Date: Wed, 14 Jun 2000 02:42:18 -0500 (CDT)
From: Chica
Subject: I Need You Tonight-Chapter 6

DISCLAIMER:  I do not know the sexual orientation of any of the
Backstreet boys, including Nick Carter or Brian Littrell.

THANKS:  No one new to thank for now.  I'd like to thank God, as I
stupidly have kept forgetting.  :(  On a brighter note, I'd also like to
thank reader's support!  :)

ADDITION:  I'm considering writing something of a prequal (kind of like
a sequel, except it's before the events in the story.).  If anyone knows
how I get Nifty to change the title on I Need You Tonight to another
after I Need You Tonight is finished.  Thanx!

Chapter 6

     After I had talked to Nick last night, I decided to get a few of us
to go shopping.  So, I figured Amanda and Joey could come, since Howie
was working on some documents, A.J. was doing God knows what, and Kevin
just told me he was going to see a friend.  After I had said bye to
Tracy for the afternoon, I called Nick's name to get him to get ready.
He didn't answer.  God he was so lazy.  I walked into his room and
stared at his sleeping form.  He laid his angelic head on a soft pillow
and I noticed he had a little drool coming from his mouth.  I smiled at
his less-than-perfect qualities.  I shook him slightly.  He groaned,
pulling the covers tightly over his head.  Gosh he was stubborn.  I
grabbed a hold of his shirt and yanked him.  He lazily stirred and tried
to febishly grab his shirt.  He lost his balance and fell to the floor.
I burst out laughing.
    "Glad you get pleasure from my pain."  Nick grumbled.  I snickered,
pulling him to his feet.
    "Oh, I get more pleasure from you than that."  I coyly replied.
     "Oh?"  Nick asked, raising an amused eyebrow.
     "Yeah.  I keep having this fantasy of you in that threesome."  I
said sexually, stepping over to him.  "I think of you pushing Tracy away
and making passionate love to me."  I further explained, standing about
2 inched from him.
     "What if I said I could make that a reality?"  Nick asked, putting
a hand on my side.
     "I'd have to say..."I told him, lingering my finger on his chest.
"....Are you sure you don't want Howie doing that?!"  I threw in a
tempting punch line.  Nick pulled me down to the ground, playfully
punching me.  I managed to get on my knees and flip him on his back,
holding his arms above his head.  I held his arms with one hand, and
started feverishly tickleing his with my other hand.  Nick laughed like
a madman, begging me to stop.
     "Not until you say, 'Howie is a sexy bitch.' "  I teased, tickling
him harder.
     "Howie is a sexy bitch."  Nick choked out.
     "Scream it!!"  I yelled evilly.
     "HOWIE IS A SEXY BITCH!!"  He yelled at the top of his lungs.
     "The kid's right."   A voice broke in.  I unleashed my grip on Nick
to see who it was.
     "I am a pretty sexy bitch."  Howie said sexually.  We laughed even
harder at that.
     "Howie, whatever happened to the days when you were gay and me and
Nick would pull pranks on you like leaving condoms and bottles of lube
lyeing around?"  I asked.
     "Alas, those days are over, now that I have found my love."  Howie
dreamily replied.  Howie was once a confirmed homesexual, until he met
Joey.  He doubted it at first, but then got used to the idea.  I was
this close to telling him I was bisexual, but then that happened.  Oh
well.
     "Look, D, we'd love to chat with your corny ass, but we have to get
ready to do some shopping, right Bri?"  Nick asked, snapping me out of
my thoughts.
     "Yeah, let's go, Frack"  I agreed.

                                              *************
     We arrived at the mall just in time.  We separated and I walked the
mall with Amanda.
     "Hey Nick.  We never talk about this much, but when did you first
start realizing your feelings for Brian?"  Amanda asked curiously.
     "I've always kind of known.  When we first started the group, I was
the odd man out.  A.J. and Howie had their thing, and Brian and Kevin
were cousins.  I had no one.  When we started touring, I couldn't sleep.
I'd miss my family.  All my life I'd never had a best friend.  I was a
loner and was really shy.  My family were the only ones I ever hanged
out with.  Well, I kept getting depressed, so it came down to one night,
after a bad nightmare, Brian talked to me.  He told me he'd be my friend
and he held me.  I was only a kid then.  As I got older, our friendship
grew and we were together so much my grandma told me we were like Frick
and Frack.  The name stuck.  After Brian went into the hospital for
surgery, I realized I felt more for him.  In the past couple of months
I've realized that I was in love with him."  I explained to her.  Amanda
looked at me seriously.
     "Why didn't you tell them you were gay?"  She asked.
     "Well, I don't know how Brian would take it, and even if he
accepted it, how am I to know if he'll treat me the same?  It'll start
with not wanted to touch me as much, then to he wants to sleep in
separate rooms, then he'll just marry Tracy and never see me again.  I
couldn't do that at all."  I explained.  She sighed and hugged me.  I
wrapped my arms around her, feeling her much needed warmth.

                                            **************
     "Are you gonna tell him?  Or at least Tracy?"  Joey asked me.
     "How?  'Uh, Tracy?  Yeah I'm gay and I'm in love with my best
friend Nick Carter.  Yeah, the one that has a subscription to Playboy?
Yeah, the one who lives at Hooters?  The one...."  "I get the point."
Joey interrupted me.
     "He's not gay!  Or bisexual, at all.  Besides I care for Tracy and
the public likes her.  Everyone does!  She's great.  Even though I feel
more for you than her, and i just like you."  I revealed.
     "I'm speachless!  Brian LIttrell likes little ol' me?"  Joey said
in a deep southern accent she rarely uses.  I laughed.
     "Besides, if he didn't return my love, the band would undoubtedly
break up from it.  We couldn't work together and none of us could
function with it.  We'd split like that.  I mean, Howie has you, Kev has
his mystery lover he won't tell us who, A.J. has the Playboy channel,
Nick has...so, o.k., he has nothing, except family and us.  He can find
a nice female fan.  It would never work."  I stated simply.
     "Brian, let me ask you a question:  Do you think it was easy for me
to admit I had feelings for Howie?  A then homesexual?  I thoght it
would never work.  He was my best friend, and I didn't want to lose him
either.  I kept my feelings in, and eventually it ate me up.  It kept
eating at me and eating until I finally told.  When he said he felt the
same, it was amazing.  I didn't realize the extent of my love for him
until we kissed and touched a bit.  You can never really be sure of how
you feel until you are stimulated by their touch.  Not like a handshake
or a pat on the back, but intimate touching.  I'm not saying molest him
or anything, I just think it's time you tried something desperate.  Kiss
him.  When he least expects it.  If he gets mad, just tell him you're
really happy today, or something.  Try it!"  Joey insisted.  Maybe she
did have a point.  I moved to let her check out.  Nick came up behind me
and paid for his clothes.  i sighed deeply.

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C-ya!!!