brian looked at my eyes,
to see them opened, causing everybody to look. Just as quickly as they were
opened I was fighting the urge to sleep again. I hung my head over the
edge, half in an attempt to get up, and half in an attempt to get to the
bathroom. As I looked over the edge of the bed, it seemed to go on
forever. Like there was no floor. My head started spinning and my stomach
joined the wash cycle. Moments later I was heaving up what very little I
had eaten in the past few days, along with a lot of blood. As soon as I was
done emptying the bile from my stomach, I felt my body getting cold again,
and closed my eyes. I couldn't fight the urge to sleep any more than I
could have walked to the bathroom at that moment.

	A few hours later, I awoke in Brian's arms again. There was an
acidic taste in my mouth, but no smell on the ground, so I had to assume
someone cleaned it up. I'd figure out who to thank later, for now, I wanted
to try to stay awake. I could hear Brian's even breathing and the rise and
fall of his chest as he held me. He had been holding me that whole
day. There were no lights in the room on, but that never bothered me, I had
excellent night sight. I could see Kevin and Nick sleeping, not peacefully,
but sleeping nonetheless on the same chair. I carefully moved my head to
the left, to see Gray and Gwen on the other bed, and AJ and Howie on the
floor, their heads propped on a few jackets as they lay there. I was
starting to feel claustrophobic at that moment. I hadn't really had arms
around me in awhile, and it was Brian, so it brought back a lot. My senses
seemed intact, I could judge distance at the moment, so I took Brian's arms
off me, not harshly, but off me. I got out of bed, and into the
bathroom. Brian, being the bump on a log he is when he sleeps, didn't seem
to notice anything. All the better. As I exited the bathroom all was as I
left it. I half smiled at the room. I was hobbling to the bathroom and no
one heard me. How typical. With that thought I had to chuckle for a minute.

	Clad in my jeans and tee shirt, I walked out onto the balcony and
started to look at the stars. The moon was full, and I could feel it's
essence overwhelming me. I sat there, basking in the aura of the great
Goddess, letting her love fill my troubled and aching heart. Letting her
wash away the pain that seemed to keep flaring up in my body. Letting the
coldness of the past few months just wash away in her light. Each star
seemed to call out softly to me, enveloping me into a song of which no poet
has ever dared try to write. I had to smile, as they kept singing to me. I
closed my eyes, and let the moon take over me. I saw the visions of some
clouds riding into my head, lead by the light of the fullest moon you have
ever seen. And soon stairs started to be formed from them. Stepping down
off the clouds was something I had longed to see. A mother, in the truest
sense of the word. Not my "mother" biologically, but the one I called
mother willingly.

	Her face seemed to drive away anything bad in my mind and
heart. Her eyes twinkled with such a light, that even the stars were
jealous. Her voice, so beautiful it would rival the greatest symphony, and
her hair, like red strands of solid sunlight. Her dress flowed from her
body, like a river down a waterfall, and the colors of her seemed as if
taken from the most colorful flowers. Her stride more graceful than the
swimming swan, and more elegant than anything dared try compare itself
to. I smiled as she approached me, on her clouds. "What is it that troubles
you this glorious evening my son. Your heart and eyes look as if they have
seen the troubles of 1000 lives in but a few days. I know your road has
been far from easy my son, but what weighs so heavily on you?" Her voice
just seemed beyond Divine, as her white aura enveloped me, filling me with
her love. I looked to her eyes, and knew she would help me. "Earth Mother,
how can It be, I fell in love, yet lost it almost as quick as it was given
to me. Friends... something I had long dreamed of, and was ultimately
something that nearly killed me. Have I not learned my lessons well, and
have I not had enough suffering. Can't I be happy?" She nodded her
understanding, and looked in thought for a moment, as if thinking how to
explain things. "Dear child, you have learned many lessons, and I am sorry
it has been so hard on you all these years. Unfortunately in your travels,
and lessons and learning, you forgot some of the most basic
lessons. Nothing can be taken away from you that you don't willingly give
up. Your love is still there, and the one you love still loves you. You've
forgotten how to forgive people that have hurt you. You forgive people for
many things in your mind, but you have forgotten how to truly forgive
someone, and try to move on. You've been so badly hurt, that you shut
yourself out from the rest of the world at the same time. In trying to
protect yourself from the pain and anguish of being hurt, you've sheltered
yourself from the joys and happiness of love. Then when it does hurt you,
you shut off to the world, and hide again. If love is what you want, you
need to love it back. You need to stop punishing people for the things that
have happened to you, and learn to forgive." I nodded my understanding to
her, and I tried to smile.

She took me into her arms, showing me the one thing I had desperately
needed as a child. Then again as a teenager, and even in that
moment. Something I searched long and hard for, yet never found. Love. As
she held me, her voice, but a whisper "Go to him my son, and love him. Show
him how you feel, and trust in him to do the same." Slowly the arms pulled
away, and yet the love never left. It wasn't long before she was gone, and
all that was left was her message, her love, and a feeling of purpose. I
slowly walked back into the room, and softly sat on the bed. I looked down
at Brian, and watched his sleeping form. I had almost forgotten how nice it
was to wake up to that face, the look of nothing bothering him. No stress,
just happiness, as he dreamed away the night. I smiled still at his ability
to sleep through anything, as I crawled back under the covers. I slid back
into his arms, and cuddled into his body, closing my eyes, and falling back
into a deep sleep, yet the words rang through my heart and ears as I
slept... "Go to him my son, and love him. Show him how you feel, and trust
in him to do the same."

I woke up to someone shaking me. Slowly my vision cleared, and I could see
everyone staring at me. I still felt two arms around me, and instinctively
cuddled further into the arms. I could feel the warm breathe on the back of
my neck, and my right shoulder. As I looked around the room, everyone's
eyes and faces looked relieved I had woken up. "OK what's on my face?" This
got everyone to smile. At the same time, everyone was still on edge. "Are
you OK?" Came a meek voice. One I had remembered all too well. "Yes Gwen,
for the most part." Then my voice got colder "But who is holding me?" As
soon as I said it, the arms left, and I silently berated myself for being
so cold towards Brian, full well knowing it was him. "I'm... I'm sorry
Jon." Then Brian pulled off the bed. I grabbed his hand just before he was
off the bed and held it.

"Can I have a few minutes alone with Brian please?" My voice was audible,
but it wasn't loud, or commanding. It was a very neutral tone. Without a
word by anybody, everyone cleared out of the room, and soon enough it was
just me and Brian in the room. Brian softly sat in the bed, a bit
bewildered. He looked onto me, and I sat up, still holding his hand,
caressing it softly on the top with my thumb, him returning the
gesture. "Why can't it just be like this. You and Me, sharing a nice
romantic moment. Just holding your hand, and not worrying about sex. Why
can't we just be together and let things happen?" It was just me letting my
feelings out as they came, instead of holding back "I know sex is
important. I'm... scared I guess. Scared to be hurt again Brian. Scared of
letting myself fall so totally in love with you, and losing you. Scared
that I'm going to give you my heart, and have it handed back to me in
shreds." A tear crossed my cheek, and Brian reached up to stop it. No
sooner had he, than another took its place. Brian whispered so softly, his
accent peeking out more and more as he spoke. "I won't hurt you. All I want
to do is to love you. All of you. Your hopes, your fears. Love you for your
dreams, and for your nightmares. I just want you to let me in. That's all
I've ever wanted Jon, was for you to let me in. Let me love you, let me be
with you." I just looked at him. "Can we try again?" I was afraid of his
answer, but as I looked into his eyes all the fear left my eyes, and my
heart. He merely nodded his agreement and kissed me. "Slowly start over." I
reiterated.


Brian's 7 Sea's of Loneliness
part 34 by Jon

	A few days had passed since the incidents had passed. Jon and Brian
had spent most of their time in another room, talking, and repairing their
broken relationship. Gracie and Gwen started to talk more about their lives
and found they really had a lot in common. Howie and AJ tried to spend as
much time around the two as they could. AJ seemed to be taking more
interest in Gwen as of late than Gracie, which relieved her a bit, and at
the same time made Gwen a bit uneasy. She never had a famous man flirting
with her. Nick and Kevin spent most of their time in their room, to make up
for all the lost time when Kevin was in jail and so forth, cementing their
relationship further.


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1 Month Later

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	Things slowly but surely got back to normal, as the days went
on. In the time that had gone by there were a few new changes, One Howie
and Gracie had started a relationship of sorts. AJ and Gwen seemed to be on
the same path as well. Nick and Kevin were inseparable, and Jon and Brian
were on their way once more. The days were long, and the nights were
longer. The concerts resumed, and the road called them all once more. The
quandary was, would Gwen and Gracie be allowed to come on the tour with
them, after all, Jon was there working, the other two wouldn't be. And so
comes the meeting, the boys, Jon, Gracie, Gwen and management have been at
for over 2 hours.

	"Why shouldn't they come? All it means is better shows, since we
won't be missing them..." AJ started, but was quickly headed off by
management "And you'll be late to engagements." Howie came in "Would you
rather us taking off, without notice to go see Gracie and Gwen, being gone
for however long we so deem?" Management had to put some thought into that,
and looked at the guys "We have your guarantee, you'll be where your
scheduled, and not late?" "Within reason" Kevin answered for the group
knowing sometimes your going to be running late no matter what
happens. Management nodded their heads in agreement, and the smiles on
everyone's face was apparent. Then all management looked at Jon. "How is
the recovery coming? You really have been through hell and back with us." I
just closed my eyes and nodded, remembering all the things I had seen over
the past 3 months. "Were glad you made it to the court room when you did,
bailed us out in the nick of time." Again I nodded, stood up and walked out
without saying a word. The physical wounds had healed, but the emotional
wounds were wide open and festering with the days. Parts of me thought I
should let it all out, and get the pain in the open, but part of me knew
things were going good for the guys, and they didn't need my stuff on top
of it all.

	I walked out the building, and smelled the "fresh" air, and slumped
down. My body and soul had been aching to get into a nice forest, or a nice
dam, and just be surrounded by nature, but the chances of that were slim to
none at this point. The LA. Leg of the tour had started, and I knew getting
out to the places I loved most, required me to be on the East coast. I
started Aimlessly walking the streets thinking about the past month, and
how things were going so well with Brian, yet at the same time, missing all
the other things in life. In the month that had passed, many conversations
were held in the pitch of night with the mother goddess trying to figure
out how to fix my thoughts and feel better. All the while looking onto
Brian, trying to protect him from the deep dark recesses of my mind. And to
keep the hurt locked away till a better time presented itself to tell him
about everything. As I walked I found myself in a large park, with a water
fountain in the center of a small lake. It was a woman, and a fairy, water
shooting from a bucket the woman carried. I smiled as I looked at the
fountain, it looked like something I had done long ago, calling to the
fairy spirits, and talking for hours. Part of me wondered if there were
fairies in the small pond, then my intuition got the better of me, and just
said "duh" knowing there were fairies everywhere.

	I kept walking through the park for what seemed like hours, though
off in the distance I heard a cell phone ringing. It seemed as if it was so
close, yet so far away. I shook my head, and realized it was my phone going
off, and it was dark out. It figures, I would lose track of time in my
thoughts. I had to smile though, it had been awhile since I had done
that. Walked and gotten lost in thoughts. After what seemed like the 10th
ring, I answered the ringing phone "Hello?" I was greeted with a familiar
if not somewhat worried voice. "Yes Nick?" "Where have you been, we ended
the meeting after you left, but no one saw which way you went. We figured
you'd be at the hotel, still nothing after dinner. We rang you
earlier. What's going on?" I smiled at his worry "I'm on a plane, and I had
to shut off the phone during the takeoff and main flight." "WHAT THE HELL
ARE YOU DOING ON A PLANE!" he screamed into my ear, echoed by Brian, then
Kevin. "I'm beating off here thinking about a cute blonde.... From N SYNC."
I chuckled to myself, living this up. "Ohhhh, your leaving Brian for
Lance?" I heard some slap Nick... hard, and a deep voice on the
phone. "tell me he didn't say that right before Brian kills my man Jon."
"Kev I am in the park, I've been here all day walking and thinking and lost
the time. I should be at the hotel sometime tonight or tomorrow, who
knows. I just need some time alone." "That's understandable. Just remember
tomorrow we leave on the bus at 8AM and if you miss that, you might have a
few problems... and Gracie says when you get back she's gonna kick your ass
for the heart attack. Gwen says way ta go, Howie wants to pimp slap ya, and
AJ is menacingly shaking a bottle of hair dye. So you have a lot to expect
now." "Yeah Kev, your REALLY making me want to come back before that bus."
"oh NO you didn't, your ass BETTER be back here in Brian's arms before
we..." I hung up the phone, and shut it off.

	I was still at the fountain as the sun started to rise. It was
beautiful to watch the sun coming into view. Having known where I was, it
was amazing they left me alone this long. I was happy to have the peace and
quiet that I was getting tho. It was like a much needed vacation. At the
same time, I needed more, and less. Besides it was nearing 7:30 by my
watch. Thankfully I live out the luggage, so they wouldn't have to pack
much of my stuff. I boarded the bus without checking in with everyone, and
went right to the bathroom and closed the door. Time to run a scare, and
kept the light off. I had to chuckle as I heard the bus being boarded. I
could hear Gracie and Gwen talking something about getting even, AJ talking
about me having mid-knight blue hair, and Kev and Nick were talking with
Brian. "He'll get there Brian, he is working, and when have we known him to
miss work? He's resourceful. Besides, its His choice." Brian just nodded
his head, and went to his bunk to catch up on his sleep. I could feel the
bus start to move, and I knew we were on our way. I figured it was only an
hour, 2 at most before someone needed the bathroom. I could still hear my
name mentioned in the front by Nick and Kev. "I can't believe he hung up on
me... and now he isn't here." "Well Kev, he needs some time, besides, it is
his choice." I walked out the bathroom, and looked at Nick and Kevin. "Yeah
it's my choice if I show up or not." I smiled, and watched their mouths
hang open. "After all, I am resourceful, and I needed some time to
myself. Truth be told I still do, but life goes on." They still sat there
staring. As AJ, Gracie and Gwen made their way towards the back of the bus,
they too sat there staring. "Do I have a ghost behind me, or is it
something on my face? Yall need to learn it's not nice to stare. AJ, you
touch my hair, and you may not live to regret it... if you live, it won't
be a happy existence." They all looked at me harder. I just smiled. I
walked off into the bunks. "This a bed for 2?" A groggy Brian answered
"Yeah if Jon was here it would be, but he's not, so let me sleep." "Ok, let
me know when I get here then so I can come to bed." With that I left the
area, and sat down on the couch. As I sat down, the fatigue of the day and
night went to my head, and all the thoughts flooded through my body. The
tears started to fall, and I laid down. Everything started to spin and my
head was throbbing. I started fiercely rummaging through my bag to find my
aspirin to control the migraine, as I got the bottle, I grabbed 10 pills,
downed them and laid back. I just let the tears fall, and the images
come. I wanted sleep to take me in the worst way, but it refused.

	About an hour later, I saw Brian walk into the bathroom, and look
to the couch. He looked over, then went to the bathroom. He didn't even see
me, well now I know where I belong. He went back to the bunks, and looked
again as he went by, still not seeing me. Rubbing his eyes, he looked back
over to me, and I attempted a smile. All I could see, was a bunch of
visions of the past few months. Part of me smiled at some of the memories,
and parts of me died again inside. It was killing me to hold all this
in. He came over, as if he was still dreaming. "Am I awake?" "Pinch
yourself and find out." "Yup I'm awake" As he sat down by my feet, he
looked up at me. "What's wrong?" I just shook my head no, this wasn't the
time. "You ok?" Again I shook my head no, and he just got that look in his
eyes as if he too was dying inside. "you going to tell me what's wrong, or
am I going to have to wait again?" I just looked at him. I wanted to tell
him, but now just wasn't the time. I closed my eyes and looked up at the
island paradise before me once more, feeling my conscious body slip away,
and my dream body form.


TBC.... Well here we are again, and here we go again. Please write, I love
mail, and look for me on A MidSummer Night's Kiss.  Jon