Date: Sun, 8 Apr 2001 01:24:04 -0700 (PDT)
From: John D <zachstack@yahoo.com>
Subject: BSB Hearts Assunder Part 5

Previously...

Moments after the three made it to Scott's car...

"Hello, Brian?  I need a ride home."  Nick cried on
the phone.

"Nick, where are you?  What happened? Stay right there
we'll be right there."

[Flashback ends]
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Hearts Assunder Part 5
Revelations

[Flashback]

Back at the BSB Hotel

"What happened?!"  Brian stood over Nick confused and
furious at what Nick had told him in the car.

"I-I don't know.  I just don't know."  Nick wept
openly into his hands.

"Do you have any idea at how this is going to affect
the group?!  The guys don't even know about you and I
experimenting before, not to mention you being gay!"
Despite himself, Brian couldn't help but scold the
younger blonde.

"I am so so sorry Brian, please believe me!  I didn't
mean to do anything like this!"  Nick wailed his voice
strained with his tears and anguish.  He looked up
pleadingly at the fuming Brian Littrell.

Brian sighed and wrapped his arms around Nick.  "shhh,
it's going to be alright.  We'll figure this one out."
 Brian rubbed Nick's back, trying his damnest to
soothe his beloved best friend.

"I'm so sorry Bri, I don't know what came over me."
Nick cried into Brian's shoulder.

"It's alright.  Let's just tell the guys the truth
now.  We owe them that much if we are gonna be draggin
them through this with us anyways.  THey might as well
know the truth from us before the tabloids hit the
shelves tomorrow."  Brian kissed Nick on the top of
the head, still trying to soothe the other man.
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On Melody's parents' driveway...

"Dammit, Brandon.  This is the last time I take you
and your damned weird friends with me and Melody. What
the hell really happened any..."

"He kissed me."  Brandon interrupted his brother
before he could even finish the question.

"o...k."  Scott, dumbstruck, fastened his seat belt
and pulled out of the driveway.

Moments later, Scott halted the car in the middle of
the empty street.

"You mean cheek right?  Then you decked him, is that
what happened?"  Scott, still confused, tried his
hardest to put the pieces together.

"No, and no."  Brandon continued to be withdrawn.

"Then what the hell happened?!?"  Scott was getting
fraustrated.

"The light's green."  Was all Brandon said for a
while.

"Wha?"

"The Light's green, go!"  Brandon nodded to the stop
lights.

"Brandon, tell me what happened!"

"He kissed me on the lips, man.  It all happened so
fast.  First we were in the back exit of the club then
wham! He lays a wet one on me then took off."  Brandon
turned to Scott.

Scott fumbled with words for a while before finally
being able to pull words together to form a sentence.
"Did you...Is that...You didn't like it did you?"

"No...yes...I mean no...I don't know.  I was just
worried about him.  He seemed bothered when he called
earlier."  Scott knew that Brandon was lying again.
But he knew and trusted his brother enough not to
press on.  "What should I do, man?"

"Well, no matter what happens don't tell anyone about
it.  Let me think it over for a while.  And whatever
you do don't go anywhere near that boy again if you
don't want mom to kill you."

Brandon hunched down in his seat, desperately trying
to pull his life back together again.

[Flashback ends]
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Now at the BSB Hotel suite.

NIck woke up to see Brian asleep on the keyboard of
his laptop on the kitchen table.  Nick couldn't help
but smile adoringly at his best friend and former
lover.  'Aww he's so sweet.'  Nick said to himself as
he walked quietly over to Brian and gently wrapped a
blanket over him.

"Yo, Bri, I..."  Aj and Howie barged into the room.

"SHHHHH!"  Nick quickly threw a finger to his lips to
quiet the others.

"Ew, you two aren't doing it again are you?  I thought
Brian was marrying Leigh Ann?"  AJ grinned at Nick
jokingly.

"Ha ha, now shut up and let's go to the next room."
Nick herded AJ and Howie out to the adjacent room of
the suite.

"Now what do you want?"  Nick scolded AJ and Howie.

Aj leaned over to look at the door behind Nick then
flashed Nick a toothy grin.  "Is it my turn now? ow!"

Nick punched AJ on the shoulder.  "Not even if you
were the last man on earth and I was really horny, Aj.
 Not even then."  Nick stuck his tongue out at him.
"But seriously though,  Brian is helping me find
Brandon again.  And he was up all night last night
looking on the net."

"So it's true then?!"  AJ laughed and hooted at the
idea.

"And what's so funny about that, AJ?"  Brian joined in
on the conversation.

"Well for starters you wanted to end the relationship
more than anyone!  Oops."  Aj instictly threw his hand
to his mouth at the same time as Howie made way to
cover up his friend's pie hole with his.

"Brian is that true?"  Nick rounded on Brian.

"Nick, I-I..."  Brian was speechless and was still
fumbling with words when Nick stormed out of the room.

"Nick wait up!  Let me explain."  Brian called
desperately after Nick.  "Dip shit."  Brian shot at AJ
before he slammed the door shut behind him.

"HEY! HEY!  Quiet down out here.  Some of us are still
trying to sleep!"  Kevin grogily stepped out of his
room just in time to catch Brian storm out.  "What the
hell is going on around here?!?"

"Genius over here just told Nick how Brian hated
Brandon's guts."  Howie nodded to AJ as he made his
way to the fridge.

"Hey it slipped out, I didn't mean it really."  AJ
pleaded.

"Well it's nice that you're so apologetic about it."
Kevin glared at AJ before scurrying after the spatting
best friends.  "Guys wait up."

"AJ you are a moron sometimes you know that?"  Howie
called out from inside the fridge.
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[Flashback]
In Brandon's room.

Brandon laid on his bed awake and unable to think of
anything other than the kiss.  He knew he had promised
Scott never to address the kiss again until they
figured out what to do, but he just couldn't get Nick
out of his head.  He just had to see him again.  He
just had to.  He was sure he wasn't gay, he never even
looked at another guy before...before Nick came along.
 He really needed to see Nick again if only for one
last time.
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[Still in Flashback:  Hotel Lobby.]

"Hurry guys, the fans are getting violent outside."
One of the band managers rushed the boys to the
elevator hoping to avoid the mad rush of female fury.
"Hold that elevator!"  The manager called as the
custodian stepped out of the closest elevator.

"Damn, you really are famous."  A familiar voice
ringed through the empty halls.

"Who let this boy in here!"  The BM almost had a heart
attach when he realised that there was a possible
hostile individual within twenty feet of his meal
ticket.  "Get him out of here now!"  The BM barked at
the two security guards who hadn't needed any
instructions and had already beat him to the punch.

"Whoa, there Bruno."  Brandon hopped over one of the
lounge sofas avoiding the grasp of the burly tattooed
behemoth.

Nick smiled as he watched the very first guy he ever
kissed outside the circle of the Backstreet Boys.
"It's alright Mike.  I know him."  Nick chuckled as
Brandon dove out of reach again from the big burly
white man only to land in the stiff arms of the
skinnier long haired handsome devil of a bodyguard.

"Eh?"  Brian cocked his head over to Nick, raising his
eyebrow in curiousity.

"You say somethin' coz?"  Kevin asked amidst the
hubbub of confusion and adrenaline.

"No, no.  Just curious is all."  Brian shrugged and
proceeded to get on the elevator followed by the rest
of the group save for Nick and the tall dark and
guesome bodyguard.

"John, I can take care of myself, alright?" Nick
whined to the bodyguard.

As though not trusting the golden haired boy, John the
Bodyguard turned to the GM for further instructions.

"Let them be, but not for too long."

"Yeah, those teenyboppers outside must be getting
bloodthirsty."  Brandon stared at the GM and flashed
him his most charming toothy smile.

"Yeah...right.  John, I changed my mind.  Stay with
Nick."  The GM spat through the elevator doors as they
swooshed closed.

"John, I'll be fine honest."  Nick tried his last to
convince the bodyguard to give him some space.

"Cool"  John shrugged and dropped to the couch with a
humph.

"Why don't you just come up, Brandon.  At least then
we won't have to rush." Nick sighed.

"Yeah, somehow I think that we'd have a better chance
to talk alone with those rabid chicks outside than we
do with him."  Brandon nodded over to the general
direction of the elevators.

"Orders are orders."  John smiled and winked at Nick.
Then leaned back as if watching something entertaining
before flipping a magazine open.

"Come on."  Nick and Brandon rushed into the next
elevator that opened and shut it quickly while John
was left scrambling over his belongings and over the
couch.

"John, where's Nick?"  the other elevator opened to
expose both Brian and the burly bodyguard.
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Nick and Brandon laughed at John's expense for the
duration of a couple of floors before silence dropped
like an ackward veil upon the cabin of the elevator.

"Um...nice shirt."  Brandon uttered without even
bothering to look up from his feet.

"er..thanks.  It's for a charity thing the guys and I
are going to be doing in a couple of weeks.  I'll get
you one.  What's your size?"  Nick couldn't help
himself from blushing after he heard himself ejaculate
those words.

"Wouldn't you like to know."  Brandon finally lifted
his face brightening up the room with a mischievous
grin.

"So you really are famous huh?"  Brandon tried his
best at eluding the true reason of him being here.

"Nah, just a bit known that's all."  Nick quietly
smiled at Brandon.

"So you wanna..."
            Both boys simultaneously started speaking.
"What ya doing..."

"Oh haha, you first."  Nick shoved his hands into his
back pockets still smiling ackwardly at Brandon.

"You were gonna say something..."  Once again the two
boys interrupted the other.  And it continued for a
while be Brandon finally decided to drop the bomb.

"It's about the other night."

"Oh.  That.  Brandon listen, I didn't mean to..."

Brandon couldn't help himself but placed a finger over
Nick's lips to shush him.  "It's okay, I didn't mind
it at all."  Brandon leaned in and made to kiss Nick
back when the elevator bell chimed and the doors
swished on open.

"Brian!"

[Flashback and Part 5 Ends]

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