Date: Sun, 5 Dec 1999 19:20:34 EST From: GWMWayne@aol.com Subject: The Corridor Of Time (J.C. and Wayne) This is my first time writing I hope you like this story. If you are offeded or uncomfortable by material concerning gaylife style. please know that this story does deal with that heavly. This is a work of fiction and is not ment to imply anything about anyone. While some of the characters may be loosely based on real people, none are meant to actually represent anyone, particularly any of the members of 'N Sync. I would like to heard what you think of the story. You can e-mail me at gwmwayne@aol.com. Enjoy. THE CORRIDOR OF TIME I stand in a corridor as flashes of memory show me your face. When I think of you I feel the pain, the lose of your kiss, and the caress of your hand. I walk the down the corridor alone and lonely. I miss your scent, your touch, and your laughter. But your heard the Midnight Chimes through The Corridor Of Time. You left without giving me a chance to say Goodbye. I can't walk with out you. Yet I can't stop my journey down The Corridor Of Time. Listening for but fearing The Midnight Chimes I see writing on the walls. Words like Destiny, and Fate. The corridor is telling me I can't change my path and I can't turn back. I feel lost and scared that I won't find someone like you, to join me in walking down The Corridor Of Time. by Wayne T. Fairfield JOSH Justin, Chris, Joey, Lance, and Josh was sitting at Lance's house trying to figure out what they were going to do tonight. "I am going to go see a movie. Does anyone want to go with me?" lance asked. "I will go with you Scoop." said Chris and Joey at the same time. "No thank you Scoop. I am going to take curly, and go out clubbing tonight." Josh said looking at Justin with a grin. "You mean we can go clubbing tonight?" Justin said returning Josh's grin "God he is so cute when he smiles like that." Josh thought to himself " Yes, curly I am taking you clubbing. I need someone to throw in the path of the hormone driven teenage girls trying to get at my hot body. hopefully you will do so I can get away." Josh said as he smiled. "YES!!" pause. "Wait, what do you mean by that remark?" "Oh nothing. I mean you can't help that you are color blind and you can't tell what is in and what isn't." Josh said sweetly as he winked at the other guys. Josh should have been paying attention to Justin, because before Josh knew it he was on the floor with Justin sitting on his stomach. Justin grabbed a pillow from the couch and started hitting him over the head with it. "You are so dead!" Justin laughed as he hit Josh in the head with the pillow. Josh positioned his foot for a throw and said. "Why curly I didn't think you had it in you." "What?" Justin said with a confused look on his face. "Well, not only are you color blind and have no fashion sense, you have finally came out of the closet. I knew you could never keep your hands off of me, but you are really not my type." Josh said With that Josh moved. He grabbed Justin's arms pulled up on Justin's arms a little until he could put his foot in Justin's crotch and threw Justin backward on to the couch. Josh then stood up and looked at Justin. Justin had a stunned look on his face. Josh couldn't help himself, he cracked up laughing. "How? Where? Ok Josh where did you learn that move from?" "A friend taught me it the last time I saw her. Now lets go play a game of basketball. Winner pay's all night." Josh said. Josh reached out his hand to Justin, to help him up from the couch. Justin grabbed Josh's wrist twisted His arm around until he was forced side ways. Then Justin push down on Josh's now locked arm. Josh had to fall or end up with a broken arm. "Listen Joshy." Josh cringed at that name. "I am not hot for you and I am not color blind so say uncle and I will let you up." Justin said "Uncle, ok are you satisfied now." Josh said with a grimes of pain in his voice "Yes." Justin exclaimed He released Josh then helped him back up and gave him a hug. "Besides you are the one who took a cheap feel with your foot. You are the one that is gay." Justin said Josh paled. "Does he know or is he playing again. I can't let them find out. I don't want to lose them as my friends." Josh thought. "Josh, you ok man? Did I hurt you?" Justin asked with a touch of concern. Josh rubbed his arm and said. "I think a little but, I can still kick your ass at basketball." "Good." Josh thought "Justin thought I was hurt instead of scared, my secret is still safe. I have to be more careful, but I wished I could find someone that I could talk to or better yet someone to hold me and love me." After the game, Josh lost Justin is really a good player. They went back to Justin's house, after tell the guys that they will see them tomorrow. "dibbs on the shower." Josh said, when they got to Justin's house. "Hey! I wanted to take a shower first. You use up all the hot water. With your hour long showers." Justin complained. "Curly, I called first. I promise not to use up all the hot water. Besides I thought you liked to smell like a locker room. That IS what your room smells like." Josh teased "It does not! Mom cleans it when we are gone on our tour. She airs my room out for me." Justin said. Just then Lynn Justin's mother. Walks in from the living room. "I do that dear because the smell escapes from you room. I don't want anyone to die from the smell." Lynn says, smiling at Justin. "Hello Josh, how are you today?" Lynn asked "Great Lynn! I am always great when I see your smile, and eat your cooking." Josh said with a grin. "Hey, that is my mother your are making a pass at. Hello mom."Justin says. As he went over, and give his mother a hug and a kiss. "Justin, if Josh was making a pass at me. I think I would know. He was just telling me. That he is staying for dinner, instead of you two going out for dinner." Lynn said. "Justin, why don't you talk to your mother for Awhile. I am going to take my shower. I am sure she would like to hear how your day was. She does not get to see you that much." Josh said Lynn turned to Josh. Smiled and winked at him. "Josh, I would like to talk with you to. You can help me with dinner, and we can talk. Sounds good?" Lynn asked. "Sure Lynn. I really like to talk with you. The boys just want to talk about girls, girls, and more girls. You think that they would get sick of girls. I do. I am getting sick, With all the teenage girls, that hang around outside where ever we stay." Josh said With that said, Josh kissed Lynn on the cheek and went to take a shower. Josh went to his room picked out some cloth, that he would be wearing tonight. Then went to turn on the shower took of his cloth and looked at the mirror. "Well Joshua, you nearly blew it today. They will not accept you, if they find out. They will kick you out of the group and then where will you be." Josh sighed, looked ones more time at himself in the mirror then, entered the shower and he lost track of time. He was daydreaming about his ideal man. When he heard a pounding on the door. "Josh, come on. I need to take a shower, and I would like some hot water." Justin yelled. "OK, I will be out in a bit." Josh yelled back. Josh sighed. Got out of the shower. Grabbed a towel and dried off. Then put on a pair boxers. Picked up his dirty cloth. Left the bathroom and heading back to his room to get dressed. Then headed downstairs to talk to Lynn. Lynn and Josh talked about the tour that was coming up and about the other guys and how they were getting along. They talked about Lynn and the other boys and how her work was going. By the time they were done talking, it was time for dinner. Justin and Josh was just about to head out for the night when the phone rang. Lynn picked up the phone and then called out. "Josh phone. It is some girl named Terri." Josh stopped and looked back. "Did you say Terri?" "Yes." "Who is Terri Josh?" Justin asked as Josh ran to get the phone. Josh yelled back over his shoulder . "She is the one who taught me the throw I used on you. To be truthful she used it on me." "Oh, so you made a pass at her and she didn't like it so she threw you." Justin said "No, I will tell you about her after I talk to her." Josh took the phone from Lynn and thanked her. "Terri!" Josh exclaimed "Hey, Josh am I catching you at a bad time?" Terri said "No, I mean yes. I was just heading out the door, with Justin. We are going to go clubbing." Josh explained "Oh, I am sorry. I just need to talk to someone. I thought of you and decided to call you." "Sweet stuff, I always have time to talk to you. Wait why don't you come with us." Josh said with a smile. "Josh, are you sure you want to be seen with me?" "Your right. People may get the right. Sorry I mean the wrong Idea. How about I meet you at hard rock cafe'. I can say you picked me up, and I felt sorry for you and said yes." "Oh. I see you have not learn from the last time, dear boy. I told you. That you are really not my type." "But baby. I am a rock star! Of course I am your type." "Oh please, you are so full of it, but I still love you." "Ok, talk to you in a bit. Bye Terri." Josh hung up the phone and turned around, there standing with their arms crossed was Justin and Lynn. "Who is Terri Josh?" Lynn asked "I meet Terri at a club about a week ago. She was talking to a friend of hers at the bar, when I stepped up to the bar to get a drink I glanced over to look at them. Her friend looked at me then did a double take then leaned over to whisper something in Terri's ear. Terri glance over to me shrugged then turned back to her friend and said. 'So, you want to jump him, I don't care. He is way to young for my taste and probably hasn't let go of his mother's apron strings yet.' I looked over at her friend and she blushed and then said. 'Don't mind her it is that time of the year. She and a friend of hers are going through something and she won't tell be about it.' 'That is ok. At least she didn't scream and try to rip of my cloth.' Terri looked at me and said. 'Why would I do that?' Her friend looked again at me then said. 'OH, MY GOD! It is you right?' 'I think he would know if he is himself or not.' Terri groaned. 'I mean it is J.C. from 'N Sync!' 'Who? Terri asked. 'Terri, don't play dumb you know who.' 'Oh, you mean the kiddie band. The one all the teenage girl and some boys swoon over.' 'Yes, I mean them.' 'So he is J.C.. What a stupid name, no offense J.C., but I can't stand two letter names.' 'Terri! You are so rude.' 'Beth, come on he is a human being I think. You are right your not a god playing games with us are you?' 'Yes I am a god. So bow down and kiss my feet.' I said with a grin 'I like you! You can stay and keep us company if you want.' Terri said with a smile. so me and the two lades spent the whole night talking ad dancing. I gave her this number for her to get in hold of me if she need to, after I mad her promise not to give it out that is. We meet a couple more time last week and we have become friends. She is really cool Justin you will like her. She is the one who has been teaching me judo. She says that I need to protect myself if there is know bodyguards around." Josh explained "So she is helping you protect your body." Justin said with a leer. Lynn looked at Justin and then slapped the back of his head and said "Don't talk like that in front of me little boy, or I will wash out your mouth with baking soda." "Lynn I don't mind. Yes Justin she is, we like each other and get along great." Josh made sure to tell Terri that Justin thinks that they are going out, and Josh would like her help to make it look like they are. Hopefully she will play along. This will keep them from trying to fix him up with any more girls. "Justin I think it is time we get going. Oh by the way I invited her to join us for clubbing and she said yes. I hope that is ok, you really will like her Justin." "Great well we should be going see you Mom." Justin said as he hugged her. "Yea talk to you later Lynn." Josh said as he also gave Lynn a hug. "Justin, don't drink, and Josh watch him for me." "Sure Lynn." Josh said. _____________________________________________________________________________________________ Josh and Justin got in to Josh's jeep and head over to the Hard Rock Cafe' to pick up Terri. When They got there Josh pulled in to the parking lot then told Justin. "I will get Terri. Be right back." Terri was sitting with her back to the door, Today her hair was shocking pick. "Her girlfriend, you want to get lucky today?" Josh said as he sneaked up on Terri. "Sure I was waiting for a stuck up jerk. Who thinks to much of himself for my taste." she said as she turned to Josh. "Well then that is the jerks loss, doesn't no a good thing when he see one. You look fine." Josh said as He gave her a hug. "I missed you." he whispered in her ear. "I missed you too." she whispered back Then she backed up and gave Josh a slap across the face. "Fresh! Now I am going have to take a shower." Rubbing His cheek Josh said. "You loved it don't deny it. You want my hard body." "When the moon crashes into the planet I know where to look. Your head is getting it's own gravity well." They heard a snicker behinds them and turned, to see Justin trying to keep a straight face. Failing miserably "Your right Josh, I like her not may girls would slap you across the face. Just because you gave them a hug." "OH MY GOD! It is Nick Carter, hey everybody it is Nick Carter, from the Backstreet Boys. You look much better in curly hair, you are shorter then I would have thought to." Terri exclaimed keeping a straight face. Justin turned multiple shades of red. Then looked at Josh. "Josh, You are right she will fit right in. Hello Terri my name is Justin not Nick. Nice to meet you." "Justin, Justin who? Josh I thought you were bring a celebrity?" Terri said still keeping the joke going. Josh decided to go long with her. "Sorry. Nick, had other planes so I had to find someone in short notice so I picked curly here. I thought you would like him, trust me he will grow on you like a fungus." Terri pushed her lower lip out and pouted. "I wanted to meet Nick. You promised. Not this two-bit singer I wanted a real singer." "Live with it honey. Nick is on tour right now." "Sigh, ok I guess I can lower my eyes down to Justin's level." With that she slowly ran her eyes down Justin's body and got a look of lust in her eyes. "MY! MY! Boy, you sure do fill out those pants nicely." she said in a sexy voice. Justin blushed, cleared his throat and was about to say something, but Josh rushed to interrupted him. "Honey, you are mine and that is that." Josh said as he winked at her. she raise her eyebrow, and looked Josh in the eyes, then nodded. leaned in and gave Josh a kiss on the lips. "I love when you get jealous like that. You look so sexy." Then she hugged Josh, and whispered in his ear. "You owe me for the kiss and this night, I will settle for a back rub and explanation." She let go of Josh. Turns to Justin and sticks out her hand. "Nice to meet you Justin, Josh has told me a lot about you. I hope we can be friends, I want to hear all about Josh and I think you cant tell me allot." she said with a grin. "I want to hear all the embarrassing things he has done." Justin takes Terri's hand and kisses it. "It will be my pleasure." Josh groaned. The night went great. Justin and Terri got along great. After all the clubs closed. Josh took Justin home and told him that he was going to spend the night at Terri's. Josh and Terri talked way into the night, and drank so much that Josh passed out. Josh thought. "I don't know what we all talked about." _____________________________________________________________________________________________ Josh got out of bed, and when to the bathroom to start the shower. Got undress and stepped into the shower. After a hour Josh started to smell coffee. got out of the shower dried of and got dressed. Josh went out into the hall and let his nose follow scent of coffee. Josh got to the kitchen and saw. Terri in her bathrobe. Talking on the phone. She had a picture on the table and she was looking at it. It showed two men and her. One of the men took Josh's breath away. The man, had short brown hair and the most beautiful blue-green eyes Josh has ever seen. Boyish face with full lips that was meant to be kissed. He had a crooked smile, great body to. "Terri, who is this...... WAYNE I woke up to the sun shining through the window of my bedroom, with tears in my eyes. "Today is the day. Gods I can't believe it has been 3 years already." I thought, as I rubbed the tears from my eyes. I Got up and went in to the bathroom turned on the shower and then looked in the mirror. "Well dear boy. You sure look like hell this morning." I said to my reflection. I had black rings under my eyes, and blood red eyes. Not to mention, I am not a Morning person. I slipped out of my boxers and stepped under the shower head, letting the hot water run down my back. An hour later I got out of the shower, grabbed a towel and dried off. Went to my closet. Opened it, and looked for something to wear today. I picked a teal T-shirt and a pair of black jeans, and as an after thought grabbed a white dress shirt to wear over the T-shirt. As I was getting dressed the phone by my bed started to ring. "Who would call me on today of all days." I grumbled. A flash of Marks face came to me and a tear rolled down my cheek. "I miss you so much Mark." I thought as I turned to the door and entered the hall on my way to the kitchen to start the coffee brewing. "Let the machine get the damn phone call. Everyone knows better then to call me on this day." I mumbled as I entered the kitchen and grabbed the coffee pot and filled it with water. I dumped the water in the coffee machine grabbed the filter and the coffee I put 6 scoops of coffee in the filter, then turned on the switch. I went to the fridge. Open it, looked inside and mumbled. "Looks like I need to go shopping for food again." I grabbed a bagel and some apple juice. In the background, I heard the machine pick up the phone on the tenth ring. I set the machine to do that, because I don't like to have just anyone calling me when I am home. My family and friends all knew to hold on until, the machine picks up. "Hello, you have reach me. So talk already. If this is Terri I still say you need to go back to your roots." the machine said. I smiled at that, and gave a chuckle. Terri is my best friend in the whole world. she can never keep the same hair color for more then a day. She hates it when I tease her about her hair. She would kill me, if I told anyone what her natural hair color is. "Wayne, you sorry excuse of a man! Pick up the phone." I groaned, speak of the devil "Come on. Get your face out of the fridge. Grab your usual. A bagel and apple juice, and talk to me." pause "I really need to talk to you." I sighed and grabbed the headset put it on, and hit the talk button. "Hello Terri, this better be good you tramp. You know better to call me today." I said as I answered the phone. "I know and I am...." pause "what did you CAll me? she said coldly, but I knew that she was smiling at the same time. "You heard me you tramp." "I will give you the first tramp, because I know what today is. The second tramp is war. When I see you next. I am going to rip off all your clothes, and throwing you in a tub full of hair-remover. Then make you wear a burlap sack for the rest of the day." she said. I smiled, looked at the newly painted walls. I told her once that she has a mouth on her. That could make paint blush and peel. "You just want to see me nude, and marvel at my hot hard body." I said "Eeww, thanks now I have to go back to my therapist again just to get the image of you nude out of my mind." she said with a laugh. "Thanks Terri I needed myself esteem to hit rock bottom just so I can relate to you." I shot back. "I love you to Wayne." she said with a sigh "So why are you calling me today?" I asked "Wayne I was telling Josh...." she started "Who is Josh? Your new boyfriend?" I interrupted "A friend, and no he is not my boyfriend. As I was saying before I was rudely interrupted, I was tell him about you and he wants to meet you." she finished "Terri, is he? I asked "I don't know I don't have the right kind of radar." "Terri! Did you call today of all days. Just to tell me about some guy. That you want to meet me?" "Wayne, Mark would want you to move on with your life." The pain started in my chest and worked out from there. "DAMN, YOU TERRI!" I yelled as I slammed my hand on the button, and throw the headset. I ran out of the front door with tears running down my face. JOSH "Terri, Who is this in the picture?" Josh asked. Terri, looked up from the phone. Smiled at Josh, held up her finger for me to wait. Then said into the phone. "Wayne, Mark would want you to move on with your life." "DAMN, YOU TERRI!" Josh heard from the phone. There was a flash of emotions crossing Terri's face. Lose, pain, regret, and anger. Then Terri through the phone across the room. "That, Fucking asshole!" Terri yelled. Josh saw tears start falling from Terri's eyes. Josh went over to Terri grabbed her in a hug. Terri buried her head in Josh's shoulder and cried. "Terri?" Josh Hesitated "Do you want to talk about it?" "Josh, just hold me for a bit." Terri whispered in Josh's shirt. Josh lead her out of the kitchen to the living room sat down on the couch with her and let her cry. They must have sat like that for hours. Josh holding and comforting Terri. She crying on his shoulder. Josh felt terrible. "I should be helping her and telling her everything will be all right. But all I can think of is, that face in the picture kept coming into my mind. Who is that in the picture? That angle, with those eyes." Josh thought. Josh whole heartily believed in the saying. "The eyes are the window to the soul." "His, eyes are full of love and joy. Mixed with a feeling of innocent. You don't see that now day in most men." Josh thought. Josh snapped out of his thoughts, when he felt Terri pull back. Terri looked Josh in the eyes and said. "Thanks, Josh I need a shoulder to cry on for so long. I am usually the one people come to cry on. Wayne was my shoulder, but ever sense Mark died. He has been so withdrawn from everyone." "Terri, I will always be here for you. Do you want to talk about it now?" Josh asked. "Ok, you asked for it." Terri smiled. "But, first lets go back into the kitchen. I need to get something." Terri stated. Josh and Terri got up from the couch, headed back into the kitchen. Terri went to the freezer. Opened it got some ice cream. then went to drawer and got two spoons. While Terri was doing this. Josh could not take his eyes off the picture. Terri came back to the table sat down and opened up the ice cream. Gave Josh one of the spoons and then dug into the ice cream. Josh sat down and helped himself to the ice cream. "Terri, before you tell me what happen, could you tell me something?" Josh asked. "Sure, what is it?" Terri asked as she looked Josh in the eyes. "Terri. Who are the men in this picture?" Josh asked. Terri, looked at the picture, smiled one tear rolled down her cheek. Then she looked back at Josh. "Josh. Before I answer that. I have to tell you something." Terri said as she took a deep breath. "Our friendship depends on your reaction to what I tell you. Trust me if it comes to you or them." she said as you pointed at the picture. "you will lose. Don't get me wrong I like you as a friend, but..." "Terri. I understand if it came to you or Justin. I am sorry, but Justin come first." Josh interrupted her. Terri smiled, and the asked. "What do you think of gays?" Josh was speechless. All that was running through his mind was. "Does she know? What happened last night? God what am I going to do if she tells the press?". Then it hit josh. "The picture, the two men. They must be lovers.". All of a sudden. Josh was jealous of the blonde in the picture. "My angle." Josh thought. "What is wrong with you? You don't even know the guy." "Josh? Josh? Earth to Josh?" Terri said. "What? Oh sorry Terri, I was thinking." Josh said with a blush. "To answer you question. I think it is great. If a two men or women fall in love, or are attracted to each other. I don't think any of us can control who we fall in love with." Josh said as he looked back at the picture. Terri, looked deeply into Josh's eyes then smiled. "I think I have learned a little bit more about you, and I like what I see." she said. They sat in silence for a while, then Terri broke spoke. "The blonde in the picture is Mark and the other geek is Wayne. They are. I mean were lovers. Mark died three years ago from cancer." Josh reached out a took Terri's hand. "Oh Terri, I am so sorry." Josh said. "Josh, Mark would have like you. You remind me of him." Terri said with a smile. "Terri, is Wayne your brother?" Josh asked. trying to change the subject from painful subject of Mark. "Josh, I told you all about Wayne last night." "Terri. Um.. I was a little drunk last night and don't remember much of last night." Josh said. "Oh. No Wayne is not my brother. Wayne is like a brother to me thou we are best friends, well at lest I think we are." Terri said. "Thou, I am going to kill him for hanging up on me." Terri said with a grin. Terri and Josh spent the rest of the night talking about Wayne, Mark, and there relationship. When they were done. Josh knew that he had to meet Wayne, just to get to know him and if Wayne like Josh maybe more. Josh knew he had to take it slow with Wayne. Ever sense Mark died, Wayne has been pushing all his friends away and letting no one get close to him again. Terri told Josh that Wayne believes that Mark is still watching over him and that he is still around. Josh looked at his watch. when he could not keep from yawning. It was two am. Josh groaned "Terri, can I stay over again? I don't feel like driving back home." Josh asked. "Sure, under one condition. You have to make breakfast tomorrow." Terri said. "Sure. Thanks Terri. I hope you like Pancakes?" Josh said. Terri yawned. got up went to Josh gave him a hug then started for her bed. "Good night Josh I will see you in the morning." She said. "Sleep well Terri." Josh said. Images of mark started racing through my mind. Blond wavy hair that always look unkept, but at the same time fit him. Sky blue eyes that sparkled ever time he laugh, or looked at me. Chiseled features that made him look rugged, but at the same time boyish. Last he had the most red full lips that just made you want to kiss them until the world ended. A body that was built. Not to many muscles. Just enough to give him defined abs and six pack stomach. Legs and arms that were long and sexy with there muscular form. "Mark! I miss you so much. I wish you were still here with me. I don't know if I can still go on without you." I cried as I throw myself to the steps on the porch and look but not seeing down the driveway, with Apple and Cherry trees lining it all the way to the gate. I remember the first time Mark and I saw the house, and the grounds. He fell in love with the ranch style house, I fell in love with the grounds. The Cherry trees was in bloom, and smell and feel of the flowers took me back to the time of my childhood on my family's farm. I can still see Mark's face as he turned to me. "Lover boy, I want to buy this house for us to live in until we grow old and die." he said as he looked in to my eyes. I nodded. Took his head in my hands. Leaned in and kissed him. I went back in to the house, got a mug of coffee. Added cream and sugar. Then I walked out the back door, and climbed the hill that is in our backyard. I went to the Willow tree at the top and sat down looking at the grave marker. I pulled my legs up too my chest. Put my head on my knees and let myself cry again. "This is our time Mark. You, me and the past." I said softly as the tears ran down my face again. I spent hours talking to the grave telling Mark all about what I did for the year. When the sun started to drop down to the horizon I said my good-byes and walked back to the house. I Cleaned up the kitchen. Then went to bed. I woke up late in the night covered in sweat and my heart pounding a mile a minute. I didn't know what woke me up... Then I remembered the dream. I was standing on the back porch looking at the willow tree on the top of the hill. Mark and I would sit under the tree for hours talking or just enjoying each others company. If the tree could talk I would be beet red for a year. Then I heard the back door open, then felt arms wrap around my waist, then a kiss at the nape of my neck. I turn with a smile to turn and kiss Mark. After the kiss I looked in to Mark's eyes. There I saw in them, sorrow and deep tender love for me. "Love, You have to stop this, get on with your life. I can't stand seeing you hurting like this." "Mark, I can't stand being without you." "Yes you can. Terri is there for you as is our friends." pause "Promise me you will go on and live you life. I will be here for you when the time comes. There is someone else that needs you now. You will know him when you two meet. He needs your love now." "Mark, I can't stop loving you. I can't give myself to someone else." "Honey." Mark said with tears in his eyes. "I am not asking you to stop loving me. I would be so crushed if you stopped. What I am asking you for, is open your heart again. There are people out there that need your love. Who are willing to love you back." Mark leaned in and kissed me, a long and deep kiss that lasted for a lifetime. Then he pulled away and turned to the hill and started walk. I ran after him calling for him to come back and stay with me. Mark just kept on going. Never turning around. As he got further away he started to fade. Tell he vanished all together. Then on the wind I hear. "I will always love you, good-bye for now my love." "Bye Mark, I love you to." I get up out of bed. Went to the kitchen get a mug. Put water in it. Then heated it in the microwave. Added a pack of Hot Cocoa and mix it with the water. I take the mug, head to the back of the house where my office was. I had a feeling, I would not be getting and sleep. I need to think on my dream. I turn on the radio softly and sit down in the high back chair. sipping from the mug. Was that really Mark, or was that my subconscious, telling me it is time to live my life. I sat and looked deep in myself and searched for the answer. JOSH During the night Josh had a dream. It was of Wayne, Mark. They were talking. Then Wayne faded and Mark looked at Josh. "Joshua, take care of Wayne. I love him, and I know that you love him to. Even if you don't understand your feeling yet." Josh shoot up in the bed when the alarm went off. "Was that a dream, or was Mark giving me his blessing." Josh thought, as he shivered. Josh got out of bed and headed to the bathroom. He looked into the mirror, and groaned. His hair was a mess. "Must have been tossing and turning last night. i don't even feel like I slept. Well Josh you better get to take your shower and get the breakfast done before Terri wakes up." Josh thought as he turned on the shower and got a towel. When the water was hot enough, Josh stepped out of his boxers and stepped into the shower. Ten minutes later he stepped out. Grabbed the towel and dried off, put on his boxers and head for the kitchen. Josh started coffee and then looked for a pan and a bowl to make pancake, the kitchen was well stocked for cooking. "Terri. Must like to cook." Josh thought. When Josh was done, with the pancakes. He went to Terri's door and knocked. "Terri? Time to get up breakfast is ready." Josh said Terri opened up the door. she was fully dressed. "I was up. I have been for about a hour now." Terri said. "Oh, stayed in the bedroom so you didn't have to help with breakfast." Josh said with a smile. "Of course. I knew you would want me to help." Terri grinned. "Come on let us eat. After I have something to say to you." Josh said. As they when into the kitchen. After, breakfast was done Terri and Josh together did the dishes. Then they grabbed a mug of coffee and went into the living room to talk. "Terri, I have a plan on getting Wayne down here form Wisconsin." Josh said. "Oh, and what would that be?" Terri asked. "Well. What if I called him? I will tell him that you miss him. If you pretend that you are still hurt with him. He may feel sorry that he hurt you and come down to see you. Besides I would like to meet him." Josh explained his plan. "Sounds like it would work. Ok I will help you under one condition. "What? Josh asked. "Tell me why you want to meet him." Terri said. "Um..." Josh blushed. "I just do. You like him, and I like you. So I think we would get along." "Josh." Terri started. Then looked into his eyes. "You, are attracted to him." Terri said "Terri!" Josh exclaimed. "Josh. Don't lie to me I can see it in you eyes." Terri said. "Please Terri, You can't tell anyone. My career is at stake." Josh pleaded. "Josh, I would never tell anyone without your consent. I have one thing to tell you then. If you ever hurt Wayne I will kill you." Terri said in a very serious voice. "Terri, I promise I will not hurt him. Besides I don't even know if he will like me." Josh said. "Josh trust me He will." Josh felt his face get hot and he felt a longing. "I hope." Josh thought. Terri grabbed the phone and dialed it. Then handed the phone to Josh. Then said. "Wait tell the answer machine picks up. Then we will see if this will work." Terri said. Josh listen tell the answer machine picked up. Then for some reason he started to sing..... Wayne Some time later I heard the phone ring I looked up and saw that it was morning. I knew it was Terri calling back to yell at me for the hanging up on her. I let the machine get it because i was still hurt because of her remark. Mark's face came back into my head and as he started to open his mouth. I started to here him sing, but I know it was not him that was sing, because of two reasons. One, is that it was a song he never sang to me, or heard. Two is that it was not his voice. The voice sounded familiar but for the life of me I can't place were I heard it. "God, must have spent a little more time on you." the voice sang I knew the song it was on every radio station for the last month. What is the group's name again? All the teen girls and boys are drooling over them. I know! "The Backstreet Boys." or is it "`N sync?" All I know is who ever is singing that song is good really good. I got up and listen for the voice. It was like the song was leading me and it felt like someone was pushing me towards it. It is coming for the answer machine, I picked up the phone just as the song ended. "Hello, who is this?" I asked JOSH WAYNE I heard a gasp, then a voice say something I did not catch. Then I heard Terri in the background say. "You can tell him to go to hell! I won't talk to that jerk. Ever since Mark died he has been keeping me at a distance and I can't take it anymore. I Love Mark too." I heard crying and a door slam. "Hello, is this Wayne?" a deep sexy male voice asked "Yes. Who is this?" "This is Josh." "Where you the one singing?" "Yes." "You have a very nice singing voice, almost as good as the group that sing's that song. God, I can't remember want its name is." " `N sync." he said with a little laugh "Can I ask you what is so funny?" "Nothing Wayne, nothing at all. So I take it you are not a fan of `N Sync?" He asked "I can't say that I am. Never got caught up into the Teen Heartthrob stuff." I heard a snicker. "You have to come down and see me." "Why?" "First off you are Terri's best friend and she misses you, and I think we will get along great. You sound like a great guy." "Look Josh. Can I call you Josh.?" "Sure." "Josh, you sound like a really nice guy and Terri likes you so you can't be all that bad, she know her guys. But I am not ready to get into a relationship at this moment. I just lost my lover three years ago." "Whoa, I am not asking you to go out with me! I am asking you to be my friend like Terri is." I heard Terri in the background. "Let me talk to that asshole." pause "Listen you. either you come down and see me or I am coming up and dragging you down here. I need you. You are the last thing I have in this world, and I care for you. I love you. Now what do you say to that dick?" "I say." Pause. "That I am sorry for the hang up on you, and yes I will come down. Just so I can meet Josh, maybe I can get him to sing to me again. He should be professional singer. He has the voice and if you like him. Means he is drop dead gorgeous, like me. Also I have to kick your ass." Terri, just started laughing and then said. "You know I think you are right about Josh, but you can never kick my ass you flat foot spaze." "Terri, why did you laugh when I said Josh should be a singer?" "Sweetie, I was laughing at you. Because I got you to come down that is all. So when can you be here?" "Well, I have to tell Daniele that I will be taking off of work for a few days. Then I think, I will drive down. I hate to rent a car, and I don't want to depend on you for a ride. You drive like a grandma!" "Who you calling a grandma? So you still work at `Booked Solid' you know with all....?" I interrupted her. "Yes. I still work there. I know I don't have to work, but I like working there. Besides Mark loved the place." "Oh! That's right. You and he meet up there." "Yea, I can still remember his face when he walked in as saw me behind the counter. I tell you Terri it was love at first sight. I know we went to high school together but we were still in the closet and didn't hook up tell we meet again." "Ok, so you while be here on Wednesday then?" "Yes, oh and by the way, I love you. Even if you are a tram, you are my tramp. Bye" I laughed as I hung up the phone. I then called Daniele. "Daniele, this is Wayne." "Hello, so what can I do for you?" "I am going to be going on a little vacation. I am calling to let you know that I wouldn't be into work for a few days." "Oh, that is good. You need a change of scenery. So where are you going?" "I am going Orlando, to go see Terri. She has invited me to stay with her." "Great! When you see Terri give her my love. Also tell her she better come see me. I will hunt her down and shoot her." Coming from Daniele. That is a threat you don't want. Daniele is a sharpshooter. One of the best shoots I have seen. "I will tell her that. Talk to you in a few days then. Take care. Bye." "Bye." I hung up the phone. Washed the mug, and cleaned up the kitchen. Then went into the bedroom, and started to pack for the trip. As I was packing, Marks face would appear but I would hear Josh singing to me... To be continued