Date: Fri, 10 Nov 2000 13:48:17 PST From: Mel Mac <vocal76@hotmail.com> Subject: Dirty Mind Games: TOSOTC 8 kinky girl... I think she could like totally be like a dominatrix... scary... but so all ya'll need to be thanking her... hehehehe... and I wanted to write this anyways... um for all of you that read this... ya'll just gotta bug Angel to write more for Devotion cuz I JUST LOVE THAT STORY!!!!!! And um... if she doesn't write anymore soon... like really soon... I'm gonna go on strike and not update for like forever again... hehehehe... just kidding... love ya girl! But I really wanna see more of Devotion... =( Also bug Dara Lynn to write more 'Interludes' to keep us content for all of us that are patiently waiting for part 3 of the Any Path/No Painless Way trilogy... hehehehe... love ya too girl! Oh yeah... and somebody smack me silly for not inviting cute guy from work to my party this weekend... I *really* *really* need to get smacked... oh well... enjoy! =) EVIL DISCLAIMER: Maybe they are... maybe they're not... wish I knew for sure... but I don't so bite me... and if you're not 18 or over go away... and if you don't like this you shouldn't be here anyways... and I wish I knew them but I don't... unless you count dreams... and if you count dreams you have to count the wet ones at least twice... going back to the the whole 'if you don't like this thing'... if you don't like homosexual material then why the hell are you here in the first place? issues issues issues... tsk tsk... Dirty Mind Games: The Other Side of the Coin 8 =============================================================================== Someone holding me. Am I dead? Did I? I don't know... Screaming... crying... screaming... warm body... who is it? Eyes flutter open... its Josh... I must be in heaven... I'm in his arms and he's holding me... I'm in heaven... I'm in heaven... But he's crying... why's he crying... Okay... so I'm not *in* heaven... it just feels like it now that he's here... oh yeah... that's why he's crying... say something Justin... "Josh?" Voice a little hoarse... so what... you just tried to kill yourself Justin... don't know what the hell you were thinking... "I love you... I love you Justin... I..." He loves me... he loves me... I think that deserves a kiss... well he deserves a kiss... for coming back... for being him... for loving me... for... for... for being Josh... "Mmmmmmmmmmmmm..." Can he enjoy this anymore? It just feels right now... I wanna make this one last forever... his lips on mine... oh god I'm gonna die... I'm gonna die... I'm gonna... he doesn't want to kiss me... I forced myself onto him again... I... fuck I'm gonna cry... I just thought that... but... "Josh... I'm sorry... I should've asked before I..." I just wanted to kiss you... thought that you needed it... that we needed it... I know I needed it... to make sure this was all real... and even if it wasn't... even if it isn't... "No... don't be. I think we just needed some air. I mean... I wouldn't mind dying kissing you... but I'd like this to last alot longer than a few minutes... um... how about we continue in the other room... theres a bed there..." Oooooooh you horny guy you... but I'd like that... making out with you... maybe going a little farther... well... maybe alot farther... maybe all the way... would he want to do that so soon though? I mean... we just like got together... wait... are we together? "I'd like that." And I'm blushing... but are we together? I want to know if thats what he wants... to be together... to be with him forever... "Justin... why'd you try it? I was so scared when I saw you... lying... here... I thought..." And he's crying... man... he's gonna make me cry... because... see... told you. You're crying now too. "I thought you were gonna hate me... so I wanted it to be over... and I... I wanted to... but I couldn't... I barely scratched it open and when I saw that first drop of blood I fainted... I couldn't even do that..." I can't believe that I almost... but I'm so glad that I didn't... that I couldn't... "I could never hate you. I love you. Justin Randall Timberlake I love you and only you." He loves me... and his eyes... so caring... so beautiful... and his touch... so soft... steadying me... and his lips... oh god his lips... oh *god* his lips... hehe... and he's wiping my tears away...and this is just tooooo beautiful... tooooooo perfect... he sighed... I want to too... but... "Thank god I get squeamish at the sight of my own blood." Okay so I find it funny that I'm a wuss. But if I wasn't then we wouldn't be here where we are right now so I guess I shouldn't complain. Okay... he rolled his eyes... is it because I'm such a baby? Does he think that I'm just such a baby? "Okay..." So I'm a baby... but I can't help it. That's just... I don't know... gosh the way you make me feel... and then now... and... I'm gonna go to the other room. "Justin..." This... this I can do though... and I'm supposed to be kinda mad at you right now Josh... you know that don't you? And... *shudder* he kissed the back of my neck... oh god... he... oh man that felt soooooo right... and I've always wanted to... and... "I'm sorry... I was just thinking about how stupid I was for running out like that... and to think... if I would've stayed... we could've been making out and been all lovey dovey for the past few hours." Making out? Making out for the past few hours? Is that all you wanted to do? Sheeesh... I love you Josh... and I think we've loved each other for years... can't believe that I didn't see it before... but... and all you wanted to do was just make out... hmmmmmm... make him sweat Justin... do something that would make Joey and Chris proud... and turn around and look him in the eyes... and... oh god those eyes... I can't lie to those eyes... they're... they're... those eyes... and that face... and its Josh... you're Josh... he's you're Josh... "Is that all you wanna do? Just to make out with me?" Well make him sweat a little... make him think he did something wrong... hehehe... but I shouldn't be picking on him like this... I mean... thats what got us into trouble in the first place... but I'd like to do a little more than make out... we've waited this long... I don't think I want to wait any longer... =============================================================================== Hmmmmmmmm????? So I have a surprise in store for the next update... and it'll be good... I promise... but it won't be up til Monday... and I'm looking at my modem right now and I like totally don't have block sync right now so I'm gonna have to call AT&T Broadband and complain so I don't really know when I'm gonna send this out and I'm babbling yet again... and... and... questions, comments, flames, food, money, donations, JC and/or Justin can be sent to my e-mail at vocal76@hotmail.com... pEaCe aNd aDoBo gReAsE!!!!!