Date: Tue, 15 May 2001 09:48:08 -0700 (PDT)
From: Mel J <melanjea_bsb@yahoo.com>
Subject: Full Circle-Chapter 2

Disclaimer! This has no reflection on Nysnc or true in
any way.. its FICTION!!
Full Circle-Chapter 2
By Mel
2001


   The next day it was easier. Now that some things
were out in the open, most of the tension between
bandmates had disappeared.
   But there were a few problems. Justin had a hard
time keeping Chris' secret. He was beginning to regret
ever having told Chris he would keep it.
   He knew that Chris should get some help, but he had
promised. It would be a very hard promise to keep.
   Chris tried to keep his hands from shaking. It was
hard to concentrate on singing and deal with his
withdrawal at the same time.
   By the time they took a break, a sweat had broken
out over his face, and he had to practically run to
the bathroom to make it on time, before he threw up
breakfast.
   Justin was not far behind, the only one who knew
what was truly happening with his friend. Justin held
him while Chris cried. It was a while before the
shakes passed, and Chris regained some color back into
his face. Justin didn't know if he would be enough.

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  Lance knew he would have to tell Jc sooner or later.
He just didn't know if he could handle it. How do you
tell your friend that you love him? He shuddered with
repressed longing as he remembered the scene in the
bathroom after Joey had left.
   Jc had just stared at him a while before pulling
him into a bone crushing hug. Not a word was spoken,
but the tension had eased somewhat.
   If only he could convince himself that JC wouldn't
hate him. JC, on the other hand was hoping that Lance
would tell him what was bothering him.
   Athough the two friends had made up, Jc sensed that
Lance was keeping something very important from him.
JC still thought it was because he announced he was
gay.
  Nothing could have been further than the truth.

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   Somehow he wasn't surprised to see his friend when
he opened the door. Their relationship was deepening
and it scared him, but thrilled him all at the same
time. He was very much afraid he was falling for his
friend. "I knew you would be here."
   "I couldn't help myself."
   The two lovers stared at eachother for a full
minute before he walked in and locked the door behind
him. "Now what? Are we lovers, are we friends?"
  The blue eyes that met his brown ones were
thoughtful. "I don't know. I know that I want you,
more than I have wanted anyone in a long time."
    He felt his heart beat faster at his friends
words. He couldn't help his bodies reaction to those
intimate words. His cock immediatly started to
thicken, and throb. His lover sat down on the couch
next to him and rested a hand on his knee.
  "What do you want?" The answer was easy.
   "I want you."
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  Joey could see something was seriously wrong with
Chris. He didn't know what and Chris was not telling
but he knew that sooner or later it would have to be
dealt with. The other thing that was bothering him was
Lance and JC.
   He knew that Lance was gay, and desperately in love
with JC. He could also see that JC was madly in love
with Lance. But he couldn't say anything.  One Lance
would kill him.
   Two, JC would kill him. Joey couldn't risk it. The
next day was more of the same. Long glances, and the
undercurrent was once again growing underneath all the
recording. More and more Chris was getting sick, more
and more Lance would give lovesick glances to Jc.
Something had to give, and soon.
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   "Chris is doing coke." Silence. He looked at his
lover's face, comprehension dawning. "I couldn't hide
it from you any longer."
    "You have been trying to hide it from everyone."
   "I promised."
     "We need to tell the others, you know that."
    He paled. He didn't want to break Chris' trust,
but he knew that now that the cat was out of the bag
that there was no turning back from the choice he had
just made.
   "I know that."