Date: Wed, 10 May 2000 22:00:14 -0400 (EDT)
From: JT
Subject: Fated Love

	This story is fiction.  It doesn't represent the sexuality of any
member of N'Sync.  Please don't read if gay sex offends you.  Otherwise, go
ahead and read it.  I hope you enjoy it as much as I write it.

Chapter 3: Forever in love

	"Not just one thing, one hundred, one thousand things.  I will do
anything to keep you by my side.  What is it my love?" his voice was so
soothing.
	"Oh JC! You are so good to me.  I don't know what I did to deserve
you.  I am the luckiest person in the world because I have your love" I
sighed contentedly.  I snuggled up to him; I began to kiss his neck,
licking his ear lobe and inhaled deeply his aroma.  His cologne ahs faded
and replaced by the natural, strong body sweat smell that I love so much.
I almost fainted from the stimulation.
	"No, I'm the luckiest person because I have you, and you love me.
Even though I hurt you but you didn't blame me.  I know it must be painful
and killing you when you decided to leave.  I could see it in the note and
the tearstains on it.  I guess you must have seen Justin and I kissed.
I'm sorry baby.  I'm really sorry.  I promised you that there's nothing
between us.  I don't love him TT; my heart is already given to you.  I
don't think I can love somebody else beside you.  So don't ever doubt my
love for you, and please don't ever leave like that again.  I told you
before and I'll tell you again.  If you ever plan on leaving me, please
kill me first because it will be less painful that way.  I don't know what
will happen to me if you leave me.  I will continue to exist in this
world, but I won't be living.  I will only be a lost soul wondering
aimlessly in this world.  Please don't do this to me baby, I don't want to
become somebody who doesn't have a companion, a soul mate.  So I promise
you that I'll do anything you ask, just as long as you stay by my side" he
was looking at the ceiling as he poured his heart out.  Tears kept rolling
down at the corners of his eyes.  He didn't even bother to wipe them away.
	"Oh Josh! I never thought that I would have hurt you this bad.  If
I had known this, I would have never left.  I promise you that no matter
what I will stay and fight for you, for me, for us.  I don't think I can
ever leave you again JC.  The last four days were hell for me.  I just
wanted to kill myself so many times.  I didn't do it not because I am a
coward.  I couldn't do it because I think of all the pain, the grieves I
will cause my family.  I know they will be devastated.  I couldn't do that
to them, I love them too much.  But the main reason I couldn't do it
because of you JC.  I am afraid that if I die, I won't be able to see you
anymore.  I won't be able to see your face.  I won't be able to feel your
strong arms around me.  I won't be able to listen to you whispering into
my ears all the things I love to hear" I stopped for a second to kiss him
quickly on the lips, and saw a big smile on his face.  He knew that I love
him more than anything in the world.  He could feel the love I have for
him, and his face was brightened up.
	I reached into my pocket and pulled out a small box.  I opened it,
and inside there were two beautiful pieces of pendants paired up together
in the shape of a heart "I know that we only know each other for a short
time, but I love you so much JC.  I love you so much that it hurts when
I'm not with you.  I know it's too soon to do this but I believe I'm ready
to give you this.  I promise that I will never leave you if you promise me
that you will wear one of these pendants and never take it off" I took the
pendants out of the box and stared at them as tears began to roll down my
face.
	JC had a confused look on his face "What's wrong baby? Why are you
crying? I'll wear it if it's important to you.  I'll promise you that I'll
never take it off" he spoke quickly as he saw me crying.
	"You know, these two pendants have a beautiful story behind them.
Do you want to hear it?" I asked him.
	He nodded.
	I breathed in heavily before I told the story "My grandma gave me
these two pendants before she died.  These two pendants may not worth
much, but they are priceless to me.  My grandma told me that she got them
from her mother, and her mother got them from her grandmother.  Basically,
these two pendants have been in my family for many generations.  My
grandma told me that she's supposed to give them to one of my aunts.
Before she died, she gave it to me and told me that she's glad she didn't
give them to any of her daughters" I paused for a few seconds to wipe the
tears away from my eyes as the image of my grandma flashed back in my
head.  JC grabbed my hand and squeezed it slightly.  Our fingers
immediately intertwined.  I looked at him and smiled.
	"She gave me the pendants because she believed that I deserve
them.  She told me these pendants should be given only to people who truly
believe in love.  She said if two people truly love each other and each of
them wear half of the heart pendant they will be connected.  As long as
they wear the pendants they will be bound together by love.  The pendants
symbolize for love, trust, understanding and the union of two people" I
looked at him and asked, "Do you want to be half of my heart and let me be
half of yours JC?"
	He didn't answer me as he moved closer and took off the necklace I
was wearing, he reached over and took one of the pendant and put it on the
necklace.  When he put it on me, he bent down and kissed the pendant and
my heart "Yes, I want to be half of your heart as you'll be half of mine.
Will you put the other one on for me my love?" he looked up at me and
smiled.  His face was beaming with happiness, and his beautiful blue eyes
were sparkling like two sapphires.
	I was shaking when I put the pendant on for him.  I was shaking
with the happiness that I couldn't even describe.  Life could never be any
better for me.  I could never feel any happier than this.
	"I promise you that I'll never take this pendant off.  The only
way this pendant taken off my body is you take it off TT.  You put it on
for me so you have to take it off yourself" he moved in slowly as he spoke
until our forehead close.  Then he rubbed the tip of his nose against mine
slightly and said, "I love you so much TT.  From now on, I'll guard it
with my life.  I will never let anything happen to it.  I wish I had met
you earlier so I could thank your grandma for giving you such a beautiful
gift.  I would tell her that she gave it to the right person, and I would
tell her that I would take care of her grandson for the rest of my life"
	"My grandma is a very religious person.  Aren't you afraid that
she would tell you that our relationship is a sin?"  I was about to say
more but JC cut me off.
	"No, I'm not afraid.  From what I heard from you, your grandma is
a wonderful person and she would understand it.  And baby, our
relationship is not a sin.  How can it be a sin when two people love each
other as much as we do? We didn't commit any crime, we didn't kill
anybody.  And even if I'll be condemned for loving you, even if I'll be
sent to hell for being with you, then be it.  Heaven wouldn't be a
paradise for me if you're not there.  To me, it doesn't matter where I am
as long as you are with me, then I'm in heaven.  So are you willing to be
with me even if our being together will send us to hell my love?" his
voice was so soft and tender.  He sounded so vulnerable as he was waiting
for my answer.
	WOW! What could I say after I heard what he said? Tell me people.
Is there any words in this world that have a meaning beautiful enough to
describe what he just told me? I don't think so.  I don't think there is
any language in this world that could capture the beauty, the love he has
just shown me.
	"I used to believe that life is full of sorrows, sufferings,
despairs and misfortunes with just a few drops of happiness.  You just
proved me wrong my Charming Prince, my honey bear.  You just opened my
eyes and showed me that there is more to life than just sorrows and
sufferings.  You just gave me the most beautiful thing in the world, your
love.  To answer your question, yes I'm willing to be with you even if our
being together will send us to hell" I looked straight in his eyes as I
told him this "I love you JC.  In case you didn't hear me I love you
Joshua Scott Chases"
	We slowly moved closer and our heads tilted a little.  Soon our
lips touched.  We were separated only four days, yet it seemed like
forever for me.  I missed those lips, I missed his touch, I missed his
smell and I missed him so much.  There's no way that I'll leave him again.
I did it once, and I regretted it.  We kissed and kissed and kissed.
Nothing in this world seemed important to us at that moment.  Nothing in
this world could capture our attention.  We only saw each other in our
eyes, and that was all matter to us.
	"Ahem! Are you guys bored yet? If not, aren't your lips getting
tired from all the kissing? Mine would be if I kiss someone that much" we
quickly looked to the direction of the door and saw Lance stood there
smiling "How are you feeling now JC? Much better I guess" he had a grin on
his face.
	"What are you doing here Lance?" JC asked.
	"What? Can't I even come and visit my friend?" he walked over and
sat down on the chair next to me "How about you Tom? How have you been?"
	"I'm ok! Thanks for asking though.  What about you?" I asked not
feeling really comfortable with his presence.
	"Me? I'm the same, not this guys here though.  He went crazy when
you left.  He ran looking for you everywhere.  He grilled Amy and Kenny
for your whereabouts every five minutes" Lance said pointing at JC.
	I looked at JC smiled and mouthed "I love you honey bear"
	"Same here my love"
	"Oh! How cute!" Lance teased us when he saw the little affection we showed
each other "You know you two look really cute together, and JC I would
never thought that you play for the other team"
JC turned ten shades of red, and he looked soooo cute when he blushed "So
you're ok with me and Tom being together?"
	"Why wouldn't I be? You're still my friend JC.  I don't care whom you
choose to be with.  It's none of my business.  So what if you're in love
with a guy? You're still the same JC I know before" Lance spoke with
sincerity in his voice.
	"I wished that Joey feels the same way Lance.  I really love you guy and
I love Tom too.  I really don't want to be in a situation that I have to
choose between you guys and him"
	"You don't have to JC.  I'm sorry that I act like a jerk before.  It
really doesn't matter to me who you're dating.  I was just worried about
our career, and I was a little shocked when I first found out.  But I'm ok
now"
        Again we looked to the door and saw Joey stood there.  He walked
over and pulled JC into a hug "I'm sorry bro for being so stupid"
	"It's ok Joey! You don't have to sorry, and thanks a lot for
understanding.  That means a lot to us" JC was so happy when he received
the approvals from both of his best friends, his brothers.
	"Hello Tom! How are you doing?" Joey greeted me chipperly.
	"I'm fine! Thank you Joey!" I extended my hand to give him a handshake,
but he pulled me into a hug.
        "Come here you!  Don't be shy and formal with me boy.  I won't
bite" then he whispered lowly into my making sure that Lance and JC
couldn't hear it
	"I leave that job for JC.  Take a good care of him for me ok.  He loves
you very much" when we pulled back, he grinned and winked at me.
	I laughed feeling so happy that both Lance and Joey accepted our
relationship easily "Thanks Joey"
        "You're welcome anytime.  Anybody who can make JC falls head over
heel in love with must be very special, and will be fine with me.  So you
don't have to thank me.  I'm sorry that I didn't have a chance to get to
know you better"
        "So what did Joey whisper to you" JC asked me lowly when Joey and
Lance were talking together and didn't pay attention to us.
	"Nothing! He didn't say anything" I lied.
	"Don't lie baby! You know you're very bad at lying.  Every time you lie,
your eye browns come together, and that's a very big giveaway"
	"Hey JC, have Chris and Justin visited you yet?" I was saved by Joey.
	"They visited me earlier, and they said they would come back and pick me
up later" JC responded while looking at me the whole time.  By the look on
his face, I could tell that he would not give up easily.  He would grill
it out of me what Joey whispered to me when Joey and Lance leave later.
"How come you guys don't go and visit JC together" I asked wondering why,
and trying to distract JC.
	"Because we haven't talk things out yet" Lance answered slowly "JC, we
have to talk when we get home later.  Don't worry! Everything will be
fine" Lance assured JC.
	He nodded.
       We stayed and chatted for a while before I excused myself "I'm
sorry guys but I have to go now.  Amy and Kenny are waiting for me"
 	"Stay for a little while babe" he pleaded.
	"I have to go JC.  How about you come and pick me up after you have the
talk with the guys, and we will have dinner together"
        He agreed.  I leaned forward and gave him a quick kiss on the
lips. When I pulled back, I could tell that he wanted to kiss me really
bad but he couldn't do it in front of Lance and Joey.  The whole thing was
still very new to him, and he wasn't that comfortable yet.  I said bye to
them and walked out of the room.  I was so happy on the way home.  I was
happy because I have him back.  Furthermore, Lance and Joey seemed cool
about our relationship.  I wouldn't want any argument between them because
of me.  I believed that was also one of the reason why I left.  It would
be easier for him if he stay with Justin.  He wouldn't have to worry about
the media.  But I don't care about those stuffs anymore.  I would stay by
his side and we would work everything out together.  When I got back to
the house we rent for the vacation, I rang the bell and Amy answered the
door.  She quickly pulled me into a hug.  When we pulled back, she gave me
a good smack on the head.
	"Ouch! What's that for?" I whined knowing pretty why she did that.
	"You know pretty well what's that for.  How dare you going away without
tell us? Are we still your friends Tom?"
	"Nope.  You guys are not my friends.  You're my brother and sister, and
you're my freaking babysitter for god's sake" I laughed
       "If you consider we're your brother and sister then you should come
to us when you have problems.  Wait until you see Kenny.  You're gonna be
dead.  He was so angry when you left, and poor JC.  You should have seen
the way he flipped out on JC, and he swore he'll kick your ass when he'll
see you"
       "I'm not worried because I have you as my protector.  You're not
gonna let that ape hurt me, are you?" I wrapped my arms around her waist
and swung her around slightly.
       "Who was it Amy?" I looked up the stairs and saw Kenny walking down
drying his hair with a towel.  I quickly moved behind Amy.  I don't know
why but sometimes I'm scared of them more than I'm scared of my parents.
       She laughed and said "You should have thought of this when you
decided to leave.  You know he's not gonna let you go easily"
"You...you..." Kenny came charging at me the second he saw me standing
behind
Amy.  He was chasing me around the house knocking down everything in his
path "Stop running so I can get you and give you a good ass kicking"
Even though I was running away from him, and scared shitless if he catch
me, I couldn't help but laughed at his absurdity.  Kenny can be so nave
sometimes.  Who would be stupid enough to stop running and let him give a
kick in the ass?  Well? There's always one.  You know the saying "My mama
aren't raise no fool" but I guess my mama really did because I actually
stopped running, bent over and said "Ok! Go ahead and give me a good kick
and get this over with" I waited for a while and nothing happened.  I
looked up and saw Kenny stood there looking down at me and smiled.  He
walked over and pulled me into a hug that almost suffocated me.
"Come here you stupid! You actually thought that I would kick you? But if
you dump us like that again I'll wipe the floor with your ass, and throw
you to that vicious bitch over there" he said pointing toward Amy.
"Who are you calling vicious bitch?" Kenny received a good quack on the
head.
"See? And she doesn't admit that she's a vicious bitch.  If she isn't, I
don't who would be"
"You" both Amy and I said at the same time.  We all burst out laughing.
We began to move into the living room as we situated ourselves on the
floor in front of the TV.  Kenny was leaning against the sofa, I was lying
on the floor using his thighs as pillow while Amy lay her head on my
stomach. The three of us glued together in front of the TV.
"So how is it between you and JC buddy?" Kenny started the conversation.
"We're good now.  It's even better because Lance and Joey accept our
relationship.  They are cool about it.  I don't know about Chris and
Justin though.  Justin is the one I'm worried about.  Did you know that
Justin and JC kissed?"
"They what?" both Amy and Kenny shouted at the same time.
"Yep! They kissed. I saw them kissing when I came over their house.  That
was one of the reason why I left" I stopped for a few seconds "I'm afraid
that he'll choose Justin over me.  I don't think I can take it if he does
that.  I know that it sounds silly because we only know each other for a
short period of time but I really don't think I can lose him.  I love him
so much guys, and I'm so scared.  I'm so scared because what do I do if he
ever leaves me?"
 "Tom, I wouldn't worry about the future if I were you.  I just know that
right now you love each other very much, and I believe that's enough.  You
can never predict the future.  So why do you have to stress yourself over
something that you have no control of? Why not just enjoy every moment you
have with him rather than worrying what'll happen?" Kenny advised me while
he ran his fingers through my hair.
"Yeah! You're right.  I guess I'm just being paranoid.  I can be so stupid
sometimes" I replied laughing at myself.
"No you're not stupid.  It's just that when you love somebody, you love
that person with all your heart.  I never see anybody with so much love
like you Tom.  I'm not saying that you shouldn't be like that, but it will
make you very vulnerable.  If you've ever get hurt, you'll be hurt deeply.
Sometimes you have to take care of yourself more.  You got to think of you
first before anybody else, and that includes JC" Amy said.
I sighed agreeing with her "God! I miss you guys.  I miss you so much.
Over the last four days, It was hell.  I thought I could handle everything
by myself, but I realized it was so much harder without you guys.  It
would have been easier if you have been there.  I would have felt so
lonely and devastated like that"
"Then don't every shut us out like that again!"
"No.  Never, I learned my lesson, and I wouldn't want to get kicked in the
ass by Kenny.  He can be so intimidating sometimes.  He scared the hell
out of me" I giggled.
I don't know how long we stayed and talked like that until we were
interrupted by the doorbell.  I quickly got up and pushed Amy out of the
way and ran to the door yelling "I got it! I got it! I got it!"
Kenny and Amy looked at each other shaking their heads, and laughed.
Kenny spoke "He's such a dork!"
When I opened the door, I saw JC stood there smiling.  He was wearing a
cargo pants and a blue T-shirt with the tops two buttons open just enough
to show a soft layer of hair on his chest.  I just stood there admiring
him in his glory.  I couldn't take my eyes of his body. My eyes were
undressing him right there in front of the door.
"Hey"
God! Even his voice was sooo sexy.  When I looked up I saw him looking at
me smiling.  He knew that I was looking at his body.  I nervously said
"Hey yourself!"  That all I could say as I felt all the blood began to run
up to my head.  I felt so exposed.
"Are you just gonna stand there and look at me?" he asked.
"Oh! Sorry, come on in.  I didn't expect you here so soon.  It's still too
early for dinner.  Why are you here?"
"I just want to see you.  I couldn't wait to see you again" he leaned in
and gave me a quick kiss on the lips before entering the house.
I was so happy that I felt like I'm on the 9th cloud.
"Hi Amy! Hi Kenny! How are you doing?" his voice brought me back to
reality as I quickly closed the door and followed him.
"Why didn't you tell us you're getting out of the hospital today?" Kenny
asked.
"I'm sorry! I forgot to tell you because I was distracted by somebody" he
sat down on the sofa.  I walked over and prepared to sit down next to him.
But before I could sit down, he spread his legs and signaled me to sit in
his lap which I happily complied.  He quickly wrapped his arms around me
and rested his chin on my shoulder.  We sat there and talked for about
fifteen minutes when Kenny and Amy excused themselves to go upstair
packing.  I offered to help but they quickly declined.  I knew that they
wanted to give me sometime to talk to JC.  I felt so happy that I found my
true love and I have two great friends who are so considerate , caring and
loving.  They always look out for me.  I leaned back and  pressed my back
tightly against JC's chest as I lay my head on hi shoulder and sighed
happily.  I wished that we could stay in that position forever.  I wished
time would stop flying so I could be in his arms forever.
"Baby I have something to ask you?" JC broke the silence after he gave me
a kiss in the back of my head.
"I'll do anything you want honey bear, as long as you hold me like this."
"You know that we only have a week left before I have to go back and work
right?"
I nodded, not very happy with the way the conversation headed
"I want you to go away somewhere with me, somewhere so we can spend time
together"
I hesitated after hearing what he said "Can we take Kenny and Amy with us?
I don't really want them to go back home without me" I asked nervously.
Don't get me wrong.  I would love to spend time alone with him.  It's just
that we come down here to have a vacation together, and I barely spent
anytime with them after I met JC, and I felt guilty for doing that.
He paused for a few seconds, sighed and said "Yeah! They could come with
us."  By the way he spoke, and the sound of his voice I could tell that JC
didn't want Kenny and Amy to go with us.  But he loves me, and he knows
that Kenny and Amy are important to me so he didn't say no to me.  This
made me love him even more when I realized this.  I couldn't help but
quickly said "I love you"
"I love you too baby.  I love you too.  Let's go and ask them" he lifted
me up, grabbed my hand and walked upstairs.
"Hi guys! Tommy and I want to know if you want to spend another week here
somewhere with us"
Kenny and Amy looked at each other and then they both looked at me as I
nodded my head continuously to tell them to agree.
	"Well! We would love to go with you but we don't want to be a
third wheel.  So you two go ahead and enjoy your time together.  Thanks
for the offer anyway JC" Amy replied.
	"You're not a THIRD WHEEL.  We wouldn't have asked if we didn't
want you to go" I replied harshly feeling hurt a little.
	Amy walked over and pulled me into a hug "Don't be mad honey!  You
two just got back together, so you need to spend all the time you have
left together with him before he gets back to work.  We will see you later
at home and we can do everything together."  I was about to protest but
Amy quickly stopped me again and I gave up because I knew I could never
win with her.
	We decided to go and relax in the pool before we have dinner.
When we were out there, JC began to unbutton his shirt, I couldn't help
but stared at what he was doing.  He just looked at me and smiled.  Next
he deliberately did it in a slow, seductive way while I just sat there and
enjoyed the strip show he put on.  I didn't even notice that Kenny and Amy
was watching us.  My heart raced faster and faster as his shirt was slowly
pulled off to expose his well-defined chest and flat stomach.  When the
shirt was taken off, he neatly folded it and placed it on the chair.
Every movement he made, I watched in amazement as every muscle on his body
flexes.  Next my eyes traveled together with his hand as he put it in the
middle of his chest and slowly ran it down along the trail of hair until
it settled down on the buttons of his pants.  When he pulled his pants
off, he made sure that he was pretty close to me as he bent over take them
off.  My face was only inches away from his butts.  I almost reached out
my hands to squeeze them, it took every bit of my will power to restrain
me from doing that.
	"Aren't you gonna change baby?" his voice snapped me out of my
trance.  I could hear the giggles coming from Amy and Kenny.  I was so
embarrassed, I quickly tried to take my clothes off to hide my
embarrassment.  I made a mental note to get him back for doing this to me.
I was about to get into the pool when Amy caught sight of the heart
pendant I was wearing.
	"I've never seen you wear that before. Where do you get it from
Tom?" she asked pointing to my chest.
	"This? I got it from my grandma" I told her
	"Let me see it!" she walked over and felt the pendant.  She put
her face really close to the pendant, so close that I could feel her
breath on my chest.  Then she began to rub slightly on the pendant as her
fingers sometimes "accidentally" brushed against my nipple.   Her body was
so close to me that I could feel the perfume she's wearing.  I was sure
what Amy was doing.  I have to say this Amy is very beautiful and sexy.
If I ever go out with a girl, Amy would definitely be the one.  My heart
beat faster as I felt her fingers stroking my chest.  I looked at her as
she winked at me and mouthed "Play along with me to get back at JC." I
quickly agreed as I put my hands just above her butts and started rubbing
her back.  When I looked at JC, I saw he was sitting on the floor looking
at us intensely.  His mouth was slightly opened as if he was about to say
something, and his eyes almost popped out of their sockets.  I pulled her
closer and I whispered into her ear "Let me go! I have to try this on JC"
	"It's very nice.  I like it" Amy said pushing me back slightly and
walked away as if nothing happened.  I got to hand it to her, and I think
she should choose acting for her career.
	I walked over to JC and sat down between his legs.   "So you like
the pendant I gave you?" I asked and began to feel his chest, I meant the
pendant the way Amy did.  But this was different because I did it more
likely for myself.  I was copping as much of a feel as I could.  My
fingers repeatedly brushed against his nipple.  This has a stronger effect
on him than on me because JC's nipples are more sensitive.  I pushed him
back a little as I moved in closer on him.  He was half lying on the floor
propping himself up by his elbows to support his body and mine.  Next I
wrapped my arms around his neck and lowered my face until our lips were
almost touching.  He leaned forward but I slowly moved back just enough so
that our lips were still barely touched.  I could feel his member is
hardening underneath, and his breathing was getting heavier.  He looked to
Amy and Kenny but I moved his head back as I brushed my lips gently all
over his face.  I moved slowly to his ear, as I quickly licked and
whispered seductively "Baby"
	"hmm..." was all he could get out of his mouth.
	"YOU'RE GETTING HARD AND IT'S POKING ME" I yelled, pushing him
back and ran away.
	Kenny and Amy were rolling and howling with laughter as he turned
away to "adjust" himself.  Serve him right for embarrassing me before with
his strip show.
	"Wow! You're such a tease Tom! Never know you have it in you"
Kenny spoke still laughing as he patted me on my shoulder.
	JC walked over and grabbed my arms tightly.  I was startled by his
action as he pulled me in and kissed me right then, right there in front
Amy and Kenny.  I didn't mean kiss, we were sucking faces, and he didn't
even care if Amy and Kenny were watching.  Me! I didn't even know if they
were there.  He pulled back, let go of me and walked into the pool without
saying anything.  I felt the earth was moving, and I felt everything was
spinning.  I tried to reach out for something to hold, to support myself
because my legs were feeling so weak
	"WOW!"  was all I could say.  He was just so cool, so manly, so
confident.  I tried to collect myself and looked at him, I saw him looking
at me and smiled.  When he saw me looking at him, he mouthed "I love you"
	I couldn't say anything because I still haven't recovered from the
kiss yet.
	"That must be one hell of a kiss heh?" Kenny asked.
	I looked at him and nodded repeatedly.
That night we didn't make love before we went to sleep despite all the
sexual tension and teasing from the evening.  Yet, it was the best night
I've ever had in my entire life.  We kissed, we cuddled, we caressed each
other.  I remembered falling sleep with my head on his chest, listening to
his heartbeats while he ran his fingers through my hair and massaged my
head.  That was the best night of sleep I've ever had.  No nightmares,
only dreams, beautiful dreams came to me in my sleep.  Waking up in the
morning was even better.  Never in my life I have waken up with somebody's
arms around me.  I've never had the chance to experience that feeling,
I've never known what it's like to be held until that morning.  The
feeling was incredible.  It's a combination of security, happiness and
love.  I didn't want to get up.  I didn't want to get out of the bed.
Especially I didn't want to get out of those two muscular arms that belong
to the most beautiful man whom I love with all my heart. I looked at him,
he looked so beautiful, beautiful like an angel casted down from heaven.
Yes, he's my angel.  He has come to save me and give me the happiness that
I could only dream of, the happiness that I've believed only exist in
fairy tales.  I couldn't help it but leaned forward and gave him a quick
kiss on the lips.  Since it was such a beautiful morning, I didn't want to
waste it by just lying around in bed.  Furthermore, we had to get up and
get ready to go with Amy and Kenny to return the house key to the office
before going to the airport.  I shook him lightly.
"Honey bear, wake up!"
No response, I shook him harder, still no response.  I shook him harder
and said loudly "JC wake up!"  still no reaction.  A terrible feeling's
spread through out my whole body.  I began to shake lightly as I nervously
put my fingers close to his nose for about ten seconds.  My body was
shaking more when I realized that he wasn't breathing.  Tears began to
roll down my cheeks as I started to shake him violently.
"J...C..." was all I could get out of my mouth.  Still no response came
from my angel, me love.  I crashed down on his chest and cried.  This
couldn't happen.  This couldn't be true.  How could this happen to me?
Everything began to flash back to me.  Everything from the beginning, from
how we met, how we fell in love with each other.  Nobody could love me the
way he loves me, and I could never love anybody like I love him.  Right at
that moment, I felt a pair of arms wrapped tightly around me.
"Hey, hey, I'm sorry baby. I was just playing with you.  I didn't mean to
scare you or make you cry.  I thought you would give me a mouth to mouth
resuscitation. I'm sorry baby.  I am really sorry"
"Josh" I began to cry harder "You scared the hell out of me.  I thought I
lost you.  I was so scared JC." I began to pound on his chest "Don't ever
do that again!"
"How could I be so stupid? I didn't know that I would scare you like that.
I'm so sorry TT" he started to cry as he hugged me tighter in his arms.
He pulled me up and wiped the tears away from my face with his thumbs as
he drew me closer.  Our heads tilted slightly as we moved closer, soon our
lips met.
"I love you TT" he said when we pulled back from our kiss.
"I love you too JC.  We better get up and get ready.  Remember the last
time we showered together?  You promised me that you let me take as long
as I want.  How about you keep your promise now?"
"Ok! Let's go baby!" he quickly got up and swept me up and carried me to
the bathroom.  Needless to say, we took a pretty, pretty long shower.
 When we said our goodbye to Amy and Kenny at the airport, Amy pulled me
into a hug and whispered "Be good to him ok? He's a keeper."
"I will! I love you guys. I'll see you later at home.  Don't do anything
fun without me ok?" I didn't want to let them go.  I felt my eyes were
watering.  I hate saying goodbye even I knew that I will see them in a
week, I still hated it.
"So where are we going now?" I asked JC when we got out of the airport.
"You'll see baby!"
"Come on! Tell me I don't like waiting. Tell me, where are we going?" I
asked excitedly jumping up and down a little in the seat.
"Nope! You have to wait until we get there" he didn't budge.
"Fine! Be like that.  I don't need to know about that stupid place we're
going anyway" I said like I didn't care, but inside I just wanted to
murder him for not telling.
He just smiled, and didn't say anything when he saw the look on my face.
Then he started talking about something to distract me.  I knew what he
was doing but I just ignored it b/c I believed he wouldn't tell me no
matter how many times I asked. We were talking for a while until he pulled
off in the driveway of a beautiful house on the beach.  It wasn't really a
big house but it located far away from the other houses.
"I love this house because it gives us a lot of privacy.  We can do
anything we want.  Nobody will bother us, we can spend the whole week
together here by ourselves" JC said excitedly.
We carried our bags inside the house.  JC was unpacking our bags in the
bedroom when I told him that I would go and make a phone call.  I wanted
to call my brother and tell him everything.  I was so happy that I
couldn't wait to talk to Johnny.
"Hello Johnny?" I asked.
"Tommy? Is that you? How's the vacation little bro?"
"Really good bro.  That's why I called to tell you.  I met somebody
Johnny."
"Really? Who is he?" Johnny asked excitedly.
"You know him Johnny.  His name is JC from the N'sync.
"Wow! You lucky son of a gun"
"I know.  I'm so lucky.  We met about three weeks ago.  Oh Johnny! He's so
wonderful. I love him so much" I said smiling as if my brother could see
my face.
"What? You only met him for three weeks and you fall in love with him
already?"
"What are you talking about Johnny? So what if we only met for three
weeks? I love him very much, and I know he loves me too"
"Listen bro! I know for sure that you love him, but I'm not sure about
him.  You're still very young and immature..."
I quickly cut him off "I'm not young.  I'm twenty three"
"I know bro but this is the first time you love somebody.  How do you know
he really love you? How do you know he is not using you just for sex? You
know he's very famous and good looking.  He can have anybody he wants"
I cut him off again "That's not true Johnny! You don't know him so you
don't know what you're talking about.  I know he loves me.  I know it
Johnny" I said sobbing a little.
"I'm sorry little bro. I didn't mean to make you cry.  I was just worried
about you, and I'm only looking out for you"
"I know you're looking out for me bro. I have to go now. I'll call you
back later"
"Ok bro! I love you"
"I love you too Johnny. Bye"
"Bye"
When I hung up the phone, I quickly ran upstairs to the bedroom seeing JC
lying on the bed with his arms and legs all stretched out.
"Do you love me JC?" I asked him.
"What?" he quickly sat up.
	"Do you really love me JC? You're not just using me for sex, are
you?"
	"What's the hell are you talking about Tom?" he walked over and
grabbed my arms tightly as I winced in pain "Look at me!" he shouted.  I
was so scared.  I've never seen this side of JC.  I didn't dare to look at
him as I kept my eyes on the floor.
	"I SAID LOOK AT ME DAMN IT!"  he screamed as he shook me violently
"how could you ask me that Tom? How could you ask me that? Haven't I shown
you enough how much I love you? I never cry for anybody in my entire life,
yet I shed so much tears for you already Tom.  I never love anybody like I
love you.  Nobody loves me the way you love, but nobody hurts me the way
you hurt me either Tom" he pushed me back and stomped out of the room.  I
fell down on the bed crying.  Yes, he was right.  How could I ask him that?
How could I doubt his love for me? My love and trust for him are not strong
enough.  I was crying when the phone rang.  I didn't want to pick it up but
I decided against it.
	"Hello?" I asked controlling my crying.
	"Hi bro! I just want to call and apologize.  I'm sorry when I say
that JC may be using you for sex.  I was really worried that you would get
hurt.  But when I thought about it.  I realized that I was wrong.  I
haven't met JC so I shouldn't be so judgmental.  I'm really sorry bro.  You
forgive me?"
	"It's ok Johnny! You don't have to apologize for anything.  You
didn't do anything wrong.  You were just looking out for me.  Thank you
anyway.  I love you bro, and you have to believe me that he really loves
me.  You'll see it when you'll meet him"
	"Ok! I'll let you go now.  I love you too.  Have fun and I'll see
you when you'll get home.  Take care baby bro"
	"Take care Johnny!" when I looked up I saw JC entered.  He walked
over to the bed and sat down next to me.
	"Hey!"
	"I'm sorry JC! I should never..."
	He quickly put his finger on my lips to stop me from talking "It's
ok! I'm sorry for screaming at you.  Come here! I have to show you
something" he got up and grabbed my hand to pull me up.  I followed him and
we walked out to the back of the house.  When we got out of the back door,
I saw a bucket with a bottle of champagne in it, and a basket of fruits and
food placed on a sheet on the beach.  We walked over as he sat me down in
front of him.  Then he took my hand and put it inside his shirt to pull the
heart pendant out.
	"Remember this pendant?" he asked.
I nodded.  How could I ever forget?
	"When we put the pendant on for each other, we gave the other
person half of our heart.  We became one baby.  I told you that I will
never love another person in my life.  I don't even care if we are sent to
hell if we're together.  As long as you are by my side, I'm ready to deal
with everything.  So don't ever doubt my love for you again.  I would do
anything, anything in my power to make you happy my love" he said, his
voice was full of emotion and love.
	"Make love to me JC.  Make love to me.  I want to feel you inside
of me right now" I pleaded to him desperate.  I needed him so much at that
moment.
	"Right here? Right now?" he asked.
	"Yes, right here, right now.  I want you to make love to me in the
open place.  I want Heaven and Earth to be our witnesses.  I want to show
that our love is pure.  We have nothing to hide, I have nothing to be
ashamed of.  You're all I've ever needed JC.  Please make love to me."  He
didn't say anything as he bent down and kissed me.  His hands began to
undress me as I reached for the buttons his pants.  Soon all of our clothes
were taken off and thrown all over on the beach.  We didn't care as we
desperately took them off of each other.  We couldn't wait as our hands
began to roam all over the body of the other.  He bent down and kissed my
heart, then he started to suck on my nipple as he situated himself between
my legs.  I could feel the tip of his cock rubbing against my hole.  He
slowly pushed it in inside of me.
	"Ohhh!" I moaned in pleasure as my body encountered the feeling he
just gave me.  He grabbed my hands and our fingers immediately intertwined.
Again, he leaned forward and kissed me as he pushed in further, deeper
inside of me.  A loud moan escaped my mouth as my legs involuntary wrapped
around his waist to pull him in deeper.


	That's it for now everybody.  I'm sorry that It took a long time for me
too finish this chapter.  I've been really busy with the exams and finals.
I'm so happy that they are over.  Yippee! This chapter is dedicated to my
grandma.  She just died peacefully a couple months ago.  I love you very
much grandma.  I know that you are watching out for me from above.  May
you rest in peace and I'll pray for you.  I love you.
I hope you like this chapter.  It took a lot out of me to finish it,
especially about my grandma.  She's a wonderful person, and I love her
dearly.  Take care everybody and see you again soon.