Date: Tue, 2 Oct 2001 05:46:49 -0400
From: zmartin24 <zmartin24@hotmail.com>
Subject: Change For The Better, Part 2


This story is intended for adult readers. If you cannot read this story
because you are under the age of 18- 21, or not allowed because of
country/state/local laws please visit another website. This story also
contains a fictional plot between a fictional character and Brian
Littrell. This story does not however intend to imply anything about the
true sexuality or personal knowledge about the private life of any
celebrity (or other person) mentioned in this story. Also, if you are
expecting sex right away, find another story. This one is hopefully going
to have a plot and long-term relationship.
 
Now that the legal stuff is done with, lets get started!

	As you may recall from the last chapter we left off with Julie and
I running to a Code Blue in the ICU. It really upset me that this happened
while I was visiting Brian (after my shift nonetheless). When we arrived at
the room we found two other nurses doing CPR on a 90 year old man who was
in the ICU from a stroke. Julie and I hooked up the defibrillator to the
man and told everybody to clear. "SHOCKING!" I said as I delivered the
first shock to the man. Just then the doctor came into the room and asked
what was happening. "90 year old male, victim of a stroke. He's in
cardiopulmonary arrest. Shocked once, about to deliver second." I said. He
nodded in approval as I said "CLEAR, SHOCKING 2!". The doctor then checked
for a pulse and said "No pulse. Increase to 360 joules, and shock again." I
nodded and made the adjustment to the defib. "CLEAR, SHOCKING 3!" I said
before pushing the button.

	The doctor again checked for a pulse. "No pulse, administer 1 amp
sodium bicarb. Continue CPR." he said. I nodded and prepared the
medication. As I pushed in the medication through the patients IV the
doctor said "One more shock at 360." Julie took my place at the defib and
delivered the shock. I looked at the patient and saw that he had begun to
turn blue. The doctor then decided to call it. "Note the time for the death
certificate, call the family, and make him presentable for them."

	Julie and I left the room and left the other nurses with the
patient. I looked at Julie and said "Is there anything else we could have
done to save him?" "It was just his time, besides he had a long history of
medical problems. He had a long life with a loving family." she said. I
just nodded and clenched my teeth.  I hate loosing patients, but it is part
of the job and you have to get used to it. Just then the doctor came out of
the room and looked at Julie and I and said "You two did a great job in
there. There was nothing else we could have done, so don't let it get to
you. This stuff happens." I nodded at the doctor and headed back to Brian's
room.

	As soon as I entered his room he looked over to me and said "What
was that all about?" I told him as much as I could without breaching
patient confidentiality. "I'm so sorry that you have to go through all of
that stuff." Brian said lovingly. I told him that it was a part of my job
and I have to deal with it. "OH! I forgot to tell you, your family said
that they would be on the next flight out, and the Firm is sending a
representative. They should all be arriving a little later." I said. "Zach,
you have been so helpful and caring I could kiss you." I gave him a very
serious look and said "Why don't you?" I walked over to his bed and leaned
into him. He reached around me with his good arm and drew me in closer. I
looked into his eyes, and found that they were the deepest most caring eyes
that I have ever seen in my 25 years. Then, we kissed. Not a simple peck,
but a full passionate kiss. It lasted for about five minutes before we
broke.

	"Brian, that was the best five minutes of my life." I said. Just as
I stood up from his bedside there was a knock on Brian's door. "I'll get
that." I said. I walked over to the door and opened it. There before me
were two men and a woman. The older man spoke "We are the Littrell family,
Is Brian OK?" "He's doing much better, right this way." I said as I fully
opened the door to allow them access to the room. As they entered they each
said thank you. I looked at Brian and told him that I would leave him to be
with his family. Brian and his family all asked me to stay, but I thought
that they needed time to themselves. Just as they began to protest, Julie
called my name from the nursing station. I told the Littrell family that I
had to go. They nodded and I closed the door as I left the room.

	I met with Julie at the nursing station and she told me that she
had just gotten off of the phone with Brian's doctor. "Brian's doctor says
he can go home in about three days if he keeps improving like he is." Julie
said. "Great news, I love it when we kick my patients out of this damn
place." I said sarcastically.  we both laughed over my stupid reply. "So
you really like him don't you?" she said. "What do you mean?"  I
replied. "You never visit your patients that long. And besides, on our way
to the Code Blue you said you were visiting someone special." she
concluded. I stood in front of her not knowing what to say when she broke
my silence. "Relax, it's OK. I won't tell anyone. You two look good
together. But don't think that you can get rid of me that easy" I gave her
an awkward look and thanked her before saying "I'd better get home,
Midnight is probably going nuts trying to get out of the house by now.". I
excused myself and headed for the hospital doors.

	Arriving at home I was again greeted by Midnight. I let him outside
to do his business while I made myself a quick dinner. After dinner I let
midnight back in and decided to go to the mall to look around. I went into
a department store and an idea struck me. I'll buy Brian a gift. But what?
I looked around for a while and found a pair of Tommy pants and a Nautica
shirt. I had the clerk ring them up and I put them on my plastic. As I was
driving home I decided not to give Brian his gift until the day he was to
be discharged.

	The next couple of days were hell. Turns out Brian's family had
flown in on September 10th, the day before the tragic events in New York
City and Washington DC Every day after work I would go up and visit
Brian. Oh, I forgot to tell you that the day after Brian's family came to
see him they upgraded his condition from serious to good and moved him out
of the ICU and to a regular bed. But anyway, today is Brian's discharge
day, and my day off. Go figure. I went up to the 4th floor with his present
in hand to see Brian. I knocked on the door of his private room. I heard
him say come in so I pushed the door open.  Entering the room I found that
the whole room was filled with flowers, balloons and stuffed animals. I had
never seen so many things that said Get Well Soon on them. His family all
sitting in chairs in the room. I greeted everybody. This was the first time
I had seen his parents since the other day in the ICU. As I finished
greeting the Littrells I heard Brian say "Is that for me?" I looked over at
him and said "It was until you decided to be so forward and ask." as I
handed the box to him.

	He had a little trouble opening the box because of his left arm,
but he managed to open it quickly.  His family looked on anxiously to see
what I had gotten him. He pulled out the shirt and pants and said "thank
you, you didn't have to get me anything. "Well I just figured that I would
replace the clothes we had to cut off down in the ER when you came in."
"Thank you" he said. "Aren't you even going to read the card?" I said. "Oh
yeah, I forgot." he said as he opened the envelope. Little did everyone
know that in the card was something that I not only wrote for Brian, but
for the whole family. I couldn't say aloud what was written, so I figured
that he could say for me what I wanted to say so bad. He opened the card
and read it aloud.

	"Brian, I hope you like your gift. Now you have a decent outfit to
walk out of the hospital with. I have never cared for a patient like I have
cared for you. As soon as I saw the flight nurse bring you off of the
helicopter I felt a connection with you, even though I had never met you
before. I hope that what I have done along with the rest of the staff will
help you make a change for the better and continue with life, never looking
back at the pain that this accident has caused you. I take joy in knowing
that I have been a part of your life. Even if it was one of the worst
parts. I just want you to know that without doing anything you have made my
life better. I am no longer afraid of who I am, and I don't intend to hide
that anymore.  Thank you for being you and encouraging me to be just that,
ME.
								Love Zach"

	I looked over to Brian from across the room. I guess I kinda backed
myself into the corner next to the door in fear of an outrage from his
family, but instead, his mother Jackie came over to me and gave me a
hug. "thank you for saving my baby." she said with a tear in her
eye. Harrold and Harrold Jr were smiling in their seats but didn't come up
to me. I knew that they had appreciated what I had done for Brian, but were
unsure as to my intentions. I looked over to Brian so see his reaction. He
had a smile that stretched from ear to ear and had a stream of tears that
came from both eyes. I knew that the letter in the card had gotten to him.

	"Anyway, when are you all headed home? I asked to Harrold Sr. He
said that the rep from the Firm had stopped by and was currently trying to
arrange transportation back home, but was having difficulty due to all
flights being canceled. But the family had decided not to fly anyway
because of possible security risks with the airlines. We thought we could
take the BSB bus back. The rep doesn't want Brian to ride a regular bus
home because of his current health and the possibility of being
recognized. I looked at Harrold Sr. and said "Well then, I insist that you
stay at my house. I live alone in a three bedroom house and there will be
plenty of room there for all of you. Besides, that way Brian will have a
private nurse for the next few days." "We wouldn't want to impose." Jackie
said. "What else are you going to do, get a hotel room? Let me tell you
that there isn't a decent hotel around here. Believe me, I had my house
fumigated last year. I insist that you all stay at my house and thats
final." I said. I got a couple of sighs from around the room, but Brian was
excited at the idea. "OK, but on one condition. I get to cook." Jackie
said. Everyone agreed and I excused myself to get a wheelchair for
Brain. On my way back to the room I stopped at the nursing station and
asked for the discharge papers for Brian. Brian's nurse, Cindy asked me why
I wanted to discharge him. I told her that Brian and his family were close
friends of mine. She said "Must be very close" as she handed me the papers
and gave me a wink. I winked back at her and took the papers and the
wheelchair back to his room.

	Brian signed the papers with the excitement of being able to leave
the hospital. After I had returned the signed papers to the nurses station
I returned to the room to help Brian into the wheelchair. He had some
difficulty getting in the chair due to the cast on his left leg but managed
to do it. Exiting the hospital, Brian knew full well that he still had 2
months until he had to return to the tour with the rest of the guys.

	I managed to fit the whole family in my truck (its a quad cab). It
was a tight fit but it was a short drive. On the way to my house Jackie was
looking at the hills surrounding the valley that we were in and commented
on how beautiful the scenery was with the changing color of the leaves on
the hills. I told her that I would get some pictures from the lookout on
top of the east hill, that way she could have pictures of the whole valley
in the beginning of the fall.

	We arrived at my house at about 1:00pm and everyone piled out of
the truck except for Brian. I had to help him out. Inside the house the
first thing that everyone saw was my dog, midnight. he was always excited
to see visitors. Everyone loved him. I helped Brian to the couch and gave
him the remote for the TV. He immediately turned it on and began surfing
channels, eventually landing on MTV, where "Show Me The Meaning" was
playing. He sat there perfectly content. I asked everyone if they would
like a tour of my house. They all nodded except for Brian. He said that he
wanted to sit and watch TV for a while. I agreed with him and began the
tour for the rest of the family. I began of course in the living room where
we were standing. we then moved to the dining room and kitchen where Jackie
said "Nice kitchen, I could definitely cook in here." "I'm looking forward
to it!" I said. Next was the den, also used as my office. Then the
downstairs guest room. Upstairs were two more bed rooms, one was mine. The
basement was converted into my bar/game room with a home theater which had
a pull out couch that could serve as a fourth bedroom if necessary. Harrold
Jr called that room as his while they were here. I just laughed.

	Just as I finished the tour my fire pager went off dispatching my
department to a motor vehicle accident on the highway about two miles from
my house. I excused myself and began gathering my stuff to respond. As I
headed out the front door Brian stopped me and asked where I was going. I
told him that I had to go to a motor vehicle accident on the highway. He
told me to come closer to him. He drew me in for a quick kiss and said
"Stay safe." "Thanks" I said. Exiting the door I heard Harrold Jr yell my
name. I looked back and he said "Mind if I tag along." I looked over to his
parents and they nodded. "Hurry up, just stay in my truck and out of the
way." I replied.

	I started my truck and picked up the mic for my fire radio and
advised dispatch that I was responding. I turned on my red lights and sped
down the road with the siren blaring. Harrold Jr was excited, he'd never
been in a vehicle with red lights and siren, and was amazed with the whole
situation.  All of the cars in front of us were pulling off to the right
and I sped by them. It only took about 4 minutes to get to the accident
scene. It wasn't that bad, I mean the cars were totaled and there was gas
all over the road, but the drivers and their passengers were not that
seriously hurt. After we cleared the scene I took Harrold Jr back to my
fire station. He'd never been around fire trucks and had many questions
about them and the fire service. He told me that he had always wanted to
join the volunteer fire department in his home town but never got around to
doing it. I introduced Harrold Jr to all of the guys around the station,
everyone was nice to him and tried to make him feel at home. I didn't tell
everyone that he was the brother of a superstar. But I don't think the guys
would have cared, while he was there he was just one of the guys.

	I hadn't realized it but we were there for almost two hours without
calling everyone at home to let them know what was going on. I picked up
the station phone and called my house. No one answered, until the answering
machine picked up. "Hey, this is Zach is anybody home?" Harrold Sr. picked
up an extension and greeted me. I apologized for not calling sooner but
told him that Harrold Jr got the dime tour of my station. I then told him
that we would be home in about 10 minutes. With that I hung up the phone
and walked back out to the day room, where Harrold Jr was talking with the
guys. "Come on Harrold it's time to go home. See you later guys" I
said. "Oh come on chief we were talking to the boy." said Dirk, one of the
firefighters. "I'll bring him back later, I promise. But I have to get
home.

	In the truck headed home Harrold thanked me for letting him tag
along. I told him that he was more than welcome. We pulled back into the
driveway at my house at about 5:00pm and I was getting hungry. We walked
into the house to a beautiful aroma. Someone had been cooking. "I smell
Steak!" I yelled. Jackie walked out of the kitchen to greet us. "Wait." I
said as I took another sniff. "Roasted garlic mashed potatoes, Onion &
mushroom saut‚, and `sniff' asparagus. Right?" "You can smell all of
that?"  Jackie said amazed. "Hey, I'm a fireman, I know how to cook, and I
know how to eat. Besides, I know what was in my refrigerator." I
replied. Everyone laughed. Soon we were all sitting down around the dining
room table.

	I sat next to Brian at the table. I leaned over to him and gave him
a peck on the cheek and asked him how he was feeling. He said that he was
OK but I didn't quite believe him. Dinner went well, and I helped Jackie
clean up our messes. We all met in the living room after dinner. I
suggested that we all go downstairs and watch a movie in my home
theater. Everyone agreed and I helped Brian down the steps.  Everyone got
comfortable, Jackie and Harrold Sr. sat on the love seat, Harrold Jr laid
on the floor with a pillow supporting his head. Brian and I sat on the
couch. I was on the end and Brian was laying with his legs up on the
armrest, and his head in my lap. With that all arranged we began to watch
Hannibal. Jackie had to look away when Hannibal was cooking the piece of
brain toward the end. I just looked over at her and smirked. Brian got a
little giggle out of it too.

	After the movie it was time for bed. I was tired. and I knew that
Brian was too. Harrold Jr said that he wanted to sleep on the pullout in
the basement. Probably because of the home theater, but I told him that it
would be fine. Jackie and Harrold Sr. took the guest room on the first
floor. What Brian said next kinda supprised me. "Can I sleep in your room?"
"I guess, but I usually sleep naked." I replied.  "Doesn't bother me." he
stated plainly giving me the elevator eyes. "You're pathetic." I said
laughing.

	I helped Brian upstairs and helped him get out of his clothes down
to his boxer-briefs and laid him down on my bed. I then stripped down to my
boxers to be fair and got into the other side of my bed.  Of course, just
as I got comfortable, Midnight scratched at my door. I got up and let him
in. He was going to jump up on the bed but saw Brian, so he just laid on
the floor at the foot of the bed. I returned to the bed and got comfortable
again. Brian told me that he usually sleeps on his side but couldn't
because of the cast on his left leg. we talked about little stuff for a few
minutes. He asked me if I would give him a tour at my station when he got
the cast off. I told him with a smile that I might be able to arrange it. I
rolled onto my left side and put my arm over his chest. I could feel his
heart beating.  It just felt good. Just having someone special in my life
now. We both drifted off to sleep soon.

	The next morning I helped Brian out of bed and freshened him up a
little before dressing him and taking him downstairs. Jackie already had
breakfast ready for us. After breakfast I had to get ready for work. I had
another 12 hour shift in the ER starting at 8am. The day was progressing at
an incredibly slow rate. When lunch finally came I decided to arrange a
little supprise for Brian. I still had the phone number for the Firm and
called them. I arranged for the rest of the BSB to come to my house for a
visit to Brian.  The rep on the phone said that he had already been
planning a visit and the guys would be there tomorrow by 6:00pm. Which
works out perfect because I had a short shift the next day and would be
home by 5:00pm.

	When I got home I told Jackie and Harrold Sr. about the little
supprise. They agreed that it would be good for Brian, since he can't
really go anywhere. The rest of the night everyone just kinda lounged
around the house. Brian and I just cuddled the whole time, with a little
kiss here and a little squeeze there.  "Brian, I spoke with your orthopedic
doctor today, he said that your casts should be able to come off in the
next couple of weeks. then I promise I will show you around and we can do
whatever you want. I have a couple of weeks coming to me for vacation
anyway." I said to him. He looked at me and his whole face just lit up like
someone had shined a spotlight on it. "You'd take your vacation to spend it
with me?" he said. "And you're asking like there's any question about it?"
he leaned into me and kissed me with so much passion that I thought that I
would go into sensory overload. The kissing lasted for at least 10
minutes. I reminded Brian that he had some more healing to do and he
shouldn't get too excited.

	I then suggested to Brian that we go to bed. He agreed and we
started what was beginning to become a nightly routine of helping him get
ready for bed. Again, Midnight slept on the floor and I had my arm around
Brian in bed. I was beginning to like having someone in bed with me. It
wasn't long before Brian was asleep. I just stared at him. The glow was
still on his face as well as a big smile. After a while I too drifted into
sleep.

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