Date: Tue, 16 May 2000 18:24:34 -0700 (PDT)
From: Mike D. <md_life@yahoo.com>
Subject: Coming Back Into Your Heart 6

Disclaimer: This story will contain guy/guy sex between consenting
adults. If this isn't your "cup of tea" then scram. This story is not meant
to imply anything about the sexual preferences of the Backstreet Boys. This
story may be redistributed in other archives as long as I am kept as the
author and you don't charge anyone to read it. So after all that.....Enjoy!
Oh and if you enjoy this, please let me know at md_life@yahoo.com

Authors Note: I want to apologize to all the people who have written me and
haven't gotten a reply yet. Please be patient with me I will get to all of
your e-mails soon. I just haven't had the chance to yet. Oh...check out
these stories in this section of the Nifty Archive, they are all fantastic:
Forever, N'SYNC And the Vamps, BSB-N'SYNC Chronicles, Animal-N-Styncts, and
Justin's Dark Angel. Thanks and let me know what you
think. md_life@yahoo.com ~Mike D.


Previously on Coming Back Into Your Heart...

     "Step back. I'm going to open it." He said slowly starting to slid the
lid off. All the guys backed off except Kevin who went to kneel next to
Alex on the floor and helped him lift the lid. As it slid open the guys
held their breaths, but no bang came. They opened their eyes to see Alex
and Kevin contemplating the dozens of little chocolates that were in the
box. There was a note on top. Alex picked it up and read it out loud.

Wolf~

     We remember. You'd think that we would forget wouldn't you? That I
would forget. But I haven't and I will get you. Stalker can't save you. You
can't save yourself. If you want the both of you to live, go back to the
Agency. Rejoin the game and we can play again, just as we used to. And then
I will kill you according to the rules. Or maybe I will kill Stalker. That
is in the rules you know. The loved ones are always fair game in this
game. I'm coming, you can't hide so I'd try to be prepared if I were you.
Ready or not here I come.

     ~ Hunter


Coming Back Into Your Heart
Chapter 6

     Brian stared at the ceiling of his hotel room later that morning
thinking of that note. He didn't understand this side of his cousin...he
felt like in the past couple of days, since Alex had showed up he had seen
an entirely new side of his cousin. He hated that Kevin had felt it
necessary to hide a part of himself from him...his cousin. But still he
couldn't condemn Kev for it. It was pretty hard to believe even with proof
staring Bri right in the face. But now he was worried, the note that they
had found in the box of candy...this made it even more serious. Alex may be
tough but a bullet can kill no matter how tough the person may be.

He thought of himself and the other guys too. This killer from the game,
Hunter, would probably come after them too. Kev and Alex had left
immediately after getting dressed, saying that they were going to go talk
to Alex's boss to let him know that they were both, officially out of the
game. Somehow Brian had been able to tell that they both were more nervous
about this than the note. He didn't understand that but he hadn't been
through half of what either of them had. Kev had said something before they
left, that there was something that Alex wanted to tell all of them about
his past. Something that had happened to him in the game. Brian had a funny
feeling that none of them would really be happy to hear whatever it is, but
that it would help them to understand Alex, which would be good. Brian was
trying to understand Alex and he found himself liking him more and more. It
was obvious that he loved Kevin desperately and that the feeling was
returned, which was all that any of the guys needed to trust him. The rest
was coming.

     Brian put his hands behind his head and contemplated everything that
had happened since Alex had walked into that hotel room. Brian smiled, well
it was a relief to see his cousin lose that hint of sadness that had always
seemed to hang around him before. It was also a relief to know that his
cousin actually did have a libido. The guys had wondered over the years why
Kevin had never dated, but had never asked after the first time. Nick had
jokingly asked Kev why he never dated and he had gotten the saddest look on
his face and excused himself.  Well now maybe he could tell the rest of the
guys that he was bi-sexual. Even when he had known about Nick and AJ he
still had never had the courage.

He continued to stare at the ceiling, memorizing the paint splatters and
felt himself drift back to sleep. His last conscious thought before he fell
back into the darkness of sleep was to wonder what was going on at the
"Agency."

* * * *

     Kevin stared at the doors of this building that he had walked out of
years ago and vowed to never enter again and felt an incredible feeling of
dread. He felt Alex's hand come to rest on his shoulder and squeeze
lightly.

"Kev...I can do this alone if you want." Alex said gently, knowing how hard
this was for Kevin.

     "No, we will do this together. When we go in there though...you will
again be Stalker and I will be Wolf. I had hoped to never have to go back
to being that person again. But, to have you with me, forever makes it
worth while to be Wolf every once in awhile." Kevin said smiling at Alex.

"Kev.." Alex smiled shaking his head, "I thought you had realized by now.."
at Kevin's questioning look Alex continued, "Wolf isn't a persona that you
take off and put on..he's always part of you. There are just times when he
is less apparent."

     Kevin stared at Alex for a minute, "I guess your right...but I'll
think about it more later. Come on Stalker. We have a part of our lives
that needs to be permanently closed."

Alex nodded and they walked towards the doors.

     Once they entered the secretary, an older woman that was the picture
of the stereo-typical grandma, smiled at them but Stalker knew that if she
hadn't recognized him she would have had her hand on the semi-automatic
machine pistol strapped to the bottom of her desk. As it was she simply
buzzed The Exterminator saying in her quiet, matronly voice,
	"Stalker is here to see you sir."

There was a pause before Stalker and Wolf heard him reply, "Send him in."
The secretary nodded at them smiling again and went back to typing
industriously at her computer, and they entered the large door past her
desk.

     "Stalker so I take it that your mission was successful." The
Exterminator said not looking up from the paper on his desk.

"In a way it was." Stalker said as calmly as he could manage, using all his
skills to keep his emotions from showing, feeling Wolf's presence next to
him helped extremely.

     "In a way?" The Exterminator asked looking up, surprise flashing
across his face when he noticed Wolf. He leaned back in his chair smiling,
"Wolf! It's been a long time. It is good to see you again."

Kevin simply nodded as Alex continued, "Sir, we've come here so that I
could resign from the game."

     "What! Stalker, but your our best agent, we need you...your country
needs you." The Exterminator was mad, this was not how it was supposed to
have happened. Stalker was supposed to have convinced Wolf to come back,
not the other way around. It could not end this way. Somehow he needed to
convince them to stay with the Agency.

     Alex took a deep breath, "I'm sorry but I've been doing this for
years, I can't anymore. I want to simply have a life with the man I
love. I've made up my mind."

Exterminator leaned back in his chair, his mind moving swiftly. Perhaps he
could just put out that they were both back officially...if he did that
then they would have to come back to the Agency, there would be no safe
place. Practically every killer in the game wanted to see if they were good
enough to get these two. He smiled, this would work. He knew it.

     When Exterminator smiled Stalker knew that something was up. He knew
that he had a plan when he said simply, "Then that's your choice."

Alex sensed a trap, but knew that there was nothing that he could say that
would stop the trap so he simply nodded and turned to go. As he and Kevin
neared the door the Exterminator again spoke.

     "Stalker," He stopped but did not turn, "I will put out that you are
officially out of the game. But you know that that may not stop some of the
more...ambitious of the assassins out there. You have been a major target
for too long. It would bring a hell of a lot of prestige to the person that
manages to kill you."

Alex and Kevin looked at each other and then, without saying a word
continued out the door and out of the Agency.

     Once outside and in the car Alex leaned back against the seat and
sighed deeply, "He's right you know Kev. The person that kills me will gain
a lot of prestige, I believe that I am putting you and all the guys in even
more danger."

Kevin smiled at Alex, "Alex, look the guys know what to expect. And they
agree with me that you should leave the Agency. They like you Alex, they
want you with us. Almost as much as I do. You can't go Alex. Because, I
swear...if you do I will come after you this time."

     Alex looked at Kevin and smiled then sat up to start the car he had
rented. They sat in companionable silence for most of the way until Kevin
sat up and said gently,
     "You know that when we get back we have to tell the guys what happened
to you in Russia."

Alex took a deep breath and nodded, "I know and...I can do it. I...I might
break down a little Kevin, but I already feel like we are all a family and
I want to tell them, they deserve to know." The both grew quiet again and
Kevin reached over and held Alex's hand that was resting between them on
the seat.

     "Brian told me before we left that he has something to tell everyone
too. I don't have any idea what it is and he wouldn't budge when I asked
him, but I think it is pretty major. He seemed nervous." Kevin said as they
neared the hotel.

Alex thought for a minute, "Maybe he's going to tell y'all that he's gay
too."

     Kevin grinned, "That would be awful for Howie, him being the only
straight guy in the whole group."

Alex laughed, "Yeah, but at least he knows that he's the only manly one out
of all of you."

     Kevin turned to glare at him, "Are you calling me unmanly?"

"Oh no, my love. But....I do know that you scream like a little baby when
someone tickles you. But I would never call you unmanly....at least not to
your face." Alex said trying to keep a straight face as he parked the car
and jumped out, running for the doors with Kevin in hot pursuit.

     Alex knew that Kev would catch him if he got on the elevator so he
made a break for the stairs once inside the hotel, hearing Kev running up
them behind him.

Shoving the door open when he reached their floor he ran for Brian's room
knowing that he didn't have the key to his and Kevin's room. He found the
door unlocked thank goodness and burst into the room, trying to get it shut
behind him before Kevin reached it, but Kevin shoved against the door,
pushing it open again before Alex could lock it.

     The other guys watched as Kevin slowly advanced on the still laughing
Alex. They had all nearly jumped out of their skins when Alex had come
bursting through the door and now watched bemusedly as Kevin tackled Alex
and started to tickle him, wondering what had caused this.

Alex shrieked with laughter as Kevin tickled him unmercifully. Kevin held
him pinned down and stopped tickling long enough to ask grinning, "Take it
back?"

     "Never! You scream like a little girl!" Alex gasped out as he tried to
catch his breath.  Kevin sighed deeply.

	"I'm very disappointed in you Alex...are you trying to say that you
don't?" Alex nodded stillgiggling a little and Kevin looked at the rest of
the guys and asked, still smiling, "What do say? Does he shriek like a
little girl?" and began tickling him again, sending him into peals of
laughter yet again. When he stopped the guys were all grinning broadly.

     "Sorry Alex but you do shriek like a little girl." Howie said laughing
and Alex glared balefully at him.

"Dammit Howie, your not supposed to agree with him! Who's side are you on?"
The guys all grinned and pointed at Kevin who laughed and smiled down at
Alex.

     "Give up yet?" Alex sighed deeply and nodded. The minute that Kevin
let him go though, Alex grabbed him and pulled him down to his chest and
rolled them over so that Alex was straddling Kevin now and began tickling
him....he grinned when Kevin shrieked with laughter. After a minute Alex
relented and let Kev up. They both stood and walked over to the couch
trying to catch their breath and Kevin sat down with Alex sitting between
his legs, leaning back against Kev's chest.

"Soooo..." Nick said trying to think of something to say, "What brought
that on?" he finally asked.

     "Alex was teasing me. I didn't think that was the proper way to treat
his boyfriend and had to set him straight." Kevin said squeezing Alex
tightly.

Howie grinned, "Set him straight? Isn't that the opposite of what you want
him to be Kev?"

     Kevin stared at Howie for a moment then said, "I guess your right
Howie. Damn, I didn't set you straight permanently did I?" He asked Alex in
mock horror.

Alex grinned, "Nope, even worse...you gave me a taste for tall blondes." he
said jumping and walking to Nick and sitting on his lap who looked totally
shocked.

     "Hey!" Nick cried looking at AJ who was playfully glaring at Nick,
"This wasn't my idea!"

They all laughed and Alex resumed his seat leaning against Kevin's
chest. "So, Brian, Kev said that you had something that you wanted to tell
us. Want to spill now that we are all present?" Alex asked cautiously.

     Brian silently nodded and took a deep breath, "Guys.....I'm bisexual."

They all stared then turned to look at Howie who said seriously, "Yeah,
well I'm lesbian...so what?"

     They all started to laugh and Brian looked distinctly relieved.

What did you think that we were going to do Bri? Yell at you for being
attracted to guys?" Nick asked taking AJ's hand, " Somehow I don't think
that you have much to worry about. Howie on the other hand, being the only
straight guy around here...." Nick's voice trailed off as Howie raised one
hand.

     "Hold it right there Nick. I never said I was straight. I'm bi, like
Brian I just never said anything because I've never had a serious
relationship with another guy even though I am attracted to them. It didn't
seem like a big deal." he said calmly.

Alex burst into laughter, "I can't believe you guys! Jeez, you guys are
every gay guys' as well as females' wet dream. Y'all are just too much."

"Hey! Enough already." Brian said laughing, "Now, Alex there's something
that you wanted to tell us too right? You wanna spill now too?"

     Kevin and Alex immediately grew serious and Alex stood and walked to
the bar. He pulled out one of the mini bottles of Vodka and swiftly drank
it all while the guys watched, concerned.

"Kev..." Brian asked uncertainly.

     "It'll be alright Bri. Alex is just preparing himself. This little
story hurts him a lot to tell, I think that he just needs a little courage
before telling you." Kevin said still looking at his lover who was staring
out the window.

"Okay I'm ready now." Alex said just loud enough for all of them to make
out his words. "Well Brian this story starts a little over a year ago in
Russia. I was on a mission with my new partner to uncover the cruel plots
and schemes that lay behind the current premier's perfect public figure. I
went under cover....."

     A couple of hours, a pack of cigarettes, two more bottles of vodka,
and a lot of tears later Alex finished his story. Kevin gently cradled Alex
against him as the rest of the guys tried to stop the flow of tears down
their own faces. AJ also had Nick wrapped tightly in his arms as though he
would never let him go again.

Suddenly Brian stood and walked over to the couch and pulled Alex out of
Kevin's arms and into his own, hugging him tightly. Alex cried softly onto
Brian's shoulder, pouring out all his anger and grief. Pretty soon he felt
more arms surround him and knew that the other guys had wrapped themselves
around him as well, giving him the comfort that he had longed for but had
not been able to find with any of the friends that he had found before
these guys. He finally had a family again.

To Be Continued...

Well...it was a little more light-hearted there for a little while. I am
sorry that it took me so long to get this part out. And I hope that y'all
will understand when I say that it may take even longer to get part 7
out. It's not that I don't have ideas. It's just that I'm going out of the
country for a little while and won't be back until July. And to all those
who have e-mailed me and not gotten anything back....I'M SORRY!!!!! I've
also been really busy with life in general. I will try to check my e-mail
and get out all my replies before I leave but I'm not making any
promises. But...still please e-mail me, because I read every single one and
appreciate every one. Thanks~ Mike D. md_life@yahoo.com