Date: Thu, 25 Mar 2004 19:46:53 -0500
From: JT Poole <jtpoole9@cybersouth.com>
Subject: Boybands - If I Ain't Got You - 16

Warnings and Disclaimers:

1) If reading this is in any way illegal in your town, state or zip code
because of your age, religion, or other government rules you shouldn't read
this.

2) If you don't want to read about male/male gay sexual relationships, go
away. You shouldn't waste your time with this story.

3) I don't know any of the members of 'N Sync, or any other celebrities that
may be mentioned in this story.  This story in no way is meant to imply
anything about 'N Sync, and any other celebrities sexualities,
personalities, or anything else.  This is a work of pure fiction.

Questions and commentary can be sent to "jtpoole9@cybersouth.com". I want to
hear from everyone out there that is reading this story, tell me what you
think whether it is bad or good.

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If I Ain't Got You -- Chapter 16
by JT Poole

// Orlando, FL -- Florida Hospital -- Prison Floor //

"Doctor he's been comatose like this since he's been in the infirmary."  The
correctional officer stated, walking through the doors of the Prison Ward at
the hospital.

"What happened to him?"  The doctor asked.

"He was raped by another inmate in his cell.  The other inmate beat him
pretty bad, in return Littrell lost a lot of blood."  The officer stated.
"When we got to him he was already unconscious."

"And you are just now bringing him into the hospital, what kind of jail are
you people running down there?"  The doctor asked.

"Look man I followed our procedures first.  The doctors at the jail couldn't
find out why he was still comatose and it came down from the chief to go
ahead and bring him here."  The officer spoke signing some papers on his
clipboard and handing them to the doctor.  "He's your responsibility now.
Someone will be back later to record his condition and advise the court of
his condition."

"What was this young man in jail for?"  The doctor asked.

"He raped someone in this very hospital."  The officer stated.  "Again, he's
your responsibility now."

"Great just great."  The doctor spoke.  "Andrew, I have a, let me look, let'
s see I have a Brian Littrell up here.  He needs to be added to the
admissions log."

"We have a lot of celebs in the hospital."  Andrew spoke.  "Okay just e-mail
me his information or send the chart down and I will add him to the log."

"Will do."  The doctor spoke.  "Oh yeah, he's a rape victim, JT or Danielle
might need to talk to him once he wakes up."

"Danielle doesn't work here no more man, she resigned."  Andrew spoke.

"What?  Damn she was hot.  I guess I won't get the chance to go out with her
now."  The doctor spoke.

"She resigned to move to California and get married to her long time
sweetheart."  Andrew spoke.

"Well damn.  I guess I have to find another chick to score with, she was
hot."  The doctor spoke.  "So who's taking her place?"

"Some woman name Valgina Williams."  Andrew spoke.

"Did you say Vagina?"  The doctor asked.

"No."  Andrew laughed.  "I said Valgina, Val-Gina, get it Valgina Williams."

"Man that's funny as hell.  You make it sound like we have a big ass pussy
working in the hospital."  The doctor spoke, as Brian started moving around
on the bed.  "Look Andrew I have to go, seems Mr. Littrell has awakened."

"Okay man, keep me updated with information and don't forget to give me the
chart information."  Andrew stated, hanging up the phone.

// Nick's Room //

"Where have you been Nick?"  Jane asked, standing at the window in Nick's
room as Steve and Nick walked into the room.

"I was in a counseling session with JT and Steve."  Nick answered, going
over to his bed and sitting down.

"I didn't know you had a session this early.  No one told me."  Jane stated
as Aaron walked into the room.

"I told you about his session earlier when you were on the phone."  Aaron
stated, sitting next to Nick, giving him a hug.  "Hey bro, how you holding
up?"

"I am doing good I think."  Nick stated, ruffling Aaron's hair.

"Hey hey, watch the hair."  Aaron stated, laughing.

"Oh whatever, it's just your hair.  I am your big brother, I have a right to
mess it up."  Nick stated, laughing as the doctor came into the room.

// Down in ICU -- Kasai's Room //

"Baby calm down, he's going to be okay."  Mark stated, hugging JT.

"My baby has been violated and you are telling me to calm down!"  JT
screamed.  "I am not going to calm down, not until I find the men that did
this to him."

"Baby no, you must let the police handle that.  You need to stay right here
with me so we can make sure Kai is okay."  Mark stated, kissing JT on the
forehead as he cried on Mark's chest.

"I knew I recognized that voice.  Well if it isn't the faggot better known
as John Poole."  Valgina stated, walking past Kasai's room.

"Who the hell is that?"  Mark asked, turning around to look in the direction
of the voice.

"Damn I don't need crap from you right now Valgina, so take that shit
elsewhere."  JT stated, turning away from her, still hugging Mark.

"This is just a touching scene.  Why are you down here instead of working?"
Valgina asked, coming into the room now.

"Look lady, can't you see that we are in the middle of a private moment,
please leave."  Mark stated.

"Who the hell are you?  I know you are not his boy toy Steve."  Valgina
stated, getting up in Mark's face.

"Look woman I don't know you and you don't know me.  I think you should just
walk out of this room before you bite off more than you can chew."  Mark
stated.

"Excuse me, you are not the boss of me."  Valgina stated.

"No he isn't but I am."  JT stated, turning around now, wiping his eyes.

"Oh yeah, like you have the guts to do anything to me.  You were a bitch
then and you probably are a bitch now."  Valgina stated.

"I have more than guts right now Valgina.  I am not a child anymore, so get
the fuck out of here."  JT spoke.

"I..."  Valgina stated before Mark cut her off.

"You heard what my husband said.  Get the hell out of here, before you write
a check your ass can't cash.  Get the steppin' you skanky body part. What
kind of name is Valgina anyway, sounds like your parents wanted to name your
skanky ass pussy, but were afraid that you would get used a lot."  Mark
stated, waving his hand at her, grabbing his sides laughing as she stomped
away from the room.

"Thank you baby."  JT stated, kissing Mark on the cheek.  I don't think I
have ever seen her leave a room that fast before ever in my life."

"Well serves her right for coming in here now.  Our son isn't okay and she's
just causing more stress."  Mark stated, sitting down in the chair next to
Kasai's bed, pulling JT into his lap.

"I just wish there was a way to take all of this pain away from him."  JT
spoke.  "No one should ever be raped.  We could have done something to
prevent this.  Something we should have done to keep him from being hurt
like this."

"Well baby things happen.  We can't control what happens in his life all the
time."  Mark stated, hugging JT.  "I grounded him to keep him from that sort
of trouble and he snuck out of the house to have fun.  I am not saying this
is his fault, but if he would have stayed home like I told him too, he
probably wouldn't be here right now."

"Baby..."  JT stated, as Mark cut him.

"I am telling the truth and you know I am.  If he would have stayed home, he
wouldn't be here right now."  Mark stated, as JT hugged him.

"I know.  I just don't know what to think right now."  JT stated.  "Too much
shit happening all at one time."

"Things are going to be okay baby, trust me."  Mark stated, kissing JT on
the forehead as Kasai's hand moved.

"Come on son wake up.  We miss you.  I know I was rough on you, but I love
you man, come on back to us.  We miss you very very much."  Mark stated, as
the tears slowly fell from his eyes.

"Come on Kai you can do it.  Daddy J is right here waiting for ya."  JT
stated, tears streaming down his face too.  "Please son wake up.  Come on, I
know you can do it."

// Down at the Emergency Nurses Station //

"Where are you going?  It's not time for you to get off yet."  Angela
stated, walking behind the desk watching Steve clock out.

"Look Angie I am not in the mood right now.  I just ran into that bitch
Valgina.  I am going home for today."  Steve stated, the beginnings of tears
forming in his eyes.

"What did she say Steve?"  Angela asked.

"Enough to make me want to quit."  Steve stated.  "I think I need a drink."

"No you don't need a drink Steve, just go home.  I will come over and check
on you later."  Angela stated, hugging Steve.  "Don't let Valgina get you
down.  I don't think she's gonna be here long."

"I hope she isn't, I don't know how long I can last."  Steve stated, walking
out the door as Kevin walked through the doors with JC.

"What the hell is this?  He's with that guy again."  Angela said to herself.
"I think something is going on between those two."

"Hello Angela."  Kevin stated, walking up to the station as Angela glared at
him and then looked back down at the stuff she was reading.

"Hi Kevin, what is it that you want?"  Angela asked, with sarcasm apparent
in her voice.

"I wanted to see how you were doing and rather or not you were free for
dinner tonight.  Can we go on that dinner date we had scheduled for the
other night?"  Kevin asked.

"Why would I go to dinner with you Kevin?  Can you tell me that?"  Angela
asked.

"Because..."  Kevin spoke then stopped.

"Because what?"  Angela asked.

"Because I like you and I want to go out with you."  Kevin stated in a low
voice.

"You can't like me, you seem to spend all your time with that man over
there."  Angela stated.  "Kevin are you seeing that guy?"

"Ah..."  Kevin stuttered.

"Well are you?  If you are, I have no use for a gay man Kevin.  I am not the
type of woman that likes to be strung along around someone's finger with my
emotions being played with."  Angela stated.

"Well I ah..."  Kevin stammered.

"Just be quiet Kevin, I already have my answer."  Angela stated, walking
away from the counter.

"Angela wait.  Please give me a chance."  Kevin stated.

"Why should I give you a chance Kevin?  It's obvious you are not the man for
me."  Angela spoke.  "Just tell me the truth, be honest with me."

"I like you Angela, I really do.  The truth is, I was confused and I have
fooled around with JC in the past, but I don't want him, I want a woman."
Kevin spoke, reaching for Angela's hand and she let him take it.

"You were confused?  If you don't want him, why is he still around you?"
Angela asked.

"He's trying to convince me that he's what I want and need, but I think
differently about that."  Kevin stated.

"I will go out to dinner with you, but I have to think about anything else
that may possibly happen."  Angela stated.

"That's cool with me, all I ask for is a chance to show you me."  Kevin
stated, kissing Angela's hand.

"Fine, but Kevin, if you screw up or I catch you with him again, It's over."
Angela stated.  "No ifs, ands, or buts about it, you will be out of my life,
faster than marijuana in the hands of a pothead.

"I understand Angela.  I am going to do everything in my power to do right
by you."  Kevin stated.

"Okay Kevin, I will see you around seven."  Angela stated as Kevin kissed
her hand again and walked away.

// At a trendy nightclub in the middle of the day //

"Yeah man, let me get a tequila on the rocks, better yet, let me get the
whole damn bottle."  AJ stated, paying the bartender, walking away from the
bar with his glass and the bottle of tequila.

"Hey man, watch where you are going."  Steve stated, bumping into AJ.

"You watch where you are going."  AJ stated, pushing Steve in his chest.
"You bumped into me."

"I didn't bump into you, you bumped into me!"  Steve screamed, grabbing AJ
by the shirt and pushing him up against a table as the bartender and the
bouncer both came over to stop the two of them.

"Hey hey guys break it up or I will throw both of you out of here."  The
bartender spoke, pushing the two of them apart.

"He started it."  Steve stated, trying to get a hold of AJ again.

"I don't care who started it, but it ends now." The bartender stated.  "If I
hear anything from you two again, I will have you thrown out.  Do you both
understand me?"

"I understand."  Steve stated, calming down.

"Yeah I get it."  AJ stated as the bartender walked away.

"I know you.  You were at the hospital this morning.  I saw you leaving a
patient's room."  Steve stated.

"Yeah so what."  AJ stated.

"Look buddy I don't know what your..."  Steve stated as AJ cut him off.

"I'm sorry dude, I am having a bad day.  I didn't mean to take it out on
you."  AJ stated.

"It's okay, we both have had one."  Steve stated, walking over to a table
and sitting down.  "Would you like to join me?"

"Sure, as long as you let me buy you a drink."  AJ stated.

"Deal."  Steve stated.

"What would you like?"  AJ asked.

"Whatever you are having."  Steve stated.

"I have a bottle of Tequila."  AJ stated.

"The whole bottle?  Yeah you are having a bad day."  Steve stated.

"Yeah tell me about it.  Seems this whole day has been one big mess."  AJ
stated.  "What got you down?"

"Someone from my past has come back into my life and that isn't a good
thing."  Steve stated.

"Yeah I know how that goes."  AJ stated.  "I kept a secret from my friends
of things that were happening in the past and it ended up causing one of
them a great deal of pain."

"Does that have anything to do with Mr. Carter?"  Steve asked.

"Mr. Carter?  Oh you mean Nick.  Yeah it does."  AJ stated, sitting there
taking another sip of his drink.

"Does this have anything to do with the person responsible for him trying to
kill himself?"  Steve asked.

"Yeah, I guess so."  AJ stated, taking another sip from his drink.

"Are you the person responsible?"  Steve asked.

"No!"  AJ screamed, covering his mouth quickly.  "I am not the person
responsible for that, but I could have stopped it him from getting to that
point."

"How so?  How do you figure into all of this?"  Steve asked.

"It's a long story."  AJ stated.

"I have nothing but time today."  Steve stated, pouring himself another
glass of Tequila.

"Well it all started..."  AJ started as he told Steve how he and the other
members of the Backstreet Boys met and how Nick ended up in the position he
is in now.

// 2 Hours Later //

"I understand your position Alex, but he is your friend.  You should have
told the others what was going on.  I know you said you didn't want to get
involved in their relationship, but I would want Mark or JT to tell someone
if my boyfriend was hurting me."  Steve stated.  "Not that I would have a
boyfriend like that.  I wouldn't allow myself to get into that kind of
relationship."

"So you are gay too."  AJ stated.

"Yeah I am gay."  Steve stated.

"Cool."  AJ stated, looking at Steve closely.  "We have been sitting here
for a while now.  How about we go someplace else and chill and have
something to eat?"

"That sounds plausible."  Steve stated as he and AJ got up from the table,
walking out of the bar.

// Back at the Hospital -- Justin's Room //

"I love him, there's nothing more to say about this momma."  Justin stated.

"I know you do son, but his mother doesn't want you two together."  Lynn
stated, rubbing Justin's back as he cried.

"If I can't have Nick in my life, then I wish I were just dead."  Justin
stated.

"No son, don't talk like that."  Lynn stated as Lance, Christina and Joey
walked into the room.

"What's poppin'?"  Christina asked, walking over to Justin and sitting in
his lap.

"That damn Jane Carter is taking Nick away from me."  Justin stated.

"What?  Why is she doing that?"  Christina asked.

"She doesn't want Nick being with me, a cripple."  Justin stated.

"Look-a-here Curly, we have told you over and over again not to talk like
that.  You are not a cripple.  You are just walking challenged right now."
Christina stated, getting up out of Justin's lap, getting on her knees in
front of him.  "Justin don't let Jane Carter make decisions for you or Nick.
If you two have feelings for each other, then you should do what you can to
not let her change those feelings.  Tell Nick, tell him how much you care
for him."

"He knows how much I care for him.  It's his mother that doesn't care if I
care for him or not.  She's determined to keep us apart."  Justin stated.

"What brought all of this on?"  Lance asked.

"Nick is going to be released tomorrow.  Once he leaves, he and Justin won't
be together.  Jane has already told the doctor that she's going to take him
back to Tampa and get him some counseling there."  Lynn stated.

"Oh yeah she is a bitch.  Don't she knows it's not wise to interfere in the
lives of other people?"  Joey stated.

"We are talking about Jane here, the same woman that stole money from her
other son.  Jane is a heartless woman.  She is ruthless."  Lance stated.

"Yea she is, but we have to do something to keep her from taking Nick from
me."  Justin stated, crying softly now.  "Please guys, don't let her take
Nick away from me, I couldn't bear it."

"I will see what I can find out, but if the doctor is releasing him, there's
nothing more that can be done unless Nick himself decides not to go with
her."  Lynn stated.

"Where is JT, I haven't seen him since you left this morning?"  Lance asked.

"Something happened to his son, so he is here somewhere."  Justin stated.

// Kasai's ICU Room //

"Daddy J is that you?"  Kasai asked, speaking in a weak voice.

"Yes Kai I'm here baby."  JT stated, standing up now.

"I'm so sorry daddy, really I am."  Kasai spoke, tears streaming down his
face.  "I should have never snuck out of the house.  If I would have done
what Daddy Mark told me to do, I would be okay."

"Shhh baby, don't talk about that.  Everything's going to be all right.  You
are with us now."  JT stated, holding Kasai gently in his arms.

"But daddy..."  Kasai spoke.

"Shhhh son it's all okay, just don't worry about it right now."  JT stated
as he felt Mark's arms wrap around him and Kasai.

"I love you both."  Kasai spoke.

"We love you too."  Mark spoke, kissing Kasai on his forehead.

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TO BE CONTINUED...

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