Date: Mon, 10 Sep 2001 21:34:48 -0700 (PDT)
From: William Strickland <choralschol@yahoo.com>
Subject: Don't Give Up Chapter 3

Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction.  It is not meant to imply anything
about the true of sexuality of Brian Littrell, JC Chasez, the Backstreet
Boys, or *NSYNC.  This story contains graphic descriptions of homosexual
activity and is therefore not suitable for people under the age of
eighteen.  If you should not be reading this, don't.

I want to sincerely apologize for taking so long to send in the third
installment.  My life recently has been unbelievably hectic and I just
haven't had time.  For that I truly apologize.  With that out of the way I
hope that you all enjoy Chapter 3 of Don't Give Up.  I will have the fourth
chapter out by the end of the week and the fifth one out before the 20th.
Thanks for your understanding and your e-mails.  Please keep sending them.
I NEED FEEDBACK!!  ?  Enjoy!

Don't Give Up
Chapter 3

It has been one and a half months since the Backstreet Boys and *NSYNC had
begun their joint tour.  The Canadian leg of the tour had gone very well,
selling out in Toronto and Calgary for two nights each.  The other cities
they had played also sold out.  The boys had not had a day off at all while
they were in the country.  If they weren't rehearsing, they were shooting
videos, or doing radio interviews, or doing signings, and they had appeared
on the Canadian MuchMusic channel five times.  To say the least they were
very tired.

After they had finished there, they were supposed to go straight to London
and begin their European tour.  However, plans had changed slightly.

"Britney Spears is going to be joining us in London and touring England,
Ireland, Spain, Germany, and France with us," said Kevin to the assembled
groups.  "However, she has a few commitments in the States she needs to
fulfill before she joins up.  As a result, management has decided that all
of our concerts will be pushed back by two and a half weeks.  The first
week, both groups are going to be in the studio working on their respective
albums.  The rest of the time we will be free to do and go whatever and
wherever we want."

All the faces in the room immediately lit up.  "We are getting a week and a
half to do whatever we want?  A week and a half of vacation!"  Nick stood
up and started jumping with glee all over Kevin's hotel room.  The rest of
the guys laughed at him and shouted their own appreciation.

"At last, I can go had an extended vacation with mom," Howie said, mostly
to himself.

"AJ, why don't we both go to LA and see Mom and Dad.  Aaron will be in town
on a break and Mom said in her last e-mail that she really wanted to see
you and so do the kids," Nick asked.

"Sure honey," AJ said.  "I love going to visit your family.  Certainly a
lot better than spending that much time with mine, and we haven't been to
LA in quite awhile for a vacation."

"Joey, what would you like to do?" Justin asked his boyfriend.

"Don't take this the wrong way Justin, but I really think I should spend
some time with Chris.  His mom has been inviting me to visit for over a
year and I really should go and see them.  I hope you understand."

Justin kissed Joey on the forehead.  "It's all good man.  I was going to go
spend some time with Britney while she was in New York.  I know that we are
going to be spending a good bit of time together while we're in Europe, but
she's really having a rough time right now, and I should spend some time
with her.  She is after all one of my best friends and I really need to
spend some time with her.  So yes, I do completely understand."

The guys then broke up and headed to their own rooms.  Howie was walking
down the hallway when he heard Kevin running up behind him.

"Howie, wait up!"

"Hey Kev.  Wadda you need?"

"Could we go in your room and talk for a sec, this is kind of private."

"Sure thing man.  Chris is going over some stuff with Lance.  We can be
alone."

Howie got the key to his room from his pocket and slid the keycard into the
electronic lock.  Kevin raced into the room and fell down on the bed
sobbing.  Howie was very alarmed and didn't know quite what to say.

"Kevin, what's wrong man?"

Kevin opened his mouth, drying the tears on his face and tried to talk, but
began to convulse into tears again.  Howie sat down on the bed and patted
his friend's back.  "Dude, if you have something you need to talk about,
you know I'm here.  What happened?"

The older man sat up and tried again. He managed to tell Howie his problem
in between sobs.  "I called Kristen this morning to tell her I was going to
be coming home and that I loved her and couldn't wait to see her.  At first
she seemed excited, but then I heard another voice in the background.  I
couldn't really hear it too clearly, but I'm pretty sure it was a guy's
voice.  Then I head her response to the question she was asked, and she
called the guy honey!  Then she said she had to go and that she would see
me in a week.  Then she just hung up."  Kevin started to sob again even
harder this time.  "I think she's having an affair."  This time he dropped
his head onto Howie's shoulder and wept.

Howie just sat there dumbfounded.  He had known Kristen ever since he had
known Kevin.  They had dated on and off ever since the Backstreet Boys had
started.  Even though they had had some disagreements, and had never liked
being apart for most of the year, nothing like this had ever
happened. Howie started to stroke Kevin's back and tried to calm him down.

"Kev, I'm sure there is a logical explanation for this.  I don't think
Kristen would have an affair, no matter how lonely she is.  She loves you
an awful lot.  This just doesn't seem possible."

"Oh, believe me it's possible.  She's cheated on me before we got married,
I just never told anyone."  He began to wipe his eyes then slipped his arms
around Howie's waist.  "But I'm actually glad that this happened.  There is
someone I have been fighting an attraction to and now I am free to pursue
it."

"Kev, don't you think you're being a bit hasty.  You don't know that she is
cheating yet."

"Oh Howie, it doesn't matter.  She never really loved me and now I can
accept that."  Kevin moved his hand down to Howie's leg and gripped it
hard.  "Besides, now I can get closer to a friend that I have wanted to for
a long time."  Kevin gripped Howie's thigh even tighter and lifted his head
off of his shoulder.

Howie didn't like where this was headed at all.  "Kevin, believe me, I'm
very flattered, but I'm straight, and you are still a married man."

"I told you that Kristen doesn't matter anymore," Kevin said.  "Besides,
don't think I haven't noticed you checking out my ass in the dressing room
during a concert, or that hazy look you get when you stare at me during a
meeting."

"Dude, I don't know where you are getting these ideas from, but I promise
you that I am not in any way, shape, or form attracted to you physically.
So as my friend, please stop what you are doing."

"Shhh," Kevin said, putting a finger to Howie's lips.  "Just lay back and
relax."

With that Kevin pushed Howie down on the bed and pressed his lips to
Howie's.  Howie tried to push his bandmate off of him, but Kevin was
heavier than he was, and was stronger than he looked.  Howie just lay on
the bed kicking and squirming.

"OK you guys, say cheese!"  Howie saw the flash of four cameras, and Kevin
was immediately off of him and on the floor laughing his ass off.  Howie
looked up in amazement as he saw Nick, AJ, Justin, and Joey standing in the
bathroom doorway with huge Cheshire cat grins on their faces.  He looked
down on the floor at Kevin, who was rolling around like a child having a
fit.

It took him a few minutes to find his voice, but when he did, Howie let
them have it.

"You dirty bunch of fuckheads!  What kind of asinine bullshit was that to
pull on me?  What the hell did I ever do to you to deserve this!
Especially from you Kevin!  Will someone please answer my question!  This
has to be the most horrible, meanest, worst practical joke that was ever
pulled on me!  Well is someone going to explain what just happened here!"

Nick recovered the fastest and sat Howie down on the bed, still stifling
his laughter.  "AJ and I told you that we were going to get you back.  That
little incident on the bus really pissed us off and now you have been
successfully burned."

AJ piped up then.  "However none of this could have been carried out if it
weren't for the Oscar winning performance of Mister K. S. Richardson.
Mr. Richardson, will you please take your bow."

Kevin stood up and bowed very deeply from the waist, throwing out his hands
in the most flamboyant manner possible.  Howie just sat on the bed,
seething, trying to control his anger.

AJ knew that this was not a good sign.  He sat down by his friend.  "Now D,
you can either get mad and even with us, or you can help us settle one last
score.  There is one Backstreet Boy that still has to be given his due and
six heads are better than four.  What do you say, are you willing to help
us?"

Howie smiled despite himself.  If there was one thing he loved it was a
good practical joke, and this one took the cake.  He looked around the room
at his friends and laughed.

"OK, OK.  I'll help you all get Brian, but there are two conditions.  First
of all I want that film in those cameras."

"Alright," said Nick, "What's the second?"

"That you let me at that hunk of man meat across the room."  With that,
Howie jumped on the bed and tackled Kevin.  He pressed his lips to his
victim and forced his tongue through them.  Kevin was sprawled on the
ground in shock.  The other guys bent over laughing and kept shooting
pictures.


Brian looked in the mirror.  He saw a very confused and tired face looking
back at him.  The past month or so with JC had gone pretty well.  They had
gone out several times to restaurants, sometimes with some of the guys,
most often alone, and to some dance clubs and bars.  Every minute that
Brian spent with JC was wonderful and he treasured their time together.
However he was beginning to think that Nick's warnings had been right.

"JC, I just don't think I'm ready for that yet."  They were in the Toronto
hotel room lying in bed.  JC was spooning Brian, his hands roaming over his
lover's naked chest.  JC's fingers traced the outline of Brian's nipples
and pulled at the little bit of hair on his chest.

"But baby, there isn't much left to do in this bed.  I know you're not
ready to fuck, I'm not sure I am.  We've done the frottage thing, the
mutual masturbation.  We've even showered together.  I really want to suck
your cock and I want you to suck mine.  It would mean so much to me.
Please."  JC said this with his puppy dog eyes that he knew Brian couldn't
resist.  He was really having fun discovering what man-to-man sex was like
and knew that Brian was too.  However, the prodding he had to do was
beginning to get annoying.

Brian turned over in bed.  He looked at JC.  He knew that he loved this
man, his angel, his gift from God.  Not only had Brian been able to act out
his fantasies with him, he had learned what true intimacy was.  Looking at
JC now, he knew he wanted him.  He moved his lips to JC's and kissed his
boyfriend passionately.

JC moved his hands down Brian's back and into his boxers.  He kneaded the
flesh there and pulled the young man closer too him.  Every time he and
Brian fooled around was hotter than the last.  And this time promised to be
even better than the last.  JC started to kiss Brian's neck and shoulders
as he gently removed the clothing that stood in his way of the ultimate
goal. Brian's six-inch cock was shining with precum.  JC moved his hand
slightly over the head, massaging the clear fluid into the skin.  His mouth
continued on its journey downward, only briefly stopping at the pink
dime-sized nipples on Brian's chest.

Brian felt himself falling into bliss.  JC was a fast lover, but a good
one.  He never lingered to long on one spot, but brought pleasure to
Brian's lithe body wherever he touched.  Brian shuddered as JC neared the
ultimate goal.  He felt his lover's weight lift off of him and his hot
breath on the head of his dick.  When JC lowered his hot, wet mouth onto
the hard, quivering flesh, Brian gasped in ecstasy.

"Ohmigod!"  That was the only word the young man could manage to get out of
his mouth.  The sensations his body was experiencing were earth shattering.

JC sucked on the head for a few minutes then released the organ.  He licked
it all the way from the base to the cum hole, which was now seeping precum
profusely.  He massaged Brian's balls with one hand, and then began to lick
the head of the prick like it was an ice-cream cone.  He lapped up the
precum and then began to devour the cock again.

Brian moved his hands down to the sides of JC's head and ran his fingers
through his lover's hair.  He closed his eyes and moaned.  "Oh yeah Josh,
suck my cock baby.  God it feels good.  Oh yeah, suck it."

JC turned up the suction a little and moved his hand lower.  He pushed
Brian's leg up until his knee met his chest.  His fingers moved gingerly
over Brian's perineum and then lower.  He ever so slightly touched Brian's
hole and traced the lips of it with the inquisitive finger.  Brian grunted
his agreement; so far gone in pleasure he just didn't care anymore.  JC
pushed against the muscle and wormed his way inside.

Brian almost jumped off the bed.  This feeling was even better than sucking
he was receiving.  His hand grabbed at the sheets on the bed and he yelled
at the top of his lungs.

"JC, I'm gonna cum!"

JC moved off the cock just in time to see the first white-hot geyser spray
into the air.  It landed on the headboard.  The second landed on Brian's
face and the rest pooled on his chest and abdomen.  JC moved up on the bed
and wiped the cum from Brian's face, his finger still lodged inside his
ass, still squirming.  Brian moved to kiss him, but JC moved away quickly.

"Did you really like that man?"

"Yes baby.  It was wonderful."

"Would you like to do it to me?"

Brian thought for a second.  He felt that since JC had given him such a
wonderful experience, it was only fair that he return the favor.  After
all, that was what people in love did.  At the same time though, Brian was
exhausted.  After the rehearsals, appearances, the concert, and then that
mind blowing orgasm, he didn't think he had the strength to give Josh the
same gift.

He looked up into his boyfriend's eyes.  "Honey, honestly I would love too,
but I don't think I am physically capable at this point.  I hope you
understand."

JC was barely able to contain his anger.  The only reason he had gone down
on Brian was so that he could get some action too.  Frankly the things that
he and Brian had been doing were beginning to bore him.  However, he knew
that if he blew up at Brian, there was no way in hell he was ever going to
be able to get what it was he wanted.  He looked down at Brian and smiled,
despite himself.

"Sure man, it's cool.  I'm pretty tired myself.  I think I'm gonna take a
walk down the hall and talk to Lance for a minute.  I'll be back, ok?"

With that he kissed Brian on the forehead, threw on some clothes and walked
out of the room.  Brian lay in bed, a little confused over what had
happened.  He had wanted to lay and cuddle with JC for a few minutes and
then fall asleep in his arms.  However he was too tired to ponder this for
too long.  He went to the bathroom and wiped himself off with a wet
washcloth and then went back to bed and went to sleep.

Since that time, Brian had sucked JC off many times.  His first time doing
it had been the very next night in fact.  Although JC seemed to enjoy it
thoroughly, he was never affectionate after it was over, and never wanted
to cuddle.  Usually he would say thank you, or something with even less
true feeling, get out of bed, rinse off, dress, and leave the room for a
while.  They had only fell asleep after twice, and both times, JC was
actually a little drunk and fell asleep before it was over.  Although he
knew he loved JC, he was beginning to wonder of JC loved him.

"Hey Bri, are you coming or am I going to have to drag your tired ass out
of there?"

"Hold on Nicky, I'm on my way."  Brian wiped the tear that had formed on
his cheek and went into the hallway to meet his friend.

"You OK man?" AJ asked, concern showing in his face.

"Yeah.  Come on guys, let's go.  How many times are we going to be in
Anchorage?"

Brian started walking down toward the elevator.  Nick and AJ looked at each
other, knowing better than to believe what Brian had just told them.  They
shrugged it off and followed Brian into the elevator.


JC walked on the dark streets by himself.  He poured over in his brain what
his feelings were for Brian.  On the one hand, he enjoyed the things they
did together.  He had never had such intense orgasms with females.  When he
and Britney had fucked for the first time, it had been ok.  The thought
that he was sleeping with one of the most desirable girls in the world was
mind blowing.  However that was nothing compared to the intense feeling he
got from the first time Brian had gone down on him.

At the same time however, JC knew he wasn't gay.  He didn't love Brian, but
he knew Brian loved him.  He had thought he was in love with Britney, but
he was mistaken.  That was just a fling, and a way to lose his virginity.
He had lusted after the girl since they were on MMC together.  When they
finally had sex, it was great, but then it was all he wanted from her.
Pretty soon, he got bored with it and ended it.  He admitted to himself
that it ended badly.  Justin had raked him over the coals for it, but he
really just didn't care.

Now came the question.  He wanted very badly to fuck Brian.  However, he
knew that Brian wanted more of a commitment than he was willing to give.
Did he toy with Brian's emotions in order to play with his body?  It had
worked so far, but in order to get what he wanted he might have to lie.  It
wasn't like he hadn't done it before.  He had told Britney that he loved
her and he didn't.  He would usually say anything to get what he wanted.

As he continued to walk, he almost bumped right into a girl who walked out
in front of him.

"Hey watch where you're going!" he yelled.

"Well excuse me.  I didn't know that this was your own private sidewalk!"

JC looked at the girl.  She was pretty and had huge tits.  She was also
apparently very aware of her attractiveness.  She didn't try to hide
anything and considering how cold it was, she was wearing very little to
cover up.

The girl examined JC.  He noticed that she stopped and stared at his crotch
for a little bit and then looked back at his face.  She smiled and JC
smiled back.

"What you doing out by yourself tonight anyway hot stuff?" she asked him.

"Just walking and thinking.  Had to get away from my friends.  How about
you?"

She flipped her hair back and smiled again.  "The same.  Hoping to meet up
with someone.  Have I found what I was looking for?"

JC smile to himself.  He reached out his hand for hers and put it on his
dick.  "What do you think baby?" he said.

She grabbed him through the fabric of the pants and stroked the hard organ.
JC moaned deep in his throat and pulled the girl closer to him.  He slipped
his hand up her skirt and felt bare skin where her stockings ended.  He
traveled a little further and found his goal.  He stroked the girl's clit
and started to finger fuck her.

"Let's go.  I know who you are and people will recognize you out here," she
said.  My apartment is right down the street."

They disentangle themselves and walked the two blocks to her building.  As
soon as they were in the door, they began to undress.

"Not that it matters," JC said as his sweater was pulled over his head
revealing his well developed chest, "but what is your name?"

"Tiffany Price," she said as JC released the latch on the bra.  "Now are
you gonna fuck or are we gonna talk?"

The couple fell onto the bed, completely nude and fucked for all night
long.  It was morning when JC finally gathered his clothes up and went
home.  He and Tiffany did exchange numbers.  He knew she would be calling
again soon.

JC walked into the hotel room he was sharing with Brian and stripped down
again.  Brian was asleep and JC tried to climb into bed quietly, not
wanting to disturb him.  It didn't work.

"Where have you been honey?  I was getting worried."

"No where man, just took a long walk alone.  Had to sort some things out."

"Anything you want to talk about?"

"No not really.  Did you have fun with Nick and AJ?"

Brian yawned.  "Yeah, but would have had more fun with you.  Hey I wanted
to ask you.  What are you going to do on out week and a half off?"

JC shrugged.  He knew this was coming and that was why he had been avoiding
Brian ever since they had been given the news.  "I don't know.  Do you have
something in mind?"

"Well I thought you could come with me to Atlanta and spend some time with
me and Leighanne.  She would love to meet you.  She missed meeting you on
the last joint tour.  What do you say?"

"Sure, sounds like fun," JC lied.  He didn't want to go to Atlanta at all,
but maybe if he could work on Brian a little more he could get what he
wanted.  A trip home with him would be a good show of affection and Brian
would greatly appreciate it.

"Cool.  I'll call the airline tomorrow and finalize the plans.  JC?"

"What?"

"I love you."

"I love you too Brian, now go to sleep please."

Brian rolled over, the joy in his heart knowing no bounds.  He knew now
that he had been silly in doubting JC.  He smiled to himself and drifted
off again.

JC smiled too, knowing that once again he would get what he wanted.



Well that's the end of Chapter 3.  Hope you like it.  I know that some of
you don't and won't like my treatment of JC, but it will be ok.  He will
get his just rewards and so will Brian.  E-mail me with your thoughts,
comments, and criticisms at choralschol@yahoo.com.  Once again I apologize
for the tardiness in my posting of it and I promise the next two chapters
will be out within the next two weeks.  Thanks for reading!