Date: Sat, 21 Oct 2000 11:26:00 -0700 From: vocal76 <vocal76@hotmail.com> Subject: Dirty Mind Games: The Other Side of the Coin Okay here you guys go... I guess I'm gonna post this up tonight maybe... and I'll try to catch this one up to the other one... So I'll be here writing like a madman. Since that's what I am anyways... But people wondered what Justin would be thinking like the whole time... so... okay... oh yeah... the way I'm trying to set up the story is to have it totally parallel to each other... but we're gonna look through the same situations that JC goes through but just through Justin's eyes instead... get it????? Does that make sense? EVIL DISCLAIMER: Don't know them, wish I did though... Not implying that I know their sexuality (or homosexuality), wish I did though... if you're not at least 18 you shouldn't be reading if you don't like homosexual material then you know where to go and its starts with an 'h' and has 4 letters... not hell silly... I meant home... =) Dirty Mind Games: The Other Side of the Coin 1 =============================================================================== Gosh he's so fucking cute... sexy too. What would it take to seduce him? Hmmmmm... would he let me. I wonder if it'd be alright to take advantage of him in his sleep. Naw... I think it would be better to make love when we're both wide awake. Hmmmm... how long has it been since I fell in love with him? Long time now... can't even remember when, now... But he has Bobbie... Oh well TV... there's never anything on these stupid hotel TV's... I wonder if I could order a porno and get him all hot and horny so he'd need someone to break him off... like he'd let you do that anyways... I could always hope... okay... he's looking at me... so what big deal... friends look at each other... best friends look at each other... as long as they don't know what secret desires we harbor towards one another... thats cool... I wish I could just tell him... But I can't *sigh*... okay... smile at him... there you go... you know what? why don't you go sit by him... its not like you're gonna find anything on this sorry box anyways... Gosh he's such a dork... why's he hitting himself? "You alright man?" He's such a dork. But I love him... sucks that he's like so straight and all he talks about is Bobbie Bobbie Bobbie Bobbie... And look he can't even answer you. What a dork! Oh my god why did I fall in love with a dork? Because I'm probably one too. "You sure you're alright man?" Okay... so what if he's a dork. He can be your dork if you could just get rid of Bobbie... I bet she doesn't even love him... stupid hoe... well that was bad... she's actually a nice person but its always her name that I hear roll off his lips... for once I wish he could just moan my name... hmmmm... I wonder if he would... that would be so cool. I think he and I could be so perfect together if he was gay... inward sigh. See there you go... and all he can do is nod his head and say yeah... thats all I'm worth... but if I was Bobbie... okay what was that all about... first his hand then his back? He's a dork and its your fault that you love him. "You sure? I worry about you sometimes." Okay... No Justin, you're not being obvious that you care or whatever. Just tell him you're gay or whatevers.. HA! yeah right... well its alright for friends to worry about each other... Here... make yourself look busy... drink... there you go! You're not as blond as you look. And you're not as blond as he acts. He does though. Pour a drink... let him have the bottle, you take the cup... Josh here's the bottle... I'm gonna take the cup... see I really really really care... if it was anyone else I wouldn't even share... but its you... and we should've just shared the bottle...it'd be like a second hand kiss... inward lovesick sigh again... I'm such a fool... Why the hell is he patting his head? He is such a dork, I swear. "Josh, whats wrong man?" I can't help but giggle. He's just too cute even if he like the biggest dork in the world. But he's my world and I'd be like so freaking lost without him. I love him... hehehehe... I wanna tell him that too. And fall asleep in his arms... or even let him fall asleep in my arms... and make love til the sun comes up on the beach as the waves crash over our bodies. Awwwww... I'm a hopeless homosexual romantic... well maybe not homosexual... Joshsexual... hehehe... thats just too corny, even for me. Sounds like something he would say. And whats with his little sighs? Is my homosexual... er Joshsexual advances making him uncomfortable? "Yeah, sure. I just feel like..." Ooooooh! He actually talked... well sort of but of course he would pause... waiting... waiting... waiting... you gonna explain your dorkiness dumbass... my dumbass... hehehe... not dumbass... its kinda cute... he's my cuteass... okay... I'm such a corndog... "..like theres something crawling on me, like a bug or something." Okay... and then he's patting his back again... lemme see if I can help him. "Let me see if I can find it for you." Yeah... find what? You just wanna touch him and his sexy body... damn... Don't pop one now Justin... he's so fucking hot. I love the way his warm smooth skin feels against my finger tips and my palms... Oh god... I love this... If only we could actually be groping each other and stuff... but he wouldn't do that with me... again with the inward sigh... Oooops... he jumped a little... am I making him feel uncomfortable? Shit I'm making him feel uncomfortable with my gayness... I should just stop... naw... ask him if he's okay... come on... just ask... it's not gonna hurt to ask... two words... come on... you could do this Justin... two words... there you go... see... "You alright?" Told you you could do it. And smile... Ooooh I wish I could really hold him like this... he's all bent over like if he was ready for me to take him like right here... hehehe... I love just holding him like this... its sooooooo gay... because I am too! hehehehe... whats up with the corniness man? "Um yeah, that kind of tickles." Hmmmmmm.... tickles, huh? Hehehehe what tickles Josh? So my Josh is ticklish... Ho hum... whistle away innocently... and naw... lemme find out for sure. "What? This?" Take this and this Josh... You are so funny when you're laughing like this and oh god... you're body is just making me soooo hot right now... Here you go take this... hahaha... can't see me now... Got your shirt over your head now you dork... you look so cute though... oh shit... oops! Didn't mean for you to fall... my bad... Sit on your ass and tickle you... ooops... um I hope he didn't feel that... that would be so embarassing... why'd your hot body have to get me all hard Josh? hehehehe... it's my fault for being gay... FUCK!!!!! Who the hell is at the door now?????? I was having fun feeling my daddy... my big daddy... I wonder how big he is... hehehe... Fuck I'll answer that stupid shit. "I'll get it!" Slap that ass. It's so cute!!!!! I wonder if he'd let me spank it if I was to hit that shit. His ass is just so fuckable... okay... adjust while he's not looking... down boy... hehehehe... It would be Joey... asshole... and I know he's gonna say something and make Josh feel uncomfortable around me and my gayness. "Why is JC on the floor face down with his shirt up on his shoulders? And why are you out of breath? What have you two been doing?" He raises his eyebrows up and down suggestively. Well... if your ass wouldn't have knocked at the moment I probably would have been dry humping him... but no... Little Mr. Monkey just *had* to knock like at the moment I was having soooooo much fun... ASSHOLE!!!!! "Nothing you pervert! Like I'd do that with my best friend!" Well, I would do that and soooooo much more. Joey is such a pervert. Like if Josh would do that with me anyways. "Hey I don't care what you guys do behind closet doors... I mean closed doors." Joey smiles. "Ha ha very funny!" Fuck! What if he knows I'm gay? Fuck! Does it really show up all that much? I think I'm slipping. I need to talk to Lance about this shit... or Britney. "You lose something Josh? You might wanna see if it went down Justin's throat. Anyways be downstairs in 20 minutes. The limo's taking us to practice. Don't be late or you're gonna have to *ride* your boyfriend to the studio." What did I miss? What was Josh doing? Fucking Joey! Grab my attention away so I can't ooogle my man. Thats right bitch, you better run! Cuz I'm about to shove my foot so far up your ass! Awwwwww man... see I knew Joey would make Josh feel like shit and uncomfortable being with me. Asshole. And god I'm blushing. I wouldn't mind riding him though. Just go up to him and check if he's okay. I hate being gay. "Joshy, you okay?" Okay... so what if I have a baby name for him. I love him and all that. He's just so cute. God he looks so grossed out that our friends would think of us like that. Joey and Chris are such asses. I hate it when Lance joins in too cuz at least he knows that I'm in love. I should just leave right now and let him compose himself. "Hey, Joey's an ass. You know that." Okay... so that was lame... But what else can I say? Its true. Put your hand on his shoulder and console him. Yeah, console him... you just wanna touch him again. There you go. At least he smiled for you. But you better get out before you make him feel more uncomfortable. "Well get ready and I'll meet you downstairs. I'm gonna do my hair in Lance's room." I really need to talk to Lance again anyways. Show him that smile that everyone likes and he'll think you're okay too. Okay... so i can't keep from patting your ass... its just so cute. I wanna giggle like a schoolgirl. "Joshy you in here? You ready?" Okay good talk with Lance. I wish he was gay sometimes. He can be such a great friend when you need one. But he'll probably end up teasing us later with the rest of the guys. Oh well. I don't mind too much but JC seems to. Where is he? He should be ready by now. Maybe he already went downstairs. OH SHIT!!!! IS HE ALRIGHT???? OH MY GOD!!!! "JOSH!!!!! Oh shit! Are you alright?" Fuck what happened? Hold him. Shit! You'd be so lost without him. Oh good he's awake. And his head on my shoulder feels so right. I wish it could be like this forever. Come on be okay... be okay baby... "I'm fine, I must've collapsed or something." You're fine? But you must have collapsed? Shit... I don't want you to go to practice. Something has to be wrong if he collapsed. Shit! I know I shouldn't have left. "You never collapse. I don't think you should go to practice. I want to take you to a doctor. You're worrying me." Okay... that didn't sound gay at all. Or you just like totally sounded like his mom or something. "I'm fine Justin, really." You fucking liar. I know you Josh. You just don't want to go to the doctor because you're scared. I'll hold your fucking hand until they find out what's wrong. We shouldn't lie to each other like this. Then tell him you're gay Justin... where the fuck did that come from? DAMN! "Josh, don't lie to me." Don't you dare lie to me again. Gosh... I wanna cry... its the guys fault... they've teased us so much about us being gay that he doesn't even want to trust me again... fuck... this sucks... "Really, I'm fine. I'll be okay at practice." See.. and he's lying even more because he doesn't want to fucking be near me... Justin, just get the fuck out of there now before you let him see you cry. Just go... FUCKING GO ALREADY!!!! "Bullshit Josh! You have *never* *ever* collapsed in the 8 years that I've known you! And the one time you fucking do you won't even let me return a favor and let me help you." ASSHOLE!!!! You just had to say something else? You just had to blow up like the dramatic fag that you are! "I'm fine really, I'll be okay at practice." And you're gonna make him lie even more and shit and just hurt yourself even more. ASSHOLE!!!!! "Fine whatever. I'll see you downstairs." Yeah... act cold and push him even farther away. There you go... maybe it'll be better this way and you can fall in love with someone else... yeah... right... after like 8 years of unrequited homosexual love... not that easy... you keep lying to yourself as much as you keep lying to Josh... Elevator going down to the lobby. Tears going down my cheeks. Fucking camera can probably see me crying. I don't give a shit. Whatever... I don't want to lose my best friend. But I love him more than anything else in the world. =============================================================================== So was it as good for you as it was for me? Hehehehe... okay a little different take from what goes on in JC's head... but hey... Justin's not the horny perverted one here... well I don't know that for sure but... One could always wonder... anyways.... questions, comments, flames, food, money, donations, JC and/or Justin can be sent to my e-mail at vocal76@hotmail.com... pEaCe aNd aDoBo gReAsE!!!!!