Date: Sat, 27 Mar 2004 23:26:00 -0500 From: JT Poole <jtpoole9@cybersouth.com> Subject: Boybands - How Deep Is Your Love - 38 Warnings and Disclaimers: 1) If reading this is in any way illegal in your town, state or zip code because of your age, religion, or other government rules you shouldn't read this. 2) If you don't want to read about male/male gay sexual relationships, go away. You shouldn't waste your time with this story. 3) I don't know any of the members of 'N Sync, or any other celebrities that may be mentioned in this story. This story in no way is meant to imply anything about 'N Sync, and any other celebrities sexualities, personalities, or anything else. This is a work of pure fiction. Questions and commentary can be sent to "jtpoole9@cybersouth.com". I want to hear from everyone out there that is reading this story, tell me what you think whether it is bad or good. ====================================== How Deep Is Your Love -- Chapter 38 by JT Poole // Someplace in Canada -- Justin and Howard's Room // "I bet they are mad with the two of us." Justin stated as he and Howard walked into their room. "I bet they are." Howard stated, wrapping his arms around Justin, placing a gentle kiss on his lips. "Oh Howard, I am starting to like all of this. I don't want us being together to end." Justin spoke, kissing Howard on the lips. "Howard I love you." "I love you Justin." Howard stated, kissing and hugging Justin. --- Howard's POV --- Hearing Justin say those words took me completely by surprise. I had been waiting the last few weeks to hear him say those words for the longest time. I knew he loved me and now I know it with all of my being. He loves me, he really loves me. "Howard there's something I want to do, but I don't know how to ask." He spoke, walking towards the bed and sitting down. "Just ask me Justin, whatever it may be." I tell him. "I don't know the right words to use. I don't want to frighten you." He tells me. "Just ask me Justin." I tell him, walking over to him, wrapping my arms around his waist. "It's not like I am going to bite your head off and walk away. Just tell me baby." "I want you to make love to me." He spoke softly, barely audible. "What did you say Justin?" I ask him. "I want you to make love to me." He spoke a little louder now, looking up to kiss me. "Baby are you sure you are ready to take this step?" I ask him, staring deeply into his eyes. "Yes Howard, I'm ready for this. I'm ready for you. I'm ready for us to make physical the love we share." He spoke, getting up off the bed, pulling me up with him into a standing position. We embraced each other, standing there kissing; tasting the other's mouth like it was the only thing we knew how to do. We stood there exploring each other's body like we have never touched the other before. I moved my hands back up to Justin's face, holding him close to me as he spoke to me. "Baby take me gently." He whispered to me, kissing my neck. We were now kneeling on the bed naked, still kissing and touching each other. Each touch of his skin to mine sent shivers up and down my spine. The connection between us now was so strong that I could actually feel Justin's fear and his excitement of the moment all at one time. As we slowly moved into a lying position on the bed, I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him on top of me. He laid on top of me grinding his hips into mine still kissing me. I was so close to cumming that I had to stop him before this was all over before it actually got started. I rolled over on top of him, still kissing him, moving my hand down to his cock, slowly stroking him eliciting a moan from him. "Baby you are so beautiful." I tell him, still stroking him. "Ohhhh God, Howard I can't last long if you keep doing that." He tells me as his face started to contort and then my hand was covered in his man cream. "Oh God, Howard I am so sorry. I ruined it all." Getting upset, he pushes me off of him, jumps out of the bed. Running over to the bathroom, he closes the door and locks it. "Justin, Justin what's wrong?" I ask him. "I ruined the moment. I'm so sorry Howard." He tells me as I can hear him crying. "It's okay baby, really it is." I tell him, trying to open the bathroom door. "Justin, come on baby, open the door." "I can't, you don't deserve to see me now." He tells me. "So you are turning me away because you had an orgasm?" I ask him. "Justin baby, you didn't do anything wrong." // In the Bathroom // --- Justin's POV --- What was I thinking, I am not good at having sex with a man, hell I am not good at having sex with a woman either. This is the same thing that happened with Harold all over again, when I slept with him that night so long ago. Funny though, I did the very same thing with him and he laughed at me. What's wrong with me? Why do I always shoot to quick? "Justin open the door. Either open it up or I am going to knock it down and come in and get you damnit." Howard spoke on the other side of the door. "I love you Justin, I thought you loved me." "I do love you Howard, honest I do." I tell him as the tears fell faster now. "If you love me Justin, come out of there and be with me." He tells me, still turning the knob on the door. "Come out here and talk to me." "I...I...can't. I just can't." I tell him. "Why Justin, why?" He asks me. "Because I'm screwed up that's why." I tell him, sitting down on top of the toilet seat. "Fine." He tells me. I sat there for about a couple of minutes and then I heard the door to our bedroom open and then slam. Great now he's even more pissed off with me. I can't do anything right. I have proved Harold right; I have gone and hurt Howard. I love him, I really love him and here I am causing him pain. I was sitting here contemplating what I had done when I heard the door to our room open and then the bathroom door burst open. "Now if you would so kindly get your cute little backside back out there in bed please. We need to talk." Howard spoke; grabbing me by the arm and leading me back out to the bed. "Howa..." I start, but he places his finger over my lips. "Quiet Justin, it's my turn to speak and you will listen." He tells me. "But..." I start again, he just kisses me and sits me down on the bed. "But nothing Justin. I love you. Today you just told me that you love me, so what's the problem here? Was that just something you said in the heat of the moment or do you really love me?" He asks me, tears in his eyes. "I love you Howard, I really do, but..." I tell him. "But what Justin, you don't want to be with me? You don't find me attractive? What is it Justin? What made you jump out of bed and lock yourself in the bathroom like you did?" He asks me. "I'm a screw up Howard. I ruined the moment for us. I can't even make sex last longer than one minute." I tell him, wrapping my arms around him. "You should be with someone that can perform in bed with you, not perform and leave you hanging." "What?" He asks me. "What are you talking about baby?" "I don't have much experience with sex and men." I tell him. "What? What about the thing with Harold and all the people he said you slept with?" He asked me. "Harold was the only guy I slept with and that started the same way." I tell him. "And the other guys were just blowjobs." "So basically you slept with one guy in your life and that was Harold?" He asked me. "I slept with Harold, he was the only guy that I ever had sex with and by now you know how that turned out." I tell him, dropping my head down, covering my eyes. "Actually I don't know how that turned out, I wasn't there." He tells me smiling at me. "Why are you so upset baby?" "Because I ruined this." I tell him, waving my arms around. "The mood was so right and perfect and here I am shooting too quick before we even get to the sex." "Oh God, all of this because you came. Its not like that's the end, hell I come quick a lot too, but I don't get upset about it, I wait until my juices reload and go another round." He tells me, kissing me now on the lips. "Maybe we should just lay here and just be with each other." "Are you sure baby? I am not trying to be a tease or anything. We need to take care of you." I tell him, pushing him back on the bed, straddling his waist. "Baby what are you doing?" He asks me. "Never you mind that, just go along with the flow." I tell him, leaning down to kiss him as I move my ass slowly across his crotch. "Do you want me to help you out of those?" "Sure baby, anything you want." He tells me, pulling my body down to him, as he hugs me close to his body. "I want to feel the love you have for me." I tell him, grabbing the condom and the bottle of lube we had taken out earlier. "Oh baby I love you, you can already feel the love I have for you." He tells me. "Yes I can, but in just a moment, it will be felt physically too." I tell him, rolling the condom down on his dick, pouring some of the contents of the lube bottle on his dick, rubbing it down. "Baby, just give me a moment to adjust to you. When I give you the signal, you know what to do." // Brian and Joey's Room // "Baby what's on your mind?" Joey asked, sitting down on the bed next to Brian. "Looks like you are thinking deeply about something." "I'm just thinking about Baylee and how he's going to grow up." Brian spoke, wrapping an arm around Joey. "Why are you thinking about that? I think Baylee will have a wonderful time growing up. He has a wonderful daddy that loves him very much." Joey stated. "He has two daddies that love him very much." Brian stated. "Yes I do love him, I love him just like he was my own." Joey stated. "You know what, that's what we have not done. You need to adopt Baylee." Brian stated. "Adopt him? Why?" Joey asked. "If something happens to me, I hope it doesn't, but in the case of something happening to me, you can take care of him." Brian stated. "Nothings gonna happen to you. You will be here forever." Joey stated. "Yeah said that when we were together the first time and look what happened." Brian stated. "You were not with me, you were with her. I am not abusive to you baby. I wasn't trying to kill you on a daily basis." Joey stated, kissing Brian on the lips. "But if you want me to adopt him, we can talk to Howard and have him file the papers needed." "That's right, I wasn't even thinking about him." Brian stated, just as the intercom in the room buzzed. "I bet that's Justin." Joey stated, getting up and pressing the button. "Yes?" "Mr. Fatone-Littrell your meals are ready. Should I bring them down to your room or will you have them in the dining room?" Adam asked. "Thanks Adam, and again call me Joey." Joey spoke, reaching his hand out to Brian. "Our lunch awaits. Come on, I am starving." "You are always starving." Brian spoke, kissing Joey as they walked out of the room. ====================================== TO BE CONTINUED... Comments or Suggestions Contact Information E-Mail: jtpoole9@cybersouth.com <mailto:jtpoole9@cybersouth.com> Website: http://home.cybersouth.com/jtpoole9/hosted.html Yahoo: johntpoole AIM: blk4whtnga@aol.com ICQ #: 146925768