Date: Thu, 12 Jul 2001 00:51:25 EDT
From: Tnerb65@aol.com
Subject: Chance and Brian Chapter 16

Disclaimer: I do not know or do I care about the sexual orientation of the
BSB..what they do behind closed doors is only there business. This story is
not to reflect anyones life, living dead or otherwise..

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then please refrain from reading this.

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Paula--- your my bud my best friend... i love you to pieces.

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Chapter 16
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I hugged him close and Said "Thank you Bri, that was very sweet."

"I mean it with all my heart babe." he said as he leaned down and kissed
me.

"Tig can I ask you a serious question?"

"Of course you can, what is it..  are you ok?"

"Sweetie I am more than ok..  but ummm...  can you get up my legs are
falling asleep."  I said smiling at him.

He laughed and said "Oh god im sorry I guess I just didnt want to leave
you.. or your embrace."

"I love you too Tig."

He pulled out of me and rolled over onto his side.. I laid my legs down on
the bed and said "Yeah that is much better.. kinda lonely but much better."
I reached over and pulled the condom off of him and got up and went into
the bathroom and discarded it.  I walked back into the room and grabbed the
towel and gently cleaned him up.

He rolled over onto his back and said "Chance this has to be the best night
of my life...  I love you more than I could ever say or show."

I laid down next to him and said "Brian I feel the same way about
you.. always and forever sweetie."

He rolled over onto his side so that we were face to face with each other
and gently kissed me on the lips and said "Can I stay here in Seattle with
you?"

I looked at him with complete confusion, shock and in awe that he would
even suggest this or even want this and Said "Brian.. I would love nothing
more, but you and I both know that you cannot do that.. you guys are
currently on tour.. you live in Florida..  everything with BSB is based out
of Florida you said that yourself. Dont get me wrong I would love to have
you here with me every night, however I cannot see that happening anytime
soon."

He laid back down and said "But it could... sooner than you think."

"How is that possible Brian, you guys still have how many more months of
touring?" I asked "Atleast six" he replied.  "Well then how can you say it
could happen sooner?"

"Because I have been thinking about getting out of BSB, and now that we
have found each other Im positive that I dont want to leave you."

"But Brian you love singing and touring, you love the music, how could you
just say that you would give that up..  and give it up for me.  Brian I
love you with all my heart and like I said I would love nothing more than
to have you here with me..  but I will not let you give up something that
you truly love for me..  I will not let you do that."  I said as I started
crying and added "Brian dont you guys have a contract that you signed??  im
not sure how all that works but its usually for a time period or for so
many records, am I correct or am I wrong?"

"Your correct, im sorry baby I didnt mean to upset you.. I just want us to
be together."

"So do I Brian.... more than you could ever know.. but I will not sit and
watch you walk away from BSB... I would walk away before I watch you give
up your passion, or give up your passion for me."  I got off the bed and
walked to the bathroom and shut the door and started crying harder.  I
couldnt believe he would even consider doing that for me..  I sat down on
the toilet and sobbed..  I heard Brian call for me while he knocked on the
door..  I didnt say anything..  I then heard the door open and he said
"Baby, is it ok if I come in?"

I sobbed out "Yeah"

He walked over and kneeled down in front of me and said "Chance I am so
sorry I upset you..  Please dont cry, I thought that by me telling you how
I felt and feel would make you happy."  He hugged me and said "Please dont
cry.. Chance I love you and dont want to lose you.. and im afraid that if I
go back on tour and you stay here we will lose that.  So I thought if I
stopped touring then we wouldnt have to worry about that."

I reached up and hugged him back and said "Brian it does make me happy that
you would be willing to do that, and that you love me that much, but you
would just end up hating me and blaming me because you would be giving up
something that you hold dear to your heart. There couldnt be any other
outcome other than you feeling that way towards me."

He pulled back a little and lifted my chin and said "Ok so not touring and
leaving the BSB is out.. so how are we going to make this work then?"

"Bri... we will take it day by day, week by week, month by month and year
by year. That is the only thing that we can do. Not to say that I wont come
see you and that you cant come and see me.. or we could meet in the middle
for a little get together." I said snickering.

"Hmmm I like your thinking, but then again I like everything about
you. Chance stay right here ok..  I will be right back."

"Ok" I said confused.  he stood up and opened the bathroom door and walked
out.  I waited in the bathroom as he asked..  He came walking back in with
boxers on now..  and kneeled back down in front of me and said "Chance you
know how much I love you..  Ive known it since the first night we met, and
I dont ever want to loose you..  Chance.... I am asking you to take this a
step further with me."  I saw him reach down and pick something up.. as he
continued.. he said " Chance Archer I love you with all my heart always and
forever...  Will you be my Fiancé and then be my husband..  will you
marry me."

I sat there shocked as he opened the velvet box to reveal the ring..  it
was silver, thats about the only thing I could tell before the tears
started falling again.

I sat there staring at Brian trying to figure out how to get out of this
situation. Dont get me wrong I love Brian and he knows that, but I am not
sure im ready to get married.. after all we have just been seeing each
other for about a week.  plus the big thing for me was is that he is
already married. I sat there crying trying to figure out what I was going
to do..  I never want to hurt Brian and I didnt plan on saying no..  but I
cant do it yet.. I think we need to give the relationship time and get to
know each other and then we can talk about marriage.

I sobbed out "Brian you know how I feel about you..  I love you with all my
heart."

"I feel a but...... coming Chance"

I looked away from him and said "But... I think its to early for us to be
engaged.  I need time.....  dont take this as a no Brian because its not..
But I dont think that either of us is ready for a marriage commitment."

You could see that Brian was getting ready to cry and he said "So your
saying no???  your telling me no?"

"Brian your already married.  I cannot except a proposal from you since
your already married.  Im sorry...  if you werent married Brian I would
have said yes the minute you asked me..  but I cannot say yes knowing you
are married to Leighanne.

He started crying and said "So your saying NO."

"Brian I am not saying that..  im saying lets see what happens.. plus I
feel like we are having an affair... I feel like your cheating on leighanne
with me... and I dont want to feel that way..  God Bri I love you so much
and I want to say yes so bad.. but I cant.  not yet anyway."

He got up and walked out of the bathroom and disappeared around the
corner..  I sat there crying not sure what to do..  I had just hurt the one
man that I knew could and does make me completly happy..  and I probably
broke his heart..  I sat there crying for atleast five minutes when I heard
brian talking to someone..  he came walking back into the bathroom and said
"someone would like to talk to you."  and handed me the phone and walked
out of the bathroom before I could say anything.

"Hello" I said into the phone.

"Chance?"

"Yes this is he, Who is this?"

"Brian called me asking that I talk with you..  he told me what he was
planning on doing tonight.  He called me because you said NO to his
proposal, because he is married to me.  Chance please believe me when I say
this..  the marriage Brian and I have is completly made up, I know Brian is
gay..  and that he is completly head over heals for you.. he asked you to
marry him tonight because he truly, deeply loves you..  with all that he
is, so please believe me when I say this..  Brian and I have never been
together and we never will.  We plan on announcing an annulment within the
next six months..  I will be out of the picture then, so please dont let
this stand in the way of yours and Brians happiness. What Brian and I have
isnt real Chance. But what you two have is very real, please dont throw
away what you have with Brian."

"He called you because of this?"

"Yes he did Chance, he wont let you go.. he loves you very much. and he
will not take NO for your answer."

"I thank you for taking the time to talk to me Leighanne. I appreciate your
honestly."

"Your more than welcome Chance, you go talk to Brian and I will talk to you
guys later."

"Thanks again Leighanne "

"Your welcome Chance.  Goodbye and go talk with Brian."

"I will...  Bye Leighanne"

I shut the phone off and sat there trying to figure out how I was going to
fix this.  I got up and walked out of the bathroom.  I walked over to the
desk and sat Brians cell phone on it ..  I walked further into the room to
find Brian laying on the bed watching T.V.  I walked over and sat down
beside him and said "Can we talk?"

"No, I really dont want to talk right now Chance."

"Are you serious?"

"Yes I am...  I dont feel like talking right now."

"Fine."  I stood up and walked over and pulled on my boxers.  I then went
over to my bag and pulled out a pair of sweats and pulled them on and then
grabbed a t-shirt and slipped it on. I threw on a pair of socks and slipped
on my birks and headed for the door. I grabbed my card key off the desk and
said " I will be back in a while."

Brian jumped off the bed and came over to me and said "Where are you
going?"

"Brian I am going for a walk. I will be back in a little while. I need to
work out my thoughts."

"Chance its 2:15 in the morning... I dont want you to go out by yourself at
this hour."

"Brian I will be fine." I said as I walked over to the door.

He walked over to me as I opened the door and said "Please Chance dont go
out this late at night by yourself."

"Brian I need to think .. OK....  I need to figure out what I want, and I
cant do that here..  stuck in this room."

"Then let me come with you."

"That is not an option Brian.. you and I both know it."

"Well ok..  then let me call security and have them go with you."

"No, I need to be by myself, I will be back in a little while Brian." and
with that I opened the door completely and walked out and down to the
elevators.  I turned and looked as I was getting onto the elevator to see
Brian standing outside the room watching me. I rode the elevator down to
the lobby and walked out the front doors into the cold night air.

I turned left and just started walking.  I couldnt believe that Brian asked
me to marry him and then he called Leigh anne and had her talk to me.  I
knew he loved me... I had no doubt about that.  I want to marry him god
knows that I do..  but im really scared..  im scared of him being on the
road all the time and never seeing him..  I cant live like that I cant just
sit and wait for him to come back to me, especially if we dont even live in
the same city.

I looked up at the sky and said "Please...GOD..... someone give me a
sign.. tell me what to do..  whats the right thing to do." I screamed.

I heard a voice say "Do what your heart tells you."

I turned around and said "Excuse me?" but there was no one there..  I
turned back around and started walking again and heard "If you love me do
whats right."  I turned again and saw Brian standing less than five feet
from me.

"I dont know whats right Brian." I yelled as I started crying again. "I
just dont know..  god....  I love you so much.. but im not sure that I can
give up my life, my job and my stability..  I dont know if im ready for
that."

"Im not asking you too Chance, I would never do that.. im asking you to
love me and let me love you back..  im asking you to be mine from now until
forever... I want us to spend the rest of our lives together... I never
expected you to give up your life for me, im asking that you allow me to be
a part of your life, let me make the hard decisions with you. Chance I love
you with all that I am..  I want there to be a tomorrow, next week and next
year for us, but I dont see that happening if we dont make a commitment to
each other."

I stood in the same spot just staring at him. I couldnt believe that he
could have such an effect on me. As I approached him he noticed the wetness
on my face from the tears that I was crying. and said "Baby please dont
cry..  I love you.......all I want is for us to be together."

I walked closer to him and wiped away the tear that was running down his
face and said "I love you so much Brian and I will always and forever. Can
we go back to the hotel im sure I look like a complete tard standing here
crying. "

"Of course we can, lets go."  He said as he hugged me.  we turned around
and started back towards the hotel.

"Chance... you dont have to give me an answer right now......  take some
time to think about it..  OK?"

"Thanks Bri, I appreciate that....  but I already know what my answer is, I
will tell you when we get back to the room...  if thats ok."

"Thats fine with me Babe."

We entered the lobby of the hotel and walked over to the elevator and Brian
pushed the button, once the elevator arrived we stepped in and I pushed the
button for floor 21 I turned around to Brian and Said "Thank you for coming
after me Tig.. im glad you did."

"So am I Chance.. we needed to talk.. I dont know why I just didnt talk to
you in the hotel but I guess I was still angry.  Plus... I didnt want you
out by yourself this late."  he said grinning at me.

I walked up and wrapped my arms around him and kissed him on the lips and
said " Will you be mine always and forever?"

"Of course I will..  always and forever."

"So this is through the good, the bad and the ugly times right?"

He said "Yes, for the rest of our lives."

"If this happens...  I cant move for awhile Brian..  mom and I just signed
another years lease..  I cant leave her to try and pay that herself, plus I
wont leave mom and grandma out here by themselves, and my job..  Brian I
love my job.. I have to work to pay my bills I cannot pay my bills if im
not working."

"Chance... we can pay off your bills..  and lets not worry about you moving
right away..  we can wait awhile..  like I said before, we can see each
other as much as possible. I will fly here and you can fly to meet us, Or
maybe you should think about taking a few weeks vacation and come on the
road with us."

"Brian.... I can do that.. I can put in for the time off and get it, but I
would have to wait about a month."

"Babe, I dont care when it is, just as long as your with me."

The elevator dinged for the 21st floor and we both stepped out at the same
time.

Brian looked around and Said "I wonder where security is?"

I looked around and said "Im not sure..  do they guard you guys 24-7?"

"Yes they are suppose to be posted at the elevator around the clock to
prevent any fans from gaining access to the floor."

"Well maybe he had to take a leak. Im sure he will be back in a few
minutes. Did you want to wait for him?"

"Yeah I think we should." He said with a concerned look on his face.

Thats fine with me sweetie." I said as I leaned against the wall. I heard a
door close, so I walked into the middle of the hallway to see who it was.
I really didnt know that many people with BSB so I wasnt sure if he was an
Employee or not..  so I said "Bri...  does this guy look familiar??"

He stepped out and said "No... well..  I dont know, yeah I guess he does
kinda look familiar."

I stepped futher into the hall and said " This floor is closed you need to
leave immediately!"

He reached into his pocket and started to pull something out..  I took a
step closer to Brian and said "I dont like this."

"Neither do I Chance"

I walked over and pushed the down button for the elevator, and walked back
over and stood next to Brian.  As the guy approached us I saw what he had
in his hand and it wasnt a love letter, it was a gun. I leaned over to
Brian and said "As soon as the elevator gets here you get in it and get the
hell outta here."

"Im not leaving you Chance, we go together, or I dont go at all."

Brian Please.. You get on that elevator as soon as it opens!"

"But Chance."  and that is where the conversation was cut off as a bullet
flew by us. I pushed Brian up against the wall and said" Get in the
elevator as soon as it gets here!.. dont argue with me."

I heard the ding of the elevator, the elevator doors started to open I
practically threw Brian in the elevator..  I heard another shot and felt it
rip through my side..  at this point I was on auto pilot, and I had so much
adrenaline running through my body I hardly felt it.

I turned and looked at the person shooting at me..  and saw the cold hatred
in his eyes.. at that moment I realized where I had seen him before.  I
slumped against the wall like I was really hurt and waited for him to
approach me.  When he got close enough to me I lunged at him and grabbed
the gun with my left hand trying to keep it away from my body. He swung
around a hit me in the side, I slightly bent over from the pain and raised
back up and elbowed him on the side of the head, he stumbled back a few
steps which gave me enough time to hit him squarely in the face with my
fist, and throw him to the floor .. we rolled around for what seemed like
hours until I was on top of him with his arms above his head. He screamed
that he was going to kill me if that was the last thing he would ever do..
he said something about how I had fucked up his life and got him fired from
his job.. he screamed I have never been to jail until today..  and that was
because of me.  I looked down at him and realized I couldnt do much more
since I was becoming light headed..  I looked at him again and said
"Goodnight" and head butted him as hard as I could.  I saw the light
flicker out of his eyes and his hands go limp as I pulled the gun out of
his hands and crawled away..  I sat against the wall and waited for help to
arrive.

I heard someone yell "Chance!  OH MY GOD watch out !!!!"  as I turned and
looked, I saw the guy who shot me.. he was about five feet from me with a
knife in his hands, the hatred in his eyes was enough to chill you to the
bone... as he walked closer I raised the gun and fired and watched as he
hit the floor and didnt move again.  I heard Nick Scream..  "Someone call
the police and an ambulance!!!  Chance has been shot!!!!!!!!!!"

I heard the elevator ding as the doors started opening I looked up and saw
Brian come running over to me.

"Oh my god Chance, are you ok...  oh my god tell me your ok..  please talk
to me."

"Brian im fine really..  could you make sure Nates ok..  please.....  oh
and call my mom..  she can come and get nate."

"Nates fine Baby.. and yes I will call your mom."

Nick came running down the hall and said "The police and an ambulance is on
the way."

"Thanks Nick.. I appreciate that." I said..

"Brian?"

"Yes Babe?"  Brian said chocking back tears, you could hear the strain in
his voice.

I looked up and into his eyes and said " I love you Tig... and my answer to
your question is .....yes.....  yes.... I will marry you."  the last thing
I remember is doubling over from the pain and staring at Brian as he became
dimmer and dimmer as I passed out.


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