Date: Tue, 30 Sep 2003 22:48:29 -0700 (PDT)
From: Michael Bryan <mzbryan2003@yahoo.com>
Subject: JC and the Actor (Chapter 17)

JC and the Actor, Chapter 17, Copyright 2003

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The following story is entirely a work of fiction.  It is not meant to
imply anything about the sexuality or the personal lives of the members of
NSYNC, or any other celebrities mentioned.  If you are underage, or if it
is illegal to read sexually explicit gay material where you live, don't
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Chapter 17

	Walking back from my parents' bathroom, a towel wrapped around my
waist, I ran into my dad in the hallway.

	"Oh, hey dad," I said, slightly embarrassed, not from being in the
towel but for my reason for needing to shower.

	"Hey kid," he responded.  "You two having fun?"

	"What do you mean?" I asked, my cheeks reddening.

	He looked at me, a bit confused.  "Josh, did Josh like being out on
the farm?"

	"Oh," I laughed, trying to change the direction my thoughts had
taken.  "Yeah, I think he liked it."

	"You weren't too hard on him?"

	"Uh, I, uh, don't think so."

	"Great.  Well, I was just coming to drop off these bags, your
mother made me go shopping with her this morning.  Apparently only men in
their 70s wear the clothes that I was."

	"Cool" I laughed, leaning against the frame to their bedroom door,
not realizing he couldn't get in.  We stood there for a few moments until I
realized what I was doing.  "Oh, sorry," I said, stepping aside.

	"No problem," he said, bringing the bags in and dropping them on
the bed.  My father wasn't very pushy and had stopped giving me orders many
years ago.  Apparently this rule also extended to a simple, "could you step
aside?"

	"Dad, is Edward ok?" I asked, to his obvious surprise.

	"What do you mean?"

	"I don't know, he had this look on his face last night like he
wanted to say something, but couldn't."

	"I'm not sure," my dad said, scratching his head.  "I think he's
always a bit nervous when you're around."  He noticed my head sink a little
when he said that and quickly continued, "You know what I mean, it's just
that you're a lot older then him and he doesn't see you that often.  All
kids that age feel shy around guys your age."

	"That's not the only reason, is it?" I asked quietly.

	"Nathaniel, he admires you.  He thinks you have accomplished
amazing things, and he hears how your mother and I talk about you.  I think
he is afraid that you don't like him, or that he can't live up to what you
have become."

	"That's silly," I said.  "He's so talented, I'm surprised he's not
going to a conservatory.  And he's a nicer person than I ever was."

	"You're a wonderful person, Nathaniel," he said affirmatively.
"You've always been exactly who you should be.  I would never want to see
you back down from something you had an issue with."  He knew that I was
thinking that I had been mean to him.

	"I'm not very accepting of people's weaknesses," I said.  "I think
being that way has hurt me too."

	"Nathaniel," he said, stepping closer to me.  "I don't expect you
to ever forgive me, and I have never asked you to.  If what I did was
unforgivable by your standards, then so be it.  I know I hurt you and your
mother, and it wouldn't have been right for me to expect you to welcome
Edward into the family with open arms.  I only wish that you could forgive
me, but I'll always love you and think you're perfect no matter what."

	Few people had ever summed up their thoughts so well, and I found
myself just standing there, smiling at him.  I knew where I had learned my
verbal delivery.  "I think it's time I let a lot of things go," I said
after a moment.  My dad smiled, and for lack of any better way to conclude
the conversation, I gave him a quick hug, then headed back toward my room.
I stopped halfway down the hall and turned around.

	"Dad, do you think it's too late for me to be a brother to Edward?"

	He shook his head.  "No," he said.  "You may be surprised to see
how much you two are alike."

	"Ask him to dinner tonight, would you?" I asked, stepping into my
room.  I had expected to find JC inside, but he wasn't there.  On the bed
was a note that read, "NO MORE CHORES!  I'm helping your mother make
lunch."  I laughed to myself, and started to get dressed.

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	"That's ok, Joshua," I heard as I neared the kitchen door.  "I can
make another batch in a few minutes.  Why don't you just sit down over
here?"

	I stepped inside to see my mom, politely escorting JC to one of the
stools near the kitchen counter.  His face was a little red, and he was
smiling nervously.

	"What's going on?" I laughed, surveying the situation.

	"Nothing," my mom quickly answered.  "Joshua was just helping me
make lunch."  She was pulling dough out of the pasta maker, and trying to
avoid the chopped tomatoes that were all over the floor.

	"I broke that machine," JC said, pointing at the pasta maker and
sounding quite upset with himself.  "After I dropped the tomatoes all over
the floor."

	"Don't be silly," my mom said.  "You didn't break anything."  She
had taken to using a spatula handle to try and get the dough out.

	"Yeah," I laughed, grabbing some paper towels.  "It's just that the
dough doesn't normally go in that part of the machine."  I started laughing
a bit louder as I bent over and started picking up the tomatoes.

	"I'm sorry," JC said to my mom.  "I just thought I could help."

	"And I appreciate that," she said.  She had rinsed out some of the
pieces, and was now reassembling the machine.  I was still laughing,
thinking that JC looked very much like a puppy dog.  My mom was being
exceedingly nice about his destruction of her kitchen, but I could tell she
was afraid he might try to help again.

	"Why don't you take Joshua for a walk?" she suggested.

	"Ok," I said, pretending I didn't want to.  "Come on, Josh."  I
threw the used paper towels into the trash and led him out the back door.

	"I feel so bad," he started.  He was wearing his own t-shirt and
jeans again, and was looking his usual adorable self.  He had shaved and
his floppy hair was combed away from his face.  "I thought it would be a
nice bonding experience."

	"Don't worry about it, my mom already loves you, she just has a set
way of doing things."

	"You mean, like, correctly?"  His breath followed with a laugh.

	After assuring him that we wouldn't be doing any more labor, we
walked through the fields in back of my house, enjoying the sun and the
fresh air.  JC got a little nervous when we came upon the cows making their
daily trek across the property, but I assured him that he didn't have to
milk any of them.  I think that he must have felt he was in some sort of
movie.  I'm sure that after all of his years in the entertainment industry,
it must have been hard to think about people living this way.

	I told him that I had talked to my dad, and that I had invited
Edward for dinner.  He was happy and surprised when I told him that I
thought he was largely responsible for my transformation.  I couldn't quite
explain to him or to myself why, but being with him just seemed to make me
want to be happier, and not want to have negative feelings.

	After about an hour, we went back into the house to find lunch all
prepared.  My mother had made a pasta salad (for the second time), with a
variety of fresh vegetables from the garden she kept on the side of the
house.  The four of us sat down at the kitchen table, and there was a
casualness to our conversation, which had not existed last night.  My
parents asked me about the movie I was going to make.  They were nervous
about me going on location in the African jungle, but they knew it was an
opportunity I could not pass up.

	They asked JC what he was up to, and he explained that he was on a
publicity tour in Europe, and would then be beginning a music tour that
would last several months.

	"That must be hard for you two," my mom said, referring to the fact
that we would soon be separated from each other again.  'I am sure there is
a way you can work it out."

	"Well," I began, not really wanting to talk about it.  "I think it
is likely that Josh will be on the European leg of his tour while I am
filming, so I'm hoping that may make it more possible for us to meet up
from time to time."

	"I'm sure it will," JC said, smiling at me nicely.

	"Oh," my dad interrupted.  "I called Edward.  He sounded very
excited about coming to dinner, but he said he had already made a date."

	"It is Saturday night," JC said.

	"Aww," I laughed.  "Straight kids are so cute."

	My dad continued.  "He's been dating this girl for the past couple
of years now, I think."  He looked toward my mom for confirmation.

	My mother nodded.  "Yes, she is very sweet and lovely.  She is
going to Dartmouth as well."

	"Well, that works out nice for him then, doesn't it?" I said.

	"As long as he doesn't neglect his studies," my dad responded.

	"Oh well, maybe we'll get to see him before we leave Monday
morning," I said.

	"That would be nice," said my mom.

	:"So how did you guys get to know each other?" my dad asked
suddenly.  It was an innocent question, but brought back several drunken
images of dancing and a dirty bathroom.

	JC saw that my mind had temporarily left and quickly answered, "I
went with my friend Justin to the opening night of Nate's play.  I was
lucky enough to meet him backstage, and he invited us to the actors'
after-party."  He refolded the napkin on his lap.  "We've kind of been
together ever since."  JC smiled at me and gave me a friendly wink.  I
smiled back at him, reminded once again of the fact that we did have a real
relationship.

	"Helen and I have seen all of Nate's plays," my dad said.  "This
one we don't know what to do about because we don't want to watch him walk
around naked for a half-hour."  Both of my parents laughed a bit, and I
told them that I was in total agreement with their decision.

	With lunch finished and with several hours left in the day, the
four of us found that we didn't really know what else to do.

	"We should take Joshua into town," my mother suddenly said, very
excited.  "Show him some small-town New England life."

	"Josh is trying to keep a low profile this weekend," I answered.

	"Actually, that sounds like fun," Josh said.

	"Josh," I turned and looked at him.  "This may not be New York, but
some people here are going to know who you are."

	'That's ok," he assured me.  "I feel much more relaxed now.  I
think I can deal with the occasional onlooker or autograph seeker."

	"That must be very annoying," my dad said.

	"Nah, it's the least I can do," Josh answered.

	"That's my guy," I teased.

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	We all climbed into my parents' car and drove into town.  On the
way, I pointed out the high school I went to.

	"I was on varsity track," I told him with a wink.

	JC leaned over in the backseat where we sat, and whispered into my
ear, "I guess that's where you get your stamina."

	We arrived on Main Street and found the town buzzing with activity.
People in New England really enjoyed their summers because their winters
were so harsh.  A craft fair was going on, and vendors lined the streets
with their different items.

	"This is so cute," JC said, stepping into the sun with a baseball
cap and sunglasses on.

	"Yeah," I laughed.  "But you can probably see why I ran to New
York."

	"Aw, come on now," he said, grasping my arm.  'Admit it, you're
just a country boy at heart."

	"Let's just look around," I said.  We strolled up and down the
street and JC was impressed with how many people knew my parents.  The many
adults that we met didn't have a clue who JC was, but I noticed a lot of
high school aged kids staring at him, wondering if he was who they thought
he was.  They probably had a hard time believing that JC was walking around
their town.

	At one point I had gotten pulled into a conversation with my
parents and some woman who claimed to have babysat for me when I was very
little.  When I turned around JC was out of my sight.  I looked through the
crowd, thinking he would kind of stand out, but didn't see him.  My parents
also started wondering where he was and the three of us started looking.  I
wasn't exactly worried, though I thought it was kind of unusual for him to
wonder off under the circumstances.

	"Nathaniel," I heard my mom call to me from across the street.  I
walked over to her and she pointed down toward the end of the street.  "Is
that him?"

	I squinted my eyes and started laughing, shaking my head.  "Yeah, I
think it is."  I walked toward the end of the street and up to JC.  He was
sitting on the grass, surrounded by toddlers and kindergarten-age children,
watching a puppet show.

	"Ahem," I coughed from behind him.  He didn't turn around, but
rolled his head up and over so that he was looking at me upside-down.

	"Hey," he said simply.  "This is really cool."  He rolled his head
back and continued watching.  I stood there for a moment, marveling at the
innocence this twenty-seven year old could maintain.  I shrugged my
shoulders and flopped down next to him.  The show was really cool.

	Afterward, we stood up, though not quite as easily as the rest of
the audience.  Throughout the show, JC would occasionally notice a little
kid staring at him.  I would see him quietly turn, lower his sunglasses,
and smile at them.  They would instantly smile, and then look back toward
the puppet show.

	We were both looking for my parents when I noticed a mother and
daughter staring at JC.  The little girl was similar in age to the children
at the puppet show, maybe four or five.  She had brought her fingers to her
mouth, but looked like she was talking to her mother very seriously.  The
mother was smiling at her, in-between giving looks to JC.

	We got closer and I heard the mom say, "Ok, if that's what you want
to do."  The little girl formed a resolved expression and walked straight
up to JC and demanded his attention by tugging his jeans.  JC took off his
glasses and looked down at the little girl.  She backed up, took a deep
breath, and started singing.

	"I'm doin' 'dis tonight, yaw, prolly gonna staht a fight, I, know
this can be right yeah, baby come on."  She curtseyed and then just stood
there.  Apparently she was finished.

	JC laughed and knelt down to her eyelevel.  "Well that was just
beautiful, princess," he said.  He shook her tiny little hand and leaned
over and gave her a kiss on the cheek.  Her mother walked over, looking
very sweet, if a bit embarrassed.

	"She loves you," she said, putting her arms on her daughter's
shoulders.

	"Not Justin?" he laughed, standing up and shaking her hand.  We
both quickly realized that she was our age.

	"Oh no, just you," she laughed.  "You should hear her sing that
'Blowing Me Up' song."  JC laughed again and rubbed the top of the little
girl's head.

	"I should probably sign something for her," he said, looking back
at the mom.

	"Would you?" she asked, very excited.  She started searching
through her bag to find something to write on.

	"Oh," I said, noticing that she had pulled a camera out of her
purse while looking for a pen and paper.  "Wouldn't a picture be even
better?"

	"Oh," she said, not even realizing that she had a camera in the
cavernous bag she was holding.  "Would you mind?"  JC said he didn't mind
at all, and I offered to take a picture of the three of them, and of him
with the little girl.  When I had finished, he signed the paper she had
found and she thanked him very sincerely.

	"I hope you enjoy our town," she said, repacking her bag.

	"I am," he said.  "Very much."  The mother told the little girl to
say goodbye and she walked up to JC, once again tugging on his jeans.  He
knelt down to her and she kissed him on the cheek.  "Thank you, honey," he
said, giving her another kiss before standing back up.  The mother thanked
him again, said goodbye to me, and walked back into the crowd with her
daughter.

	"They were really cute," he said.

	"I think you must be the cutest guy on the planet," I responded,
knocking him on the shoulder with my own.

	We continued walking down the street stopping at a few of the
stands along the way.  I was struck by the realization of what a nice
father JC would be, and wondered if he or us would ever attain that role.
We found my parents who introduced JC to the town mayor and his wife.  He
was a heavyset, obnoxious type of man, who I never really liked.

	"Wow," JC said, after the mayor had left.  "The town mayor."

	"Don't get too excited," I said dryly.  He's also the town drunk."

	"Oh, his wife seemed nice though."

	I laughed, and saw my parents give me an unhappy look.  "Sorry to
disappoint you again, but she's kind of known as the town whore."

	JC looked at me in disbelief and shook his head.  "Boy, small town
life is so deceiving."

	"Everyone here is just as messed up as they are in New York," I
said.  "They just smile more.  Do you want some cotton candy?"  JC nodded
in the affirmative and I left to go get some.  When I returned JC was
looking across the street, at a small alley between two buildings.

	"Is that Edward?" he said.  I looked over and saw Edward talking to
a girl.  They looked like they were talking energetically but Edward did
not appear at all happy.  I told JC that I should go and say hi, but he
grabbed my arm and said that I might be interrupting something important.

	"Aren't older brothers supposed to be annoying?" I asked,
continuing to move forward.  "Come on, let's go meet the lucky lady."  I
pulled him with me and he reluctantly started moving alongside me.

	"Hey Edward," I said, stepping into the alley with JC.  Edward
immediately stopped his conversation and turned to see me.  I could tell
that the girl recognized JC, and she looked like she was going to
hyperventilate.

	"Oh my God," she shrieked.  She was of medium height with long
blond hair.  Very sweet, but plain looking.  "You're JC!"

	"I am," JC said, extending her hand, which she took with both of
hers and shook up and down.

	"Oh my God, I love you," she was looking at him up and down and
both Edward and I stared at her, wanting to laugh.  "I love your voice.  I
love your hair."  She reached up to touch it, which I could tell JC didn't
really appreciate, though he kept smiling.  Suddenly she turned and glared
at Edward.  "You know JC Chasez?" she asked, shocked that he hadn't said
anything.

	"Oh, um," Edward stuttered.  "Well, I just met Josh yesterday,
he's, uh, a friend, a friend of my, I mean, he knows..." Edward was looking
at me while he spoke and I could tell he was worried about calling me his
brother in front of me.  I decided to help him out.

	"Hi," I said, extending my hand to her.  "I'm Nate, Edward's
brother."

	"Oh," she said.  "The actor?  Wow, nice to meet you.  I'm Gabby."

	Edward smiled and jumped back in.  "Josh is a friend of Nate's."
She seemed satisfied with that answer and continued to beam at JC.

	"So what are you up to?" I asked Edward.

	"Not much," he responded, his voice a little more relaxed.  "Just
checking out the fair."  Gabby was fully enraptured by JC, so I continued
talking to him.

	"Everything ok with you two?" I asked, shifting my eyes toward
Gabby.

	"Oh, yeah, just, whatever."

	"Edward, I felt like you wanted to talk about something last night,
did you?"

	He looked back at me and I could tell that I was right.  "No," he
said at first.  "It's not important."  I continued to stare at him.  "Well,
maybe," he said.  "I, uh, I just don't really know who else to talk to."
It wasn't the right time to tell him that I wanted to be a better brother
to him, so I simply told him to enjoy his date, and to stop by tomorrow.
He agreed, and I set about prying JC away from Gabby.

	"We have to be going," I said.  Gabby released her hold on JC and
said goodbye.  As we walked away I heard Gabby yelling at Edward for not
telling her he knew JC.

	"Kids," JC said.  "They have a long road ahead of them."

	"I know."

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	We got back to the house around six in the evening.  We had stopped
in the grocery store to pick up the ingredients for another glorious meal
my mother was going to prepare.  While the food in my house was always
great, my mother was really going all out since I hadn't been home in a
while and she wanted JC to enjoy.

	"Has this been at all relaxing for you?" I asked JC.  We were in
the den, watching television.  My legs were tucked underneath me and my
head was on his shoulder.  My parents were in the kitchen.

	"Are you kidding?" he responded, turning his head to face me.  "I
don't want to leave."

	"Don't," I said, moving my hand to his stomach.  "Let's just forget
about all of our plans and stay here.  Let's just quit everything and
become farmers."

	"My, my, you are a country boy aren't you?" he laughed

	"I was miserable without you these past few weeks."

	"So was I."

	"Part of me was just so aggravated that we couldn't be together,
but part of me thought that my emotions were too dramatic for the short
time we've known each other."

	"Does it feel short to you?" he asked with interest, his hand
reaching behind my back and moving toward the back of my head.

	"No, I feel like I've known you forever.  I don't think people
would understand that though."

	"I stopped caring what people think a long time ago," he said.  His
hand moved my head toward his, and he kissed me chastely.  There was a
firmness to his well-formed lips that made me feel protected.  He pulled
away and I moved toward him again, kissing him with a greater intensity
than he had used.  I quickly darted my tongue into his mouth, feeling the
ridges of his upper teeth.

	"Your parents are in the next room," he laughed quietly, gently
pushing me away.

	"Come with me," I said, standing up and taking him by the hand.  My
mother must have heard our footsteps outside of the kitchen because she
called to us, telling us that dinner would be ready in about a half-hour.

	I ran upstairs for a second and returned to find JC casting a
suspicious eye on me.  I took him by the hand again, and told him that I
wanted to show him one of my favorite places on the property.  We went
outside and were greeted by the sun, which was just beginning to set.  The
sky was a rosy-pink color that made the grass seem greener, and the
outlines of the buildings on the property seem sharper.

	I led him to the storage barn.  It was red and built in the
traditional farmhouse style.  I opened the large door and we entered into
the giant space.  The floor was dirt and the room was filled with large
pieces of equipment, sacks of dirt and bags of grain.

	"This is your special place?" JC asked, a little confused.

	"No silly, my favorite place is up there."  He looked up and saw
the large hayloft, hanging high above the ground.  We walked to the side of
the room to where a tall wooden ladder stood, leading the way to the loft.
"I've seen your concerts, so I know you're not afraid of heights."  He
nodded and I let him climb up first, telling him what a cute ass he had as
I followed him up.

	The loft was full of bales of hay, and JC asked how they got them
up here.  I walked over to the giant door at the end of the loft, and
pulled it open.

	"Wow," he said stepping up next to me.  The height we were at
offered a spectacular view of the mountains surrounding us, as well as the
sun setting behind them.  'This is beautiful."  I pointed up and showed him
the pulley that was used to raise the hay up and into the loft.  I put my
hands on his hips and kissed him.

	"I felt like I was on top of the world when I used to come up here.
And you're the first person I am sharing it with."

	"Really?" he asked.

	"Hey, you showed me your special place, well, this is mine.  We
started kissing again, teasing each others' lips with light caresses,
followed by more forceful ones.  JC's hands moved to my back and my hands
moved to his ass, feeling its firmness through his jeans.

	"You know, we only have one more day together," I said, my hands
squeezing him harder.  His pelvis was pressed against me and I could feel
his growing erection against my own.

	"I know," he said, not wanting to stop kissing me to talk.  I slid
my hands under his waistband, and moved them down until I had cupped his
buttocks in my hands, feeling their soft, smooth skin.

	"We don't have much time," he said, his eyes looking at me for
guidance.  "Your mom is going to call us soon."

	"Well, whatever we do, we have to do it fast," I smiled, my index
finger sliding down the crack of his ass.

	He made a small sound when he felt my finger.  "What do you want to
do?" he asked.
	"What do you want to do?" I returned.  My finger brushed up against
his hole.  It was still a bit open from our earlier encounter and he moaned
and pressed himself up against me when he felt me touch him.

	"You probably know what I want to do," he laughed while trying to
concentrate on the pleasure I was bringing to his backside.  "You brought
the stuff with you didn't you?"  I nodded, kissing his throat.  "Gee," he
sighed.  "You must think I am such a little bitch."

	"I think you are amazing," I said, pushing my finger into him,
making him moan louder than he expected to.  I thought about telling him
that he was my little bitch, but quickly realized that I didn't want to
foster a dominant-submissive relationship between us.  We each had our
preferences, and that was that.

	We started moving quickly; abandoning our kissing as we dropped to
the floor.  Josh turned his back to me and I pressed up against him,
licking at his neck and moving my hands under his shirt.  I remembered that
there was no time for foreplay and urged him to move forward.  On his
knees, he supported himself on the closest bale of hay.  I knelt behind him
and reached under him to undo his belt and jeans.  I pulled his jeans down
under his buttocks, exposing the creamy firm mounds of flesh to the air.  I
briefly pulled his cheeks apart to stare at his inviting hole, then quickly
started undoing my own pants.

	In seconds my cock was sheathed, lubricated and rearing to go.  I
pressed myself up against him, and guided my cock to line up with his hole.
JC could feel its approach and urged me on.  "Give it to me," he said.
"Shove it in me."  I was apprehensive about going in all at once, but that
was what he wanted, and I knew he was still loose from earlier.

	I pushed all the way into him, feeling his ass embrace every part
of my cock down to its base.  JC moaned excitedly and almost immediately
started pressing back against me.  He either really wanted this badly, or
really didn't want to be late for dinner.

	"Oh, that's it baby, that's it," he said, as we slammed against
each other.  My hands reached under his shirt and cupped his pecs, rubbing
them and playing with his nipples.  Leaving my left hand under his chest,
my right hand slid down his hard abdomen until it found his huge cock, hard
as a rock and bouncing up and down.  I wrapped my fingers around it and
started stroking him in rhythm with my thrusts.  He started leaking very
quickly and soon my hand was easily sliding up and down his
self-lubricating pole.  Occasionally I would move my thumb across his slit,
causing his teeth to practically chatter.

	"Your cock feels so hard," I told him, my face pressed into his
back.

	"You are working me so good," he responded.  "Faster, faster."  We
were moving at lightning speed, knowing that we needed to climax as soon as
possible, but trying to enjoy the experience for all it was worth.  In the
distance I heard my mom calling for us.  JC heard her too, but he just kept
slamming against me.

	"Should we stop?" I asked, not really sure if I could at this
point.

	"Are you nuts?" he responded.  "Just stay back there and finish
what you started."  He locked his arms underneath him, bracing himself on
the bale of hay like he was going to do push ups.  I moved the hand I had
under his chest and brought it to his hip as I straightened my back and
started bringing forth my orgasm.  My other hand was pulling on JC's cock
as fast as I could.  Looking down, seeing nothing but my cock in his
gorgeous ass between the bottom of his shirt and the top of his pants was
extremely erotic.

	"Tell me when you're ready," I told him.

	"Ungh, ahhh, I, I'm ready."  I could tell he was gritting his teeth
as he started pumping a load out of his cock.  His head was rocking back
and forth and I could feel the new, warm wetness on my hand.  He never
stopped fucking himself against my cock and I quickly shot off inside him,
groaning low and long.  I was almost dizzy by the time my orgasm subsided.
I lay against JC for a few moments as we both caught our breath.

	"You should have that thing bronzed," he sighed, smiling.  I pulled
out of him and we quickly started putting ourselves back together.  "Do you
think they will know?" he asked, pulling his jeans up over his well-used
ass.

	"I don't think so," I said.  We hurried down the ladder and
practically ran back to the house.  I felt a little drunk, a bit like I was
in an alternate reality.  We passed by the dining room on our way to wash
up, but stopped when we saw my parents already sitting down.

	"Boy," my dad said, staring at JC.  "You look like you just got
plowed."

	"Excuse me?" JC said, his voice squeaking, his eyes widening and
his cheeks reddening.

	"Your clothes," my dad said, gesturing at him.  "They have hay all
over them.  Looks like you got run over by the plow."  In our haste we
hadn't noticed.

	"Oh," JC laughed nervously.  "No, I, uh, we..."

	"Josh has never laid in a haystack," I offered.  "You know, I just
wanted to give him the full experience."

	"Oh, very nice," my dad nodded.  "Well boys, go wash up quickly,
the food is going to get cold.  We hurried upstairs and washed our hands.
JC quickly changed.

	"That was mortifying," JC said to me in the bathroom.

	"Don't worry about it," I responded.  We ran back downstairs and
sat down to a lovely dinner.  Once again the conversation was light and
enjoyable.  Apparently we were both still beaming, because at one point my
mother had to interrupt our conversation just to say how adorable we were
with each other.  We both blushed and forgot what we were talking about.

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	Late that night, JC and I lay in bed together.  We were both
shirtless and I could feel the warmth of his chest under me as I lay my
head on him.  The room was dark except for the moonlight, and he was
playing with the curls of my hair.

	"So," he began after a lengthy conversation about nothing.  "I was
the first guy you brought to the hayloft.  Am I the first guy you brought
into this bed?"

	I turned myself over and moved my hand over his chest, propping my
head on top of it.  "Do you really want to know the answer to that?  I
asked him.

	"Yeah," he smiled.  "I don't care what the answer is, I'm just
curious."

	"Well, if you really want the truth then, no, you aren't actually."

	"You little slut," he laughed.

	I flipped back around so that the back of my head was lying against
his chest.  "I was just a stupid kid.  It was during my last year of high
school, you know, it was technically my junior year, but I graduated early.
I was in total misery that year because of my dad and the affair, so I
think I was really looking for an escape."

	"And you met someone?"

	"It was just this senior who I shared this kind of obvious
attraction for, though I wasn't quite sure why.  We never even used the
word 'gay' when we were together.  Anyway, my mom was working at that time,
so we would just come back here and fuck around.  Neither of us new what
the hell we were doing, but it was a fun diversion."

	"So what happened to him?" JC asked.  He didn't sound particularly
impressed, but of course I assumed he had quite a past as well.

	"I don't really know.  He left for college out west and that was
it.  The summer before we left for school I basically had the full
realization that I was gay, but when I tried to talk to him about it, he
didn't want to hear it.  He was a popular football player in school; I
guess he just wasn't ready to deal with the reality of being gay."

	"Did that bother you?"

	"Uh, no actually, I didn't really have feelings for him other than
thinking he was a nice guy who I thought was really hot.  Looking back on
it now, I just hope he was able to figure out who he was."

	We were silent for a few minutes and I wondered if my story had
upset JC in some way.  "Wow," he eventually said.  "A high school football
player.  Hot."  He laughed a bit and I started tickling his ribs, causing
him to really start laughing.

	"Did I mention he went to college on a football scholarship?" I
laughed.  He kept trying to pull my hands off of him, but I kept breaking
free and tickling him again.

	"Shhh," I said while continuing my assault.  "You're going to wake
my parents."  The bed was creaking and we were wrestling for control of the
situation.  Eventually I was able to pin him beneath me, being a bit larger
and stronger.  I held his arms above his head and sat on his legs.

	"Listen," I instructed.  "If you don't stop laughing I'm going to
have to punish JC Junior."  I let go of one of his hands and reached into
his boxer-briefs, pulling out his large penis.

	He looked down at himself, then back up at me.  "Punish away," he
smiled.  "He's been very naughty today."  He started moving his hips
causing my hand to move up and down his slowly hardening shaft.

	"Ok," I sighed, pretending I didn't want to do what I was about to
do.  "You asked for it."

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	Well satisfied, I awoke in the middle of the night to a small
tapping sound.  I laid there for a few moments, waiting to see if I heard
it again.  Sure enough I did, and I could tell that it was coming from the
window.  Every few seconds, a tiny pebble would hit the glass, and I
slipped out of bed to see what was going on.  JC was still asleep,
exhausted from complete sexual satisfaction.  I walked open to the window,
peered out of it, and was surprised to see Edward, standing on the ground,
wobbling from side to side.  I pulled up the window and stuck my head out.

	"Edward," I whispered.  "What the hell are you doing?"

	He looked up at me and smiled widely.  "Hey Nate," he waved.  "Hey
bro," he laughed to himself as he walked around a perimeter that only he
could see.

	"Edward, what's going on?"

	He came to a stop and looked up at me again, swaying back and
forth.  "I want to talk to you."  His speech was slow and staggered.  He
backed up so as to get a better look at me, but tripped over his own feet
and flopped onto the grass.  He started laughing and I quickly realized
that being an older brother wasn't going to be easy.