Date: Thu, 15 Mar 2001 14:06:57 -0800 (PST)
From: Jim Higgins <bangoremail1@yahoo.com>
Subject: Flying Without Wings - 8

Greetings everyone,

As I started this chapter I sat and thought about where I wanted to go from
the last one.  Jumping ahead in time is always a good thing for a story,
breaking the rut of where you've mired yourself so far.  I've done it once
before when we jumped from just after the Key West vacation in early March
to the rehearsals in mid April.

I felt it was about time to do it again.  No, it's not because I'm getting
tired of the story.  Mostly I'm doing it to push the story along some more.
There are places I want the story to go and to do that it's easier just
skip to them.

Always, thanks to everyone who's supported the story and sent mail.  It
surprises me that I've never gotten one negative email.  Also to other
authors who kindly put good words about the story in their recommendations.
I guess it's about time I do it again myself.  So, in no particular order:

Search and Rescue - wonderful JC story.
JC Dreams - Another JC story.  Sunchild is the author of this
	as well as several others.  Great stories!
Brian and Me - I'm still waiting for this to continue...
Nick and the Altos - Things are heating up...just love this one.
Brian and Justin - There's nothing to say about this story.
	It's legendary and JM has been very supportive.
Studio in the Country - We got a chapter after several months
	and now I want more!!!
My Surprise Romance - Gabriella is a great writer, this is
	another of my all time favorite Lance stories
Just Together (regular Celebrity section) - the boys from
	NSync are gone for now but this story is super.
Just the Truth - Kevin and Matt got together, broke up then
	made up - way too simple an explanation for a well
	written, great story.
Any Path - The story has wrapped up but this is one of the
	best out there
Because I Love You - a moving Nick Carter story.
Blissful Tears - Another story that has finished but has
	some great writing  Brian/AJ
Sentimental Journey - An interesting look at the life of
	the two bands
Model Romance - Another very cool story that puts NSync
	and BSB together
Intimate Stranger -  A very dark Justin/JC story that has
	some interesting twists in it
Yellow - I need more!  Just a couple of chapters so far,
	but it's starting off great
Prisoner of Love - (Again out of the ordinary)  This is
	worth a read.. JC as a murderer, or is he?
Different Kind of Love - JC with an slightly older man...
	well written story
Sixth Backstreet Boy - Justin being abused by NSync...It's great


As usual:
This story is purely fiction and is not intended to imply anything about the true sexuality of 'N Sync or anyone associated with their organization.  It is meant for those over the age of 18 only and those who wish to read stories with sexual content.


******

Flying Without Wings - Chapter Eight


The hot sun beat down on a figure as he sat Indian style on a towel in the
back yard.  A slick sheen of sweat covered his naked body.  His skin looked
tan and healthy, his hair bleached to a bright strawberry blond.  His mind
drifted aimlessly as he relaxed all his muscles, breathing deeply.  During
tour one of the crew members taught him about the therapeutic value of deep
meditation.

Random thoughts skirted around Jamie's head but he didn't pay any attention
to them.  The sound of birds in the nearby trees, the occasional car going
down the street and the soft, muted clink of Justin working out with his
weights in the garage set a calming background.

The true purpose of the meditations was to let everything go and not think,
using the time to center and relax.  Jamie had a hard time with that part
knowing that he always thought way too much.  Today he chose to dwell on
all the good things in his life.

Since the tour ended he and Justin had taken pleasure in doing all the
things that they didn't have time for: spending a whole day just lounging
around their house, visiting a semi-private beach outside Tampa, dinners
out or at home by candlelight, movies, concerts and spending hours being
friends with the other guys instead of business partners.  They even
managed to grab Wade for a long weekend camping out in the woods near the
camp in Maine.

It wasn't all a vacation.  They had several appearances that Jamie tagged
along to, doing Mel's job as planned.  Nobody really questioned his
presence except Brian McFayden, from MTV.  He had attended the concert in
Jacksonville billed as the 'Biggest Concert in the World' and briefly
interviewed the group before their performance.




"So who's this with you guys, and where's Mel?" Brian asked with a smile to
Jamie near the close of the interview.

"That's our good friend, Jamie," Justin answered.  They had decided that
any questions about Jamie would always be fielded by Justin so that the
connection between them would be made subconsciously.  "Mel wanted to take
some time off so Jamie agreed to fill in for her.  He's also a part of our
band."

Brian stepped forward and shook Jamie's hand.  "Ah, nice to meet you,
Jamie."

"Same here, Brian."  Jamie went off to the side and went through some
papers as the interview wound down.

"So, off the record," Brian asked, "who's he dating?"

You could hear a pin drop in the room.  Jamie looked up, his face pale.

"What do you mean, Brian?" Lance asked.

"Come on guys, Ananda told me that he was dating someone associated with
your organization but she couldn't find out who."

Justin flushed.  They had been very careful around Ananda Lewis when she
was with them because of her affiliation with MTV, even though she had
signed a confidentiality agreement.  Brian caught the silence in the room
and made his own conclusions.

"He's dating one of you, isn't he?" he stated more than questioned.
Appraising the six guys before him he looked over to Jamie who had slumped
into a seat and put his head in his hands.  "Chris, you holding out info on
me?" he finally asked.

"There's nothing to tell really, Brian.  Nobody's dating Jamie."

JC made a connection.  "Chris, Brian's your mole at MTV?"

Chris nodded and Brian smiled.  "You guys didn't know it was me?  You -are-
good at keeping a secret, Chris."  Brian looked intently at the singers in
front of him.  "Lance?"

Lance looked up like he had been stung.  "No, Brian, it's not me.  I think
we need to talk."

"Hey," he said putting his hands out, "like I said 'off the record' and if
you think it's none of my business I'll drop it right here.  I'll keep my
mouth shut, promise.  It seems we all have a secret to keep."

Again silence reigned.  Jamie stood and went over to Brian and sat next to
him.  "Who are you seeing?"

Brian looked down for a second then looked Jamie in the eye.  "I really
shouldn't tell but in the interest of fair play I will.  I know I can trust
you guys to keep it a secret, you all know him."

Joey smiled.  "Alright then, spill."

"Joey McIntyre."  Everyone grinned and Lance nodded knowingly.




Jamie smiled at the memory.  They had come clean with Brian and, with the
shared secret, promised that they would give him the first interview when
Justin came out.  Brian vowed to help any way he could and let them know
that the news staff would be behind them 100 percent.  He knew that he and
Joey would be looking at coming out down the road as well and Justin's
trailblazing would make it easier on everyone.  It made Jamie feel better
knowing they had one strong ally at MTV.

Other than that, life had been smooth sailing.  Jamie talked to his boss at
the studio and they agreed to have him be stationed in Orlando and be
called when needed for special projects.  They had all flown to San
Francisco and Jamie had first hand experience at what exactly happens when
doing a video.  All his expectations from watching 'Making the Video' went
out the window.  Even though the show was factual and showed much of the
work involved, it didn't show the hours of waiting for lighting and camera
set up.  To top it all off he was also preoccupied with the thought that
right after they finished the guys were flying to Japan and he was going to
New York.

He shed many tears those couple of days.  At night when they were free,
Justin would take him around the city and show some of the things he'd
found when they explored during a night off earlier in the summer.  When he
could, Justin would hug Jamie and hold his hand, reassuring them both that
everything would be fine.  Jamie knew he would be and felt like he was
being a big cry baby.  It was only a week and he'd be with his family for
most of it.  Justin still doted on him and reassured him of his love every
minute he could.

The morning that Justin got back into Orlando, Jamie was waiting with open
arms as the van dropped him off at the house.  He waved to the rest of the
guys as they pulled away and hugged Justin fiercely on the small front
porch.  They didn't leave each other's side for the entire day, Jamie
touching Justin in some way almost the whole time.

So here they were, the Friday of Labor Day weekend and as the song said it
was summertime and the living was easy.  Feeling hot and a little light
headed, Jamie decided he'd had enough, stood and wrapped the towel around
his waist as he went into the house.  The colder air inside gave him goose
bumps.  Getting some water from the fridge he felt a soft rubbing against
his legs.  He looked down at the cat with a smile.

Picking her up he started scratching her neck making her purr loudly.
"How's my Fitzie doing?"  Jamie had immediately thought up a name for his
new pet: Fitzgerald, after the legendary Ella.  Joey laughed at him saying
that Ella was a perfectly good name.  Jamie countered that it was too much
like a dog's name and Fitzgerald was more dignified for a cat.  JC had been
right, Jamie had loved her the moment he set eyes on her and even more so
because Justin had gotten her for him.

He put the cat down and she immediately lay in a pool of sunlight near the
back door.  Jamie smiled at her and headed to the garage.  He stood in the
doorway and watched as Justin did some tilted sit ups.  He was wearing only
sneakers and a pair of gray cotton gym shorts.  Jamie could tell that
Justin wasn't wearing anything under the shorts from the bulge on the damp
material.

It was warm in the garage and Justin had worked up a fair sweat, the sun
coming through the window made his body glisten.  All of Justin's muscles
stood out, pumped up from his workout.  Jamie's breath caught in his throat
as he watched Justin's ab muscles contract and release.  From habit Jamie
knew that this was the last set of exercises.

He watched, fascinated, as Justin continued, oblivious to his presence.
The raw power of the sight of his near naked and sweaty fiance made Jamie
lengthen under his towel as his body responded to the sight in front of
him.  Breathing deeply he could smell the lingering scent of Justin's
cologne, the soap from his shower and the more slight, pungent smell of his
sweat.  His heart started racing as his desire grew.

On the last sit up Justin lay back down, breathing heavily, and wiped sweat
from his eyes with a small towel.  Jamie went and knelt beside him,
dropping his towel to the floor.  Leaning over he licked from Justin's
navel up to the center of his chest.  Jamie grew completely hard at the
taste of the damp, salty skin.  Justin shivered at the contact at first
then moaned in pleasure.

"How long were you watching?"

"I only caught the last ten or so sit-ups," Jamie replied before licking
across the closest nipple.

"Mmmm, is this the reward I get for working out?"

Jamie smiled up at him.  "If you want to think of it that way.  I just
think you look hot and sexy."  He went back and starting licking around and
sucking on Justin's nipple again bringing a long drawn out moan.  Reaching
over, Jamie rubbed Justin's rapidly growing member through his shorts.
Without even being asked, Justin reached down and took the shorts off
easily.

"You always say you like me horny, but I think I like you horny more,"
Justin joked as he stroked Jamie's hair.

Jamie winked at him and moved down to lick at Justin's head tasting the
rich, plentiful precum.  Justin hissed at the feeling of Jamie's tongue
running around the sensitive ridge.  His hips rose slightly, silently
asking Jamie to take him in deeper.  Jamie happily sucked down on Justin
taking him deeply into his throat.  One of Justin's hands tangled itself
into Jamie's hair while the other reached down to stroke Jamie's erection.

Jamie went into overdrive and used one hand to tease Justin's nipples.  As
he sucked hard and fast on Justin, he used spit and sweat to plant two
fingers deep into Justin's ass.

"Oh God, baby." Justin moaned.  His breathing was heavy and rapid as his
hips rose and fell on their own.  Jamie loved getting Justin this turned
on.  His fingers searched around and found the hard lump of Justin's
prostate and pressed.  Justin yelled out his pleasure and squeezed Jamie's
cock almost painfully.

Jamie kept the pressure on in Justin's ass and sucked fiercely.  He looked
up to see his head rolling on his shoulders and his eyes rolled back.
Justin was close and Jamie wanted it.  Within a few seconds Justin let out
a loud scream and came in Jamie's mouth.  The taste and warmth made Jamie's
head swim as he swallowed quickly.  It always amazed him how much Justin
shot at one time.  He sucked until Justin's spasms calmed and happily
realized that Justin wasn't losing much of his hardness meaning he was
ready for more.

Pulling his fingers free and letting Justin out of his mouth he leaned over
and kissed him.  Justin's tongue invaded Jamie's mouth, licking up any
remains of his load.  They separated, both panting.

"Please fuck me," Justin pleaded, still stroking Jamie.  Jamie smiled at
him and nodded.  Justin smirked, stood and stretched.  He then lay face
down back on the bench with his head at the top of the incline.

Jamie took his cue and climbed on Justin's back.  Grabbing his shoulders he
pushed his hard dick between Justin's spread legs and up against his hole.

"You ready?"

"Yes," Justin moaned in reply.

Jamie took a deep breath and plunged in, going deeply on his first stroke.
"Ugh," Justin grunted.

"You ok?"

"Very."  Justin's voice was shaking with desire.

Jamie started thrusting against him, enjoying the hot, tightness that
always was Justin as he moaned under him.  When Jamie jabbed deeply Justin
let out a long drawn out 'yessssss.'  Jamie picked up his speed while
rubbing his face against Justin's shoulder blades.

"Baby, you feel so good," Jamie gasped.  Justin took one of Jamie's hands
and started sucking on some of his fingers.  That sensation alone made
Jamie see stars as he roared into an intense orgasm.  While shooting into
Justin he felt Justin tighten suddenly and shudder.  Jamie grinned at
giving Justin another orgasm.

As they both let relaxed, Jamie stayed laying on top of Justin, snuggling
against his strong back.  Justin turned his head and Jamie kissed his
cheek.

"I love you so much."

"Same here, sweet pea."

Jamie softened enough that he slipped from Justin and Justin sighed sadly.
"I think I should work out more.  I like what happens when I do," he
chuckled.

"I don't know if my heart can take it," Jamie joked back as he got off of
Justin.

"I think you'll hold up just fine."  Justin joined him and pulled him into
a hug.

Jamie giggled.  "You've got cum on your stomach."  He looked over at the
bench and saw the mess Justin had made.

"It's all your fault."

"My fault?" Jamie smiled.  He took Justin's hand and they headed up to the
bathroom.  "You're just too damn sexy."

"It's a curse, I know," Justin said dramatically.

Jamie smiled at him and kissed him.  They filled the tub and settled in for
a nice soak.  Jamie sat behind Justin and massaged his overworked muscles
so they didn't stiffen up after the work out.

"We're going to Lance and JC's for dinner, right?" Justin asked leaning
back against Jamie's chest.

"Yup.  Lance wanted to have everyone over for dinner before he left for
Atlanta.  We won't see him again until we get to New York.  After the
wedding he's hooking up with Meredith and doing some promos with her."

Justin shook his head.  "It still amazes me that he's going."

Jamie shrugged.  "You were all invited.  He felt like someone should go."

"But his sorta ex-boyfriend.  Josh isn't happy about it."

Jamie sighed.  "I know, but he had the choice to go or not himself.  Why
aren't the rest of you going?"

Justin laughed.  "Well, Chris is still mad at them although I know he talks
to Howie every so often.  As for me, Josh and Joe," Justin shrugged, "we
were never that close really."  Justin turned in the tub so he was facing
Jamie and lay down on top of him.

Jamie smirked then grinned when he felt Justin's erection poking his thigh.
"Seems someone is still a little happy."

"Mr. Pee Pee isn't tired yet," Justin said with a mock pout.

Jamie pulled Justin's head to his and kissed him.  Their tongues played
back and forth as they started grinding against each other.  "Justin, make
love to me," Jamie said panting.

Justin smiled, reached over to turn on the massage jets and spread Jamie's
legs.

------


"So are you sure this is a good idea?" Jamie asked Lance.  They both
watched Justin walk with JC down to the lake.

Lance sighed, crossed to the bed and zipped up his suitcase.  "I have no
idea.  I'm being pulled in two different directions and for the first time
I don't know what to do."  Lance sat heavily on the bed.  "I have to leave
tomorrow to join Meredith anyway, so what's a few more hours."

"You do realize how insecure JC is about this?"

Lance looked down at his hands.  "I guess I've been in denial.  I'm only
going because Brian asked me... asked -us-.  Someone should go."

Jamie sat next to Lance.  "Everything will be alright.  We'll keep him busy
for you."

Lance smiled gratefully at Jamie.  "Thanks, I appreciate that."

------


"But Justin, why?"

"Josh, you know I love you more than anything, but don't be a complete
fool."  They had reached the lake while Justin tried to pound some sense
into his best friend.

JC looked at Justin angrily.  "Fool?  I think I'm being pretty reasonable
letting my fiance go to visit with his ex-boyfriend."

"Josh," Justin said shaking his head, "that -ex- is getting married to a
woman.  I think Lance will be safe.  He's only going to the ceremony before
heading out for God knows where."

"Omaha," JC answered absently.

Justin put an arm around JC's shoulder.  "You know he loves you and nobody
else, right?"

"Ya."

"You mean the world to him and he only wants you, right?"

"Ya."

"And you're the second luckiest man on earth, right?"

"Ya...  hey!  Second luckiest?"

"I own that title," Justin said proudly.

JC smiled at Justin and hugged him.

------


"Do you think everything will be ok?" Chris asked.

"Oh, I'm sure it will be," Joey answered as they watched Justin and JC from
the kitchen window.

"I talked to Howie and he was glad Lance was going.  Seems Brian was
concerned that none of us would show, not that the others would care."

Joey glanced at him.  "You think we should go?"

Chris shook his head.  "No way.  I may end up hurting Richardson if I do."

"You mean he may end up hurting you, and don't forget his whole family will
be there."

"He'd need them," Chris grinned.

They watched as Jamie and Lance left the house from the doors in Lance's
bedroom.  Lance went directly to find JC while Jamie sat at a table in the
shade of an umbrella.

"Seems Jamie's walking a little tender this afternoon," Chris kidded.  "You
know what that means."

Joey nodded with a grin.  "But did you notice that Justin is too?"

Chris nodded then started laughing.  "Those horny children."

"I need to talk to Jamie about something, you gonna be ok?" Joey asked.

"Sure, I need to use the can then call Dani."

------


Jamie sat in the shade sipping his ice tea.  It was lukewarm and he was
about to get up and get some ice for it when Joey sat next to him and
placed a fresh glass on the table for him.

"Thanks, Joe."

"Anytime.  Jamie," Joey asked shyly, "can I talk to you for a minute."

"Sure buddy, what's up?"

Joey looked around and saw they were alone.  "I tried it," he said softly.

"You mean...?"  Joey nodded.  Jamie had a hard time holding in his laugh.

"So... what did you think?"

"It was great, really.  Alot better than I thought it would be."  Joey
smiled at the memory.

"So what's the decision?"

"Well, I don't know if I'll ever do it again, but the idea doesn't turn me
off.  I think I do like girls better though."

"Now at least you know.  I'm glad it was a good experience."

Joey looked at Jamie suspiciously.  "You're not asking alot of questions
here."

"What do you mean?"

"Well, one of the guys would be pumping me for info."

Jamie smiled.  "I'm not one of the guys.  I figured you'd tell me what you
and Zack did if you wanted to and when you were ready."  Joey snapped his
head in Jamie's direction and paled.  Jamie mentally hit himself for the
slip and flushed a deep red.

"How did you know it was Zack?  I didn't tell you that."

"I... um... we... um...  shit Joe!"  Jamie rubbed his eyes and looked at
Joey.  "Justin and I saw you two that night."

Joey gulped.  "You -saw- us?"

Jamie nodded.  "You really should learn to close your door," he said with a
smile, trying to lighten the mood.

"Oh God," Joey murmured.

Jamie reached over and put a hand on Joey's arm.  "Listen, Justin knew that
you were questioning.  He did ask me about our talk and I had to tell him.
We're both ok with this, Joe.  You have nothing to be ashamed of and we
won't breath a word to anyone else, promise."

Joey exhaled in relief.  "Thanks.  I don't know why I would expect anything
different from you, squirt."

Jamie patted Joey's shoulder.  "It's all cool.  How could -we- judge you
about this?  Besides, we kinda hoped you'd decide to join our team, but
it's ok, really."

Joey laughed and pinched Jamie's cheek.  "You don't need me on your team.
You two do fine all by yourselves."

Jamie blushed and swatted Joey's hand away.  "Whatever," he laughed.

Joey stood and leaned over Jamie.  "I've got to hand it to you both."

"What do you mean?"

"The energy you must have.  After Zack and I... well, you know, I could
hardly move."  Jamie blushed again and looked down.  "Don't think I haven't
noticed that you're both walking a little carefully today..."  Joey let the
thought trail off as he headed back into the house.

Justin found Jamie sitting red faced with a silly smile.  "Now that's a
cute look.  Where's my camera when I need it?"

------


"And the nominee's for best Pop video are..."  Jamie zoned out the rest, he
knew who was nominated.  He looked down the row at the guys who looked
nervously straight ahead.

"Um, Brit?"

"Ya?" she asked looking at him.

"Could you ease up on my hand a little?"

"Oh, sorry," she grinned lightening up her grip a little.  The entire row
was holding hands waiting for the announcement of the winner.  He caught
Justin's eye and gave him a wink.  Justin smiled back.

"You should be sitting next to him, Jamie, not me," Britney said.

"That's ok, Brit.  I'm here with him and that's all that matters.  Besides,
I'm your date and Lynn is his.  We'll make the gossip columns for sure.
I'll be the one breaking up you and Justin, just not in the way they
think."

Britney laughed and nudged his shoulder.  "Kinda ironic, isn't it?"

Their attention was drawn back to the stage.  "And the award goes to...
NSYNC!!!"

The hall erupted with applause.  The next few minutes were a blur to Jamie
as he gaped at Britney.  He shook Justin's hand and gave him a small hug.
The others passed by him and they hugged him and Britney.  She pushed Jamie
over to sit next to Lynn then sat next to him.  Dani and Kelly pushed
toward Lynn as well.  Lynn gave Jamie an affectionate hug, tears in her
eyes.

The guys glowed as they gave their thank you speeches.  Justin's smile
split his face as he pushed up front.  "We got a moonman, we got a
moonman!" he sing-songed doing a little dance.  They all laughed and Jamie
looked on proudly.

"He certainly looks good in that outfit.  Did you have something to do with
that?" Britney asked.

Jamie nodded.  "He's been working out lately and I convinced him he should
show it off more."

It took awhile for the guys to make it back to their seats and everybody
went back to how they were sitting before.  Britney sighed in frustration
but didn't say anything.  The show continued and the guys left to get ready
for their number, Jamie joined them.

He greeted the other members of the band and beamed when he saw Kevin
standing to one side showing baby pictures to Johnny and Mel.  Jamie went
up to him and gave him a big hug.  "It's so good to see you.  Come on,
we've got to get ready."

"But..." Kevin began.

Jamie smiled.  "No buts, you're playing.  I've got the music here so you
can read it as we go along."

They waited for the introduction.  Jamie looked down under the stage and
blew Justin a kiss which he returned.  The performance was off the hook and
the guys put everything they could into it.

The night was going quickly and NSync got to their seats shortly before the
announcement for the viewers choice award.  Britney was backstage getting
ready to present so Jamie and Justin sat next to each other.  They held
hands tightly and Jamie leaned over.

"You know you have this one locked up.  We saw the report this afternoon."

Justin grinned at him.  "Oh, I know.  I'm still nervous though."

"And the winner is...  NSYNC!!"

The guys jumped up.  Justin gave his mother a hug and kiss then turned to
Jamie and gave him a firm hug as well.  Joey and Chris patted him on the
back as they passed, JC gave him a quick hug and Lance hugged him as well.
On stage they took a little more time with their speeches.

JC, Chris and Joey gave their thanks before Lance took over.  "We want to
thank everybody we thanked before," Lance said.  "And add WEG who I forgot
to mention last time, sorry Johnny.  Without you guys we wouldn't be here."

"This award means alot to us," Justin finished, "because it comes from the
fans.  You guys," he waved the award up to the balcony causing the girls to
scream, "have made us what we are today and we are very grateful.  I want
to thank my family, Mom, I love you for all you've done for me.  I'd also
like to thank a special person, sweet pea, you're my strength and I love
you with all my heart."  He kissed two of his fingers and pushed them out
into the hall.

"I will not cry, I will not cry," Jamie repeated over and over softly.

Lynn looked at him with a smile.  "You wanna go get a drink?"

Jamie nodded and followed her out to a side lobby where a bar was set up.
"Thanks, Lynn.  I was about to lose it."

"I could tell," she said softly as they walked over to a more private area
away from most of the people wandering around.  She put an arm around his
shoulder.  "He loves you so much.  Soon, Jamie, soon."

Jamie nodded with a smile.


tbc...


There's the latest.  Comments and suggestions are always welcome!


Jim
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