Date: Sat, 02 Sep 2000 23:03:37 +1000
From: Sun Child <heartmindsoul@eudoramail.com>
Subject: Garden of Songs 2
Hey people... I'M BAAAAACK! I know you all missed me. Guess what ... now
you get the warning/disclaimer thing ... you think you got it bad ... you
aren't the ones who have to write it.
WARNING: Should you be under the age of 18 (or 21) you are required to
leave by law. Should you be offended (I ask you now what are you here) by
m/m concepts. I know Savage Garden (kinda) and all their songs are
theirs... all poems are mine unless otherwise quoted. Look at the bottom
for details, if you want to use a poem, I don't mind ... just ask first
... people have asked to use my poems before and I don't mind because they
asked.
Okay, praises or flames? Send it to -= heartmindsoul@eudoramail.com =-
Derwan, as always and as forever, you are my one special man ... I will
never stop loving you.
Stories ... do people actually read this? Write and let me know:
JC Dreams -- like I said, shameless self-promoter (boy-bands)
Brandis Redemption -- He's disappeared from the big and little screen but
this story is still a way cool read (celebrity)
Justin's Dark Angel -- love it love it love it (boy-bands)
Ummm.... whatever -- Gotta love it purely for the title (boy-bands)
Affirmation -- GO SAVAGE GARDEN!!!! (boy-bands)
I would kick myself if I missed this chance to plug the band's new single
... latest off the album... the single is 'Affirmation' it's in store now
for the people in the US and the film clip rocks ... we've already seen it
in Australia.
Usual disclaimer about spelling because of where I live ... in Australia so
sorry to the overseas readers. Okay here we go:
Garden of Songs 2
by
Sun Child
Daniel looked at me in shock.
"Dan. What are you doing here? You never called?" I smiled.
"You told me I never needed to."
"Yeah, when you were 5." Daniel retorted.
"Oops then." I grinned at him. "Aren't you at least going to invite me
in?" I asked him. Shaking his head slightly he opened the door properly
and motioned for me to enter. I picked up my bags and walked inside and
down the hall to my usual room.
I then returned to the lounge room to him. He was sitting on the lounge
chair, still somewhat shocked at my unexpected arrival. Smiling I walked
over and sat astride his lap facing him.
"So how is the garden?" I asked refering to the band.
"Same as, same as." Was the response. My face clouded over.
"Darren still giving you problems."
"A little. He's coming around later." Daniel told me. I just grinned.
"Good, I can sharpen my claws again, I need a scratching post. They are
totally not worth it at the uni, they're like drive by slayings, no decent
banter." Daniel just shook his head.
"You never change do you."
"Of course not." I grinned again. "That's why ya love me so much." He
just shook his head and gave me a hug. When he let go I got off his lap
and moved to the seat next to him, still watching him.
"How's mum?" I asked curious.
"She's fine ... she's also gonna be pissed if you don't call her to let
her know that you're in town. How long are you down for?" Daniel asked.
"About three weeks, then I go back north to get my stuff before I move
down."
"Move down?" He asked, eyebrows hitting his hairline.
"Yeah, my parents are still giving me shit big time so I'm moving down
here."
"Still? I didn't know they started. It's been nearly a year since we
last spoke Dan."
"Oh yeah, ummmm..." I was lost for words. Life with my parents wasn't
peachy. I came out and got kicked out. My mother was kinda okay with it
but my father was a total asshole about it all.
"You don't have to tell me yet if you don't want to Dan." I looked over
at him.
"Thanks Daniel. I couldn't have asked for a better big brother." He
looked at me and laughed.
"Well you have four of us remember."
"Five." I corrected him.
"Who's the fifth." Daniel asked not comprehending.
"The one who married into the family when 'Savage Garden' was born. The
estranged one." Daniel's face darkened slightly.
"Dan, change that tone of voice now. You know I don't like you talking
that way about Darren."
"But he treats you like shit on a professional and personal level. You
are such a great person, I hate the way he tears you up." My voice
betraying my concern.
"It's getting better. You don't need to worry about me. So who's your
latest conquest?"
"I will worry about you ... don't change the subject. You look after me
so much ... my turn to return the favour." I told him.
"Okay okay ... you couldn't ask for a better older brother and I
couldn't ask for a better younger one." I smiled and hugged him.
"So who's the new conquest? What's his name come on..." I stopped
dead.
"How did you? I mean ..." Daniel just laughed.
"How long have I known you Dan? 13 years now? Give me some
credit... that and you left a copy of 'Gay Times' here last time you
visited." He laughed harder and my face turned several colours of red
within a matter of seconds. When he stopped he hugged me.
"I take it that's what the fall out with your parents was?" I just
nodded, still holding him. He looked at me.
"Don't worry, you're still the same Dan I knew and loved. Just don't
bring any stray guys home okay." He smiled. I grinned back and put my
head on his shoulder.
I guess the bus trip had warn me out, because I woke up, my head in
Daniel's lap, the TV playing on and Daniel stroking my hair. I didn't stop
him, it felt comforting, something we'd always done, it made me feel at
home. It was then I heard the voice in the kitchen
"Hey idiot! Do you have any coffee left?" I grimaced, Darren was here.
I slowly lifted my head letting Daniel know I was awake, then rolled onto
my back, head still in Daniel's lap.
"So sleeping beauty lives does he." Daniel laughed softly.
"Oh you think I'm a beauty do you." I flirted with him.
"Always." Daniel flirted back. Darren returned to the room.
"Oh, you're awake." Darren commented on seeing me talking to
Daniel. "Daniel, your out of coffee again, I'm going to go get some. I'll
be back soon." Darren commented.
"Oh do you have to go, you know I miss you so much while you're gone." I
told Darren, my voice dripping with sarcasm. All it did was earn me a
whack on the head from Daniel. Darren just sneered at me and got his keys.
"I'll be back soon, teach your bitch to be nice while I'm out hey."
Darren said speaking to Daniel. Daniel physically held me down while
Darren left.
"He deserved what I said." I told Daniel.
"No he didn't ... he just commented that you were awake."
"He also called you an idiot." I shot back. Daniel just shook his head.
"Let it slide Dan, let it slide." I just nodded, my face letting him
know I wasn't happy about it.
Daniel just sat there with me, head in his lap just talking to me when
Darren returned. He walked into the room.
"Oh get up you lazy brat." He told me. Again, Daniel physically
restrained me. I was about to say something when Daniel clapped his hand
over my mouth. Darren just snorted and returned to the kitchen. Daniel
removed his hand from my mouth.
"You started this, but it ends now." Daniel told me commandingly. I
just nodded and closed my eyes again.
Next thing I knew I felt someone sitting on me. My eyes flew open.
"MUM!!!!!!" I yelled happily.
"Heya kiddo. You didn't call me to let me know you were coming down."
I closed my eyes then opened them again with a goofy grin on my face.
"Will a sorry get me outta trouble?" I asked.
"Only if it's accompanied by one of your quiches." I groaned ... she
never passed up and opportunity for me to cook for her. I rotated my head
in Daniel's lap.
"Do you have the stuff?" Mum then piped up.
"No but I do." She lifted a bag of shopping. I looked again at Daniel.
"You called her right." He just nodded and grinned. Returning my gaze
to mum.
"Well, you're gonna have to get off me first aren't ya, unless of
course, you don't want me to cook." Mum rocketed off me so I could stand.
I stood up and took the bag from her and went into the kitchen to start
cooking.
I had just put it in the oven when Darren came back again. He walked in
the door and saw me standing.
"So you finally got off your lazy ass." He commented. I looked him up
and down.
"At least I have an ass stick boy." I threw back.
"Oh please, that makes you sound so tragic."
"And I suppose if I'm tragic you're just misunderstood."
"That's what I totally am ... misunderstood which is why my music has so
much meaning."
"Yeah well just because your misunderstood doesn't make you an artist."
I glared.
"For your information, I am a world famour music artist."
"Yeah and a bad one at that. You sing like Smurfette on speed." I
retorted. Smiling slightly as his jaw dropped open, I turned on heel and
went back to the kitchen to check the food.
I stayed in there and did a crossword while Daniel and Darren were
discussing band matters. When I called out that food was ready I head
Daniel call that they were coming. What made me angry was when I head
Darren
"Yeah bringus food bitch. Come on be my good bitch and bring me food."
I brought out mum's and Daniel's food, went to the garden and told mum the
food was ready then came back and grabbed Darren's food, which should have
been nice and cold by now. I walked out into the dinning room.
"Right now you have my food, drop to the floor and suck my cock, dirty
little faggot." I shot a furious look at Daniel. He just looked down, I
realised then that Daniel had told him. I decided to make the best of the
situation and give Darren some of his own.
"Not until you tell me where you want me and the food." Darren just
pointed to the table.
"There." I walked over, sat on the table, legs together.
"Right now, where do you want the food or you get none of the pleasure
that I can provide." Out of the corner of my eye I could see Daniel just
about in tears for the way I was acting. I was his little brother and about
to service his band mate. I looked over at him and winked slightly then
looked back at Darren.
"I meant put the food on the table, now get under the table and suck my
cock." Looking down, I could see it straining within his jeans. Looking
back up and then looking Darren straight in the eye.
"Well, if you want me to do that, you'll need to unzip yourself and
remove yourself from the confines of clothing won't you." Darren got a
sickeningly lewd look his eye. He then reached down and unzipped himself,
freeing his hard cock. I looked down then straight back up.
"Is that as big as it gets? Cover that thing up!" I told him, then
tipped the good over his cock, then dropped the plate on top. I then slid
off the table and walked back towards the kitchen, before I walked through
the door I turned.
"Darren, just so you know... I may be gay, but I'm no one's bitch." I
turned again and walked into the kitchen.
Daniel came straight in after me.
"What was that for?" He exploded.
"He asked for it." I felt my anger starting to rise
"Yeah well there was no need to go to such lengths. That was childish
and pathetic. That's something that I would expect from him not you. Why
don't you grow up?" He continuted. Telling me to grow up was what pushed
it.
"I wouldn't have had to if someone had kept their trap shut would I. If
they hadn't opened their big mouth, he wouldn't have known I was gay and
then he wouldn't have said anything." Daniel grabbed my arm and I shook it
free.
"Let go of me." I told him coldly. "I think I'll stay in a motel while
I'm down."
"You'll do no such thing."
"Really who are you to tell me what to do." Daniel raised his hand to
hit me.
"Come on do it ... let me see you sink as low as my father." I turned my
cheek out to him. "Come on hit me." Daniel lowered his hand. "No I
didn't think you could. I got out of where I was because of things like
that, that's what my father would do. I came here looking for a friend,
not a traitor." I turned around and walked to my room, grabbed my bags and
walked outside.
Pulling out my mobile phone I called a cab. I hung up and Darren came out
after me.
"So are you going without saying goodbye whore?" He asked sneering
again as the taxi pulled up. I turned and glared at him.
"Why would you give a fuck?"
"Because you just exploded at someone who, for a long time has wanted
you as more than a friend. Wake up sunshine, Daniel ain't playin' for
women, he plays for you." I walked up to Darren.
"Why should I believe you?" I seethed at him.
"Because, he tells me everything, because isn't that what friends do.
The only reason I'm not with him is because of you. He sits there pinning
after you and I want him. Now that you are gone, he's mine." I glared at
him.
"Lay one hand on Daniel and see what happens." I warned Darren.
"Yeah? What can you do?" He asked sneering.
"This." I told him and drove my fist as hard as I could into his gut. I
then picked up my bag and walked down to the taxi. The driver got out and
opened the boot. I threw my bag in then climbed inside.
"Cheapest local hotel." I told the driver. Then I turned to look up and
the house. Daniel was standing at the window, tears falling down his
precious cheeks. Then I was away, out of his sight.
As I sat down in the room I had just booked, I pulled out my portable CD
player, put my headphones in and pressed play.
No, no, no, no
No, no, no, no
No, no, no, no
No, no, no, no
Listen little child - there will come a day
When you will be able, able to say
Never mind the pain, or the aggrivation
You know thee's a better waym for you and me, to be
Goodbye my friend
(I know you're gone, you said you're gone, but I can still feel you here)
It not the end
(Gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)
So glad we made it, time will never change it
No, no, no, no
No, no, no, no
Just a little girl but imagination
Never letting no one take it away
Went into the world, what a revelation
She found there's a better way, for you and me, to be
Look for the rainbow in every storm
Find out for certain, love's gonna be there for you
You'll always be someone's baby
Goodbye my friend
(I know you're gone, you said you're gone, but I can still feel you here)
It not the end
(Gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)
So glad we made it, time will never change it
No, no, no, no
No, no, no, no
The time we would play about
The way we'd scream and shout
We'd never dreamt you'd go your own sweet way
Look for the rainbow in every storm
Find out for certain love's gonna be there for you
You'll always be someone's baby
Goodbye my friend
(I know you're gone, you said you're gone, but I can still feel you here)
It not the end
(Gotta keep it strong before the pain turns into fear)
So glad we made it, time will never change it
Crying I stopped the song and looked up towards the ceiling.
"Why did I just kill the best friendship I ever had?" I asked. "Why?" Then beside me, my phone started to ring.
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Okay the song in here is 'Goodbye' by Spice Girls... been a while scince we
heard from them isn't it. Oh well. Well what did you think of the story?
I hope it meets your approval. Yours, Sun Child.