Date: Thu, 5 Apr 2001 16:11:24 -0500
From: Happy Penelope <Happy_Penelope@hotmail.com>
Subject: Turn back time

Hey everybody, this story is a sequel to It's not right, but it's ok. Red
requested Justin's point of view so here you have it.

Feedback:Please send feedback, I'm not too sure of this story so I'd like to
know what you guys think.
Happy_Penelope@hotmail.com

Dedication:To Red because she requested it.

Disclaimer:I do not know Justin Timberlake or JC Chasez. This story is
purely fiction, meaning I made it all up.

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How did I ever let you slip away
Never knowing I'd be singing this song some day
And now I'm sinking, sinking to rise no more

If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darling you'd still be mine
If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darling you'd still be mine

God Josh, I miss you so much. It's only been a week since I left our home. I
don't blame you though, for making me leave. I'd make me leave too. I just
never thought I could miss you so much. I'd give anything to go back and
undo all of the hurt that I caused you.

Funny, funny how time goes by
And blessings are missed in the blink of an eye
Why oh why oh why should one have to go on suffering
When every day I pray please come back to me

If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then darling you, you would be mine
If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darling you'd still be mine

I never realized how much you meant to me. I was too blind to see how much
you loved me. I let all of the little things you'd do for me just go right
by without acknowledging them. You never let me come home to an empty house.
You were always there with your beautiful smile and a kiss. When I needed to
be alone, you knew that too and gave me my space. You'd always make me laugh
when I was feeling down. You never pressured me to tell anyone about our
relationship. You always said I love you, without expecting to hear it in
return. You loved me unconditionally.

And you had enough love for the both of us
But I, I did you wrong, I admit I did
Now I'm facing the rest of my life alone

If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darling, you would be mine
If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darling you'd still be mine

Why didn't I show you that I loved you? Why didn't I tell you that I loved
you? Plain and simple because, I'm a damn coward. I was afraid of our love.
Afraid of what the world would think of our love. I'm not strong when it
comes to facing the world. Not like you are. In so many ways you are my
hero. You let the world see who you are. You aren't afraid to be yourself.
You are confident enough to be who you are and not be ashamed of it. You are
the strongest person that I know.

God, when I think about how I hurt you, I just want to lay down and die. I
know I hurt you all of those times. I knew that you knew about Britney. I
just couldn't accept myself for what I am. I thought that what I was doing
with her, would somehow make what I was doing with you right. I know that
doesn't even make sense to me. How can I make you understand it? All I know
is that every damn time I was with her, I was wishing it was you. Every time
I held her, I felt you. I could never even bring myself to say I was making
love to her, because I wasn't. I was fucking her. I made love to you. Every
time I was inside her, I closed my eyes and saw you. I couldn't be with her
and not want you.

I'd never hurt you
Never do you wrong
And never leave your side
If I could turn back the hands

There'd be nothing I wouldn't do for you
Forever honest and true to you
If you accept me back in your heart, I love you

If I could turn back time, everything would be different. I'd show you every
day how much I love you. I'd make you my world. I'd cut off my own arm
before I'd hurt you ever again. I wouldn't go on another trip without you by
my side. I'd never lie to you. I'd never cheat on you. I'd bring you roses
every day. Make you breakfast in bed every morning. You'd never doubt my
love.

That would be my will
Darling I'm begging you
To take me by the hands

I'm going down
Yes I am
Down on my bended knee
And I'm gonna be right there
Until you return to me

I know you told me not to come begging you to take me back again. I've done
that too many times before. I swear to you that this time will be the last.
I can't live like this. I need you to be whole. You are the other half of
me. I won't give up until you're my love again. I know that it won't be easy
for you, to trust me again. I'll do everything in my power to earn that.

I'm coming home Josh. You may not want me there right now, but I want to be
there. We bought that house together; it's our home. You are my home. You
are my life. I'll make you see that I love you. I'll make you believe that.

I've been staying in this hotel for a week now. This has been the loneliest
week of my life. I miss you so much it hurts. When I came home that night
and saw my bags by the door, I felt my heart fall from my chest. I know I
can never take away all of the horrible things that I did, but I'll spend
the rest of my life making them up to you. I love you so much Josh, I just
pray that it's not too late for our love. I'm ready to tell the world that I
love you. I won't let another day go by without shouting it from the highest
mountain. I only hope that you will forgive me this one last time. I'm
coming home Josh.

The end