Date: Sat, 31 Mar 2001 14:23:46 -0800 (PST)
From: Jim Higgins <bangoremail1@yahoo.com>
Subject: Flying Without Wings - 10

Greetings everyone,

First an apology to my wonderful readers.  Sometimes life throws you a
curve ball and you just have to go with it.  Things around here got a
little complicated and busy so I didn't get the story posted on Thursday as
is my usual.  But as they say... better late than never!

I'm not sure what exactly was wrong with Justin's grandfather this fall, so
whatever happens in this story is purely my own imagination.  In reality,
it must have been serious to pull Justin away from the Latin Grammy
rehearsals.  That said, I bear no ill will to him at all and hope that he
is doing well.

Also a move into more happier things.  I've been accused of too much
melodrama lately, so a light hearted chapter with just warm fuzzies is in
order.  The people have spoken and I've started work on a Phil/Wade short
story, but no guarantees how long it will take....


As usual:
This story is purely fiction and is not intended to imply anything about
the true sexuality of 'N Sync or anyone associated with their organization.
It is meant for those over the age of 18 only and those who wish to read
stories with sexual content.


******


Flying Without Wings - Chapter Ten


As soon as the plane was airborne, Jamie told the attendant that other than
pillows and a blanket they wouldn't be needing anything for the entire
flight and would prefer to be left alone to sleep.  It was an easy request
to follow seeing as they were the only passengers in first class.

Jamie pushed up the armrest and pulled Justin's head down into his lap.
Justin murmured sleepily and gave a relaxed sigh as Jamie covered him with
the blanket and ran his fingers through his curls.  It had been a hard four
days for Justin and his family who had spent almost every minute they could
at the hospital.  Justin, himself, had only slept about three to four hours
every night.

When Justin had finally fallen asleep and was snoring softly, Jamie took
out his cell phone and dialed Lance's number.

"Hey Lance," Jamie greeted him when he answered.  "We just took off and
should be in LA in a few hours."  He gave Lance all their flight
information so they could be met.

"How's he doing?"  Lance asked with concern.

"He's worn out and fast asleep right now, but I think he'll be fine as long
as he doesn't have to dance around tonight."

"That shouldn't be a problem.  All we're doing is 'Promise' so it's an easy
appearance.  How's Grandpa Timberlake?"

"He's coming home this morning.  It was only a minor spell, almost a stroke
but not quite.  They're keeping a close eye on him though but the doctor
said he should be ok."

"That's good to hear, I'll tell the others.  We'll see you soon then."

"Ok, Lance, bye."  Jamie hit the off button and dropped the phone beside
him.  Getting a little more comfortable without shifting Justin too much,
he put his head against the pillow and fell asleep as well.

------


"Jameson, do you have an answer?"

Jamie looked around, slightly disoriented.  Justin's grandfather was
looking at him in amusement.  He looked over at Justin who was dressed in a
tux and looking back at Jamie in apprehension.  Jamie finally took in his
surroundings to find himself in a church.

"Do you take Justin as your husband?" he repeated.

Jamie looked around and saw the concerned face of his mother nearby which
was shared by Lynn.  "I... I... I do," Jamie said, not knowing if that was
the what they were waiting for or not.  Everything started to fade as
Justin's lips met his.

He regained his senses and found himself sitting in the backyard of the
Orlando house.

"Daddy?!!!" a young voice yelled at him from his elbow.

Jamie looked down at the small child who was no more than 4 years old.
Looking around he saw he was alone.  The boy could only be talking to him.
"What is it?" he asked gently.

"Can I go with Uncle Lance?" he said impatiently.

"Uncle Lance?  Um... of course.  Just make sure you're home for dinner."
Wasn't that what parents said to children?

The child yelled happily and ran over to a figure by the back door.  Jamie
turned around from the waist and saw Lance, a sad look on his face.  Before
he could ask they both went in the house and were gone.  Jamie shook his
head trying to get his bearings.

'This must be a dream,' Jamie thought.  'But it's nice.'  He rubbed his
eyes tiredly.  Snippets of what life could be came at him in flashes, most
to quick to pick up.  He got the general impression that life for him would
be good.  Jamie was very happy to see Justin was prominent in most of it.

'Are these premonitions or just my desires and dreams?' Jamie asked
himself.  He closed his eyes tightly then slowly opened them.  He saw he
was on the coast somewhere.  By the types of trees and the rocks, he
assumed it was somewhere in Maine.  The waves crashed around him and the
salt spray smelt to him of home.  He turned when he felt a hand touch his
shoulder.

"Justin..." he gasped when he saw his love.  Justin was older, laugh
wrinkles had set in around his eyes and his golden brown hair held a hint
of gray within the tight curls.

"You've been sitting here for awhile now and I was starting to get worried
that you'd grown roots."

'His voice hasn't changed at all,' Jamie thought.  "I was just thinking,"
he said aloud.

"About what?"

"About how much I love you."

Justin smiled and bent to kiss Jamie and the world spun.

Jamie opened his eyes to see Justin looking up at him from his lap.  "You
were dreaming and it seemed like it was good.  But I couldn't resist
kissing you."

Jamie smiled.  "You can kiss me anytime.  I dreamed of the future, sort
of."

"Oh, any surprises?"

"Well, we got married then somehow I was a daddy."  Justin grinned broadly
at him.  "There was a bunch of other stuff and then you were old."

"Old?" Justin frowned.

"But just as handsome as ever."

Justin smiled and met Jamie for another kiss.

==Attention passengers.  We are making our final approach to LAX.  Please
fasten your seatbelts and put your seat backs and trays in the upright and
locked position.==

------


Jamie stood backstage watching the guys getting ready to go on.  Son by 4
had just started singing and 'NSync were waiting for their cue.  Justin ran
over to Jamie, pulled him aside and kissed him for good luck.

"I love you.  Sing pretty for me," Jamie said with a smile.

"For you, my love, the world," Justin replied, rubbing Jamie's cheek with a
thumb before kissing him again and rejoining the others.

Gloria Estefan came to their side of the stage and gave each of them a hug.
Justin whispered in her ear and pointed to Jamie.  It made him feel a
little uncomfortable at first but he trusted Justin and knew that Gloria
was a good friend of theirs.

Gloria crossed over to him as they filed onstage when their name was
announced, the strains of 'This I Promise You' starting.  Jamie greeted her
warmly and she gave him a small hug and a large smile.  They stood side by
side as the guys started singing.  Jamie never thought the song could be
more beautiful, but in Spanish, it was breathtaking.  Looking over to
Gloria he saw that she also had tears in her eyes.  She looked over at him
with a grin.

"You love him alot, don't you?"

Jamie looked at her bemused.  "How did you know?"

"It's just the little things that most people don't catch.  Let's just say
I'm really perceptive."  She then grinned mischievously.  "Also we talked
on the phone about a month ago and he told me everything.  I've known about
Justin all along and was just waiting for the cutie to say something.  He's
got a big heart and it seems it's all yours."

Jamie smiled at her.  "Well, he's got mine too."  Jamie thought for a
minute.  "Um, Gloria, when we do get married will you sing at our wedding?
I know the guys think the world of you and I would be honored if you
would."

Gloria hugged him and kissed his cheek.  "No, I'm the one that would be
honored.  Of course I will."

Jamie smiled happily at her and they put arms around each other's waists.

------


"I'm exhausted."

Justin got sympathetic looks from his bandmates and a concerned one from
his fiance.  "You gonna be ok, Curly?"

"I'll be fine, Chris.  Nothing a little extra sleep won't hurt."  He
snuggled onto Jamie's shoulder.

They were in the limo heading back to their hotel.  NSync had made an
appearance at the official party for the award show and left fairly early.
Aside from Justin, the others were anxious to start their much needed
vacations.

"So what's everyone doing the next two weeks?" Jamie asked.

"Lance and I are gonna make the rounds with the families and spend time
with each.  And he's gonna give work a rest."  Lance made to protest.  "Or
try to," JC chuckled.

Lance smiled and kissed JC's cheek.  "For you, I'll try."

"I'm gonna stay out here for awhile with Dani.  Then go visit my family as
well," Chris said.

"Kelly and I are gonna go away for the first week, probably Cancun or
something like that.  Then I'll be chilling in Orlando," Joey added.  "What
about you two?"

Jamie looked to Justin who'd not yet told him exactly what he had planned.
"Don't ask me.  I'm always the last one to know," he joked.

Justin lifted his head and smiled at him.  "Lance, did those bags my mom
sent get here?

Lance nodded.  "Sure did.  They're in your room at the hotel."

Jamie looked at Justin curiously.  "You mean those bags you packed just
before we left for New York and wouldn't let me see?"

Justin nodded.  "Should I tell him or let him wonder awhile longer?" he
asked no one and everyone.

"I say you tell because I want to know too," Chris laughed.

"I already know because I made the arrangements, but I think you should,"
Lance suggested.

Justin took both of Jamie's hands.  "Well, a long time ago I told you I
wanted to make up some missing time with you.  We all spent last New Year's
in Hawaii and my original plan was to bring you with us.  So, now's my
chance to put that right.  We'll be spending a few days in Honolulu, then
head over to Maui in a private guest house that I rented for the rest of
time."

Jamie smiled broadly.  "You are so wonderful to me."  He pulled Justin to
him and kissed him.  Justin held Jamie and returned it.  The others grinned
and looked away, knowing that the couple wouldn't be separating anytime
soon.

------


Warm, foamy water ran over his feet as he walked peacefully down the beach.
Feeling the sand between his toes, Jamie kicked at the water and sighed
happily.  This vacation was exactly what they both needed, time away from
everything to just relax and forget, for a time, who they were.

The three days in Honolulu was perfect.  There were few vacationers at this
time of year and Justin only got recognized once.  They had spent that time
sightseeing together during the day and taking in some nightlife in the
evenings.  Justin was determined that they would kiss on the summit of
Diamond Head and he got his wish.  It took some waiting, but eventually
they were alone for a couple of minutes.

Arriving in Maui the afternoon before, they immediately went to the beach
and sat holding hands for several hours enjoying the sand.  With the salt
air, happy memories surfaced of their vacation six months before.  After
watching the vivid sunset, Justin had taken him to an elegant and exclusive
restaurant in Kahalui for a late dinner.  They had an excellent meal and
lots of privacy to hold hands and sit close together.  Jamie smiled as he
remembered their conversation at dinner.



	"Jamie, last week you said you had a dream
	that you were a father?" Justin asked out of
	the blue.

	Jamie nodded.  "That was part of it, ya."

	"Tell me more about it."

	"Well, there's not much to tell.  It was a
	boy and he was about 4 years old.  He was
	bugging me to let him go somewhere with Lance."
	Justin grinned at the story.  "I said yes,
	but to be back for dinner.  That was pretty
	much it."

	"What did he look like?"

	"He had deep brown hair with a little red in
	it, probably from the sun.  Um, some freckles
	on his cheeks and sparkling blue eyes."

	Jamie smiled at the memory.

	Justin smiled in response a warm feeling in
	his chest.  He leaned into Jamie more and put
	an arm around his shoulder.  "Have you given
	any thought to us being parents?"

	"Not a whole lot, really.  I'm still working
	trying to accept the fact that we're getting
	married.  Have you thought about it?"

	"Off and on, a little.  I've given it some
	serious thought the last couple of days since
	you had that dream.  I've always wanted to
	have a family.  I guess that's why I denied
	being gay for so long."

	"Having a family with you would be so nice.
	How would we do it?"

	"We'd have to adopt, of course.  I've done a
	little research on the net.  There are some
	agencies around the country that do adoptions
	for gay and lesbian couples."

	Jamie nodded.  "It would be like a dream come
	true.  I get to have you and a family too."

	"Those are my thoughts exactly."



Jamie looked over at the figure laying on a blanket and he grinned as his
heart rate quickened and lust blossomed in the pit of his stomach.  Because
of other vacationers in nearby houses, they didn't feel relaxed enough to
have their own nude beach but there was enough privacy that they didn't
worry about being seen kissing and holding each other.  Jamie ran over to
Justin and flung himself down next to him.

Justin looked up at him and smiled.  "Do I get a kiss?"

"You bet."  Jamie leaned down and their lips met.  He moved to half lay on
Justin as the kiss deepened.  "Um, Justin?" Jamie asked after breaking
apart.

"Hmmm?" he asked.  His eyes opened wide when he saw Jamie's expression.
"Again?" Justin chuckled.

"I want you in me," Jamie said almost bashfully but with an underlying
need.

Justin grinned and cupped Jamie's cheek in one palm.  "Three times last
night and again this morning weren't enough?" he joked.  "I think
Mr. PeePee hasn't been happier."

"I guess so," Jamie said with a giggle.

"When do I get my turn?"

"Tonight."  Jamie's eyes shown making Justin shiver.

"Outside or inside?" Justin asked.

"Outside, but we'll have to move out of sight a little."

They got up and each grabbed an end of the blanket and Justin his bag.
Moving up the beach a little, behind some palm trees, they were still on
the sand but out of sight from the water.  Justin pulled Jamie down on top
of him and rubbed his back and ass while they kissed.

Justin continued exploring Jamie's mouth with his tongue, touching all the
familiar places that he knew better than his own.  His hands worked their
way under Jamie's shorts and cupped his ass cheeks and kneaded them.

"Ya, touch me, baby," Jamie groaned into Justin's mouth.

Justin shoved his tongue deeply into Jamie's mouth as a finger snaked in
and rubbed across Jamie's hole.  He gasped as Jamie's hard cock ground into
his.  Justin inserting his finger slowly as Jamie groaned loudly breaking
their kiss.

"You like that, sweet pea?"

"Unnnngh," was all Jamie could say as he bent down to kiss and nibble on
Justin's neck and collarbone.

With one hand, Justin reached over to his knapsack nearby and with deft
fingers he pulled out the small tube of lube he kept there 'just in case.'
Jamie reached down and pulled off both his and Justin's shorts.  Once done
he pressed himself down on Justin, squeezing their hard cocks between them.

Justin lubed up his fingers and continued playing with Jamie's hole.  He
inserted first one, then two fingers, which made Jamie rub against him
forcefully.  Justin rolled them so he was on top.  He lay fully on top of
Jamie and captured his mouth with his and kept one hand down between
Jamie's legs.

The kiss was passionate and wild as their desire was unleashed.  Jamie was
sucking on Justin's tongue while his hands played with Justin's hair.  He
was moaning constantly into Justin's mouth.

Justin broke the kiss and fucked Jamie with his fingers making him gasp in
delight.  "Yes, JuJu.  Please, more, talk dirty to me."

"You want something else in your ass besides my fingers?  You want my hard
cock in you all the way?"  Justin pushed down with his hips pressing his
erection against Jamie's stomach.  The leak of precum let it slip against
Jamie's sweaty skin.

"Oh, please fuck me," Jamie begged.

"I'm gonna do that, for sure, baby," Justin growled.  "I'm gonna fuck you
so hard you're gonna scream when you cum."

Jamie's drawn out moan at his words excited Justin even more.  He withdrew
his fingers and applied lube to himself fully before putting his engorged
head against Jamie's hole.

"Yes... yes... yes..." Jamie repeated slipping into 'that place.'  Justin
loved Jamie like this.  He was totally immersed in the sex and made love
with no inhibitions.

Justin settled himself a little and pushed slowly but firmly.  Jamie cried
out when Justin's long hardness slipped suddenly passed his opening.  He
grabbed at Justin's shoulders until he was almost all the way in before
letting go and falling limply onto his back.

"I'm going to give it all to you now, baby.  I'm going to fill your ass up
with my big dick," Justin growled.  When Jamie wanted him to talk dirty, he
meant it.  Justin felt like he was starring in some cheap porno flick but
knew that it excited Jamie to hear it.  Justin pushed quickly and the last
inch slipped deeply into Jamie.

"Oh, God!" Jamie cried.  Justin noticed the wave of pain and pleasure
crossing Jamie's features.  Usually Justin was careful at this point,
knowing that with him all the way inside it hurt Jamie a little.
Eventually the pleasure won out on Jamie's face as his glazed, unfocused
eyes rolled a little up into his head.  Justin gave him short, hard jabs,
humping against him.

"You like that, baby.  I'm fucking you now."

"Unnngghh!" Jamie moaned out.  "Yes...  fuck... good..." he stuttered out.

Justin lengthened his strokes as he moved Jamie's legs up over his
shoulders and held himself in place.  "You have to talk to me.  Tell me
what you want."

"Justin..." Jamie said breathlessly.  "Fuck... me... Justin."

"How baby?"

"Hard," Jamie gulped.  "Hard... fast."

"Just relax, my sweet pea.  Let me love you."

"Love you..." Jamie repeated in an almost delirious state.

Justin took a deep breath and set a fast, insistent rhythm.  His heart rate
was high and his erection was steely hard.  Justin looked down at Jamie.
He was flushed and sweaty, his head rocking back and forth.

Jamie grunted with each thrust.  Conscious thought had nearly fled.
'Justin is fucking me,' he thought to himself and his body tingled all
over.  'He's fucking me and I don't want him to ever stop.'

Even though Justin had cum at least 6 times, that he could remember, in the
last 12 hours, he felt another approaching rapidly.  Jamie was getting
tense under him and his moaning was gaining volume.  Justin recognized that
sign.  "You're gonna cum, baby.  I want you to.  I want to see you shoot
while I'm fucking you."

Justin's words seem to do the trick.  Jamie bellowed loudly once and became
rigid.  He gripped Justin's biceps tightly as he shot heavily up his chest
and onto his face.  Jamie's brain was on fire as he felt the surge of his
orgasm overtake him.  He had no control and was swept away with the tide as
the world exploded in bright, flashing colors.

Justin lost control to Jamie's quivering body and clutching ass muscles.
His orgasm overtook him and he filled Jamie with his seed.  Looking down,
he saw that Jamie was breathing heavily but had apparently passed out.
Justin pulled out and lay next to Jamie and gathered him in his arms.
Kissing his cheeks and forehead he did some thinking.

To Justin, Jamie's recent need to be made love to seemed to border on
unhealthy.  In the last day that's all he desired: for Justin to take him.
It wasn't unusual for Jamie to get into this role for several lovemaking
sessions in a row, and certainly Justin wasn't complaining at all, he loved
being with Jamie in any way sexually.  This was different somehow.

They had made love a total of 5 times now since last night's dinner.  It
had all been mind blowing, wonderful sex.  The only part that bothered
Justin was Jamie's behavior.  Being submissive in their sexual relationship
was always something they shared equally and gladly.  Jamie's almost
excessively submissive behavior over the last 12 hours made a flag pop up
for Justin.  He couldn't put his finger on it, but it was definitely
something he was going to keep an eye on.

Jamie stirred and looked up at Justin.  "I love you," he said softly and
snuggled into Justin's arms.

"I love you too, sweet pea."

------


That evening they decided to make dinner for themselves from the food they
had bought at a local market.  After eating at the table on the small deck,
Justin grabbed some wine and glasses and they both sat out on the beach to
enjoy the starlit night.

"To us," Justin toasted.

"To us," Jamie echoed.  They kissed then sipped their wine.

After a long quiet minute of holding hands, Justin spoke.  "Can we talk
about the wedding, sweet pea?"

"Sure, I guess we should get some decisions made."

Justin nodded.  "Ok, setting the date is the hardest one since we don't
know what's going to happen.  But I'd like to make some plans based on how
we hope things will go."

"Makes sense to me."

"Ok," Justin grinned, "if the plan will goes like we want, I'll be out
before next summer's tour.  If that happens then I want to be married for
the tour."

"No arguments here.  Will we have enough time to go away with rehearsals
and stuff?"

Justin frowned.  "Probably not as much as I'd like, but we can take a week
off without much trouble.  It will mostly be old material and I can learn
the new dances as we go along.  Those won't get added until the album is
released."

"You guys still shooting for the beginning of June for that?"

"Ya.  I think we should wait until the end of the summer but Jive wants to
capitalize on the tour to help sales."

"Ok, once they get the start date we can backtrack and we'll have a
tentative date."

Justin grinned.  "Yes!"

Jamie laughed at his enthusiasm.  "I'm going to ask Dan to be my best man,
you?"

"Josh, of course."

"Of course.  I shouldn't have even asked.  So how do we make up the wedding
party?  I'll have Dan and Phil.  You'll have Josh, Chris, Joey and Lance."

"Don't forget Britney.  She won't be happy unless she's involved somehow.
What about Zack?"

"I'm going to ask him to play.  The processional I think would be good.  I
was thinking of asking Dani as well.  She's been so good to me."

Justin nodded.  "How about this then.  Dani and Britney can be like the
flower girls and spread rose petals or something."  Jamie nodded, liking
the idea.  "Lance has been pretty close to you, I mean, you're going to be
his best man after all.  So why don't you have Dan, Phil and Lance and I'll
have Josh, Chris and Joey."

"That makes it all nice and even then.  Sounds like a great idea.  My mom
will give me away, what about you?"

Justin sat and thought for a bit.  "Although I love my father alot, my
mom's been there for me all the time and given me all her support through
everything.  It's only right to have her give me away."

Jamie smiled.  "Our two mothers are giving us away works real well.  And
don't forget we have to find some way to involve Jonathan as well.  He
looks up to you so much."

"We'll think of something."  Justin grinned and clinked his glass against
Jamie's and they both took a sip.  "Sounds like a plan.  Anything else to
settle now?"

"Um.. where will we get married?"

"I've thought about that a little.  Me getting married in any circumstances
is an instant media event.  Add the whole gay thing to it and it'll be
huge.  I think that if we get married in Bangor or somewhere in Maine it
will be nicer for your family and it will be easier to keep the details
secret longer."

Jamie nodded.  "Ok, I'll start my mother looking for places and getting us
a list of choices.  How about colors?"

"Baby blue?" Justin asked quietly.

"Again, no surprise there!" Jamie grinned.  "How about traditional black
and charcoal gray tuxes with white and baby blue flowers."

"Sold!"  Justin leaned in and kissed Jamie passionately.  They made out on
the beach until they needed to break for air.  "Now what am I thinking?"
Justin asked with a twinkle in his eye.

Jamie's breathing went heavier.  He sighed happily as Justin nibbled on one
earlobe.  "Something alot of fun, it seems."

Justin stood and pulled Jamie up with one hand.  "I need you to make love
to me," he said intensely.

Jamie smiled and started pulling Justin toward the door.


tbc...


There's the latest.  Comments and suggestions are always welcome!


Jim
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