Date: Fri, 07 Dec 2001 05:06:49 +0000
From: Suma L <sumacumlaude@hotmail.com>
Subject: Double Jointed 5

This is a VERY important post for me. Please read all the information I
have added at the bottom. PLEASE.

I'm tired. It's 1:04 a.m. and I have Pink Floyd's 'Wish You Were Here'
stuck in my head. I've been looking up info on the actress Marissa
Ribisi today. Had barely any luck finding a complete bio. You knooooww,
the chick with the red fro from Dazed and Confused? Now on the show
grownups? Twin brother named Giovanni Ribisi? Okay, I tried.
Anyway, since I'm not doing anything, I figure, 'hey, let's write.'
And I'd just like to make this note: The art of complete intercourse
takes time. Some authors rush it. I need TIIIIIIME! Anyway, they'll
finish soon. Promise. :)

--Peace, Love, and Lance,
---<3 SumSum
sumacumlaude@hotmail.com
www.geocities.com/SumSumLovesYou

****DISCLAIMER****
   This story isn't supposed to imply anything about the members of
Nsync or anyone else involved in the story.  This is all made up. In
better English, IT'S NOT REAL!  If you're too young in your area or
it's illegal in your area, then leave.  If homosexual themes offend you
then you may want to leave as well. Why don't you go to disney.com or
something? It'll suit you better.

NOTE: Even if you start reading this chapter and decide you don't like it,
please scroll to the bottom for a short that addresses a disorder I'd like
to make people more aware of. If you don't want to read anything
depressing, then just read the short note from me about the issue at the
bottom. Please.

Chapter 5--

	"Laaaance!"

	"What?"

	"Chris and I had ANOTHER date tonight!"

	"That's great, Justin. I'm tired, leave me alone."

	"Lance?"

	"WHAT!?"

	"You're... the... prettiest girl in the entire school!." Justin
giggled.

	"Justin. Stop watching movies. I mean this for your own good."

	Justin giggled non-stop.

	"Justin, I'm serious. I'm tired, and I'm going to bed."

	"If you're so grouchy, why'd you invite me over to spend the
night?"

	"I dunno. Maybe it's because you're a dork, and I needed some
entertainment."

	"Hey! That was mean!" Justin yanked the covers all on his
side. Lance growled, and stood up angrily.

	"I'm gonna go sleep on the couch."

	"You do that!" Justin giggled and sprawled out all over the bed.

	"Stupid dork." Lance muttered as he headed for the couch. Before he
had made it to the start of the stairs, he heard a weird sound. It was like
someone was whimpering. He tiptoed towards the sound, and it was coming
from Stacey's room. Finally, he got close enough where he could tap open
the door for a look. And boy was it a look he got! Stacey was on her hands
and knees while her boyfriend Ford slammed into her from behind.  Lance
quickly shut the door, and hurried back to his room.

	"Why'd you come back?" Justin asked with a giggle.

	"I'm scarred for life. I have to pass out now." Lance whispered
back in shock. He WAS thoroughly disturbed.

	"What happened?"

	"Sleep. Now. Good." He closed his eyes and almost immediately fell
asleep.

	"Okay, this time, I KNOW I didn't leave cum on the couch..." Justin
whispered to himself, and then laid back down.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

	"Homecoming is Friday."

	"I know. Who are you taking?"

	"I was hoping to take you..." Lance turned to look at JC in shock.

	"Josh, we CAN'T."

	"Why not?" JC put his fork down. His lunch was going cold
anyway. The mashed potatoes were kind of green after all. Was that natural?

	"Uh, gee, I wonder? We're both boys. This is a somewhat small
town. I don't want a fight. Okay, what I mean is, I DON'T WANT TO BE BEATEN
UP!" Lance threw his head down into his arms dramatically. JC reached over
and tried to rub his back, but Lance shrugged him off defensively.

	"You won't be. I will protect you."

	"I can't risk it. I can't let YOU risk it. I'll just go alone and
you can take Christina." JC growled frustratedly.

	"I'm not going with her. It's bad enough I promised to take her to
prom."

	"Is she THAT bad?"

	"Let's not get into it." They both sighed. "Why don't we have our
own thing?

	"I'm not wearing a dress." Lance turned and glared at JC.

	"Oh, god, no, Lance! You don't have to wear a dress! I'm thinking
maybe you stay the night at my house. Parents are going out of town. Picnic
dinner.  Wine. Fruit.  Could be yummy."

	"That DOES sound appetizing. This obviously isn't." Lance shoved
his tray away.

	"So, we're on for it?"

	"Definitely." They both went and dumped their sick looking food in
the trash can.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

	"Soooooooo. What are YOU doing tonight?" Justin giggled into the
phone. It seemed like since he and Chris had started dating, Justin had
become like a big, nerdy...SCHOOLGIRL!

	"Josh and I having a date."

	"YOU'RE NOT GOING TO HOMECOMING!? You have to go! You can't do this
to me! Chris and I were going to go, but I didn't want to go alone. I need
moral support. Something. ANYTHING!" Justin started to hyperventilate.

	"If you pass out, it's not my fault. You're the dumbass who left
your inhaler stuff here."

	"You say that, but you know deep down that it would be. Lance, you
HAVE to go!"

	"No. Be brave, Justin. You can hack it alone." Lance rolled his
eyes, and finished putting on cologne. Josh would be there at any moment.

	"No. Nonono. You're going. You've got to!"

	"Too late, Justin." Ding Dong. Saved by the bell. "Look, that was
the door.  I've gotta go. I'll talk to you tomorrow."

	"Tomorrow?"

	"Yeahhh..."

	"You're not coming home tonight?"

	"No, I'm spending the night."

	"I'm going to faint!"

	"Please do!" Lance said, and then hung up. He was sick of Justin's
antics.  He needed new friends. Badly.

	"Hey, baby. You look sexy." JC said sweetly when he opened the
door.

	"Shh! Don't let my parents hear you!"

	"They won't. Ready to go?" Lance nodded. "Mmm. Good."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

	Clank. The bottle of wine fell over. Lance had accidentally hit it
with his wrist. "I can't... Josh... Um... Oh boy..." JC bobbed down on
Lance's dick. Lance grabbed at the bottle trying to make it upright, but it
was starting to spread over the blanket, making him very cold in certain
spots.

	"Josh, stop. Josh, please. My butt.. is wet..."

	"Huh?" JC asked, sitting back on his heels. "What are you talking
about?"

	"My butts wet. I spilt the wine." Lance put a hand over his eyes
embarrassedly, and laid back.

	"Oh.. OH SHIT! Red wine, white blanket!" JC yelled, and then
scrambled to get everything off of it. "Help me get it to the washer! My
parents will flip if they find a big red stain on their nice, white
afghan!"

	Lance quickly buttoned up his pains, painfully, over his erection,
and helped JC take it inside. Once it was in the washer and secure, JC
realized what he had just done.  "Oh, baby, I am SO sorry."

	"We're never going to cum, are we?"

	"We will. We've just got to stop being interrupted. Maybe we should
go somewhere where it would be impossible to be interrupted." JC wrapped
his arms around Lance's waist, and began to suck on his neck.

	"Mmmm... Where might that be?"

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

	"Josh, I am not doing it on a pool table."

	"It'll be fuuuun!"

	"No."

	"Lance, this is the ONLY room that we could not be interrupted
in. It doesn't have a phone in it, or a leaky faucet. It's not near the
washer and drier, or near the water heater. It's perfect. Except there's no
bed."

	"I'm NOT DOING IT ON A POOL TABLE!"

	"What if I got blankets?"

	"No."

	JC sighed, and climbed up onto the pool table unhappily. "Lance, I
just want everything to be perfect for us, but every time we try, something
goes wrong. We're cursed."

	Lance looked out the window sadly. "I know..." They both
sighed. "JC, is your pool heated?"

	"Yeah, why?" Lance gave JC a look that said it all. "OH GOD YES!"
They both took off running for the backdoor.

	JC was naked first, and then went to make sure the heater was
on. "It'll just take about 5 minutes to heat up enough to want to get in."

	"Mmm. So glad your yard is fenced in."

	"Me too." JC said, and went back to Lance so he could kiss him
again. They waited a few minutes by the pool. Every so often, JC would
stick his hand in and check.

	"Okay, it's good." He said after about the 50th time checking
it. They both jumped in. JC tugged Lance toward the shallow end, and Lance
followed.

	He pressed Lance against the wall of the pool, and began to kiss
him deeply, hands running all over.

	Within minutes, they were both hard again. "Josh... Mmm, Josh,
let's try it again." JC kissed Lance again and again and again. Deeper and
more passionate each time.

	"Okay... No condoms again..." Lance shoved his tongue deep into
JC's mouth.

	"Don't need em." JC wrapped his arms around Lance's waist, and
moved Lance above him.

	"Good, and we've got more than enough lubricant." They both laughed
as Lance crossed his legs behind JC's back. "Slow, baby, we'll go slow." JC
turned around so that Lance was facing the house. He needed more room to
move Lance around in, and the poolside was scraping his hands.

	"Slow... Yes...yes..AH-ohhh." Lance hissed as he slid onto JC's
dick. "Mmm, more." He whispered into JC's ear. Once he was all the way down
on it, JC pulled his hands off of his shoulders.

	"Lay back, and float. Just relax your whole body. Let me do the
work."  Lance laid back on the water nervously, and the water held him
up. JC pushed Lance's hips away from him, and then pulled them back to
him. Lance floated away and back from JC over and over again as they
fucked.

	The water gave Lance the feeling of flying. It was so blissful, and
serene.  "Lance, are you close?"

	"Mmm, yeeeeessssss..." He hissed as JC grabbed onto his dick, and
started pumping. "Oh, god, JC! I'm close..."

	"Me too, baby." Seeing as JC couldn't move in and out too fast
because of water possibly getting on Lance's, he made long, tight poundings
that Lance felt through his entire body. "Very close."

	"Josh, I can't... I'm gonna... Oh god..." Lance came all over both
JC and himself just as JC came into of Lance. Hot liquid splashed his
inside. It made him feel warm all over. JC reached down, and pulled Lance
back into his arms again. Lance put his head on JC's shoulder and squeezed
him tight, eyes closed the whole time.

	When he finally opened them, he didn't think he could even
breathe. There, standing on the lawn, staring at JC and him were JC's
PARENTS.

	"Josh..." He whispered, his voice shaky. "Parents... *gulp* on
lawn..."

	"Oh my god..." JC whispered back. Lance climbed off JC, and backed
away in the water. JC slowly turned around, to find both parents on the
pool deck now, glaring at him. "Mom. Dad. I can explain..."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I bet you that you're not going to expect what happens in
Chapter 6. BETCHA!  Tell me what you thought at sumacumlaude@hotmail.com

--SumSum

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ WARNING: This is a very angsty piece. No charactor death,
but covers a very harsh topic.  If you don't wish to read the short,
atleast read the bottom. Please. I'm trying to spread the word on a
disorder that often gets dismissed.


			THEY DON'T KNOW




	Look at Justin. He's got Britney. He's got the high life. Everybody
wants him.  Everybody.

	Look at JC. All smug, because he can write good songs. Because he
dates a whore named Bobbie.

	Look at Joey. The little baby, Brianna. Yeah, SHE was an
accident. And Kelly. They don't even talk anymore.

	Look at Chris. Thinks his little clothing brand is so great. It
looks like 1997's summer rejects. I'm glad he broke up with Dani. I'm glad
he cried. But he felt NOTHING like what I feel everyday of my fucking life.

	I know they see them. The scars. The slices. The band-aides and
gauze that have to be put on the worse ones. Amazing what a little air
brushing can do for pictures.

	I know they found my razor.

	They don't know I bought a new one. They don't know I still
hurt. They don't know how angry I am at them, at life... at myself.

	They don't know that every morning I wake up hoping to die. Hoping
that some crazed fan will kill me.

	They don't know I'm gay. They don't know that when I see them, I
want them.  Want to be them. Or even be with them.

	They don't know how bad I yearn for the touch of someone who would
love me just as much as I love them.

	They don't know how bad it hurts when I can't find someone to love
me.

	We sit in the limo after awards, they plan on going out to
clubs. Want to know where I plan to go? I plan to go lay on my bed and cut
myself.

	I plan to play in the blood. I plan to feel more alive, more real
than any drug, or alcholic beverage could ever do. Not even sex.

	They don't know how much I want to bleed.

	They don't know how bad I crave pain.

	They never know.

	They NEVER fucking know.

	And now they never will...

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

If you know somone who is depressed, and/or cutting themselves or hurting
themselves in general, get them help. I speak from personal experience.

Don't ignore them just because you don't understand, and don't watch them
to make sure they don't do it. Just be there for them. Give them someone to
talk to, and trust.

It is a disorder that does need help, and you need to help them help
themselves. Self-Mutilation can lead to permanent scars, permanent physical
damage and even to death if not treated.

Don't make them think they're crazy and alone in this. They aren't.
Thousands of people self-mutilate.  Self-Mutilation isn't a suicide
attempt, but when left untreated, can eventually lead to it.

So, please, if you know someone like that, get them help. I don't want more
people to go through what I did the way I did. Get them help. For me.
Please.

--Sum
Sumacumlaude@hotmail.com